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00:08 ♪ >>> HELLO AND WELCOME TO THE SEC
00:11 HOUR OF 3ABN "TODAY LIVE." OUR SPECIAL GUEST TONIGHT IS 00:15 HEATHER-DAWN SMALL, WHO IS THE DIRECT OF THE OF WOMEN'S 00:19 MINISTRIES FOR THE AGAIN MALL CONFERENCE OF THE SEVENTH-DAY 00:22 ADVENTIST CHURCH. WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT SOME 00:25 TOUCHY TOPICS -- SOME DIFFICULT TOPICS, AND WE'RE GOING TO 00:30 CONTINUE DOING THAT, AND WE WANT TO COME BACK AND ANSWER GLENA'S 00:36 QUESTION JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE, BUT BEFORE WE DO, AND BEFORE WE 00:40 GET THIS SECOND HOUR KICKED OFF, WE WOULD LIKE TO INVITE VONDA 00:44 BEERMAN BACK, AND JUST TO GIVE US A LITTLE TIME OF REFRESHING. 00:49 SHE IS GOING TO SING FOR US, "COME." 01:12 ♪ COME WHEN YOUR HEART IS HEAVY LADEN ♪ 01:15 ♪ FEELING LIKE THE JOY HAS FADED ♪ 01:19 ♪ JUST COME ♪ ♪ COME ♪ 01:28 ♪ BELIEVING EVERYTHING I TOLD YOU ♪ 01:32 ♪ HEAR THAT I LONG TO HOLD YOU ♪ ♪ JUST COME ♪ 01:46 ♪ COME ♪ ♪ LEAVE BEHIND THE MASK YOU HIDE 01:49 IN ♪ ♪ THERE IS SOMEONE TO CONFIDE 01:53 IN ♪ ♪ I KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE DONE ♪ 01:59 ♪ COME ♪ ♪ AND TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU ARE 02:06 HOPING ♪ ♪ MY HEART IS OPEN ♪ 02:09 ♪ JUST COME ♪ ♪ I KNOW WHO YOU ARE ♪ 02:25 ♪ DON'T TRY TO BE SOMEBODY ELSE ♪ 02:31 ♪ COME ♪ ♪ BELIEVING EVERYTHING I TOLD 02:37 YOU ♪ ♪ HEAR ALL THAT I LONG TO HOLD 02:40 YOU ♪ ♪ JUST COME ♪ 02:45 ♪ COME ♪ ♪ COME INTO THE JOY OF LIVING ♪ 02:51 ♪ KNOWING THAT YOUR SINS FORGIVEN ♪ 02:56 ♪ JUST COME ♪ 03:18 ♪ I KNOW WHO YOU ARE ♪ ♪ DON'T TRY TO BE SOMEBODY 03:26 ELSE ♪ ♪ COME ♪ 03:31 ♪ WHEN YOUR HEART IS HEAVY LADEN ♪ 03:34 ♪ FEELING LIKE THE JOY HAS FADED ♪ 03:37 ♪ WON'T YOU COME ♪ ♪ COME ♪ 03:45 ♪ COME INTO THE JOY OF LIVING ♪ ♪ KNOWING THAT YOUR SIN'S 03:52 FORGIVEN ♪ ♪ JUST COME ♪ 04:00 ♪ JUST COME ♪ 04:25 >> SUCH A PRECIOUS SISTER, PRECIOUS PERSON, AND SUCH A PRO 04:31 HOUSE VOICE. HER VOICE IS SO SOOTHING. 04:33 I JUST WANT TO TAKE A MOMENT AND TELL YOU SOMETHING THAT IS 04:37 PERSONAL -- I'LL TRY TO MAKE THIS REALLY FAST, BUT 04:41 SPECIFICALLY FOR YOU GLENNA, WE HAVE ALL -- I THINK MANY PEOPLE 04:44 HAVE BEEN IN A DARK PLACE, AND I GREW UP IN A VERY DYSFUNCTIONAL 04:49 ENVIRONMENT. MY MOTHER HAD TRIED TO COMMIT 04:52 SUICIDE SEVERAL TIMES, AND SHE WAS BIPOLAR, AND MY FATHER WAS 04:57 KILLED WHEN I WAS SIX, SO IT WAS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME TO 05:04 UNDERSTAND WHY MY MOTHER WOULD THINK ABOUT KILLING HERSELF AND 05:10 LEAVING TWO CHILDREN BEHIND. NOW I HAVE TO -- IN ALL 05:13 FAIRNESS, THE FIRST TIME, IT WAS BECAUSE SHE HAD BEEN DIAGNOSED 05:17 WITH CANCER, AND SHE JUST THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO SAVE 05:21 THE FAMILY MONEY AND -- AND PROBLEMS BY ENDING HERSELF. 05:27 BUT I GOT TO A POINT ONCE IN MY LIFE WHERE I HAD VERTIGO 24/7. 05:34 NEVER STOPPED. I WAS SPINNING LIKE A TOP FOR A 05:37 WHOLE YEAR, JUST ROUND AND ROUND. 05:40 COULDN'T FUNCION. IT WAS VERY DIFFICULT TO 05:44 FUNCTION. COULDN'T READ. 05:46 COULDN'T GET INTO THE WORD, AND I REMEMBER ONE NIGHT I GOT INTO 05:50 BED. MY HUSBAND WAS OUT OF TOWN. 05:52 I WAS ACTUALLY STAYING WITH MY IN LAWS. 05:57 MY MOTHER-IN-LAW HAD COLON CANCER AND JUST HAD SURGERY, MY 06:04 FATHER-IN-LAW WAS IN EARLY ALWAYS, AND I HAD A REBELLIOUS 06:08 15-YEAR-OLD NIECE THAT WE WERE ALSO CARING FOR, AND I GOT INTO 06:11 BED THAT NIGHT, AND I SAID OUT LOUD AS THE WORLD WAS STILL 06:16 SPINNING, I SAID NOW I KNOW WHY YOU DID IT, MOMMA. 06:21 AND WHAT I MEANT WAS, I HAD NEVER UNDERSTOOD THE 06:26 HOPELESSNESS MY MOTHER FELT, BUT I HAD GOTTEN TO THAT POINT TO 06:32 UNDERSTAND. IT WAS FEELING HOPELESS THAT 06:36 MAKES YOU CONSIDER SUICIDE. THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE 06:39 ANYMORE. NOW I DIDN'T GET TO THE POINT OF 06:43 FEELING SUICIDAL, BUT I HAD THE EMOTIONAL IDENTIFICATION WITH 06:49 THE WHY OF IT, AND THAT SCARED ME HALF TO DEATH. 06:53 >> YEAH. >> I MEAN, I WAS CRYING OUT TO 06:56 THE LORD, SAYING IF I CAN GET THIS LOW, WHAT IF I GET LOWER? 07:01 WHAT IF I DO THINK ABOUT THAT? AND IT WAS THE VERY NEXT DAY 07:06 THAT THE LORD IMPRESSED UPON ME THAT HIS WORD WAS LIFE TO ME, 07:12 AND TO GET INTO HIS WORD, AND TO GET HIS PROMISES, AND TO PRAY 07:18 HIS PROMISES BACK TO HIM AND TO SPEAK THE OVER MY LIFE, AND I 07:22 DID IT FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS, BUT I DIDN'T HAVE ANY FAITH, AND 07:28 THEN IT WAS -- ONE DAY, I WAS SAYING, LORD, DID YOU REALLY 07:34 IMPRESS ME TO DO THIS? OR IS THIS JUST MY OWN 07:40 IMAGINATION. THAT'S WHEN THE LORD LEAD ME TO 07:44 ISAIAH, 55:11, THAT HIS WORD DOESN'T RETURN TO HIM VOID. 07:48 HE LEAD ME TO JEREMIAH 1:12 SAYING HE WATCHES OVER HIS WORD 07:53 TO PERFORM IT. AND ROMANS 17, WHERE IT SAYS 07:57 THAT GOD IS A GOD WHO GIVES LIFE TO THE DEAD AND CALLS THAT ARE 08:04 NOT AS THOUGH THEY ALREADY WERE. IN OTHER WORDS HE KNOWS THE END 08:08 FROM THE BEGINNING, AND WHEN HE GIVES YOU THIS PROMISE, HE KNOWS 08:13 HE IS GOING TO BRING IT TO PASS, HE IS JUST WAITING FOR US TO 08:17 RECEIVE IT WITH FAITH. AND GLENNA, I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE 08:20 WHO HAS SEEN THE POWER OF GOD'S WORD. 08:23 >> THAT'S RIGHT. . 