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00:42 I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE♪ ♪ MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE♪
00:46 ♪ I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE♪ ♪ MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE. 00:56 [♪♪] >> HELLO, FRIENDS. 01:09 WELCOME TO 3ABN TODAY LIVE. IT'S THURSDAY NIGHT HERE IN 01:14 THE MIDWEST. HERE IN -- WE ARE EXCITED YU 01:18 HAVE TAKEN THE TIME TO TUNE IN. 01:20 IS THIS GOING TO BE A GOOD PROGRAM? 01:23 >> I'M SO EXCITED. IT WILL BE AN EXCITING 01:25 PROGRAM. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 01:26 WE HAVE A GUEST. LET ME ENCOURAGE YOU. 01:29 I HAVE SAID THIS IN THE PAST. HIT THE RECORD BUTTON. 01:32 TONIGHT I REALLY MEAN IT. WE HAVE A GOOD FRIEND IN THE 01:36 HOUSE. I DON'T HOLD OFF THE SUSPENSE. 01:39 >> NO, NO. >> YOU MAY HAVE BEEN 01:43 WONDERING, WHATEVER HAPPENED TO HER. 01:45 TONIGHT CHERI PETERS, GOOD TO SEE YOU. 01:49 >> EVEN DRIVING IN, I THOUGHT, THIS IS REAL FAMILY. 01:53 THIS IS LIKE HOME. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN? 01:55 IT'S BEEN A WHILE. I FEEL LIKE IT WAS JUST 02:00 YESTERDAY. IT WAS LIKE I JUST SAW THEM 02:03 AND CATCHING UP WAS EASY BECAUSE I GET TO SEE YOU ON 02:06 3ABN. I GET TO SEE YOU AS YOU TRAVEL 02:08 AND SPEAK. >> I HAVE BEEN WITH 3ABN, I 02:16 THINK, 27, 28 YEARS. >> WOW. 02:18 YOU HAVE GROWN UP. >> I HAVE GROWN UP HERE. 02:23 WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN IN THIS MINISTER, I THINK IT WAS DANNY 02:26 AT THE TIME SAYING, WHAT GOD IS DOING INURE -- IN YOUR LIFE 02:34 AND HELPING ME DURING THAT TIME. 02:37 ENCOURAGING EVERYTHING. THEN BECOMING PART OF THE 02:40 FAMILY. ALL OF THAT HAS MADE A 02:42 DIFFERENCE IN EVERY PERSON WE GET TO TOUCH. 02:45 DEFINITELY YOU GUYS TOUCH ME. IT IS ONE PERSON THAT REACHES 02:51 OUT TO ANOTHER PERSON. REACHES OUT TO ANOTHER PERSON. 02:54 YOU WERE VERY MUCH A PART OF MY STANDING UP. 02:57 >> WE HAVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES TOGETHER. 02:59 WE HAVE WORKED MINISTER TOGETHER. 03:00 WE ARE EXCITED YOU ARE HERE. SOMEBODY WATCHING THE PROGRAM 03:04 THAT MIGHT SAY, I DON'T KNOW WHO STHAIRP CHERI PETERS IS. 03:09 GIVE US AN OVERVIEW OF WHO YOU ARE. 03:14 >> YOUR MINISTER. >> ALL OF THAT STUFF. 03:16 >> I BROUGHT A TRAILER TO DO THAT. 03:22 WE HAVE A NON-PROFIT, INTERNATIONAL NON-PROFIT. 03:25 I WORK WITH PEOPLE THAT ARE AT-RISK FOR -- THEY FEEL THEY 03:30 CAN'T STEP INTO A NORMAL LIFE. WHETHER THEY HAVE BEEN ABUSED 03:34 OR HAVE DYSFUNCTION OR IN DIFFERENT COUNTRIES THEY ARE 03:38 MARRIED AT 8 YEARS OLD, SOLD INTO PROSTITUTION OR RAISED BY 03:45 ADDICTS. THEY ARE PEOPLE WHO THERE IS 03:47 NO WAY TO HAVE A LIFE. I THINK, I USED TO THINK THAT, 03:50 TOO. THAT'S NOT TRUE. 03:53 >> THAT'S RIGHT. >> HOW DO YOU GET THEM THERE 03:56 WHERE THEY KNOW NOT ONLY CAN THEY HAVE A LIVE BUT THEY MAY 04:00 END UP WITH A LIFE THEY WOULDN'T TRADE FOR ANYONE. 04:03 THAT'S WHAT I'D LIKE TO TALK ABOUT, WHAT DOES THAT FEELING 04:08 LOOK LIKE. WE WANT THAT FOR EACH AND 04:10 EVERY ONE OF US. >> YOU HAVE TEASED OUR 04:13 AUDIENCE. HIT THE RECORD BUTTON. 04:16 THIS WILL BE AN INFORMATIVE PROGRAM. 04:19 I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS, YOUR FINANCIAL 04:23 SUPPORT FOR 3ABN NETWORK. WE ARE IN OUR 35th YEAR. 04:29 FOR MANY OF YOU, EVEN THOSE WHO VOLUNTEER AND COME HERE, 04:35 WE THANK YOU FOR MAKING IT A REALITY. 04:38 >> I WOULD LIKE TO SAY, TOO, WHAT PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE THAT 04:41 3ABN DOES, THEY SEND OUT PEOPLE LIKE ME. 04:44 I'M NOTE THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS BEEN STOOD UP OVER THE YEARS. 04:48 WHEN YOU DONATE TO 3ABN AND ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU 04:52 GUYS DO, YOU ALSO ARE GOOD AT ENCOURAGING PEOPLE WHEN THEY 04:57 STAND UP AND DOING OTHER KIND OF MINISTRIES. 05:02 EVERY PENNY HELPS THEM. >> I LIKE THE WAY YOU SAID 05:05 THAT. HELP YOU STAND UP. 05:06 THAT'S REALLY GOOD. YOUR STORY IS AN AMAZING 05:09 STORY. WE HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE. 05:11 THERE IS SOMEONE WATCHING OR DRIVING IN YOUR CAR BECAUSE 05:13 YOU ARE PART OF 3ABN RADIO. >> WE WENT TO LUNCH TODAY AND 05:21 WHAT DID WE HEAR? FIRST I HEARD JOHN. 05:24 >> YES. >> I THOUGHT JOHN IS ON THE 05:27 RADIO. THEN I'M ON THE RADIO. 05:29 HOW FUNNY IS THAT? >> I KNOW! 05:35 >> WE HOST CROSS ROADS ON 3ABN RADIO. 05:39 I LOVE RADIO. WE REACH SO MANY PEOPLE. 05:43 >> WE'RE GLAD YOU'RE HERE TONIGHT. 05:45 BEFORE THE MUSIC, I WANT TO PUT A LITTLE DISCLAIMER. 05:48 CHERI PETERS IS, TO THE POINT AND HER MINISTRY COVERS MANY 05:55 DIFFERENT LINES. SHE GAVE YOU A TEARDROP -- A 05:58 WATERDROP OF WHAT HER BACKGROUND IS ABOUT. 06:02 WE'LL SHARE A 2 MINUTE VIDEO WHICH I WANT TO GIVE YOU A 06:06 DISCLAIMER. IT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL 06:10 AUDIENCES. I'M LETTING YOU KNOW. 06:12 NOT THE WHOLE PROGRAM BUT JUST THE 2 MINUTE VIDEO. 06:16 IT WILL COVER IN A SUMMARY, 2 MINUTES, 6 SECONDS, A SUMMARY 06:20 OF HOW GOOD HAS LED IN CHERI'S LIFE, WHERE SHE HAS COME FROM 06:25 AND WHY HER MINISTRY IS SOING IS AND VITAL -- IS SO SIGNIFY 06:32 AND VITAL. IF YOU HAVE SOMEONE STRUGGLES 06:35 WITH DRUGS OR ADDICTIONS OR PORNOGRAPHY OR ABUSE. 06:39 ALL OF THOSE LINES, HER MINISTRY HAS BEEN ON THE FRONT 06:46 LINE AND 3ABN HAS BEEN BLESSED BY WHAT CHERI HAS DONE. 06:50 SHE WILL TELL YOU HOW GOD HAS DRITIONED HER LIFE -- 06:55 TRANSITIONED HER LIFE. WHERE HE FOUND HER. 06:57 >> I'LL HAVE NICE PICTURES. IT WILL BE A NICE JOURNEY. 