Hello and welcome
to session number two
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of "Where Are All His Miracles."
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During these
next several meetings
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we're gonna be
looking at the where, the why,
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the how, the who,
the when of miracles.
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We're going to
reaffirm that we serve
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a miracle working God.
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Can you say, amen? Amen.
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A God who worked miracles in
the days of Christ and before
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and a God who works
miracles today in our own lives.
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And as we said before we
know that the hand of God
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is still upon this
ministry that we love 3ABN
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and upon God's people.
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And as we move
towards the second coming
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of our Lord and
Savior Jesus Christ,
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I am convicted in my
mind convinced in my heart
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that we are going to see
the miracle working hand of God
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moving again in
the lives of those
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who have been called
to serve Jesus Christ.
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Say Amen. Amen.
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And amen and so our theme song,
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this speaks that
very-- that very fact,
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it is called "It took a Miracle"
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it is found as 111
in the church hymnal
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the words will be on this screen
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and we want you
to sing it with us.
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"It took a Miracle."
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My Father is omnipotent
and that you can't deny
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A God of might and miracles
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'Tis written in the sky
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It took a miracle
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To put the stars in place
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It took a miracle
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To hang the world in space
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But when He saved my soul
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Cleansed and made me whole
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It took a miracle
of love and grace!
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Very good, stanza number two.
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Though here His
glory has been shown
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All right, sing it out.
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We still can't fully see
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The wonders of His might
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His throne 'twill take eternity
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And that chorus.
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It took a miracle
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To put the stars in place
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And it took a miracle
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To hang this world in space
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But when he saved my soul
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Cleansed and made me whole
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It took a miracle
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Of love and grace!
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And now that last stanza.
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The Bible tells me of his power
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And wisdom all way through
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And every little bird and flower
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Are testimonies too
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And that chorus.
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It took a miracle
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To put the stars in place
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It took a miracle
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To hang the world in space
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But when He saved my soul
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Cleansed and made me whole
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It took a miracle
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Of love and grace
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Amen and amen.
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Perhaps the greatest miracle
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still is the changing
of a sinner into a saint.
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The giving of
ones life to the Lord
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that is truly a miracle.
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We welcome you again as
we said to session number two
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of "Where Are All His Miracles"
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and we're gonna have
a good time together.
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And we encourage you to
attend all our meetings.
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Now my words that I say now
are for our in house audience.
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Because on tomorrow evening
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there is a rather
popular sporting event
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that's gonna take place.
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Now if you time
everything out right,
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you ought to be able to
participate in that event
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and still make
it here for meeting.
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Now we're not dropping
any guilt trip upon anyone.
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We're simply
saying you can do both.
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It doesn't have to be either or.
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So we're looking to
see you on tomorrow evening
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and everybody say, amen-amen.
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Praise the Lord.
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Our speaker for our next session
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will be Pastor John Dinzey
and you will want to hear him.
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This afternoon
we will be blessed
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I know by a presentation
from our own Cheri Peters now,
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I call her our own,
although her membership
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is not here so her heart is here
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and we have come to
love her ask our very own.
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Our scripture reading is
going to be brought to us by
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Carrie Christian,
who is the head deaconess
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for the Thompsonville
Seventh-day Adventist Church.
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Our scripture reading
comes from Revelation 3:20.
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I'm reading from the
New Living Translation.
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"Look! I stand at
the door and knock.
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If you hear my voice and
open the door, I will come in,
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and we will share a
meal together as friends.
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Those who are victorious
will sit with me on my throne,
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just as I was victorious
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and sat with my
Father on His throne.
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Anyone with ears
to hear must listen
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to the Spirit and understand
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what he is
saying to the churches."
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It's all right He's by my side
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And He'll take good care of me
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It's all right He's on my side
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And He knows my every need
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He said oh you of little faith
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See the sparrows in the sky
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Unencumbered by
the cares of the world
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I feed even them
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Clothe the lilies in the field
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How much more to me
are you worth than these
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I gave My Son for
you it's all right
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I'm by your side
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And I'll take good care of you
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It's all right I'm on your side
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And I know all
that you go through
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He said
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When you're at
your lowest of lows
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I want you to know
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I think more of you
than what you could yourself
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My love is
deeper than the oceans
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Wider than the valleys
higher than the mountain tops
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I gave My Son for
you it's all right
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I'm by your side
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And I'll take good care of you
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It's all right I'm on your side
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And I know all
that you go through
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I said You formed
then fought for my heart
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Father how great Thou art
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I know all that
You are seems too good
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But it's true
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You made me then saved me
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Love me unconditionally
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Father of mine how did You
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Give your Son for me
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It's all right He's by my side
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And He'll take good care of me
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It's all right He's on my side
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And He knows my every need
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It's all right
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He's by on side
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It's all right
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He's on my side
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It's all right
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Amen. Amen. Amen and amen.
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Thank you so
very much Otto family,
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Jonathan, Billy,
Melissa, Sarah and Gaya.
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We rearrange
things to get them on
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because we like to
support young people
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because they have
traveled so very, very far.
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They are coming to us
all the way from Australia
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and when young
people come that far
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you want to try
to help them out.
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They have a beautiful testimony.
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They are beautiful young people
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and we like to
encourage our youth.
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One of them said, you know,
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C.A, you're our favorite
preacher there in Australia,
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so I had to get them on.
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True or not but we do thank them
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for coming so very,
very far and for blessing us
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with their music
and their ministry.
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We are ready now for
our principle speaker,
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our presented for
this afternoon Cheri Peter.
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If you know her, you'd know
what a positive person she is
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with a powerful
testimony she has.
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And what God has done, is doing
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and will continue to
do through her ministry
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and through a marvelous
program that is our privilege
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to air on 3ABN called
Celebrating Life in Recovery
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and these young people
are part of that program.
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And the Lord
just works things out,
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they were passing through
we put them on the program.
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They were still here today and
so we use them this afternoon
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and they'd been such a blessing.
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Cheri, the time is yours.
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Okay, I just want to say that
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weren't you not
blessed by these guys.
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Amen.
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The first time I heard them sing
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every single song
I literally just wept
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because it just touch me
and I so was really thrilled
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when they said that they would
sing for this presentation.
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I wanted to say when I heard
what this whole thing was about
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and I heard that
we were gonna about
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miracles and God's miracles.
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And they said Cheri,
would you come and join us
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and I thought okay, is
God still doing miracles
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and we are all His miracles.
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I'm thinking
what story do I tell?
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Do I tell boys
story? Do I tell my story?
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Do I tell Stephanie
story? Do I tell Rosalina story?
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Do I tell my parents?
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And I thought I don't
even know where to start
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because I see so
much of what God is doing
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all over the place.
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Every time I go
somewhere he just vows me.
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But I want to start out with
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for those that
don't know who I am.
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I'm gonna start
with just who I am.
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You know, I am--
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my mom tried to self
abort six different times.
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And I just want
to start right there
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is that she was 14-
years-old ended up pregnant
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and is looking
at her first child
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that she had when
she was 13-years-old.
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Now pregnant again
with the 15-year-old guy
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that is violent and drinking
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and she's
saying I can't do this.
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She finds that
she is pregnant again
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and she tried
everything to self abort.
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She took pills and I
don't need to be gross
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and I'm sorry but stuck
coat hangers up inside of her,
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try to puncture
the sack that I was in.
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I mean, all that kind stuff.
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She was so desperate
not too have this child.
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And I'm born into that,
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my dad got more and
more violent with her.
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He started sexually molesting us
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and I'm not gonna
go into the whole story
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but by 12 years old, I
was on drugs, pregnant,
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being pushed out of the
home and ended up homeless
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in Los Angeles at that time.
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I was homeless for
the next ten years.
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And I wish I
could go into all that
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and tell you that
it was horrendous.
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What I saw on the streets,
the stuff I saw on the streets,
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the twistedness of
all of us and how kind of
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we could get lost in
so many different things.
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I'm telling you I am surprised
that I could even come up
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with any kind of
sense of normality.
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You know what I
mean? It just surprises me.
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But I literally met
God sitting in a drug house
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trying to kill myself
and I-- I wanted to jump
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in front of a train, I
wanted to be smashed up,
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I wanted to be destroyed.
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I didn't want to
be here ever again.
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I didn't want to breathe
again and I was so depressed.
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I thought, you know what,
I don't even like this world.
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I don't like this world
and I don't like what I see.
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If I met a pastor
when I was on the streets
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because they were twisted
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and they were lost in addictions
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and I didn't meet
anybody that was normal
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and I thought
I'm done, I am done.
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And I remember
sitting there and, you know,
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God just showed up.
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You know how does that happen?
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He literally shows
up and He says to me
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and through the Holy Spirit
'cause I didn't hear a voice,
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I didn't hear anything
but He said to me I love you.
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I love you.
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You know the song they
were singing it's all right,
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it's gonna be all right
and I remember just feeling so,
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so just loved.
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And I sat there
for the longest time
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'cause I thought
if I opened my eyes,
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if I turned, if I do
anything and God leaves,
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I don't even know,
how do you find God.
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I'm in a drug
house, He showed up here,
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I don't know if He is gonna
be anywhere else on the planet.
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I don't want to leave this room,
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this place 'cause
God is just loving me.
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He is telling me-- I'm thinking
He's gonna tell me stuff like,
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you know what, you
need to stop doing heroin.
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What is wrong with you?
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And I think, He is
gonna say, you know what,
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you've been cursing a
lot, what's wrong with you?
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He didn't say any of that.
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He said I love you. I love you.
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And He didn't say,
you know what, Cheri,
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you have 42
warrants for your arrest,
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that's not good.
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You know what I mean?
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'Cause I knew that was not good.
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And I literally had
42 warrants for my arrest
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at the time I'm trying to
kill myself in that drug house
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and God didn't say
anything, He said I love you.
00:15:53.87\00:15:56.86
I love you.
00:15:56.89\00:15:57.92
And then He showed me
an image of who He sees
00:15:57.95\00:16:01.30
when He looks at me,
an absolutely beautiful.
00:16:01.33\00:16:06.06
Man, but I knew
I'm not beautiful.
00:16:06.09\00:16:11.65
I was molested since
I'm three months old, right?
00:16:11.68\00:16:14.90
My dad was caught the first
time I was three months old.
00:16:14.93\00:16:17.77
I'm not innocent,
I'm not beautiful,
00:16:17.80\00:16:20.25
I'm not anything,
00:16:20.28\00:16:21.31
I was 100 pounds
strung out on heroin,
00:16:21.34\00:16:23.27
had teeth missing,
00:16:23.30\00:16:25.54
I know I'm not beautiful
and I said in my mind to God,
00:16:25.57\00:16:30.27
I know I'm not beautiful.
