I want to spend my life
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Mending broken people
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I wanna spend my life
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Removing pain
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Lord, let my words
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Heal a heart that hurts
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I wanna spend my life
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Mending broken people
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I wanna spend my life
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Mending broken people
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This is my desire
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To honor You
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Lord, with all my heart
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I worship You
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All I have within me
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I give You praise
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All that I adore Is in You
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Lord, I give You my
heart I give You my soul
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I live for You alone
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Every breath that I take
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Every moment I'm awake
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Lord, have Your way in me
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Lord, I give You my
heart I give You my soul
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I live for You alone
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Every breath that I take
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Every moment I'm awake
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Lord, have Your way in me
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I pray that's
your desire at home,
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I would like for
you to sing along
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as I worship the Lord.
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Lord, I offer my life to You
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Everything I've been through
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Use it for Your glory
Lord, I offer my days to You
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Lifting my praise to You
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As a pleasing sacrifice
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Lord, I offer You my life
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Sing unto Him.
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Oh, Lord, I offer my life to You
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Everything I've been through
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Use it for Your glory
Lord, I offer my days to You
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Lifting my praise to You
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As a pleasing sacrifice
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Lord, I offer You my life
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Lord, I offer You my life
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I'm so thankful
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that you have
afforded me the privilege
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to come into your home or
wherever you are right now
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as we sharing and
praising our savior
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and in loving Him and
learning to praise Him
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and just show our
gratitude for all that He is.
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I want to focus
over the next few minutes
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on the trust and obedience
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that the Lord would have us
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to have in our
relationship with Him.
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You know,
relationships are about trusting
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and so, I wanna, I
wanna kind of meditate on that
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as we sing songs
and share testimonies
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about trusting and obeying.
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I was recently involved
in a Sabbath school lesson
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that talked about.
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Jesus gained the
confidence of the people
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that He surrounded Himself with.
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And when we have confidence,
we can begin to trust people.
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So this is a
hymn that as we study,
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ponder those
thoughts, and those themes.
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These are songs that
you will know hopefully.
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And I want you to sing along
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and hopefully they
will build your trust
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and your confidence
in our precious Lord.
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'Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus
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Just to take Him at His word
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Just to rest upon His promise
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Just to know,
"Thus saith the Lord"
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Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
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How I've proved
Him o'er and o'er
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Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
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Oh, for grace
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To trust Him more!
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Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus
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Just to trust
His cleansing blood
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And in simple faith to plunge me
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'Neath the
healing, cleansing flood!
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Yes, 'tis sweet
to trust in Jesus
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Just from sin and self to cease
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Just from Jesus simply taking
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Life and rest, and joy and peace
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Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
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How I've proved
Him o'er and o'er!
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Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
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Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
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I'm so glad
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I learned to trust thee
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Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend
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And I know that thou art with me
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And You will be
with me to the end
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So I sing.
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Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
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How I've proved
Him o'er and o'er!
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Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
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Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
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Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
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When we walk with the
Lord in the light of His Word
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What a glory He
sheds on our way!
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While we do His
goodwill He abides with us still
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And with all who
will trust and obey
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Trust and obey, for
there's no other way
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To be happy in Jesus
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But to trust and obey
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Not a burden we
bear, not a sorrow we share
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But our toil He
doth richly repay
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Not a grief nor a
loss, not a frown or a cross
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But is blest if
we trust and obey
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So trust and obey,
for there's no other way
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To be happy in Jesus
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but to trust and obey
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But we never can prove
the delights of His love
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Until on the altar we lay
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For the favor He
shows, for the joy He bestows
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Are for them who
will trust and obey
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And then in fellowship
sweet we will sit at His feet
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Or will walk by
His side in the way
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What He says we will do,
and where He sends we will go
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Never fear, only trust and obey
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So trust and obey,
for there's no other way
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To be happy in Jesus
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But to trust and obey
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Trust and obey
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Yeah, that's the
key to trust and obey.
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Sweet.
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I have a precious friend
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who I have spent
a lot of time with
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because I work with
her in the same building.
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Lucky you.
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And I live in the
basement and so it's fun.