08:24 >> YOU HAVE A VERY TRAUMATIC STORY IN HOW GOD BROUGHT YOU OUT 08:30 OF DARKNESS THROUGH HIS WORD. >> YES. 08:38 I ALMOST -- I'M TEMPTED TO ASK YOU WHICH ONE. 08:39 BUT I -- [ LAUGHTER ] 08:41 >> I KNOW THE ONE YOU ARE REFERRING TO, AND I JUST WANT 08:44 GLENNA TO KNOW, IT DOESN'T -- IT DOESN'T ALWAYS END BECAUSE YOU 08:48 HAVE BEEN THROUGH ONE TRAGIC THING, AND YOU FEEL OKAY. 08:52 WELL, EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE FROM THIS POINT ON. 08:55 WHEN I LOST -- WHEN -- WHEN MY HUSBAND AND I LOST OUR SON, HE 09:00 WAS FOUR YEARS OLD, AND HE WAS THE JOY OF OUR LIFE. 09:04 WE HAD TWO CHILDREN AT THE TIME. MY DAUGHTER WAS TWO. 09:09 MY SON WAS FOUR. HE WAS ATTACKED BY A DOG, MY 09:14 FATHER'S DOG WHO WAS A DOBERMAN DOG AND HE DIED IN HOSPITAL NOT 09:21 BECAUSE THE ATTACK WAS SO SEVERE, BECAUSE HE HAD BEEN 09:24 BITTEN IN THE HEAD TWICE, BUT BECAUSE SOMEONE FORGOT TO ASK US 09:30 IF HE HAD EATEN ANYTHING THAT MORNING, AND HE HAD CORN FLAKES 09:33 AND MILK, AND DRANK SOME ORANGE JUICE, AND WHEN THEY PUT HIM TO 09:40 SLEEP IN THE SURGERY -- WELL, NOT IN THE SURGERY, IN THE ER, 09:44 THAT CAME UP AND WENT INTO HIS LUNGS AND HE STOPPED BREATHING, 09:48 AND THEY GOT HIS HEART STARTED AGAIN, AND HE STOPPED BREATHING 09:52 TWICE, AND THE THIRD TIME, THEY COULDN'T GET HIS HEART STARTED 09:56 AGAIN, AND SO, YES, THAT REALLY WAS A VERY DIFFICULT TIME FOR 10:01 US. I MEAN YOU KNOW -- AND I KNOW 10:03 FOR SOME PEOPLE THIS MAY SEEM STRANGE, BUT IT WAS -- IT WAS 10:08 THE WORST AND THE BEST EXPERIENCE THAT I HAVE HAD IN MY 10:12 LIFE. >> I -- I AGREE WITH YOU. 10:14 I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE GOING. >> EXACTLY. 10:17 PRIOR TO THAT, MY HUSBAND AND I HAD BECOME -- WE HAD GOTTEN TO 10:23 THE BRINK OF DIVORCE. TWO WEEKS BEFORE OUR SON DIED, 10:26 WE WERE READY FOR DIVORCE -- >> HE WAS A PASTOR AT THIS 10:31 POINT? >> NO, HE WASN'T. 10:33 AND HE HAD BEEN ARGUING AND FUSSING AND FIGHTING IT SEEMED 10:38 LIKE TO ME THE ENTIRE MARRIAGE. AT THAT TIME IT HAD ONLY BEEN 10:42 FIVE YEARS. AND WE SAT DOWN IN OUR ROOM ONE 10:45 RIGHT, AFTER THE KIDS WERE PUT TO BED, AND WE WERE TALKING 10:50 ABOUT SEPARATING, AND I SAID YES, I WANT A DIVORCE. 10:53 AND IN MY MIND AND MY HEART, I DIDN'T HAVE ANY FEELINGS LEFT 10:57 FOR MY HUSBAND. I SAID THAT'S IT. 11:00 I'M NIRN FINISHED. HE SAID GO, BECAUSE WE WERE 11:05 LIVING IN MY FATHER'S HOUSE. AND I THOUGHT HE COULD LEAVE, 11:08 AND MY KIDS AND I WOULD STAY WITH MY FATHER, AND AS WE TALKED 11:12 AND TALKED INTO THE NIGHT, INTO THE WEE HOURS, AFTER A LONG 11:16 PERIOD OF SILENCE, MY HUSBAND SAID THERE IS ONE THING WE 11:20 HAVEN'T DONE, AND IMMEDIATELY I KNEW WHAT HE WAS GOING TO SAY. 11:24 WE HAD BOTH GOING TO GROW UP SEVENTH-DAY ADVENTISTS. 11:28 AND I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO SAY WE NEED TO PRAY. 11:38 AND I SAID, YES, BUT I DON'T WANT TO DO IT. 11:42 HE SAID WHAT WOULD GOD WANT? AND I SAID I KNOW WHAT HE WANTS, 11:45 BUT I DON'T WANT THAT. THAT WAS HIS WILL, NOT MY WILL, 11:52 AND I FINALLY AGREED. AND I SAID, OKAY. 11:57 LET ME GET HIM OFF OF MY CASE, SO I SAID OKAY. 12:01 LET'S PRAY. SO WE KNELT BY THE BED AND WE 12:06 PRAYED. AND MY PRAYER WAS VERY SIMPLE 12:08 AND STRAIGHTFORWARD. IT WAS DEAR GOD, I DON'T LOVE 12:11 THIS MAN, I DON'T LIKE THIS MAN, I WANT TO LEAVE THIS MAN, AMEN. 12:15 THAT WAS IT. I DIDN'T WANT TO GO INTO 12:17 ANYTHING ELSE. AND MY HUSBAND PRAYED A VERY 12:21 NICE PRAYER, I'M SURE. BUT I KNEW WHAT MY PRAYER WAS. 12:24 AND THEN MY HUSBAND SAID MAYBE WE SHOULD DO THIS FOR TWO WEEKS. 12:27 AND I THOUGHT, OH, GOOD GRIEF, IF IT TAKES TWO WEEKS FOR ME TO 12:33 GET RID OF HIM, OKAY, LET'S DO IT. 12:37 SO EVERY NIGHT WE WOULD KNEEL BY THE BED AND MY PRAYER WAS THE 12:42 SAME. SOMEWHERE IN THE SECOND MOVE, MY 12:45 PRAYER CHANGED. AND IT WAS STILL, LORD, I DON'T 12:49 LOVE THIS MAN, I DON'T LIKE THIS MAN, I DON'T WANT TO STAY WITH 12:53 THIS MAN, BUT IF THERE IS SOMETHING THAT YOU CAN DO, THEN 12:58 OKAY. AND COMING TO THE END OF THE 13:00 SECOND WEEK, MY PRAYER CHANGED AGAIN, BECAUSE NOW IT WAS, BUT 13:05 IF YOU CAN LOVE HIM THROUGH ME, OKAY. 13:07 THE DAY AFTER THEN OF THOSE TWO WEEKS, MY SON DIED. 13:11 >> OH. >> NOW WE HAD RECOMMITTED OUR 13:15 LIFE TO THE LORD ON THE SECOND TO LAST NIGHT OF THOSE TWO WEEKS 13:21 OF PRAYER, AND WE SAID OKAY LORD, WE KNOW YOU WANT US TO 13:25 STAY TOGETHER, AND WE ARE GOING TO DEPEND ON YOU FOR THI. 13:33 TWO DAYS LATER, MY SON DIED. AND EVERYBODY ASKS WHY DOES GOD 13:40 ALLOW THAT STUFF? SO WE WENT THROUGH THAT PHRASE, 13:44 AND IT WAS A VERY DIFFICULT TIME, ESPECIALLY FOR MY HUSBAND, 13:48 BECAUSE WHEN A CHILD DIES, EVERYBODY CIRCLES THE MOTHER, 13:52 AND THE POOR FATHER IS LEFT OUT THERE SOMEWHERE. 13:54 AND MY HUSBAND WENT THROUGH SOME VERY DIFFICULT TIMES. 13:58 HE HAD TO WITNESS MY SON'S AUTOPSY, BECAUSE IT WAS 14:01 CONSIDERED A POLICE CASE, AND IT WAS JUST A LOT OF STUFF, AND I 14:05 FOUND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST AND I HAVE TO TELL YOU, 14:09 THROUGH A LITTLE BOOK CALLED "TO KNOW GOD," THAT MY SISTER-IN-LAW 14:14 SENT FOR ME, AND WE WERE IN TRINIDAD THEN.-SHE WAS IN BARBADOS. 14:26 >> WHAT WAS THE TITLE? >> "TO KNOW GOD." 14:30 IT IS STILL IN CHRISTIAN BOOKSTORES, AND YOU CAN GET IT 14:35 ON AMAZON.COM, OF COURSE. BUT IT TAUGHT ME SOMETHING I HAD 14:41 NEVER BEEN TAUGHT BEFORE, HOW TO HAVE A DAY BY DAY RELATIONSHIP 14:46 WITH GOD. I KNEW FAMILY WORSHIP. 14:49 I KNEW GOING TO CHURCH ON SABBATH DAY. 14:52 I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS TO SPEND TIME IN THE WORD BETWEEN 14:58 ME AND GOD. I HADN'T BEEN TAUGHT THAT, SO 15:01 THAT OPENED UP A WHOLE NEW THING FOR ME. 15:04 BUT THE DEVIL DOESN'T LIKE FOR THINGS TO GO -- YOU KNOW, THINGS 15:08 COME IN THAT SHOULDN'T BE IN THERE. 15:10 SO IN THE YEARS AFTER THAT -- AS TIME PASSED, I SHARED THAT WITH 15:15 MY HUSBAND. WE HAD A WHOLE NEW SPIRITUAL 15:18 TURN AROUND. WE WERE LIKE NEW CHRISTIANS, 15:20 LIKE WE HAD JUST BEEN BAPTIZED. IT WAS LIKE A NEW EXPERIENCE, 15:27 AND IT WAS SO AMAZING THAT THE WAY GOD CHANGED OUR LIVES AT 15:33 THAT TIME -- >> YEAH. 15:39 IT WAS SOMETHING THAT WHEN YOU GET THE WORD OF GOD IN YOU, WHEN 15:47 YOU HAVE THE -- THE KNOWLEDGE THAT GOD WANTS A PERSONAL 15:54 RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU, AND THAT THAT'S AVAILABLE TO YOU HAVE, 15:58 THAT IS LIFE CHANGING. >> YEAH, BUT I WAS STILL CAUGHT 16:03 UP IN THE WHAT MUST I DO TO BE SAVED? 