MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE ¤ ¤ I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE 00:00:08.54\00:00:19.98 REMOVING PAIN ¤ ¤ LORD, LET MY WORDS HEAL A 00:00:20.02\00:00:30.93 HEART THAT'S HURT ¤ ¤ I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE 00:00:30.96\00:00:40.44 MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE ¤ ¤ I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE, 00:00:40.47\00:00:51.11 MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE ¤ >> HELLO I'M SHELLEY QUINN. 00:00:51.15\00:01:11.63 WE WELCOME YOU INTO 3ABN LIVE. WE ARE GOING TO BE TALKING ABOUT 00:01:11.67\00:01:16.47 DEALING WITH LIVE PAIN, BUT WE'RE GOING TO BE LOOKING AT IT 00:01:16.50\00:01:20.84 IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT BECAUSE WE WANT TO TALK ABOUT HOW TO TALK 00:01:20.88\00:01:29.65 TO THOSE WHO ARE DEALING WITH PAIN. 00:01:29.68\00:01:34.16 MOLLIE IS THE VICE PRESIDENT AND GENERAL MANAGER OF 3ABN. 00:01:34.19\00:01:40.50 >> WE WELCOME EVERYONE OF YOU. YOU LET US BRING OUR GUEST RIGHT 00:01:40.53\00:01:44.33 INTO YOUR LIVING ROOM EVERY DAY. >> SO YOU'RE PART OF OUR FAMILY 00:01:44.37\00:01:48.04 AND WE'RE BRINGING YOU ANOTHER MEMBER OF OUR FAMILY. 00:01:48.07\00:01:51.91 CAN'T WAIT UNTIL YOU MEET HER. >> BEFORE I FORGET, I WANT TO 00:01:51.94\00:01:57.51 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR LOVE AND PRAYERS AND FINANCIAL 00:01:57.55\00:02:02.38 SUPPORT OF TH3ABN. WE'LL BE TALKING ABOUT MENDING 00:02:02.42\00:02:07.56 BROKEN PEOPLE TONIGHT. LET ME INTRODUCE OUR SPECIAL 00:02:07.59\00:02:12.69 GUEST. WE HAVE HEATHER-DAWN SMALL WHO 00:02:12.73\00:02:15.10 IS THE DIRECTOR OF THE WOMEN'S MENSTRYS OF THE 7TH ADVENTIST 00:02:15.13\00:02:27.64 CHURCH. YOU'VE BEEN HERE SINCE 2005. 00:02:27.68\00:02:30.41 THAT'S A LONG TIME TO BE SERVING AS WORLD DIRECTOR AND YOU GOT A 00:02:30.45\00:02:34.52 LOT OF STORIES TO TELL. >> OH, YES. 00:02:34.55\00:02:36.48 THAT'S TRUE. >> IN TALKING WITH YOU, THIS 00:02:36.52\00:02:42.52 AFTERNOON AND IN THE PAST, SOMETHING THAT JUST RADIATES 00:02:42.56\00:02:46.59 FROM YOU, HEATHER, IS YOUR LOVE FOR WOMEN AND YOUR DESIRE TO SEE 00:02:46.63\00:02:50.87 WOMEN BE ALL THAT THEY CAN BE. I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH. 00:02:50.90\00:02:53.84 >> THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 00:02:53.87\00:02:55.30 >> WE'RE GOING TO BE TAKING QUESTIONS DURING THE SECOND 00:02:55.34\00:02:58.77 HOUR, SO IF YOU WANT TO GET YOUR QUESTIONS IN, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO 00:02:58.81\00:03:02.64 IS CALL US AT 618-627-4651 OR E-MAIL US AT LIVE @ 3ABN.TV. 00:03:02.68\00:03:20.70 WE HAVE A FREE OFFER TONIGHT. >> LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS 00:03:20.73\00:03:24.33 FREE OFFER. FOR SOME TIME NOW WE HAVE KIND 00:03:24.37\00:03:30.31 OF HAD JUST SOMETHING THAT 3ABN HAS CHOSEN TO LIVE BY AND 00:03:30.34\00:03:36.14 SOMETHING THAT HMS RICHARDS HAD ON HIS WALL, AND THE AUTHOR IS 00:03:36.18\00:03:43.18 UNKNOWN BUT HMS RICHARDS ALWAYS HAD THIS ON HIS WALL. 00:03:43.22\00:03:46.32 I WANTED TO READ IT TO YOU. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT HERE 00:03:46.35\00:03:50.63 AT 3ABN AND MAYBE IN OUR PERSONAL LIVES AS WELL THERE ARE 00:03:50.66\00:03:55.36 TIMES WHEN PEOPLE COME AGAINST US OR SAY HARSH THINGS ABOUT US 00:03:55.40\00:04:01.90 OR MAKE ACCUSATIONS. MAYBE IT NEVER HAPPENS TO YOU 00:04:01.94\00:04:04.17 BUT IT HAPPENS TO US OCCASIONALLY. 00:04:04.21\00:04:07.64 WE HAVE PEOPLE ASK US SOMETIMES WHY DON'T YOU EVER DEFEND 00:04:07.68\00:04:12.01 YOURSELF. AND WE HAVE DECIDED THAT THAT'S 00:04:12.05\00:04:15.28 THE DEVIL WORD TO DO ALL THIS DEFENDING. 00:04:15.32\00:04:18.89 SOMEONE SAID SOMETHING NOT TOO LONG AGO. 00:04:18.92\00:04:20.96 THEY SAID IF SOMEBODY'S TALKING ABOUT YOU, THAT'S NONE OF YOUR 00:04:20.99\00:04:24.59 BUSINESS. THAT'S GOD'S BUSINESS. 00:04:24.63\00:04:26.49 AND SO, WE KIND OF HAVE TO HAVE THE RIGHT MINDSET BECAUSE THE 00:04:26.53\00:04:34.90 LORD HAS SAW THIS MINISTRY TO DO MIGHTY WORK ALL OVER THIS WORLD 00:04:34.94\00:04:40.78 HEATHER-DAWN. THE THREE ANGEL'S MESSAGE GOING 00:04:40.81\00:04:44.15 FORTH OVER THE NETWORK IS REACHING THE FOUR CORNERS OF THE 00:04:44.18\00:04:47.72 EARTH. I WANTED TO READ THIS TO YOU. 00:04:47.75\00:04:50.45 IT'S KEEP AT WORK. THIS IS OUR FREE OFFER IF YOU 00:04:50.49\00:04:52.85 WOULD LIKE TO GET IT. SHELLEY TOLD YOU HOW. 00:04:52.89\00:04:55.46 YOU CAN CALL US AT 618-627-4651 OR LIVE @3ABN.TV. 00:04:55.49\00:05:06.63 JUST CALL US OR WRITE AND WE'LL CERTAINLY MAKE THIS AVAILABLE TO 00:05:06.67\00:05:09.20 YOU. BUT I WANT TO READ IT TO YOU. 00:05:09.24\00:05:12.27 IT'S KEEP IT YOUR WORD. THE LORD HAS GIVEN TO EVERYONE 00:05:12.31\00:05:15.68 HIS WORD. AND IT IS THE DEVIL'S BUSINESS 00:05:15.71\00:05:20.32 FROM HINDER MAN FROM DOING IT. HE MAY PRESENT OTHER THINGS MORE 00:05:20.35\00:05:25.15 PROMISING AND MAY ALLURE YOU IS ASSAULT YOU WITH SLANDER, 00:05:25.19\00:05:29.32 TORMENT YOU WITH FALSE ACCUSATIONS AND CAUSE YOU TO 00:05:29.36\00:05:32.99 WORK AT DEFENDING YOUR CHARACTER AND EMPLOY PERSONS TO LIE ABOUT 00:05:33.03\00:05:40.04 YOU AND EDITORS TO ASSAULT YOU AND EXCELLENT MAN TO SLANDER 00:05:40.07\00:05:44.21 YOU. YOU MAY HAVE PILOT, HEROD ALL 00:05:44.24\00:05:50.85 COMBINED AGAINST YOU. JUDAS, STANDING BY YOU TO SELL 00:05:50.88\00:05:54.32 YOU FOR 32 PIECES OF SILVER. YOU MAY WONDER WHY ALL THESE 00:05:54.35\00:05:59.55 THINGS HAVE COME UP ON YOU. CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS IS 00:05:59.59\00:06:03.12 BROUGHT ABOUT THROUGH THE CRAFT OF THE DEVIL TO DRAW YOU AWAY 00:06:03.16\00:06:07.30 FROM YOUR WORK AND TO HINDER YOU FROM YOUR OBEDIENCE TO GOD. 00:06:07.33\00:06:13.10 KEEP ABOUT YOUR WORK. DO NOT FLINCH BECAUSE THE LION'S 00:06:13.13\00:06:20.18 ROAR AND DO NOT WASTE AWAY YOUR TIME CHASING THE DEVIL'S RABBIT 00:06:20.21\00:06:23.91 AND DO NOT WORK - DO YOUR WORK. LET LIARS LIFE AND LET 00:06:23.95\00:06:31.55 SECTARIANS QUARREL AND LET CORPORATIONS RESOLVE AND EDITORS 00:06:31.59\00:06:35.22 PUBLISH. LET THE DEVILS DO HIS WORSE BUT 00:06:35.26\00:06:39.09 SEE TO IT THAT NOTHING HINDERS FROM FULFILLING THE WORK THAT 00:06:39.13\00:06:42.36 GOD HAS GIVEN YOU TO DO. HE HAS NOT SENT YOU TO MAKE 00:06:42.40\00:06:49.24 MONEY AND BID YOU TO DEFEND YOUR CHARACTER AND NOT SENT YOU AT 00:06:49.27\00:06:53.94 WORK TO CONTRADICT FALSEHOODS WHICH SATAN AND HIS SERVANTS MAY 00:06:53.98\00:06:57.81 START TO PEDDLE. IF YOU DO THESE THINGS YOU WILL 00:06:57.85\00:07:01.08 DO NOTHING ELSE. YOU WILL BE AT WORK FOR YOURSELF 00:07:01.12\00:07:04.19 AND NOT FOR THE LORD. KEEP ABOUT YOUR WORK. 00:07:04.22\00:07:08.06 LET YOUR AIM BE AS STEADY AS A STAR AND LET THE WORLD BRAWL AND 00:07:08.09\00:07:12.66 BUBBLE. YOU MAY BE ASSAULTED, WRONGED, 00:07:12.69\00:07:19.17 WOUNDED AND DESPISED AND REJECTED OF MEN. 00:07:19.20\00:07:23.20 SEE TO IT WITH STEDFAST DETERMINATION AND UNFALTERED 00:07:23.24\00:07:28.34 ZEAL THAT YOU PURSUE THE GREAT PURPOSE OF YOUR LIFE AND OBJECT 00:07:28.38\00:07:32.35 OF YOUR BEING UNTIL AT LAST YOU CAN SAY, I HAVE FINISHED THE 00:07:32.38\00:07:41.52 WORK WHICH THOU GAVEITH ME TO DO. 00:07:41.56\00:07:43.73 IT'S BEAUTIFUL ACTUALLY AND WE MADE THEM IN A CONDITION SO THAT 00:07:43.76\00:07:48.56 YOU CAN FRAME THEM AND DO JUST WHAT HMS RICHARDS DID, HANG IT 00:07:48.60\00:07:53.03 ON YOUR WALL SO EVERY TIME YOU ARE TEMPTED TO START DEFENDING 00:07:53.07\00:07:58.91 YOURSELF AT THE EXPENSE OF DOING WHAT GOD'S CALLED YOU TO DO, YOU 00:07:58.94\00:08:02.54 CAN READ THIS AND GET BACK TO DOING THE WORK GOD'S CALLED YOU 00:08:02.58\00:08:05.51 TO DO. >> BOY, I TELL YOU THERE HAVE 00:08:05.55\00:08:09.38 BEEN A NUMBER OF TIMES WHERE WE HAD TO READ THAT. 00:08:09.42\00:08:15.12 BECAUSE WHEN THINGS ARE HAPPENING IT'S SO TEMPTING TO 00:08:15.16\00:08:18.69 WANT TO STAND UP AND DEFEND YOURSELF. 