Hi, I'm Dr. Kim Logan Nowlin. 00:00:01.06\00:00:02.25 And I'm Arthur Nowlin. 00:00:02.28\00:00:03.62 Welcome to "Making it Work." 00:00:03.65\00:00:05.54 Our topic today, 00:00:38.49\00:00:40.12 "The Impact of Military and Service." 00:00:40.15\00:00:43.22 Arthur, you served in the Air Force, 00:00:43.25\00:00:45.74 United States Air Force. 00:00:45.77\00:00:46.88 Yes. What year? 00:00:46.91\00:00:48.96 That was in-- 00:00:48.99\00:00:50.21 why did you ask that question, Kim? 00:00:50.24\00:00:51.61 Well, I'm just curious to learn. 00:00:51.64\00:00:53.42 I mean, I mean, that was a long time ago. 00:00:53.45\00:00:55.19 I think it was 1970-- 1970-1973. 00:00:55.22\00:00:59.56 Okay. 00:00:59.59\00:01:00.62 And you also-- you served in Vietnam? 00:01:00.65\00:01:03.39 Served in Vietnam. 00:01:03.42\00:01:04.47 What was the experience then? 00:01:04.50\00:01:06.21 It was quite a different experience for me 00:01:06.24\00:01:10.27 because I was mostly 00:01:10.30\00:01:13.86 in the urban community, 00:01:13.89\00:01:17.80 as far as being involved with different cultures, 00:01:17.83\00:01:20.85 I had never been involved with a lot of different cultures 00:01:20.88\00:01:23.32 and then all of a sudden, 00:01:23.35\00:01:25.29 here I'm thrown into that situation. 00:01:25.32\00:01:27.94 It was mind-boggling at one point. 00:01:27.97\00:01:29.80 Were you drafted or did you join? 00:01:29.83\00:01:31.30 Well, it was kind of strange. 00:01:31.33\00:01:32.95 I was drafted by the army 00:01:32.98\00:01:35.23 because I was on my way to college. 00:01:35.26\00:01:36.64 Okay. 00:01:36.67\00:01:37.95 And the army said-- 00:01:37.98\00:01:39.57 and I wanted to take a year off to build up my finances. 00:01:39.60\00:01:43.20 Sure. 00:01:43.23\00:01:44.26 And I got something from Selective Services 00:01:44.29\00:01:48.12 and they said, well, you took a year off so, 00:01:48.15\00:01:51.08 you are not eligible for us to avoid taking you now. 00:01:51.11\00:01:55.67 So we want to draft you now. 00:01:55.70\00:01:58.09 But while I was in high school, some friends and myself, 00:01:58.12\00:02:01.05 we took a test for the Air Force. 00:02:01.08\00:02:04.58 Well, that test really saved me from going to the military-- 00:02:04.61\00:02:07.57 from the-- to the army at that point. 00:02:07.60\00:02:09.00 Okay. 00:02:09.03\00:02:10.06 So I went into the Air Force. 00:02:10.09\00:02:11.47 I see. Well-- 00:02:11.50\00:02:13.00 Thinking that I was gonna avoid Vietnam at that point. 00:02:13.03\00:02:15.56 I know you saw a lot of devastation, a lot of pain. 00:02:15.59\00:02:18.22 Yes, yes. 00:02:18.25\00:02:19.29 You know, but you also had a great experience. 00:02:19.32\00:02:22.28 What was the great experience? 00:02:22.31\00:02:23.43 That you made it out alive. 00:02:23.46\00:02:24.53 Oh, that was tremendous. 00:02:24.56\00:02:25.72 That was tremendous. 00:02:25.75\00:02:27.41 You're on target today. 00:02:27.44\00:02:29.01 Thank you so much. 00:02:29.04\00:02:30.79 You know, not too many can say that they made it out alive, 00:02:30.82\00:02:33.14 but we are sensitive to the families 00:02:33.17\00:02:35.66 that maybe viewing this program. 00:02:35.69\00:02:37.75 We want to welcome two special guests, 00:02:37.78\00:02:39.92 Pastor Phillip Willis and also elder Roscoe Gray. 00:02:39.95\00:02:44.73 Welcome to our program. Thank you. 00:02:44.76\00:02:46.40 Thank you for coming. Happy to be here. 00:02:46.43\00:02:47.94 Well, I'm gonna just let my husband begin 00:02:47.97\00:02:50.15 to share some information, 00:02:50.18\00:02:51.47 I'm gonna come in a little later. 00:02:51.50\00:02:53.38 Wow, this is very simple. 00:02:53.41\00:02:54.73 This is-- all I need to do is 00:02:54.76\00:02:56.90 bring on some men and then I can take the show. 00:02:56.93\00:03:00.58 Arthur, let's go to the show 00:03:00.61\00:03:02.38 Okay. 00:03:02.41\00:03:04.70 Gentlemen, it's so good to have you here. 00:03:04.73\00:03:07.04 Let's start with you, Roscoe. 00:03:07.07\00:03:08.95 How about telling us 00:03:08.98\00:03:11.22 what part of the military 00:03:11.25\00:03:13.48 were you involved with and also, 00:03:13.51\00:03:15.78 what did you do while you were in the military? 00:03:15.81\00:03:19.09 Well, I was a paratrooper. 00:03:19.12\00:03:20.30 Okay. 00:03:20.33\00:03:21.53 And I was a weapon specialist. 00:03:21.56\00:03:23.92 And the army trained me to be a good shot, 00:03:23.95\00:03:27.72 not to miss. 00:03:27.75\00:03:29.84 And I can shoot everything from a 45, all the way up. 00:03:29.87\00:03:34.29 Excellent. 00:03:34.32\00:03:35.35 Expert at everything that I shot. 00:03:35.38\00:03:38.20 So you were a marksman? 00:03:38.23\00:03:40.05 Expert. 00:03:40.08\00:03:41.20 Okay, that's better than marksman. 00:03:41.23\00:03:43.52 Well, okay. Okay. 00:03:43.55\00:03:45.21 And what branch were you in, pastor? 00:03:45.24\00:03:47.08 Well, I served approximately 15 years so far in the army 00:03:47.11\00:03:51.48 and I'm a chaplain. 00:03:51.51\00:03:53.05 Okay. 00:03:53.08\00:03:54.17 So my job is to minister to the soldiers, 00:03:54.20\00:03:56.41 regardless of their religion or background. 00:03:56.44\00:03:59.05 Excellent, regardless of religion or background. 00:03:59.08\00:04:01.17 That's correct. 