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Her husband and she have been,
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they have hosted many a dinner.
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Really, I have been uninvited.
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Well, sort of, invited.
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Okay, sort of invited but...
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But I hollered at the
basement, "Tim, supper's ready."
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Right, yeah, well, there's that.
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So that is, I have found of,
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you have become
such a Christ like.
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I'm talking about
trust and confidence
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and it's wonderful to
have a friend like you.
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And that exhibits
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what that trust
relationship with Christ is
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even that's just a
earthly rendition of it
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but I really mean that.
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And so, and I'm
really proud of you.
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If you know E.T.
those of you watching,
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if you have ever had the
privilege of meeting E.T.,
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you will know for
her to have set here
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over this past few minutes
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without saying
anything and hardly even moving.
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This is quite an accomplishment.
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So, I'm really,
really proud of you.
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Well, it's really enjoyable,
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you know, how I
feel about your playing.
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So, and, your's probably humbled
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by that as I am by
the things you said to me.
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But it's a real
pleasure for me to sit here
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and listen just to absorb.
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I think I had my eyes closed,
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I hope I didn't
think people I was asleep,
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but I just was
absorbing what I was feeling.
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And so blessed by the
gift that God has given you
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and also to
have you as a friend,
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and a mentor, and a peer,
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and so many things that we have
developed in our relationship.
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God took a long time to do that
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and I'm very
thankful for that, too.
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Wow, as am I.
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I have been coming
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to the sound
center for many years.
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Sixteen. Sixteen. Recording.
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Yeah, 16, 17 years
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and there wasn't
a time that I came,
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that I didn't hear a
story that you had...
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Just 'cause I talk a
lot, there's always noise.
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Well, but they
were stories of how God
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had showed Himself
mighty in ways that
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they weren't parting
the Red Sea, they weren't,
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they weren't the miracles
that you read in the Bible,
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they were God's
hands and feet on earth
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that were and
they were personal.
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Personal.
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And, but the
thing that I love about
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it is the fact that
you saw a God in them
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and that you heard
God's voice through them,
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through those opportunities,
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and I'm getting to the place
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where I want to ask
you to share a testimony
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that you shared with me recently
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and I love it, I love it.
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Well, it kind of tells on myself
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so, you like to tell on myself
in front of the TV camera,
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will do that,
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but it's been a
few years back but...
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I went through
a stage in my life
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where I was
pursuing God to hear Him,
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to understand Him, to feel Him,
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for Him to be interactive
or me to be interactive,
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how we want to put it in my life
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rather than
just attending church
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and reading His word,
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I wanted to feel
Him, I wanted to know Him.
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I don't know that I
wanted Him to know me
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even though He knows me,
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the reality of me, but
I desired that closeness,
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and at the same time
I'm little scared of that.
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But anyway, in one of the
times I was attending a church
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and pastor was a young pastor
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and I was working
in the music with him.
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And his sister was
married to a gentleman
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that was not a
Christian at that time.
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And he was in a
really bad car wreck
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and they had taken him
over to in a different state
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to the hospital.
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And he was on life-support,
they didn't know if he was,
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you know, the
prayer request for,
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the phones were busy,
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the emails were
busy with information,
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please pray, please
pray that he even survive
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and that he is, you
know, mind is clear,
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and of course the
family was frantic,
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and I just got this real urge
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to show up.
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I'm not much to drive by myself
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especially in cities
and it was in the city.
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I can't tell you that it was God
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telling me to go
but I had an urge to go.
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I look at it now and I can
see a lot of me in the picture.
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But I just wanted to be a value.
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I had a pastor say one time,
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"99, and 99, and
100% of everything we do,
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we do for ourselves."
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And I remember
arguing in my mind,
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"Oh, no, I did that and
it was for, I did that,"
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and then he stopped and said,
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"Now, let's stop
and look at that."
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I'm not saying it's bad,
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but when you do
things for others,
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how does that make you feel?
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So, in a sense you
reap from those actions
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that feeds the needs in you.
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So I began to understand
what he was saying was right.