07:03 >> WE HAVE SOME MUSIC. >> WE HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SONG 07:06 CALLED GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD BY SCOTT MICHAEL BENNET. 07:24 [♪♪] 07:58 [♪♪] HOLD OUT YOUR CANDLE♪ 08:10 ♪ FOR ALL TO SEE IT♪ ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE♪ 08:17 ♪ AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE♪ 08:25 ♪ GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ ♪ FRUSTRATED BROTHER♪ 08:37 ♪ SEE HOW HE'S TRIED TO♪ ♪ LIGHT HIS OWN CANDLE♪ 08:44 ♪ SOME OTHER WAY♪ ♪ SEE NOW YOUR SISTER♪ 08:51 ♪ SHE'S BEEN ROBBED AND LIED TO♪ 08:56 ♪ STILL HOLDS A CANDLE♪ ♪ WITHOUT A FLAME♪ 09:04 ♪ CARRY YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ RUN TO THE DARKNESS♪ 09:11 ♪ SEEK OUT THE LONELY♪ ♪ THE TIRED AND WORN♪ 09:18 ♪ HOLD OUT YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ FOR ALL TO SEE IT♪ 09:27 ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ 09:34 ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD. 09:48 WE ARE A FAMILY♪ ♪ WHOSE HEARTS ARE BLAZING♪ 09:53 ♪ SO LET'S RAISE OUR CANDLES AND LIGHT UP THE SKY♪ 10:00 ♪ PRAYING TO OUR FATHER♪ ♪ IN THE NAME OF JESUS♪ 10:09 ♪ MAKE US A BEACON♪ ♪ IN DARKEST TIMES♪ 10:17 ♪ CARRY YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ RUN TO THE DARKNESS♪ 10:24 ♪ SEEK OUT THE HELPLESS♪ ♪ DECEIVED AND POOR♪ 10:32 ♪ HOLD OUT YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ FOR ALL TO SEE IT♪ 10:40 ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE♪ ♪ AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ 10:50 ♪ CARRY YOUR CANDLE GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD. 11:00 ♪ TAKE YOUR CANDLE AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ 11:09 ♪ GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD♪ ♪ GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD. 11:30 >> THANK YOU, SCOTT, FOR THAT LONG "GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD." 11:33 WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT THAT AS SCOTT WAS SINGING 11:38 THAT. THAT SONG WAS SIGNIFICANT TO 11:40 YOU. >> YEAH. 11:41 IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL. THE FIRST TIME I HEARD T I 11:43 CRIED LIKE A BABY. BECAUSE SOMEBODY COMES AND 11:47 LIGHTS YOUR CANDLE. HOWEVER THAT HAPPENS. 11:50 THEN YOU GET IT. THEN YOU LIGHT SOMEONE'S 11:54 ELSE'S THE SONG IS BEAUTIFUL. THERE IS A LOT OF PEOPLE 11:58 SUFFERING. SO DON'T JUST RECEIVE HIM. 12:01 STANDS UP AND DO SOMETHING WITH HIM. 12:04 >> CARRY THE TORCH. >> YES. 12:06 I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH THE FIRST PASTOR I HAD WHEN I CAME BACK, 12:10 WHEN I CAME TO THE CHURCH, HIS GIFTS WERE STANDING PEOPLE UP. 12:17 HIS GIFT WAS WHAT IS GOD GOING TO DO WITH YOU? 12:22 I'M AN ADDICT IN RECOVERY, I BARELY NO HOW MANY TO READ. 12:25 THEY PUT ME IN TIME LINE STUDY GROUPS WHEN I'M JUST WANTING 12:31 TO SHOOT MYSELF. HE SAID WHAT DOES GOD WANT TO 12:36 DO WITH YOU? I SAID I DON'T KNOW. 12:38 HEALING IS THE BEST I CAN ASK FOR. 12:42 WHAT I KNEW THAT DAY, THIS REALLY IS ALL ABOUT GOD. 12:46 EVERY SINGLE THING I RELY ON IS THAT THAT I FIGURED IT OUT, 12:51 BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL. SOMEBODY SAYS YOU'RE DOING SO 12:57 GOOD? HUH-UH, GOD IS DOING SO GOOD. 12:59 EVERY DAY THAT I'M DEALING WITH THINGS, WORKING ON 13:01 THINGS, LEARNING NEW THINGS, I WILL STILL SEE AREAS, ARE WE 13:07 READY TO HEAL HERE? I DON'T THINK YOU CAN EVER 13:11 STOP, YOU CAN NEVER TAKE CREDIT. 13:14 >> ARE A GOOD WORK AND WILL YOU COMPLETE IT. 13:17 WE WILL TALK ABOUT THAT. BEFORE WE GO TO THE VIDEO. 13:19 I WANT TO GIVE A DISCLAIMER. WE'LL SHARE A 2 MINUTE VIDEO 13:25 THAT GIVES AN OVERVIEW OF WHERE GOD LED CHERI. 13:29 HOW HE LED HER LIFE. AND SOME COMPONENTS OF HER 13:33 LIFE. AMAZING, THIS IS TRUE ABOUT 13:37 EVERY ONE OF US. WHO WE ARE BEFORE CITE AND WHO 13:41 WE BECOME EVEN SURPRISES US. WE LOOK AT WHERE WE STARTED 13:44 AND WHERE WE ARE NOW-AND-IT'S A MIRACLE. 13:47 YOU MAY THINK, CAN GOD DO ANYTHING IN MY LIFE. 13:52 I GUARANTEE YOU, I CHARGE YOU, AFTER THIS PROGRAM IS DONE, WE 13:56 HAVE AN HOUR AND 15 MINUTES. THERE WILL BE NO DOUBT IN YOUR 14:00 MIND THAT GOD CAN TAKE CLAY AND MOLE THE MOST AMAZING-MACHINE -- MOLD THE MOST 14:07 AMAZING MACHINE PROTOTYPE. THERE IS NO ONE LIKE YOU. 14:13 YOU ARE AN ORIGINAL. IN SPITE YOUR PAST HE WILL 14:17 RESHAPE YOU AND REMOLD YOU AND LIKE SCOTT MICHAEL BENNET 14:22 SAYS, HE WILL LIGHT YOUR WORLD. 14:24 IF YOU HAVE CHILDREN WATCHING, THIS 2 MINUTE VIDEO MAY NOT BE 14:29 SUITABLE FOR ALL AUDIENCES. AFTER THE VIDEO I ENCOURAGE 14:32 YOU TO COME BACK BECAUSE THE PROGRAM WILL BE VERY 14:36 INFORMATIVE. THIS VIDEO WILL GIVE YOU AN 14:38 OVERVIEW. YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHO CHERI 14:41 PETERS IS IN MORE DETAIL. >> I HAVE BEEN MOLESTED MY 14:47 WHOLE LIFE. I WS BEAT, RAPED, URINATED 14:50 ON. IT WAS HORRENDOUS. 14:53 I DIDN'T WANT TO BE MOLESTED. I DIDN'T WANT ANOTHER THAT 14:59 COULDN'T STAND TO LOOK A ME. I DIDN'T WANT TO BE HOMELESS 15:02 AT 18 YEARS OLD. I DIDN'T WANT TO BE A STRIPPER 15:07 IN THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY. ALL I WANTED IN MY WHOLE LIFE 15:11 WAS TO BE LOVED. >> SOMETIMES ONY GOD CAN 15:22 HEAL. AND CHERI IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE 15:25 OF THIS. THERE IS NO OTHER MEDICAL 15:28 EXPLANATION. >> WHEN YOU ARE ON THE STREETS 15:31 YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE THAT -- YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 15:37 YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE IN THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY OR 15:44 FUNNEL KIDS INTO MOVING DRUGS AROUND, WHATEVER. 