00:04:01.20\00:04:02.23 Explain. Tell me, they must be kind of different for you? 00:04:02.26\00:04:05.41 Well, it's nonsectarian. 00:04:05.44\00:04:08.28 We have a pluralistic environment. 00:04:08.31\00:04:10.12 While I'm a Protestant chaplain, 00:04:10.15\00:04:11.76 I'm there to provide religious support for everybody. 00:04:11.79\00:04:16.21 Okay, excellent. 00:04:16.24\00:04:18.37 Now, I want to go back to paratrooper, 00:04:18.40\00:04:20.31 could you explain to me what is a paratrooper? 00:04:20.37\00:04:25.40 Well, a paratrooper is a soldier 00:04:25.43\00:04:27.02 that jumps out of airplanes. 00:04:27.05\00:04:30.04 And it makes you tough, makes you like a bird, 00:04:30.07\00:04:34.10 just feel good just coming out of an airplane. 00:04:34.13\00:04:36.52 So para-- I hear the word "paratrooper"-- 00:04:36.55\00:04:39.26 Like parachute? 00:04:39.29\00:04:40.36 Like a para-- so you have a parachute on, 00:04:40.39\00:04:41.96 they are trained you to do that. 00:04:41.99\00:04:43.03 Were you afraid when you first got there? 00:04:43.06\00:04:45.39 Were you afraid of that? 00:04:45.42\00:04:46.45 Yes, my first jump knocked me out. 00:04:46.48\00:04:48.63 Oh, my, what did you hit? 00:04:48.66\00:04:49.86 I landed wrong. 00:04:49.89\00:04:51.15 You landed wrong but you never did that again? 00:04:51.20\00:04:52.99 No, never did that again. 00:04:53.02\00:04:54.82 So you went into the military, you were single? 00:04:54.85\00:04:56.58 Yes. 00:04:56.61\00:04:57.64 All, right, and also when you first served you were single? 00:04:57.67\00:05:00.51 That's correct. Okay. 00:05:00.54\00:05:02.24 So, how long were you in the military 00:05:02.27\00:05:05.82 before you went overseas? 00:05:05.85\00:05:08.54 I was in about 11 months 00:05:08.57\00:05:10.49 and when I got to jump school, I went to Panama. 00:05:10.52\00:05:15.93 Panama? 00:05:15.96\00:05:17.38 To train for-- 00:05:17.41\00:05:18.48 actually I wanted to be a green beret. 00:05:18.51\00:05:19.83 Oh, really. 00:05:19.86\00:05:20.90 Why would you-- why did you 00:05:20.93\00:05:21.97 want to be a green beret? 00:05:22.00\00:05:23.41 Well, just the toughness. Toughness? 00:05:23.44\00:05:26.76 The number one league in the military? 00:05:26.79\00:05:29.42 Yes, yes, yes, the toughness 00:05:29.45\00:05:30.52 because though in basic you qualify 00:05:30.55\00:05:34.33 to be certain things just like the-- 00:05:34.36\00:05:37.84 You were a fighter then? 00:05:37.87\00:05:38.92 Oh, yes, yes. 00:05:38.95\00:05:40.12 Matter of fact, when I was a kid 00:05:40.15\00:05:41.49 I would jump off buildings. 00:05:41.52\00:05:42.87 Oh, okay. 00:05:42.90\00:05:45.08 Climb tree, jump out of trees. 00:05:45.11\00:05:46.86 You know, play king of the hill, 00:05:46.89\00:05:48.79 did all of that. 00:05:48.82\00:05:49.88 So you dreamt about going into the military? 00:05:49.91\00:05:51.73 No, I didn't dream about it. 00:05:51.76\00:05:52.82 Okay, you didn't dream about it, were you drafted, 00:05:52.85\00:05:54.52 'cause you were drafted. 00:05:54.55\00:05:55.58 Oh, I was drafted. 00:05:55.61\00:05:58.34 I was drafted and might as well, 00:05:58.37\00:05:59.52 while I'm here make the best of. 00:05:59.55\00:06:00.59 All right. 00:06:00.62\00:06:01.73 What was probably the driving force 00:06:01.76\00:06:03.96 to get you involved with the military? 00:06:03.99\00:06:05.61 Oh, me? I needed job. 00:06:05.64\00:06:08.62 I mean, I had gone to school for, 00:06:08.65\00:06:10.75 you know, for the extended period time, 00:06:10.78\00:06:12.72 I'm at the end of my master's degree. 00:06:12.75\00:06:14.46 I was looking to find a church 00:06:14.49\00:06:16.15 and there weren't a whole lot of people 00:06:16.18\00:06:17.66 hiring at that time, 00:06:17.69\00:06:18.75 and I wanted to do something with my career. 00:06:18.78\00:06:21.61 And so I looked at being a missionary 00:06:21.64\00:06:23.78 and I also looked at the military 00:06:23.81\00:06:26.74 and the army said, come on brother, we love you. 00:06:26.77\00:06:30.67 So we got two different circumstances, you know. 00:06:30.70\00:06:33.85 Perspectives. 00:06:33.88\00:06:34.92 Yeah, both of you had opportunity 00:06:34.95\00:06:37.31 to be in combat zones. 00:06:37.34\00:06:39.26 That's right. 00:06:39.29\00:06:40.32 Tell me about that, you first, pastor. 00:06:40.35\00:06:43.17 Well, I went twice. 00:06:43.20\00:06:45.38 And you were in the-- 00:06:45.41\00:06:46.52 I went to Iraq, operation Iraqi Freedom. 00:06:46.55\00:06:48.92 I had the opportunity to deployed twice. 00:06:48.95\00:06:51.15 And there's no experience like being in a war zone. 00:06:51.18\00:06:55.09 Nothing prepares you for it, 00:06:55.12\00:06:56.47 I don't care how much training you have. 00:06:56.50\00:06:58.01 And it just comes from my perspective as a chaplain. 00:06:58.04\00:07:00.36 I know that he went to a whole different level of training, 00:07:00.39\00:07:03.62 being in the special forces, special ops, green beret, 00:07:03.65\00:07:06.25 paratrooper, I didn't have that. 00:07:06.28\00:07:08.02 I'm a chaplain, you know, so I'm there carrying Bibles 00:07:08.05\00:07:11.08 and going to minister and preach sermons 00:07:11.11\00:07:13.59 and help people through the most difficult time 00:07:13.62\00:07:15.82 that life had to throw at you. 00:07:15.85\00:07:17.33 But I didn't anticipate how-- 00:07:17.36\00:07:19.11 the impact that it would have on me. 00:07:19.14\00:07:21.02 So my first tour was really tough 00:07:21.05\00:07:23.99 because bad things were happening all the time 00:07:24.02\00:07:26.53 and by end of that tour 00:07:26.56\00:07:27.59 we ended up losing seven soldiers. 