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So I'm not sure
what my motive was there,
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if I needed to prove myself
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worthy of big in ministry,
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if I needed to impress
the pastor or his family,
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I don't, I didn't examine that.
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All I knew was I
was gonna take my Bible,
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and I was gonna drive
an hour and fifteen minutes
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to this hospital,
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and I was gonna go in that room
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and I was gonna
speak the Word of God
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and things were gonna change.
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That was my desire
and there was an urgency,
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and I got
together, and I got my Bible,
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and I even know
opened up the word
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and found some little spots
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and stuck some little
pieces of paper in there.
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So I wouldn't be
stumbling through the pages
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trying to find the scriptures
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that, you know, that
pertain to what was going on.
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And I started to leave
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and I don't know
even how to say this.
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People say,
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"Well, I wish I heard
God, I don't hear God."
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I think that we each hear
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the voice of His
spirit in a different way.
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When we say, "Hear God,"
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we want to put
it in a fleshly way,
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you know, like
it's audible in our ears
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but most of mine
is, I feel a movement,
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or I feel an urging,
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or I see a picture of something
or I don't hear, you know.
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But this thought came
flooding through my mind,
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"Take the TriCounty Phone Book."
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Very detailed thought
which was in the kitchen,
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you know, with
the other phonebooks,
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one of those bigger ones
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that had several counties in it.
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And I thought,
"Well, that's stupid."
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I mean, you know, I'm
going and I've got my Bible,
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I've got my
scriptures, I am gonna go in
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and I didn't
say, "Save the day."
00:23:44.92\00:23:47.69
But in a sense, I
kind of wonder now
00:23:47.72\00:23:49.79
that's not what was going on
00:23:49.82\00:23:51.19
because I did fight the
idea of taking the phonebook.
00:23:51.23\00:23:54.66
Thinking what in the world
00:23:54.73\00:23:56.03
am I gonna do
with the phonebook.
00:23:56.06\00:23:57.50
So being very stubborn,
00:23:57.53\00:24:00.64
I got my purse, I got
my Bible, I got my coat,
00:24:00.67\00:24:02.54
and I went out of the
door with no phonebook.
00:24:02.57\00:24:04.74
Walked down the steps,
walked across the yard,
00:24:04.77\00:24:06.54
got in the car, shut the
door and it was like this,
00:24:06.57\00:24:09.24
"Okay, you have a
choice, take the phonebook,"
00:24:09.28\00:24:12.28
you know, it
wasn't like a discipline
00:24:12.31\00:24:15.78
but it was
definitely a feeling of,
00:24:15.82\00:24:19.35
"I need to go
get the phonebook."
00:24:19.39\00:24:22.19
So I get out of the car
00:24:22.22\00:24:23.56
and almost in
defiance slammed the door,
00:24:23.63\00:24:25.89
went back in the house,
picked up the phonebook,
00:24:25.93\00:24:28.26
walked back
outside, got on the car,
00:24:28.30\00:24:30.47
put the seatbelt
on, and started driving.
00:24:30.53\00:24:32.40
And the whole time
I'm still focusing on,
00:24:32.43\00:24:35.30
"Okay, I know still God's gonna
let me go in the room with him
00:24:35.34\00:24:38.91
and I'm gonna lay hands
on him, and I'm gonna pray,
00:24:38.94\00:24:41.68
and pray in faith
and believe in the word."
00:24:41.71\00:24:44.51
And not thinking
anything of impressing people
00:24:44.55\00:24:48.62
or being the savior of the day.
00:24:48.65\00:24:51.52
Just a desire to reach
out and help and be a servant.
00:24:51.55\00:24:56.22
So I get to the hospital,
00:24:56.26\00:24:57.86
I intentionally leave
the phonebook in the car,
00:24:57.89\00:25:00.96
intentionally pick up the Bible,
00:25:01.00\00:25:02.33
my purse, and I go in.
00:25:02.36\00:25:03.70
Asked the attendant
where the family was
00:25:03.77\00:25:05.57
and they were in a small room.
00:25:05.60\00:25:07.54
I can see the room,
00:25:07.57\00:25:08.90
yeah, there were
three chairs this way
00:25:08.94\00:25:10.31
and then about
eight chairs this way.