00:08:18.73\00:08:20.60 BUT THAT'S WHAT THE DEVIL IS TRYING TO DO IS JUST TO KEEP YOU 00:08:20.63\00:08:24.97 FROM DOING THE LORD'S WORK. >> WHEN SOMEBODY IS RUNNING YOU 00:08:25.00\00:08:27.90 DOWN, WHEN THEY'RE TALKING BAD ABOUT YOU, SLANDERING YOU, THAT 00:08:27.94\00:08:31.41 IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS WHAT PEOPLE SAY BUT. 00:08:31.44\00:08:34.34 THAT'S GOD'S BUSINESS. >> AMEN. 00:08:34.38\00:08:35.84 >> YOU JUST DO THE WORK GOD'S CALLED TO YOU DO. 00:08:35.88\00:08:37.81 >> AMEN. >> AND IT IS ON A LOVELY STOCK 00:08:37.85\00:08:41.92 PAPER THAT IS SUITABLE FOR FRAMING SO THIS IS SOMETHING 00:08:41.95\00:08:44.69 YOU'D LIKE IT DID LIKE HMS RICHARDS DID HANG THIS ON YOUR 00:08:44.72\00:08:48.92 WALL AND YOU CAN BE ENCOURAGED FROM TIME TO TIME. 00:08:48.96\00:08:52.59 WELL BEFORE WE JUMP INTO OUR TOPIC, WE KNOW YOU LOVE MUSIC 00:08:52.63\00:08:57.83 AND WE LOVE THE PERSON WHO IS ABOUT TO SING US A BEAUTIFUL 00:08:57.87\00:09:02.40 SONG. THIS IS OUR OWN YVONNE LEWIS WHO 00:09:02.44\00:09:06.47 IS DR. YVONNE LEWIS, THE GENERAL MANAGER FOR DARE TO DREAM 00:09:06.51\00:09:14.12 NETWORK AND YVONNE IS GOING TO BE SINGING "THAT NAME." 00:09:14.15\00:09:29.73 PUSH 00:09:29.76\00:09:31.87 PRECIOUS ¤ ¤ A NAME SO WONDERFUL, A NAME 00:09:37.41\00:09:47.68 THAT'S WORTHY OF ALL PRAISE BECAUSE OF YOU I AM MADE FREE ¤ 00:09:47.72\00:10:01.56 ¤ AND THAT NAME IS JESUS, THE ONE WHO GAVE HIS LIFE FOR ME ¤ 00:10:01.60\00:10:15.44 ¤ BECAUSE OF LOVE SO UNCONDITIONABLE, I WILL HAVE 00:10:15.48\00:10:24.95 LIFE ETERNALLY ¤ ¤ OOH ¤ 00:10:24.99\00:10:45.67 ¤ HIS NAME SPEAKS TO ALL ME, HIS NAME IS CALM TO ALL ME 00:10:45.71\00:11:04.39 ¤ WHEN I SING THAT NO ONE LOVES ME, HIS LOVE EMBRACE IS FOR ME ¤ 00:11:04.43\00:11:23.45 ¤ HE'S THE ONE WHO GAVE HIS LIFE FOR ME ¤ 00:11:23.48\00:11:28.98 ¤ BECAUSE OF LOVE, SO UNCONDITIONAL ¤ 00:11:29.02\00:11:36.02 ¤ I WILL HAVE LIFE ETERNALLY ¤ PUSH 00:11:36.06\00:11:43.33 ¤ OH PRAISE HIS NAME, PRAISE HIS STPHAEUPL ¤ 00:11:46.84\00:12:00.72 ¤ PRAISE THE NAME, PRAISE HIS NAME ¤ 00:12:00.75\00:12:47.86 ¤ BECAUSE IT'S A LOVE SO 00:12:47.90\00:13:11.45 UNCONDITIONAL I WILL HAVE LIFE ETERNALLY ¤ 00:13:11.49\00:13:35.94 ¤ ¤ 00:13:35.98\00:14:03.67 >> PRAISE THY HOLY NAME OF JESUS, AMEN. 00:14:03.71\00:14:06.17 THERE IS NO OTHER NAME BY WHICH - NO OTHER NAME BY WHICH 00:14:06.21\00:14:15.08 MEN ARE SAVED. I WANT TO SHARE A SCRIPTURE 00:14:15.12\00:14:20.56 ISAIAH 61 VERSUS 1 THROUGH 3 AND THIS IS THE WHAT THE LORD OF THE 00:14:20.59\00:14:25.89 SAYS. THE SPUR OF THE LORD IS UPON ME. 00:14:25.93\00:14:32.17 BECAUSE THE LORD HAS ANOINTED ME TO PREACH GOOD TIDING TO THE 00:14:32.20\00:14:37.91 POOR AND SENT ME TO HEAL THE BROKEN HEARTED AND PROCLAIM 00:14:37.94\00:14:41.78 LIBERTY TO THE CAPTIVES AND THE OPENING OF THE PRISON TO THOSE 00:14:41.81\00:14:45.31 WHO ARE BOUND AND PROCLAIM THE ACCEPTABLE YEAR OF THE LORD. 00:14:45.35\00:14:52.25 TO COMFORT ALL WHO MOURN AND TO CONSOLE THOSE WHO MOURN IN ZION 00:14:52.29\00:14:56.99 TO GIVE THEM BEAUTY FOR ASHES AND THE OIL OF JOY FOR 00:14:57.03\00:15:03.23 MOURNING,, THE GARMENT OF PRAISE AND PLANTING OF THE LURED THAT 00:15:03.26\00:15:10.81 HE MAY BE GLORIFIED. AND I LOVE THIS EXPLAINS - 00:15:10.84\00:15:17.85 THESE SCRIPTURES EXPLAIN THE MINISTRY OF JESUS CHRIST. 00:15:17.88\00:15:22.18 AND IT IS BY HIS METHOD ALONE WE'RE GOING TO FINISH THIS WORK. 00:15:22.22\00:15:26.15 AND THAT'S WHAT WE WANT TO TALK ABOUT TONIGHT. 00:15:26.19\00:15:29.12 ONCE AGAIN, OUR SPECIAL GUEST IS HEATHER-DAWN SMALL WHO IS THE 00:15:29.16\00:15:34.06 DIRECTOR OF WOMEN'S MINISTRIES FOR THE GENERAL CONFERENCE OF 00:15:34.10\00:15:42.60 7TH DAY ADVENTIST CHURCH. 00:15:42.64\00:15:44.87 >> THANK YOU FOR HAVING ME. IT'S ALWAYS A JOY COMING TO 00:15:44.91\00:15:49.61 3ABN. >> HEATHER-DAWN, WOULD YOU MIND, 00:15:49.64\00:15:50.98 SOME TIME DURING THE EVENING I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE YOUR STORY 00:15:51.01\00:15:55.12 ONCE MORE ABOUT YOUR SON AND THE PAIN YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH BUT 00:15:55.15\00:15:57.89 I'LL LET YOU KICK THIS OFF HOWEVER YOU WANT TO KICK IT OFF. 00:15:57.92\00:16:01.42 >> WELL, WHEN WE THINK OF EVANGELISM AND SHARING THE 00:16:01.46\00:16:08.36 GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST WITH OTHER PEOPLE, THE METHOD THAT 00:16:08.40\00:16:12.03 WE'VE USED HAS NOT ALWAYS REFLECTED THE METHOD OF JESUS 00:16:12.07\00:16:15.90 CHRIST. AND I GUESS THAT'S BEEN ONE OF 00:16:15.94\00:16:19.01 MY GREATEST CONCERNS. AND IT'S A CONCERN OF THE CHURCH 00:16:19.04\00:16:23.95 THAT - >> JUST KIND OF BACK UP FOR A 00:16:23.98\00:16:26.51 MINUTE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE METHOD THAT 00:16:26.55\00:16:28.68 WE USED HAS NOT ALWAYS BEEN THE METHOD USED 00:16:28.72\00:16:32.05 >> I GREW UP IN THE 7TH DAY ADVENTIST CHURCH AND I REMEMBER 00:16:32.09\00:16:38.99 BEFORE WHAT WE WAS THEN CALLED M. V.AND NOW CALLED M.Y. WE 00:16:39.03\00:16:43.37 WOULD BE TAKEN OUT INTO THE NEIGHBORHOOD AND KNOCK ON 00:16:43.40\00:16:46.00 PEOPLE'S DOORS AND WE'D SAY WE'RE HERE TO GIVE YOU A BIBLE 00:16:46.03\00:16:50.11 STUDY. SOME PEOPLE WOULD SAY, NO AND 00:16:50.14\00:16:52.31 SOME PEOPLE WOULD SAY SURE. AND WE'D GIVE THEM A BIBLE STUDY 00:16:52.34\00:16:57.01 AND TAKE THEIR NAME AND GO BACK AND GIVE THEM MORE AND MORE AND 00:16:57.05\00:17:00.42 HOPEFULLY THEY WOULD GET BAPTIZED. 00:17:00.45\00:17:02.62 BUT AT NO POINT IN TIME IN THAT PROCESS DID WE EVER ASK HOW ARE 00:17:02.65\00:17:08.02 YOU DOING? WHAT ARE YOUR NEEDS? 00:17:08.06\00:17:10.43 WHAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE? AND AS I'VE WORKED IN WOMEN'S 00:17:10.46\00:17:15.36 MINISTRIES THROUGH THE YEARS, I COME TO THE REALIZATION, NOT 00:17:15.40\00:17:18.93 JUST NOW, A LONG TIME AGO, THAT WHEN JESUS MINISTERED HIS DESIRE 00:17:18.97\00:17:27.24 WASN'T JUST SPIRITUAL HEALING. HE WANTED PEOPLE TO BE 00:17:27.28\00:17:32.41 PHYSICALLY HEALED AND EMOTIONALLY HEALED AND SOCIALLY 00:17:32.45\00:17:35.88 HEALED AND ALL ONE PACKAGE. AT THE CENTER YOU COULD SAY WAS 00:17:35.92\00:17:40.16 THE SPIRITUAL HEALING BUT JESUS KNEW THAT WASN'T ALL THAT THERE 00:17:40.19\00:17:43.83 WAS TO IT, THAT HE WAS DEALING WITH THE WHOLE PERSON. 00:17:43.86\00:17:48.36 >> SO WHAT YOU'RE SAYING THEN IS THE CHURCH, WHEN YOU SAY THAT WE 00:17:48.40\00:17:52.23 HAVEN'T ALWAYS USED CHRIST'S METHOD, WE USE IT BUT NOT THE 00:17:52.27\00:17:56.40 WHOLE PACKAGE. >> NOT THE WHOLE PACKAGE. 00:17:56.44\00:17:59.47 >> THE WORD ONLY ESSENTIALLY. YES. 00:17:59.51\00:18:02.44 IT'S NOT THAT AS A CHURCH WE HAVEN'T BEEN DOING THINGS TO 00:18:02.48\00:18:06.51 HELP OTHER PEOPLE. I GREW UP IN THE CHURCH AND I 00:18:06.55\00:18:09.38 RECALL VERY WELL BEING A JUNIOR SOCIETY MEMBER WHERE THEY HAD 00:18:09.42\00:18:16.93 THE TEENAGED GIRLS INVOLVED AND I HAD MY GREEN UNIFORM AND GREEN 00:18:16.96\00:18:20.96 CAP AND GO THERE AFTER SCHOOL AND CHANGE MY CLOTHES AND I HELP 00:18:21.00\00:18:25.63 WITH SORTING CLOTHES AND WASHING CLOTHES AND IRONING THINGS. 