15:46 I WAS NO DIFFERENT. AS SOON AS I WAS THERE I WAS 15:49 PICKED UP AND EDUCATED. WHEN I SAY EDUCATED, THE ONLY 15:52 THING I CAN TELL YOU ABOUT THAT IS THAT -- THE THINGS IN 16:01 MY FAMILY, I MEAN, IT REALLY IS HARD TO THE TO -- TO BE IN 16:07 THE SAME HOUSE WITH PEOPLE THAT VIEW YOU AS A PROBLEM. 16:14 WHAT I LEARNED IS THAT YOU ARE -- I'M NOT ASKING YOU ABOUT THIS. 16:22 I TOLD YOU! >> YOU ARE AN INDIVIDUAL ABLE 16:33 TO COPE AND SURVIVE THE TRAUMA OF THESE EVENTS. 16:38 NO DOCTOR, HUMAN DOCTOR COULD HAVE CHANGED YOUR CHEMISTRY 16:42 WITH THE DAMAGE OF ALL THE ABUSE. 16:44 IT TOOK THE ULTIMATE PHYSICIAN. 16:47 GOD CAN HEAL CASES WHERE NO ONE ELSE CAN. 16:55 >> OOH. >> THAT'S JUST A GLIMPSE INTO 16:58 A LIFE THAT TOOK YEARS, FROM ABUSE TO IT TRAUMA TO THE 17:04 STREETS TO THE DRUGS, TO THE SEX. 17:07 ALL THE THINGS THAT WERE ALLUDED TO IN THAT IT VIDEO, 17:10 TO THE PERSON THAT CHERI IS TODAY. 17:13 I WANT TO GIVE YOU AN OPPORTUNITY TO JUST KIND OF 17:17 TAKE OFF FROM WHERE WE DISCUSSED. 17:19 >> EVEN THE BACKGROUND THAT I HAD, BY THE TIME I WAS 23 17:22 YEARS OLD, I REMEMBER NOT HAVING ANY HOPE AT ALL. 17:28 I HAD BEEN KIDNAPPED, BE I WAS FAIRLY ILLITERATE. 17:34 I WAS STRUNG OUT A HEROIN LIVING IN A DRUG HOUSE. 17:39 SOMEBODY CAME OVER TO BLOW MY HEAD COULD OFF, A DRUG DEAL HAD GONE 17:46 BAD. THEY WERE THREATENING ME 17:48 BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT I HAD STOLE SOME MONEY. 17:51 I THOUGHT, JUST SHOOT ME. I AM SO DONE IT. 17:54 WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS, A LOT OF OTHER THINGS HAPPENED. 17:59 JUST A LONG STORY. BUT WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS, I 18:02 HAD AN ENCOUNTER WITH GOD. I BELIEVE I HAD AN ENCOUNTERS 18:06 WITH GOD. I HAD TRIED TO GO BACK HOME. 18:09 THAT DIDN'T WORK OUT. MY MOM GAVE ME AN 18:14 AUTOBIOGRAPHY THAT TALKED ABOUT HER LIFE STORY. 18:16 I DIDN'T WANT TO READ IT. I WANTED TO TEAR IT UP. 18:19 I GOT BACK TO THE DRUG HOUSE I WAS LIVING IN AND I THREW THE 18:24 AUTOBIOGRAPHY ON THE BED. I WAS TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO 18:27 KILL MYSELF BECAUSE I WAS SO DONE. 18:28 THE GUY DIDN'T SHOOT ME. HE WAS JUST TRYING TO SCARE 18:32 ME. I SAID MY NEXT BREATH SCARES 18:35 ME. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE. 18:38 I TRIED TO HAASS HIM INTO SHOOTING ME. 18:43 HE. "YOU'RE CRAZY." 18:46 NOW I'M TRYING TO FINDS A WAY TO KILL MYSELF. 18:48 I LOOKED AT THAT AUTOBIOGRAPHY. 18:50 I JUST SAT AND CRIED. NOW I KNOW IT WAS THE HOLY 18:54 SPIRIT. THERE ARE SOMETIMES GOD 18:56 STEPPED IN AND THEY FEEL THE PRESENCE OF GOD. 18:58 I NEVER HAD. AND THAT MOMENT I FELT THE 19:01 PRESENCE OF GOD. I JUST FELT LIKE GOD SAID 19:05 "OPEN UP THE ENVELOPE." OPEN IT UP. 19:10 WHAT WAS CRAZY IS I FELT SAFE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. 19:16 AND I THOUGHT I KNEW IT WAS GOD EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT RAISED 19:21 CHRISTIAN. I DON'T HAVE A CHRISTIAN 19:22 BACKGROUND. FOR SOME REASON I KNEW IT WAS 19:25 GOD. I DIDN'T HEAR A VOICE. 19:27 I WAS JUST IMPRESSED TO OPEN THE EVELOPE. 19:31 IT WAS MY MOM'S LIFE STORY. MY MOM HAD BEEN ABUSED. 19:38 HER PARENTS WERE ALCOHOLICS. SHE WAS MOVED AROUND A NUMBER 19:41 OF TIMES. MY DAD STARTED MOLESTING US 19:45 WHEN I WAS 3 MONTHS OLD. HE MOLESTED US. 19:50 I GOT KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE. SHE TALKED ABOUT THAT. 19:53 THEN SHE MARRIED MY STEPDAD, WHO WAS A BARTENDER AND 20:00 ALCOHOLIC. AS MUCH AS I LOVED HIM, HE 20:02 STILL HAD ALL OF THAT STUFF. SHE IS TELLING HER STORY. 20:07 ON THE THIRD PAGE IT SAID THE ONLY REASON I SURVIVED AT ALL 20:11 I TOOK MY ANGER AND HATRED OUT ON MY SECOND CHILD AND RUINED 20:17 HER LIFE. I HEARD GOD SAID THIS IS NEVER 20:20 ABOUT YOU. MY WHOLE LIFE, I THINK I JUST 20:23 WANTED TO SCREAM. WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT SHE 20:29 DOESN'T LOVE OR I DON'T FIT IN OR I DON'T BELONG. 20:34 BY THE TIME YOU HAVE HAD ALL OF THAT TRAUMA AND ALL OF THAT 20:37 DAMAGE, THAT SENSE OF BEING WORTHLESS IS SO INGRAINED WITH 20:42 WHO YOU ARE. >> I WANT TO GO BACK WTH WHAT 20:44 YOU SAID. SOMEBODY MAY HAVE MISSED IT. 20:46 I WANT TO CAPITALIZE ON THAT. WHAT YOUR MOTHER WENT THROUGH, 20:50 YOU WERE THE OUTLET. THE OUTLET FOR ALL OF THE 20:56 FRUSTRATION. IT REALLY WASN'T ABOUT YOU. 20:59 YOU BECAME THE PUNCHING BAG. YOU BECAME TO DRIVE ALL OF HER 21:06 DYSFUNCTION. >> AND I THINK WHEN I READ 21:08 THAT, ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYTHING MADE SENSE. 21:11 IT WAS SO BRAVE, I THINK, OF MY MOM TO HAND ME THAT. 21:17 SHE GOT AN A. MY MOM HAD GONE BACK TO 21:22 SCHOOL. SHE TOOK SOCIAL WORK. 21:25 SHE BECAME A SOCIAL WORKER. HER TEACHER GAVE HER AN A WHEN 21:32 SHE WROTE HER OWN STORY. UNDERNEATH THAT IT SAYS 21:37 "PLEASE GIVE THIS TO CHERI." SHE DID. 21:39 WHEN I FIRST READ THAT, RIGHT, THE BEST I COULD, I WAS 21:44 FUNCTIONALLY ILLITERATE. WHEN I SAW "GIVE THIS TO 21:48 CHERI." I THOUGHT WHAT IS THIS? 21:50 IT WAS HER STORY. THE ONLY LINE THAT REALLY 21:52 STOOD OUT TO ME IS THE ONLY WAY I SURVIVED IS TOOK MY 21:58 ANGER AND HATRED OUT ON MY SECOND CHILD. 22:01 GOD SAID IT WASN'T ABOUT YOU. IT WASN'T ABOUT YOU. 22:05 IF YOU TRUST ME, I CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE. 22:08 THAT'S THE SENSE I GOT WITH HIM. 22:11 I WEPT. I HAD 42 WARRANTS FOR MY 22:14 ARREST. I LIVE IN A DRUG HOUSE. 22:16 I'M STRUNG OUT ON HEROIN. I COULD READ SECOND OR THIRD 22:22 GRADE LEVEL. I'M THINKING NOT ONLY -- NOT 22:26 EVEN GOD CAN CHANGE THAT. I FELT THAT STRONGLY. 