00:16:30.30\00:16:31.88
I know I'm not
innocent and I started crying
00:16:31.91\00:16:34.12
'cause I know that.
00:16:34.15\00:16:35.73
And He said you know
nothing. You know nothing.
00:16:35.76\00:16:39.46
You are My child and you
are absolutely everything to Me,
00:16:39.49\00:16:43.33
you are beautiful to Me.
00:16:43.36\00:16:45.19
And if you trust Me,
I'll walk you right into this.
00:16:45.22\00:16:49.83
I'll walk you right into this
place and I'm thinking, man,
00:16:49.86\00:16:53.32
I didn't even, it was like,
00:16:53.35\00:16:54.42
how do you dare
dream about that?
00:16:54.45\00:16:56.26
How do you dare hope
that God is gonna walk me
00:16:56.29\00:16:59.59
into a place
where I could stand out
00:16:59.62\00:17:01.58
and be beautiful,
innocent, you know.
00:17:01.61\00:17:04.91
And I'm thinking, man, so
I sat there for a long time
00:17:04.94\00:17:09.09
and then all of a
sudden I thought, man,
00:17:09.12\00:17:11.35
there are some
druggies in the living room.
00:17:11.38\00:17:13.21
I don't know if you've
ever lived in a drug house,
00:17:13.24\00:17:14.75
if you have, raise your hand.
00:17:14.78\00:17:15.97
No.
00:17:16.00\00:17:17.03
But in here, you know,
there were some druggies
00:17:17.06\00:17:18.39
in the living
room and they were--
00:17:18.42\00:17:20.86
one guy was naked, high on
cannibal playing air guitar,
00:17:20.89\00:17:24.43
do you know what I mean?
00:17:24.46\00:17:25.51
And that's the people
I surrounded myself with.
00:17:25.54\00:17:27.32
You know what I mean?
00:17:27.35\00:17:28.39
So I thought I'm
sitting in the room with God,
00:17:28.42\00:17:30.77
He is telling
me how lovely I am,
00:17:30.80\00:17:32.35
I am feeling love for the
first time in my life ever
00:17:32.38\00:17:35.54
and I'm thinking, man,
00:17:35.57\00:17:37.66
I don't want God to
go in the living room
00:17:37.69\00:17:39.04
'cause there is a naked guy
00:17:39.07\00:17:40.11
and they're
playing guitar, you know.
00:17:40.14\00:17:41.63
And so I'm gonna
sneak God out the window
00:17:41.66\00:17:44.56
'cause, you know, God doesn't
need to be seeing that, right?
00:17:44.59\00:17:47.33
You know, so, I'm like--
oh, it wasn't you though.
00:17:47.36\00:17:51.08
All right, anyway
so I am like, okay,
00:17:51.11\00:17:54.29
so I, you know, I
sneak God out of the house.
00:17:54.32\00:17:56.73
He literally
walked me into recovery.
00:17:56.76\00:17:58.75
Put me into an
incredible woman's home,
00:17:58.78\00:18:01.68
vegan
vegetarian, loved the Bible
00:18:01.71\00:18:04.09
and she put up with
me, she tolerated me
00:18:04.12\00:18:06.77
for the first
week of my recovery,
00:18:06.80\00:18:08.17
I'm withdrawing,
I've been high for--
00:18:08.20\00:18:10.78
since I was 12 years
old I've been high everyday
00:18:10.81\00:18:12.36
strung out on heroin.
00:18:12.39\00:18:13.47
I go over to
somebody's house with no drugs,
00:18:13.50\00:18:15.52
what was I thinking?
00:18:15.55\00:18:16.65
What was I thinking?
00:18:16.68\00:18:18.33
You know I know I met
God but I'm a drug addict
00:18:18.36\00:18:21.20
and I'm like, I
show up, I have no drugs,
00:18:21.23\00:18:23.29
I have no anything,
I started withdrawing.
00:18:23.32\00:18:24.88
I'm thinking, man,
and God literally blessed
00:18:24.91\00:18:27.81
this woman to stay with
me every step of the way,
00:18:27.84\00:18:30.40
every step of the way and what
the funniest thing to me was
00:18:30.43\00:18:33.40
as soon as I
started trusting her,
00:18:33.43\00:18:35.25
'cause drug addicts, we
have a hard time to trust.
00:18:35.28\00:18:37.15
We've been
trashed a lot by people.
00:18:37.18\00:18:39.19
So we don't trust easy
00:18:39.22\00:18:40.85
but as soon as I
started trusting her,
00:18:40.88\00:18:42.49
you know what happened?
00:18:42.52\00:18:44.52
A Bible came out from
under her sleeve I think.
00:18:44.55\00:18:47.24
What? Where did
that come from? I'm like.
00:18:47.27\00:18:50.85
She then started
teaching me the Bible,
00:18:50.88\00:18:52.82
teaching about different things,
00:18:52.85\00:18:54.48
teaching me who God was,
00:18:54.51\00:18:56.79
and literally
I've changed my life.
00:18:56.82\00:18:59.48
I was encouraged by
her, to learn to read.
00:18:59.51\00:19:03.07
I was
23-years-old and illiterate
00:19:03.10\00:19:04.80
so I had to learn to
read and go back to school
00:19:04.83\00:19:07.44
and I go into a nursing program
00:19:07.47\00:19:09.38
and I would, most of time I
was on my knees to God crying.
00:19:09.41\00:19:14.20
I can't do this.
00:19:14.23\00:19:16.51
I'm not smart,
God, You know that
00:19:16.54\00:19:19.72
and I didn't
realize that I was smart,
00:19:19.75\00:19:22.29
I just didn't know how to read.
00:19:22.32\00:19:23.97
You know, I didn't
know that but God knew that
00:19:24.00\00:19:25.47
and He kept telling
me, don't even think about
00:19:25.50\00:19:28.45
what you know about yourself,
00:19:28.48\00:19:30.61
trust Me and
what I know about you.
00:19:30.64\00:19:32.84
Trust that.
00:19:32.87\00:19:33.90
And so I finally
just started trusting that
00:19:33.93\00:19:35.66
but I would cry
and He would get me up
00:19:35.69\00:19:37.46
and I ended up in a
dean's list of college.
00:19:37.49\00:19:41.31
I learned to read, took a D.Ed,
00:19:41.34\00:19:42.61
ended up in college
and I'm on the dean's list.
00:19:42.64\00:19:44.72
I'm thinking I'm
seeing miracle after miracle
00:19:44.75\00:19:46.75
after miracle after miracle.
00:19:46.78\00:19:49.03
It was-- I was tired.
00:19:49.06\00:19:50.83
One time-- and I joke
about this but one time,
00:19:50.86\00:19:54.27
I'm doing some stuff and sort
of looking a homeless shelter
00:19:54.30\00:19:57.33
and I'm loving on God
and He is loving on me
00:19:57.36\00:19:59.91
and I'm doing nursing.
00:19:59.94\00:20:01.67
I'm doing so well
that I am getting award
00:20:01.70\00:20:06.01
for the state that I'm in.
00:20:06.04\00:20:08.61
I got
volunteered the year award.
00:20:08.64\00:20:11.33
I was a grand marshal
on the 4th of July parade.
00:20:11.36\00:20:13.63
Do you know what I mean?
00:20:13.66\00:20:14.70
Because when you
fall in love with God
00:20:14.73\00:20:16.38
you start doing good stuff
00:20:16.41\00:20:17.84
and I don't know
why you guys not used
00:20:17.87\00:20:19.50
to people doing good stuff
00:20:19.53\00:20:20.58
because they award you for that.
00:20:20.61\00:20:22.40
Here have a trophy and
I'm like okay, thank you.
00:20:22.43\00:20:26.16
You know, but I
mean I was just--
00:20:26.19\00:20:27.72
it was just a fun journey
00:20:27.75\00:20:30.00
and I watch miracle
after miracle after miracle
00:20:30.03\00:20:32.78
but that's not what I
want to share with you today,
00:20:32.81\00:20:34.63
'cause within
this last few months
00:20:34.66\00:20:37.58
has really shown me who He is
and where He is doing miracles.
00:20:37.61\00:20:43.02
I was-- since
then I just got to say
00:20:43.05\00:20:45.72
I'll just I'll move
you all way up to today.
00:20:45.75\00:20:48.71
I got my nursing
degree, I did site nursing,
00:20:48.74\00:20:51.17
I was doing mental health.
00:20:51.20\00:20:53.07
I ended up just
doing volunteer work,
00:20:53.10\00:20:57.91
praying for God after well
that I want to be in ministry
00:20:57.94\00:21:00.09
and He opens up ministry
and I'm just being blessed.
00:21:00.12\00:21:03.61
You know, God is
just-- He just cracks me up
00:21:03.64\00:21:06.68
and how much He
pours into our lives.
00:21:06.71\00:21:08.64
I mean, He just to me
it was absolutely more than
00:21:08.67\00:21:10.92
I ever deserved, more
than I could even handle.
00:21:10.95\00:21:13.99
And one day I'm working
with the number of folks,
00:21:14.02\00:21:16.39
Randy Maxwell is
one of my good friends.
00:21:16.42\00:21:18.60
He's mom is my spiritual mentor.
00:21:18.63\00:21:19.98
And some of you know him.
00:21:20.01\00:21:21.49
He's trying to call me one day,
00:21:21.52\00:21:22.69
'cause we're doing
a number of things.
00:21:22.72\00:21:24.70
And finally he calls
me and I pick up the phone
00:21:24.73\00:21:26.77
and he says I've been
calling you all morning.
00:21:26.80\00:21:29.60
And I said I know.
00:21:29.63\00:21:31.45
He's like, you
know? And I said, I know.
00:21:31.48\00:21:33.73
So why didn't
you answer the phone?
00:21:33.76\00:21:35.16
And I said I just
couldn't take another miracle.
00:21:35.19\00:21:37.62
I was tired. Do
you know what I mean?
00:21:37.65\00:21:39.97
It's like God slow up,
you know hold up for a minute.
00:21:40.00\00:21:42.76
Let me catch my breath,
you know 'cause you know God
00:21:42.79\00:21:45.10
just He
continues to pour into you.
