? ?
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>> WILMA RUDOLPH FACED ADVERSITY
FROM THE VERY BEGINNING.
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SHE WAS BORN PREMATURELY, ONLY
WEIGHED FOUR AND A HALF POUNDS.
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THEN HER MOTHER NEEDED TO
NURSE HER THROUGH ONE CHILDHOOD
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ILLNESS AFTER ANOTHER.
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BY THE TIME SHE WAS FOUR
YEARS OLD, SHE CONTRACTED DOUBLE
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PNEUMONIA AND POLIO, LEAVING HER
LEFT LEG SERIOUSLY DEFORMED AND
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PARALYZED.
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THE DOCTOR SAID SHE'D PROBABLY
NEVER WALK AGAIN WITHOUT
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ASSISTANCE.
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BUT WILMA HAD GREAT COURAGE AND
BELIEF THAT GOD HAD A SPECIAL
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PLAN FOR HER
LIFE, SO SHE PERSISTED.
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BY THE TIME SHE WAS SEVEN, THEY
FITTED HER WITH A LEG BRACE SO
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THAT SHE COULD LIMP AROUND.
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SHE SHOCKED THE DOCTORS WHEN TWO
YEARS LATER SHE THREW AWAY HER
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BRACE AND BEGAN TO WALK.
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BY THE TIME SHE WAS
13, SHE WALKED WITH RHYTHM.
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THEN SHE DECIDED
SHE WANTED TO RUN.
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PEOPLE TOLD HER NOT TO TRY
BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT IT'D BE
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PATHETIC.
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FIRST FEW RACES SHE ENTERED,
SHE ALWAYS CAME IN LAST.
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BUT GRADUALLY SHE CREEPED [SIC]
HER WAY UP UNTIL SHE WON HER
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FIRST RACE.
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AND FROM THEN ON SHE WON
EVERY RACE SHE ENTERED...
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ULTIMATELY WINNING THREE
OLYMPIC GOLD MEDALS, RUNNING.
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MAKES YOU WONDER IF WILMA
FACED SO MUCH ADVERSITY AT THE
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BEGINNING BECAUSE GOD HAD A
SPECIAL PLAN FOR HER LIFE AND
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SHE NEEDED THAT.
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YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING, WHAT
IS GOD'S PLAN OR WILL FOR YOUR
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LIFE?
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THAT'S WHY IT'S GOOD
THAT YOU'RE HERE FOR M.I.Q.
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? ? >> HOW CAN
I KNOW THAT GOD IS
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LISTENING?
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>> DID I COME FROM
APES OR PREHISTORIC SLUDGE?
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>> CAN THE BIBLE BE TRUSTED?
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>> WHAT SHOULD
I DO WITH MY LIFE?
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>> COLLEGE?
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>> CARS?
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>> A JOB?
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>> CAN I EVER BE PERFECT?
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>> CAN I MAKE A DIFFERENCE?
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[QUESTIONING
SIMULTANEOUSLY] >> ...OR WHAT?
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>> ANNOUNCER: "M.I.Q.":
YOUR QUESTIONS, GOD'S ANSWERS.
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>> NOW WHAT?
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WHAT DOES GOD WANT
YOU TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
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FIND OUT NEXT.
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JOIN US NOW FOR M.I.Q.
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>> HELLO EVERYBODY, THIS
IS M.I.Q.: MOST IMPORTANT
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QUESTIONS.
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WELCOME TO OUR AUDIENCE HERE IN
CEDAR LAKE, MICHIGAN, AND ALSO
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THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE WATCHING ON
THE VARIOUS TELEVISION CHANNELS,
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AND ALSO THOSE WATCHING ONLINE.
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THANK YOU FOR JOINING US AGAIN.
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AND A SPECIAL WELCOME TO THE
MORE THAN 1,000 REGISTERED SITES
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PARTICIPATING IN THIS LIVE,
INTERACTIVE SEARCH FOR TRUTH.
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AND IF YOU HAVE A BIBLE
QUESTION, WE'D LIKE TO HEAR FROM
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YOU.
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YOU CAN GO TO THE M.I.Q. TEENS
WEBSITE, MIQTEENS.COM, AND YOU
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CAN POST YOUR QUESTION ONLINE,
OR YOU CAN SEND US A TEXT
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MESSAGE.