16:07 >> OH YEAH. >> SO I HAD THAT DAILY 16:12 RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. I SHARED IT WITH MY HUSBAND, NOW 16:15 HE HAD IT. BUT I STILL FELT WHAT MUST I BE 16:20 DOING? THERE IS SOMETHING I MUST BE 16:22 DOING. AND SALVATION BY WORK WAS STILL 16:26 VERY MUCH ENGRAINED IN MY MIND. YEARS LATER -- THIS WAS IN 1990, 16:32 MY SON DIED IN 1985, 13 YEARS AFTER THAT, SOMETHING HAPPENED 16:37 THAT COMPLETELY BROKE ME, AND IT WASN'T -- IT WASN'T BECAUSE OF A 16:42 BIG TRIAL THAT HAD COME. IT WAS LITTLE THINGS THAT CAME 16:45 ALONG THE WAY, THAT ALL PILED UP, LITTLE TRIALS, THAT PILED 16:51 UP, ADDED TO WHICH, I HAD NOT BEEN LOOKING AFTER MYSELF. 16:54 I HAD BEEN SO BUSY WORKING FOR THE LORD, BECAUSE WAS IN THE 16:59 CHURCH -- I MEAN WORKING IN THE CHURCH. 17:03 I WAS SO BUSY WORKING FOR THE LORD, THAT MY TIME WITH HIM WAS 17:09 NEGLECTED. TOO BUSY, GOT TO DO THIS, GOT TO 17:12 DO THAT. >> SURE. 17:13 >> SO PEOPLE WILL SAY, WELL, THE DEVIL BROUGHT ALL OF THIS STUF. 17:18 YEAH, BUT I CONTRIBUTED, BECAUSE SOMETIMES WE GIVE THE DEVIL THE 17:23 TOOLS HE NEEDS TO GET TO US. MY HEALTH WAS NOT IN GOOD 17:28 CONDITION. WAS WORKING, WORKING, WORKING, 17:31 AND ONE INCIDENT HAPPENED WITH A LITTLE BOY IN OUR CHURCH, WHO 17:35 HAD -- THE CHURCH THAT MY HUSBAND WAS PASTORING THEN, WHO 17:38 HAD HAD AN ACCIDENT AND HAD DAMAGED HIS HEAD, AND, YOU KNOW, 17:43 EVERYBODY THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO DIE, AND WE PRAYED FOR HIM, 17:46 AND HE LIVED, AND HE WAS MAYBE ABOUT 11 OR 12, AND HIS MOTHER 17:53 CAME TO CHURCH ONE MONTH AFTER HE WAS UP AND ABOUT, GAV A 17:58 TESTIMONY IN CHURCH, AND THE DEVIL WHISPERED IN MY EAR, HOW 18:05 COME GOD SAVED THIS WOMAN'S SON WHEN YOU PRAYED FOR HER, AND 18:10 WHEN YOU PRAYED FOR YOUR SON, HE DIDN'T. 18:14 THIS WAS 13 YEARS LATER, BUT SPIRITUALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND 18:18 PHYSICALLY, I WAS IN NO PLACE TO DEAL WITH THAT ONE SENTENCE. 18:23 AND I BECAME ANGRY AGAINST GOD. I DIN'T WANT TO TALK TO HIM. 18:26 I DIDN'T WANT TO PRAY, AND FOR MONTHS I DIDN'T. 18:30 BUT MY HEALTH GOT WORSE AND WORSE, AND EVENTUALLY MY DAD AND 18:34 MY HUSBAND SENT ME ON A TRIP FROM TRINIDAD TO CALIFORNIA TO 18:38 STAY WITH MY SISTER AND SAID GO AND GET SOME REST, AND MY SISTER 18:42 IS A PSYCHOLOGIST, AND I DID NOT WANT TO STAY WITH MY SISTER, SO 18:46 I MADE THEM PROMISE THAT THEY WOULD NOT TELL HER WHAT WAS 18:50 HAPPENING WITH ME, BECAUSE IF SHE BEGAN TO CRAWL THROUGH MY 18:53 BRAIN, I WAS GOING TO LEAVE AND COME BACK HOME. 18:57 SO THEY DIDN'T TELL HER ANYTHING, AND I REMEMBER WHEN I 18:59 GOT THERE, I -- I HAD BOUGHT SOME GIFTS FROM THE ISLAND FROM 19:05 TRINIDAD FOR MY SISTER, AND SHE HAD A NICE GIFT BAG FOR ME. 19:11 NOW I REMEMBER THE NIGHT BEFORE I LEFT AS I WAS PACKING MY 19:15 SUITCASE, I PICKED UP MY BIBLE BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS BY MY BED, 19:21 I IGNORED IT, BUT IT WAS THERE. I WAS PUTTING IT IN MY SUITCASE, 19:26 AND THEN I THOUGHT, I DON'T NEED THIS. 19:28 AND PUT IT BACK. AND I CLOSED MY SUITCASE AND 19:33 LEFT. PEOPLE THINK YOU CAN RUN FROM 19:36 GOD, BUT YOU CAN'T. AND I GOT TO HER HOME, AND AFTER 19:40 WE HAD MET AND EATEN AND WE SAID GOOD NIGHT, AND SHE GAVE ME THE 19:45 GIFT BAG, AND I GIVE HER GIFTS. I SAT ON THE BED WITH THIS GIFT 19:50 BAG, AND I THOUHT LET ME SEE WHAT MY SISTER HAS GIVEN ME. 19:54 AND IN IT WAS THREE BOOKS. FIRST WAS A BOOK BY A CHRISTIAN 20:02 AUTHOR CALLED "LORD HEAL MY HURTS," AND THE SECOND WAS 20:11 "DISAPPOINTMENT WITH GOD", AND BOY WAS I DISAPPOINTED WITH GOD, 20:15 AND THE THIRD WAS A BIBLE. AND WHEN I SAW THAT BIBLE, I WAS 20:20 SO ANGRY, AND I JUST LOOKED AT THAT BIBLE, AND I SAID, OKAY, 20:24 LORD, I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU, BUT YOU OBVIOUSLY WANT TO 20:27 TALK TO ME, SO WE'RE GOING TO TALK, AND THE NEXT MORNING WHEN 20:31 MY SISTER WENT TO WORK, I WAS THERE WITH HER FOR A FEW WEEKS, 20:35 FOR THE FIRST TWO WEEKS EVERY MORNING WHEN SHE WENT TO WORK, I 20:40 WOULD GO IN MY ROOM, CLOSE THE DOOR, CLOSE THE BLINDS AND SIT 20:44 ON THAT BED AND SCREAM AT GOD. I TOLD HIM HE DIDN'T LOVE ME. 20:49 I TOLD HIM HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME. 20:51 I TOLD HIM HE HAD FAVORITES, I SAID ALL SORTS OF THINGS TO GOD, 20:59 AND THANKFULLY HE IS A COMPASSIONATE GOD. 21:06 I DID IT EVERY MORNING. WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD NOTHING 21:08 MORE TO SAY, I WOULD GET UP AND LEAVE THE BIBLE ON THE BED. 21:14 I NEVER OPENED IT, I JUST PUT IT THERE, BECAUSE IT REPRESENTED 21:19 HIM. AND AT THE END OF TWO WEEKS I 21:22 HAD NOTHING MORE TO SAY, AND FINALLY, I SAID, OKAY, LORD, 21:26 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO SAY TO ME? AND I OPENED UP HIS WORD AND 21:33 STARTED TO READ, AND GOD JUST POINTED ME IN THE RIGHT PLACE. 21:36 AND HIS WORD HEALED MY HEART. >> AMEN. 21:39 >> I WAS TOO ANGRY, BUT I HAD TO GET MY ANGRY OUT. 21:43 >> IT TOOK THE WORD TO HEAL YOU. >> SOMETIMES WE HOLD ANGER IN, 21:49 AND IT'S A LIKE A BLOCKED PIPE. THINK OF A DRAINPIPE FROM GOD'S 21:53 HEART TO YOUR HEART, AND IT'S CLOGGED WITH ALL OF THIS ANGER 21:57 YOU HAVE AGAINST GOD AND ALL OF THIS DISAPPOINTMENT, AND GOD 22:03 WANTS TO LOVE YOU, BUT HE CAN'T, BECAUSE YOU HAVE ALL OF THAT 22:06 STUFF IN THERE. WHEN I LET IT OUT, THE PIPE WAS 22:11 CLEARED NOW, AND GOD COULD REACH DOWN TO ME, AND HE JUST BEGAN TO 22:15 HEAL AND MINISTER TO MY HEART, AND THAT WAS THE BEGINNING OF ME 22:19 KNOWING AND UNDERSTANDING WHAT IT WAS TO BE COMFORTED BY GOD. 22:23 >> AMEN. AMEN. 22:25 HE IS SUCH AN AWESOME GOD. >> OH, YES HE IS. 22:28 >> AND I HOPE -- I HOPE FOR GLENNA, IF YOU ARE STILL 22:33 LISTENING, GLENNA, THAT YOU LET GOD IN. 22:36 >> THAT'S RIGHT. >> HE CAN HEAL YOU. 22:41 THIS THE IS -- I WANT TO READ A FEW MORE. 22:45 THIS IS FROM WILLARD, I KNOW YOU ARE WOMEN'S MINISTRIES BUT DOES 22:55 ENDITNOW.ORG HAVE RESOURCES FOR YOUTH? 22:57 ESPECIALLY GANG VIOLENCE. WE HAVE HAD A LOT OF YOUNG MEN 23:02 KILLING EACH OTHER IN OUR SMALL TOWN. 23:05 ANY RESOURCES WOULD BE A BLESSING. 23:08 >> OH, WONDERFUL. NEEDS TO GO TO ENDITNOW.ORG 23:13 WEBSITE, GO UNDER THE RESOURCES TAB, AND LOOK AT THE RESOURCES 23:17 WHICH WE HAVE THERE, BECAUSE YOU KNOW -- WHAT THEY NEED TO BE 23:20 DOING IS DOING WHAT WE CALL AN END IT NOW CAMPAIGN. 