00:21:45.13\00:21:47.34
So anyhow few months
ago I'm doing ministry now,
00:21:47.37\00:21:49.94
I have the Celebrating
Life in Recovery program,
00:21:49.97\00:21:52.85
we done a radio
program, True Step Ministries
00:21:52.88\00:21:54.86
is going all over the
world working with addicts.
00:21:54.89\00:21:57.10
We've been in every state,
00:21:57.13\00:21:58.30
almost every
prison and every state.
00:21:58.33\00:21:59.88
We've been to
rehab centers I mean,
00:21:59.91\00:22:01.24
God we're doing one
to one to with addicts.
00:22:01.27\00:22:03.31
I mean we are
literally doing so much
00:22:03.34\00:22:06.01
and I get a call from my family.
00:22:06.04\00:22:10.29
And my sister is in ICU
and I think she's going to die.
00:22:10.32\00:22:15.01
And I'm thinking, okay,
you know what just happened
00:22:15.04\00:22:18.24
and you know everything stops.
00:22:18.27\00:22:20.78
When somebody tells
you, you know your family,
00:22:20.81\00:22:23.51
you know and everything
stops and I'm thinking okay.
00:22:23.54\00:22:25.90
So now I am calling
people that have miles
00:22:25.93\00:22:28.68
on to get some
stuff on airlines.
00:22:28.71\00:22:30.60
And can you get me to
LA? And they get me to LA.
00:22:30.63\00:22:34.34
My sister, my younger
sister she is so funny.
00:22:34.37\00:22:36.93
She is beautiful, she is
funny and probably in my family
00:22:36.96\00:22:41.93
she is my closest
as far as siblings.
00:22:41.96\00:22:44.60
And she's a
stripper, strung out on coke,
00:22:44.63\00:22:50.04
her boyfriend is like 70
'cause he has lots of money.
00:22:50.07\00:22:53.93
And you know, she
has never been married.
00:22:53.96\00:22:55.12
She's been used in all kinds
of ways by all kinds of men.
00:22:55.15\00:22:58.55
And she has never known
00:22:58.58\00:23:00.07
what it feels
like to be in recovery.
00:23:00.10\00:23:01.90
And even though
I've been in recovery,
00:23:01.93\00:23:03.16
I have tried to
just love on her,
00:23:03.19\00:23:05.25
and get her to trust God.
00:23:05.28\00:23:06.63
And she just literally you know,
00:23:06.66\00:23:08.48
I love you but just
stop on this God thing.
00:23:08.51\00:23:12.60
And now she is
dying, and I'm like, man,
00:23:12.63\00:23:16.63
so I get to the hospital.
00:23:16.66\00:23:20.09
She's on had the
time like-- got there.
00:23:20.12\00:23:23.24
They literally have her
on life support and she had--
00:23:23.27\00:23:26.30
when I show what
happened, she has her 30 wine
00:23:26.33\00:23:29.40
and you know looks like from
what I can find at her house
00:23:29.43\00:23:33.37
is she might have
even did a suicide attempt
00:23:33.40\00:23:35.18
I don't even know.
00:23:35.21\00:23:36.58
But she blew a
hole in her stomach
00:23:36.61\00:23:38.20
and all the acids in her stomach
00:23:38.23\00:23:39.79
feel through
abdominal cavity out.
00:23:39.82\00:23:41.83
The acids in her
abdominal cavity burnt a hole
00:23:41.86\00:23:44.52
in her lungs and
filled her lungs out.
00:23:44.55\00:23:46.94
So her lungs are
burnt, and she can't breathe
00:23:46.97\00:23:49.29
so they've got
her on a ventilator.
00:23:49.32\00:23:51.28
And so I walk in and
I-- I'd see her laying there
00:23:51.31\00:23:55.13
and I'm thinking--
you can't just lay there,
00:23:55.16\00:23:59.03
you can't just lay there.
00:23:59.06\00:24:00.18
And you got to
get up and I'm sorry
00:24:00.21\00:24:01.91
and I remember one
time sitting there thinking
00:24:01.94\00:24:04.49
did I tell you that I love you?
00:24:04.52\00:24:06.85
Now when is the last time dude--
00:24:06.88\00:24:08.07
the last time we saw each other
00:24:08.10\00:24:09.35
did I say that I love you
00:24:09.38\00:24:11.91
and I couldn't
remember and I thought--
00:24:11.94\00:24:14.49
can you hear me?
00:24:14.52\00:24:15.80
As soon as I like-- I
reached over and I said,
00:24:15.83\00:24:20.30
I love you and all
the bells and the whistles
00:24:20.33\00:24:23.47
on all the life support
stuff started going off.
00:24:23.50\00:24:27.95
And the nurses came in and said
00:24:27.98\00:24:29.52
were you
talking to her just now?
00:24:29.55\00:24:31.76
And I said, well, I
just was saying I love you.
00:24:31.79\00:24:34.50
And they said, we told
you not to talk to her.
00:24:34.53\00:24:37.21
We have her in an induce
coma so that she can breath
00:24:37.24\00:24:40.45
and that maybe she will live
00:24:40.48\00:24:41.55
and every time
you try to talk to her
00:24:41.58\00:24:43.54
she's gonna try to answer you
00:24:43.57\00:24:44.73
and she's gonna try
to come out of her coma.
00:24:44.76\00:24:46.74
And so I'm like okay, I'm sorry.
00:24:46.77\00:24:49.12
They walk away. I
really do love you.
00:24:49.15\00:24:52.73
All the bells and
whistle went off again.
00:24:52.76\00:24:54.91
I got in trouble you know
00:24:54.94\00:24:57.79
and I go back in
the waiting room.
00:24:57.82\00:24:59.30
Now picture of the waiting room.
00:24:59.33\00:25:01.04
Okay, just picture this,
my dad's in the waiting room,
00:25:01.07\00:25:03.84
my stepdad he's 6.1, 90 pounds.
00:25:03.87\00:25:08.37
He's liver shutting down,
his lungs are shutting down,
00:25:08.40\00:25:10.49
he's been strung out
on drugs my whole life.
00:25:10.52\00:25:13.57
He's smoking so
bad, he just-- he's--
00:25:13.60\00:25:16.85
you physically look at
him and you hurt for him.
00:25:16.88\00:25:19.46
My sister's a meth
addict, my younger sister,
00:25:19.49\00:25:21.63
very youngest one
and she weighs 80 pounds.
00:25:21.66\00:25:24.98
She's got cranks sores all over
and she always-- her muscles,
00:25:25.01\00:25:28.55
she has not control
over her muscles anymore.
00:25:28.58\00:25:30.48
So her muscles literally
like when she talks to you
00:25:30.51\00:25:33.39
she'll be like having to
move and that's my sister.
00:25:33.42\00:25:37.87
The other ones in the
family have different issues
00:25:37.90\00:25:39.75
and with in the waiting room.
00:25:39.78\00:25:41.29
My uncles there and his wife--
00:25:41.32\00:25:44.13
and his wife is
complaining to someone,
00:25:44.16\00:25:46.74
its not part of our family
00:25:46.77\00:25:47.90
but it's just
someone that you know what?
00:25:47.93\00:25:50.94
When she was like 10 years old,
00:25:50.97\00:25:52.45
she was trying to
sleep with my husband.
00:25:52.48\00:25:55.35
And I though you
know what, I was not.
00:25:55.38\00:25:58.73
And she was talking
about me, I walk in the room
00:25:58.76\00:26:00.38
and she's talking
about me and I'm thinking.
00:26:00.41\00:26:01.83
I wasn't. I just love
him. He was my favorite uncle.
00:26:01.86\00:26:05.50
You know, and so you
know-- so I'm surrounded by that
00:26:05.53\00:26:09.38
and my sister is dying and
I want to scream to someone.
00:26:09.41\00:26:12.35
This is weird,
this is not right.
00:26:12.38\00:26:14.03
There shouldn't
have-- be how somebody dies.
00:26:14.06\00:26:16.47
And so we are kind of just
trying to hang out together.
00:26:16.50\00:26:21.27
My younger sister the
meth addict started to beat up
00:26:21.30\00:26:24.19
my father who was sick--
you know, that is 90 pounds
00:26:24.22\00:26:28.05
and they had a
fight in front of the ICU.
00:26:28.08\00:26:31.07
Nurses station in
front of my sisters room
00:26:31.10\00:26:32.96
and they literally were
throwing things at each other.
00:26:32.99\00:26:35.29
Swinging at each
other and having that
00:26:35.32\00:26:37.25
and I'm trying to say stop.
00:26:37.28\00:26:39.29
You know, because
the nurses are literally
00:26:39.32\00:26:41.53
trying to ban our
family because of all the chaos
00:26:41.56\00:26:43.96
away from my sister.
00:26:43.99\00:26:45.46
And I'm just saying
let's just all relax,
00:26:45.49\00:26:48.66
and then I realize
that-- my sisters and my mother
00:26:48.69\00:26:52.10
are huddling kind
of with the nurses.
00:26:52.13\00:26:54.73
And I'm like I wonder
what's going on over there?
00:26:54.76\00:26:57.43
So I find out later that
they bared me from the ICU.
00:26:57.46\00:27:01.16
I'm not allowed to
go in there anymore,
00:27:01.19\00:27:03.28
because they're afraid
that if I go in I may--
00:27:03.31\00:27:05.09
I might pray for my sister
00:27:05.12\00:27:07.82
and they said
that's not gonna happen,
00:27:07.85\00:27:10.43
we don't believe like you do.
00:27:10.46\00:27:12.79
You cannot go by
yourself anymore in there.
00:27:12.82\00:27:16.14
I'm like she is
dying, hold up, please,
00:27:16.17\00:27:19.82
just somebody hold
up because she is dying
00:27:19.85\00:27:23.49
and I'm afraid and
I have to pray for her
00:27:23.52\00:27:26.79
and I'm told I can't.
00:27:26.82\00:27:28.83
You can't and I'm like oh, man,
00:27:28.86\00:27:31.61
I'm dying and so this nurse
comes up to me at one point
00:27:31.64\00:27:34.29
and she says, Cheri,
come here for a minute.
00:27:34.32\00:27:38.15
And I walk over
there and she says,
00:27:38.18\00:27:40.14
have you ever thought
to take the night shift?
00:27:40.17\00:27:43.13
And I said what do you mean?
00:27:43.16\00:27:44.75
She said I work night
shift and I'm Christian
00:27:44.78\00:27:48.19
and may be if you
just take the night shift.
00:27:48.22\00:27:50.87
Your family won't
want to stay up all night.
00:27:50.90\00:27:53.33
And you can pray for her, right?