00:18:25.67\00:18:29.60 BUT WE DO IT IN TWO SEPARATE WAYS. 00:18:29.64\00:18:32.21 COMMUNITY SERVICE DOES IT ONE THING AND THE EVANGELIST DO 00:18:32.24\00:18:37.51 THEIR THING BUT WHEN JESUS HE BROUGHT IT TOGETHER AND DID IT 00:18:37.55\00:18:43.15 AT THE SAME TIME AND AS A CHURCH WE NEED TO DO MORE OF THAT. 00:18:43.18\00:18:46.52 I THINK WE NEED TO DO EVEN MORE. WHEN WE GO INTO A COMMUNITY TO 00:18:46.55\00:18:52.59 DO, FOR EXAMPLE, MEETINGS, WE NEED TO HAVE BEEN IN THAT 00:18:52.63\00:18:57.47 COMMUNITY WEEKS BEFORE THE MEETING - MONTHS BEFORE, 00:18:57.50\00:19:00.14 GETTING TO KNOW THE PEOPLE AND GETTING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE 00:19:00.17\00:19:02.80 NEEDS OF THIS TOWN, THIS VILLAGE WERE SO THAT WHEN WE COME WE'RE 00:19:02.84\00:19:08.64 NOT JUST COMING WITH THE WORD OF GOD BECAUSE WE KNOW WHAT THESE 00:19:08.68\00:19:13.11 PEOPLE NEED. >> I THINK WHAT YOU'RE SAYING - 00:19:13.15\00:19:16.25 AT LEAST WHAT I'M HEARING YOU SAY IS THAT OUR APPROACH - 00:19:16.28\00:19:23.73 SOMETIMES RECENTLY I INTERVIEWED PAUL WHO WROTE A BOOK. 00:19:23.76\00:19:31.03 THE POINT IS THE PORTION OF THE GOSPEL THAT WE LIFT UP IS CHRIST 00:19:31.07\00:19:36.81 CREW S CRUCIFIED THAT HE CAME AND SET US FREE FROM SIN AND 00:19:36.84\00:19:45.55 REDEEM US BUT WHAT WE'RE FORGETTING IS THAT HE BECAME 00:19:45.58\00:19:52.55 LIKE US IN EVERY WAY. HE SUFFERED FOR US. 00:19:52.59\00:19:54.56 HE WAS TEMPTED AS WE ARE AND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING IS THAT YOU 00:19:54.59\00:19:59.09 WANT MORE TO BE DONE OF THE YOU WANT THE WHOLE THING TO BE LIKE 00:19:59.13\00:20:03.53 JESUS. HE FIRST TOUCHED THE PEOPLE ON A 00:20:03.57\00:20:06.84 ONE ON ONE BASIS, AND THEN HE DELIVERED THE WORD OF GOD. 00:20:06.87\00:20:11.37 >> THAT'S RIGHT. LET ME GIVE YOU A SHORT EXAMPLE. 00:20:11.41\00:20:15.48 WHEN I WAS YOUNG PASTOR'S WIFE I HAD BEEN FOR 3 OR 4 YEARS MY 00:20:15.51\00:20:22.08 HUSBAND ASKED ME TO GIVE BIBLE STUDIES TO THIS PARTICULAR LADY. 00:20:22.12\00:20:25.25 I WOULD GIVE HER A BIBLE STUDY AND I WAS GOING THROUGH THE 00:20:25.29\00:20:28.62 WHOLE SERIES. ONE TIME I GOT TO HER HOME AND 00:20:28.66\00:20:31.39 WHEN SHE OPENED THE DOOR I 0 COULD TELL SHE WAS CRYING. 00:20:31.43\00:20:35.46 HER EYES WERE SWOELEN AND NOSE WAS READ AND SOMETHING WAS 00:20:35.50\00:20:39.03 WRONG. I ASKED HER DO YOU WANT TO DO 00:20:39.07\00:20:41.90 YOUR BIBLE STUDY TODAY. IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THIS IS A 00:20:41.94\00:20:44.21 GOOD DAY. SHE SAID, NO, NO, COME ON IN. 00:20:44.24\00:20:49.18 WE SAT DOWN ON THE USUAL CHAIRS AND I OPENED UP THE LESSON STUDY 00:20:49.21\00:20:52.71 AND I GAVE HER A BIBLE BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T HAVE ONE AND SO I HAD 00:20:52.75\00:20:56.08 MINE AND WE BEGAN GOING THROUGH THE LESSON. 00:20:56.12\00:20:59.42 WELL, ABOUT HALFWAY THROUGH THE LESSON WHEN I WAS TALKING ABOUT 00:20:59.45\00:21:01.82 THE LOVE OF GOD AND HOW MUCH HE CARES FOR US, SHE CLOSED HER 00:21:01.86\00:21:08.26 BIBLE AND SHE SAID I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS TODAY. 00:21:08.30\00:21:10.97 I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS. I SAID, WHY, YOU KNOW GOD LOVES 00:21:11.00\00:21:15.10 YOU. YOU ACCEPTED HIM AS YOUR SAVIOR 00:21:15.14\00:21:16.97 WEEKS AGO. SHE SAID, I DON'T KNOW THAT. 00:21:17.01\00:21:19.07 I DON'T THINK GOD LOVES ME. AND I SAID, WHY WOULD YOU SAY 00:21:19.11\00:21:23.14 THAT? AND SHE PULLED HER DRESS OFF HER 00:21:23.18\00:21:25.51 SHOULDER AND I SAW THE MARKS ON HER BACK AND SHE LOOKED AT ME 00:21:25.55\00:21:29.55 AND SHE SAID, YOU TELL ME WHERE GOD WAS LAST NIGHT WHEN MY 00:21:29.58\00:21:32.59 HUSBAND WAS BEATING ME. I HAVE TO TELL YOU I WAS STUMPED 00:21:32.62\00:21:41.56 BECAUSE THE ONLY THING THAT I KNEW OR I HAD BEEN TAUGHT WHEN 00:21:41.60\00:21:45.77 YOU MEET SOMEONE IN PAIN YOU PRAY FOR THEM. 00:21:45.80\00:21:50.61 SO I SAID TO HER, CAN I PRAY FOR YOU? 00:21:50.64\00:21:54.28 AND SHE SAID NO. AND SHE SAID, I THINK IT'S BEST 00:21:54.31\00:21:57.91 IF YOU LEAVE. AND I REMEMBER MY HEART WAS SO 00:21:57.95\00:22:00.58 HEAVY THAT I WAS LEAVING THIS LADY WITH THIS IMPRESSION THAT 00:22:00.62\00:22:04.05 GOD DIDN'T LOVE HER, BUT I COULDN'T THINK OF A TEXT. 00:22:04.09\00:22:06.86 I COULDN'T THINK OF A QUOTE. I COULDN'T THINK OF ANYTHING 00:22:06.89\00:22:09.52 EXCEPT TO PRAY FOR HER. SO WHEN WE GOT TO THE DOOR I 00:22:09.56\00:22:13.16 ASKED AGAIN CAN I PRAY FOR YOU AND SHE SAID NO. 00:22:13.19\00:22:15.66 SHE NEVER CALLED US BACK FOR ANY LESSONS. 00:22:15.70\00:22:17.93 WELL, YEARS LATER AS I LOOK BACK AT THAT PARTICULAR SITUATION, I 00:22:17.97\00:22:23.10 MEAN, I COULD HAVE JUST - I WAS JUST SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF 00:22:23.14\00:22:26.37 BECAUSE I THOUGHT, WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST ASK HER, WELL, CAN I DO 00:22:26.41\00:22:30.85 ANYTHING TO HELP YOU? WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO TO THE 00:22:30.88\00:22:37.09 DOCTOR? IS THERE A FAMILY MEMBER YOU 00:22:37.12\00:22:38.45 WOULD LIKE TO SEE? WHY WAS IT THAT MY MIND WAS SO 00:22:38.49\00:22:42.42 WRAPPED IN THE MODE OF WHATEVER I PRESENTED HAD TO BE A 00:22:42.46\00:22:46.16 SPIRITUAL, HAD TO BE A SPIRITUAL HELP AND I'M SAYING AS 00:22:46.19\00:22:50.47 CHRISTIANS WE GOT TO GO BEYOND THAT. 00:22:50.50\00:22:51.93 WE'VE GOT TO REALIZE THAT CHRIST'S METHOD WAS NOT ONLY 00:22:51.97\00:22:56.91 SPIRITUAL HEALING. HE LOOKED AT THE WHOLE PERSON 00:22:56.94\00:23:00.58 AND SO WHEN WE TALK ABOUT EVANGELISM WE TALK ABOUT SHARING 00:23:00.61\00:23:05.11 THE GOSPEL, WE'VE ALSO GOT TO TALK ABOUT GETTING INVOLVED IN 00:23:05.15\00:23:10.29 PEOPLE'S LIVES. >> TOUCHING THEM, REACHING OUT 00:23:10.32\00:23:12.05 AND HOLDING THEM AND GIVING OF OURSELVES AND NOT JUST WHAT WE 00:23:12.09\00:23:15.26 KNOW BUT WHAT WE ARE IN MEETING THOSE - HE ALWAYS MET THE 00:23:15.29\00:23:20.76 PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL NEEDS FIRST. 00:23:20.80\00:23:23.23 >> THAT'S RIGHT AND BEING REAL. BECAUSE IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, 00:23:23.26\00:23:27.44 WHICH ONE OF US CHRISTIANS NOW I'M SAYING, WHICH ONE OF US HAS 00:23:27.47\00:23:31.31 NOT EXPERIENCED TROUBLES AND TRIALS? 00:23:31.34\00:23:33.58 WE ALL HAVE AND WE ARE GOING THROUGH THING. 00:23:33.61\00:23:37.41 WHY SHOULD I PRESENT TO THE PEOPLE I MEET SUCH A HOLY IMAGE, 00:23:37.45\00:23:41.18 SUCH A HAPPY PERSON THAT'S NOTHING GONE WRONG IN MY LIFE 00:23:41.22\00:23:46.86 AND I'M HERE TO SHARE WITH YOU THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST AND 00:23:46.89\00:23:50.93 THAT'S NOT WAIT IT WORKS. AND IT BEGINS WITH THE HURTING 00:23:50.96\00:23:54.00 PEOPLE IN OUR CHURCH. THAT'S WHERE WE NEED TO BEGIN. 00:23:54.03\00:23:55.90 >> IT'S INTERESTING. WE WERE TALKING EARLIER YOU AND 00:23:55.93\00:23:58.57 KNOW, I MENTIONED IT'S A GOOD THING WE DID TALK EARLIER 00:23:58.60\00:24:02.00 BECAUSE WE GOT SO PASSIONATE THAT WE WERE JUST AT THE EDGE OF 00:24:02.04\00:24:06.54 OUR SEATS AND WE NEEDED TO TEMPER THAT BEFORE WE CAME OUT 00:24:06.57\00:24:09.34 HERE. WHEN WE WERE TALKING - SPEAKING EARLIER, THE PROBLEM IS 00:24:09.38\00:24:14.88 THAT PEOPLE IN OUR CHURCH - YOU KNOW, WE HAD NOT BEEN TRAINED 00:24:14.92\00:24:18.79 HOW TO DO THIS. BUT IT GOES DEEPER THAN THAT. 00:24:18.82\00:24:22.22 THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE IN THE CHURCH WHO HAVE ACCEPTED CHRIST 00:24:22.26\00:24:26.49 AS THEIR SAVIOR AND THEY HAVE THAT HOPE OF ETERNAL LIFE BUT 00:24:26.53\00:24:31.53 THEY HAVEN'T REALLY LET GOD GET IN TO THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM 00:24:31.57\00:24:38.91 AND HEAL THEM AND NOBODY KNOWS HOW TO GET TO THAT AND WE 00:24:38.94\00:24:41.44 HAVEN'T BEEN TRAINED TO, BUT THE BOTTOM LINE IS, MOST PEOPLE 00:24:41.48\00:24:44.91 STILL HAVE THAT GOING ON IN THEIR OWN LIFE. 00:24:44.95\00:24:47.88 >> WE COME TO CHURCH AND PRETEND EVERYTHING IS FINE. 00:24:47.92\00:24:50.39 EVEN IF I WANT TO SHARE I LOOK AROUND AND I SAY, WHO AM I GOING 00:24:50.42\00:24:55.22 TO SHARE WITH? WHO IS GOING TO BE CONFIDENTIAL? 