00:07:27.62\00:07:29.92 At any one time we had 1,900 soldiers under our, 00:07:29.95\00:07:33.62 under our purview at the battalion 00:07:33.65\00:07:35.21 that I work with. 00:07:35.24\00:07:36.69 By the time I went the second time 00:07:36.72\00:07:37.96 I was much better prepared. 00:07:37.99\00:07:39.19 Okay. 00:07:39.22\00:07:40.25 You know, and tell me about your combat experience. 00:07:40.28\00:07:44.06 Well, it was really rough. 00:07:44.09\00:07:48.07 From the first day in Vietnam, 00:07:48.10\00:07:50.76 you know, we went to Cam Ranh Bay in Vietnam 00:07:50.79\00:07:54.30 and just to see the Vietnamese, 00:07:54.33\00:07:56.42 a lot of guys to-- look scary, 00:07:56.45\00:07:58.22 just see the Vietnamese walk around. 00:07:58.25\00:08:00.53 Is he gonna shoot me, is he gonna shoot me, 00:08:00.56\00:08:02.75 is he gonna poison me, 00:08:02.78\00:08:03.81 he gonna do this, he gonna do that. 00:08:03.84\00:08:05.90 And to go to my base camp at Khe, 00:08:05.93\00:08:10.98 that's when you really get assigned 00:08:11.01\00:08:12.49 to your combat unit 00:08:12.52\00:08:14.42 and I went to the 2nd Battalion 00:08:14.45\00:08:17.96 B Company of the 503rd of 173rd Airborne 00:08:17.99\00:08:21.91 and they are the most decorated unit in Vietnam. 00:08:21.94\00:08:24.77 Wow. 00:08:24.80\00:08:25.83 Three Presidential Unit Citations, 00:08:25.86\00:08:28.42 that's when I was there 00:08:28.45\00:08:30.10 and we have 11 Medal of Honor winners of the 173rd. 00:08:30.13\00:08:33.58 Yes, there were. 00:08:33.61\00:08:34.64 Now, were you a Seventh-day Adventist? 00:08:34.67\00:08:37.04 No, I was not. I was a 50/50. 00:08:37.07\00:08:38.94 Okay, so you didn't really have a Christian home? 00:08:38.97\00:08:43.15 I used to go to church Christmas, Easter. 00:08:43.18\00:08:44.88 Okay. Okay. 00:08:44.91\00:08:45.94 That was it. Go check out a girlfriend or two. 00:08:45.97\00:08:48.26 Oh, okay, all right. 00:08:48.29\00:08:50.11 So what about you? 00:08:50.14\00:08:51.20 You are a Seventh-day Adventist. 00:08:51.23\00:08:53.51 Absolutely. 00:08:53.54\00:08:54.57 And you know, how did that-- 00:08:54.60\00:08:56.51 Impact me? Yes. 00:08:56.54\00:08:57.83 I was a believer and you know, I trusted in the Lord but, 00:08:57.86\00:09:01.02 you know, as he was an expert in weapons, 00:09:01.05\00:09:03.78 the only weapon that I had was my Bible and my faith. 00:09:03.81\00:09:07.49 That's great. 00:09:07.52\00:09:08.56 It became evident, the level at which 00:09:08.59\00:09:13.17 my weapon could be their asset or disadvantage. 00:09:13.20\00:09:16.53 When I was riding on a mission with one of the soldiers 00:09:16.56\00:09:18.60 and they said, hey chaplain, 00:09:18.63\00:09:19.66 we know that you are here, we love you, 00:09:19.69\00:09:21.33 but if that weapon, the 50 cal goes down 00:09:21.36\00:09:24.26 with the gunner on the top of that truck, 00:09:24.29\00:09:26.11 are you gonna be able to get up there and help us out? 00:09:26.14\00:09:28.99 And so, you know, there was a huge-- 00:09:29.02\00:09:30.55 So that question was proposed to you? 00:09:30.58\00:09:32.52 It was proposed to me and there's a politically 00:09:32.55\00:09:34.93 correct answer and then there's the answer 00:09:34.96\00:09:36.57 that those soldiers want to hear 00:09:36.60\00:09:38.27 and as their chaplain, 00:09:38.30\00:09:39.80 you're an asset as far as 00:09:39.83\00:09:41.89 you can make a difference for them 00:09:41.92\00:09:44.23 and I didn't want to be just a lucky charm 00:09:44.26\00:09:46.82 but I wanted to be a valuable asset, 00:09:46.87\00:09:49.21 spiritually, emotionally and physically for them. 00:09:49.24\00:09:52.15 Did ever get to that point where you had to get on the 50? 00:09:52.18\00:09:54.10 No. 00:09:54.13\00:09:55.16 And you know, just by way of regulation, 00:09:55.19\00:09:57.89 chaplains are noncombatants, 00:09:57.92\00:09:58.96 so we are not to carry weapons 00:09:58.99\00:10:00.30 or to even be seen with one. 00:10:00.33\00:10:02.15 And that's the right answer all the time. 00:10:02.18\00:10:03.84 Okay. 00:10:03.87\00:10:05.04 But I had a different discussion 00:10:05.07\00:10:06.43 with those guys in that truck. 00:10:06.46\00:10:09.29 You know, as I listen, 00:10:09.32\00:10:11.63 can you image the impact this had on their families, 00:10:11.66\00:10:15.89 their mothers, their siblings, relatives. 00:10:15.92\00:10:19.63 How did this impact your families 00:10:19.66\00:10:21.85 when you had to leave? 00:10:21.88\00:10:24.66 Well, it devastated my mother, 00:10:24.69\00:10:27.88 because you're going from Detroit to Vietnam, 00:10:28.02\00:10:32.63 about 16,000 miles away 00:10:32.66\00:10:35.89 and your whole outcome of life changes. 00:10:35.92\00:10:38.77 Instead of living in the house or beds, 00:10:38.80\00:10:40.65 you're sleeping on the ground. 00:10:40.68\00:10:42.38 Not one day, every day. 00:10:42.45\00:10:45.51 Every day. 00:10:45.54\00:10:46.58 And you carried your house on your back, in your rucksack. 