I WANT TO SPEND MY
LIFE¤ ¤ MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE¤
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¤ I WANT TO SPEND MY
LIFE¤ ¤ MENDING BROKEN PEOPLE.
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[¤¤] >> HELLO, FRIENDS.
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WELCOME TO 3ABN TODAY LIVE.
IT'S THURSDAY NIGHT HERE IN
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THE MIDWEST. HERE
IN -- WE ARE EXCITED YU
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HAVE TAKEN THE TIME TO TUNE IN.
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IS THIS GOING TO
BE A GOOD PROGRAM?
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>> I'M SO EXCITED.
IT WILL BE AN EXCITING
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PROGRAM. >> THAT'S RIGHT.
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WE HAVE A GUEST.
LET ME ENCOURAGE YOU.
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I HAVE SAID THIS IN THE
PAST. HIT THE RECORD BUTTON.
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TONIGHT I REALLY MEAN IT.
WE HAVE A GOOD FRIEND IN THE
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HOUSE. I DON'T
HOLD OFF THE SUSPENSE.
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>> NO, NO. >> YOU MAY HAVE BEEN
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WONDERING,
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO HER.
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TONIGHT CHERI
PETERS, GOOD TO SEE YOU.
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>> EVEN DRIVING IN, I
THOUGHT, THIS IS REAL FAMILY.
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THIS IS LIKE HOME.
HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN?
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IT'S BEEN A WHILE. I
FEEL LIKE IT WAS JUST
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YESTERDAY. IT WAS
LIKE I JUST SAW THEM
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AND CATCHING UP WAS EASY
BECAUSE I GET TO SEE YOU ON
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3ABN. I GET TO
SEE YOU AS YOU TRAVEL
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AND SPEAK. >> I
HAVE BEEN WITH 3ABN, I
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THINK, 27, 28 YEARS. >> WOW.
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YOU HAVE GROWN UP.
>> I HAVE GROWN UP HERE.
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WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN IN THIS
MINISTER, I THINK IT WAS DANNY
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AT THE TIME SAYING, WHAT GOD
IS DOING INURE -- IN YOUR LIFE
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AND HELPING ME DURING THAT TIME.
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ENCOURAGING EVERYTHING.
THEN BECOMING PART OF THE
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FAMILY. ALL OF THAT HAS MADE A
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DIFFERENCE IN EVERY
PERSON WE GET TO TOUCH.
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DEFINITELY YOU GUYS TOUCH ME.
IT IS ONE PERSON THAT REACHES
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OUT TO ANOTHER PERSON.
REACHES OUT TO ANOTHER PERSON.
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YOU WERE VERY MUCH A
PART OF MY STANDING UP.
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>> WE HAVE BEEN IN
THE TRENCHES TOGETHER.
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WE HAVE WORKED
MINISTER TOGETHER.
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WE ARE EXCITED YOU ARE HERE.
SOMEBODY WATCHING THE PROGRAM
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THAT MIGHT SAY, I DON'T KNOW
WHO STHAIRP     CHERI PETERS IS.
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GIVE US AN
OVERVIEW OF WHO YOU ARE.
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>> YOUR MINISTER.
>> ALL OF THAT STUFF.
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>> I BROUGHT A
TRAILER TO DO THAT.
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WE HAVE A NON-PROFIT,
INTERNATIONAL NON-PROFIT.
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I WORK WITH PEOPLE THAT ARE
AT-RISK FOR -- THEY FEEL THEY
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CAN'T STEP INTO A NORMAL LIFE.
WHETHER THEY HAVE BEEN ABUSED
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OR HAVE DYSFUNCTION OR IN
DIFFERENT COUNTRIES THEY ARE
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MARRIED AT 8 YEARS OLD, SOLD
INTO PROSTITUTION OR RAISED BY
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ADDICTS. THEY ARE
PEOPLE WHO THERE IS
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NO WAY TO HAVE A LIFE. I
THINK, I USED TO THINK THAT,
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TOO. THAT'S NOT TRUE.
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>> THAT'S RIGHT. >>
HOW DO YOU GET THEM THERE
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WHERE THEY KNOW NOT ONLY CAN
THEY HAVE A LIVE BUT THEY MAY
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END UP WITH A LIFE THEY
WOULDN'T TRADE FOR ANYONE.
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THAT'S WHAT I'D LIKE TO TALK
ABOUT, WHAT DOES THAT FEELING
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LOOK LIKE. WE
WANT THAT FOR EACH AND
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EVERY ONE OF US.
>> YOU HAVE TEASED OUR
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AUDIENCE. HIT THE RECORD BUTTON.
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THIS WILL BE AN
INFORMATIVE PROGRAM.
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I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR
YOUR PRAYERS, YOUR FINANCIAL
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SUPPORT FOR 3ABN NETWORK.
WE ARE IN OUR 35th YEAR.
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FOR MANY OF YOU, EVEN THOSE
WHO VOLUNTEER AND COME HERE,
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WE THANK YOU FOR
MAKING IT A REALITY.
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>> I WOULD LIKE TO SAY, TOO,
WHAT PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE THAT
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3ABN DOES, THEY
SEND OUT PEOPLE LIKE ME.
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I'M NOTE THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS
BEEN STOOD UP OVER THE YEARS.
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WHEN YOU DONATE TO 3ABN
AND ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU
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GUYS DO, YOU ALSO ARE GOOD
AT ENCOURAGING PEOPLE WHEN THEY
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STAND UP AND DOING
OTHER KIND OF MINISTRIES.
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EVERY PENNY HELPS THEM.
>> I LIKE THE WAY YOU SAID
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THAT. HELP YOU STAND UP.
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THAT'S REALLY GOOD.
YOUR STORY IS AN AMAZING
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STORY. WE HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE.
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THERE IS SOMEONE WATCHING
OR DRIVING IN YOUR CAR BECAUSE
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YOU ARE PART OF 3ABN RADIO.
>> WE WENT TO LUNCH TODAY AND
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WHAT DID WE HEAR?
FIRST I HEARD JOHN.
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>> YES. >> I
THOUGHT JOHN IS ON THE
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RADIO. THEN I'M ON THE RADIO.
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HOW FUNNY IS THAT? >> I KNOW!
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>> WE HOST CROSS
ROADS ON 3ABN RADIO.
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I LOVE RADIO. WE
REACH SO MANY PEOPLE.
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>> WE'RE GLAD
YOU'RE HERE TONIGHT.
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BEFORE THE MUSIC, I WANT
TO PUT A LITTLE DISCLAIMER.
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CHERI PETERS IS, TO THE POINT
AND HER MINISTRY COVERS MANY
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DIFFERENT LINES. SHE
GAVE YOU A TEARDROP -- A
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WATERDROP OF WHAT
HER BACKGROUND IS ABOUT.
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WE'LL SHARE A 2 MINUTE
VIDEO WHICH I WANT TO GIVE YOU A
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DISCLAIMER. IT MAY
NOT BE SUITABLE FOR ALL
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AUDIENCES. I'M LETTING YOU KNOW.
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NOT THE WHOLE PROGRAM
BUT JUST THE 2 MINUTE VIDEO.
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IT WILL COVER IN A SUMMARY,
2 MINUTES, 6 SECONDS, A SUMMARY
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OF HOW GOOD HAS LED IN CHERI'S
LIFE, WHERE SHE HAS COME FROM
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AND WHY HER MINISTRY IS SOING
IS AND VITAL -- IS SO SIGNIFY
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AND VITAL. IF YOU
HAVE SOMEONE STRUGGLES
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WITH DRUGS OR ADDICTIONS
OR PORNOGRAPHY OR ABUSE.
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ALL OF THOSE LINES, HER
MINISTRY HAS BEEN ON THE FRONT
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LINE AND 3ABN HAS BEEN
BLESSED BY WHAT CHERI HAS DONE.
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SHE WILL TELL YOU HOW
GOD HAS DRITIONED HER LIFE --
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TRANSITIONED HER
LIFE. WHERE HE FOUND HER.
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>> I'LL HAVE NICE PICTURES.
IT WILL BE A NICE JOURNEY.
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>> WE HAVE SOME MUSIC.
>> WE HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SONG
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CALLED GO LIGHT YOUR
WORLD BY SCOTT MICHAEL BENNET.
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[¤¤]
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[¤¤] HOLD OUT YOUR CANDLE¤
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¤ FOR ALL TO SEE
IT¤ ¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE¤
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¤ AND GO LIGHT YOUR
WORLD¤ ¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE¤
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¤ GO LIGHT YOUR
WORLD¤ ¤ FRUSTRATED BROTHER¤
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¤ SEE HOW HE'S TRIED
TO¤ ¤ LIGHT HIS OWN CANDLE¤
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¤ SOME OTHER WAY¤ ¤
SEE NOW YOUR SISTER¤
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¤ SHE'S BEEN ROBBED AND LIED TO¤
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¤ STILL HOLDS A
CANDLE¤ ¤ WITHOUT A FLAME¤
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¤ CARRY YOUR CANDLE¤
¤ RUN TO THE DARKNESS¤
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¤ SEEK OUT THE
LONELY¤ ¤ THE TIRED AND WORN¤
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¤ HOLD OUT YOUR
CANDLE¤ ¤ FOR ALL TO SEE IT¤
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¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE¤ ¤
AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD¤
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¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE¤ ¤
AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD.
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WE ARE A FAMILY¤ ¤
WHOSE HEARTS ARE BLAZING¤
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¤ SO LET'S RAISE OUR
CANDLES AND LIGHT UP THE SKY¤
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¤ PRAYING TO OUR
FATHER¤ ¤ IN THE NAME OF JESUS¤
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¤ MAKE US A
BEACON¤ ¤ IN DARKEST TIMES¤
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¤ CARRY YOUR CANDLE¤
¤ RUN TO THE DARKNESS¤
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¤ SEEK OUT THE
HELPLESS¤ ¤ DECEIVED AND POOR¤
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¤ HOLD OUT YOUR
CANDLE¤ ¤ FOR ALL TO SEE IT¤
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¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE¤ ¤
AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD¤
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¤ CARRY YOUR CANDLE
GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD.
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¤ TAKE YOUR CANDLE
AND GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD¤
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¤ GO LIGHT YOUR
WORLD¤ ¤ GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD.
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>> THANK YOU, SCOTT, FOR
THAT LONG "GO LIGHT YOUR WORLD."
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WE WERE JUST TALKING
ABOUT THAT AS SCOTT WAS SINGING
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THAT. THAT SONG
WAS SIGNIFICANT TO
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YOU. >> YEAH.
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IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
THE FIRST TIME I HEARD T I
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CRIED LIKE A BABY.
BECAUSE SOMEBODY COMES AND
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LIGHTS YOUR CANDLE.