00:25:10.34\00:25:12.11
It was a narrow room
00:25:12.14\00:25:13.68
and the mother-in-law
00:25:13.71\00:25:15.81
and the daughter,
which will be the wife,
00:25:15.84\00:25:18.55
and the brother,
which is the pastor
00:25:18.58\00:25:20.32
were sitting in
those three chairs
00:25:20.35\00:25:21.68
and then some other people
00:25:21.72\00:25:23.05
from the church
were sitting along here.
00:25:23.08\00:25:24.42
About three chairs down
there was an open chair,
00:25:24.45\00:25:26.79
so I plop down,
put my coat down,
00:25:26.86\00:25:29.09
put the purse on the
floor, and my Bible on the lap.
00:25:29.12\00:25:31.89
And the lady was,
they were discussing,
00:25:31.93\00:25:33.60
and I asked how
things were going
00:25:33.63\00:25:35.16
and things were not
going well and I'm thinking,
00:25:35.20\00:25:38.03
"Do I ask or they just
gonna ask or do you have,
00:25:38.07\00:25:40.70
you know, how's
this gonna happen?"
00:25:40.74\00:25:42.20
'Cause it was in a situation
00:25:42.24\00:25:43.71
where you can
only go in so often,
00:25:43.77\00:25:45.71
of course, family
members were first
00:25:45.74\00:25:47.38
and I'm sitting,
not a family member.
00:25:47.44\00:25:49.34
But I just
know, and I'm anxious,
00:25:49.38\00:25:51.15
and I'm
excited, and I'm nervous.
00:25:51.18\00:25:53.88
And so she's
talking, she's crying,
00:25:53.92\00:25:55.98
she's talking to her
mother, and out of her mouth,
00:25:56.02\00:25:59.22
I will never forget
this, comes these words,
00:25:59.25\00:26:01.19
"I'll give anything
00:26:01.22\00:26:02.56
if had one of those
area-wide phonebooks."
00:26:02.59\00:26:04.89
Well, I picked up my purse,
00:26:09.96\00:26:12.33
I left my Bible on
the chair and my coat
00:26:12.37\00:26:14.74
and walked outside to
the car, unlocked the car,
00:26:14.77\00:26:18.21
picked up the
phonebook almost aggravated.
00:26:18.24\00:26:23.85
And I can feel God
smiling the whole time like,
00:26:23.88\00:26:29.18
"You ask, you wanted to
serve, you wanted to be used,
00:26:29.22\00:26:34.26
I tried to tell
you what they needed
00:26:34.29\00:26:38.63
but you wanted to
be my hero or heroin,"
00:26:38.66\00:26:42.56
whatever you wanna
call it, I would say it.
00:26:42.60\00:26:45.27
Got the
phonebook walked back in,
00:26:45.30\00:26:46.63
walked in the room,
00:26:46.70\00:26:48.04
I didn't make a big deal of it
00:26:48.07\00:26:49.40
'cause I was still
fighting with my own stubborn,
00:26:49.44\00:26:53.44
"How can you use this?"
00:26:53.48\00:26:54.81
I handed her the phonebook
00:26:54.84\00:26:56.18
and she grabbed
the phonebook and says,
00:26:56.21\00:26:57.55
"Oh, I really need this
00:26:57.58\00:26:58.91
because there's always people
I need to call and tell them
00:26:58.95\00:27:00.58
what's going on and I didn't."
00:27:00.65\00:27:02.25
It was before we had, I
think there were cell phones
00:27:02.28\00:27:05.62
but they were the big bag phones
00:27:05.65\00:27:06.99
and it didn't have
all the contact list
00:27:07.02\00:27:08.49
and all that, you know,
00:27:08.52\00:27:09.89
and she
startled, stood heaven way,
00:27:09.92\00:27:12.03
thank you, thank you.
00:27:12.06\00:27:13.43
"Do you normally carry
a phonebook in your car?"