00:24:55.26\00:24:57.89 >> WE NEED SOMEBODY TO TALK TO. AND THAT WILL LISTEN TO US AND 00:24:57.93\00:25:02.46 WON'T TRY TO SHARE ALL THEIR GREAT PEARLS OF WISDOM WITH US. 00:25:02.50\00:25:06.70 JUST GIVE ME AN EAR AND A SHOULDER. 00:25:06.74\00:25:08.50 >> THAT'S RIGHT. >> THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WE DO 00:25:08.54\00:25:11.57 NEED TO KIND OF SENSITIVITY TRAINING, TELL YOUR STORY. AS 00:25:11.61\00:25:18.25 CHRISTIANS, OFTEN WE ARE KIND OF TAUGHT NOT TO DRAG UP THE PAST 00:25:18.28\00:25:24.35 AND YOU KNOW, GOD HAS HEALED US ALL FROM SO MANY THINGS. 00:25:24.39\00:25:30.19 IF SOMEBODY IS GOING BACK TO THE PAST WE OUGHT TO RECOGNIZE, ALL 00:25:30.23\00:25:33.40 RIGHT, THEY'RE NOT HEALED AND WE NEED TO GET TO THE ROOT OF THIS. 00:25:33.43\00:25:37.63 BUT PEOPLE HAVE A TENDENCY JUST TO SAY, ALL RIGHT, DON'T TALK 00:25:37.67\00:25:40.44 ABOUT THAT. DO THIS. 00:25:40.47\00:25:41.80 YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN. BE POSITIVE. 00:25:41.84\00:25:44.97 >> SING A SONG. PRAISE THE LORD. 00:25:45.01\00:25:47.74 MAKE A LIST OF YOUR BLESSINGS. >> WELL, I LOST MY FIRST SON 00:25:47.78\00:25:51.51 WHEN HE WAS FOUR YEARS OLD, BACK IN 1985. 00:25:51.55\00:25:54.58 HE HAD BEEN ATTACKED BY A DOG. MY FATHER'S DOG. 00:25:54.62\00:25:58.79 WE WERE AT MY DAD'S HOME. THE DOG HITTEN HIM TWICE IN THE 00:25:58.82\00:26:02.82 HEAD AND RUSHED HIM TO THE HOSPITAL AND HE DIED IN SURGERY 00:26:02.86\00:26:10.17 BECAUSE NO ONE HAD ASKED US IF HE HAD EATEN ANYTHING. 00:26:10.20\00:26:13.64 HE IT CAME UP IN IT HIS LUNGS AND HE DROWNED. 00:26:13.67\00:26:20.68 IT WAS WORST DAY OF MY LIFE. I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT. 00:26:20.71\00:26:25.41 I REMEMBER HOW MANY PEOPLE CAME TO ME AT THE FUNERAL AND CONSOLE 00:26:25.45\00:26:29.88 ME AND SATISFY SAY, THINGS, THE LORD GIVES AND TAKES AWAY. 00:26:29.92\00:26:35.32 YOU GOT TO KEEP PRAISING GOD MY SISTER. 00:26:35.36\00:26:37.79 LOOK AT ALL THE GOOD THINGS AND ALL THESE VERY NICE THINGS BUT 00:26:37.83\00:26:43.03 MEANINGLESS THINGS TO ME AT THE TIME. 00:26:43.06\00:26:47.44 BUT I TOOK ALL OF THAT IN AND I WENT TO MY HOME AND IF YOU HAD 00:26:47.47\00:26:52.21 COME TO MY HOME TWO WEEKS AFTER MY SON DIED YOU WOULD NOT HAVE 00:26:52.24\00:26:56.11 KNOWN I HAD A SON BECAUSE I CLEARED UP HIS ROOM AND GAVE 00:26:56.14\00:27:00.62 AWAY HIS TOYS AND CLOTHES TO MY REGRET BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING OF 00:27:00.65\00:27:04.25 HIS NOW. NOT A LITTLE CAP OR T-SHIRT, 00:27:04.29\00:27:07.06 NOTHING. I JUST CLEARED EVERYTHING OUT. 00:27:07.09\00:27:09.02 AND MY THING WAS TO KEEP THOSE THINGS THERE WAS TO DENY THE 00:27:09.06\00:27:14.00 POWER OF GOD AND TO DENY THE FACT THAT IN THIS TERRIBLE TIME, 00:27:14.03\00:27:22.00 I SHOULD REALLY JUST BE PRAISING GOD. 00:27:22.04\00:27:23.81 SO I NEVER MOURNED FOR MY SON OR GRIEVED. 00:27:23.84\00:27:27.18 JUST ABOUT 11 YEARS LATER IN 1996, I HAD AN EXPERIENCE THAT 00:27:27.21\00:27:30.91 BROUGHT IT ALL BACK. FOR YEARS I STUFFED IT DOWN 00:27:30.95\00:27:34.12 THINKING IT WAS GOING TO BE ALMOST SINFUL 00:27:34.15\00:27:37.35 >> SO THE PAIN WAS STILL THERE. >> OH, THE PAIN WAS STILL THERE. 00:27:37.39\00:27:41.02 >> IT WAS JUST HIDDEN. >> IT WAS HIDDEN. 00:27:41.06\00:27:43.53 AND IF YOU'D ASK ME IF THERE WAS PAIN, I WOULD HAVE SAID NO THERE 00:27:43.56\00:27:48.90 WAS NONE. IN THOSE FEW MONTHS AFTER HE 00:27:48.93\00:27:52.33 DIED I FOUND JESUS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. 00:27:52.37\00:27:55.54 AND THIS COMES BACK TO WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 00:27:55.57\00:27:58.31 WE COULD HAVE JESUS IN OUR LIVES BUT IF WE DON'T GIVE HIM ROOM, 00:27:58.34\00:28:03.24 ACCESS, PERMISSION TO DEAL WITH OUR PAIN, THAT PAIN STAYS THERE. 00:28:03.28\00:28:07.28 AND SO, 11 YEARS LATER, WE WERE PASTORING AT A CHURCH AND THIS 00:28:07.32\00:28:13.32 WAS A MOTHER AND SON AND HE WAS ABOUT 10 OR 11 YEARS OF AGE AND 00:28:13.36\00:28:16.89 HE GOT IN A TERRIBLE ACCIDENT FALLING FROM A FERRIS WHEEL, NOT 00:28:16.93\00:28:22.73 THE BIG ONES BUT A SMALL ONE BUT HE FELL TO THE GROUND AND HE GOT 00:28:22.76\00:28:28.70 SCALPED. AND THE WHOLE CHURCH WAS THERE 00:28:28.74\00:28:30.31 PRAYING FOR HIM. MY HUSBAND AND I WERE THERE 00:28:30.34\00:28:33.04 EVERY DAY PRAYING AND WE HAD A VIGIL AND THIS CHILD THEY 00:28:33.07\00:28:36.54 THOUGHT WAS GOING TO DIE LIVED. WELL, SOME MONTHS LATER, IT'S 00:28:36.58\00:28:42.58 COMING TO THE END OF THE YEAR AND WE'RE THERE AT CHURCH AND 00:28:42.62\00:28:45.49 SHE COMES UP TO GIVE HER TESTIMONY. 00:28:45.52\00:28:48.62 TO THANK GOD FOR HER SON'S LIFE AND I'M IN THE FRONT BENCH 00:28:48.66\00:28:52.69 BECAUSE I'M A GOOD PASTOR'S WIFE. 00:28:52.73\00:28:57.27 I SIT IN THE FRONT SO I CAN SMILE AT MY HUSBAND WHILE HE 00:28:57.30\00:29:01.30 PREACHES AND I'M SITTING THERE NICELY FOR HER TESTIMONY. 00:29:01.34\00:29:05.47 AS I'M LISTENING A LITTLE VOICE WHISPERS IN MY EAR, HOW COME GOD 00:29:05.51\00:29:12.91 SAVED THIS WOMAN'S SON WHEN YOU PRAYED FOR HIM BUT WHEN YOU 00:29:12.95\00:29:16.48 PRAYED FOR YOUR OWN SON, GOD LET HIM DIE? 00:29:16.52\00:29:20.72 AND THAT JUST HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS. 00:29:20.76\00:29:27.80 I THOUGHT ABOUT IT, I THOUGHT, YEAH. 00:29:27.83\00:29:31.63 HOW COME? DOES GOD HAVE FAVORITES? 00:29:31.67\00:29:35.60 AS I SAT THERE AN ANGER BEGAN TO WELL UP INSIDE OF ME THAT JUST 00:29:35.64\00:29:39.74 GOT WORSE AND WORSE. BY THE TIME SERVICE WAS OVER 00:29:39.77\00:29:42.54 INSTEAD OF GOING TO THE FRONT DOOR WITH MY HUSBAND AS I 00:29:42.58\00:29:45.61 USUALLY DO I WENT THROUGH THE SIDE DOOR BECAUSE I WAS TOO 00:29:45.65\00:29:51.25 ANGRY TO TALK TO ANYONE. WE GOT IN THE CAR AND MY HUSBAND 00:29:51.29\00:29:54.06 SAID TO ME, ARE YOU OKAY? I SAID UH-HUH. 00:29:54.09\00:29:56.73 BECAUSE I COULDN'T EVEN TALK. I WAS CHOKED UP TO MY THROAT. 00:29:56.76\00:30:01.06 AND WE DROVE HOME AND I REMEMBER MY KIDS WERE IN THE BACKSEAT 00:30:01.10\00:30:06.50 TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHISPERING WHO HAD UPSET ME. 00:30:06.53\00:30:11.27 FINALLY MY HUSBAND SAID, BE QUIET BEHIND THERE. 00:30:11.31\00:30:13.68 WE GOT HOME AND AS USUAL I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN TO TAKE THE 00:30:13.71\00:30:16.64 FOOD OUT AND HEAT IT UP AND LAY THE TABLE AND I WAS SLAMMING AND 00:30:16.68\00:30:22.98 BANGING EVERYTHING AND HITTING THE CUPBOARD DRAWERS BECAUSE I 00:30:23.02\00:30:27.26 WAS ANGRY. WHEN THE FOOD WAS ON THE TABLE I 00:30:27.29\00:30:30.29 WALK IN THE BEDROOM AND SLAMMED THE DOOR. 00:30:30.33\00:30:32.86 MY HUSBAND CAME IN THE ROOM AND HE KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING ON. 00:30:32.89\00:30:37.03 HE TOLD THE KIDS TO GO AND EAT AND HE CAME IN THE ROOM AND 00:30:37.07\00:30:40.54 SAID, WHAT'S HAPPENING? WHAT IS GOING ON? 00:30:40.57\00:30:42.10 AND I SAID, OKAY. YOU WANT TO KNOW. 00:30:42.14\00:30:45.27 NOW MY ANGER IS AT HIM BECAUSE AFTER ALL HE'S A SERVANT AT HIM. 00:30:45.31\00:30:49.71 I SAID, OKAY, PASTOR SMALL, YOU TELL ME WHEN WE PRAYED FOR OUR 00:30:49.74\00:30:56.99 SON HE DIED WHEN HE PRAYED FOR THIS WOMAN'S SON HE LIVED. 00:30:57.02\00:31:01.82 HE WAS BLIND SIDED BY MY QUESTION. 00:31:01.86\00:31:03.93 >> 11 YEARS AFTER THE DEATH OF >> EXACTLY. 