HOWEVER THAT HAPPENS.
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THEN YOU GET IT.
THEN YOU LIGHT SOMEONE'S
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ELSE'S THE SONG IS BEAUTIFUL.
THERE IS A LOT OF PEOPLE
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SUFFERING. SO
DON'T JUST RECEIVE HIM.
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STANDS UP AND DO
SOMETHING WITH HIM.
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>> CARRY THE TORCH. >> YES.
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I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH THE FIRST
PASTOR I HAD WHEN I CAME BACK,
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WHEN I CAME TO THE CHURCH, HIS
GIFTS WERE STANDING PEOPLE UP.
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HIS GIFT WAS WHAT IS
GOD GOING TO DO WITH YOU?
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I'M AN ADDICT IN RECOVERY,
I BARELY NO HOW MANY TO READ.
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THEY PUT ME IN TIME LINE STUDY
GROUPS WHEN I'M JUST WANTING
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TO SHOOT MYSELF. HE
SAID WHAT DOES GOD WANT TO
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DO WITH YOU? I
SAID I DON'T KNOW.
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HEALING IS THE
BEST I CAN ASK FOR.
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WHAT I KNEW THAT DAY,
THIS REALLY IS ALL ABOUT GOD.
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EVERY SINGLE THING I RELY ON
IS THAT THAT I FIGURED IT OUT,
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BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL.
SOMEBODY SAYS YOU'RE DOING SO
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GOOD? HUH-UH,
GOD IS DOING SO GOOD.
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EVERY DAY THAT I'M
DEALING WITH THINGS, WORKING ON
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THINGS, LEARNING NEW THINGS,
I WILL STILL SEE AREAS, ARE WE
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READY TO HEAL HERE? I
DON'T THINK YOU CAN EVER
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STOP, YOU CAN NEVER TAKE CREDIT.
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>> ARE A GOOD WORK
AND WILL YOU COMPLETE IT.
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WE WILL TALK ABOUT THAT.
BEFORE WE GO TO THE VIDEO.
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I WANT TO GIVE A DISCLAIMER.
WE'LL SHARE A 2 MINUTE VIDEO
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THAT GIVES AN OVERVIEW
OF WHERE GOD LED CHERI.
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HOW HE LED HER LIFE.
AND SOME COMPONENTS OF HER
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LIFE. AMAZING,
THIS IS TRUE ABOUT
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EVERY ONE OF US. WHO
WE ARE BEFORE CITE AND WHO
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WE BECOME EVEN SURPRISES
US. WE LOOK AT WHERE WE STARTED
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AND WHERE WE ARE
NOW-AND-IT'S A MIRACLE.
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YOU MAY THINK, CAN GOD
DO ANYTHING IN MY LIFE.
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I GUARANTEE YOU, I CHARGE YOU,
AFTER THIS PROGRAM IS DONE, WE
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HAVE AN HOUR AND 15 MINUTES.
THERE WILL BE NO DOUBT IN YOUR
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MIND THAT GOD CAN TAKE CLAY AND
MOLE THE MOST AMAZING-MACHINE --
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MOLD THE MOST AMAZING MACHINE
PROTOTYPE. THERE IS NO ONE LIKE
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YOU. YOU ARE AN ORIGINAL.
IN SPITE YOUR PAST HE WILL
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RESHAPE YOU AND REMOLD YOU
AND LIKE SCOTT MICHAEL BENNET
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SAYS, HE WILL LIGHT YOUR WORLD.
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IF YOU HAVE CHILDREN WATCHING,
THIS 2 MINUTE VIDEO MAY NOT BE
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SUITABLE FOR ALL AUDIENCES.
AFTER THE VIDEO I ENCOURAGE
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YOU TO COME BACK
BECAUSE THE PROGRAM WILL BE VERY
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INFORMATIVE. THIS
VIDEO WILL GIVE YOU AN
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OVERVIEW. YOU WILL
UNDERSTAND WHO CHERI
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PETERS IS IN MORE DETAIL.
>> I HAVE BEEN MOLESTED MY
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WHOLE LIFE. I WS
BEAT, RAPED, URINATED
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ON. IT WAS HORRENDOUS.
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I DIDN'T WANT TO BE MOLESTED.
I DIDN'T WANT ANOTHER THAT
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COULDN'T STAND TO LOOK A
ME. I DIDN'T WANT TO BE HOMELESS
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AT 18 YEARS OLD. I
DIDN'T WANT TO BE A STRIPPER
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IN THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY.
ALL I WANTED IN MY WHOLE LIFE
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WAS TO BE LOVED. >>
SOMETIMES ONY GOD CAN
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HEAL. AND CHERI
IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE
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OF THIS. THERE
IS NO OTHER MEDICAL
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EXPLANATION. >> WHEN
YOU ARE ON THE STREETS
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YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE
THAT -- YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
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YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE
IN THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY OR
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FUNNEL KIDS INTO
MOVING DRUGS AROUND, WHATEVER.
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I WAS NO DIFFERENT. AS
SOON AS I WAS THERE I WAS
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PICKED UP AND EDUCATED.
WHEN I SAY EDUCATED, THE ONLY
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THING I CAN TELL YOU ABOUT
THAT IS THAT -- THE THINGS IN
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MY FAMILY, I MEAN, IT REALLY
IS HARD TO THE TO -- TO BE IN
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THE SAME HOUSE WITH PEOPLE
THAT VIEW YOU AS A PROBLEM.
00:16:07.46\00:16:14.20
WHAT I LEARNED IS THAT YOU
ARE -- I'M NOT ASKING YOU ABOUT
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THIS. I TOLD YOU! >>
YOU ARE AN INDIVIDUAL ABLE
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TO COPE AND SURVIVE
THE TRAUMA OF THESE EVENTS.
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NO DOCTOR, HUMAN DOCTOR COULD
HAVE CHANGED YOUR CHEMISTRY
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WITH THE DAMAGE
OF ALL THE ABUSE.
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IT TOOK THE ULTIMATE PHYSICIAN.
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GOD CAN HEAL CASES
WHERE NO ONE ELSE CAN.
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>> OOH. >> THAT'S
JUST A GLIMPSE INTO
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A LIFE THAT TOOK YEARS,
FROM ABUSE TO IT TRAUMA TO THE
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STREETS TO THE
DRUGS, TO THE SEX.
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ALL THE THINGS THAT WERE
ALLUDED TO IN THAT IT VIDEO,
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TO THE PERSON
THAT CHERI IS TODAY.
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I WANT TO GIVE YOU AN
OPPORTUNITY TO JUST KIND OF
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TAKE OFF FROM
WHERE WE DISCUSSED.
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>> EVEN THE BACKGROUND
THAT I HAD, BY THE TIME I WAS 23
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YEARS OLD, I REMEMBER
NOT HAVING ANY HOPE AT ALL.
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I HAD BEEN KIDNAPPED,
BE I WAS FAIRLY ILLITERATE.
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I WAS STRUNG OUT A
HEROIN LIVING IN A DRUG HOUSE.
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SOMEBODY CAME OVER TO BLOW MY
HEAD COULD    OFF, A DRUG DEAL
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HAD GONE BAD. THEY
WERE THREATENING ME
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BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT
I HAD STOLE SOME MONEY.
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I THOUGHT, JUST
SHOOT ME. I AM SO DONE IT.
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WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS, A
LOT OF OTHER THINGS HAPPENED.
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JUST A LONG STORY. BUT
WITHIN A COUPLE OF DAYS, I
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HAD AN ENCOUNTER WITH GOD.
I BELIEVE I HAD AN ENCOUNTERS
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WITH GOD. I HAD
TRIED TO GO BACK HOME.
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THAT DIDN'T WORK
OUT. MY MOM GAVE ME AN
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AUTOBIOGRAPHY THAT
TALKED ABOUT HER LIFE STORY.
00:18:14.22\00:18:16.16
I DIDN'T WANT TO READ
IT. I WANTED TO TEAR IT UP.
00:18:16.16\00:18:19.13
I GOT BACK TO THE DRUG HOUSE
I WAS LIVING IN AND I THREW THE
00:18:19.13\00:18:24.87
AUTOBIOGRAPHY ON THE BED.
I WAS TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO
00:18:24.87\00:18:27.04
KILL MYSELF
BECAUSE I WAS SO DONE.
00:18:27.04\00:18:28.90
THE GUY DIDN'T SHOOT ME.
HE WAS JUST TRYING TO SCARE
00:18:28.90\00:18:32.54
ME. I SAID MY NEXT BREATH SCARES
00:18:32.54\00:18:35.98
ME. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE.
00:18:35.98\00:18:38.88
I TRIED TO HAASS
HIM INTO SHOOTING ME.
00:18:38.88\00:18:43.75
HE. "YOU'RE CRAZY."
00:18:43.75\00:18:46.22
NOW I'M TRYING TO
FINDS A WAY TO KILL MYSELF.
00:18:46.22\00:18:48.16
I LOOKED AT THAT AUTOBIOGRAPHY.
00:18:48.16\00:18:50.79
I JUST SAT AND CRIED.
NOW I KNOW IT WAS THE HOLY
00:18:50.79\00:18:54.00
SPIRIT. THERE ARE SOMETIMES GOD
00:18:54.00\00:18:56.03
STEPPED IN AND THEY
FEEL THE PRESENCE OF GOD.
00:18:56.03\00:18:58.90
I NEVER HAD. AND
THAT MOMENT I FELT THE
00:18:58.90\00:19:01.60
PRESENCE OF GOD. I
JUST FELT LIKE GOD SAID
00:19:01.60\00:19:05.27
"OPEN UP THE
ENVELOPE." OPEN IT UP.
00:19:05.27\00:19:10.28
WHAT WAS CRAZY IS I FELT
SAFE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.
00:19:10.28\00:19:16.38
AND I THOUGHT I KNEW IT WAS
GOD EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT RAISED
00:19:16.38\00:19:21.46
CHRISTIAN. I
DON'T HAVE A CHRISTIAN
00:19:21.46\00:19:22.96
BACKGROUND. FOR
SOME REASON I KNEW IT WAS
00:19:22.96\00:19:25.43
GOD. I DIDN'T HEAR A VOICE.
00:19:25.43\00:19:27.50
I WAS JUST
IMPRESSED TO OPEN THE EVELOPE.
00:19:27.50\00:19:31.07
IT WAS MY MOM'S LIFE
STORY. MY MOM HAD BEEN ABUSED.
00:19:31.07\00:19:38.57
HER PARENTS WERE ALCOHOLICS.
SHE WAS MOVED AROUND A NUMBER
00:19:38.57\00:19:41.21
OF TIMES. MY DAD
STARTED MOLESTING US
00:19:41.21\00:19:45.51
WHEN I WAS 3 MONTHS
OLD. HE MOLESTED US.