00:10:46.61\00:10:50.48 Your helmet was your bathtub. 00:10:50.51\00:10:52.01 Wow. 00:10:52.04\00:10:53.09 Everything, so you really -- 00:10:53.12\00:10:54.83 it was a grunt out there in the in the jungles. 00:10:54.86\00:10:56.91 I feel sorry for you guys, because I mean-- 00:10:56.94\00:10:59.41 Our Air Force-- 00:10:59.44\00:11:01.16 I didn't have none of that. Actually you know-- 00:11:01.19\00:11:04.38 You seen any action? 00:11:04.41\00:11:05.44 Well, yes. 00:11:05.47\00:11:06.69 Actually I mean, we've been bombed quite a bit 00:11:06.72\00:11:09.51 but we had running water, we had-- 00:11:09.54\00:11:12.66 Wow. 00:11:12.69\00:11:13.74 We had bathrooms and, 00:11:13.77\00:11:14.99 you know, it was just different. 00:11:15.02\00:11:17.44 I had a place like I'm living here 00:11:17.47\00:11:19.55 and I didn't had to sleep on the ground 00:11:19.60\00:11:21.63 but we were getting bombed quite frequently 00:11:21.66\00:11:24.38 and so that was the only negative point. 00:11:24.41\00:11:26.15 I was on the parameters of-- 00:11:26.18\00:11:29.27 we were getting shot at and bombed. 00:11:29.30\00:11:31.37 Well, I had a trenching tool. 00:11:31.40\00:11:32.59 You know trenching tool is? 00:11:32.62\00:11:33.71 No. A small shovel. 00:11:33.74\00:11:34.77 No. Yeah, wasn't that small shovel? 00:11:34.80\00:11:36.39 That was my bathroom. Okay. 00:11:36.42\00:11:38.23 You used it quite a bit. 00:11:38.26\00:11:39.62 Oh, I had to, I had to. 00:11:39.65\00:11:41.05 Yes, take it out and strike it in the ground 00:11:41.08\00:11:42.68 and do your thing. 00:11:42.71\00:11:43.74 You had to survive? 00:11:43.77\00:11:44.83 I had to survive. You had to survive. 00:11:44.86\00:11:47.07 And you had running water? 00:11:47.10\00:11:48.42 Yeah, we had running water I had to survive with that. 00:11:48.45\00:11:50.90 Now if we had water we had to put 00:11:50.93\00:11:53.07 a little peel in our canteen before we drink the water, 00:11:53.10\00:11:56.41 purification type. 00:11:56.44\00:11:57.60 Oh, we saw those peels and I just felt 00:11:57.63\00:11:59.55 so bad for you guys. 00:11:59.58\00:12:01.32 So you didn't have to use the peel? 00:12:01.35\00:12:03.18 No. 00:12:03.21\00:12:04.24 It was a different time and era though. 00:12:04.27\00:12:06.28 No, I was just about to say you where, 00:12:06.31\00:12:09.06 we-- you know, 00:12:09.09\00:12:10.13 I guess I had to say that I was a low visor 00:12:10.16\00:12:13.71 because I knew I didn't want to go and be a grunt. 00:12:13.74\00:12:16.47 Okay. 00:12:16.50\00:12:17.53 And I knew that Air Force-- 00:12:17.56\00:12:18.60 You all knew that term, you used that term? 00:12:18.63\00:12:20.26 Yes, and I knew Air Force was my way out of that. 00:12:20.29\00:12:22.82 Oh, I see. 00:12:22.85\00:12:23.88 I didn't anticipate that I was ever going to Vietnam. 00:12:23.91\00:12:26.54 But you did go to Vietnam. 00:12:26.61\00:12:28.06 After my first year in the military. 00:12:28.16\00:12:29.83 Wow, and when you had got word 00:12:29.92\00:12:31.99 that you're going to Vietnam, what did that do to your-- 00:12:32.06\00:12:34.30 It was out breaking because it was some dynamics 00:12:34.33\00:12:37.69 that really went up to that. 00:12:37.75\00:12:39.65 My brother who was already in the military, 00:12:39.68\00:12:42.24 he was in the army and he was stationed in Germany 00:12:42.27\00:12:44.66 and he was the one that really 00:12:44.69\00:12:46.16 convinced me to go to Air Force. 00:12:46.19\00:12:47.22 He said, if you got an opportunity, go to Air Force. 00:12:47.25\00:12:49.10 So you know, I had to go to Vietnam, right. 00:12:49.13\00:12:51.64 And when I finally joined the Air Force, 00:12:51.67\00:12:55.67 I felt pretty comfortable and pretty safe about that, 00:12:55.70\00:12:58.20 I'm not going to Vietnam. 00:12:58.23\00:12:59.67 After my first year in military 00:12:59.77\00:13:01.22 that's the first place they sent me was to Vietnam. 00:13:01.25\00:13:04.03 You know, so I wrote my brother a letter 00:13:04.06\00:13:06.29 with some few choices words, 00:13:06.32\00:13:07.87 you know, I had to re-pen them later. 00:13:07.90\00:13:10.55 Because you ended up going. 00:13:10.58\00:13:12.81 Pastor, what was it like when you had to tell 00:13:12.84\00:13:14.37 your parents and your sisters and you were leaving? 00:13:14.40\00:13:17.29 How did they feel? 00:13:17.32\00:13:18.35 I think, you know, my father having spent time 00:13:18.38\00:13:20.41 in the Air Force like yourself, he was very supportive. 00:13:20.44\00:13:23.28 My mom was supportive too but she was heartbroken. 00:13:23.31\00:13:27.04 She had lost her brother in the army 00:13:27.07\00:13:29.86 through an experience and I'm her only son. 00:13:29.89\00:13:32.95 So that was very hard for them deal with. 00:13:32.98\00:13:35.10 I can imagine. 00:13:35.13\00:13:36.16 And I carried their burden with me 00:13:36.19\00:13:37.74 because you don't want to be that guy 00:13:37.77\00:13:40.92 to bring heartbreak to your mom, you know. 00:13:40.95\00:13:43.04 Was any a time when you were 00:13:43.07\00:13:44.10 out of communication with your family? 