22:31 WHAT GOD DID, I BELIEVE, IS HE SHOWED ME WHO I AM THE DAY 22:39 AFTER RESURRECTION. NOT COMPLETELY. 22:42 JUST A GLIMPSE OF WHO I AM THE DAY AFTER. 22:45 AND THE DAY AFTER. ENCLOSED IN LIGHT. 22:50 I'VE LOVED. I'M NOT AN ADDICT. 22:55 I'M NOT AN ABUSED KID. I'M A CHILD OF GOD. 22:59 ALL I CAN SAY, I SAW A TINY GLIMPSE OF THAT. 23:05 NOT THAT I THINK IT WOULD HAVE KILLED ME. 23:08 BUT A TINY GLIMPSE ENOUGH THAT I THOUGHT IF THAT IS WHERE YOU 23:13 ARE TAKING ME, I'LL STAND UP. >> YOU CAN ONLY SEE THE PEAK 23:22 OF YOUR LIFE. YOU SEE THE PINNACLE. 23:25 AND THE LORD, KNOWING WHAT YOU CAN HANDLE, TOOK YOU A LITTLE 23:29 AT A TIME IN THE DIRECTION. >> EVEN MORE SO THAN THAT, 23:34 JOHN, IS THAT I DON'T THINK HE COULD HAVE SHOWED ME ANYTHING 23:40 ON EARTH THAT WOULD HAVE GIVEN ME THE COURAGE TO STAND UP. 23:44 HE SHOWED ME THE DAY AFTER. THE DAY AFTER. 23:49 ANYTHING HERE IT IS TOUGH HERE AT TIMES. 23:53 THIS RECOVERY JOURNEY IS NOT EASY. 23:54 FOR SOME PEOPLE THT HAVEN'T BEEN LOVED AND HAVEN'T HAD ALL 23:58 OF THAT KIND OF STUFF, I CAN'T SAY YOU WILL FIND GOD HAVE A 24:05 MOTHER. I HAVE SEEN PEOPLE WITH 24:07 MOTHERS AND FATHERS. I NEVER REALLY HAD THAT. 24:10 I NEVER SAT ON MY FATHER'S LAP, NEVER HAD STORIES READ TO 24:15 ME. IT WAS NOT ANYTHING I COULD 24:17 SAY I HAD. WE'LL GET INTO THE HEALING IN 24:21 MY FAMILY. GOD HAD TO SAY THERE IS 24:27 ANOTHER PLACE. >> HOW MANY KIDS? 24:29 >> I HAVE FOUR SISTERS, ONE BROTHER. 24:36 EVERYBODY IN OUR FAMILY DEALT WITH ADDICTION. 24:41 GUYS ARE WAITING FOR LIVES. GRANDPARENTS, ALCOHOLICS. 24:47 WE JUST HAD A NUMBER OF ADDICTIONS IN OUR FAMILY. 24:52 >> ALMOST GENERATIONAL. >> IT IS GENERATIONAL. 24:54 >> WHEN YO THINK ABOUT THAT, I WANT TO GO BACK TO SOMETHING 24:57 YOU MENTIONED A MOMENT AGO. I DON'T KNOW, WHEN I MEET A 25:03 PERSON WHO SAYS "I'VE NEVER HAD PROBLEMS." 25:06 I CAN'T ALWAYS IDENTIFY WITH THAT. 25:11 BEING ABANDONED AT 3 MONTHS OLD, MOM IN WHERE AROUND. 25:19 I THINK, WOW, THIS IS WHAT YOU SAW WITH MY MOTHER DROPPED ME 25:25 OFF AT A BABYSITTER AND DIDN'T COME BACK. 25:30 JEREMIAH 11 IS ONE OF OUR FAVORITE PASSAGES. 25:35 YOU LOOK BACK NOW AS YOU REWIND YOUR DVD, YOUR VIDEO 25:40 TAPE, WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE? >> I COULD NOT STOP CRYING THE 25:43 FIRST TIME SOMEBODY READ THAT TO ME. 25:46 GOD HIMSELF HAS PLANS FOR ME. >> ISN'T THAT AMAZING? 25:49 >> THAT'S AMAZING. YOU GUYS ARE MY FRIENDS. 25:54 >> YES. >> ONE TIME I WAS AT 3ABN, SEE 25:58 IF YOU REMEMBER THIS. I'M AT 3ABN. 26:01 I GET A CALL. THEY SAID MY FATHER DIED. 26:07 MY FATHER HAD MOLESTED ME MOST OF MY LIFE, EVEN WHEN I TRIED 26:11 TO MAKE CONTACT, IT WAS VERY SEXUAL AND PERVERTED. 26:15 I SAID I HAVE TO WALL OFF THIS RELATIONSHIP. 26:20 YOU WILL NEVER HOLD MY CHILD. I WAS HAVING A CHILD. 26:23 I FIND OUT HE DIED. I WAS SO -- AT FIRST I HERD 26:29 IT. AND I THOUGHT AM I GOING TO 26:31 FEEL ANYTHING? THEN I STARTED TO JUST WEEP. 26:37 I WEPT AND WEPT AND WEPT. I DON'T KNOW HOW ANYBODY ELSE 26:42 KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON. PRETTY SOON I HEAR A KNOCK ON 26:49 THE DOOR. IT WAS YOU GUYS. 26:51 I REMEMBER NOT SAYING ANYTHING. 26:54 JUST GOT QUIET AND CRIED. [KNOCK KNOCK] 26:59 >> I GOT QUIET. >> THEN I HEARD YOU OR JOHN 27:01 SAY, CHERI, WE KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE. 27:04 PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR. I THOUGHT IF YOU KNOW I'M IN 27:09 HERE, YOU DOUGH I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE AND YOU 27:13 WOULD GO AWAY. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ASK FOR 27:15 HELP. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY "I'M 27:19 AFRAID." OR ANY OF THAT KIND OF STUFF. 27:22 ESPECIALLY THEN. WHEN I DID GET FRUSTRATED 27:24 ENOUGH TO ANSWER THE DOOR, I REMEMBER THE COMPASSION YOU 27:30 LOOKED AT ME WITH. YOU SAID I LOST MY DAD AND YOU 27:36 TOLD ME THE STORY OF YOUR DAD, THE JAZZ MUSICIAN. 27:40 NOT REALLY MAKING THE CONNECTIONS. 27:42 HE SAID I DON'T KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL BUT YOU ARE NOT 27:46 ALONG. >> I REMEMBER THAT. 27:50 YOU IS HAVE TO TAKE A BREATH. I REMEMBER BEING AT ANDREWS 27:55 UNIVERSITY AND NELSON WAS PREACHING WHEN MY DAUGHTER 27:59 PASSED AWAY. NOT KNOWING WHAT THE END WOULD 28:01 BE. HE WAS A JAZZ MUSICIAN ALL OF 28:03 HIS LIFE. I MET HIM WHEN I WAS 13. 28:08 WE HAD IT AFTER 30 YEARS. I DIDN'T CRY. 28:13 I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL. I NEVER REALLY MOURNED. 28:16 I REMEMBER DWIGHT NELSON SAYING TO ME, I GOD COULD 28:21 SAVE YOUR DAD, HE WOULD. DON'T YOU WORRY ABOUT IT. 28:25 IT GAVE ME A PEACE. I DON'T TALK MUCH ABOUT IT. 28:28 >> I REMEMBER YOU SAY TAG TO ME. 28:30 >> DWIGHT TOLD ME THAT AND I SHARED THAT WITH YOU. 28:33 THESE ARE THE THE BROKEN PLACES. 28:39 WE ARE STILL LEAKING, IF I CAN USE THAT. 28:42 WHAT GOD DOES TO LEAKY VESSELS IS AMAZING. 28:48 >> WHEN SOMEONE SAYS "I MET GOD." 28:52 ALL OF A SUDDEN I GOT ALL OF THIS HEALING. 28:55 I THINK GOD EVERY DAY THAT WE ARE ALIVE HE IS BRINGING US TO 28:59 A PLACE WHERE WE CAN SHED SOMETHING ELSE, OR GET TO SOME 29:07 OF THOSE PLACES AND HEAL. OR BRING SOMETHING TO SOMEONE 29:11 ELSE SO THEY CAN HEAL. YOU WILL FLOAT OFF TO HEAVEN. 29:17 IF YOU ARE NOT FLOATING, YOU'RE NOT GONE. 29:22 THAT IS SO, FOR ME, EVEN AS WE LOOK AT TONIGHT, THE DIRECTION 29:27 THAT GOD TOOK EVERYTHING. I'M SO PROUD OF HIM. 29:36 >> LOOK AT WHAT I MADE EVER MY CHILD. 29:41 GOD IS SUCH A GENUINE EXPRESSION. 29:43 I'M SO PROUD OF GOD. IT'S NOT A DISCREDITING THING. 29:47 BUT ISN'T IT AMAZING WHAT GOD IS DOING WHAT YOU SAY -- SAY 29:51 IT AGAIN. >> HE IS MY FATHER. 