00:19:45.51\00:19:50.85
I GOT KICKED OUT OF THE
HOUSE. SHE TALKED ABOUT THAT.
00:19:50.85\00:19:53.62
THEN SHE MARRIED MY
STEPDAD, WHO WAS A BARTENDER AND
00:19:53.62\00:20:00.36
ALCOHOLIC. AS
MUCH AS I LOVED HIM, HE
00:20:00.36\00:20:02.26
STILL HAD ALL OF THAT
STUFF. SHE IS TELLING HER STORY.
00:20:02.26\00:20:07.00
ON THE THIRD PAGE IT SAID THE
ONLY REASON I SURVIVED AT ALL
00:20:07.00\00:20:11.47
I TOOK MY ANGER AND HATRED OUT
ON MY SECOND CHILD AND RUINED
00:20:11.47\00:20:17.15
HER LIFE. I HEARD
GOD SAID THIS IS NEVER
00:20:17.15\00:20:20.18
ABOUT YOU. MY WHOLE
LIFE, I THINK I JUST
00:20:20.18\00:20:23.89
WANTED TO SCREAM. WHAT
IS IT ABOUT ME THAT SHE
00:20:23.89\00:20:29.29
DOESN'T LOVE OR I DON'T
FIT IN OR I DON'T BELONG.
00:20:29.29\00:20:34.50
BY THE TIME YOU HAVE HAD ALL
OF THAT TRAUMA AND ALL OF THAT
00:20:34.50\00:20:37.70
DAMAGE, THAT SENSE OF BEING
WORTHLESS IS SO INGRAINED WITH
00:20:37.70\00:20:42.24
WHO YOU ARE. >> I
WANT TO GO BACK WTH WHAT
00:20:42.24\00:20:44.24
YOU SAID. SOMEBODY
MAY HAVE MISSED IT.
00:20:44.24\00:20:46.61
I WANT TO CAPITALIZE ON THAT.
WHAT YOUR MOTHER WENT THROUGH,
00:20:46.61\00:20:50.61
YOU WERE THE OUTLET.
THE OUTLET FOR ALL OF THE
00:20:50.61\00:20:56.05
FRUSTRATION. IT
REALLY WASN'T ABOUT YOU.
00:20:56.05\00:20:59.22
YOU BECAME THE PUNCHING BAG.
YOU BECAME TO DRIVE ALL OF HER
00:20:59.22\00:21:06.26
DYSFUNCTION. >>
AND I THINK WHEN I READ
00:21:06.26\00:21:08.93
THAT, ALL OF A SUDDEN
EVERYTHING MADE SENSE.
00:21:08.93\00:21:11.30
IT WAS SO BRAVE, I THINK,
OF MY MOM TO HAND ME THAT.
00:21:11.30\00:21:17.81
SHE GOT AN A. MY
MOM HAD GONE BACK TO
00:21:17.81\00:21:22.04
SCHOOL. SHE TOOK SOCIAL WORK.
00:21:22.04\00:21:25.91
SHE BECAME A SOCIAL WORKER.
HER TEACHER GAVE HER AN A WHEN
00:21:25.91\00:21:32.65
SHE WROTE HER OWN
STORY. UNDERNEATH THAT IT SAYS
00:21:32.65\00:21:37.36
"PLEASE GIVE THIS
TO CHERI." SHE DID.
00:21:37.36\00:21:39.83
WHEN I FIRST READ THAT,
RIGHT, THE BEST I COULD, I WAS
00:21:39.83\00:21:44.07
FUNCTIONALLY ILLITERATE.
WHEN I SAW "GIVE THIS TO
00:21:44.07\00:21:48.47
CHERI." I THOUGHT WHAT IS THIS?
00:21:48.47\00:21:50.04
IT WAS HER STORY.
THE ONLY LINE THAT REALLY
00:21:50.04\00:21:52.34
STOOD OUT TO ME IS THE
ONLY WAY I SURVIVED IS TOOK MY
00:21:52.34\00:21:58.35
ANGER AND HATRED
OUT ON MY SECOND CHILD.
00:21:58.35\00:22:01.35
GOD SAID IT WASN'T ABOUT
YOU. IT WASN'T ABOUT YOU.
00:22:01.35\00:22:05.45
IF YOU TRUST ME, I
CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE.
00:22:05.45\00:22:08.62
THAT'S THE SENSE I GOT WITH HIM.
00:22:08.62\00:22:11.13
I WEPT. I HAD 42 WARRANTS FOR MY
00:22:11.13\00:22:14.56
ARREST. I LIVE IN A DRUG HOUSE.
00:22:14.56\00:22:16.93
I'M STRUNG OUT ON HEROIN.
I COULD READ SECOND OR THIRD
00:22:16.93\00:22:22.74
GRADE LEVEL. I'M
THINKING NOT ONLY -- NOT
00:22:22.74\00:22:26.01
EVEN GOD CAN CHANGE
THAT. I FELT THAT STRONGLY.
00:22:26.01\00:22:31.65
WHAT GOD DID, I BELIEVE, IS
HE SHOWED ME WHO I AM THE DAY
00:22:31.65\00:22:39.52
AFTER
RESURRECTION. NOT COMPLETELY.
00:22:39.52\00:22:42.36
JUST A GLIMPSE OF
WHO I AM THE DAY AFTER.
00:22:42.36\00:22:45.46
AND THE DAY
AFTER. ENCLOSED IN LIGHT.
00:22:45.46\00:22:50.83
I'VE LOVED. I'M NOT AN ADDICT.
00:22:50.83\00:22:55.34
I'M NOT AN ABUSED
KID. I'M A CHILD OF GOD.
00:22:55.34\00:22:59.01
ALL I CAN SAY, I SAW
A TINY GLIMPSE OF THAT.
00:22:59.01\00:23:05.81
NOT THAT I THINK IT
WOULD HAVE KILLED ME.
00:23:05.81\00:23:08.78
BUT A TINY GLIMPSE ENOUGH THAT
I THOUGHT IF THAT IS WHERE YOU
00:23:08.78\00:23:13.15
ARE TAKING ME, I'LL STAND
UP. >> YOU CAN ONLY SEE THE PEAK
00:23:13.15\00:23:22.73
OF YOUR LIFE.
YOU SEE THE PINNACLE.
00:23:22.73\00:23:25.63
AND THE LORD, KNOWING WHAT YOU
CAN HANDLE, TOOK YOU A LITTLE
00:23:25.63\00:23:29.47
AT A TIME IN THE DIRECTION.
>> EVEN MORE SO THAN THAT,
00:23:29.47\00:23:34.98
JOHN, IS THAT I DON'T THINK
HE COULD HAVE SHOWED ME ANYTHING
00:23:34.98\00:23:40.25
ON EARTH THAT WOULD HAVE GIVEN
ME THE COURAGE TO STAND UP.
00:23:40.25\00:23:44.92
HE SHOWED ME THE DAY
AFTER. THE DAY AFTER.
00:23:44.92\00:23:49.56
ANYTHING HERE IT IS
TOUGH HERE AT TIMES.
00:23:49.56\00:23:53.06
THIS RECOVERY
JOURNEY IS NOT EASY.
00:23:53.06\00:23:54.46
FOR SOME PEOPLE THT HAVEN'T
BEEN LOVED AND HAVEN'T HAD ALL
00:23:54.46\00:23:58.07
OF THAT KIND OF STUFF, I CAN'T
SAY YOU WILL FIND GOD HAVE A
00:23:58.07\00:24:05.81
MOTHER. I HAVE SEEN PEOPLE WITH
00:24:05.81\00:24:07.54
MOTHERS AND FATHERS.
I NEVER REALLY HAD THAT.
00:24:07.54\00:24:10.71
I NEVER SAT ON MY FATHER'S
LAP, NEVER HAD STORIES READ TO
00:24:10.71\00:24:15.45
ME. IT WAS NOT ANYTHING I COULD
00:24:15.45\00:24:17.92
SAY I HAD. WE'LL
GET INTO THE HEALING IN
00:24:17.92\00:24:21.09
MY FAMILY. GOD
HAD TO SAY THERE IS
00:24:21.09\00:24:27.00
ANOTHER PLACE. >> HOW MANY KIDS?
00:24:27.00\00:24:29.06
>> I HAVE FOUR
SISTERS, ONE BROTHER.
00:24:29.06\00:24:36.00
EVERYBODY IN OUR
FAMILY DEALT WITH ADDICTION.
00:24:36.00\00:24:41.48
GUYS ARE WAITING FOR
LIVES. GRANDPARENTS, ALCOHOLICS.
00:24:41.48\00:24:47.68
WE JUST HAD A NUMBER OF
ADDICTIONS IN OUR FAMILY.
00:24:47.68\00:24:52.12
>> ALMOST GENERATIONAL.
>> IT IS GENERATIONAL.
00:24:52.12\00:24:54.22
>> WHEN YO THINK ABOUT THAT,
I WANT TO GO BACK TO SOMETHING
00:24:54.22\00:24:57.49
YOU MENTIONED A MOMENT
AGO. I DON'T KNOW, WHEN I MEET A
00:24:57.49\00:25:03.53
PERSON WHO SAYS
"I'VE NEVER HAD PROBLEMS."
00:25:03.53\00:25:06.00
I CAN'T ALWAYS
IDENTIFY WITH THAT.
00:25:06.00\00:25:11.54
BEING ABANDONED AT 3
MONTHS OLD, MOM IN WHERE AROUND.
00:25:11.54\00:25:19.11
I THINK, WOW, THIS IS WHAT YOU
SAW WITH MY MOTHER DROPPED ME
00:25:19.11\00:25:25.02
OFF AT A BABYSITTER
AND DIDN'T COME BACK.
00:25:25.02\00:25:30.06
JEREMIAH 11 IS ONE OF
OUR FAVORITE PASSAGES.
00:25:30.06\00:25:35.46
YOU LOOK BACK NOW AS YOU
REWIND YOUR DVD, YOUR VIDEO
00:25:35.46\00:25:40.04
TAPE, WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE?
>> I COULD NOT STOP CRYING THE
00:25:40.04\00:25:43.97
FIRST TIME
SOMEBODY READ THAT TO ME.
00:25:43.97\00:25:46.41
GOD HIMSELF HAS PLANS FOR
ME. >> ISN'T THAT AMAZING?
00:25:46.41\00:25:49.48
>> THAT'S AMAZING.
YOU GUYS ARE MY FRIENDS.
00:25:49.48\00:25:54.52
>> YES. >> ONE
TIME I WAS AT 3ABN, SEE
00:25:54.52\00:25:58.69
IF YOU REMEMBER
THIS. I'M AT 3ABN.
00:25:58.69\00:26:01.19
I GET A CALL. THEY
SAID MY FATHER DIED.