00:27:13.46\00:27:15.73
And I just, I
was too embarrassed
00:27:15.76\00:27:17.10
to even tell the story
00:27:17.17\00:27:19.13
because of my disobedience
00:27:19.17\00:27:20.54
or really not my
complete disobedience,
00:27:20.57\00:27:22.87
with my
stubborn and my attitude.
00:27:22.90\00:27:25.24
And I sat there,
I never did go in,
00:27:25.27\00:27:27.58
I never did quote
scripture or say a prayer.
00:27:27.61\00:27:31.55
But I saw what
that brought to her.
00:27:31.58\00:27:34.45
She was able to
reach people she needed to,
00:27:34.48\00:27:36.62
take care of
babysitters, take care of things
00:27:36.69\00:27:39.82
that she needed to take care of.
00:27:39.85\00:27:42.09
And I started, it's been years
00:27:42.12\00:27:44.79
and I've gone over that story
and over that story thinking,
00:27:44.83\00:27:47.50
"Why do I argue first?
00:27:47.50\00:27:50.23
Second, why do I think
things have to look like God
00:27:50.27\00:27:53.94
or my definition
of looking like God,"
00:27:54.00\00:27:56.50
whether it be, "Okay,
00:27:56.54\00:27:57.87
I have to take the scripture
or I have take a prayer,
00:27:57.91\00:28:01.51
but not a phonebook."
00:28:01.54\00:28:03.38
But if it really is,
we talked about the song,
00:28:03.41\00:28:06.98
"I will serve thee and
I'll go where you want me to go
00:28:07.05\00:28:09.45
and I'll do what
you want me to do,"
00:28:09.48\00:28:11.02
and you said it in these
words of the songs you sang.
00:28:11.05\00:28:14.72
You know, before
I was gonna sit here
00:28:14.76\00:28:16.69
and when you get
to one of those words
00:28:16.76\00:28:18.09
and I smiled
thinking, "I really want that
00:28:18.13\00:28:20.43
but I like to argue, I guess.
00:28:20.46\00:28:22.73
Or I wanted to look like you
00:28:22.76\00:28:24.10
or maybe I want people
to think it looks like you."
00:28:24.17\00:28:26.20
Right, yeah.
00:28:26.23\00:28:27.57
Well, I think that's the
thing we've talked a lot about.
00:28:27.64\00:28:30.14
What does God look like?
00:28:30.21\00:28:32.31
And if we think it's
got anything to do with us,
00:28:32.34\00:28:35.94
we think, "Well,
that can't be God."
00:28:35.98\00:28:37.68
Because He's
much holier and royal
00:28:37.71\00:28:42.25
and there would be fanfare
00:28:42.28\00:28:44.32
and there would be
scripture references.
00:28:44.35\00:28:47.09
Yeah, so I have to, I
have to flow with that
00:28:47.16\00:28:51.09
evangelist I used to
listen to, always said,
00:28:51.13\00:28:53.50
"We want to be able to go in
00:28:53.53\00:28:54.86
and, you know, be victorious
and lay hands on people
00:28:54.93\00:28:58.83
and they'd be
healed and they'd saved
00:28:58.87\00:29:01.40
and have victory."
00:29:01.44\00:29:02.77
But we don't have a victory
00:29:02.80\00:29:04.14
over sink full of
dirty dishes at home
00:29:04.17\00:29:07.31
and I thought, "Oh, my goodness,
00:29:07.34\00:29:09.14
the simplicity
00:29:09.18\00:29:11.91
of being like Christ,
00:29:11.95\00:29:16.72
just doing what His father says,
00:29:16.75\00:29:19.32
He said, 'I don't
do or say anything.'"
00:29:19.35\00:29:21.46
Right.
00:29:21.49\00:29:22.82
We read that this morning about
00:29:22.86\00:29:24.43
anything we say or
do ought to be filtered
00:29:24.46\00:29:26.49
through the
grace and mercy of God
00:29:26.53\00:29:28.96
before it comes out of
our mouth or attitudes.
00:29:29.00\00:29:32.70
And, boy, I
would talk a lot less
00:29:32.73\00:29:34.87
if that was the case, you know.