23:25 THEY NEED TO PUT THOSE TABLES OUT THERE, HAVE THOSE SIGN-UP 23:28 SHEETS, HAVE THE SIGNS. DO A MARCH IN THE STREET. 23:31 THEY NEED TO BE DOING SEMINARS, WHICH WE HAVE ON ANGER 23:36 MANAGEMENT, AND BULLYING, AND ALL OF THESE -- THEY REALLY NEED 23:40 TO BOMBARD THEIR TOWN WITH THIS. AND SO HE IS GOING TO FIND A LOT 23:44 OF GOOD RESOURCES THERE. >> AMEN. 23:46 WE HAVE SEVERAL MORE CHALLENGING ONES. 23:49 HERE IS ANONYMOUS FROM MAINE. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU CAN'T 23:54 SLEEP AT NIGHT AND YOUR THOUGHTS ARE GOING HERE, THERE, AND 23:59 EVERYWHERE, AND IT MAKES YOU DEPRESSED? 24:01 PRAY FOR ME. >> BEEN THERE. 24:03 [ LAUGHTER ] >> IT'S AMAZING. 24:06 BECAUSE I AM -- I SAY A RECOVERING WORKAHOLIC. 24:12 I USED TO SLEEP WITH A PEN AND PAD BY MY BED, BECAUSE I WAS BE 24:17 JUMPING UP DURING THE NIGHT, BECAUSE MY THOUGHTS -- JUST EVEN 24:21 GETTING UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, MY THOUGHTS WOULD JUT-pGO RACING. 24:25 AND I EVEN -- ONE OF THE WAYS THEY STOPPED IT, WAS I BEGAN 24:29 LISTENING TO BIBLE STORIES. I'M SIRIUS, -- SERIOUS, I WAS 24:38 LISTENING TO YOUR STORY HOUR, AND I WOULD LISTEN THOSE BIBLE 24:44 STORIES, AND YOU KNOW WHAT IT DID, WHY I STARTED DOING 24:50 THAT -- WELL, I WAS IMPRESSED TO DO IT, BY THE LORD, IT TOOK THE 24:56 FOCUS AWAY FROM MY JUMBLED THOUGHTS, TO WHAT I WAS 25:01 LISTENING TO, AND I WOULD FALL ASLEEP. 25:03 AND I DID THAT -- I HAVE TO TELL YOU, IT WAS A FEW YEARS THAT I 25:07 DID THAT EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. AND MY POOR HUSBAND WAS SO 25:13 THRILLED WHEN I GOT EARPHONES, YOU KNOW, TO STICK IN MY EAR, SO 25:17 THAT HE DIDN'T HAVE TO HEAR IT ANYMORE. 25:20 I DON'T DO IT ANYMORE, OF COURSE. 25:22 BECAUSE YOU DO THAT TOO LONG, IT IS REALLY GOING TO AFFECT YOUR 25:25 SLEEP AGAIN, BUT I HAD TO SLOW MY THOUGHTS DOWN, AND I DIDN'T 25:29 KNOW HOW TO DO IT. MY HUSBAND SAD DO DEEP 25:33 BREATHING. FOCUS ON THIS. 25:34 NONE OF THAT WORKED, BUT WHEN I STARTED LISTENING TO THE BIBLE 25:38 STORIES, AND THEN I SWITCHED TO LISTENING TO THE BIBLE, AND THEN 25:41 I HAD TO GO BACK TO THE BIBLE STORIES, BECAUSE THE BIBLE WAS 25:44 SO INTERESTING IN CERTAIN AREAS,-pIT WOKE ME UP. BUT BECAUSE I WAS LISTENING TO 25:50 THE SAME BIBLE STORIES OVER AND OVER, I KNEW WHAT WAS COMING, SO 25:53 IT WASN'T SO INTERESTING THAT IT WOULD KEEP ME AWAKE. 25:56 IT WAS ACTUALLY KIND OF BORING, BUT IT KEPT MY MIND FOCUSED OFF 26:01 OF MYSELF AND MY THOUGHTS, SO THAT'S ONE SUGGESTION I WOULD 26:06 THINK OF. [ LAUGHTER ] 26:07 >> MUSIC IS GOING TO WORK, YOU KNOW? 26:09 >> I WILL MAKE THIS SHORT. I HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM WITH 26:12 RACING THOUGHTS, AND IF I GET TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, THAT'S IT. 26:16 BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I DO, I SPELL -- I COUNT BACKWARDS FROM 26:24 7,777, AND I SPELL IT. LET ME EXPLAIN. 26:27 WITH EACH BREATH. [ LAUGHTER ] 26:30 >> SO I WOULD GO, S, E, V, E,N -- SO WITH EACH BREATH, AND 26:39 IT IS SO REPETITIOUS AND BORING THAT I CAN NEVER GET VERY FAR. 26:44 >> OKAY. >> OKAY. 26:48 THIS IS -- I HAVE -- THE DEPRESSION RECOVERY WORKBOOK AND 26:55 DVD'S, BUT I CAN'T GET MOTIVATED TO EVEN DO THAT PROGRAM, AND I 27:00 SURELY CAN'T AFFORD HIS PROGRAM, YET THE SADNESS IS BECOMING SO 27:04 MUCH STRONGER. I WILL BE FINE, AND THEN IT IS 27:07 LIKE A DARKNESS COMES OVER ME. I HAVE BEEN ON ANTI-DEPRESSANTS 27:22 AND THEY MAKE ME LETHARGIC. I KNOW JESUS IS DOING SOON TO 27:28 TAKE US HOME. BUT I NEED UNTIL THEN. 27:33 >> I AM NOT A DOCTOR, BUT I HAVE TRIED DIFFERENT -- THROUGH THE 27:37 YEARS, I HAVE HAD TO SWITCH FROM ONE TO ANOTHER AS THE YEARS GO 27:42 BY, NUMBER 1, BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT AS EFFECTIVE AS THEY ARE IF 27:45 YOU STAY ON THE SAME ONE OVER AND OVER, PLUS AS TIME HAS GONE 27:51 BY, THEY HAVE IMPROVED MANY OF THESE DRUGS. 27:53 BUT I WOULD SAY TO HER, DON'T STOP TRYING UNTIL YOU FINE ONE 27:57 THAT WORKS, BECAUSE THERE MAY BE ONE OUT HERE THAT IS GOING TO 28:02 WORK FOR HER, WITHOUT GIVING HER THE FEELING OF LETHARGY, AND 28:07 JUST -- NOT HAVING ANY MOTIVATION. 28:10 BUT IT TAKES UP TO THREE MONTHS FOR THOSE DRUGS TO KICK IN. 28:13 PEOPLE THINK, I'LL TAKE IT, AND IN A WEEK'S TIME -- NO, IT TAKES 28:18 ABOUT THREE MONTHS FOR THEM TO REALLY TAKE EFFECT. 28:21 >> OKAY. NOW THIS ONE, AND I'M SO GLAD I 28:25 READ IT TO THE END, BECAUSE SHE SAYS DON'T MENTION MY NAME AND 28:29 HER NAME IS AT THE TOP OF THIS. SO THIS IS A MOTHER WHO IS VERY 28:34 CONCERNED FOR HER DAUGHTER. SHE SAID MY DAUGHTER IS IN HER 28:38 50S. SHE HAS HAD SOME DARK 28:40 EXPERIENCES IN HER YOUNG YEARS, EVEN INVOLVING THE OCCULT, AND I 28:44 THINK RAPE. OF COURSE IT IS A CLOUD OVER 28:48 HERE. SHE HAS TRIED THERAPIES AND ALL 28:50 OF THAT. SHE REJECTS THE LORD. 28:52 REALLY DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT GOD, AND SHE SAID 28:56 SHE -- SOME THINGS HAPPENED IN THE CHURCH. 29:00 SHE IS AGAINST ADVENTISTS. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING I CAN DO 29:05 FORMER. SHE HOLDS DOWN A GOOD NURSING 29:08 JOB, ET CETERA, BUT WHAT CAN I DO BESIDES PRAY? 29:13 IS THERE A BOOK THAT YOU CAN THINK OF, OR IS THERE . . . 29:20 >> THERE IS NOT ONE BOOK THAT I CAN THINK OF PARTICULARLY THAT 29:23 IS GOING TO HELP HER TO HELP HER DAUGHTER, AND I'M SAYING THAT, 29:29 BECAUSE AGAIN, FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCE, MY OWN DAUGHTER HAS 29:33 BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME VERY DIFFICULT TIMES IN THE PAST FEW 29:37 YEARS, PHYSICAL CHALLENGES, HEALTH CHALLENGES, AND, YOU 29:41 KNOW, I HAVE JUST PETITIONED THE THROWN OF GRACE ALL THE TIME. 29:45 I HAVE FRIENDS WHO PRAY FOR HER IN DIFFERENT PARTS OF THE WORLD 29:49 CHURCH, AND I CRY OUT TO THEM, I'LL SEND AN EMAIL AND SAY GUYS, 29:54 I REALLY NEED YOU PRAYING. SHE HAS A TEST TOMORROW, AND I 29:58 REALLY NEED YOU COVERING HER IN PRAYER. 