00:27:53.36\00:27:56.05
So and this is a incredible.
00:27:56.08\00:27:58.39
So I go in on the night shifts,
start taking the night shift
00:27:58.42\00:28:01.28
and so we went in one
time and did in an anointing.
00:28:01.31\00:28:03.45
And I don't know what
anybody's theology is that
00:28:03.48\00:28:05.85
but I believe that's Christians
00:28:05.88\00:28:07.11
God ask us to
pray for each other.
00:28:07.14\00:28:09.07
And so my sister is dying,
00:28:09.10\00:28:10.83
you know what give
me a bucket of oil.
00:28:10.86\00:28:14.58
And I didn't even care
if all those bells go off
00:28:14.61\00:28:17.11
'cause I'm not leaving this room
00:28:17.14\00:28:19.39
until something
happens, you know.
00:28:19.42\00:28:21.87
And so we went in
there and I went in there,
00:28:21.90\00:28:24.05
I said we-- I went in there,
00:28:24.08\00:28:25.48
me and this nurse
did in an anointing
00:28:25.51\00:28:28.61
and from the time
that we prayed for her
00:28:28.64\00:28:33.04
everything
changed, everything change.
00:28:33.07\00:28:35.49
There were gonna
put a trach in her
00:28:35.52\00:28:37.12
the next day because you can't
leave people on ventilators
00:28:37.15\00:28:40.03
very long because
it destroys everything
00:28:40.06\00:28:42.32
so they were gonna put a trach.
00:28:42.35\00:28:43.84
And then when they were
starting to do the trach
00:28:43.87\00:28:45.57
they started to decrease
the oxygen and they think okay,
00:28:45.60\00:28:48.24
so we're gonna
decrease the oxygen
00:28:48.27\00:28:49.57
when can't breath in
we put the trach in--
00:28:49.60\00:28:51.81
the more they
decrease the oxygen,
00:28:51.84\00:28:54.00
the more she started breathing.
00:28:54.03\00:28:56.20
And I'm like,
you were kidding me,
00:28:56.23\00:28:57.90
the doctors are
like, what is up with this?
00:28:57.93\00:29:00.41
So she starts breathing,
00:29:00.44\00:29:01.84
she starts getting better
and better and better, right.
00:29:01.87\00:29:04.97
I fly home just to get
enough stuff to fly back,
00:29:05.00\00:29:07.87
I come back she's
not in ICU anymore.
00:29:07.90\00:29:10.78
She's in the regular room
and I walk in and I'm like,
00:29:10.81\00:29:14.03
does anybody know
this is incredible?
00:29:14.06\00:29:16.77
Does anybody
know that and I'm like
00:29:16.80\00:29:18.43
and family is like,
what do you think happened?
00:29:18.46\00:29:20.07
I'm like, what do
you think happened?
00:29:20.10\00:29:22.46
We prayed, we
like anointed here,
00:29:22.49\00:29:24.66
this is God you
know and I'm like,
00:29:24.69\00:29:26.52
beside myself they discharge her
00:29:26.55\00:29:28.84
and I'm gonna stay at
her house the first week.
00:29:28.87\00:29:31.09
And you know what my job is?
00:29:31.12\00:29:33.09
Because she is a
mess, she's strung out.
00:29:33.12\00:29:35.79
My job is to
teach her about health.
00:29:35.82\00:29:37.92
If you're gonna get
well, I want you to eat right.
00:29:37.95\00:29:40.15
I want you to make sure
that your breakfast is fruit
00:29:40.18\00:29:42.59
and some oat meal or
something your lunch I'm not--
00:29:42.62\00:29:45.35
you know, so they discharge her
00:29:45.38\00:29:47.52
with a 57 foot tube
hooked up to a oxygen tank
00:29:47.55\00:29:51.17
and she will be on this
oxygen the rest of her life.
00:29:51.20\00:29:53.84
And oxygen chord
goes all over her house.
00:29:53.87\00:29:56.33
She keeps
getting caught and chairs
00:29:56.36\00:29:57.43
and all that kind of stuff.
00:29:57.46\00:29:58.54
But she is walking,
man she is not dead.
00:29:58.57\00:30:01.39
I'm like how cool is that?
00:30:01.42\00:30:03.20
So I'm teaching
her, my family comes over
00:30:03.23\00:30:05.81
to celebrate her healing.
00:30:05.84\00:30:07.78
Not that they believe
anything happened in prayer
00:30:07.81\00:30:09.45
but they're gonna come over.
00:30:09.48\00:30:10.51
You know what they bring?
00:30:10.54\00:30:12.40
Bottle of wine,
and some pastries,
00:30:12.43\00:30:16.08
I'm like, she is doing
her third DUI you know,
00:30:16.11\00:30:19.30
if somebody has wine,
can I just strangle you?
00:30:19.33\00:30:23.25
Can I strangle you?
00:30:23.28\00:30:24.33
And I look at my
sister and I grabbed her face
00:30:24.36\00:30:26.18
my whole family is the room.
00:30:26.21\00:30:27.57
And I grabbed her
face and I said please,
00:30:27.60\00:30:29.71
do not drink anything.
00:30:29.74\00:30:31.35
Do not, put this in
your body, you will die.
00:30:31.38\00:30:34.62
I'm trying to tell
you-- you're healing
00:30:34.65\00:30:36.54
and God is blessing you
but you have to grab an apple.
00:30:36.57\00:30:39.94
You know I'm
like, I was ridiculous--
00:30:39.97\00:30:42.29
I was ridiculous and my
whole family is standing there
00:30:42.32\00:30:45.19
and like, what are you saying?
00:30:45.22\00:30:48.81
Are you saying we did
wrong by bringing the wine?
00:30:48.84\00:30:50.88
And I'm like I don't even
want to say anything to that.
00:30:50.91\00:30:52.90
I'm saying to you,
well, I grab her face again.
00:30:52.93\00:30:55.60
Do not drink this
wine. So she says, okay.
00:30:55.63\00:30:58.71
Now everybody
is mad at me right,
00:30:58.74\00:31:00.94
she heals more
and more everyday.
00:31:00.97\00:31:03.70
I'm starting to leave
and she starts crying.
00:31:03.73\00:31:06.35
I'm packing the car
up 'cause I rent a car
00:31:06.38\00:31:08.24
and I'm going
back to the airport
00:31:08.27\00:31:09.33
and she starts
crying and she says,
00:31:09.36\00:31:11.35
I'm afraid for you to leave.
00:31:11.38\00:31:14.57
And I said I'm afraid to
leave and I turned around.
00:31:14.60\00:31:18.04
And as I turned
around she started trembling
00:31:18.07\00:31:22.12
and she said, are
you gonna pray for me?
00:31:22.15\00:31:27.02
And I realize yes,
are you gonna-- can I?
00:31:27.05\00:31:30.05
And she said yes.
00:31:30.08\00:31:31.96
She put her head down
00:31:31.99\00:31:33.15
and I started to walk
towards her and grab her hands
00:31:33.18\00:31:35.44
and I couldn't stop crying.
00:31:35.47\00:31:38.09
This is the first time I
got to pray with my sister.
00:31:38.12\00:31:40.76
This is the first time
she let me pray with her,
00:31:40.79\00:31:43.32
and I just wept and the
only thing I did was beg God.
00:31:43.35\00:31:47.36
And you know we
don't have to bed God,
00:31:47.39\00:31:49.82
He wants to heal us.
Do you know what I mean?
00:31:49.85\00:31:52.46
But I don't know
that so I'm begging God,
00:31:52.49\00:31:54.27
I'm begging You
please, just hangout with her.
00:31:54.30\00:31:58.12
Just she needs to
know that You're a friend.
00:31:58.15\00:31:59.84
She needs to know that You're--
00:31:59.87\00:32:01.91
she needs to see
Your face just hangout.
00:32:01.94\00:32:04.15
Just laugh with her,
tell her some jokes today.
00:32:04.18\00:32:06.23
You know, and I'm
just begging You--
00:32:06.26\00:32:07.85
to just keep Your hand on her.
00:32:07.88\00:32:10.27
I fly home and I'm scared.
Few days later I get a call.
00:32:10.30\00:32:14.57
And the call cracked me up,
00:32:14.60\00:32:15.99
and if you get
this, I hope you get this.
00:32:16.02\00:32:19.09
She's like you
know, I went to the doctor
00:32:19.12\00:32:22.18
and they did a biopsy on
lungs to find some damage,
00:32:22.21\00:32:24.72
'cause they've got to
figure out the biopsy stuff
00:32:24.75\00:32:26.79
and she said they
didn't even find any damage.
00:32:26.82\00:32:29.38
Doctor's shocked, and
she sounds bumped, right.
00:32:29.41\00:32:33.99
Listen to this--
and she sounds bumped
00:32:34.02\00:32:35.82
and I'm like, how can
you can you sound bumped out,
00:32:35.85\00:32:38.51
you know and she said if
I keep healing at this rate
00:32:38.54\00:32:41.26
I'm never gonna get SSI.
00:32:41.29\00:32:45.12
I'm like, I thought
God how funny are we,
00:32:45.15\00:32:52.33
You give us our life back.
00:32:52.36\00:32:54.60
And we're worried
about the State sending us
00:32:54.63\00:32:56.27
600 bucks a month or
whatever that is you know.
00:32:56.30\00:32:58.65
I'm just so
anyhow, so I go on my--
00:32:58.68\00:33:00.87
about my business and I'm
trying to figure out okay.
00:33:00.90\00:33:03.54
I've got some appointments
to do, I got camp meetings.
00:33:03.57\00:33:05.89
I got some stuff to do.
Then I get another call.
00:33:05.92\00:33:10.32
And its my dad, my stepdad.
00:33:10.35\00:33:13.49
They said you know
what, I'm your stepdad.
00:33:13.52\00:33:15.64
Mike just went into the
hospital and he is dying.
00:33:15.67\00:33:19.20
And I'm like, and I'm still,
00:33:19.23\00:33:21.18
I'm still been hit
with my sisters whole thing.
00:33:21.21\00:33:23.88
I'm still realizing
that how much I love them
00:33:23.91\00:33:27.51
and much I have
kind of neglected them
00:33:27.54\00:33:30.17
because they've been so anti--
00:33:30.20\00:33:32.67
I felt it was anti me
but it was really antichrist.
00:33:32.70\00:33:36.28
And I'm still hit
being hit with that
00:33:36.31\00:33:38.30
and all the sudden now
my dad is in the hospital.