00:13:44.13\00:13:46.27 You know, being that it was a more modern experience, 00:13:46.30\00:13:48.74 they had internet and that-- 00:13:48.77\00:13:50.94 so I tried to stay in pretty much 00:13:50.97\00:13:53.01 solid communication with them 00:13:53.04\00:13:54.85 but you didn't want to tell them everything 00:13:54.88\00:13:56.54 because you didn't want them to worry. 00:13:56.57\00:13:58.56 Sure. 00:13:58.59\00:13:59.62 You know, it's just very difficult. 00:13:59.65\00:14:00.93 I'm about to go on a mission and this maybe my last message. 00:14:00.96\00:14:03.38 Right. Right. Oh, no, no. 00:14:03.42\00:14:04.96 You we never did that, you know, so-- 00:14:04.99\00:14:06.67 What about post-traumatic stress disorder 00:14:06.70\00:14:08.71 and dealing with issues as that, 00:14:08.74\00:14:10.87 Arthur, let's talk about post-traumatic stress disorder. 00:14:10.91\00:14:12.21 Well, before we get to the post-traumatic stress, 00:14:12.24\00:14:14.90 there's one thing that I want to talk about. 00:14:14.93\00:14:16.67 I wanted to talk about the combat experience itself. 00:14:16.70\00:14:19.88 So you were injured while you were over there, 00:14:19.91\00:14:23.08 tell us about that. 00:14:23.11\00:14:25.78 Well, let me tell you a little story. 00:14:25.82\00:14:30.07 I was out on patrol, 00:14:30.10\00:14:31.81 a point man was shot right to the throat. 00:14:31.84\00:14:34.05 What? 00:14:34.08\00:14:35.41 And for three days we had to carry the soldier, 00:14:35.45\00:14:38.61 'cause, you know the army motto, 00:14:38.64\00:14:40.94 never leave a soldier behind. 00:14:40.97\00:14:43.15 And this is about a 175- 80 pound of dead weight 00:14:43.18\00:14:47.63 plus all your-- 00:14:47.66\00:14:48.93 For three days? 00:14:48.96\00:14:50.15 Yeah, for three days until we had to go to our rendezvous 00:14:50.18\00:14:53.65 for the choppers to come pick us up 00:14:53.68\00:14:56.01 And we got back to our base camp, 00:14:56.04\00:14:59.34 writing love letters, Sergeant Reinpi our squad lead, 00:14:59.37\00:15:03.64 he said, when you go back on the tour, 00:15:03.67\00:15:06.17 you are on the point. 00:15:06.20\00:15:08.15 Now I'll remind you that in my squad 00:15:08.18\00:15:10.88 I was the only black 00:15:10.91\00:15:13.15 and yet I outranked all the other whites there. 00:15:13.18\00:15:16.67 So I was this token guy to have to guard on the point. 00:15:16.70\00:15:21.05 Now the point, you are about 20 meters 00:15:21.08\00:15:24.16 ahead of your squad of the-- whatever the case is. 00:15:24.19\00:15:29.23 And every day, you know, what I said, 00:15:29.26\00:15:32.18 if I get shot at, I'm gonna kill this guy. 00:15:32.21\00:15:35.63 You was gonna kill your squad leader? 00:15:35.66\00:15:37.07 I was gonna kill my squad-- I'll kill him 00:15:37.10\00:15:39.07 because I was his token guy. 00:15:39.10\00:15:41.66 And every day he would say, Gray, you did a good job. 00:15:41.69\00:15:44.90 Oh, blankey-blank, using choice words. 00:15:44.93\00:15:49.11 Second day, man, I'm proud, you did a good job, 00:15:49.14\00:15:51.70 blankety-blank. 00:15:51.73\00:15:53.40 I would bless him out. 00:15:53.43\00:15:55.87 Around the fourth day out on the field 00:15:55.90\00:15:58.28 I'm out there just all of sudden 00:15:58.31\00:15:59.98 you hear the little tweak, 00:16:00.01\00:16:03.48 we hear something like that 00:16:03.51\00:16:04.77 because you train, by training in Panama, 00:16:04.80\00:16:09.04 listening pulse out there all night 00:16:09.07\00:16:11.46 listening for different sounds you heard a little-- 00:16:11.49\00:16:14.63 Oh, you heard it? 00:16:14.66\00:16:16.60 I heard it, because my ears were well trained to sound. 00:16:16.63\00:16:22.63 So I get down, low crawled about 12-15 meters 00:16:22.66\00:16:26.63 and all of sudden that man shows up 00:16:26.66\00:16:29.83 I just pulled the trigger. 00:16:29.86\00:16:31.27 Wow. 00:16:31.30\00:16:32.34 Shot him right in the face. 00:16:32.37\00:16:35.64 And I had a shotgun at the time, 00:16:35.67\00:16:37.27 I'd walk and point in the bush. 00:16:37.30\00:16:39.76 One shot, pulled up my 45 00:16:39.79\00:16:42.74 and start lineup the area and used all seven clips I had. 00:16:42.77\00:16:46.84 Every grenade I had I threw at him. 00:16:46.87\00:16:48.96 That was my goodness, I'm out of everything 00:16:48.99\00:16:51.25 but at the end of that little fire fight 00:16:51.28\00:16:53.44 there were four guys dead 00:16:53.47\00:16:56.56 and we get back to our fire support base 00:16:56.59\00:16:59.19 and the word came that, 00:16:59.22\00:17:01.37 Gray, the old man want to see you. 00:17:01.40\00:17:03.76 Now the old man, you know, it's a captain. 00:17:03.79\00:17:06.10 I said, oh, my goodness 00:17:06.13\00:17:07.48 I'm gonna be court-martialed and going to jail 00:17:07.51\00:17:10.90 and everything for being-- insubordinate of my, 00:17:10.93\00:17:14.67 to my sergeant. 00:17:14.70\00:17:16.78 I gonna see the captain, he said, Gray, 00:17:16.81\00:17:19.37 I understand the problem you had out on the field. 00:17:19.40\00:17:22.21 He said, Sergeant White put you in before the bronze star 00:17:22.24\00:17:25.66 and here's your corporal stripes. 00:17:25.69\00:17:27.96 My, my, my. 00:17:27.99\00:17:29.22 So you got your bronze star? 00:17:29.25\00:17:30.75 Yeah, that's how I got a bronze star. 00:17:30.78\00:17:32.17 Excellent. Excellent. 