30:00 AND I'M GOING TO SAY TO THIS MOM, SHE NEEDS TO GET NOT ONLY 30:05 HER PRAYERS, BUT I BELIEVE GOD HEARS OUR PRAYERS, BUT MORE 30:09 PRAYER, MORE POWER. I THINK SHE NEEDS TO HAVE 30:13 OVERPEOPLE AS WELL WHO ARE PRAYING AND INTERCEDING ON HER 30:17 BEHALF. >> AND WE WILL PRAY FOR THIS 30:19 DAUGHTER IN JUST A MOMENT. AND WE HAVE SEVERAL PRAYER 30:22 REQUESTS HERE. THAT'S AN INTERESTING QUESTION. 30:25 LET ME SEE. THIS ONE SAYS -- WELL, LET'S 30:29 JUST TAKE A MOMENT. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO ARE 30:33 SUFFERING DEPRESSION, OR HAVE A LOVED ONE WHO IS SUFFERING 30:37 DEPRESSION, AND THEN WE ALSO WANT TO PRAY FOR THIS ONE FROM 30:41 TRINIDAD TOBAGO, THE YOUNG LADY THAT IS 29 YEARS OLD, IS GETTING 30:50 TEST RESULTS FROM FOR MYELOMA. WHY DON'T YOU PRAY. 30:54 >> FATHER HOW WONDERFUL AND BLESSED WE ARE THAT WE CAN CALL 30:58 UPON YOUR NAME ANY TIME, AND YOU HEAR, AND YOU ANSWER. 31:03 SO NOW WE COME AT THIS MOMENT, AND WE THINK OF THE PEOPLE, THE 31:07 MANY PEOPLE WHO HAVE WRITTEN IN AND CALLED, AND ESPECIALLY WE'RE 31:11 THINKING ABOUT THIS YOUNG LADY WHO IS 29 YEARS OLD, AND WHO IS 31:16 DEALING WITH A HUGE HEALTH CHALLENGE. 31:18 I THINK OF THE MOM WHOSE DAUGHTER HAS BEEN THROUGH SO 31:22 MANY DIFFERENT THINGS, AND DOESN'T WANT TO TURN TO YOU 31:25 BECAUSE OF EXPERIENCES SHE HAS HAD, AND I THINK OF GLENNA, WHO 31:29 WE TALKED ABOUT EARLIER. FATHER THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE, 31:34 MEN, WOMEN, YOUNG PEOPLE WHO DESPERATELY NEED TO KNOW YOU, 31:38 AND WHO NEED TO FEEL YOUR FEELINGS, YOUR HEALING TOUCH IN 31:43 THEIR LIVES, AND SO FATHER IN THE NAME OF JESUS RIGHT NOW, 31:49 LORD, I PRAY THAT YOUR HOLY SPIRIT COMES CLOSE TO EACH OF 31:53 THESE PERSONS WHEREVER THEY MAY BE IN THIS WORLD. 31:57 EVEN THOUGH WHO HAVEN'T SENT A REQUEST, BUT WHO NEED TO FEEL 32:00 THAT TOUCH, TO FEEL THAT WARMTH, THAT SAFENESS, THAT PEACE IN 32:05 THEIR LIVES. I'M PRAYING THAT RIGHT NOW, AND 32:08 I'M PRAYING IT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HEARING, AND EVEN 32:11 BEFORE WE PRAYED, YOU WERE ANSWERING, AND I THANK YOU, 32:15 LORD, FOR WHAT YOU ARE DOING, AND WHAT YOU WILL CONTINUE TO 32:19 DO, BECAUSE YOU ARE THE LORD WHO SEES AND PROVIDES. 32:22 >> AMEN. >> AND I THANK YOU IN JESUS 32:24 NAME. >> AND FATHER, WE JUST LINGER 32:28 ONE MOMENT LONGER, WE JUST CLAIM THE PROMISE OF PSALMS 3:3, THAT 32:35 YOU ARE THE LIFTER OF OUR HEARD, AND I JUST ASK IN THE NAME OF 32:40 JESUS THAT YOU WILL RIGHT NOW, JUST CUP YOUR HAND UNDER 32:44 THE -- THOSE WHO ARE DOWNCAST, CUP YOUR HAND UNDER THEIR CHIN, 32:50 AND LIFT THEIR FACE, AND GET THEIR ATTENTION ON YOU, AND 32:54 FATHER, I THANK YOU THAT YOU PROMISE IN ISAIAH 26:3, THAT AS 33:00 WE FOCUS ON YOU, TRUSTING IN YOU, KEEPING OUR EYES FOCUSED ON 33:05 YOU, THAT YOU PROMISE TO GIVE US PERFECT PEACE. 33:09 AND FATHER, THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO NEED YOUR PEACE, AND 33:14 THEY NEED THE ASSURANCE OF KNOWING YOU ARE THERE WITH THEM. 33:18 >> YES. >> SO I JUST ASK FOR THAT NOW, 33:21 AND I THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR THE ANSWER TO THE PRAYER IN 33:25 FAITH. >> AMEN. 33:26 >> AMEN. ALL RIGHT. 33:27 THIS IS AN INTERESTING QUESTION, AND IT CAME FROM A MISSIONARY 33:35 WHO SAYS WHAT HAS SEVENTH-DAY ADVENTIST MINISTRIES DONE ABOUT 33:41 THE MUTILATION OF WOMEN IN ETHIOPIA? 33:45 THIS IS FROM ARIZONA, AND THE CALLER WAS A FORMER MISSIONARY 33:49 IN ETHIOPIA. >> I'M NOT SURE WHAT SHE MEANS 33:52 BY MUTILATION, BUT THE WORD MUTILATION IS NORMALLY 33:58 ASSOCIATED WITH FEMALE GENITAL MUTILATION, AND THIS IS A 34:02 PROBLEM NOT ONLY IN ETHIOPIA, BUT MANY OF THE AFRICA 34:07 COUNTRIES. IT'S ALSO IN PARTS OF THE MIDDLE 34:10 EAST. IT'S A PROBLEM IN PARTS OF ASIA, 34:14 SO YES, FEMALE GENITAL MUTILATION IS ONE OF THE ISSUES 34:18 THAT WE FOCUS ON. AND IN AFRICA, I KNOW FOR SURE 34:22 IT IS ONE OF THE MAIN PROBLEMS THAT OUR WOMEN'S MINISTRIES 34:25 FOCUS ON TO BRING AN AWARENESS TO IT, BUT YOU KNOW, IT'S 34:30 AMAZING WHAT GOD DOES, BECAUSE I KNOW OF ONE WOMAN -- WHO WOMEN 34:34 THAT I CAN THINK OF WHO HAS LEFT THEIR HOME COUNTRY IN THE 34:40 NORTHERN HEMISPHERE AND GONE TO LIVE IN SOME F O THESE 34:46 COUNTRIES, LIVE IN THEVILLAGES WHERE THESE YOUNG GIRLS ARE 34:51 DEALING WITH THIS MUTILATION, AND TRAIN AND EDUCATION -- 34:53 >> WHAT IS THE PURPOSE? IS THIS LIKE -- 34:59 >> ANOTHER WORD FOR IT IS FEMALE CIRCUMCISION, WHEN A GIRL 35:04 REACHES A CERTAIN AGE, IT DEPENDS ON WHAT CULTURE, BUT 35:08 IT'S NORMALLY DONE WHEN SHE IS VERY YOUNG, IT COULD BE 35:16 SIX -- SEVEN, EIGHT YEARS OF AGE, AND THE CLITORIS IS CUT 35:24 OFF, AND THE LABIA IS STITCHED TOGETHER SO THERE CAN BE NO 35:30 SEXUAL INTERCOURSE BEFORE SHE IS READY TO BE MARRIED. 35:38 THESE THINGS ARE NOT DONE IN HOSPITALS, THEY ARE DONE WITH 35:41 KNIVES AND THINGS THAT ARE NOT STERILIZED. 35:45 MANY OF THESE YOUNG GIRLS GET SERIOUS INFECTIONS. 35:53 MANY DIE BECAUSE OF THESE INFECTIONS, AND JUST BEFORE SHE 35:56 IS MARRIED, THAT OPENING IS CUT OPEN, SO THAT SHE CAN HAVE 36:02 INTERCOURSE AND ALSO HAVE CHILDREN. 36:04 THE PROBLEM IS, WHEN YOU CLOSE UP THAT AREA, YOU CAN GET ALL 36:08 KINDS OF INFECTIONS WHETHER IT'S VAGINA INFECTIONS, OR URINARY 36:22 TRACT INFECTIONS -- >> AND THIS IS A WIDESPREAD 36:27 PRACTICE? >> THIS IS WIDESPREAD. 36:28 AND IT'S NOT JUST IN SOUTHERN HEMISPHERE COUNTRIES, BECAUSE OF 36:34 THE MOVEMENT OF PEOPLE FROM ONE PART OF THE WORLD TO THE NET. 36:38 IT'S HERE IN THEUNITED STATES AND CANADA AND EUROPE, WHEN YOU 36:41 HAVE THESE CULTURES MOVING AND LIVING AMONG -- IN COMMUNITIES 36:46 WHERE THEY LIVE, THEY MAINTAIN THEIR CULTURAL PRACTICES, AND SO 36:50 IT'S A PROBLEM THAT COULD BE HAPPENING RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO 36:53 YOU, AND YOU ARE NOT AWARE, AND THAT'S WHY WE TRY TO EDUCATE 36:58 WOMEN WHO LIVE IN WESTERN COUNTRIES WHERE THERE IS THAT 37:02 MOVEMENT, WHERE THERE'S REFUGEES, OR JUST PEOPLE WHO ARE 37:06 IMMIGRATING TO THAT COUNTRY, THAT WE NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHAT 37:10 GOES ON IN -- IN DIFFERENT CULTURES, SO THAT WE CAN BE MORE 37:16 OBSERVANT, MORE AWARE, MORE -- MORE KIND, MORE WILLING 37:21 TO BE OPEN TO HELP. >> YOU KNOW, AGAIN, SOMETIMES WE 37:25 JUST HAVE TO STOP AND REALIZE, WE LIVE IN A BUBBLE, AND 37:30 IF -- IF YOU LIVE IN A CHRISTIAN ENVIRONMENT, AND YOU 37:33 DON'T -- YOU KNOW, SOME OF THESE THINGS ARE SHOCKING TO YOU, 37:37 TRUST ME, JUST GET OUT IN THE WORLD -- IN THE REAL WORLD 37:42 THAT -- WHERE CHRIST ISN'T REIGNING, AND THAT PART OF THE 37:45 WORLD, AND YOU WILL SEE AMAZING THINGS. 