00:33:38.33\00:33:40.52
So I'm flying miles
again, I get to the hospital
00:33:40.55\00:33:44.47
and my dad is laying in
a bed, he's now 80 pounds.
00:33:44.50\00:33:49.74
So from the time I saw him
less than a couple of weeks,
00:33:49.77\00:33:52.91
from 90 pounds of 6.1,
he's now 80 pounds of 6.1.
00:33:52.94\00:33:56.56
He's laying in
the hospital bed high,
00:33:56.59\00:33:59.39
he has a little thing
on his finger that beeps
00:33:59.42\00:34:02.52
when the pulse goes off
and it also checks his oxygen.
00:34:02.55\00:34:05.44
And they put it
on his middle fingers
00:34:05.47\00:34:06.70
so he's showing
his middle finger
00:34:06.73\00:34:08.73
to everybody that walks by,
00:34:08.76\00:34:11.26
'cause my dad
thought that was hysterical.
00:34:11.29\00:34:13.21
And they told my
dad that he could have
00:34:13.24\00:34:16.36
his much morphine as he wanted.
00:34:16.39\00:34:19.11
And so my dad was telling me,
when I came in, you know what,
00:34:19.14\00:34:22.72
they said I could have
as much morphine I want.
00:34:22.75\00:34:25.64
How fun is this?
00:34:25.67\00:34:27.77
And I'm thinking
you're dying, and I love you.
00:34:27.80\00:34:31.46
You know, and I
reached out at one point,
00:34:31.49\00:34:33.51
I reached out and I
didn't want to you know--
00:34:33.54\00:34:36.91
I'm coming and just be a
killed joy on this party,
00:34:36.94\00:34:39.29
this morphine party
because my family shares,
00:34:39.32\00:34:42.95
you know if you get
morphine, everybody in the room
00:34:42.98\00:34:44.64
is gonna be high, 'cause my
family is just nice like that.
00:34:44.67\00:34:47.14
You know, so
everybody in the room is high
00:34:47.17\00:34:49.31
and I walk in,
and I just leaned over
00:34:49.34\00:34:51.90
and I held him and I
couldn't let go of him.
00:34:51.93\00:34:54.41
I wanted to prowl in the bed
00:34:54.44\00:34:55.56
and just say can I
lay with you for a minute
00:34:55.59\00:34:57.85
because today we
forget to say that I love you.
00:34:57.88\00:35:01.91
Did I forget to
say that the whole time
00:35:01.94\00:35:03.78
my life was trashed
with all this stuff?
00:35:03.81\00:35:06.95
It wasn't that
I didn't love you,
00:35:06.98\00:35:08.36
I just didn't
love the addiction.
00:35:08.39\00:35:09.87
The addiction
trashed us and as I held him,
00:35:09.90\00:35:14.99
he got real quiet, real
quiet and he looks at me,
00:35:15.02\00:35:19.24
'cause he doesn't want
anyone else to hear this.
00:35:19.27\00:35:20.98
He said, Honey,
are you praying for me?
00:35:21.01\00:35:24.97
And I said
absolutely, absolutely
00:35:25.00\00:35:28.17
and I couldn't believe, I'm
thinking did I just hear that
00:35:28.20\00:35:30.86
I couldn't believe I heard that.
00:35:30.89\00:35:32.38
And then I end up--
they end up discharging him
00:35:32.41\00:35:34.59
'cause they thought
he had six months to live
00:35:34.62\00:35:36.60
but they found out that he only
has a couple of days to live.
00:35:36.63\00:35:39.74
He's riddled with cancer,
every single place in his body.
00:35:39.77\00:35:43.88
His throat is so filled
with cancer he cannot eat
00:35:43.91\00:35:46.89
because the food is
getting stuck on the cancer
00:35:46.92\00:35:48.88
so they put this
stent in his mouth
00:35:48.91\00:35:50.82
hoping that it will allow
the food to go down his throat
00:35:50.85\00:35:53.37
without being stuck.
00:35:53.40\00:35:55.36
And they send him
home and we get home
00:35:55.39\00:35:57.94
and everybody is
kind of just you know,
00:35:57.97\00:36:00.29
I don't know--
everybody is just high.
00:36:00.32\00:36:03.44
My dad is taking the
morphine every hour so
00:36:03.47\00:36:06.93
and I'm not talking
about my real dad died
00:36:06.96\00:36:09.31
in a crack house last year.
00:36:09.34\00:36:10.77
I mean you guys--
most you guys know that
00:36:10.80\00:36:12.36
and this is my stepdad.
00:36:12.39\00:36:14.21
So when I call him
dad it's just because
00:36:14.24\00:36:16.11
you know he's been in
my life since I was four.
00:36:16.14\00:36:18.92
And so everybody is high
and-- you know and my mom
00:36:18.95\00:36:23.85
who I love but you
know she does like--
00:36:23.88\00:36:26.14
and all that kind of stuff.
00:36:26.17\00:36:27.38
So everybody is kind
of detached a little bit.
00:36:27.41\00:36:29.44
And I'm thinking you know,
00:36:29.47\00:36:31.09
he's dying and I'm
trying to deal with this
00:36:31.12\00:36:33.39
and I flew home for something
00:36:33.42\00:36:34.57
'cause I had to
do something at home.
00:36:34.60\00:36:36.37
Oh, I had an
outreach to do in California,
00:36:36.40\00:36:40.36
so I did this
outreach and then flew back.
00:36:40.39\00:36:43.58
You know, so I didn't
actually get all the way home
00:36:43.61\00:36:45.23
and flew back
and-- by this time,
00:36:45.26\00:36:47.50
I'm talking about my husband,
00:36:47.53\00:36:49.00
who is a fairly new Christian.
00:36:49.03\00:36:51.43
And he's
adorable, he's adorable.
00:36:51.46\00:36:53.70
And he says to me,
you know I feel bad
00:36:53.73\00:36:56.87
because I've never
really bonded with your family
00:36:56.90\00:37:00.24
because it's hard for me
00:37:00.27\00:37:01.32
because of the way
you were treated as a kid
00:37:01.35\00:37:03.83
and when they see you
and treat you poorly now.
00:37:03.86\00:37:06.59
I love you and it's just
kills me and I've just you know,
00:37:06.62\00:37:09.65
I just have never
really bonded with them.
00:37:09.68\00:37:11.89
And I wanted go tell you
dad, that I'm sorry for that.
00:37:11.92\00:37:16.02
You know, and so and I just
mad at him when he said that.
00:37:16.05\00:37:20.47
I said, this is not about
your conscience right now.
00:37:20.50\00:37:22.80
My dad's dying, deal
with your conscience,
00:37:22.83\00:37:26.76
how mad-- how mean is that?
00:37:26.79\00:37:28.30
But I'm series I'm thinking
is you know, is this about you?
00:37:28.33\00:37:32.76
You know and he's
like, no, you know and--
00:37:32.79\00:37:36.89
but I didn't
understand that and so--
00:37:36.92\00:37:39.62
my husband does
this devotions everyday
00:37:39.65\00:37:41.34
and on his
devotions the next day
00:37:41.37\00:37:44.03
was about David
and David is king.
00:37:44.06\00:37:48.72
And he had his
good friend Jonathon
00:37:48.75\00:37:51.30
had a son that during
the time that he was king.
00:37:51.33\00:37:55.80
Everybody lost
sight of Jonathon son,
00:37:55.83\00:37:57.84
and Jonathon is
now no longer around.
00:37:57.87\00:37:59.95
And David says, you
know I want to find his son
00:37:59.98\00:38:01.68
and bring him back to the
kings table and bless him.
00:38:01.71\00:38:04.23
And as Brad was studying
that in the Bible, he says,
00:38:04.26\00:38:08.52
I want to bless your father
00:38:08.55\00:38:10.39
and bring him back to
the table and bless him.
00:38:10.42\00:38:13.18
And Jonathon's not
even know he was crippled,
00:38:13.21\00:38:16.30
he still was
brought to the table
00:38:16.33\00:38:17.90
and I feel like with
your dad's addictions
00:38:17.93\00:38:20.03
he's crippled but I still want
to bring him back to the table.
00:38:20.06\00:38:22.33
As a man of God I
want to just bless him.
00:38:22.36\00:38:25.78
And all of the
sudden Holy Spirit said,
00:38:25.81\00:38:27.51
you know Cheri,
this is a good thing.
00:38:27.54\00:38:30.19
So now Brad and I go back.
00:38:30.22\00:38:33.12
My family doesn't
really know Brad that well.
00:38:33.15\00:38:36.35
And he walks in and
he's kind of a nearest breath
00:38:36.38\00:38:38.48
praying for everybody
and going from room to room
00:38:38.51\00:38:41.96
and my sister-- this is like
the day before my father dies
00:38:41.99\00:38:45.59
and my sister goes in
and she's gonna make tacos,
00:38:45.62\00:38:48.78
'cause it's my dad's
favorite meal, right.
00:38:48.81\00:38:51.19
And she is meth addict,
00:38:51.22\00:38:52.25
so meth addicts really
are funny in the kitchen
00:38:52.28\00:38:55.17
unless they're cooking meth.
00:38:55.20\00:38:56.42
You know, but you know
she goes in the kitchen
00:38:56.45\00:38:58.45
and she puts a
hamburger in frying it up
00:38:58.48\00:39:00.75
and she is feeling really
kind of like, Martha Stewart.
00:39:00.78\00:39:03.84
You know, she is really,
really domestic, you know,
00:39:03.87\00:39:05.97
and she is having a good time.
00:39:06.00\00:39:07.10
She's gonna cook for all of us.
00:39:07.13\00:39:08.43
You know,
'cause, you know addicts,
00:39:08.46\00:39:10.16
meth addicts
especially when they get a idea
00:39:10.19\00:39:13.24
its a big idea you know.
00:39:13.27\00:39:14.79
So she's like gonna
cook for the whole family.
00:39:14.82\00:39:16.67
And then my dad's, my max--
00:39:16.70\00:39:19.49
other kids from
other women show up.
00:39:19.52\00:39:22.55
And I'm thinking,
hi, my name is Cheri.
00:39:22.58\00:39:25.27
Where do you come from?
00:39:25.30\00:39:26.35
You know, so now we
have grandkids, we have kids,
00:39:26.38\00:39:28.76
we have other kids
and meth addict sister
00:39:28.79\00:39:31.69
is in the kitchen making tacos.