00:26:01.19\00:26:07.50
MY FATHER HAD MOLESTED ME MOST
OF MY LIFE, EVEN WHEN I TRIED
00:26:07.50\00:26:11.50
TO MAKE CONTACT, IT WAS
VERY SEXUAL AND PERVERTED.
00:26:11.50\00:26:15.94
I SAID I HAVE TO WALL
OFF THIS RELATIONSHIP.
00:26:15.94\00:26:20.28
YOU WILL NEVER HOLD MY
CHILD. I WAS HAVING A CHILD.
00:26:20.28\00:26:23.65
I FIND OUT HE DIED. I
WAS SO -- AT FIRST I HERD
00:26:23.65\00:26:29.38
IT. AND I THOUGHT AM I GOING TO
00:26:29.38\00:26:31.75
FEEL ANYTHING? THEN
I STARTED TO JUST WEEP.
00:26:31.75\00:26:37.16
I WEPT AND WEPT AND WEPT.
I DON'T KNOW HOW ANYBODY ELSE
00:26:37.16\00:26:42.83
KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON.
PRETTY SOON I HEAR A KNOCK ON
00:26:42.83\00:26:49.77
THE DOOR. IT WAS YOU GUYS.
00:26:49.77\00:26:51.91
I REMEMBER NOT SAYING ANYTHING.
00:26:51.91\00:26:54.84
JUST GOT QUIET AND
CRIED. [KNOCK KNOCK]
00:26:54.84\00:26:59.48
>> I GOT QUIET. >>
THEN I HEARD YOU OR JOHN
00:26:59.48\00:27:01.78
SAY, CHERI, WE
KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE.
00:27:01.78\00:27:04.55
PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR. I
THOUGHT IF YOU KNOW I'M IN
00:27:04.55\00:27:09.66
HERE, YOU DOUGH I DON'T
WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE AND YOU
00:27:09.66\00:27:13.26
WOULD GO AWAY. I
DON'T KNOW HOW TO ASK FOR
00:27:13.26\00:27:15.86
HELP. I DON'T
KNOW HOW TO SAY "I'M
00:27:15.86\00:27:19.43
AFRAID." OR ANY OF
THAT KIND OF STUFF.
00:27:19.43\00:27:22.27
ESPECIALLY THEN.
WHEN I DID GET FRUSTRATED
00:27:22.27\00:27:24.47
ENOUGH TO ANSWER THE DOOR,
I REMEMBER THE COMPASSION YOU
00:27:24.47\00:27:30.11
LOOKED AT ME WITH. YOU
SAID I LOST MY DAD AND YOU
00:27:30.11\00:27:36.15
TOLD ME THE STORY OF
YOUR DAD, THE JAZZ MUSICIAN.
00:27:36.15\00:27:40.59
NOT REALLY
MAKING THE CONNECTIONS.
00:27:40.59\00:27:42.39
HE SAID I DON'T KNOW EXACTLY
HOW YOU FEEL BUT YOU ARE NOT
00:27:42.39\00:27:46.96
ALONG. >> I REMEMBER THAT.
00:27:46.96\00:27:50.10
YOU IS HAVE TO TAKE A BREATH.
I REMEMBER BEING AT ANDREWS
00:27:50.10\00:27:55.24
UNIVERSITY AND NELSON WAS
PREACHING WHEN MY DAUGHTER
00:27:55.24\00:27:59.31
PASSED AWAY. NOT
KNOWING WHAT THE END WOULD
00:27:59.31\00:28:01.54
BE. HE WAS A
JAZZ MUSICIAN ALL OF
00:28:01.54\00:28:03.65
HIS LIFE. I MET
HIM WHEN I WAS 13.
00:28:03.65\00:28:08.75
WE HAD IT AFTER 30
YEARS. I DIDN'T CRY.
00:28:08.75\00:28:13.05
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO
FEEL. I NEVER REALLY MOURNED.
00:28:13.05\00:28:16.93
I REMEMBER DWIGHT NELSON
SAYING TO ME, I GOD COULD
00:28:16.93\00:28:21.23
SAVE YOUR DAD, HE WOULD.
DON'T YOU WORRY ABOUT IT.
00:28:21.23\00:28:25.20
IT GAVE ME A PEACE. I
DON'T TALK MUCH ABOUT IT.
00:28:25.20\00:28:28.47
>> I REMEMBER YOU SAY TAG TO ME.
00:28:28.47\00:28:30.74
>> DWIGHT TOLD ME THAT
AND I SHARED THAT WITH YOU.
00:28:30.74\00:28:33.88
THESE ARE THE THE BROKEN PLACES.
00:28:33.88\00:28:39.58
WE ARE STILL
LEAKING, IF I CAN USE THAT.
00:28:39.58\00:28:42.95
WHAT GOD DOES TO
LEAKY VESSELS IS AMAZING.
00:28:42.95\00:28:48.26
>> WHEN SOMEONE
SAYS "I MET GOD."
00:28:48.26\00:28:52.19
ALL OF A SUDDEN I
GOT ALL OF THIS HEALING.
00:28:52.19\00:28:55.03
I THINK GOD EVERY DAY THAT WE
ARE ALIVE HE IS BRINGING US TO
00:28:55.03\00:28:59.47
A PLACE WHERE WE CAN SHED
SOMETHING ELSE, OR GET TO SOME
00:28:59.47\00:29:07.78
OF THOSE PLACES AND HEAL.
OR BRING SOMETHING TO SOMEONE
00:29:07.78\00:29:11.35
ELSE SO THEY CAN HEAL.
YOU WILL FLOAT OFF TO HEAVEN.
00:29:11.35\00:29:17.92
IF YOU ARE NOT
FLOATING, YOU'RE NOT GONE.
00:29:17.92\00:29:22.69
THAT IS SO, FOR ME, EVEN AS WE
LOOK AT TONIGHT, THE DIRECTION
00:29:22.69\00:29:27.76
THAT GOD TOOK
EVERYTHING. I'M SO PROUD OF HIM.
00:29:27.76\00:29:36.84
>> LOOK AT WHAT I
MADE EVER MY CHILD.
00:29:36.84\00:29:41.71
GOD IS SUCH A
GENUINE EXPRESSION.
00:29:41.71\00:29:43.68
I'M SO PROUD OF GOD.
IT'S NOT A DISCREDITING THING.
00:29:43.68\00:29:47.52
BUT ISN'T IT AMAZING WHAT
GOD IS DOING WHAT YOU SAY -- SAY
00:29:47.52\00:29:51.49
IT AGAIN. >> HE IS MY FATHER.
00:29:51.49\00:29:54.92
I REMEMBER EVEN AT THE FIRST
PART OF MY RECOVERY WHEN I END
00:29:54.92\00:30:03.80
UP AT A HOUSE AND I END UP AT
A HOUSE AND I'M TRYING TO FIND
00:30:03.80\00:30:09.17
COFFEE. SHE IS TRYING TO GIVE ME
00:30:09.17\00:30:11.04
WATER. I I'M
THINKING I DON'T SURVIVE
00:30:11.04\00:30:14.04
THIS. IT SEEMED
LIKE EVERY TIME I
00:30:14.04\00:30:16.48
WOKE UP GOD WANTED TO
SOW ME SOMETHING ELSE.
00:30:16.48\00:30:19.08
IT WAS LIKE HE JUST WAS SO
EXCITED THAT I'M STEPPING INTO
00:30:19.08\00:30:23.95
A HEALTHIER PLACE. THE
WHOLE WORLD IS OPENING UP.
00:30:23.95\00:30:30.03
>> YOU HAVE SA A
SAYING THAT I LOVE.
00:30:30.03\00:30:33.83
GOD IS CRAZY ABOUT US.
>> HE REALLY IS CRAZY ABOUT
00:30:33.83\00:30:37.23
US. SO I THINK
THAT EVERY PART OF
00:30:37.23\00:30:40.30
THAT NEXT PART OF THE
JOURNEY WAS INCREDIBLE.
00:30:40.30\00:30:44.44
I WOULD LIKE TO
SAIF ABOUT FAMILY --
00:30:44.44\00:30:50.78
>> TALK ABOUT YOUR
FAMILY. WE HAVE PICTURES.
00:30:50.78\00:30:53.35
I WILL WALK THROUGH AD
MAKE THIS POINT BEFORE THE FIRST
00:30:53.35\00:30:57.42
HOUR IS GONE. WE
WANT TO ENCOURAGE TO YOU
00:30:57.42\00:31:02.06
CALL IN YOUR PRAYER REQUEST.
IF YOU HAVE A COMMENT YOU CAN
00:31:02.06\00:31:05.66
SEND THAT, TOO. IN
THE SECOND HOUR, IF YOU
00:31:05.66\00:31:08.70
WANT TO CALL, YOU
CAN CALL 618-627-4651.
00:31:08.70\00:31:14.60
THERE IS THE
E-MAIL ADDRESS LIVE @3ABN.
00:31:14.60\00:31:20.91
LIVE AT 3ABN.TV.
WE'LL FIELD THOSE IN THE
00:31:20.91\00:31:28.45
SECOND HOUR. WE
HAVE SOME PICTURES.
00:31:28.45\00:31:30.52
IF YOU HAVE A CRAZY
FAMILY, RAISE YOUR HAND.
00:31:30.52\00:31:35.09
IF YOU HAVE A CRAZY FAMILY AND
YOU JUST NEED -- I HAVEN'T MET
00:31:35.09\00:31:41.70
ANYBODY WHO DOESN'T HAVE --
YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE THESE CRAZY
00:31:41.70\00:31:48.07
LIVES WE LIVE THROUGH AND
WE TRY TO LOOK AS NORMAL AS
00:31:48.07\00:31:53.71
POSSIBLE. IT IS
AN ACT OF PRAYER.
00:31:53.71\00:31:56.68
WE NEED TO PRAY FOR EACH OTHER.
00:31:56.68\00:31:59.61
>> I REALLY DO LIKE THAT.
THERE IS NOT A PERSON WALKING,
00:31:59.61\00:32:03.69
UNLESS YOU'RE AN ONLY CHILD
AND YOUR FAMILY IS DECEASED.
00:32:03.69\00:32:07.32
BUT IN EVERY CASE WE ALL
HAVE SOMEBODY -- I'LL USE THIS
00:32:07.32\00:32:13.56
EXPRESSION, COMPANY IS
COMING OVER, STAY IN YOUR ROOM.
00:32:13.56\00:32:17.57
>> JUST BE NORMAL. >>
DON'T MESS UP THE PARTY.
00:32:17.57\00:32:19.93
>> IF YOU DON'T,
YOU ARE THAT PERSON.
00:32:19.93\00:32:23.54
IT MIGHT BE YOU.