37:55 I WAS UNAWARE OF HOW MUCH SEX TRAFFICKING WAS GOING ON IN THE 37:59 UNITED STATES -- >> YEAH. 38:02 >> -- WITH YOUNG CHILDREN EVEN UNTIL I WAS TALKING WITH -- WHEN 38:06 WE WERE IN LAS VEGAS, MINISTERING, AND TALKING WITH 38:09 SOME OF THE PASTORS THERE, AND THEY SEE A LOT OF IT, SO THESE 38:13 THINGS ARE VERY REAL. THEY ARE HAPPENING AROUND US. 38:19 LET'S TALK ABOUT REACH MY WORLD. YOU HAVE MENTIONED SO MANY 38:22 WONDERFUL THINGS. I DON'T KNOW -- OBVIOUSLY, YOU 38:27 ARE TRAVELING CONSTANTLY. HOW MANY CHURCHES -- LET'S JUST 38:32 TAKE THE UNITED STATES, FOR AN EXAMPLE. 38:37 IS WOMEN'S -- ARE WOMEN'S MINISTRIES FROM THE VARIOUS 38:43 CHURCHES REALLY TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ALL OF THESE RESOURCES? 38:47 I MEAN, I WASN'T EVEN AWARE OF SOME OF THEM. 38:50 BUT THEN I'M NOT A GOOD PERSON TO -- I TRAVEL SO MUCH 38:55 MINISTERING THAT I'M NOT THAT ACTIVE IN OUR WOMEN'S 39:00 MINISTRIES. >> I CAN'T SAY THAT 39:02 EVERY -- EVERY SEVENTH-DAY ADVENTIST CHURCH HAS A 39:05 FUNCTIONING WOMEN'S MINISTRIES. I DON'T THINK THAT IS TRUE. 39:09 ONLY BECAUSE I HEAR FROM DIFFERENT WOMEN AS I TRAVEL WHO 39:12 SAY, BUT I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THIS. 39:15 IT'S NOT IN MY CHURCH. BUT I WOULD SAY MANY OF OUR 39:18 CHURCHES HERE DO HAVE WOMEN'S MINISTRIES. 39:22 ACTIVE ONES, WHERE THE WOMEN ARE REACHING OUT TO THEIR 39:27 COMMUNITIES, WHERE THEY ARE INVOLVED IN SMALL GROUP BIBLE 39:31 STUDY, SMALL GROUP PRAYER, AND THEY ARE DOING SOMETHING ABOUT 39:35 LEADERSHIP TRAINING AND -- AND EMPOWERING THEMSELVES SO THAT 39:39 THEY CAN REACH OUT. SO, YES, WHAT I SEE -- WHAT I 39:43 SEE HERE IS VERY SIMILAR TO WHAT I SEE IN EUROPE, AUSTRALIA, SOME 39:49 OF THESE MORE DEVELOPED COUNTRIES, BUT I ALSO HAVE TO 39:53 CONTRAST THAT WITH WHAT I SEE IN THE SOUTHERN HEMISPHERE 39:58 COUNTRIES, WHERE THEY ARE LESS DEVELOPED AND WHERE THE PASSION 40:01 FOR THESE THINGS SEEMS TO BE HEIGHTENED BY WHAT HAPPENS IN 40:05 THEIR OWN PERSONAL LIVES. MAYBE THEIR STRUGGLES, FINANCIAL 40:13 STRUGGLES, POVERTY AND ALL OF THE DIFFERENT THINGS. 40:21 IT HEIGHTENS THEIR AWARENESS. IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN IT, BUT I'M 40:28 JUST TALKING ABOUT BASED ON WHAT I SEE. 40:30 >> THAT MAKES PERFECT SENSE TO ME, BECAUSE IT SEEMS 40:33 LIKE -- SOMETIMES THE LESS YOU HAVE, THE MORE YOU DEPEND UPON 40:37 GOD, AND THE MORE AWARE YOU ARE OF HOW GOD IS THERE TO ANSWER 40:41 FOR YOU, AND YOU ARE ANXIOUS TO SHARE HIM. 40:43 >> YES. >> I HAD A THOUGHT AND I JUST 40:46 WANTED TO SAY THAT BEFORE I FORGET. 40:50 WHEN YOU SAID THAT -- THE EXPERIENCE YOU WENT THROUGH WAS 40:54 THE WORST AND THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU. 40:58 THAT'S HOW I FELT ABOUT THE YEAR I HAD VERTIGO. 41:02 IT WAS ONE OF THE WORST YEARS OF MY LIFE IN MY WAYS, BUT IT 41:07 TURNED OUT TO BE THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE, BECAUSE THAT IS WHEN 41:14 GOD GOT ME -- YOU KNOW, IT'S JUST LIKE, HE TURNED ON THE 41:17 LIGHT FOR ME. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 41:19 >> AND THAT'S WHEN I REALLY -- >> AND HE WILL DO THAT IF WE 41:25 ALLOW HIM TO. YOU KNOW, PEOPLE LOOK AT US, AND 41:28 THEY -- THEY SEE US, AND WE'RE ON TELEVISION OR PREACH IN A 41:34 CHURCH, AND THEY SAY, YOU HAVE GOT LIFE GOOD, AND EVEN THOUGH I 41:37 WOULD SHARE MY OWN TESTAMENT. WELL, YEAH, BUT THAT WAS THEN, 41:42 BUT THIS IS NOW. BUT YOUR EXPERIENCE WITH THE 41:46 VERTIGO WAS NOT MANY YEARS AGO. THAT WAS WITHIN THE PAST COUPLE 41:51 OF YEARS. FOR ME, JUST BECAUSE I SERVE 41:55 GOD, AND I BELIEVE IN HIM, AND I'M GIVING MY LIFE TO WHAT HE 41:59 WANTS, DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M PROTECTED ON EVERY CORNER, AND 42:03 THAT NOTHING BAD HAPPENS IN MY LIFE. 42:12 >> REALLY, THE WHOLE TIME YOU HAVE BEEN WOMEN'S MINISTRIES -- 42:14 >> SINCE 2007. >> AND THEN YOU HAVE HAD FIVE 42:17 KNEE SURGERIES -- >> I HAVE HAD FIVE KNEE 42:23 REPLACEMENTS. THREE IN ONE KNEE, AND TWO IN 42:25 THE OTHER. AND EVERY ONE I SAID, OKAY, 42:28 LORD, I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS AGAIN. 42:30 I CAN'T GO THROUGH THIS PAIN AGAIN, AND I HAVE GONE THROUGH 42:33 IT AGAIN. AND EACH TIME I THOUGHT I 42:35 COULDN'T, I COULD. AND EACH TIME I FOUND GREATER 42:39 STRENGTH AND GREATER DEPTH IN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, BECAUSE I 42:44 JUST DECIDED NOT TO FIGHT. YOU KNOW, IF THIS WAS IT, OKAY, 42:50 LORD, WHAT ARE YOU DOING THROUGH THIS? 42:52 AND THAT'S WHY I SAY -- YOU KNOW, WE FEEL AS THOUGH, OKAY, 42:56 YOU ARE COVERED. BUT GOD IS STILL WORKING IN MY 42:59 LIFE. THERE ARE STILL THINGS HE WANTS 43:01 TO TEACH ME. AND THERE IS STILL A STORY HE 43:04 WANTS ME TO HAVE TO REACH SOMEONE ELSE. 43:07 BECAUSE WHEN I TALK ABOT REACHING MY WORLD, THE PEOPLE IN 43:11 THE WORLD AROUND ME WHO DON'T KNOW GOD DO NOT WANT A PERFECT 43:16 CHRISTIAN COMING TO KNOCK ON THEIR DOOR, OR COMING TO BE 43:19 THEIR FRIEND. >> THEY DON'T WANT A SERMON. 43:21 >> NO, THEY WANT SOMEONE WHO CAN TELL THEM HOW THIS GOD HAS BEEN 43:25 REAL IN THEIR LIFE. HOW THEY HAVE GONE THROUGH PAIN. 43:30 HOW THEY HAVE GONE THROUGH HARDSHIP. 43:32 HOW THEY HAVE GONE TO HELL AND COME BACK, AND HOW MUCH GOD HAS 43:35 DONE FOR THEM, AND SO I LOOK BACK AT MY SON'S DEATH, I LOOK 43:38 AT MY SURGERIES, I LOOK AT MY DEPRESSION AND OTHER HEALTH 43:43 CHALLENGES, AND I SAY PRAISE GOD, BECAUSE HE KEEPS GIVING ME 43:47 A NEW SONG TO SING. IN THE -- PSALMS, DAVID KEEPS 43:56 SAYING SINGLE A NEW SONG. MY PERSONAL INTERPRETATION IS 44:01 THAT EVERY TRIAL GIVES ME A NEW SONG, A NEW TESTIMONY TO SHARE 44:05 WITH SOMEONE. >> I LOVE THAT. 44:07 >> AND IT KEEPS US COMPASSIONATE AND REAL, BECAUSE THE PEOPLE WE 44:12 MEET -- OH, MY WORD, WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH IS -- IS -- IS 44:17 SO HARD, AND -- AND THE ONLY WAY TO CONNECT WITH THEM, IS AT THE 44:22 HEART LEVEL, WHERE I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. 