29:54 I REMEMBER EVEN AT THE FIRST PART OF MY RECOVERY WHEN I END 30:03 UP AT A HOUSE AND I END UP AT A HOUSE AND I'M TRYING TO FIND 30:09 COFFEE. SHE IS TRYING TO GIVE ME 30:11 WATER. I I'M THINKING I DON'T SURVIVE 30:14 THIS. IT SEEMED LIKE EVERY TIME I 30:16 WOKE UP GOD WANTED TO SOW ME SOMETHING ELSE. 30:19 IT WAS LIKE HE JUST WAS SO EXCITED THAT I'M STEPPING INTO 30:23 A HEALTHIER PLACE. THE WHOLE WORLD IS OPENING UP. 30:30 >> YOU HAVE SA A SAYING THAT I LOVE. 30:33 GOD IS CRAZY ABOUT US. >> HE REALLY IS CRAZY ABOUT 30:37 US. SO I THINK THAT EVERY PART OF 30:40 THAT NEXT PART OF THE JOURNEY WAS INCREDIBLE. 30:44 I WOULD LIKE TO SAIF ABOUT FAMILY -- 30:50 >> TALK ABOUT YOUR FAMILY. WE HAVE PICTURES. 30:53 I WILL WALK THROUGH AD MAKE THIS POINT BEFORE THE FIRST 30:57 HOUR IS GONE. WE WANT TO ENCOURAGE TO YOU 31:02 CALL IN YOUR PRAYER REQUEST. IF YOU HAVE A COMMENT YOU CAN 31:05 SEND THAT, TOO. IN THE SECOND HOUR, IF YOU 31:08 WANT TO CALL, YOU CAN CALL 618-627-4651. 31:14 THERE IS THE E-MAIL ADDRESS LIVE @3ABN. 31:20 LIVE AT 3ABN.TV. WE'LL FIELD THOSE IN THE 31:28 SECOND HOUR. WE HAVE SOME PICTURES. 31:30 IF YOU HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY, RAISE YOUR HAND. 31:35 IF YOU HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY AND YOU JUST NEED -- I HAVEN'T MET 31:41 ANYBODY WHO DOESN'T HAVE -- YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE THESE CRAZY 31:48 LIVES WE LIVE THROUGH AND WE TRY TO LOOK AS NORMAL AS 31:53 POSSIBLE. IT IS AN ACT OF PRAYER. 31:56 WE NEED TO PRAY FOR EACH OTHER. 31:59 >> I REALLY DO LIKE THAT. THERE IS NOT A PERSON WALKING, 32:03 UNLESS YOU'RE AN ONLY CHILD AND YOUR FAMILY IS DECEASED. 32:07 BUT IN EVERY CASE WE ALL HAVE SOMEBODY -- I'LL USE THIS 32:13 EXPRESSION, COMPANY IS COMING OVER, STAY IN YOUR ROOM. 32:17 >> JUST BE NORMAL. >> DON'T MESS UP THE PARTY. 32:19 >> IF YOU DON'T, YOU ARE THAT PERSON. 32:23 IT MIGHT BE YOU. >> IT MIGHT BE YOU. 32:26 YOU HAVE HAD IN YOUR FAMILY, AN INTERESTING FAMILY. 32:30 WALK US THROUGH. FOR THOSE LISTENING ON RADIO. 32:34 WE'LL START WITH A PICTURE OF BRAD, BRAD IS YOUR HUSBAND. 32:40 YOU AND BRAD. >> EVEN WITH BRAD AND I. 32:43 THIS FIRST THING THAT I WAS AMAZED AT. 32:45 WHEN BRAD AND I MET, HE IS A PHILHARMONIC MUSICIAN, HIS DAD 32:52 WAS AN AMBASSADOR FOR THE UNITED STATES FOR A LITTLE BIT 32:55 TO BANGLADESH. HIS MOM IS A VOIENLIST WHO 33:00 PLAYED IN THE ORCHESTRA BEFORE SHE RETIRED. 33:05 THEY HAVE A NORMAL FAMILY. EVERYBODY HAS BEEN STUFF. 33:09 THEY HAVE A NORMAL FAMILY. MY FAMILY IS NOT LIKE THAT. 33:12 I MARRIED INTO A FAMILY THAT WAS WAY DIFFERENT THAN I AM. 33:18 SO I THINK EVEN FOR GOD TO STAY, WE STAND UP IN RECOVERY. 33:24 WE STAND UP IN OUR JOURNEY WITH GOD. 33:27 HE SAYS TRUST ME WITH EVERYTHING. 33:29 TRUST ME WITH EVERYTHING. EVEN WHO YOU WILL LOVE. 33:33 WHAT WE WANT TO PICK OUT OUR MATES, THAT WILL NEVER WORK 33:38 FOR ME. GOD HAS TO DO THAT. 33:41 I THINK BRAD WAS ONE OF THOSE THINGS. 33:44 BEING ABLE TO TRUST GOD WITH THAT. 33:48 BRAD AND I HAVE HAD TO WORK THROUGH A TON OF STUFF. 33:50 WE HAVE HAD GREAT TILES. WE HAD TIMES WE WORKED THROUGH 33:55 THINGS. BUT WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER 30 33:57 YEARS NOW. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD 34:00 BE IN LOVE, BE MARRIED, AND HAVE THE ABILITY TO BE A 34:07 PARTNER TO SOMEONE. WHEN I FIRST GOT IN RECOVERY, 34:14 GOD STARTED TO WORK ON THINGS. I TOOK THE REINS RIGHT AWAY. 34:19 "YOU MUST WANT ME TO TOP DOING DRUGS, OR STOP THIS OR STOP 34:23 THAT." IT TOOK HIM 15 YEARS TO JUST 34:26 GET MY ATTENTION. HE SAID "I WANT YOU TO LEARN 34:29 HOW TO TRUST. I WANT YOU TO LEARN HOW TO 34:32 LOVE." HE IS TRYING TO TEACH ME 34:35 SOMETHING WAY DIFFERENT THAN I THOUGHT THE DIRECTION I WAS 34:38 GOING. HE DID THAT THROUGH MY 34:40 MARRIAGE. HOW DO YOU LEARN TO TRUST? 34:43 HOW DID YOU LEARN TO LOVE? IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT. 34:47 AS IT IS HAPPENING I'M LOOKING AT THE PERSON I'M LIVING WITH 34:51 OR SITTING ACROSS FROM AND SAYING, I'M LUCKY. 34:58 LUCK HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. 34:59 BUT THE FACT THAT GOD SAYS JUST WORK THROUGH WHATEVER YOU 35:04 HAVE TO WORK THROUGH. DON'T RUN. 35:06 DON'T HIDE. DON'T SHOOT EACH OTHER. 35:08 YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? I PROMISE YOU, THERE WILL BE A 35:12 TIME WHERE YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE BLESSING OF HAVING A 35:17 PARTNER. BRAD IS MY PARTNER. 35:21 >> YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER. >> I HAVE A DAUGHTER, JACKIE. 35:26 >> SHE I BEAUTIFUL. >> WHEN I ENDED UP PREGNANT, 35:29 WHAT WAS CRAZY TO ME, I WAS TOLD I COULDN'T GET PREGNANT. 35:34 I HAD BEEN PREGNANT WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL, LIKE 12, 13. 35:41 EVERYTHING GOT MESSED UP. I WAS TOLD I WOULD NEVER HAVE 35:43 A CHILD. I HAD JACKIE WHEN I WAS 33. 35:47 I WAS BESIDE MYSELF. I WAS SO -- IT WAS LIKE -- I 35:52 COULDN'T IMAGINE A COOLER GIFT THAN THAT. 35:56 THE PREGNANCY AND GOING THROUGH ALL OF THAT AND 36:02 KNOWING THAT THIS WAS BECAUSE OF GOD. 36:05 WHEN SOMEBODY SAYS, YOU KNOW, EVERY THOSE KIND OF BLESSINGS, 36:10 I MET GOD IN 1979. BUT I DIDN'T HAVE JACKIE FOR 36:14 YEARS. IT WAS YEARS. 36:19 MY FEELING, SOMETIMES PEOPLE GIVE UP ON GOD SO EARLY. 36:23 DON'T DO THAT. GOD PROMISED A FAMILY. 36:29 HE WILL DELIVER ON THAT PROMISE. 