00:31:03.96\00:31:05.63 HE NEVER THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS SOMETHING THAT WITH YOU GOING TO 00:31:05.66\00:31:07.56 COME UP AT THIS TIME. AND YOU KNOW, I HAVE TO SAY 00:31:07.60\00:31:10.93 SOMETHING, IT WASN'T 11 YEARS THIS. WAS 96. 00:31:10.97\00:31:14.54 IT WAS 98 SO THIS WAS 13 YEARS LATER. 00:31:14.57\00:31:21.34 HE LEFT THE ROOM QUIETLY. AND I STAYED IN THE ROOM. 00:31:21.38\00:31:25.71 I WOKE UP TO DO MY FIRST THING, I PICK UP MY BIBLE FROM MY BED 00:31:25.75\00:31:29.88 AND I OPEN IT UP. A THOUGHT HITS ME AND I THINK TO 00:31:29.92\00:31:35.16 MYSELF, I'VE GROWN UP IN THIS CHURCH, I KNOW THIS BIBLE. 00:31:35.19\00:31:40.26 MY SON IS STILL DEAD. I DON'T WANT IT. 00:31:40.30\00:31:42.50 I CLOSE IT AND I PUT IT BY MY BED AND I REFUSED TO TALK TO GOD 00:31:42.53\00:31:47.64 FOR ABOUT THREE MONTHS. NOW I WAS STILL GOING TO CHURCH. 00:31:47.67\00:31:49.90 I WAS STILL THE PASTOR'S WIFE PLAYING THE PIANO AND GREETING 00:31:49.94\00:31:55.04 PEOPLE AND SMILING AND TALKING AND LAUGHING. 00:31:55.08\00:31:58.51 BUT INSIDE I HAD NO RELATIONSHIP TO GOD. 00:31:58.55\00:32:01.78 I WAS ANGRY WITH HIM AND THEN I GOT SICK AND THE DOCTOR SAID SHE 00:32:01.82\00:32:05.29 NEEDS SOME REST. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH DEPRESSION 00:32:05.32\00:32:09.62 AND DOCTOR SAID SHE NEEDED REST. SO MY HUSBAND SAID I'M SENDING 00:32:09.66\00:32:14.30 YOU TO YOUR SISTER. YOU NEED TO TAKE A COUPLE OF 00:32:14.33\00:32:18.57 MONTHS. MY SISTER IS SINGLE AND WE 00:32:18.60\00:32:20.40 ALWAYS HAVE FUN TOGETHER. BUT SHE'S A PSYCHOLOGIST. 00:32:20.44\00:32:25.91 I WARNED MY HUSBAND I SAID IF YOU ARE MY DAD TELL MY SISTER 00:32:25.94\00:32:29.51 I'M DEPRESSED AND I'VE GONE THROUGH SOMETHING. 00:32:29.54\00:32:31.61 I WILL COME BACK HOME. BECAUSE MY SISTER WOULD NOT BE 00:32:31.65\00:32:36.55 ABLE TO RESTRAIN HERSELF. HE SAID OKAY, WE WON'T SAY 00:32:36.58\00:32:42.79 ANYTHING. SO I GOT THERE. 00:32:42.82\00:32:44.16 FIRST NIGHT I GOT THERE WE HADN'T SEEN EACH OTHER IN 3 OR 4 00:32:44.19\00:32:51.23 YEARS. I HAVE TO TELL YOU BEFORE I 00:32:51.27\00:32:53.13 LEFT, WHEN I WAS PACKING IT WAS MY CUSTOM WHEN I WOULD PACK TO 00:32:53.17\00:32:56.60 GO ON A TRIP TO PUT MY BIBLE INSIDE THE SUITCASE, LAST THING 00:32:56.64\00:33:00.28 I WOULD PACK. SO I PICKED IT UP AUTOMATICALLY 00:33:00.31\00:33:02.54 TO PUT IT IN MY SUITCASE AND THEN I THOUGHT, I DON'T NEED 00:33:02.58\00:33:05.71 THIS. I PUT IT BACK BY THE BED AND 00:33:05.75\00:33:08.78 CLOSED THE SUITCASE. SO THAT NIGHT AFTER WE HAD EATEN 00:33:08.82\00:33:11.69 AND SHE GAVE ME THIS GIFT BAG I WENT INTO THE ROOM AND CLOSED 00:33:11.72\00:33:14.26 THE T DOOR AND SAT ON THE BED. I PULL THREE BOOKS OF THE BAG. 00:33:14.29\00:33:22.00 THE FIRST BOOK WAS CALLED "LORD HEAL MY HURT" AND I STILL HAVE 00:33:22.03\00:33:26.23 THAT BOOK. THE SECOND ONE WAS 00:33:26.27\00:33:28.84 "DISAPPOINTMENT WITH GOD" BY PHILLIP YANCY AND THEN THE THIRD 00:33:28.87\00:33:32.97 BOOK WAS A BIBLE. >> ALL THREE OF THEM EXACTLY 00:33:33.01\00:33:36.24 WHAT YOU NEED. >> JUST EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED. 00:33:36.28\00:33:38.61 AND I LOOKED AT THE BIBLE AND I SAID OUT LOUD TO MYSELF, I SAID, 00:33:38.65\00:33:43.39 OKAY, LORD, I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU BUT YOU OBVIOUSLY WANT TO 00:33:43.42\00:33:47.26 TALK TO ME SO LET'S TALK. AND THE NEXT MORNING WHEN MY 00:33:47.29\00:33:50.63 SISTER LEFT FOR WORK FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS EVERY MORNING WHEN SHE 00:33:50.66\00:33:53.80 LEFT, I'D GO BACK INTO MY ROOM AND PUT THE BIBLE ON THE BED AND 00:33:53.83\00:33:58.73 I SCREAM AT GOD. I SHOUT AT HIM. 00:33:58.77\00:34:01.40 I WOULD TELL HIM HE WAS UNFAIR AND DIDN'T LOVE ME AND I TELL 00:34:01.44\00:34:05.97 HIM HIS BIBLE WAS LIES, EVERYTHING NEGATIVE THING INSIDE 00:34:06.01\00:34:10.61 THAT I HAD BEEN THINKING BUT NOT SAYING, JUST CAME TUMBLING OUT. 00:34:10.65\00:34:14.08 WHEN I FINISHED I WOULD GET UP AND I WOULD LEAVE THE ROOM AND I 00:34:14.12\00:34:17.49 WOULD TURN THE TV ON AND TRY TO DISTRACT MYSELF. 00:34:17.52\00:34:20.76 AFTER ABOUT TWO WEEKS OF DOING THAT I GOT INTO THE ROOM ONE 00:34:20.79\00:34:23.83 MORNING AND I WAS READY AND I THOUGHT, I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING 00:34:23.86\00:34:27.40 TO SAY. AND THEN I LOOKED AT THE BIBLE 00:34:27.43\00:34:31.13 AND I SAID, OKAY, LORD, I'M FINISHED. 00:34:31.17\00:34:33.94 WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY FOR YOURSELF? 00:34:33.97\00:34:36.50 AND I PICKED UP THE BIBLE. HE SPOKE THROUGH HIS WORD. 00:34:36.54\00:34:39.67 I BEGAN TO READ AND AS I BEGAN TO READ, GOD'S WORD BEGAN TO 00:34:39.71\00:34:44.31 HEAL ME. >> PRAISE THE LORD. 00:34:44.35\00:34:48.12 I WONDER WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF BACK IN 1985 WHEN MY 00:34:48.15\00:34:54.06 SON DIED SOMEBODY HAD SAID TO ME, LET IT OUT, SWEETHEART. 00:34:54.09\00:34:58.99 SCREAM, SHOUT. GRIEVE, BE UPSET. 00:34:59.03\00:35:02.00 BE ANGRY. GO THROUGH THE PHRASES THAT YOU 00:35:02.03\00:35:04.43 NEED TO GO THROUGH TO GRIEVE THIS SITUATION. 00:35:04.47\00:35:08.10 I SOMETIMES WONDER HOW LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT. 00:35:08.14\00:35:10.87 >> SOMEBODY HAD REACHED OUT AND SAID, I'M HERE FOR YOU. 00:35:10.91\00:35:13.48 SCREAM AT ME. TELL ME ALL YOUR PAINS AND HURT. 00:35:13.51\00:35:18.35 >> WHEN YOU DON'T GET THAT AND YOU STUFF THAT DOWN, YOU CAN 00:35:18.38\00:35:21.88 STILL BE IN CHURCH, BUT I TELL PEOPLE IT'S LIKE A PIPELINE. 00:35:21.92\00:35:27.22 YOU KNOW, JUST IMAGINE THERE'S A PIPELINE FROM YOUR HEART TO GOD. 00:35:27.26\00:35:32.09 AND THE MORE NEGATIVE THINGS YOU KEEP INSIDE ABOUT GOD OR ABOUT 00:35:32.13\00:35:37.17 WHAT'S HAPPENING, IT CLOGGED THE PIPELINE. 00:35:37.20\00:35:39.93 GOD'S LOVE AND HIS COMFORT CAN'T GET TO ME. 00:35:39.97\00:35:42.90 WHEN I GET THAT STUFF OUT, THE PIPELINE'S CLEAR AND ALL OF A 00:35:42.94\00:35:46.98 SUDDEN THE LOVE OF GOD WAS FLOWING TO MY HEART. 00:35:47.01\00:35:50.51 JUST MADE SUCH A HUGE DIFFERENCE. 00:35:50.55\00:35:52.31 >> I HOPE THAT THOSE OF YOU LISTENING REMEMBER THIS WHEN 00:35:52.35\00:35:57.95 SOMEONE IS GRIEVING - MY AUNT CALLED LAST NIGHT. 00:35:57.99\00:36:03.59 SHE'S 93 YEARS OLD AND HER SON, MY COUSIN, DIED UNEXPECTEDLY. 00:36:03.63\00:36:09.73 JUST WENT TO SLEEP. THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED WITH MY 00:36:09.76\00:36:13.30 SISTER. WENT TO BED FOR A NAP AND NEVER 00:36:13.34\00:36:15.40 WOKE UP. AND SO, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE JUST 00:36:15.44\00:36:19.57 STUNNED TO HEAR THIS BECAUSE HE WAS ONLY 59 YEARS OLD. 00:36:19.61\00:36:21.74 BUT THE THING THAT WE HAVE TO REMEMBER IS, WE DON'T HAVE TO 00:36:21.78\00:36:26.51 HAVE THE ANSWERS. PEOPLE WANT TO BE LISTENED TO. 00:36:26.55\00:36:29.68 SOMETIMES THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO TO CONSOLE SOMEONE IN GRIEF 00:36:29.72\00:36:35.66 IS NOT TO SAY ANYTHING, JUST TO HUG AND LISTEN TO THEM. 00:36:35.69\00:36:41.90 CERTAINLY DON'T TRY TO DENY THEM THE OPPORTUNITY TO GRIEVE. 00:36:41.93\00:36:46.40 SO, WHAT WE SEE - AND I KNOW THAT OUR CHURCH IS SO GOOD AT 00:36:46.43\00:36:51.57 DOING HEALTH SEMINARS AND VARIOUS THINGS, AND THERE ARE SO 00:36:51.61\00:36:56.75 MANY WONDERFUL PROGRAMS, BUT WHAT I HEAR YOU SAYING IS, WE 00:36:56.78\00:37:00.82 JUST NEED TO HAVE A PARADIGM SHIFT ON WHAT WE CONSIDER 00:37:00.85\00:37:08.26 EVANGELISM AND ESPECIALLY THE RAMPING UP TO THE SHARING OF THE 00:37:08.29\00:37:12.33 WORD. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 00:37:12.36\00:37:15.16 I THINK THIS TERM, WHICH WE USE FRIENDSHIP EVANGELISM, EVERYBODY 00:37:15.20\00:37:20.44 KNOWS ABOUT IT. BUT THAT'S IT. 00:37:20.47\00:37:23.77 THAT REALLY IS IT. I MEAN, I THINK ABOUT ZACK IN 00:37:23.81\00:37:31.81 THE TREE. THIS POOR LITTLE MAN WAS ASHAMED 00:37:31.85\00:37:35.28 OF THE LIFE HE WAS LIVING. HE WANTED TO SEE JESUS. 00:37:35.32\00:37:39.62 JUST A GLIMPSE IS ALL HE WANTED OF THIS MAN WHO WAS SAYING ALL 00:37:39.65\00:37:44.09 THESE WONDERFUL THINGS. JESUS COULD HAVE SAID, I LOVE 00:37:44.13\00:37:47.96 YOU, AND I FORGIVE YOU. HE COULD HAVE SAID A NUMBER OF 00:37:48.00\00:37:51.87 THING. JESUS SAID, COME DOWN I'M CGOING 00:37:51.90\00:37:57.67 TO YOUR HOUSE. JESUS CAME TO HIS HOUSE AND I 00:37:57.71\00:38:00.18 KNOW HE DIDN'T GO TO HIS HOUSE AND GIVE HIM A SERMON. 00:38:00.21\00:38:02.64 HE LISTENED TO HIM AND TALKED WITH HIM AND MINISTERED TO HIS 00:38:02.68\00:38:06.58 NEEDS. AND I THINK TOO MANY TIMES IN 00:38:06.61\00:38:09.18 EVANGELISM WE BYPASS THAT AND SEE PEOPLE WITH A LITTLE NUMBER 00:38:09.22\00:38:15.36 SIGN ON THEM. HOW MANY STARS AM I GOING TO 00:38:15.39\00:38:18.09 HAVE IN MY CROWN. YOU'RE ONE. 00:38:18.13\00:38:19.79 YOU'RE ONE. YOU'RE ONE. 00:38:19.83\00:38:21.16 AND WE ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I'VE SEEN HAPPEN IS, WHEN WE TRY 00:38:21.20\00:38:25.73 TO REACH OUT TO SOMEONE WITH THE WORD OF GOD, I'M GIVING YOU A 00:38:25.77\00:38:31.91 SERIES OF BIBLE LESSONS THERE COMES A POINT WHERE WE SAY THIS 00:38:31.94\00:38:35.54 PERSON ISN'T GOING TO GIVE THEIR HEART TO THE LORD, MOVE ON. 00:38:35.58\00:38:39.81 THERE ARE A PEOPLE WHO LEAVE THAT PERSON AND MOVE ON TO 00:38:39.85\00:38:42.02 SOMEONE ELSE AND I SAY, NO. KEEP THE FRIENDSHIP GOING. 00:38:42.05\00:38:47.72 KEEP THE PASSAGE WAY OPEN. BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE - SOME 00:38:47.76\00:38:53.19 PEOPLE JUST TAKE A LITTLE LONGER THAN OTHERS, YOU KNOW? 00:38:53.23\00:38:56.93 AND I MAY NOT BE THE ONE WHO BRINGS THEM TO THE POINT OF THEM 00:38:56.97\00:39:01.34 ACCEPTING JESUS. I MAY BE JUST BE SOMEONE WHO 00:39:01.37\00:39:09.24 NURTURED THAT PLANT AND GOD BRINGS SOMEONE ELSE BUT I NEED 00:39:09.28\00:39:12.31 TO DO MY PART. THAT'S WHY I SAY IT BEGINS WITH 00:39:12.35\00:39:14.92 THE CHURCH. AS A CHURCH, WE NEED TO BE AWARE 00:39:14.95\00:39:17.95 OF THE NEEDS OF THE MEMBERS IN THE CHURCH. 00:39:17.99\00:39:19.65 YOU KNOW, WE TALK ABOUT THE CHURCH NEEDS TO BE A SAFE PLACE. 00:39:19.69\00:39:23.02 BUT HOW MANY OF US GO TO CHURCH AND REALLY FEEL THAT WE CAN BE 00:39:23.06\00:39:27.56 OURSELVES? THINK ABOUT IT, SHELLEY. 00:39:27.60\00:39:29.86 AND I'M JUST TALKING ABOUT THE THREE OF US. 00:39:29.90\00:39:32.03 YOU'RE BOTH ON TV A LOT. I WORK FOR THE CHURCH. 00:39:32.07\00:39:34.70 I TRAVEL A LOT. YOU GO TO CHURCH AND YOU ARE 00:39:34.74\00:39:37.77 TROUBLED ABOUT SOMETHING YOU AND LOOK AROUND YOU AND THINK, THERE 00:39:37.81\00:39:40.28 IS NO ONE HERE I CAN SHARE THIS WITH. 00:39:40.31\00:39:43.85 THEY THINK I'M THIS STRONG SPIRITUAL PERSON. 00:39:43.88\00:39:46.72 I CAN'T DISSOLUTION THEM OF THAT AND FOR THEM TO THINK THAT I MAY 00:39:46.75\00:39:50.09 BE IN A BAD PLACE, HOW COULD YOU BE? 00:39:50.12\00:39:52.25 YOU'RE A WOMAN OF GOD. AND SO, YOU KEEP THAT STUFF 00:39:52.29\00:39:57.63 INSIDE. I WANT TO SAY I COULD SHARE IT 00:39:57.66\00:39:59.79 WITH MY HUSBAND. WE'VE BEEN MARRIED 37 YEARS THIS 00:39:59.83\00:40:03.37 YEAR BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS BECAUSE POOR FELLA - 00:40:03.40\00:40:07.20 >> HE'S GOING TO WANT TO SOLVE IT. 00:40:07.24\00:40:09.47 AND I JUST AWANT HIM TO LISTEN TO IT AND LET ME CRY AND GO 00:40:09.50\00:40:15.44 THROUGH MY WHATEVER. I THINK IT'S SO IMPORTANT EVEN 00:40:15.48\00:40:18.05 WITHIN OUR CHURCH ENVIRONMENT, WE CREATE AN ATMOSPHERE WHERE 00:40:18.08\00:40:22.58 PEOPLE FEEL - MEMBERS FEEL I CAN SHARE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH 00:40:22.62\00:40:26.32 ME, I CAN LET MY HAIR DOWN. I DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO BEHAVE 00:40:26.35\00:40:30.93 AND LOOK A CERTAIN WAY. >> I THINK ANY TIME SOMEONE 00:40:30.96\00:40:34.76 COMES TO US AND SHARES A PROBLEM, WE ALWAYS WANT TO FIX 00:40:34.80\00:40:38.57 IT. WE ALWAYS THINK WE'VE GOT TO 00:40:38.60\00:40:40.20 HAVE THE ANSWER. WE CAN GIVE YOU THREE POINTS AND 00:40:40.24\00:40:44.37 A POEM, A FORMULA TO WORK AND YOU'RE GOING TO BE JUST FINE. 00:40:44.41\00:40:50.01 >> THAT RIGHT SCRIPTURE. >> RIGHT. 00:40:50.05\00:40:51.75 AND THAT'S NOT WHAT THEY NEED. THEY JUST NEED A SOFT SHOULDER 00:40:51.78\00:40:56.08 AND A LISTENING EAR. >> I REMEMBER YEARS AGO THIS HAS 00:40:56.12\00:41:01.16 TO BE 2002 I WAS TRAVELING TO SOUTH AFRICA AND I WENT TO 00:41:01.19\00:41:04.69 ATTEND A WOMEN'S - WE HAD A WOMEN'S WEEKEND, AND AT THE END 00:41:04.73\00:41:08.90 OF THE WEEKEND IT WAS A SUNDAY I HAD DONE MY LAST PRESENTATION 00:41:08.93\00:41:12.73 AND AS I WAS LEAVING OUT THE BACK TO GO TO THE PLACE I WAS 00:41:12.77\00:41:16.10 STAYING A LADY STOPPED ME. THEY HAD THIS CUTE LITTLE BABY 00:41:16.14\00:41:19.37 AND I LOVE BABIES. I'M ALWAYS HOLDING THEM. 00:41:19.41\00:41:22.64 I TAKE PICTURE WITH BABIES AND LITTLE CHILDREN. 00:41:22.68\00:41:24.85 I HELD THE BABY. THIS BABY MUST HAVE BEEN ABOUT 6 00:41:24.88\00:41:28.28 OR 7 MONTHS OLD AND SHE BEGAN TO TELL ME HER STORY. SHE SAID, YOU 00:41:28.32\00:41:32.75 KNOW, SISTER, MY HUSBAND DIED FROM H.I.V. AND I HAVE H.I.V. 00:41:32.79\00:41:39.69 AND I COULD DIE ANY TIME. SHE SAID, BUT YOU KNOW, MY 00:41:39.73\00:41:43.87 CONCERN IS FOR MY BABY. WILL YOU TAKE MY BABY? 00:41:43.90\00:41:47.70 >> OH. >> YOU KNOW? 00:41:47.74\00:41:49.90 SHE DIDN'T SAY, I WANT TO MAKE SURE I'M SAVED. 00:41:49.94\00:41:54.58 CAN YOU HELP ME. I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT I'M 00:41:54.61\00:41:58.31 GOING TO WAKE IN THE - THAT WASN'T HER THOUGHT. 00:41:58.35\00:42:01.32 HER THOUGHT WAS, THE NEED SHE HAD TO MAKE SURE THAT HER BABY 00:42:01.35\00:42:06.62 HAD A SAFE HOME. AND WE DID THAT. 00:42:06.65\00:42:09.52 I REMEMBER, I CALLED FOR THE DIRECTOR WHO DID THIS TICK - I 00:42:09.56\00:42:14.00 SAID DO WE HAVE ANY WOMEN HERE WHO ARE NURSES OR SOCIAL WORKERS 00:42:14.03\00:42:17.83 OR SOMEBODY. SHE GOT A SOCIAL WORKER WHO CAME 00:42:17.87\00:42:20.54 AND WE SAT WITH THE LADY AND THEY TALKED AND THEY WORKED IT 00:42:20.57\00:42:23.51 OUT. MONTHS LATER I FOUND OUT THAT 00:42:23.54\00:42:27.18 THE WOMAN HAD DIED BUT THE BABY HAD ALREADY FOUND A HOME AND MET 00:42:27.21\00:42:33.52 THE PARENTS - THE PEOPLE WHO WERE GOING TO BE PARENTS. 00:42:33.55\00:42:37.65 AND I THINK OH MY GOODNESS, THAT WAS HER NEED, YOU KNOW. 00:42:37.69\00:42:45.43 AND WE MEET PEOPLE WHO HAVE A NEED AND WE GO STRAIGHT TO THE 00:42:45.46\00:42:48.76 HOLY SCRIPTURES AND I THINK THAT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH. 00:42:48.80\00:42:52.03 THAT'S NOT WHAT JESUS DID. YES, THAT SALVATION IS SO 00:42:52.07\00:42:57.67 IMPORTANT, BUT TELL ME HOW WELL CAN YOU LISTEN TO THE WORD OF 00:42:57.71\00:43:00.74 GOD WHEN YOU'RE IN PAIN, WHEN YOUR STOMACH IS EMPTY OR A 00:43:00.78\00:43:07.08 RAGING FEVER OR WHEN YOU KNOW YOU MIGHT DIE OF CANCER OR YOUR 00:43:07.12\00:43:12.09 HUSBAND DOESN'T HAVE A JOB AND YOU HAVE NO WAY TO PAY THE 00:43:12.12\00:43:16.09 BILLS. HOW DO YOU TAKE ALL OF THAT IN 00:43:16.12\00:43:17.59 WHEN THE PRESSING CONCERN IS THIS? 00:43:17.63\00:43:22.06 >> YOU CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON 28 FUNDAMENTAL DOCTORATES WHEN 00:43:22.10\00:43:27.54 YOU'RE STARVING TO DEATH. >> AND HARD TO BELIEVE THERE IS 00:43:27.57\00:43:30.21 A LOVING GOD WHEN I'M SUFFERING. >> SURE, SURE EXCELLENT POINT. 