00:17:32.20\00:17:34.41 Well, see I bet lot of people didn't know that. 00:17:34.44\00:17:36.43 I didn't know that. It was that. 00:17:36.46\00:17:37.59 And you got the purple heart as well, right? 00:17:37.62\00:17:40.98 Not only that, the commendation medal, 00:17:41.01\00:17:45.95 purple heart. 00:17:45.98\00:17:48.15 Wow. 00:17:48.18\00:17:49.22 Now were you injured during that time 00:17:49.25\00:17:50.72 when you were out in the wilderness or combat? 00:17:50.75\00:17:52.97 No, this was during the-- now after I leave '75 00:17:53.00\00:17:57.20 Thanksgiving '67, 00:17:57.23\00:17:58.77 we lost oh-- as we ended, 00:17:58.80\00:18:01.57 a 141 paratroopers were killed during this fire big fighting. 00:18:01.60\00:18:06.81 The good Lord blessed me not to get one scratch on me 00:18:06.84\00:18:09.55 but you round up by bodies. 00:18:09.58\00:18:12.00 And you have a lot of soldier today who would not celebrate 00:18:12.03\00:18:15.97 Thanks giving as because of that. 00:18:16.00\00:18:17.51 Is that right? 00:18:17.54\00:18:18.57 I went across a guy fired in the Wal-Mart. 00:18:18.60\00:18:22.77 He had a one semi-third patch up. 00:18:22.80\00:18:24.78 I said, hey trooper. 00:18:24.81\00:18:26.39 He said, airborne, you know, 00:18:26.42\00:18:28.96 and he started telling me the story. 00:18:28.99\00:18:31.30 We sat, reminiscing, he was in the same battalion 00:18:31.33\00:18:34.13 I was in Vietnam. 00:18:34.16\00:18:36.78 Matter of fact, he called me this morning 00:18:36.81\00:18:39.75 and they also done a documentary of all the guys 00:18:39.78\00:18:42.43 who served 173rd because you don't see 00:18:42.46\00:18:44.95 too many guys that's alive that served 173rd. 00:18:44.98\00:18:49.74 Wow. 00:18:49.77\00:18:51.01 While I went to the 173rd in May of '67, 00:18:51.04\00:18:55.83 they had 45 paratroopers their couplings over-ran 00:18:55.86\00:18:59.81 and all of them were starting to hit twice. 00:18:59.84\00:19:02.64 And down at Fort Campbell-- 00:19:02.67\00:19:04.59 Executions. Was all executions. 00:19:04.62\00:19:06.74 Oh, my goodness. 00:19:06.77\00:19:08.50 While now, pastor, you have a story or two 00:19:08.53\00:19:11.12 what you've seen and can you gonna share something with us? 00:19:11.15\00:19:14.96 Yes, I would say a month end to my tour in Iraq, 00:19:14.99\00:19:18.58 on my first tour at the end of 2004 00:19:18.61\00:19:20.58 all the way to the end of 2005, 00:19:20.61\00:19:23.04 I was in my office 00:19:23.07\00:19:24.10 preparing for my message for the following-- 00:19:24.13\00:19:26.94 for the morning, 00:19:26.97\00:19:28.71 Sunday morning and my chaplain assistant 00:19:28.74\00:19:30.80 ran to my office and said, 00:19:30.83\00:19:32.08 chaplain there's a C-130 down the airfield and you know, 00:19:32.11\00:19:35.94 I just kind of went into a space of shock 00:19:35.97\00:19:37.98 because nothing prepares you for that. 00:19:38.01\00:19:40.79 But I merely fell back on my training 00:19:40.82\00:19:43.89 and grab my body armor and my Kevlar 00:19:43.92\00:19:46.82 and my chaplain's kit and jumped in the vehicle 00:19:46.85\00:19:50.09 and ran out to the field with her. 00:19:50.12\00:19:51.61 And when I got there, 00:19:51.64\00:19:52.76 there were bodies lying on the ground, 00:19:52.79\00:19:57.47 and you could smell the JP-8 fuel 00:19:57.50\00:19:58.98 from the burning helicop-- from the burning C-130. 00:19:59.01\00:20:02.97 The medics were attending to the bodies. 00:20:03.00\00:20:05.94 I saw the pilots drifting around 00:20:05.97\00:20:07.62 with that 1,000 mile steer. 00:20:07.65\00:20:09.36 They were lost. 00:20:09.39\00:20:10.50 And you know it comes a point and time, 00:20:10.53\00:20:12.21 what do you do as a chaplain? 00:20:12.24\00:20:14.31 Do you minister to them from the spiritual needs 00:20:14.34\00:20:17.28 or do you go to the immediate needs of the physical stuff? 00:20:17.31\00:20:20.40 Well, the physical stuff 00:20:20.43\00:20:21.77 was being taken care of by the medics. 00:20:21.80\00:20:23.79 So I knew my responsibility was to minister to those people 00:20:23.82\00:20:26.67 and get their minds in a right place. 00:20:26.70\00:20:28.72 Help the medics so that they could do their job effectively 00:20:28.75\00:20:31.72 and then try to minister to those soldiers 00:20:31.75\00:20:33.45 who were hurting and wounded. 00:20:33.48\00:20:34.95 And so as they were escorting the bodies to the litter, 00:20:34.98\00:20:38.26 on the litter to the helicopters, 00:20:38.29\00:20:39.58 the medevac helicopters, 00:20:39.61\00:20:40.78 I ran with them and pray with them and encourage them. 00:20:40.81\00:20:44.12 And then there was an individual 00:20:44.15\00:20:45.27 on the ground completely naked. 00:20:45.30\00:20:46.41 They didn't know what was wrong with him 00:20:46.44\00:20:47.83 and they stripped all of his clothes, 00:20:47.86\00:20:48.97 why is this soldier unconscious. 00:20:49.00\00:20:50.95 And as I walked up, I'm not quite sure 00:20:50.98\00:20:52.90 if the medics knew I was a chaplain 00:20:52.93\00:20:54.24 because you get all that stuff on 00:20:54.27\00:20:56.13 but it was almost as if they, 00:20:56.16\00:20:57.33 you know, the Red Sea parted when I came up and I-- 00:20:57.36\00:20:59.96 I came up they stop doing what they were doing 00:20:59.99\00:21:02.27 and I knelt down and, 00:21:02.30\00:21:04.95 you know, it is at that point of time 00:21:04.98\00:21:06.30 when the doctors have done all that they can do. 00:21:06.33\00:21:08.40 You know, where sometimes God shows up 00:21:08.43\00:21:11.19 and He used me to pray for that person. 