>> IT MIGHT BE YOU.
00:32:23.54\00:32:26.88
YOU HAVE HAD IN YOUR
FAMILY, AN INTERESTING FAMILY.
00:32:26.88\00:32:30.31
WALK US THROUGH. FOR
THOSE LISTENING ON RADIO.
00:32:30.31\00:32:34.28
WE'LL START WITH A PICTURE
OF BRAD, BRAD IS YOUR HUSBAND.
00:32:34.28\00:32:40.29
YOU AND BRAD. >>
EVEN WITH BRAD AND I.
00:32:40.29\00:32:43.06
THIS FIRST THING
THAT I WAS AMAZED AT.
00:32:43.06\00:32:45.93
WHEN BRAD AND I MET, HE IS A
PHILHARMONIC MUSICIAN, HIS DAD
00:32:45.93\00:32:52.50
WAS AN AMBASSADOR FOR THE
UNITED STATES FOR A LITTLE BIT
00:32:52.50\00:32:55.60
TO BANGLADESH. HIS
MOM IS A VOIENLIST WHO
00:32:55.60\00:33:00.51
PLAYED IN THE
ORCHESTRA BEFORE SHE RETIRED.
00:33:00.51\00:33:05.21
THEY HAVE A NORMAL FAMILY.
EVERYBODY HAS BEEN STUFF.
00:33:05.21\00:33:09.38
THEY HAVE A NORMAL FAMILY.
MY FAMILY IS NOT LIKE THAT.
00:33:09.38\00:33:12.92
I MARRIED INTO A FAMILY THAT
WAS WAY DIFFERENT THAN I AM.
00:33:12.92\00:33:18.23
SO I THINK EVEN FOR GOD TO
STAY, WE STAND UP IN RECOVERY.
00:33:18.23\00:33:24.83
WE STAND UP IN
OUR JOURNEY WITH GOD.
00:33:24.83\00:33:27.94
HE SAYS TRUST
ME WITH EVERYTHING.
00:33:27.94\00:33:29.90
TRUST ME WITH EVERYTHING.
EVEN WHO YOU WILL LOVE.
00:33:29.90\00:33:33.68
WHAT WE WANT TO PICK OUT
OUR MATES, THAT WILL NEVER WORK
00:33:33.68\00:33:38.65
FOR ME. GOD HAS TO DO THAT.
00:33:38.65\00:33:41.45
I THINK BRAD WAS
ONE OF THOSE THINGS.
00:33:41.45\00:33:44.39
BEING ABLE TO
TRUST GOD WITH THAT.
00:33:44.39\00:33:48.09
BRAD AND I HAVE HAD TO
WORK THROUGH A TON OF STUFF.
00:33:48.09\00:33:50.63
WE HAVE HAD GREAT TILES.
WE HAD TIMES WE WORKED THROUGH
00:33:50.63\00:33:55.03
THINGS. BUT
WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER 30
00:33:55.03\00:33:57.27
YEARS NOW. I NEVER
THOUGHT THAT I WOULD
00:33:57.27\00:34:00.74
BE IN LOVE, BE MARRIED,
AND HAVE THE ABILITY TO BE A
00:34:00.74\00:34:07.94
PARTNER TO SOMEONE.
WHEN I FIRST GOT IN RECOVERY,
00:34:07.94\00:34:14.35
GOD STARTED TO WORK ON THINGS.
I TOOK THE REINS RIGHT AWAY.
00:34:14.35\00:34:19.29
"YOU MUST WANT ME TO TOP DOING
DRUGS, OR STOP THIS OR STOP
00:34:19.29\00:34:23.86
THAT." IT TOOK
HIM 15 YEARS TO JUST
00:34:23.86\00:34:26.23
GET MY ATTENTION. HE
SAID "I WANT YOU TO LEARN
00:34:26.23\00:34:29.63
HOW TO TRUST. I
WANT YOU TO LEARN HOW TO
00:34:29.63\00:34:32.07
LOVE." HE IS TRYING TO TEACH ME
00:34:32.07\00:34:35.60
SOMETHING WAY DIFFERENT THAN
I THOUGHT THE DIRECTION I WAS
00:34:35.60\00:34:38.47
GOING. HE DID THAT THROUGH MY
00:34:38.47\00:34:40.81
MARRIAGE. HOW DO
YOU LEARN TO TRUST?
00:34:40.81\00:34:43.31
HOW DID YOU LEARN TO LOVE?
IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT.
00:34:43.31\00:34:47.32
AS IT IS HAPPENING I'M LOOKING
AT THE PERSON I'M LIVING WITH
00:34:47.32\00:34:51.85
OR SITTING ACROSS
FROM AND SAYING, I'M LUCKY.
00:34:51.85\00:34:58.06
LUCK HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT.
00:34:58.06\00:34:59.63
BUT THE FACT THAT GOD SAYS
JUST WORK THROUGH WHATEVER YOU
00:34:59.63\00:35:04.03
HAVE TO WORK THROUGH. DON'T RUN.
00:35:04.03\00:35:06.43
DON'T HIDE.
DON'T SHOOT EACH OTHER.
00:35:06.43\00:35:08.77
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? I
PROMISE YOU, THERE WILL BE A
00:35:08.77\00:35:12.14
TIME WHERE YOU WILL UNDERSTAND
THE BLESSING OF HAVING A
00:35:12.14\00:35:17.78
PARTNER. BRAD IS MY PARTNER.
00:35:17.78\00:35:21.55
>> YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER.
>> I HAVE A DAUGHTER, JACKIE.
00:35:21.55\00:35:26.39
>> SHE I BEAUTIFUL. >>
WHEN I ENDED UP PREGNANT,
00:35:26.39\00:35:29.66
WHAT WAS CRAZY TO ME, I WAS
TOLD I COULDN'T GET PREGNANT.
00:35:29.66\00:35:34.00
I HAD BEEN PREGNANT WHEN I
WAS A LITTLE GIRL, LIKE 12, 13.
00:35:34.00\00:35:41.70
EVERYTHING GOT MESSED UP.
I WAS TOLD I WOULD NEVER HAVE
00:35:41.70\00:35:43.64
A CHILD. I HAD
JACKIE WHEN I WAS 33.
00:35:43.64\00:35:47.78
I WAS BESIDE MYSELF. I
WAS SO -- IT WAS LIKE -- I
00:35:47.78\00:35:52.78
COULDN'T IMAGINE A
COOLER GIFT THAN THAT.
00:35:52.78\00:35:56.18
THE PREGNANCY AND
GOING THROUGH ALL OF THAT AND
00:35:56.18\00:36:02.92
KNOWING THAT THIS
WAS BECAUSE OF GOD.
00:36:02.92\00:36:05.69
WHEN SOMEBODY SAYS, YOU KNOW,
EVERY THOSE KIND OF BLESSINGS,
00:36:05.69\00:36:10.77
I MET GOD IN 1979. BUT
I DIDN'T HAVE JACKIE FOR
00:36:10.77\00:36:14.87
YEARS. IT WAS YEARS.
00:36:14.87\00:36:19.04
MY FEELING, SOMETIMES
PEOPLE GIVE UP ON GOD SO EARLY.
00:36:19.04\00:36:23.61
DON'T DO THAT.
GOD PROMISED A FAMILY.
00:36:23.61\00:36:29.05
HE WILL DELIVER ON THAT PROMISE.
00:36:29.05\00:36:30.79
FOR ME, IT WAS YEARS
AND YEARS DOWN THE ROAD.
00:36:30.79\00:36:33.59
I HAD THE BEST PREGNANCY EVER.
SOMEONE SAYS HOW MANY TIMES
00:36:33.59\00:36:38.99
DID YOU GET SICK?
NO, I FELT BEAUTIFUL THE
00:36:38.99\00:36:43.10
ENTIRE TIME. I HAD
HER IN JULY, IT WAS SO
00:36:43.10\00:36:48.27
HOT AND I JUST
FLOATED. I STAYED IN THE POOL.
00:36:48.27\00:36:52.94
EVEN GOING IN THE HOSPITAL
THE DAY THAT I HAD HER, I JUST
00:36:52.94\00:37:02.42
COULDN'T GET OVER
HAVING A BEAUTIFUL CHILD.
00:37:02.42\00:37:03.72
BRAD WAS DOING A CONCERT.
HE WENT TO THE SYMPHONY.
00:37:03.72\00:37:08.29
HE WAS ON TELEVISION. HE
SAID, IF YOU GO INTO LABOR,
00:37:08.29\00:37:12.93
I NEED TO YOU
GET IN TOUCH WITH ME.
00:37:12.93\00:37:15.86
HE WAS DOING A SOLO. HE
COULDN'T LEAVE UNTIL AFTER
00:37:15.86\00:37:18.57
THE SOLO.
EVERYBODY KNEW I WENT INTO
00:37:18.57\00:37:21.20
LABOR HE WOULD SNEAK
OFF EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE ON
00:37:21.20\00:37:26.64
TELEVISION. AFTER
THE SOLO, I WENT INTO
00:37:26.64\00:37:28.38
LABOR. HE HAD TO SNEAK OFF.
00:37:28.38\00:37:31.48
I AM IN THE ROOM GETTING
PREPPED, HE COMES RUNNING IN
00:37:31.48\00:37:35.05
WITH A TUXEDO. ALL
THE NURSES WENT, THIS IS A
00:37:35.05\00:37:43.63
PRETTY CASUAL THING.
EVEN THAT KIND OF STUFF WAS
00:37:43.63\00:37:47.23
FUN. JACKIE WAS AMAZING.
00:37:47.23\00:37:51.43
I LOVE BEING A MOM. AS
WE GO THROUGH THAT WHOLE
00:37:51.43\00:38:02.21
THING, SHE CAME TO CHURCH.
SHE DID CHILDREN'S STORY.
00:38:02.21\00:38:06.65
I WOULD JUST CRY.
PEOPLE THAT WERE USED TO
00:38:06.65\00:38:09.68
HAVING CHURCH AND CHILDREN'S
STORY AND NORMAL FAMILY TAKE
00:38:09.68\00:38:14.52
THAT FOR GRANTED. I
COULDN'T BELIEVE I HAD THIS
00:38:14.52\00:38:19.03
BEAUTIFUL NORMAL
CHILD. >> I AM RELIVING A LOT.
00:38:19.03\00:38:27.00
THINGS HAPPEN, ANGIE LOST HER
DAD WHEN SHE WAS 3 YEARS OLD.
00:38:27.00\00:38:31.17
I DIDN'T HAVE MY MOM. >>
I DIDN'T KNOW THAT, ANGIE.
00:38:31.17\00:38:38.21
>> MY MOTHER HAD EIGHT CHILDREN.