00:43:30.24\00:43:34.04 >> WHAT IS IT THAT WE AS CHILDREN OF GOD NEED TO DO? 00:43:34.08\00:43:36.75 AND THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THE PARADIGM SHIFT, THAT IT'S 00:43:36.78\00:43:40.98 NOT JUST GOING WITH THE LESSONS AND NOT JUST HAVING THE SMALL 00:43:41.02\00:43:44.85 GROUP BIBLE STUDY BUT GETTING TO KNOW THE PEOPLE, PEOPLE IN MY 00:43:44.89\00:43:51.43 NEIGHBORHOOD. YOU KNOW, WE THINK TIME IS SHORT 00:43:51.46\00:43:54.46 AND JESUS US COMING. I CAN'T AFFORD TO HAVE A SOCIAL 00:43:54.50\00:43:58.23 EVENT. I NEED A BIBLE STUDY TOO. 00:43:58.27\00:44:01.00 NO, NOT NECESSARILY. GET TO KNOW PEOPLE. 00:44:01.04\00:44:03.51 LET THEM SEE YOU AS YOU ARE AS A PERSON. 00:44:03.54\00:44:09.44 AND YOU CARE ABOUT THEM. PEOPLE KNEW THAT JESUS CARED 00:44:09.48\00:44:13.98 ABOUT THEM. >> THAT'S GOOD. 00:44:14.02\00:44:19.29 LET'S TALK ABOUT - IN YOUR MINISTRY, YOU'RE TRAVELING 00:44:19.32\00:44:23.29 AROUND THE WORLD, YOU'RE MINISTERING AND EVEN THOUGH WE 00:44:23.32\00:44:26.39 ARE GOING TO SPECIFICALLY SPEAK TO SOME PAIN AND THINGS - 00:44:26.43\00:44:31.27 DIFFICULT THINGS THAT WOMEN ARE DEALING WITH, MEN DON'T TUNE 00:44:31.30\00:44:34.80 OUT, BECAUSE YOU NEED TO HEAR. IT'S THE SAME THING, REALLY. 00:44:34.84\00:44:37.81 MEN ARE EXPERIENCING THE SAME TYPES OF THINGS AND WE NEED TO 00:44:37.84\00:44:41.88 LEARN HOW TO MINISTER TO PEOPLE LIKE THAT. 00:44:41.91\00:44:45.55 FOR EXAMPLE, YOU HAD THE PROGRAM "END IT NOW" IT BEGAN WITH WOMEN 00:44:45.58\00:44:55.92 MINISTRIES AND - >> AND NOW IT'S EVERY 00:44:55.96\00:44:59.49 DEPARTMENT. WHEN WE TALK ABOUT ABUSE IT 00:44:59.53\00:45:02.10 TALKS ABOUT EVERYBODY. 1-3 WOMEN EXPERIENCE IT GLOBALLY 00:45:02.13\00:45:07.30 BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT MEN AREN'T ABUSED OR BOYS AREN'T 00:45:07.34\00:45:12.37 ABUSED OR AREN'T OTHER ABUSIVE ISSUES. 00:45:12.41\00:45:14.28 IN OUR DEPARTMENT WE FOCUS ON THESE SIX AREAS. 00:45:14.31\00:45:16.64 IF AND I COULD JUST KIND OF GO THROUGH THEM VERY QUICKLY. 00:45:16.68\00:45:19.88 THE FIRST ONE IS ABUSE. AND WE LOOK HOW CAN WE HELP 00:45:19.91\00:45:24.75 PEOPLE WHO ARE DEALING WITH THIS. 00:45:24.79\00:45:26.92 THE SECOND ONE IS HEALTH THREATS. 00:45:26.96\00:45:29.26 WOMEN EXPERIENCE DIFFERENT THREATS TO THEIR HEALTH AND I 00:45:29.29\00:45:32.49 DON'T KNOW OF A WOMAN TODAY WHO SAYS I DON'T HAVE ANY HEALTH 00:45:32.53\00:45:40.00 PROBLEMS. AND THE THIRD ONE IS ILLITERACY. 00:45:40.04\00:45:43.91 BUT ANOTHER ILL - ILIT TRASY. THE FOURTH ONE IS LACK OF 00:45:43.94\00:46:01.12 TRAINING. WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE STATISTICS, 00:46:01.16\00:46:05.29 WOMEN ARE AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PILE WHEN IT COMES TO EDUCATION. 00:46:05.33\00:46:08.36 FIFTH ONE IS POVERTY. OH MY GOODNESS, THAT IS A GLOBAL 00:46:08.40\00:46:11.23 PROBLEM. THERE WAS A TIME WHEN WE USED TO 00:46:11.27\00:46:13.64 THINK THIS IS A DEVELOPING WORLD PROBLEM, IT'S A GLOBAL PROBLEM. 00:46:13.67\00:46:17.71 IT'S EVERYWHERE AND FINALLY WOMEN'S WORK LOAD. 00:46:17.74\00:46:21.84 THE STATISTICS SAY WOMEN DO 90% OF THE WORLD'S WORK. 00:46:21.88\00:46:26.82 EARN 10% OF THE WORLD'S PAY. >> THAT'S AN AMAZING STATISTIC 00:46:26.85\00:46:34.46 TO US. >> THEY WORK IN THE HOUSE AND IN 00:46:34.49\00:46:36.42 THE COMMUNITY AND IN THE CHURCH. THEY HAVE A JOB AND YET NOBODY 00:46:36.46\00:46:44.97 CONSIDERS THAT THEY NEED MORE THAN JUST WELL DONE. 00:46:45.00\00:46:48.10 THAT THEY NEED TO STOP, TO REST. IF YOU LOOK AT HOW A CHURCH IS, 00:46:48.14\00:46:54.84 FOR EXAMPLE, LOOK HOW MANY TIMES IT'S THE WOMEN GET INVOLVED TO 00:46:54.88\00:46:57.81 GET THINGS DONE. LET'S CLEAN THE CHURCH, LET'S DO 00:46:57.85\00:47:00.78 THIS AND THAT AND THE WOMEN ARE THERE. 00:47:00.82\00:47:02.88 WE WANT TO LOOK AT THE STRUGGLES THAT WOMEN HAVE ON A GLOBAL 00:47:02.92\00:47:09.32 BASIS THAT CAN BE FOUND ANYWHERE YOU GO. 00:47:09.36\00:47:12.39 THESE ARE STRUGGLES THAT WE DEAL WITH BUT THAT WOMEN IN THE 00:47:12.43\00:47:21.10 COMMUNITY DEAL WITH. WHY SHOULD WE FEEL THAT LIFE 00:47:21.14\00:47:23.77 SHOULD BE EASY FOR US? GOD GIVES US A TOUCH POINT. 00:47:23.81\00:47:30.65 BUT OUT OF MY EXPERIENCE WITH GRIEVING FOR OUR A CHILD WHO 00:47:30.68\00:47:34.22 DIED, I HAVE A TOUCH POINT. TO REACH OTHER WOMEN AND THE 00:47:34.25\00:47:40.46 INTERESTING THING IS IT'S GIVING ME A TOUCH POINT TO REACH PEOPLE 00:47:40.49\00:47:43.83 WHO ARE GRIEVING. YOU GO THROUGH THAT. 00:47:43.86\00:47:49.10 WHEN I TALKED TO YOU BEFORE ABOUT MULTIPLE KNEE SURGERIES 00:47:49.13\00:47:52.33 THAT I HAVE HAD AND THE PAIN THAT I HAVE HAD, I MEET SO MANY 00:47:52.37\00:47:57.07 PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE WITH PAIN DAILY SO IT GIVES ME A TOUCH 00:47:57.11\00:48:02.81 POINT. SO I CAN'T SIT BACK AND THINK, 00:48:02.84\00:48:05.31 WELL GOD MUST KEEP THAT EDGE COMPLETE I AROUND ME AND MAKE IT 00:48:05.35\00:48:09.88 A TEN FOOT CONCRETE WALL SO I CAN BE PERFECTLY FINE AND THEN I 00:48:09.92\00:48:14.32 COULD REACH AS MANY PEOPLE IN THE WORLD. 00:48:14.36\00:48:16.39 NO, THAT'S NOT GOING TO WORK. I'VE GOT TO BE REAL AND HAVE 00:48:16.42\00:48:25.43 COMPASSION. AND I LOVE THAT FROM SECOND 00:48:25.47\00:48:31.67 CORINTHIANS ONE. GOD WILL COMFORT US IN ALL OUR 00:48:31.71\00:48:35.48 SORROWS SO WE CAN COMFORT SOMEONE ELSE. 00:48:35.51\00:48:37.81 WHICH MEANS NOT ONLY DOES HE GIVE ME WHAT I NEED, BUT HE 00:48:37.85\00:48:41.32 GIVES ME OVERFLOWING AND MORE THAN I NEED. 00:48:41.35\00:48:47.16 EVEN IN MY PAIN IT'S INTERESTING BECAUSE PAUL DOESN'T SAY AFTER 00:48:47.19\00:48:50.93 HE'S COMFORTED YOU AND EVERYTHING'S OVER AND YOU'RE 00:48:50.96\00:48:53.46 FEELING FINE, GOD'S GOING TO - HE SAYS HE COMFORTS ME IN ALL MY 00:48:53.50\00:48:58.93 SORROWS SO THAT I CAN COMFORT SOMEONE ELSE. 00:48:58.97\00:49:05.37 SO EVEN I RECEIVE COMFORT GOD BRINGS PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT 00:49:05.41\00:49:08.54 ALSO NEED COMFORT AND THAT HELPS ME WITH MY PAIN AND MY SITUATION 00:49:08.58\00:49:11.41 BECAUSE I'M HELPING SOMEONE ELSE. 00:49:11.45\00:49:18.69 AS HIS LOVE THROWS THROUGH ME IT'S WORKING IN ME. 00:49:18.72\00:49:24.19 AND IT'S HEALING. >> YOU'VE BEEN VERY BRAVE - I 00:49:24.23\00:49:28.86 SAID THAT THE FIRST TIME WHEN I INTERVIEWED YOU WHEN YOU TALKED 00:49:28.90\00:49:31.83 ABOUT YOUR DEPRESSION, BECAUSE THERE IS STILL A STIGMA WHEN 00:49:31.87\00:49:39.11 SOMEONE MENTIONS ANY KIND OF DEPRESSION OR MENTAL ILLNESS 00:49:39.14\00:49:45.51 THAT PEOPLE FEEL LIKE, LET'S KEEP THIS QUIET. 00:49:45.55\00:49:50.39 AND I KNOW WE TALKED ABOUT DEPRESSION AND FACT THAT YOU'RE 00:49:50.42\00:49:56.73 TAKING AN ANTI-DEPRESSANT WHICH SOMETIMES PEOPLE - JUST AMAZES 00:49:56.76\00:50:00.86 ME. IT AMAZES ME THAT IF SOMEONE IS 00:50:00.90\00:50:07.00 A DIABETIC, THEIR DIABETES CANNOT BE CONTROLLED BECAUSE 00:50:07.04\00:50:10.41 THEY HAVE A CHEMICAL IMBALANCE AND THEY HAVE TO HAVE INSULIN, 00:50:10.44\00:50:15.04 WE'LL ACCEPT THAT. IF SOMEONE, HOWEVER, AND YOU 00:50:15.08\00:50:22.58 FIND OUT THEY'RE CLINICALLY DEPRESSED AND YOU'RE TALKING 00:50:22.62\00:50:29.99 ABOUT TAKING SOME KIND OF PRESCRIPTION DRUG AND 00:50:30.03\00:50:32.79 ANTI-DEPRESSANT IT'S LIKE, YOU'RE NOT BEING A GOOD 00:50:32.83\00:50:44.37 CHRISTIAN IT'S AMAZING TO ME FEWS WHEN WE ADDRESSED THIS 00:50:44.41\00:50:49.91 TOPIC PEOPLE FELT HOPE. SOME PEOPLE IN THE CHURCH EVEN 00:50:49.94\00:50:53.11 ACTUALLY FELT HOPE FOR THE FIRST TIME LIKE IT'S OKAY IF I DO 00:50:53.15\00:50:56.15 SOMETHING ABOUT THIS. AND I KNOW YOU KNOW DR. NEIL 00:50:56.18\00:51:07.76 MAIDLY. YOU NEED THE SUNSHINE AND YOU 00:51:07.80\00:51:10.43 NEED TO EAT WELL BUT IF YOUR BRAIN ISN'T MAKING THE SEROTONIN 00:51:10.47\00:51:19.01 PEOPLE WILL LOOK AT YOU AND - SO HE OFTEN FINDS IT NECESSARY 00:51:19.04\00:51:24.95 TO USE AN ANTI-DESPRESENT AND GET PEOPLE IT TO A CERTAIN PLACE 00:51:24.98\00:51:28.98 WHERE THEY CAN RESPOND TO OTHER TREATMENTS. 