00:39:31.72\00:39:33.45
And all of the
sudden I take a breath
00:39:33.48\00:39:36.64
and there was some
rotten meat in the kitchen
00:39:36.67\00:39:40.06
and it was so
rotten that literally
00:39:40.09\00:39:41.63
almost turned my stomach
00:39:41.66\00:39:42.96
and she can't smell
'cause she is a meth addict.
00:39:42.99\00:39:46.14
You know what I mean?
00:39:46.17\00:39:47.22
So she's cooking this
meat that is so rotten
00:39:47.25\00:39:49.47
that literally is making
us sick in the living room.
00:39:49.50\00:39:51.99
And so Brad
goes into the kitchen
00:39:52.02\00:39:53.32
just kind of
nice stands as Joanie,
00:39:53.35\00:39:57.28
you think that meat is okay?
00:39:57.31\00:39:59.38
And she's like
oh, yeah, it's fine.
00:39:59.41\00:40:02.09
And he's like really?
00:40:02.12\00:40:03.15
And she says I just think
that it needs a little spice.
00:40:03.18\00:40:06.24
And he's just trying to be nice
00:40:06.27\00:40:07.74
and he's like
whatever and she's like,
00:40:07.77\00:40:09.56
will you kind of spice it up?
00:40:09.59\00:40:11.65
And so he's now got
this meat in front of him
00:40:11.68\00:40:13.92
and he's trying
to put stuff in it
00:40:13.95\00:40:15.49
and he's thinking if
it cooks a little bit more
00:40:15.52\00:40:17.52
maybe it's just I
could starting to turn
00:40:17.55\00:40:19.31
and would get better.
00:40:19.34\00:40:20.43
It literally got worse,
right, and he's a psycho man.
00:40:20.46\00:40:23.60
So Joanie goes into the bathroom
00:40:23.63\00:40:25.58
and my mom kind of walks--
close to Brad and Brad says,
00:40:25.61\00:40:29.03
you know I don't want
to offend Joanie at all.
00:40:29.06\00:40:32.43
But I think this meat is
bad and my mom looked at Brad
00:40:32.46\00:40:37.36
and said, how amazing
00:40:37.39\00:40:41.23
it is that you don't
want to offend Joanie?
00:40:41.26\00:40:43.99
Nobody cares about
Joanie and her feelings.
00:40:44.02\00:40:47.19
She's been a meth addict
since she is 14 years old,
00:40:47.22\00:40:49.37
she's like 40 something,
she's psychotic, she's thin,
00:40:49.40\00:40:52.90
she's got
canker sore everywhere.
00:40:52.93\00:40:54.62
She can't even move
her body in a natural way
00:40:54.65\00:40:56.87
'cause her
muscles are so tweaked.
00:40:56.90\00:40:58.97
Who cares about Joanie?
00:40:59.00\00:41:00.81
And he's just like, my mom
just fell in love with Brad
00:41:00.84\00:41:03.24
for having respect for Joanie.
00:41:03.27\00:41:05.99
And I watch that.
00:41:06.02\00:41:07.14
I just watch what just
happened there and I said,
00:41:07.17\00:41:09.70
Brad, go to the store
get some food and feed us.
00:41:09.73\00:41:13.79
Brad's an
incredible cooks so he leaves.
00:41:13.82\00:41:17.14
He comes back and
he's got fresh avocado,
00:41:17.17\00:41:19.77
he is making guacamole,
he's got cilantro and lime.
00:41:19.80\00:41:23.43
He's got instead of
getting hamburger make us--
00:41:23.46\00:41:26.07
Brad is kind of
trying to get healthy,
00:41:26.10\00:41:27.90
he got you know he made
chicken tacos with cabbage.
00:41:27.93\00:41:30.78
And I mean just
some gourmet tacos
00:41:30.81\00:41:32.25
but he thought you know what?
00:41:32.28\00:41:33.43
I can't do this with
all by myself in here
00:41:33.46\00:41:36.41
because there's
a lot of you guys.
00:41:36.44\00:41:37.93
So he gave
everybody a job to do.
00:41:37.96\00:41:40.15
So my whole dysfunctional family
00:41:40.18\00:41:42.68
are like they are an chef,
00:41:42.71\00:41:44.45
you know what I mean
they're like little sous chef
00:41:44.48\00:41:46.08
and they're into
doing each other job
00:41:46.11\00:41:48.22
and he has one
sister and brother
00:41:48.25\00:41:50.77
like cutting up tomatoes
00:41:50.80\00:41:51.89
and somebody else
doing the avocados.
00:41:51.92\00:41:53.34
And there-- they're
making us incredibly fresh food
00:41:53.37\00:41:56.08
and I have never in my life,
00:41:56.11\00:41:57.57
in my family had a such
healthy, look at my family.
00:41:57.60\00:42:00.57
And I'm just like all of
the sudden in my mothers home
00:42:00.60\00:42:04.80
who were so dysfunctional as
a kid and so horrible as a kid
00:42:04.83\00:42:08.49
that all of a sudden it
just felt like the Holy Spirit
00:42:08.52\00:42:10.84
was there and
the house was lit up.
00:42:10.87\00:42:13.16
And I was like,
man, and I laughed
00:42:13.19\00:42:15.21
and went into my dad's room.
00:42:15.24\00:42:17.94
'Cause he's you know,
he's two week to get out now,
00:42:17.97\00:42:21.05
and I said my dad's other
son who I don't know walked in
00:42:21.08\00:42:26.24
and he has a guitar and
know so he's a musician.
00:42:26.27\00:42:29.40
They kept
telling he was a musician
00:42:29.43\00:42:31.20
and so I said
dad, so do you remember
00:42:31.23\00:42:35.08
the first song
you've every taught me?
00:42:35.11\00:42:37.58
And he said no, what was it?
00:42:37.61\00:42:39.25
And I was like three or
four right, and he said,
00:42:39.28\00:42:42.54
it was-- I said it was
a song and let me sing it.
00:42:42.57\00:42:48.14
Trailers for sale or rant
00:42:48.17\00:42:50.64
Roams to let 50 cents
00:42:50.67\00:42:52.82
And it's about a guy
looking for cigarette.
00:42:52.85\00:42:54.80
Ain't got no cigarettes or butt
00:42:54.83\00:42:57.58
And as a little girl I
sing that top of my lungs.
00:42:57.61\00:43:00.23
I mean top of my lungs, so
as I'm singing that to my dad,
00:43:00.26\00:43:03.63
my dad's son
starts playing it, right.
00:43:03.66\00:43:06.69
My dad starts singing it
and it was like the Holy Spirit
00:43:06.72\00:43:10.06
just showed up, my
dad got little strength
00:43:10.09\00:43:12.03
and my brother's son
walks in with the Lakers jersey.
00:43:12.06\00:43:15.12
'Cause my dad wanted to
be buried in Lakers jersey
00:43:15.15\00:43:18.08
and my mom said, you
are not gonna be buried
00:43:18.11\00:43:20.55
in Lakers jersey, who
cares about after your death.
00:43:20.58\00:43:23.59
There's nothing
after your death,
00:43:23.62\00:43:24.80
you won't even know anything.
00:43:24.83\00:43:26.58
And so we're not
even having a funeral
00:43:26.61\00:43:28.23
so that debate was all day.
00:43:28.26\00:43:29.97
And so my brothers
son, wanted to get trying--
00:43:30.00\00:43:32.99
jersey before he
dies, just in case
00:43:33.02\00:43:34.93
there isn't a funeral and--
00:43:34.96\00:43:37.70
walks in with the Lakers jersey,
00:43:37.73\00:43:39.48
my dad looks at it and he just--
00:43:39.51\00:43:42.18
you could see him just wake up
00:43:42.21\00:43:43.97
and he just took it and
he just was you could say
00:43:44.00\00:43:46.67
you are so-- full of joy
and then he set it on the bed.
00:43:46.70\00:43:50.03
And I said, no, no,
Mack, put it on, right.
00:43:50.06\00:43:54.27
And he put it on and
it was almost magical,
00:43:54.30\00:43:57.06
he put it on, he sat up--
00:43:57.09\00:44:01.28
I'm like what
just happened here?
00:44:01.31\00:44:03.56
And instead of
getting in his wheelchair
00:44:03.59\00:44:05.15
'cause we've been moving
him around in his wheelchair,
00:44:05.18\00:44:07.17
'cause he's too weak to walk.
00:44:07.20\00:44:08.77
He got stood up got his walker,
walked into the living room.
00:44:08.80\00:44:13.76
By this time Brad was
putting all the food on table
00:44:13.79\00:44:16.63
for everybody had
guacamole and different dishes,
00:44:16.66\00:44:19.07
he's putting the tacos
out all that kind of stuff.
00:44:19.10\00:44:21.45
And my dad says
I love guacamole,
00:44:21.48\00:44:26.47
and he start to eating,
he hasn't eating in two weeks
00:44:26.50\00:44:28.47
because everything is trashed.
00:44:28.50\00:44:30.13
He ate with us, everybody
got to say goodbye to him.
00:44:30.16\00:44:33.15
He didn't take
any morphine, none.
00:44:33.18\00:44:36.46
He cleared up,
he stayed present,
00:44:36.49\00:44:38.90
we all just sat
there and I watch this
00:44:38.93\00:44:41.50
and I was thinking, God,
00:44:41.53\00:44:45.04
we think You are not
doing miracles anymore?
00:44:45.07\00:44:47.89
My family doesn't even deserve
You to be present right now.
00:44:47.92\00:44:51.07
They have never
asked You, they barred me
00:44:51.10\00:44:52.74
they think I'm gonna pray
00:44:52.77\00:44:54.58
and yet you have
hung out with them today.
00:44:54.61\00:44:57.57
You have been in the
room, you are loving on my dad.
00:44:57.60\00:45:00.36
You are so there
with each family member
00:45:00.39\00:45:03.64
that I wanted
to say, I'm ashamed
00:45:03.67\00:45:06.26
that I thought you
weren't present with them.
00:45:06.29\00:45:08.52
That I didn't realize
that miracle of who God is--
00:45:08.55\00:45:11.32
is that he never leaves
us even when we're idiots.
00:45:11.35\00:45:14.22
Even when we're slamming drugs,
00:45:14.25\00:45:15.76
even when we are not even
present for our own children,
00:45:15.79\00:45:18.31
He says until your
last breath I'm there
00:45:18.34\00:45:21.64
and it will grieve me
if you die without Me.
00:45:21.67\00:45:24.59
It will grieve Me.
00:45:24.62\00:45:25.70
So my dad says out there,
everybody is being blessed
00:45:25.73\00:45:29.47
and he goes back in his
room after couple of hours.