00:38:38.21\00:38:40.12
I'M THE EIGHTH. I
WAS BORN IN JAMAICA.
00:38:40.12\00:38:45.42
THE LAST THREE
WERE BORN IN ENGLAND.
00:38:45.42\00:38:53.60
HE HAD A HEART ATTACK. MY
MOTHER WITH EIGHT CHILDREN.
00:38:53.60\00:38:56.06
ONE MOTHER, ONE FATHER.
SHE WAS LEFT TO CARRY THE LOAD
00:38:56.06\00:39:00.40
OF RAISING ALL OF US. AND
THEN MOVED TO AMERICA WITH
00:39:00.40\00:39:06.91
ALL OF US. WE WENT
WHERE HER SISTER WAS
00:39:06.91\00:39:11.55
LIVING. YEAH, IT WAS A JOURNEY.
00:39:11.55\00:39:19.02
>> THE LORD, TAKE THAT
BACKGROUND IN NEW YORK AND PUT
00:39:19.02\00:39:24.03
US TOGETHER. WE
HAD BROKENNESS AND
00:39:24.03\00:39:28.63
EXPERIENCED BROKENNESS GOING UP.
00:39:28.63\00:39:30.80
GOD IS AMAZING WHAT
HE CAN DO. >> SO GOOD.
00:39:30.80\00:39:34.34
>> I KNOW WE WON'T DO THAT
BUT I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ABOUT
00:39:34.34\00:39:38.07
WHEN THAT HAPPENED. THAT
GOD LITERALLY DURING YOUR
00:39:38.07\00:39:43.41
MARRIAGE ALLOWS TO YOU DEAL
WITH THAT BROKENNESS TOGETHER.
00:39:43.41\00:39:50.15
I LOST MY DAD WHEN
I WAS A LITTLE GIRL.
00:39:50.15\00:39:53.96
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS LIKE
TO HAVE A FATHER BECAUSE I WAS
00:39:53.96\00:39:57.33
JUST THREE.
THEN HERE COMES JOHN.
00:39:57.33\00:40:06.13
>> THERE IS JACKIE AND
THEN -- >> JACKIE AND CHRIS.
00:40:06.13\00:40:10.74
JACKIE HAS A
BABY. I JUST LOVE THEM.
00:40:10.74\00:40:14.91
I LOVE BOTH OF
THEM. JACKIE HAS A BABY.
00:40:14.91\00:40:19.28
SHE WENT INTO THE
HOSPITAL TO HAVE THIS CHILD.
00:40:19.28\00:40:23.45
SHE IS 30 HOURS LABOR. >> WOW.
00:40:23.45\00:40:26.99
>> WHEN SHE DELIVERS THIS
BABY, I GET TO NOW HOLD THIS
00:40:26.99\00:40:32.83
CHILD. AS I HOLD
THIS CHILD, WHAT I
00:40:32.83\00:40:36.26
THOUGHT, ALL OF A SUDDEN,
EVERY FIGHT THAT I HAD TO
00:40:36.26\00:40:40.90
RECOVER MADE SENSE. MY
WHOLE RECOVERY MADE SENSE.
00:40:40.90\00:40:45.54
GENERATIONALLY,
GOD CHANGED EVERYTHING.
00:40:45.54\00:40:47.38
WHERE WE HAD
ADDICT, ADDICT, ADDICT.
00:40:47.38\00:40:50.71
NOW WE HAVE SOMEBODY
THAT CHOOSES TO TRUST GOD IN
00:40:50.71\00:40:54.48
RECOVERY. THEN
THE NEXT GENERATION IS
00:40:54.48\00:40:57.55
CLEAN. THE NEXT
GENERATION IS CLEAN.
00:40:57.55\00:41:00.42
ALL OF THE PROMISE IN THE
BIBLE THAT I WILL CHANGE ALL
00:41:00.42\00:41:04.76
OF THAT. IN
THAT MOMENT, FOR SOME
00:41:04.76\00:41:07.50
REASON, I JUST GOT
IT. HE CHANGES ALL OF US.
00:41:07.50\00:41:12.97
EVEN THIS WHOLE
TIME. I AM IN CHRIST.
00:41:12.97\00:41:17.67
I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL.
I'M WORKING IN THE NURSING
00:41:17.67\00:41:21.84
FIELD. I'M A
NURSE AND THEN GETTING
00:41:21.84\00:41:24.18
INTO MINISTRY. ALL
OF THIS COOL STUFF WAS
00:41:24.18\00:41:27.78
HAPPENING. WHAT WAS
HAPPENING      HAPPENING IN MY
00:41:27.78\00:41:30.32
FAMILY THAT NOBODY
SAW WAS EVEN BETTER.
00:41:30.32\00:41:34.19
IT WAS LIKE I WAS WATCHING GOD
DO THINGS THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN.
00:41:34.19\00:41:39.63
ONCE YOU GET ALL OF THAT
TRASH GOING ON, IN JUST TAKES
00:41:39.63\00:41:43.26
EVERYBODY DOWN AND SPIRALS DOWN.
00:41:43.26\00:41:45.30
GOD SAYS, THAT IS
NOT IMPORTANT TO ME.
00:41:45.30\00:41:49.17
I HAVE BONDING DISORDERS
AND GOD HAS TO DO A LOT OF STUFF
00:41:49.17\00:41:53.48
IN MY HEALING.
EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE LOOKED
00:41:53.48\00:41:57.91
OVERWHELMINGLY DISCOURAGING.
GOD SAYS DON'T IT LOOK AT A
00:41:57.91\00:42:00.52
PLATE. LOOK AT ME.
00:42:00.52\00:42:01.82
JUST LOOK AT ME. >> I LIKE THAT.
00:42:01.82\00:42:05.09
>> I'M LOOKING AT
WHAT GOD IS DOING.
00:42:05.09\00:42:07.86
I'M GETTING MORE AND MORE
SURE THAT GOD IS NEVER FINISHED
00:42:07.86\00:42:14.00
WITH US, OR OUR FAMILIES, EVER.
00:42:14.00\00:42:16.73
>> THE LORD DID SAY IN
ISAIAH LOOK TO ME AND BE SAVED.
00:42:16.73\00:42:21.24
WHEN WE LOOK, I LIKE
HOW YOU DREW THAT PICTURE.
00:42:21.24\00:42:28.14
DON'T LOOK. LOOK IN MY EYES.
00:42:28.14\00:42:31.98
ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU
REALIZE THERE IS NO HARM COMING.
00:42:31.98\00:42:34.42
THERE IS NO
ULTIMATE RORY MOTIVE.
00:42:34.42\00:42:37.59
THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE IT
IS KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME.
00:42:37.59\00:42:44.83
YOU HOLD YOUR GRANDCHILD
AND THINKING I WAS ASKING A DRUG
00:42:44.83\00:42:48.80
DEALER TO KILL ME. >>
MY FIRST SUICIDE ATTEMPT AT
00:42:48.80\00:42:52.43
3 AND THEN 8. AS
FAR AS WANTING TO KILL
00:42:52.43\00:42:58.64
MYSELF, I ALWAYS
WANTED TO CHECK OUT.
00:42:58.64\00:43:01.14
I ALWAYS WANTED TO
-- THIS WAS HARD IT.
00:43:01.14\00:43:05.75
WAS DIFFICULT. TO
NOT BE LOVED MADE IT EVEN
00:43:05.75\00:43:08.42
HARDER. TO END UP
ON THE STREETS WAS A
00:43:08.42\00:43:12.35
LITTLE EASIER BECAUSE I DIDN'T
EXPECT ANYONE TO LOVE ME IT.
00:43:12.35\00:43:15.49
MADE IT A LITTLE EASIER.
TO BE A YOUNG TEENAGER ON THE
00:43:15.49\00:43:18.39
STREETS OF L.A. >> WOW.
00:43:18.39\00:43:20.93
>> YOU SEE THINGS THAT ARE
DARKER THAN WHAT I CAN EVEN
00:43:20.93\00:43:24.43
SHARE ON TELEVISION.
EVEN NOW DAYS KIDS ARE PULLED
00:43:24.43\00:43:29.77
INTO THE SEX TRADE INDUSTRY
AND BEING USED AND ALL OF
00:43:29.77\00:43:33.91
THAT. I HAVE
SEEN THAT LIFESTYLE, I
00:43:33.91\00:43:36.48
KNOW THAT LIFESTYLE.
YOU SEE ALL OF THAT STUFF.
00:43:36.48\00:43:41.22
WATCHING GOD JUST
TURN ALL OF THAT AROUND.
00:43:41.22\00:43:44.12
>> THEN HOLDING YOUR GRANDCHILD.
00:43:44.12\00:43:49.16
GOD SAW THIS MOMENT.
WHEN I TELL THE DRUG DEALER,
00:43:49.16\00:43:52.99
JUST GO AHEAD AND SHOOT
ME. IT WASN'T EVEN HIS CHOICE.
00:43:52.99\00:43:57.70
GOD SAID NO,
THIS IS NOT HAPPENING.
00:43:57.70\00:44:00.04
THERE IS A DAUGHTER COMING.
THERE IS A GRANDCHILD COMING.
00:44:00.04\00:44:02.87
THERE IS A BETTER FUTURE ON
THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS HILL.
00:44:02.87\00:44:06.98
SOMEBODY IS WATCHING
THIS PROGRAM RIGHT NOW.
00:44:06.98\00:44:08.81
THEY ARE LISTENING IN THEIR CAR.
00:44:08.81\00:44:11.25
SOME YOUNG LADY, SOME YOUNG
MAN OR SOME OLDER PERSON WHO
00:44:11.25\00:44:15.18
IS NOT ABLE TO PUT
THESE PIECES TOGETHER.
00:44:15.18\00:44:18.39
THEY THINK IS
THIS REALLY TRUE CHERI?
00:44:18.39\00:44:21.26
DID THIS REALLY HAPPEN? >>
WHAT IS INTERESTING WHEN --
00:44:21.26\00:44:26.26
I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO JUST
HOLD YOUR FACE AND SAY THERE
00:44:26.26\00:44:31.27
IS A GOD IN
HEAVEN THAT SEES YOU.
00:44:31.27\00:44:35.14
LITERALLY SEES YOU.
EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT SEEN BY
00:44:35.14\00:44:38.67
ANYONE, OR WHERE IS GOD WHEN
THIS IS HAPPENING, WHERE WAS
00:44:38.67\00:44:42.34
HE WHEN THIS HAPPENED.
WHAT GOD TOLD ME, EVEN WITH MY
00:44:42.34\00:44:49.45
DAD, I TRIED TO GET YOUR DAD
TO CHOOSE SOMETHING DIFFERENT
00:44:49.45\00:44:52.02
EVERY DAY. I
TRIED TO GET YOUR DAD TO
00:44:52.02\00:44:56.59
LITERALLY STOP. THE
ONLY WAY I COULD HAVE GOT
00:44:56.59\00:44:58.69
HIM TO STOP IS TO KILL HIM.