36:30 FOR ME, IT WAS YEARS AND YEARS DOWN THE ROAD. 36:33 I HAD THE BEST PREGNANCY EVER. SOMEONE SAYS HOW MANY TIMES 36:38 DID YOU GET SICK? NO, I FELT BEAUTIFUL THE 36:43 ENTIRE TIME. I HAD HER IN JULY, IT WAS SO 36:48 HOT AND I JUST FLOATED. I STAYED IN THE POOL. 36:52 EVEN GOING IN THE HOSPITAL THE DAY THAT I HAD HER, I JUST 37:02 COULDN'T GET OVER HAVING A BEAUTIFUL CHILD. 37:03 BRAD WAS DOING A CONCERT. HE WENT TO THE SYMPHONY. 37:08 HE WAS ON TELEVISION. HE SAID, IF YOU GO INTO LABOR, 37:12 I NEED TO YOU GET IN TOUCH WITH ME. 37:15 HE WAS DOING A SOLO. HE COULDN'T LEAVE UNTIL AFTER 37:18 THE SOLO. EVERYBODY KNEW I WENT INTO 37:21 LABOR HE WOULD SNEAK OFF EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE ON 37:26 TELEVISION. AFTER THE SOLO, I WENT INTO 37:28 LABOR. HE HAD TO SNEAK OFF. 37:31 I AM IN THE ROOM GETTING PREPPED, HE COMES RUNNING IN 37:35 WITH A TUXEDO. ALL THE NURSES WENT, THIS IS A 37:43 PRETTY CASUAL THING. EVEN THAT KIND OF STUFF WAS 37:47 FUN. JACKIE WAS AMAZING. 37:51 I LOVE BEING A MOM. AS WE GO THROUGH THAT WHOLE 38:02 THING, SHE CAME TO CHURCH. SHE DID CHILDREN'S STORY. 38:06 I WOULD JUST CRY. PEOPLE THAT WERE USED TO 38:09 HAVING CHURCH AND CHILDREN'S STORY AND NORMAL FAMILY TAKE 38:14 THAT FOR GRANTED. I COULDN'T BELIEVE I HAD THIS 38:19 BEAUTIFUL NORMAL CHILD. >> I AM RELIVING A LOT. 38:27 THINGS HAPPEN, ANGIE LOST HER DAD WHEN SHE WAS 3 YEARS OLD. 38:31 I DIDN'T HAVE MY MOM. >> I DIDN'T KNOW THAT, ANGIE. 38:38 >> MY MOTHER HAD EIGHT CHILDREN. 38:40 I'M THE EIGHTH. I WAS BORN IN JAMAICA. 38:45 THE LAST THREE WERE BORN IN ENGLAND. 38:53 HE HAD A HEART ATTACK. MY MOTHER WITH EIGHT CHILDREN. 38:56 ONE MOTHER, ONE FATHER. SHE WAS LEFT TO CARRY THE LOAD 39:00 OF RAISING ALL OF US. AND THEN MOVED TO AMERICA WITH 39:06 ALL OF US. WE WENT WHERE HER SISTER WAS 39:11 LIVING. YEAH, IT WAS A JOURNEY. 39:19 >> THE LORD, TAKE THAT BACKGROUND IN NEW YORK AND PUT 39:24 US TOGETHER. WE HAD BROKENNESS AND 39:28 EXPERIENCED BROKENNESS GOING UP. 39:30 GOD IS AMAZING WHAT HE CAN DO. >> SO GOOD. 39:34 >> I KNOW WE WON'T DO THAT BUT I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ABOUT 39:38 WHEN THAT HAPPENED. THAT GOD LITERALLY DURING YOUR 39:43 MARRIAGE ALLOWS TO YOU DEAL WITH THAT BROKENNESS TOGETHER. 39:50 I LOST MY DAD WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL. 39:53 I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO HAVE A FATHER BECAUSE I WAS 39:57 JUST THREE. THEN HERE COMES JOHN. 40:06 >> THERE IS JACKIE AND THEN -- >> JACKIE AND CHRIS. 40:10 JACKIE HAS A BABY. I JUST LOVE THEM. 40:14 I LOVE BOTH OF THEM. JACKIE HAS A BABY. 40:19 SHE WENT INTO THE HOSPITAL TO HAVE THIS CHILD. 40:23 SHE IS 30 HOURS LABOR. >> WOW. 40:26 >> WHEN SHE DELIVERS THIS BABY, I GET TO NOW HOLD THIS 40:32 CHILD. AS I HOLD THIS CHILD, WHAT I 40:36 THOUGHT, ALL OF A SUDDEN, EVERY FIGHT THAT I HAD TO 40:40 RECOVER MADE SENSE. MY WHOLE RECOVERY MADE SENSE. 40:45 GENERATIONALLY, GOD CHANGED EVERYTHING. 40:47 WHERE WE HAD ADDICT, ADDICT, ADDICT. 40:50 NOW WE HAVE SOMEBODY THAT CHOOSES TO TRUST GOD IN 40:54 RECOVERY. THEN THE NEXT GENERATION IS 40:57 CLEAN. THE NEXT GENERATION IS CLEAN. 41:00 ALL OF THE PROMISE IN THE BIBLE THAT I WILL CHANGE ALL 41:04 OF THAT. IN THAT MOMENT, FOR SOME 41:07 REASON, I JUST GOT IT. HE CHANGES ALL OF US. 41:12 EVEN THIS WHOLE TIME. I AM IN CHRIST. 41:17 I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL. I'M WORKING IN THE NURSING 41:21 FIELD. I'M A NURSE AND THEN GETTING 41:24 INTO MINISTRY. ALL OF THIS COOL STUFF WAS 41:27 HAPPENING. WHAT WAS HAPPENING HAPPENING IN MY 41:30 FAMILY THAT NOBODY SAW WAS EVEN BETTER. 41:34 IT WAS LIKE I WAS WATCHING GOD DO THINGS THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN. 41:39 ONCE YOU GET ALL OF THAT TRASH GOING ON, IN JUST TAKES 41:43 EVERYBODY DOWN AND SPIRALS DOWN. 41:45 GOD SAYS, THAT IS NOT IMPORTANT TO ME. 41:49 I HAVE BONDING DISORDERS AND GOD HAS TO DO A LOT OF STUFF 41:53 IN MY HEALING. EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE LOOKED 41:57 OVERWHELMINGLY DISCOURAGING. GOD SAYS DON'T IT LOOK AT A 42:00 PLATE. LOOK AT ME. 42:01 JUST LOOK AT ME. >> I LIKE THAT. 42:05 >> I'M LOOKING AT WHAT GOD IS DOING. 42:07 I'M GETTING MORE AND MORE SURE THAT GOD IS NEVER FINISHED 42:14 WITH US, OR OUR FAMILIES, EVER. 42:16 >> THE LORD DID SAY IN ISAIAH LOOK TO ME AND BE SAVED. 42:21 WHEN WE LOOK, I LIKE HOW YOU DREW THAT PICTURE. 42:28 DON'T LOOK. LOOK IN MY EYES. 42:31 ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU REALIZE THERE IS NO HARM COMING. 42:34 THERE IS NO ULTIMATE RORY MOTIVE. 42:37 THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE IT IS KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME. 42:44 YOU HOLD YOUR GRANDCHILD AND THINKING I WAS ASKING A DRUG 42:48 DEALER TO KILL ME. >> MY FIRST SUICIDE ATTEMPT AT 42:52 3 AND THEN 8. AS FAR AS WANTING TO KILL 42:58 MYSELF, I ALWAYS WANTED TO CHECK OUT. 43:01 I ALWAYS WANTED TO -- THIS WAS HARD IT. 43:05 WAS DIFFICULT. TO NOT BE LOVED MADE IT EVEN 43:08 HARDER. TO END UP ON THE STREETS WAS A 43:12 LITTLE EASIER BECAUSE I DIDN'T EXPECT ANYONE TO LOVE ME IT. 43:15 MADE IT A LITTLE EASIER. TO BE A YOUNG TEENAGER ON THE 43:18 STREETS OF L.A. >> WOW. 43:20 >> YOU SEE THINGS THAT ARE DARKER THAN WHAT I CAN EVEN 43:24 SHARE ON TELEVISION. EVEN NOW DAYS KIDS ARE PULLED 43:29 INTO THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY AND BEING USED AND ALL OF 43:33 THAT. I HAVE SEEN THAT LIFESTYLE, I 43:36 KNOW THAT LIFESTYLE. YOU SEE ALL OF THAT STUFF. 43:41 WATCHING GOD JUST TURN ALL OF THAT AROUND. 43:44 >> THEN HOLDING YOUR GRANDCHILD. 43:49 GOD SAW THIS MOMENT. WHEN I TELL THE DRUG DEALER, 43:52 JUST GO AHEAD AND SHOOT ME. IT WASN'T EVEN HIS CHOICE. 43:57 GOD SAID NO, THIS IS NOT HAPPENING. 