00:29:34.90\00:29:36.24
And because
sometimes I forget how,
00:29:36.27\00:29:39.64
my friend uses
the word mercy stick
00:29:39.67\00:29:41.61
but I need to get
my mercy stick out
00:29:41.64\00:29:43.35
instead of my critical
or my opinionated stick.
00:29:43.38\00:29:47.95
And I thank God for that
event because it taught me,
00:29:47.98\00:29:52.52
even though I
still have a tendency to
00:29:52.55\00:29:55.96
maybe not totally
argue but question God,
00:29:55.99\00:29:59.56
"That can't be you,
you wouldn't say that.
00:29:59.59\00:30:01.13
That can't be you,
you wouldn't do that.
00:30:01.16\00:30:02.93
You wouldn't go there."
00:30:02.96\00:30:04.87
Forgetting that He knows
my end before my beginning,
00:30:04.90\00:30:08.14
and He has this plan,
00:30:08.17\00:30:09.87
and He knows
inside people, I don't.
00:30:09.90\00:30:14.91
Yeah.
00:30:14.94\00:30:16.28
And if I really trust Him,
00:30:16.31\00:30:17.65
which is what
we're talking about,
00:30:17.68\00:30:20.32
so do I trust His
voice, is it him, is it me?
00:30:20.38\00:30:23.08
Well, I can tell you for sure,
00:30:23.12\00:30:24.45
I wouldn't have thought
about taking a phonebook.
00:30:24.49\00:30:26.62
You know, at times, I think
00:30:26.65\00:30:28.26
the things that sound more like,
00:30:28.29\00:30:30.69
"I wouldn't do," are God
00:30:30.73\00:30:33.46
which is probably
good because then I think,
00:30:33.50\00:30:34.83
"Well, it's got to be You,
'cause it certainly wasn't me."
00:30:34.86\00:30:38.40
And I know I feel him,
00:30:38.43\00:30:40.40
sort of, laugh like,
it'd be a lot quicker
00:30:40.47\00:30:43.34
and a lot
simpler if you just do it
00:30:43.37\00:30:45.04
and get it over with.
00:30:45.07\00:30:46.41
But still, the
patience that He's had with me
00:30:46.44\00:30:48.58
and growing me in this,
00:30:48.61\00:30:51.58
but I love that
part of Him and His son,
00:30:51.61\00:30:56.18
and my savior, and His spirit
00:30:56.22\00:30:58.52
who gets down inside of
people and touches a button
00:30:58.55\00:31:03.43
that they know that
God knew and cared enough
00:31:03.46\00:31:08.70
to sent a servant or a messenger
00:31:08.73\00:31:11.47
with what they needed,
00:31:11.50\00:31:12.83
not what the
messenger thought they needed.
00:31:12.87\00:31:14.74
Yeah.
00:31:14.77\00:31:16.10
With what, you
can't deny that. Right.
00:31:16.14\00:31:18.94
That's a mystery
and a little miracle
00:31:18.97\00:31:21.71
and you can't, I mean, her face,
00:31:21.74\00:31:23.41
when I put that her in lap,
00:31:23.45\00:31:25.31
I mean, it's one
of those little things
00:31:25.35\00:31:26.78
I would like to
capture with a camera,
00:31:26.82\00:31:28.65
so I can go back the
next time, he speaks and says,
00:31:28.68\00:31:30.79
"Do this. Go back
and look at that picture.
00:31:30.85\00:31:33.15
Remember,"
00:31:33.19\00:31:34.52
because that
was my conformation.
00:31:34.56\00:31:37.29
Why did I doubt you, God?
00:31:37.33\00:31:40.00
I believe, you know, I believe.
00:31:40.06\00:31:41.86
Right, yeah. That's it.
00:31:41.90\00:31:43.80
You made reference to a
song "I will server thee".
00:31:43.83\00:31:48.37
And I just, I'd like for you
00:31:48.40\00:31:50.07
to just read the
lyrics of that song.
00:31:50.14\00:31:54.71
It makes a
statement, "I will serve Thee."
00:31:54.74\00:31:57.95
So there's a
choice being made there.