00:45:29.50\00:45:32.72
He's tired I could
tell and I never leave home
00:45:32.75\00:45:36.75
without anointing oil
so weird have in my pocket,
00:45:36.78\00:45:40.08
I put in my bra sometimes,
I mean I just always have it.
00:45:40.11\00:45:43.03
You know and I
know that probably was--
00:45:43.06\00:45:44.76
you know but I always
have it, I always have it.
00:45:44.79\00:45:47.26
And so I walk in
and my dad is there.
00:45:47.29\00:45:50.36
So we do a prayer, I ask
him, if I could pray for him
00:45:50.39\00:45:54.20
and so we did a prayer
and anointing just for--
00:45:54.23\00:45:58.16
I didn't know well,
when my dad was little,
00:45:58.19\00:45:59.94
he was adopted from
an Indian reservation
00:45:59.97\00:46:02.03
by a catholic family.
00:46:02.06\00:46:03.62
And he wanted to be a priest,
00:46:03.65\00:46:04.99
when he was a little boy
you know in his early teens
00:46:05.02\00:46:07.48
before he got lost
in drugs and stuff.
00:46:07.51\00:46:09.42
And so we talked
about that a little bit
00:46:09.45\00:46:10.89
and watched him
come back to God,
00:46:10.92\00:46:12.49
I watched him you
know in his heart say
00:46:12.52\00:46:14.92
I don't want to die
without saying I'm sorry,
00:46:14.95\00:46:17.43
God, I'm sorry.
00:46:17.46\00:46:19.60
And I thought
well, how cool is that?
00:46:19.63\00:46:21.90
And I walk out and Brad walks in
00:46:21.93\00:46:23.90
'cause he wants to
bless him as a man.
00:46:23.93\00:46:26.06
'Cause you know for men,
you guys that's important
00:46:26.09\00:46:29.58
what you say to each other
00:46:29.61\00:46:30.64
'cause you are given
the privilege to bless us
00:46:30.67\00:46:34.70
and speaking to our lives.
00:46:34.73\00:46:35.97
And so he went in to
speak into my father's life.
00:46:36.00\00:46:38.90
And so my-- he asked my dad
00:46:38.93\00:46:40.28
but by then I'm in
a living room again.
00:46:40.31\00:46:42.29
And I have this little bottle
of anointing oil in my hand.
00:46:42.32\00:46:46.43
And so I'm like
meth addict sister says,
00:46:46.46\00:46:48.67
hey what's that, you know?
00:46:48.70\00:46:52.13
And I don't want to start
any problems in my family,
00:46:52.16\00:46:54.37
so you know what I say?
00:46:54.40\00:46:56.44
Oh, it's frankincense and myrrh
00:46:56.47\00:46:59.21
and my mom's starts laughing.
00:46:59.24\00:47:00.54
She says, what did you run
into some wise guys in there?
00:47:00.57\00:47:02.76
And I thought how funny are you?
00:47:04.35\00:47:06.39
So now when I-- and
I don't know if anybody
00:47:06.42\00:47:10.12
will get this to accept
that I got it that very moment.
00:47:10.15\00:47:13.87
The miracle I want to
share with you is my mom joked
00:47:13.90\00:47:18.05
with me about God.
00:47:18.08\00:47:20.32
It wasn't hostile, it wasn't--
she didn't make fun of me.
00:47:20.35\00:47:25.75
She joked with me and
I just wanted to weep.
00:47:25.78\00:47:29.13
I wanted to say God
what did you just do here?
00:47:29.16\00:47:32.58
You know, what did you just do?
00:47:32.61\00:47:34.03
And I knew at that moment
00:47:34.06\00:47:36.82
that God found a
place in my mom's heart
00:47:36.85\00:47:40.25
and restored our relationship.
00:47:40.28\00:47:43.68
And I thought does
anybody know what just happened?
00:47:43.71\00:47:46.21
And someone says
you know where is God?
00:47:46.24\00:47:48.75
Where are all the miracles?
00:47:48.78\00:47:50.26
And I'm thinking, you
got to open your eyes,
00:47:50.29\00:47:52.88
I promise you God
will to open your eyes.
00:47:52.91\00:47:54.48
'Cause even people
that are undeserving,
00:47:54.51\00:47:56.81
even people that are running,
00:47:56.84\00:47:58.11
even people that
are so drugged up
00:47:58.14\00:48:00.56
that they can't even
hear the Holy Spirit anymore
00:48:00.59\00:48:02.63
that you know chemically
they have trashed themselves
00:48:02.66\00:48:05.31
that God says
I'm still right there
00:48:05.34\00:48:07.67
and if you have open your
eyes at all if you look at all,
00:48:07.70\00:48:11.62
I shall will bless
you, I shall will move in,
00:48:11.65\00:48:14.11
I will show you a
miracle that will shock you.
00:48:14.14\00:48:16.72
So I'm right now, I'm like in
that space listening to my mom.
00:48:16.75\00:48:21.21
We're joking
about-- my mom for Christmas
00:48:21.24\00:48:23.83
you know what
she tried to give me?
00:48:23.86\00:48:26.30
A book called
God Ain't So Great.
00:48:26.33\00:48:29.54
You know it was
written by an atheist.
00:48:29.57\00:48:30.75
Now you know what I mean is
just like you so in that moment
00:48:30.78\00:48:33.35
I'm like just like basking
00:48:33.38\00:48:35.06
in the fact that
God just healed this
00:48:35.09\00:48:37.09
and it's gonna play out 'cause
this just happened, right.
00:48:37.12\00:48:39.60
This is December, we're
not enemies, just happens.
00:48:39.63\00:48:42.20
So is still gonna play
out and so I know Brad's
00:48:42.23\00:48:44.85
in the bedroom and
he's blessing my father
00:48:44.88\00:48:47.01
and he's been in
there for a while.
00:48:47.04\00:48:50.06
And he walks out and
he starts to walk out
00:48:50.09\00:48:53.04
and my sister the meth
addict is standing there
00:48:53.07\00:48:56.28
and she's like, what were
you doing in there with my dad?
00:48:56.31\00:48:59.65
You know, I walked
out was watching you,
00:48:59.68\00:49:03.19
what were you doing?
00:49:03.22\00:49:04.34
And he says I was
just praying for him.
00:49:04.37\00:49:06.90
And he said, can I pray for you?
00:49:06.93\00:49:10.35
And she told on him
later, she said, Cheri, come in.
00:49:10.38\00:49:14.42
He ask me if he
could pray for me?
00:49:14.45\00:49:16.60
And I thought I
said yes, but I thought
00:49:16.63\00:49:19.05
he just gonna go
somewhere and pray.
00:49:19.08\00:49:22.07
He grabbed my
hands that's she said
00:49:22.10\00:49:25.35
and Brad said she trembled.
00:49:25.38\00:49:27.63
You know, she is
trembling and he sat there
00:49:27.66\00:49:30.24
and blessed my sister
who nobody even sees anymore
00:49:30.27\00:49:33.69
because she is so
lost in her meth addition.
00:49:33.72\00:49:36.34
And as they got on praying
he walks back into the room
00:49:36.37\00:49:39.67
and I saw this man of
God this new Christian
00:49:39.70\00:49:43.56
that was told by
God in his devotions
00:49:43.59\00:49:45.65
to go bless this
family I watched him
00:49:45.68\00:49:48.38
every single place he went
00:49:48.41\00:49:49.88
put his hand on
someone and I just thought man,
00:49:49.91\00:49:52.77
I can't even count the
miracles that just happened.
00:49:52.80\00:49:55.17
I can't even count
everything that happened?
00:49:55.20\00:49:57.89
And I can't even tell you
how important it was for me
00:49:57.92\00:50:01.43
because God could heal
everybody on the planet
00:50:01.46\00:50:03.12
but you know who
I want Him to heal?
00:50:03.15\00:50:05.56
My family, you know what I mean.
00:50:05.59\00:50:07.48
And somebody said Cheri,
you wish you had another family,
00:50:07.51\00:50:10.50
absolutely not.
00:50:10.53\00:50:12.27
I love my family,
everything about them
00:50:12.30\00:50:15.15
I love except
for their addictions
00:50:15.18\00:50:17.83
because its trash
them and then its trash me.
00:50:17.86\00:50:20.33
But everything about them
I love and so Brad and I--
00:50:20.36\00:50:24.24
well, first of
all, we have to get--
00:50:24.27\00:50:26.77
we have to leave the next day.
00:50:26.80\00:50:28.98
And I got to tell
you, we had to leave,
00:50:29.01\00:50:31.11
we're not sure
how long my father
00:50:31.14\00:50:32.50
is actually going to live.
00:50:32.53\00:50:34.26
We both have some obligations
and God was so sure of us,
00:50:34.29\00:50:38.45
sure with us that we
just watch a living wake
00:50:38.48\00:50:42.37
with my father.
00:50:42.40\00:50:43.54
I don't know if that
makes sense to anybody
00:50:43.57\00:50:44.86
but we literally
had a wake with him,
00:50:44.89\00:50:46.62
we said goodbye to
him and so we start--
00:50:46.65\00:50:49.34
we had to leave to leave for
the airport the next morning.
00:50:49.37\00:50:51.50
My family who
has never loved me,
00:50:51.53\00:50:54.59
wanted me any of
that kind of stuff said,
00:50:54.62\00:50:57.10
you know what if we just
not set the alarm you can't go.
00:50:57.13\00:51:01.81
And I'm like what
just happened here?
00:51:01.84\00:51:04.13
What just happened here?
00:51:04.16\00:51:05.64
You know 'cause this is
the family that says you know
00:51:05.67\00:51:07.41
what, when I come, you
don't really have to come
00:51:07.44\00:51:09.93
because I know you're gonna
talk about God or something
00:51:09.96\00:51:12.84
and we're just not into that.
00:51:12.87\00:51:14.32
And now they're saying,
they're not gonna set the alarm
00:51:14.35\00:51:16.20
'cause they
don't want us to leave.
00:51:16.23\00:51:17.63
And they're saying to
Brad, man, who are you?
00:51:17.66\00:51:21.49
You are like God and
they don't even realize
00:51:21.52\00:51:24.24
that's Holy Spirit in
him that they're feeling.
00:51:24.27\00:51:26.34
Do you know what I
mean? And I want to say that.
00:51:26.37\00:51:28.38
He really isn't?
00:51:28.41\00:51:30.23
You know he's as
fallible as anyone.