44:00 THERE IS A DAUGHTER COMING. THERE IS A GRANDCHILD COMING. 44:02 THERE IS A BETTER FUTURE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS HILL. 44:06 SOMEBODY IS WATCHING THIS PROGRAM RIGHT NOW. 44:08 THEY ARE LISTENING IN THEIR CAR. 44:11 SOME YOUNG LADY, SOME YOUNG MAN OR SOME OLDER PERSON WHO 44:15 IS NOT ABLE TO PUT THESE PIECES TOGETHER. 44:18 THEY THINK IS THIS REALLY TRUE CHERI? 44:21 DID THIS REALLY HAPPEN? >> WHAT IS INTERESTING WHEN -- 44:26 I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO JUST HOLD YOUR FACE AND SAY THERE 44:31 IS A GOD IN HEAVEN THAT SEES YOU. 44:35 LITERALLY SEES YOU. EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT SEEN BY 44:38 ANYONE, OR WHERE IS GOD WHEN THIS IS HAPPENING, WHERE WAS 44:42 HE WHEN THIS HAPPENED. WHAT GOD TOLD ME, EVEN WITH MY 44:49 DAD, I TRIED TO GET YOUR DAD TO CHOOSE SOMETHING DIFFERENT 44:52 EVERY DAY. I TRIED TO GET YOUR DAD TO 44:56 LITERALLY STOP. THE ONLY WAY I COULD HAVE GOT 44:58 HIM TO STOP IS TO KILL HIM. IF I KILL EVERYBODY THAT SINS 45:03 THERE WOULD BE NOBODY HERE. HE SAID I HAVE TO GIVE FREE 45:08 CHOICE. GOD, I BELIEVE, IS THE ONLY 45:11 INNOCENT PARTY. HE SAID I PROMISE I MEAN HARM 45:14 TO NO ONE. NO ONE. 45:16 I WANT TO BLESS YOU. I WANT TO IT HEAL YOU. 45:19 I WANT TO BRING YOU TO A PLACE OF RECOVERY. 45:23 BEING ABLE TO SAY THAT WE HAVE A GOD THAT IS INNOCENT AND 45:30 WANTS TO BRING US TO A PLACE OF HEALING. 45:33 IT'S HARD TO TRUST. FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE INJURED, I 45:38 KNOW IT'S HARD TO TRUST. FOR ME I HAD TO START SMALL. 45:43 JUST SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO CAN STEP INTO YOUR 45:46 LIFE. SPEAK INTO YOUR LIFE. 45:48 I WAS LUCKY WITH THE PASTOR THAT CAME INTO MY LIFE. 45:52 I WAS REALLY BLESSED. GOD WAS SO FAITHFUL. 46:00 I KNOW -- I DON'T KNOW IF THIS WILL MAKE SENSE TO ANYBODY AT 46:06 ALL. I STARTED TO TELL YOU A JOKE. 46:10 ASK GOD TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING. SOMETIMES PEOPLE FORGET THAT 46:15 GOD IS VERY INTERACTIVE. GOD IS VERY MUCH INTO SHOWING 46:23 OF THINGS. SHE SAYS SOMETIMES WHEN YOU 46:28 TAKE WALKS, THE ANGELS WILL WALK WITH YOU. 46:31 SHARE THINGS WITH YOU. THE HOLY SPIRIT. 46:33 JUST BE PATIENT. ASK FOR THOSE COMMUNICATIONS. 46:37 TELL GOD, YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M GIVING YOU EVERYTHING. 46:41 I SURRENDER IT ALL TO YOU. CHERI SAYS YOU WOULD TELL ME A 46:49 JOKE. I THINK GOD BECAME VERY REAL 46:51 TO ME ON THIS JOURNEY. I HAVE ANOTHER PICTURE OF ALEX 46:58 THAT I BROUGHT. THIS IS HER AS A LITTLE BABY. 47:04 THE PICTURE BOOK HE IS READING -- I USED TOE WATCH HIS KIDS WHEN THEY WERE LITTLE 47:17 AND JACKIE WAS LITTLE. BECAUSE I WANTED TO LEARN 47:20 ABOUT GRAPHICS AND ART. I SAID I'LL WATCH YOUR KIDS 47:23 BUT I WANT TO COME IN YOUR STUDIO AND LOOK OVER THE 47:26 SHOULDER OF ALL OF YOUR ARTISTS BECAUSE THEY WERE SO 47:30 AMAZING. AT ONE POINT HE WAS DOING A 47:33 CHILDREN'S BOOK SERIES OF BIBLE STORIES. 47:36 I BROUGHT JACKIE'S WHOLE T-BALL TEAM IN. 47:40 SO THAT PICTURE WAS ALICE AND SHE IS LOOKING AT A STORY 47:45 RIGHT THERE OF HER MOTHER WHO IS IN THE STORY. 47:57 WHAT IS REALLY FUN, EVEN WATCHING THEM DO THAT. 48:01 NOW I HAVE THIS CHILD, BROUGHT THE WHOLE T-BALL TEAM IN. 48:09 WE HAD BIBLE READING TIME IN OUR NEIGHBORHOOD ALL THE KIDS 48:11 IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD WERE IN THOSE BOOKS. 48:14 THEY ALL GOT COPIES OF THE BOOKS. 48:17 THE FAMILIES WERE ALL DIFFERENT RELIGIONS. 48:20 WE CAME TO OUR HOUSE AND READ THOSE STORIES. 48:23 NOW ALICE IS BORN AND I'M GETTING TO -- I'M GETTING TO 48:29 KNOW SOMEHOW EVEN ALICE SOME OF THE STUFF THAT WE DID. 48:32 >> ALL SIS YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER. >> I CALL HER MY LITTLE GRANNY 48:41 GRANNY. I LIVE FIVE MILES AWAY, RIGHT 48:46 DOWN THE STREET. SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT THAT 48:49 FORTUNATE. I GET TO HANG OUT WITH HER. 48:52 SHE THINKS I'M THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND. 48:55 SHE JUST SCREAMS. >> DOES JACKIE KNOW YOUR 49:02 FAMILY? >> SHE WAS WITH MY FAMILY A 49:05 LITTLE BIT GROWING UP. BUT WHEN EVERYBODY WAS 49:15 ACTIVELY IN THEIR STUFF, WE WERE VERY FRAGMENTED. 49:21 >> BEING HEALED. >> DO YOU EVER THINK THAT 49:28 ALICE -- >> I THINK THAT IS THE NEXT 49:30 ONE. >> BEAUTIFUL.->> FOR MOST PEOPLE, THAT'S HOW 49:37 WE WERE MEANT TO BE. WE WERE MEANT TO BE LOVED. 49:39 WE WERE MEANT TO BE CARED FOR. WE WERE MEANT TO BE IN FAMILY. 49:45 PARENTS DON'T DIE, ALL OF THAT STUFF. 49:48 IT IS NOT THAT WAY FOR A LOT OF US. 49:50 A LOT OF US HAVE DIFFERENT THINGS THAT WE DEAL WITH. 49:54 WHAT I LOVE ABOUT GOD, AND THAT PART OF THE JOURNEY, EVEN 50:03 THOUGH HE BLESSED ME HE IN LOTS OF DIFFERENT WAYS IN MY 50:07 HEALING, HE BLESSED IN SUCH DEEP WAYS IN FAMILY. 50:13 ONE OF THE THINGS, I HAVE TO SAY WITH THAT, TOO, SOMEONE 50:18 SAID TO ME ONE TIME -- I WANT WHAT YOU HAVE. 50:23 I WANT A FMILY. I'M THINKING, MY JOURNEY HAS 50:28 BEEN 10, 15, 20 YEARS. JUST BE PATIENT. 50:35 >> I LIKE THAT. >> PEOPLE WANT IT BUT THEY 50:37 WANT IT OVERNIGHT. FOR ANY OF US, WE START OUR 50:44 RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND STEP INTO OUR RECOVERY. 50:49 IT REALLY IS -- THIS MAY TAKE A MINUTE. 50:54 THE WOUNDING IS SO DEEP. EVERYTHING IS SUCH A BIG DEAL. 51:00 EVEN TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE YOU ARE LOOKING AT YOUR FAMILY 51:05 OF ORIGIN STUFF AND ALLOWING THAT TO BRING HEALING INTO 51:07 OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES, TOO, SO HE CAN DO THIS. 51:10 ALL OF THAT TAKES TIME. DON'T GET IMPATIENT. 