00:31:57.98\00:31:59.58
And you're saying to
God, "I will do that."
00:31:59.61\00:32:02.42
You know, because why?
00:32:02.45\00:32:04.39
I love Thee, I love Thee
00:32:04.42\00:32:07.29
because You have given,
you've given life to me.
00:32:07.36\00:32:12.03
Do I want You to
give life to others?
00:32:12.06\00:32:17.43
I was nothing.
00:32:17.47\00:32:19.80
I forget that sometimes.
00:32:19.83\00:32:23.17
Before You found me
00:32:23.20\00:32:25.17
but You have
still given life to me.
00:32:25.21\00:32:30.41
I want You to
give life to others
00:32:30.45\00:32:32.11
and I wanna be a vessel
00:32:32.15\00:32:34.55
that is Your hands
and Your feet to do that.
00:32:34.58\00:32:39.25
Heartaches, broken pieces,
00:32:39.29\00:32:43.49
ruined lives
00:32:43.53\00:32:46.80
are why He died on Calvary.
00:32:46.86\00:32:49.03
That was me, but
it's people around me too.
00:32:49.06\00:32:53.90
And do I want to be,
00:32:53.97\00:32:55.30
again, Your hands and Your feet,
00:32:55.34\00:32:57.57
Your words, Your
grace, Your love,
00:32:57.61\00:33:01.14
Your touch, Your time,
00:33:01.18\00:33:04.08
all the things
that You have allowed us
00:33:04.15\00:33:06.18
as human beings to do for
each other that we desire.
00:33:06.21\00:33:11.75
But I wanna
determine what that is
00:33:11.79\00:33:13.46
instead of
letting You determine.
00:33:13.49\00:33:15.02
But again, You were the
one that gave life to me.
00:33:15.06\00:33:20.83
On Calvary You touched me
00:33:20.90\00:33:23.53
and that's what
we all longed for.
00:33:23.57\00:33:26.90
He's our father,
creator, our lord, our savior,
00:33:26.94\00:33:29.27
our redeemer, our teacher,
00:33:29.30\00:33:31.87
our coach, our encourager.
00:33:31.91\00:33:36.18
And you have given life to me.
00:33:36.21\00:33:40.02
So what am I supposed to do?
00:33:40.08\00:33:42.05
Give life to others
00:33:42.08\00:33:45.69
to be, we talked
about this a lot,
00:33:45.72\00:33:47.86
to be transparent.
00:33:47.89\00:33:49.99
Because when they look
for God, they look through me.
00:33:50.03\00:33:53.13
And if I'm in the
picture, they can't see God.
00:33:53.16\00:33:56.90
But if I'm transparent,
00:33:56.93\00:33:58.63
and His light shines through me,
00:33:58.67\00:34:01.37
then they can see God.
00:34:01.40\00:34:04.21
So we got to do it His way,
00:34:04.24\00:34:05.57
'cause He knows what He's doing.
00:34:05.61\00:34:06.98
I will serve thee
00:34:09.84\00:34:15.82
Because I love thee
00:34:15.85\00:34:22.29
You have given life
00:34:22.32\00:34:28.30
To me
00:34:28.33\00:34:33.90
I was nothing
00:34:33.94\00:34:38.91
Before You found me
00:34:38.94\00:34:45.01
You have given life To me
00:34:45.05\00:34:52.99
Heartaches
00:34:57.66\00:35:02.03
Broken pieces
00:35:02.06\00:35:07.64
Ruined lives
00:35:07.67\00:35:11.17
Are why You died
00:35:11.21\00:35:16.14
On Calvary
00:35:16.18\00:35:20.12
And Your touch
00:35:20.15\00:35:23.79
Was what I longed for
00:35:23.82\00:35:30.36
You have given life to me
00:35:30.43\00:35:38.27
For that I'm so grateful, Lord
00:35:41.70\00:35:43.97
You have given life
00:35:48.51\00:35:52.35
To me
00:35:56.22\00:35:58.42
Thank you, E.T.
00:36:03.96\00:36:05.39
Amen. We'll be back.
00:36:05.43\00:36:06.76