00:21:11.22\00:21:14.95 And the Lord blessed 00:21:14.98\00:21:16.07 and not one person died from that experience. 00:21:16.10\00:21:18.63 Wow. 00:21:18.66\00:21:19.69 But that was my introduction to war and it was after that, 00:21:19.72\00:21:22.36 that bad stuff started happening all the time. 00:21:22.39\00:21:24.88 IED's were blown out 00:21:24.91\00:21:26.11 which is improvised explosive devices. 00:21:26.14\00:21:28.40 We're transportation maintenance 00:21:28.43\00:21:29.91 so we are out on the road constantly. 00:21:29.94\00:21:31.89 You know, it was not a linear war 00:21:31.92\00:21:33.67 so the war was all around us. 00:21:33.70\00:21:35.80 We were getting mortared every day 00:21:35.83\00:21:37.80 but going out outside the wire 00:21:37.83\00:21:40.17 which is off of the base as you know, 00:21:40.20\00:21:43.40 we were always constantly getting attacked. 00:21:43.43\00:21:45.36 And-- but it was 00:21:45.39\00:21:47.04 from those type of experiences 00:21:47.07\00:21:48.88 and I-- and you know, 00:21:48.91\00:21:50.48 there's a generational gap 00:21:50.51\00:21:52.17 between the battles and the wars 00:21:52.20\00:21:54.02 that we are in this same room but I also got a bronze star 00:21:54.05\00:21:59.31 but it was quite different experience, you know, 00:21:59.34\00:22:02.15 my journey being shot at and blown up, 00:22:02.18\00:22:04.40 then actually carrying a weapon 00:22:04.43\00:22:06.24 and having to defend my own life. 00:22:06.27\00:22:08.09 I'm sitting there waiting for the other guys to do it 00:22:08.12\00:22:10.96 while I take care their mental, spiritual welfare. 00:22:10.99\00:22:13.71 That's amazing. 00:22:13.74\00:22:14.78 You know, that both of you have bronze stars, 00:22:14.81\00:22:16.89 we didn't know that before the show. 00:22:16.92\00:22:18.90 And you know, it's really tremendous, 00:22:18.93\00:22:21.55 I mean, our country owns both of you a lot of debt. 00:22:21.58\00:22:25.06 One of the things 00:22:25.09\00:22:26.44 that I would like to ask you about is coming back home. 00:22:26.47\00:22:31.12 Coming back home was different for you, 00:22:31.15\00:22:34.71 as a Vietnam vet, because in myself, 00:22:34.74\00:22:37.44 it was different. 00:22:37.47\00:22:38.73 But coming back home for you was more of a celebration. 00:22:38.76\00:22:43.35 Absolutely. 00:22:43.38\00:22:45.21 Welcoming a hero. 00:22:45.24\00:22:46.64 Yes, indeed. 00:22:46.67\00:22:48.15 For you and me it was like being degraded 00:22:48.18\00:22:52.30 and like how dare you participate in that war? 00:22:52.33\00:22:56.01 I mean, I've had an experience 00:22:56.04\00:22:57.63 when I was-- when I studied 00:22:57.66\00:22:59.65 at University of Michigan, 00:22:59.68\00:23:01.22 I went out on a date with this girl. 00:23:01.25\00:23:03.57 As we were talking, 00:23:03.60\00:23:06.82 we were talking about our backgrounds 00:23:06.85\00:23:08.84 and I say, well, you know, 00:23:08.87\00:23:09.99 I just recently got out of military and she paused, 00:23:10.02\00:23:13.50 she said, did you go to Vietnam? 00:23:13.53\00:23:15.46 I said, yes, and she got up and left. 00:23:15.49\00:23:18.93 You know, because that's what they thought. 00:23:18.96\00:23:20.69 Right. 00:23:20.72\00:23:21.76 You know, I saw her next day 00:23:21.79\00:23:22.92 she wanted to apologize and I left. 00:23:22.95\00:23:25.23 So it was just-- 00:23:25.26\00:23:28.00 we came home to a lot of negativity. 00:23:28.03\00:23:33.36 How was that for you? 00:23:33.39\00:23:35.99 I came home with lot of guilt. 00:23:36.02\00:23:38.82 The guilt was killing all those people in 'Nam. 00:23:38.85\00:23:42.76 And when I got wounded in 'Nam, 00:23:42.79\00:23:47.87 the devastating part of it is that 00:23:47.90\00:23:50.41 I was the third person on patrol. 00:23:50.44\00:23:54.05 Sergeant White said-- 00:23:54.08\00:23:55.79 So you weren't on the point during this time? 00:23:55.82\00:23:57.41 Oh, no, no, I was up there in rank a little bit, 00:23:57.44\00:24:02.70 the experience, and we had a dog with us, 00:24:02.73\00:24:06.76 you know, and the dog was on the alert. 00:24:06.79\00:24:08.75 You know, when the dog is on the alert 00:24:08.78\00:24:10.00 you have to call in the headquarter, 00:24:10.03\00:24:12.33 let them know that the dog is on the alert 00:24:12.36\00:24:15.12 and they give you some feedback, 00:24:15.15\00:24:18.25 be caution, do this, do this. 00:24:18.28\00:24:20.37 So we had to take our weapons off safety 00:24:20.40\00:24:25.24 and put them on semi-automatic 00:24:25.27\00:24:27.60 because we knew that something was happening. 00:24:27.63\00:24:30.57 So I was the third person in line, 00:24:30.60\00:24:33.65 Sergeant White said, move towards the rear 00:24:33.68\00:24:36.84 to cover the rear flank. 00:24:36.87\00:24:39.52 And as soon as I did that, we was ambushed. 00:24:39.55\00:24:44.08 I mean, they came from everywhere 00:24:44.11\00:24:47.69 and out of 14 of us on patrol, 00:24:47.72\00:24:49.86 11 of us was killed. 