44:25 I UNDERSTAND YOUR LONELINESS. I UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN. 44:29 I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO FEEL AS THOUGH THE WORLD IS 44:33 AGAINST YOU, AS THOUGH GOD IS AGAINST YOU, THAT HE IS ALLOWING 44:38 YOU TO SUFFER SO MUCH, BUT HE GAVE ME A NEW SONG, AND HE GAVE 44:44 ME JOY, AND -- JOY IS MY FAVORITE WORD. 44:49 IF YOU ASK ANY OF MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER AROUND THE WORLD CHURCH, 44:54 THEY WILL SAY, JOY IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD. 44:59 >> AND PEOPLE SOMETIMES MISUNDERSTOOD THE DIFFERENCE 45:02 BETWEEN HAPPINESS AND JOY. >> OH, YEAH. 45:05 HUGE DIFFERENCE. >> HAPPINESS DEPENDS ON YOUR 45:10 CIRCUMSTANCES. >> IT'S AN EMOTION. 45:13 >> BUT JOY IS DEEP INSIDE. >> IT'S OUR STRENGTH. 45:16 >> AND THAT COMES FROM HAVING THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND 45:19 KNOWING HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU. >> YES. 45:21 >> I WANT TO READ YOU SOMETHING. ISAIAH 43:18, GOD SAYS, DO NOT 45:32 REMEMBER THE FORMER THINGS, NOR CONSIDER THE THINGS OF OLD, 45:38 BEHOLD, I WILL DO A NEW THING, NOW IT STALL SPRING FORTH, SHALL 45:42 YOU NOT KNOW IT, I WILL EVEN MAKE A ROAD IN THE WILDERNESS 45:47 AND RIVERS IN THE DESERT. AND, YOU KNOW, HE GOES ON AND 45:52 THEN SAYS THAT HE WILL POUR OUT WATERS IN THE WILDERNESS, AND 45:58 THAT'S -- REMINDS ME. ISAIAH 44:3 SAYS WHAT HE IS 46:03 POURING OUT. HE SAYS I'LL POUR WATER OUT ON 46:07 HIM WHO IS THIRSTY, FLOODS ON THE DRY GROUND. 46:11 I WILL POUR MY SPIRIT OUT. >> YES. 46:13 YES. >> BUT WHEN WE TALK 46:17 ABOUT -- DON'T THINK ABOUT THE PAST -- DON'T DWELL ON THE PAST, 46:23 SOMETIMES I THINK WE JUST THINK ABOUT DON'T DWELL ON THE 46:28 NEGATIVE THINGS OF THE PAST, BUT, YOU KNOW, I THINK YOU CAN 46:34 TELL WHEN A CHRISTIAN'S LIFE WHEN THEIR FLAME IS FLICKERING, 46:38 IF THEY ARE ALWAYS TELLING THE SAME GOOD STORY FROM BEFORE. 46:45 YOU JUST SAID SING A NEW SONG. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 46:47 >> I THINK SOMETIMES IF YOU ARE ALWAYS TELLING THE SAME PEAK 46:52 STORY, YOU ARE DWELLING ON THE PAST AND REALIZING, HEY, GOD 46:56 WANTS TO TAKE ME TO A NEW PLACE, WE GOT TO QUIT TALKING ABOUT 47:01 THAT AND GET ON WITH THE PROGRAM. 47:03 WE HAVE SEVERAL HERE, BUT I JUST WANT TO READ THIS, BECAUSE IT'S 47:07 PRECIOUS. ONE LADY SAYS WHEN I CAN'T 47:12 SLEEP, I REPEAT [ INAUDIBLE ] BECAUSE HE TRUSTS IN YOU. 47:15 AND THAT'S ISAIAH 26:3. THIS MAN SAYS I'M 81, AND I 47:26 DON'T SLEEP MUCH EITHER. WHAT HELPS ME IS TO LAY THERE, 47:30 RELAX, AND THINK OF ALL OF THE WAYS THAT GOD SHOWS ME HE LOVES 47:35 ME. SOMETIMES I'LL SING IN MY MINE, 47:38 PUT ON MID DVD'S AND LISTEN TO 3ABN, BUT THINKING OF THE WAYS 47:44 THAT GOD LOVES ME IS THE BEST. >> YES, I AGREE. 47:47 AND THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHEN I TRAVEL AND I'M SHARING 47:51 WITH MY SISTERS, ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I TELL THEM, IS 47:55 NIGHTTIME BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP, KEEP A LITTLE JOURNAL BY 47:59 YOUR BED. JUST A LITTLE BOOK, AND YOU TAKE 48:03 TIME TO WRITE FIVE THINGS -- IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE FIVE -- FIVE 48:08 THINGS YOU WANT TO THANK GOD FOR YOUR DAY. 48:12 BECAUSE WE FORGET, BUT THINK ABOUT YOUR DAY, AND SAY, LORD, I 48:16 THANK YOU THAT I GOT THAT PARKING SPOT. 48:20 I THANK YOU THAT MY VISIT TO THE DOCTOR WENT WILL. 48:25 YOU KNOW, WRITE THOSE THINGS DOWN. 48:27 GO TO BED WITH A THANKFUL HEART, A HEART THAT'S GIVING GOD 48:33 PRAISE. WHEN THE NEXT TRIAL COMES, YOU 48:37 PICK UP THAT THANK YOU BOOK AND GO THROUGH IT. 48:40 AND YOU WILL BE AMAZED AT HOW MUCH STRENGTH AND COURAGE YOU'LL 48:45 GET FROM REMEMBERING WHAT GOD HAS BLESSED YOU WITH EVERY 48:49 SINGLE DAY. >> AND YOU KNOW -- I CAN'T 48:52 REMEMBER WHEN, BUT I WOULD SAY -90% OF MY PRAYER, EVERY DAY, 90% OF MY PRAYER IS PRAISE AND 48:59 THANKSGIVING. >> YES. 49:01 >> AND I NEVER EVER TIRE OF THANKING JESUS FOR COMING DOWN 49:09 AND BECOMING A MAN. >> OH, YES. 49:11 >> I ALWAYS START OFF WITH THAT, BECAUSE TO ME THAT'S THE MOST 49:16 AMAZING SACRIFICE HE MADE WAS THAT GOD BECAME A MAN, TOOK ON 49:21 THIS FLESH, AND THAT'S SOMETHING HE TOOK BACK TO HEAVEN WITH HIM. 49:25 >> AND WE NEED TO GIVE GOD THANKS. 49:27 >> AND, YOU KNOW, WHAT IT DOES, NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS MIGHT 49:31 BE GOING IN YOUR LIFE -- AND AS YOU SAID, JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE 49:35 IN MINISTRY, DOESN'T MEAN THINGS ARE ALWAYS SMOOTH, BUT NO MATTER 49:40 WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE, WHEN YOU GO TO BED, OR GET UP, 49:46 OR WHENEVER YOU ARE PRAYING, IF YOUR FOCUS IS ON PRAISING GOD, 49:52 ON MAGNIFYING THE LORD ON WHAT HE HAS DONE IN YOUR LIFE, IT'S 49:57 SOMETHING NO MATTER HOW BAD IT IS, IT JUST LIFTS YOU. 50:00 >> IT DOES. >> I JUST RECENTLY HAD A KNEE 50:03 INJURY THAT LASTED A NUMBER OF WEEKS, AND IT WAS AWFUL. 50:08 I WOUD HARDLY BARE WEIGHT. BUT I JUST KEPT SAYING THANK YOU 50:15 LORD -- >> THAT'S THE SAME THING I SAY, 50:19 THANK YOU LORD, THAT I CAN WALK. I'M NOT IN A WHEELCHAIR. 