51:13 >> THAT'S RIGHT. >> MAKE SURE THAT YOU STAY IN 51:16 YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD EVERY DAY. 51:19 SOMEBODY SAYS WHAT DOES TA LOOK LIKE? 51:21 WHAT DOES THAT MEAN TO STAY IN RELATIONSHIP? 51:25 FOR ME, IT'S PRETTY SPECIFIC. I LOVE TO HE UP THE WORD OF 51:31 GOD. I LOVE TO WRITE PRAYERS. 51:35 I LOVE TO WRITE IN JOURNALS. I LOVE TO STUDY STUFF. 51:38 I LOVE TO DO OUTREACH, WHAT I PARTS FOR A LIVING IS 51:45 MINISTRY. THAT KEEPS ME VERY 51:47 CONNECTEDDED WITH GOD. IF I DISCONNECT WITH GOD, I 51:51 THINK IT SLOWS HIM DOWN ON HIS ABILITY TO BRING HEALING. 51:56 SOMETIMES WE GET DISCOURAGED AND WE GET MAD AT GOD. 52:01 HOOK THE AT ME AGAIN. LOOK AT ME AGAIN. 52:04 THE DEVIL LIED TO YOU. HE GOT YOU AFRAID OF THE VERY 52:09 JOURNEY THAT IS BRINGING YOU TO A PLACE OF VICTORY. 52:12 BEING ABLE TO SAY WE CAN'T BELIEVE LIES. 52:16 IF YOU ARE IN TURMOIL, IF YOU ARE BEING SHAKEN, IF YOU ARE 52:21 GETTING REALLY DISCOURAGED, YOU BELIEVE IN LIES. 52:25 LIES ARE OF THE ENEMY. >> WE HAVE A FEW MORE PICTURES 52:29 BEFORE THE FIRST HOUR COMES TO AN END. 52:32 TO REMIND YOU, WE ARE TAKING COMMENTS OR PRAYER REQUESTS IN 52:35 THE SECOND HOUR. YOU CAN CALL IN, 618-627-4651. 52:41 OR YOU CAN E-MAIL US AT LIVER @3ABN.TV. 52:49 live@3abn.tv. CHERI SAYS EVERYBODY HAS 52:53 SOMETHING TO PRAY FOR. WHAT I LIKE ABOUT CHERI PETERS 52:59 PARTICULARLY IS THIS IS NOT A WATER PROGRAM, THIS IS DEEP 53:07 SEA DIVING PROGRAM. WE WANT TO GET BELOW THE 53:10 SURFACE. YOU REALLY CAN'T APPRECIATE 53:12 WHAT GOD CREATED BELOW THE SURFACE. 53:14 THAT'S WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOUR LIFE. 53:16 YOU SAY, HEY, I KNOW WHAT IS BELOW THE SURFACE. 53:20 THERE ARE SOME BEAUTIFUL FISH. >> WAIT ON THE LORD. 53:25 >> SAY THAT AGAIN. >> WAIT ON THE LORD. 53:28 I WANT MY MIRACLE NOW. WAIT ON THE LORD. 53:31 SOMETIMES IT TAKES YEARS AS WE DISCUSSED AT LUNCHTIME. 53:35 >> EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING. THINGS ARE HAPPENING EVERY DAY 53:39 EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT SEEING IT. GOD SAYS I WISH I COULD SHOW 53:43 YOU EVERYTHING THAT HAS TO HAPPEN BEFORE YOU SEE IT. 53:46 BECAUSE I'M PRETTY SLOW. >> I LIKE THAT. 53:50 LET'S SEE SOME MORE PICTURES. >> THIS IS ALICE IN TE CHOIR. 53:57 CHILDREN'S STORY AND IN THE CHOIR. 53:59 SHE IS ACTING OUT BECAUSE SHE TAKES AFTER HER GRANDMA. 54:03 BEING ABLE TO SEE HER DOING CHILDREN'S STORY AND BEING IN 54:07 THE CHOIR, ALL OF THAT STUFF IS AMAZING. 54:10 THE NEXT THING I LOOK AT, THIS IS MY OWN FAMILY AND HOW 54:18 INCREDIBLE GOD WAS IN MY OWN HOME. 54:20 AND NOT EASY. BRAD'S GOT HIS OWN STUFF. 54:26 JACKIE HAD BIPOLAR ISSUES BECAUSE THAT IS PART OF OUR 54:30 FAMILY STUFF. IT'S NOT THAT IT'S BEEN 54:34 PERFECT. GOD HAS JUST BEEN FAITHFUL ON 54:37 EVERY SINGLE STEP. >> THAT'S RIGHT. 54:39 >> THE FIRST THING, ONE OF THE CRAZY THINGS THAT HAPPENED 54:42 THIS YEAR, I'VE BEEN IN RECOVERY SINCE 1979. 54:47 ANGIE, ONE THING THAT I LOVE IS YOU KNOW HOW TO HOST A 54:52 PARTY, OR A DINNER, OR JUST HAVING FRIENDS OVER. 54:57 I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT IN MY LIFE. 55:01 I HAVE NEVER BEEN BRAVE ENOUGH TO DO IT. 55:04 GOD SAID THIS YER I WANT TO YOU INVITE FRIENDS OVER FOR 55:09 CHRISTMAS DINNER. I'M LIKE, OH, SHUT UP, I JUST 55:12 CAN'T DO IT. I FEEL SO UNDER DEVELOPED 55:17 PERSONALLY. I WENT OUT -- THIS IS SO 55:18 CRAZY. I WENT OUT AND GOT NAPKINS 55:23 TWICE FOR CHRISTMAS. I GOT STUFF TO IT DECORATE THE 55:27 TABLE. I CALLED FRIENDS. 55:29 I PUT IT ON Facebook. I SAID WILL YOU PRAY FOR ME 55:32 BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT. 55:34 MY KNEES ARE SHAKING. I DON'T DO IT RIGHT. 55:37 I WAS SO AFRAID. A FRIEND OF MINE SAYS SHOULD I 55:41 JUST FLY IN? DO YOU NEED SOME HELP? 55:46 LIKE IT WAS A HUGE DEAL. PEOPLE WERE PRAYING WITH ME. 55:50 WE HAD AN UGLY CHRISTMAS SWEATER PARTY. 55:54 MADE DINNER. I GOT PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T REALLY 55:59 KNOW EACH OTHER AND I GOT TO SET THE STABLE AND I GOT TO 56:03 BRING THEM OVER. GOD SAID THIS IS PART OF YOUR 56:07 HEALING. FROM 1979 TO THIS LAST 56:11 DECEMBER FOR ME TO BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO SAY YES. 56:16 I DON'T KNOW, GOD, IF I CAN DO THIS SOCIAL THING. 56:20 I HAVE DISORDERS AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS. 56:24 GOD SAID, HE IS JUST A GOOD FATHER. 56:26 HE WAITED SO PATIENTLY. I HAD A BLAST. 56:31 MY FRIENDS HAD A BLAST. NOTHING WAS READY. 56:35 I HAD FRIENDS COME OVER DURING THE DAY, MY FRIEND FROM 56:40 CALIFORNIA SAID THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER IS CLEAN 56:43 UP. I SAID OH, CLEAN UP. 56:49 YOU HAVE TO DO THAT? I HAD PEOPLE COME OVER DURING 56:53 THE DAY HELP. THEN I HAD SOMEBODY ELSE COME 56:56 OVER TO HELP. I JUST HAD 12 PEOPLE. 57:02 >> 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS. >> I HAD 12 PEOPLE AND PEOPLE 57:06 THAT I JUST ADORE. WHAT I WANT TO SAY, IF I WOULD 57:14 HAVE SAID GOD, WHEN I MET EVEN BRAD, I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO 57:17 TALK IN FRONT OF PEOPLE. THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M 57:21 TALKING IN FRONT OF -- >> A LOT OF PEOPLE. 57:25 WE'LL TALK ABOUT THAT IN THE SECOND HOUR. 57:27 LOOK HOW QUICKLY IT HAS GONE. CHERI IS JUST GETTING STARTED. 57:32 WE HAVE MORE PICTURES AND MORE TESTIMONY. 57:34 THE SECOND HOUR SHE WILL LET YOU KNOW WHAT GOD HAS DONE IN 57:37 HER LIFE EVEN UP TO THIS DAY. SIT BACK, DON'T GO AWAY. 57:41 WE WILL BE RIGHT BACK. |
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