00:24:49.89\00:24:52.45 All 14 of us was wounded, 00:24:52.48\00:24:54.19 I mean, was hit and I'm one of the three guy that survived, 00:24:54.22\00:24:58.85 I'm in better shape than the other two. 00:24:58.88\00:25:01.68 When I was hit, I was shot through the, 00:25:01.71\00:25:05.05 through the side, 00:25:05.08\00:25:06.91 the bullet came out my bellybutton, 00:25:06.94\00:25:10.28 one bullet went through my left thigh. 00:25:10.31\00:25:13.57 But the devastating part about it, 00:25:13.60\00:25:15.26 when I looked at my hand, my finger was gone. 00:25:15.29\00:25:18.95 Then I felt this warm stuff, 00:25:18.98\00:25:21.45 you know, just on my legs 00:25:21.48\00:25:23.17 that all my guts was blown up 00:25:23.20\00:25:25.92 and I just said oh, my goodness 00:25:25.95\00:25:28.05 this is my last day on earth. 00:25:28.08\00:25:30.71 You know, you could just see the guys all around, 00:25:30.74\00:25:34.95 just fallen and crying 00:25:34.98\00:25:36.34 and crying for their mother and kin. 00:25:36.37\00:25:38.14 These are 19, 20 year old kids, you know. 00:25:38.17\00:25:41.94 I was 19, I got shot. 00:25:41.97\00:25:43.99 Nineteen years old. Nineteen years old. 00:25:44.02\00:25:46.37 Like a child. 00:25:46.40\00:25:47.52 And yet we go and kill, 00:25:47.55\00:25:49.88 but when we came home back in six weeks, 00:25:49.91\00:25:52.45 couldn't buy beer, you couldn't do this, 00:25:52.48\00:25:55.00 you couldn't do that 00:25:55.03\00:25:56.29 but you're old enough to go and kill. 00:25:56.32\00:25:57.52 Right. Right. 00:25:57.55\00:25:58.58 That was one of things 00:25:58.61\00:25:59.65 that was talked about quite frequently. 00:25:59.68\00:26:01.89 Yes. 00:26:01.92\00:26:03.39 You know, that you're old enough to go to the military 00:26:03.42\00:26:05.61 and go fight but you're not own enough 00:26:05.64\00:26:07.39 to come back and vote 00:26:07.42\00:26:08.60 or go to a liquor store or do anything. 00:26:08.63\00:26:11.06 Yeah, couldn't do anything. 00:26:11.09\00:26:12.71 You know, for those who were drinking liquor 00:26:12.74\00:26:14.96 it was just something that they used 00:26:14.99\00:26:17.43 as some type of political ploy 00:26:17.46\00:26:20.57 Well, we only have about two minutes left 00:26:20.60\00:26:22.35 but we'll be right back 00:26:22.38\00:26:23.96 with a little bit more information 00:26:23.99\00:26:25.80 about service and the military. 00:26:25.83\00:26:27.60 Arthur, I wanted to talk about in closing, 00:26:38.33\00:26:40.33 to go back to post-traumatic stress disorder. 00:26:40.36\00:26:42.86 Okay. 00:26:42.89\00:26:43.96 Pastor, let's talk about post-traumatic stress 00:26:43.99\00:26:45.72 and what it's done to the people 00:26:45.75\00:26:47.57 who have come back home. 00:26:47.60\00:26:49.05 Post-traumatic stress is a serious issue 00:26:49.08\00:26:51.03 that America has to deal with 00:26:51.06\00:26:53.71 because you have hundreds of thousands of soldiers. 00:26:53.74\00:26:55.77 It's less than one percent of the population 00:26:55.80\00:26:57.88 but there is hundreds of thousands of soldiers 00:26:57.91\00:26:59.66 that are left to deal and grapple 00:26:59.69\00:27:01.48 with their experience over there. 00:27:01.51\00:27:03.08 Post-traumatic stress is very high. 00:27:03.11\00:27:05.88 I talked to some World War II veterans 00:27:05.91\00:27:07.55 and they say we didn't really had to deal with that too much 00:27:07.58\00:27:09.83 because we were trying to get a job 00:27:09.86\00:27:11.67 but the impact that it's left 00:27:11.70\00:27:14.30 with the soldiers today is really a detoxification. 00:27:14.33\00:27:18.23 How to reestablish relationships, 00:27:18.26\00:27:19.86 how to go back and work in McDonald's, 00:27:19.89\00:27:22.00 mopping floors when you were ruling a world over here? 00:27:22.03\00:27:24.73 And so you have folks 00:27:24.76\00:27:25.93 that are having difficulty in their marriages. 00:27:25.96\00:27:28.49 I heard the other day that 18 soldiers 00:27:28.52\00:27:30.77 a month are committing suicide. 00:27:30.80\00:27:33.15 This is a psychological impact that's left with them 00:27:33.18\00:27:36.01 when they find that there's no other route 00:27:36.04\00:27:38.59 to manage their problems 00:27:38.62\00:27:40.16 and they are checking themselves out on life. 00:27:40.19\00:27:42.19 And as a chaplain, 00:27:42.22\00:27:43.26 it's been my responsibility to educate them. 00:27:43.29\00:27:46.28 When you are dealing with the worst experience 00:27:46.31\00:27:49.40 that you ever thought you could imagine, 00:27:49.43\00:27:52.20 how do you sustain in the worse 00:27:52.23\00:27:55.95 that life has to throw at you? 00:27:55.98\00:27:57.24 And so we try to teach soldiers the methods of survival. 00:27:57.27\00:28:00.24 Okay. Okay. 00:28:00.27\00:28:02.53 Well, I mean, there's so much to talk about and so much-- 00:28:02.56\00:28:06.15 will you come back and be with us again? 00:28:06.18\00:28:07.78 Yes. 00:28:07.81\00:28:08.84 Because, I mean, there's so much more 00:28:08.87\00:28:09.90 we need to talk about. 00:28:09.93\00:28:11.25 Listen, I'm Dr. Kim Logan Nowlin. 00:28:11.28\00:28:13.16 And I'm Arthur Nowlin. 00:28:13.19\00:28:14.22 And thank you for joining us 00:28:14.25\00:28:15.71 on another program of "Making it Work." 00:28:15.74\00:28:18.22