50:24 I'M NOT ON CRUTCHES, I STILL HAVE BOTH LEGS. 50:27 ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I STARTED DOING IN MY 40S, AND THIS IS 50:32 GOING TO MAKE YOU SMILE. BUT EVERY YEAR WHEN I HAVE A 50:38 BIRTHDAY, BUY MYSELF A BIRTHDAY CARD. 50:40 AND LET'S SAY I WAS 45, I'M GOING TO WRITE 45 THINGS THAT 50:48 I'M THANKFUL FOR. AND NOW I NEED ONE THIS BIG, 50:52 BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT MORE BECAUSE OF MY AGE, BUT I DON'T 50:56 WANT A BIRTHDAY TO COME AND GO WITHOUT MAKING THAT MILESTONE OF 51:01 THANKS GIVING TO GOD >> I ALWAYS THOUGHT IF I HAD 51:04 CHILDREN -- AND THE BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT OF MY LIFE 51:08 PERSONALLY WAS THAT WE WEREN'T ABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN, AND IT 51:11 WAS -- IT WAS CRUSHING. I DON'T TALK ABOUT IT VERY 51:15 OFTEN. GOD HAS GIVEN US A LOT OF 51:17 SPIRITUAL CHILDREN, BUT IT WAS CRUSHING TO ME. 51:20 I WANTED SIX. I LOVE CHILDREN. 51:24 BUT I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT ONE THING THAT I WOULD DO IF I WERE 51:27 A PARENT IS EVERY YEAR ON THEIR BIRTHDAY, I WOULD WRITE THEM A 51:32 LETTER TO TELL THEM ALL OF THE THINGS THAT I THANK GOD FOR 51:36 HAVING THEM IN MY LIFE, AND ALL OF THEIR LITTLE SPECIAL THINGS, 51:41 AND KEEP THAT, AND WHEN THEY ARE 18, GIVE THEM A BOOK OF ALL F O 51:46 THOSE LETTERS OF ALL OF THE THINGS CUTE THAT THEY DID THE 51:49 FIRST YEAR, SECOND YEAR, WHATEVER. 51:52 AND HOW THANKFUL YOU ARE TO GOD. I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT THAT FOR 51:57 A WHILE, SO MAYBE SOMEBODY WILL LIKE THAT. 52:01 >> THAT'S RIGHT. >> WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED 52:05 PERSONALLY BY WOMEN'S MINISTRIES DIRECTOR? 52:07 HOW HAS IT CHANGED YOUR LIFE? >> IT HAS TAUGHT ME TO SUBMIT 52:14 COMPLETELY TO GOD'S WILL. I WANT TO BE IN GOD'S WILL FOR 52:18 MY LIFE. I WANT HIM TO BE WHERE HE WANTS 52:21 ME TO BE. >> AMEN. 52:23 >> AND WHERE I AM NOW IN THIS MINISTRY, I KNOW I'M AT THE 52:28 PLACE WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE. RIGHT NOW, AT THIS MOMENT, I CAN 52:33 SAY I KNOW I'M IN GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE. 52:36 I'M WHERE HE WANTS ME TO SERVE, SO THAT WHOLE CONCEPT OF 52:41 SURRENDERING, COMPLETELY, AND SAYING IT'S NOT WHAT I WANT, 52:45 IT'S WHAT YOU WANT, LORD, AND EACH DAY SAYING THAT TO HIM. 52:49 EVERY DAY I GET UP AND I SAY THESE FEW WORDS TO MYSELF. 52:53 I CAN'T TELL YOU WHEN IT STARTED, BUT I SIMPLY SAY, LOOK, 52:57 THIS DAY IS YOURS LORD. USE IN ME ANY WAY YOU WANT TO. 53:03 EVERY DAY I SAY THAT TO MYSELF. >> AND SURRENDER IS SIMPLY 53:09 JUST -- FOR SOME PEOPLE WHO HAVE TROUBLE WITH THIS WORD, IT'S 53:13 JUST GIVING GOD YOU ARE YIELDING TO HIM -- TO HIS LEADING, YOU 53:19 ARE GIVING HIM PERMISSION TO GUIDE YOU IN LIFE. 53:22 >> THAT'S RIGHT. BECAUSE HE KNOWS. 53:25 [ LAUGHTER ] >> WHAT A BLESSING 53:29 TO -- SOMETIMES I FEEL COMPLETELY SURRENDERED, AND THEN 53:34 SUDDENLY I'LL -- I GO INTO OVERDRIVE, AND A COUPLE OF HOURS 53:39 LATER, I'M LIKE, LORD, AM I REALLY SURRENDERED. 53:42 >> IT'S MOMENT BY MOMENT. THERE ARE TIES WHEN I DO WHAT I 53:47 WANT TO DO, BUT A LITTLE BELL GOES OFF IN MY HEAD, AND SAYS 53:51 REMEMBER WHEN. AND I'M LIKE, OKAY. 53:54 LORD, SORRY. LET ME STAY IN THIS PATH. 53:56 >> WHAT I LOVE ABOUT YOU IS YOU ARE SO TRANSPARENT. 54:02 AND THERE HAVE BEEN SOMETIMES IN MY LIFE THAT I WAS SO UPSET WITH 54:07 GOD THAT I SHOOK MY FIST IN HIS FACE, AND WALKED AWAY, AND HE 54:13 JUST CHASED ME DOWN WITH HIS LOVE. 54:16 SO FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE OUT THERE AND WATCHING, DON'T THINK 54:19 THAT YOU HAVE GONE SO FAR THAT GOD CAN'T REACH YOU. 54:23 HE IS SEARCHING FOR YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE TO SEARCH FOR 54:28 HIM. HE JUST SAYS I'LL COME TO YOU. 54:31 AND HE'S -- ALL THE TIME WHEN HE IS SAYING THAT, HE'S DRAWING YOU 54:35 WITH HIS LOVE. IT'S ALL A MATTER OF 54:38 UNDERSTANDING -- >> YEAH. 54:40 YEAH. >> THE LOVE OF GOD, ISN'T IT? 54:42 THAT WAS SOMETHING THAT GROWING UP, I FELT LIKE I HAD TO SAVE 54:50 MYSELF. AND WHEN YOU FINALLY GET THE 54:52 IDEA THAT SALVATION IS A GIFT FROM GOD. 54:56 WE ONLY OBEY OUT OF A LOVE -- A COVENANT RELATIONSHIP, AN 55:01 APPRECIATION FOR HIM, THAT'S NOT WHAT IS GOING TO SAVE YOU. 55:04 QUICK FINAL THOUGHT? GOT A MINUTE. 55:07 >> I WANT TO ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO STAY IN THE WORD. 55:12 >> AMEN. >> STAY IN THE WORD. 55:14 THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS GOING TO 55:18 CARRY YOU THROUGH, AND THE ONLY WAY TO KNOW WHO GOD IS TO SAY IN 55:22 HIS WORD. TAKE THAT FROM SOMEONE WHO 55:24 HAS -- LIKE YOU SAID, RUN FROM HIM, IGNORED HIM. 55:28 I KNOW A LOT -- THERE WAS A TIME I KNEW ALL OF THE BIBLE STORIES, 55:32 BUT I DIDN'T KNOW GOD. AND I'M STILL LEARNING. 55:36 THAT'S A WONDERFUL THING. ALL -- YOU KNOW, THE BIBLE -- I 55:39 READ IT THROUGH SO MANY TIMES, AND EVERY TIME I READ IT 55:42 THROUGH, I LEARN MORE AND MORE THINGS ABOUT GOD. 55:45 STAY IN THE WORD. >> AND ONE THING THAT I WOULD 55:49 SUGGEST -- BECAUSE THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO JUST SAY THAT TO 55:52 READ THE BIBLE FOR THEM IS JUST SO DIFFICULT -- NOW LET ME SEE 55:58 IF I CAN FIND THE BOOK -- ISN'T THAT FUNNY, WHEN YOU ARE 56:01 TALKING, YOU CAN'T THINK. IF YOU CAN'T REALLY UNDE 56:08 UNDERSTOOD -- UNDERSTAND THE BIBLE, JUST PICK IT UP AND START 56:17 READING. HE HAS BLESSED US WITH EVERY 56:20 SPIRITUAL BLESSING IN THE HEAVENLY PLACES. 56:23 STOP AND THANK HIM. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 56:26 >> AFTER EVERY SCRIPTURE, WELL, THANK YOU, LORD. 56:28 THAT IS A PROMISE. YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH EVERY 56:32 SPIRITUAL BLESSING. >> AMEN. 56:34 >> THAT THOUGHT JUST OCCURRED TO ME. 56:38 I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH. >> I LOVE YOU TOO MY DARLING. 56:42 >> THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE. 56:45 THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE DOING ON THE WORLD THEATER ALL FOR THE 56:49 GLORY OF GOD. AND THOSE OF YOU AT HOME, THANK 56:52 YOU FOR JOINING US, AND I HOPE YOU HAVE GLEANED SOMETHING FROM 56:57 TONIGHT, GLENNA, WE'LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU AND OTHERS. 57:04 MAY THE LOVE OF THE FATHER AND THE BLESSING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT 57:10 BE WITH YOU ALWAYS. ♪ |
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