IF I KILL EVERYBODY THAT SINS
00:44:58.69\00:45:03.67
THERE WOULD BE NOBODY HERE.
HE SAID I HAVE TO GIVE FREE
00:45:03.67\00:45:08.77
CHOICE. GOD, I
BELIEVE, IS THE ONLY
00:45:08.77\00:45:11.14
INNOCENT PARTY. HE
SAID I PROMISE I MEAN HARM
00:45:11.14\00:45:14.18
TO NO ONE. NO ONE.
00:45:14.18\00:45:16.75
I WANT TO BLESS YOU.
I WANT TO IT HEAL YOU.
00:45:16.75\00:45:19.28
I WANT TO BRING YOU
TO A PLACE OF RECOVERY.
00:45:19.28\00:45:23.28
BEING ABLE TO SAY THAT WE
HAVE A GOD THAT IS INNOCENT AND
00:45:23.28\00:45:30.06
WANTS TO BRING US
TO A PLACE OF HEALING.
00:45:30.06\00:45:33.06
IT'S HARD TO TRUST. FOR
PEOPLE WHO ARE INJURED, I
00:45:33.06\00:45:38.40
KNOW IT'S HARD TO TRUST.
FOR ME I HAD TO START SMALL.
00:45:38.40\00:45:43.30
JUST SURROUND YOURSELF WITH
PEOPLE WHO CAN STEP INTO YOUR
00:45:43.30\00:45:46.51
LIFE. SPEAK INTO YOUR LIFE.
00:45:46.51\00:45:48.94
I WAS LUCKY WITH THE
PASTOR THAT CAME INTO MY LIFE.
00:45:48.94\00:45:52.71
I WAS REALLY
BLESSED. GOD WAS SO FAITHFUL.
00:45:52.71\00:46:00.29
I KNOW -- I DON'T KNOW IF THIS
WILL MAKE SENSE TO ANYBODY AT
00:46:00.29\00:46:06.29
ALL. I STARTED
TO TELL YOU A JOKE.
00:46:06.29\00:46:10.50
ASK GOD TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING.
SOMETIMES PEOPLE FORGET THAT
00:46:10.50\00:46:15.24
GOD IS VERY INTERACTIVE.
GOD IS VERY MUCH INTO SHOWING
00:46:15.24\00:46:23.01
OF THINGS. SHE
SAYS SOMETIMES WHEN YOU
00:46:23.01\00:46:28.12
TAKE WALKS, THE
ANGELS WILL WALK WITH YOU.
00:46:28.12\00:46:31.42
SHARE THINGS WITH
YOU. THE HOLY SPIRIT.
00:46:31.42\00:46:33.99
JUST BE PATIENT. ASK
FOR THOSE COMMUNICATIONS.
00:46:33.99\00:46:37.79
TELL GOD, YOU KNOW WHAT,
I'M GIVING YOU EVERYTHING.
00:46:37.79\00:46:41.26
I SURRENDER IT ALL TO YOU.
CHERI SAYS YOU WOULD TELL ME A
00:46:41.26\00:46:49.07
JOKE. I THINK
GOD BECAME VERY REAL
00:46:49.07\00:46:51.97
TO ME ON THIS JOURNEY. I
HAVE ANOTHER PICTURE OF ALEX
00:46:51.97\00:46:58.45
THAT I BROUGHT. THIS
IS HER AS A LITTLE BABY.
00:46:58.45\00:47:04.05
THE PICTURE BOOK HE IS READING
-- I USED TOE WATCH HIS KIDS
WHEN THEY WERE LITTLE
00:47:04.05\00:47:17.30
AND JACKIE WAS LITTLE.
BECAUSE I WANTED TO LEARN
00:47:17.30\00:47:20.30
ABOUT GRAPHICS AND ART.
I SAID I'LL WATCH YOUR KIDS
00:47:20.30\00:47:23.34
BUT I WANT TO COME IN
YOUR STUDIO AND LOOK OVER THE
00:47:23.34\00:47:26.17
SHOULDER OF ALL OF YOUR
ARTISTS BECAUSE THEY WERE SO
00:47:26.17\00:47:30.41
AMAZING. AT ONE
POINT HE WAS DOING A
00:47:30.41\00:47:33.88
CHILDREN'S BOOK
SERIES OF BIBLE STORIES.
00:47:33.88\00:47:36.12
I BROUGHT JACKIE'S
WHOLE T-BALL TEAM IN.
00:47:36.12\00:47:40.82
SO THAT PICTURE WAS ALICE
AND SHE IS LOOKING AT A STORY
00:47:40.82\00:47:45.69
RIGHT THERE OF HER
MOTHER WHO IS IN THE STORY.
00:47:45.69\00:47:57.74
WHAT IS REALLY FUN,
EVEN WATCHING THEM DO THAT.
00:47:57.74\00:48:01.08
NOW I HAVE THIS CHILD, BROUGHT
THE WHOLE T-BALL TEAM IN.
00:48:01.08\00:48:09.75
WE HAD BIBLE READING TIME IN
OUR NEIGHBORHOOD ALL THE KIDS
00:48:09.75\00:48:11.69
IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD
WERE IN THOSE BOOKS.
00:48:11.69\00:48:14.52
THEY ALL GOT
COPIES OF THE BOOKS.
00:48:14.52\00:48:17.16
THE FAMILIES WERE
ALL DIFFERENT RELIGIONS.
00:48:17.16\00:48:20.23
WE CAME TO OUR HOUSE
AND READ THOSE STORIES.
00:48:20.23\00:48:23.16
NOW ALICE IS BORN AND I'M
GETTING TO -- I'M GETTING TO
00:48:23.16\00:48:29.64
KNOW SOMEHOW EVEN ALICE
SOME OF THE STUFF THAT WE DID.
00:48:29.64\00:48:32.97
>> ALL SIS YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER.
>> I CALL HER MY LITTLE GRANNY
00:48:32.97\00:48:41.25
GRANNY. I LIVE
FIVE MILES AWAY, RIGHT
00:48:41.25\00:48:46.39
DOWN THE STREET.
SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT THAT
00:48:46.39\00:48:49.36
FORTUNATE. I GET
TO HANG OUT WITH HER.
00:48:49.36\00:48:52.29
SHE THINKS I'M
THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND.
00:48:52.29\00:48:55.76
SHE JUST SCREAMS. >>
DOES JACKIE KNOW YOUR
00:48:55.76\00:49:02.27
FAMILY? >> SHE
WAS WITH MY FAMILY A
00:49:02.27\00:49:05.54
LITTLE BIT GROWING
UP. BUT WHEN EVERYBODY WAS
00:49:05.54\00:49:15.08
ACTIVELY IN THEIR
STUFF, WE WERE VERY FRAGMENTED.
00:49:15.08\00:49:21.19
>> BEING HEALED. >>
DO YOU EVER THINK THAT
00:49:21.19\00:49:28.50
ALICE -- >> I
THINK THAT IS THE NEXT
00:49:28.50\00:49:30.43
ONE. >> BEAUTIFUL.->>
FOR MOST PEOPLE, THAT'S HOW
00:49:30.43\00:49:37.24
WE WERE MEANT TO BE.
WE WERE MEANT TO BE LOVED.
00:49:37.24\00:49:39.34
WE WERE MEANT TO BE CARED FOR.
WE WERE MEANT TO BE IN FAMILY.
00:49:39.34\00:49:45.35
PARENTS DON'T
DIE, ALL OF THAT STUFF.
00:49:45.35\00:49:48.72
IT IS NOT THAT
WAY FOR A LOT OF US.
00:49:48.72\00:49:50.99
A LOT OF US HAVE DIFFERENT
THINGS THAT WE DEAL WITH.
00:49:50.99\00:49:54.36
WHAT I LOVE ABOUT GOD, AND
THAT PART OF THE JOURNEY, EVEN
00:49:54.36\00:50:03.13
THOUGH HE BLESSED ME HE IN
LOTS OF DIFFERENT WAYS IN MY
00:50:03.13\00:50:07.27
HEALING, HE BLESSED IN
SUCH DEEP WAYS IN FAMILY.
00:50:07.27\00:50:13.98
ONE OF THE THINGS, I HAVE
TO SAY WITH THAT, TOO, SOMEONE
00:50:13.98\00:50:18.55
SAID TO ME ONE TIME
-- I WANT WHAT YOU HAVE.
00:50:18.55\00:50:23.45
I WANT A FMILY. I'M
THINKING, MY JOURNEY HAS
00:50:23.45\00:50:28.72
BEEN 10, 15, 20
YEARS. JUST BE PATIENT.
00:50:28.72\00:50:35.10
>> I LIKE THAT. >>
PEOPLE WANT IT BUT THEY
00:50:35.10\00:50:37.93
WANT IT OVERNIGHT. FOR
ANY OF US, WE START OUR
00:50:37.93\00:50:44.77
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
AND STEP INTO OUR RECOVERY.
00:50:44.77\00:50:49.58
IT REALLY IS --
THIS MAY TAKE A MINUTE.
00:50:49.58\00:50:54.98
THE WOUNDING IS SO DEEP.
EVERYTHING IS SUCH A BIG DEAL.
00:50:54.98\00:51:00.89
EVEN TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE
YOU ARE LOOKING AT YOUR FAMILY
00:51:00.89\00:51:05.29
OF ORIGIN STUFF AND ALLOWING
THAT TO BRING HEALING INTO
00:51:05.29\00:51:07.86
OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES,
TOO, SO HE CAN DO THIS.
00:51:07.86\00:51:10.83
ALL OF THAT TAKES
TIME. DON'T GET IMPATIENT.
00:51:10.83\00:51:13.23
>> THAT'S RIGHT. >>
MAKE SURE THAT YOU STAY IN
00:51:13.23\00:51:16.44
YOUR RELATIONSHIP
WITH GOD EVERY DAY.
00:51:16.44\00:51:19.17
SOMEBODY SAYS
WHAT DOES TA LOOK LIKE?
00:51:19.17\00:51:21.51
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
TO STAY IN RELATIONSHIP?
00:51:21.51\00:51:25.61
FOR ME, IT'S PRETTY SPECIFIC.
I LOVE TO HE UP THE WORD OF
00:51:25.61\00:51:31.45
GOD. I LOVE TO WRITE PRAYERS.
00:51:31.45\00:51:35.02
I LOVE TO WRITE IN
JOURNALS. I LOVE TO STUDY STUFF.