00:51:30.26\00:51:32.58
But he walked in here
with the Holy Spirit and they--
00:51:32.61\00:51:34.68
every time they talk
to me now they say man,
00:51:34.71\00:51:37.11
we just never knew about Brad.
00:51:37.14\00:51:39.69
He's just like-- there
is something really special
00:51:39.72\00:51:42.08
about that guy isn't there?
00:51:42.11\00:51:43.45
And I wanted to say there
is something really special
00:51:43.48\00:51:45.57
about that guy.
00:51:45.60\00:51:46.77
You know what I mean?
00:51:46.80\00:51:47.89
And but right now there
are the point in there life
00:51:47.92\00:51:50.47
where for them it's
about-- you know it's about Brad
00:51:50.50\00:51:54.18
or it's about what
happened that night.
00:51:54.21\00:51:55.91
Every time somebody turns around
00:51:55.94\00:51:57.71
they would tell them
what happened that night.
00:51:57.74\00:51:59.79
You won't believe
what Brad did that night.
00:51:59.82\00:52:02.19
And it was all about
like these tacos and Joanie
00:52:02.22\00:52:04.26
did this meat and
they're telling everybody,
00:52:04.29\00:52:06.87
every single
person in our family
00:52:06.90\00:52:08.39
that wasn't in that room
that night had heard this story
00:52:08.42\00:52:10.67
about what God did.
00:52:10.70\00:52:12.21
But you know what they say?
00:52:12.24\00:52:13.61
You wouldn't
believe what Brad just did.
00:52:13.64\00:52:15.42
No, no, not
Brad, Cheri's husband.
00:52:15.45\00:52:17.72
Oh, I know we haven't
met him a lot but you know--
00:52:17.75\00:52:19.82
so they'll say that.
00:52:19.85\00:52:21.91
And so right now I'm
watching as Brad brings
00:52:21.94\00:52:24.23
the gospel into my family,
into this family of addictions.
00:52:24.26\00:52:26.78
I'm watching as God came
and healed me originally.
00:52:26.81\00:52:29.91
As God on that bed when I'm
trying to kill myself as God's
00:52:29.94\00:52:33.43
stepped into my
life and showed me
00:52:33.46\00:52:35.69
that I was gonna stand up in Him
00:52:35.72\00:52:37.48
and walked into that recovery.
00:52:37.51\00:52:39.25
I didn't even dare to dream
00:52:39.28\00:52:41.41
that He would step
into my family's life.
00:52:41.44\00:52:43.20
And I'm telling you right now
00:52:43.23\00:52:44.36
because He stepped into my
family's life everything in me
00:52:44.39\00:52:46.82
is changing in a
way that Ididn't expect.
00:52:46.85\00:52:49.65
I'm sitting there with
my mom before I flew out
00:52:49.68\00:52:52.09
and my mom said, do you remember
00:52:52.12\00:52:53.93
when you first got your braces?
00:52:53.96\00:52:55.61
And I did.
00:52:55.64\00:52:56.70
I made I suicide attempt
when I was eight years old
00:52:56.73\00:52:58.64
and they put me in
like braces and stuff.
00:52:58.67\00:53:00.36
It was horrible, did she said,
00:53:00.39\00:53:01.91
do you remember you get
home and you this braces on
00:53:01.94\00:53:04.56
and all your friends
are skating and she said,
00:53:04.59\00:53:06.82
I watched you as you are outside
00:53:06.85\00:53:08.86
and you wanted
to skate with them.
00:53:08.89\00:53:10.69
So you put the skate on
the shoe with the brace.
00:53:10.72\00:53:13.50
You try to escape
with your brace on.
00:53:13.53\00:53:16.11
And I want to
know-- I want to tell you,
00:53:16.14\00:53:17.73
you were so adorable.
00:53:17.76\00:53:20.03
And I sat there and
realized that in all my damage
00:53:20.06\00:53:23.27
and all the hurt that
happened in my childhood
00:53:23.30\00:53:25.93
that I forgot the good stuff.
00:53:25.96\00:53:28.45
I forgot the good stuff.
00:53:28.48\00:53:29.82
I forgot the stuff that was
cool and God said, you know,
00:53:29.85\00:53:33.54
I'm gonna bring all that around
00:53:33.57\00:53:36.34
and teach you to
remember some of the good stuff.
00:53:36.37\00:53:39.56
And I thought how cool are You?
00:53:39.59\00:53:41.78
And so when
someone says where's God?
00:53:41.81\00:53:43.66
Where are all the miracles?
00:53:43.69\00:53:45.00
I'm thinking man, sometimes
I can't even answer the phone.
00:53:45.03\00:53:49.44
You know there so much going on.
00:53:49.47\00:53:51.15
I wanted to say as we get on,
00:53:51.18\00:53:53.93
I wanted to say that
there are people here today
00:53:53.96\00:53:57.75
and those
people-- that are listening
00:53:57.78\00:54:00.84
that you are afraid
and that you are not
00:54:00.87\00:54:03.04
seeing miracles around you
00:54:03.07\00:54:04.10
and you're not-- you
don't have that sense
00:54:04.13\00:54:06.43
of God's presence in your life.
00:54:06.46\00:54:08.32
I'm gonna say
like-- before we go,
00:54:08.35\00:54:10.35
I'm gonna ask you to come up
front if you just want to know
00:54:10.38\00:54:13.19
where God is, you
want to feel that presence,
00:54:13.22\00:54:14.79
you want to kind of stand up
and come to God I want you to
00:54:14.82\00:54:18.59
come up and I
want to pray for you.
00:54:18.62\00:54:20.41
Because I believe even in
your worst conditions strung out
00:54:20.44\00:54:24.83
on whatever strung out on--
you know meth strung out on--
00:54:24.86\00:54:31.99
anger strung out
with your depressions,
00:54:32.02\00:54:33.70
strung out with
the eating disorder,
00:54:33.73\00:54:35.47
strung out sexually,
strung out in whatever way
00:54:35.50\00:54:38.56
that even in that worst place
that God can get through that
00:54:38.59\00:54:42.20
and all you have to do
is raise your hand and say
00:54:42.23\00:54:44.39
like father said
on his death bed,
00:54:44.42\00:54:47.58
you know please, you know
I do want you to pray for me,
00:54:47.61\00:54:50.60
I do want you to bless me.
00:54:50.63\00:54:51.76
I do want to come back to you
00:54:51.79\00:54:53.33
and so we're
gonna have that prayer.
00:54:53.36\00:54:54.49
Can you come up if
anybody is out there like Bowen,
00:54:54.52\00:54:58.50
come up-- Bowen, if
nobody comes up but you--
00:54:58.53\00:55:01.89
you get up here,
all right, come on,
00:55:01.92\00:55:04.40
come up I'm serious all right.
00:55:04.43\00:55:08.07
So if anybody else wants prayer,
00:55:08.10\00:55:09.89
I really believe that
God is looking to heal us.
00:55:09.92\00:55:13.84
God is looking to
intervene in our lives,
00:55:13.87\00:55:15.73
God is looking to
put His hand on us
00:55:15.76\00:55:18.11
and say don't be afraid of Me.
00:55:18.14\00:55:19.95
Don't think that you
drugs or the your choices
00:55:19.98\00:55:22.29
or your passes is
gonna define who you are,
00:55:22.32\00:55:24.52
I'm gonna define who you are.
00:55:24.55\00:55:26.21
And so we're gonna pray for that
00:55:26.24\00:55:27.38
and you guys, just join me.
00:55:27.41\00:55:29.52
And literally if you
want to join in this prayer
00:55:29.55\00:55:31.32
just come up, come up.
00:55:31.35\00:55:34.53
Dear Father, in
Jesus name you know
00:55:34.56\00:55:36.04
that as I am
holding on to Bowen pleading
00:55:36.07\00:55:38.66
for you to open up
his mind and his heart
00:55:38.69\00:55:41.31
to how incredible You are
and how much You love him.
00:55:41.34\00:55:44.66
I'm pleading that for
anybody listening to us,
00:55:44.69\00:55:46.65
anybody watching us,
anybody here in this room
00:55:46.68\00:55:49.39
that feels like You
are not doing miracles,
00:55:49.42\00:55:51.29
I just want You to
open up heaven for them.
00:55:51.32\00:55:54.29
Show them exactly
what You are doing.
00:55:54.32\00:55:56.38
I know that even while
You are sitting there healing
00:55:56.41\00:55:59.49
my family, healing
the people around me
00:55:59.52\00:56:01.58
as I see that
everyday that I know that
00:56:01.61\00:56:03.34
all of heaven is on their face
00:56:03.37\00:56:05.97
because they're in all
about how much You love us.
00:56:06.00\00:56:09.01
I pray for special
blessing and anointing
00:56:09.04\00:56:10.85
on each one of them especially
00:56:10.88\00:56:12.17
on this boy right here on Bowen,
00:56:12.20\00:56:14.02
I pray that you bless him.
00:56:14.05\00:56:15.63
I pray that he
is never the same.
00:56:15.66\00:56:17.03
I pray that as he stands
up in Christ that he joins us
00:56:17.06\00:56:20.87
taking the message
to the world that God
00:56:20.90\00:56:22.98
is God of miracles
and You will never change,
00:56:23.01\00:56:25.98
never change in
Jesus name, amen.
00:56:26.01\00:56:29.37
I beg you, thank you Bowen.
00:56:29.40\00:56:32.77
I beg you that as
you start to turn to God
00:56:32.80\00:56:38.11
and expect miracles, I just
pray that in that expectation
00:56:38.14\00:56:42.90
that you start paying
attention to every single thing,
00:56:42.93\00:56:45.73
every single thing even
rotten meat in a frying pan pay
00:56:45.76\00:56:49.07
attention, because
God is paying attention
00:56:49.10\00:56:51.49
and He is
wanting to bring healing
00:56:51.52\00:56:53.71
and miracles into our lives
00:56:53.74\00:56:55.88
and God bless
you, God bless you.
00:56:55.91\00:56:58.14
And don't let anyone
take your miracle from you.
00:56:58.17\00:57:00.33
Don't let anyone
rob you of that miracle.
00:57:00.36\00:57:03.84
Don't let anyone rob you
of that whole full circle
00:57:03.87\00:57:06.45
of recovery because God says
00:57:06.48\00:57:08.77
when I'm done with this
you were gonna look at Me
00:57:08.80\00:57:11.28
and you're gonna stand in awe
00:57:11.31\00:57:12.98
because it is
cool, absolutely cool.
00:57:13.01\00:57:15.93
Thank you for
joining us and God bless.
00:57:15.96\00:57:21.17