00:51:29.02\00:51:31.15 >> THAT'S THE WHOLE THING AND PEOPLE DON'TND THAT. 00:51:31.19\00:51:33.46 WHEN YOU'RE DEPRESSED YOU'RE IN A VERY DARK PLACE. 00:51:33.49\00:51:37.73 AND YOU KNOW WHO DO YOU TELL? LAST NIGHT I WANTED TO TELL 00:51:37.76\00:51:40.70 MYSELF, WHO DO YOU SAY THAT TO? >> I WORKED WITH LADY AND SHE 00:51:40.73\00:51:47.34 SUFFERED DEPRESSION AND I CAN PRAISE GOD AND THANK HIM THAT I 00:51:47.37\00:51:51.51 NEVER SUFFERED DEPRESSION AND IF YOU NEVER SUFFERED IT YOU DON'T 00:51:51.54\00:51:54.44 UNDERSTAND IT YOU AND HAVE THE ATTITUDE, SUCK IT UP. 00:51:54.48\00:51:57.45 GET OVER IT. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU BECAUSE 00:51:57.48\00:52:02.02 YOU NEVER SUFFERED IT. I MET THIS WOMAN AND SHE WAS A 00:52:02.05\00:52:05.05 GODLY WOMAN AND THERE WOULD BE TIMES SHE WOULD HAVE THE BLANK 00:52:05.09\00:52:07.72 LOOK IN HER EYES AND SHE DIDN'T WANT TO FIX HER HAIR AND GET 00:52:07.76\00:52:13.46 HERSELF - SHE JUST WAS - SHE HAD LOST HER COPING ABILITY. 00:52:13.50\00:52:18.87 I TOLD THE LORD BECAUSE I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND, LORD, HELP ME TO 00:52:18.90\00:52:23.67 UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE'S GOING THROUGH. 00:52:23.71\00:52:25.87 AND NOT FOR LONG, I'M GOING TO SAY FOR A MINUTE OR TWO, THE 00:52:25.91\00:52:29.74 LORD TOOK ME TO HER PLACE TO WHERE SHE WAS AND THAT WITH YOU 00:52:29.78\00:52:34.38 A TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE FOR ME. IT WAS LIKE I WAS ENVELOPED IN 00:52:34.42\00:52:40.96 DARKNESS AND I COULDN'T CLAW MY WAY OUT OF IT. 00:52:40.99\00:52:44.79 WELL THEN, I UNDERSTOOD AND SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO HAVE - 00:52:44.83\00:52:49.93 YOU NEED TO EXPERIENCE WHAT SOMEBODY'S GOING THROUGH BEFORE 00:52:49.96\00:52:54.30 YOU CAN REACH OUT AND TOUCH THEM AND HELP THEM. 00:52:54.34\00:52:56.50 I KNOW SOMEONE WHO SUFFERS DEPRESSION EXPRESSED IT TO ME. 00:52:56.54\00:53:01.74 THIS MIGHT BE A LITTLE GROSS, BUT HE SAID, YOU'RE IN 00:53:01.78\00:53:05.61 DEPRESSION AND SOMEBODY THINKS YOU SHOULD JUST COME ON, GET 00:53:05.65\00:53:09.02 WITH THE PROGRAM. IT'S LIKE HAVING DIARRHEA, A BAD 00:53:09.05\00:53:12.92 CASE OF IT. AND SOMEBODY SAYING, YOU STOP 00:53:12.95\00:53:16.73 THAT. QUICK THAT RIGHT NOW. 00:53:16.76\00:53:18.09 LIKE YOU COULD DO THAT. OF COURSE YOU CAN'T. 00:53:18.13\00:53:20.56 THE SAME IS TRUE. BUT YOU HAVE TO HAVE EXPERIENCE 00:53:20.60\00:53:28.24 AND HAVE COMPASSION AND THANK GOD WE HAVE PEOPLE WHO CAN TOUCH 00:53:28.27\00:53:32.07 US. >> AND IT IS A BLESSING BECAUSE 00:53:32.11\00:53:34.64 WHEN YOU'RE GOING THROUGH IT LIKE I SAID, IT'S ONLY WHEN YOU 00:53:34.68\00:53:38.11 GET TO THE DOCTOR AND THEY DIAGNOSIS YOU AND THEN THEY PUT 00:53:38.15\00:53:42.75 YOU ON THAT MEDICATION, YOU SUDDENLY SEE THE LIGHT AT THE 00:53:42.78\00:53:45.59 END OF THE TUNNEL. ALL THE TIME YOU'RE WALKING 00:53:45.62\00:53:47.82 THROUGH THIS TUNNEL YOU AND KEEP SAYING, THIS IS GOING TO END. 00:53:47.86\00:53:50.03 THIS IS GOING TO END AND IT DOESN'T END. 00:53:50.06\00:53:52.66 IT DOESN'T END. AND YOU JUST KEEP ON GOING AND 00:53:52.69\00:53:58.33 THEN THE MEDICATION COMES IN. THINGS BEGIN TO CHANGE. 00:53:58.37\00:54:02.54 YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE CHANGES AND ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU DON'T WANT 00:54:02.57\00:54:05.41 TO BE BY YOURSELF ALL THE TIME IN THE BED COVERED UP AWAY FROM 00:54:05.44\00:54:08.34 THE WORLD. YOU WANT TO START RELATING TO 00:54:08.38\00:54:12.78 PEOPLE AND TALKING TO PEOPLE AND LIVING LIFE AGAIN. 00:54:12.81\00:54:17.49 YOUR QUALITY OF LIFE CHANGES. AND SO THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS 00:54:17.52\00:54:20.36 WHY I GUESS BECAUSE I'M SO PASSIONATE ON THIS TOPIC OF 00:54:20.39\00:54:24.13 DEPRESSION, THAT WE CREATED AT OUR OFFICE A SERIES OF SEMINARS 00:54:24.16\00:54:31.03 CALLED "THINKING WELL LIVING W 00:54:31.07\00:54:37.17 WELL" BECAUSE IF SOMETHING HAPPENS HERE IT CAUSES PHYSICAL 00:54:37.21\00:54:41.54 PROBLEMS. IF THOSE SERIES OF TEN SEMINARS 00:54:41.58\00:54:44.55 WE DEAL WITH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION AND ANGER AND 00:54:44.58\00:54:47.92 UNFORGIVENESS. >> ARE THESE AVAILABLE TO THE 00:54:47.95\00:54:49.95 PUBLIC? >> THEY ARE AVAILABLE TO THE 00:54:49.98\00:54:51.39 PUBLIC FROM OUR WEBSITE OR THEY COULD E-MAIL US AND WE'LL GET IT 00:54:51.42\00:54:56.93 TO THEM. THEY COULD GET IT ON CD OR GET 00:54:56.96\00:55:00.96 THE PRINTED VERSION. >> WHY DON'T GO AHEAD AND GIVE 00:55:01.00\00:55:03.97 THE WEBSITE. >> THE WEBSITE IS 00:55:04.00\00:55:20.82 WWW.ADVENTISTOH WOMENS MINISTRY.ORG 00:55:20.85\00:55:22.18 ADVENTISTWOMENS MINISTRY.ORG. >> WE'LL TALK ABOUT THAT MORE 00:55:28.12\00:55:31.39 BUT ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I WANTED TO THANK YOU FOR BEING SO 00:55:31.43\00:55:36.26 AUTHENTIC. YOU'RE VERY GENUINE. 00:55:36.30\00:55:38.93 THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I THINK THAT IT HELPS WHEN THE LORD 00:55:38.97\00:55:42.87 CALLED ME TO FULL-TIME MINISTRY, ONE THING HE IMPRESSED UPON ME 00:55:42.90\00:55:47.24 BY THE POWER OF HIS SPIRIT WAS THAT I COULDN'T - I HAD TO 00:55:47.28\00:55:54.08 MINISTER FROM THE REAL PLACE TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS. 00:55:54.12\00:55:56.99 YOU KNOW, THAT'S WHAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE. 00:55:57.02\00:55:59.52 WHEN YOU GO OUT AND YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT YOUR OWN PROBLEMS, 00:55:59.55\00:56:05.43 PEOPLE WILL BE ENCOURAGED. WE ARE GOING TO JUST REALLY DIG 00:56:05.46\00:56:13.23 IN AND FIND OUT SOME MORE THINGS AS WE GO THROUGH THIS. 00:56:13.27\00:56:17.11 I HAD A THOUGHT. WE'RE GETTING READY TO GO TO OUR 00:56:17.14\00:56:21.14 BREAK. THIS IS A LIVE PROGRAM. 00:56:21.18\00:56:23.31 THAT'S THE THOUGHT. [LAUGHTER] 00:56:23.35\00:56:25.31 >> MY BRAIN WENT IN NEUTRAL FOR A MINUTE. 00:56:25.35\00:56:29.78 IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS YOU WOULD LIKE TO ASK, HEATHER-DAWN 00:56:29.82\00:56:33.86 SMALL OR MOLLIE OR ME CALL US 618-627-4651 OR YOU CAN E-MAIL 00:56:33.89\00:56:43.37 THOSE QUESTIONS TO LIVE @ 3ABN.TV&A FREE OFFER. 00:56:43.40\00:56:48.90 KEEP AT YOUR WORK AND SOMETHING THAT HMS RICHARDS HAD ON HIS 00:56:48.94\00:56:53.58 OFFICE WALL AND SOMETHING I'M SURE HE LOOKED AT QUITE OFTEN. 00:56:53.61\00:56:57.15 IT ENCOURAGES YOU TO STAY ABOUT WHAT GOD HAS CALLED YOU TO DO 00:56:57.18\00:57:01.68 AND DON'T LET THE ENEMY SIDE TRACK YOU WITH HIS TACTICS AND 00:57:01.72\00:57:08.52 HIS WAY OF DOING THINGS THAT WOULD MAKE YOU STOP DOING THINGS 00:57:08.56\00:57:13.29 WHAT THEY CAUSED YOU TO DO. IT'S FRAMEABLE AND BEAUTIFUL AND 00:57:13.33\00:57:17.47 ENCOURAGE YOU. >> YES, IT IS. 00:57:17.50\00:57:19.43 HOW DO THEY GET THAT, MOLLIE? >> THEY GET IT FREE OFFER @ 00:57:19.47\00:57:29.08 3ABN. OR CALL 618-627-4651. 00:57:29.11\00:57:34.12 >> WE'LL TAKE A TWO MINUTE BREAK AND WE'LL BE BACK WITH YOU IN 00:57:34.15\00:57:36.38 JUST A FEW SECONDS. SO PLEASE STAY TUNED. 00:57:36.42\00:57:39.62 AND GET YOUR QUESTIONS IN. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 00:57:39.65\00:57:42.46