00:51:35.02\00:51:38.79
I LOVE TO DO OUTREACH,
WHAT I PARTS FOR A LIVING IS
00:51:38.79\00:51:45.53
MINISTRY. THAT KEEPS ME VERY
00:51:45.53\00:51:47.97
CONNECTEDDED WITH GOD.
IF I DISCONNECT WITH GOD, I
00:51:47.97\00:51:51.31
THINK IT SLOWS HIM DOWN ON
HIS ABILITY TO BRING HEALING.
00:51:51.31\00:51:56.88
SOMETIMES WE GET DISCOURAGED
AND WE GET MAD AT GOD.
00:51:56.88\00:52:01.88
HOOK THE AT ME
AGAIN. LOOK AT ME AGAIN.
00:52:01.88\00:52:04.99
THE DEVIL LIED TO YOU. HE
GOT YOU AFRAID OF THE VERY
00:52:04.99\00:52:09.26
JOURNEY THAT IS BRINGING
YOU TO A PLACE OF VICTORY.
00:52:09.26\00:52:12.66
BEING ABLE TO SAY
WE CAN'T BELIEVE LIES.
00:52:12.66\00:52:16.73
IF YOU ARE IN TURMOIL, IF
YOU ARE BEING SHAKEN, IF YOU ARE
00:52:16.73\00:52:21.20
GETTING REALLY DISCOURAGED,
YOU BELIEVE IN LIES.
00:52:21.20\00:52:25.67
LIES ARE OF THE ENEMY. >>
WE HAVE A FEW MORE PICTURES
00:52:25.67\00:52:29.61
BEFORE THE FIRST
HOUR COMES TO AN END.
00:52:29.61\00:52:32.41
TO REMIND YOU, WE ARE TAKING
COMMENTS OR PRAYER REQUESTS IN
00:52:32.41\00:52:35.88
THE SECOND HOUR. YOU
CAN CALL IN, 618-627-4651.
00:52:35.88\00:52:41.89
OR YOU CAN E-MAIL
US AT LIVER @3ABN.TV.
00:52:41.89\00:52:49.06
live@3abn.tv.
CHERI SAYS EVERYBODY HAS
00:52:49.06\00:52:53.40
SOMETHING TO PRAY FOR.
WHAT I LIKE ABOUT CHERI PETERS
00:52:53.40\00:52:59.31
PARTICULARLY IS THIS IS NOT
A WATER PROGRAM, THIS IS DEEP
00:52:59.31\00:53:07.72
SEA DIVING PROGRAM.
WE WANT TO GET BELOW THE
00:53:07.72\00:53:10.05
SURFACE. YOU
REALLY CAN'T APPRECIATE
00:53:10.05\00:53:12.85
WHAT GOD CREATED
BELOW THE SURFACE.
00:53:12.85\00:53:14.62
THAT'S WHAT I
LIKE ABOUT YOUR LIFE.
00:53:14.62\00:53:16.56
YOU SAY, HEY, I KNOW
WHAT IS BELOW THE SURFACE.
00:53:16.56\00:53:20.70
THERE ARE SOME BEAUTIFUL
FISH. >> WAIT ON THE LORD.
00:53:20.70\00:53:25.93
>> SAY THAT AGAIN.
>> WAIT ON THE LORD.
00:53:25.93\00:53:28.64
I WANT MY MIRACLE
NOW. WAIT ON THE LORD.
00:53:28.64\00:53:31.14
SOMETIMES IT TAKES YEARS
AS WE DISCUSSED AT LUNCHTIME.
00:53:31.14\00:53:35.78
>> EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING.
THINGS ARE HAPPENING EVERY DAY
00:53:35.78\00:53:39.15
EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT SEEING
IT. GOD SAYS I WISH I COULD SHOW
00:53:39.15\00:53:43.42
YOU EVERYTHING THAT HAS
TO HAPPEN BEFORE YOU SEE IT.
00:53:43.42\00:53:46.92
BECAUSE I'M PRETTY
SLOW. >> I LIKE THAT.
00:53:46.92\00:53:50.99
LET'S SEE SOME MORE PICTURES.
>> THIS IS ALICE IN TE CHOIR.
00:53:50.99\00:53:57.03
CHILDREN'S STORY
AND IN THE CHOIR.
00:53:57.03\00:53:59.17
SHE IS ACTING OUT BECAUSE
SHE TAKES AFTER HER GRANDMA.
00:53:59.17\00:54:03.51
BEING ABLE TO SEE HER DOING
CHILDREN'S STORY AND BEING IN
00:54:03.51\00:54:07.21
THE CHOIR, ALL OF
THAT STUFF IS AMAZING.
00:54:07.21\00:54:10.61
THE NEXT THING I LOOK AT,
THIS IS MY OWN FAMILY AND HOW
00:54:10.61\00:54:18.19
INCREDIBLE GOD
WAS IN MY OWN HOME.
00:54:18.19\00:54:20.76
AND NOT EASY.
BRAD'S GOT HIS OWN STUFF.
00:54:20.76\00:54:26.63
JACKIE HAD BIPOLAR ISSUES
BECAUSE THAT IS PART OF OUR
00:54:26.63\00:54:30.53
FAMILY STUFF.
IT'S NOT THAT IT'S BEEN
00:54:30.53\00:54:34.80
PERFECT. GOD HAS
JUST BEEN FAITHFUL ON
00:54:34.80\00:54:37.54
EVERY SINGLE
STEP. >> THAT'S RIGHT.
00:54:37.54\00:54:39.04
>> THE FIRST THING, ONE OF
THE CRAZY THINGS THAT HAPPENED
00:54:39.04\00:54:42.08
THIS YEAR, I'VE BEEN
IN RECOVERY SINCE 1979.
00:54:42.08\00:54:47.12
ANGIE, ONE THING THAT I
LOVE IS YOU KNOW HOW TO HOST A
00:54:47.12\00:54:52.09
PARTY, OR A DINNER, OR
JUST HAVING FRIENDS OVER.
00:54:52.09\00:54:57.26
I HAVE NEVER
DONE THAT IN MY LIFE.
00:54:57.26\00:55:01.06
I HAVE NEVER BEEN
BRAVE ENOUGH TO DO IT.
00:55:01.06\00:55:04.43
GOD SAID THIS YER I WANT
TO YOU INVITE FRIENDS OVER FOR
00:55:04.43\00:55:09.17
CHRISTMAS DINNER. I'M
LIKE, OH, SHUT UP, I JUST
00:55:09.17\00:55:12.77
CAN'T DO IT. I
FEEL SO UNDER DEVELOPED
00:55:12.77\00:55:17.25
PERSONALLY. I
WENT OUT -- THIS IS SO
00:55:17.25\00:55:18.98
CRAZY. I WENT
OUT AND GOT NAPKINS
00:55:18.98\00:55:23.69
TWICE FOR CHRISTMAS. I
GOT STUFF TO IT DECORATE THE
00:55:23.69\00:55:27.82
TABLE. I CALLED FRIENDS.
00:55:27.82\00:55:29.46
I PUT IT ON Facebook. I
SAID WILL YOU PRAY FOR ME
00:55:29.46\00:55:32.99
BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT.
00:55:32.99\00:55:34.93
MY KNEES ARE
SHAKING. I DON'T DO IT RIGHT.
00:55:34.93\00:55:37.73
I WAS SO AFRAID. A
FRIEND OF MINE SAYS SHOULD I
00:55:37.73\00:55:41.97
JUST FLY IN? DO
YOU NEED SOME HELP?
00:55:41.97\00:55:46.14
LIKE IT WAS A HUGE DEAL.
PEOPLE WERE PRAYING WITH ME.
00:55:46.14\00:55:50.65
WE HAD AN UGLY
CHRISTMAS SWEATER PARTY.
00:55:50.65\00:55:54.65
MADE DINNER. I GOT
PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T REALLY
00:55:54.65\00:55:59.42
KNOW EACH OTHER AND I GOT
TO SET THE STABLE AND I GOT TO
00:55:59.42\00:56:03.02
BRING THEM OVER. GOD
SAID THIS IS PART OF YOUR
00:56:03.02\00:56:07.23
HEALING. FROM 1979 TO THIS LAST
00:56:07.23\00:56:11.07
DECEMBER FOR ME TO BE
BRAVE ENOUGH TO SAY YES.
00:56:11.07\00:56:16.37
I DON'T KNOW, GOD, IF I
CAN DO THIS SOCIAL THING.
00:56:16.37\00:56:20.78
I HAVE DISORDERS AND I
DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS.
00:56:20.78\00:56:24.15
GOD SAID, HE IS
JUST A GOOD FATHER.
00:56:24.15\00:56:26.61
HE WAITED SO
PATIENTLY. I HAD A BLAST.
00:56:26.61\00:56:31.82
MY FRIENDS HAD A
BLAST. NOTHING WAS READY.
00:56:31.82\00:56:35.96
I HAD FRIENDS COME OVER
DURING THE DAY, MY FRIEND FROM
00:56:35.96\00:56:40.80
CALIFORNIA SAID THE ONLY THING
YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER IS CLEAN
00:56:40.80\00:56:43.90
UP. I SAID OH, CLEAN UP.
00:56:43.90\00:56:49.60
YOU HAVE TO DO THAT? I
HAD PEOPLE COME OVER DURING
00:56:49.60\00:56:53.84
THE DAY HELP. THEN I
HAD SOMEBODY ELSE COME
00:56:53.84\00:56:56.64
OVER TO HELP. I
JUST HAD 12 PEOPLE.
00:56:56.64\00:57:02.18
>> 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS.
>> I HAD 12 PEOPLE AND PEOPLE
00:57:02.18\00:57:06.52
THAT I JUST ADORE. WHAT
I WANT TO SAY, IF I WOULD
00:57:06.52\00:57:14.10
HAVE SAID GOD, WHEN I MET
EVEN BRAD, I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO
00:57:14.10\00:57:17.60
TALK IN FRONT OF
PEOPLE. THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M
00:57:17.60\00:57:21.70
TALKING IN FRONT OF
-- >> A LOT OF PEOPLE.
00:57:21.70\00:57:25.51
WE'LL TALK ABOUT
THAT IN THE SECOND HOUR.
00:57:25.51\00:57:27.68
LOOK HOW QUICKLY IT HAS GONE.
CHERI IS JUST GETTING STARTED.
00:57:27.68\00:57:32.25
WE HAVE MORE
PICTURES AND MORE TESTIMONY.
00:57:32.25\00:57:34.58
THE SECOND HOUR SHE WILL LET
YOU KNOW WHAT GOD HAS DONE IN
00:57:34.58\00:57:37.75
HER LIFE EVEN UP TO THIS
DAY. SIT BACK, DON'T GO AWAY.
00:57:37.75\00:57:41.96
WE WILL BE RIGHT BACK.
00:57:41.96\00:57:56.94