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THE NUMBER TO SEND YOUR TEXT
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MESSAGE TO IS 760-523-2287.
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NOW FRIENDS, WE HAVE A VERY
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IMPORTANT PROGRAM THIS EVENING.
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I'M JUST DELIGHTED
THAT YOU'RE ALL HERE.
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I'D ALSO LIKE TO REMIND YOU
OF THE RESOURCE THAT WE'VE BEEN
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TALKING ABOUT AT EACH EVENING,
AND THAT IS THE M.I.Q. TEENS
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ANSWER BOOK.
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I HOPE THOSE HERE IN OUR LIVE
AUDIENCE, YOU'VE ALL RECEIVED
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YOUR BOOK.
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AND THOSE WATCHING, YOU CAN GO
TO THE M.I.Q. TEENS WEBSITE, AND
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YOU CAN FIND OUT MORE
ABOUT THIS GREAT RESOURCE.
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IT'S FILLED WITH FASCINATING
FACTS, SCRIPTURE AND ANSWERS
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THAT MAKE SENSE.
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SO GO TO
MIQTEENS.COM TO LEARN MORE.
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WELL, IT'S TIME
FOR OUR THEME SONG.
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I'D LIKE TO INVITE OUR SONG
LEADERS TO PLEASE COME FORWARD.
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IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING THE
SONG, BETHANY WILL BE HAVING OUR
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OPENING PRAYER.
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PLEASE STAND.
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? ? ? WHEN I GAZE UP AT THE
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COUNTLESS STARS ? ?
OR ON AN ENDLESS SEA ?
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? MY MIND MAY
SWIM WITH QUESTIONS ?
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? BEWILDERING TO ME ? ?
BUT THEN I READ THE BIBLE ?
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? AND SEEK YOUR FACE IN PRAYER ?
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? I'M SATISFIED REMEMBERING ?
? YOUR LOVING GRACE AND CARE ?
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? WHATEVER
QUESTIONS I MAY HAVE ?
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? WHETHER GREAT OR SMALL ?
? I KNOW JESUS DIED TO SAVE
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ME ? ? AND THAT HE FORGAVE ME ?
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? JESUS IS THE
ANSWER TO IT ALL ?
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? JESUS IS THE
ANSWER TO IT ALL ?
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? I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS
? ? I WONDER IN MY HEART ?
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? HOW SOMETHING
COMES FROM NOTHING ?
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? WHEN DID FOREVER START ?
? WHY CAN'T I SEE YOUR GLORY ?
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? WHERE IS THE PROMISED LAND ?
? I TRUST THAT YOU WILL LEAD ME
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THERE ? ? IF I
CAN TAKE YOUR HAND ?
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? WHATEVER
QUESTIONS I MAY HAVE ?
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? WHETHER GREAT OR SMALL ?
? I KNOW JESUS DIED TO SAVE
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ME ? ? AND THAT HE FORGAVE ME ?
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? JESUS IS THE
ANSWER TO IT ALL ?
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? JESUS IS THE
ANSWER TO IT ALL ?
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>> DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER,
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS
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OPPORTUNITY TO BE HERE
AND TO LEARN MORE ABOUT YOU.
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR
SENDING YOUR SON TO DIE FOR US.
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AND I PRAY THAT YOU WILL SEND
YOUR HOLY SPIRIT TO BE WITH US
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IN THIS MEETING.
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PLEASE BE WITH PASTOR DOUG
AS HE PREACHES AND JUST GIVE HIM
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WORDS TO SPEAK.
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WE THANK YOU SO MUCH.
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IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.
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? ? >> PASTOR DOUG: AMEN.
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HEY, YOU KNOW, I SAW
SOMETHING EXCITING TODAY.
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SOMEONE BACK AT THE AMAZING
FACTS OFFICE SENT US AN EMAIL
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WITH SOME STATISTICS.
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I DON'T KNOW IF YOU GOT THAT,
BUT IT HAD -- THE QUESTIONS THAT
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WERE COMING IN, WHERE THEY'RE
COMING FROM, AND I NEVER GOT TO
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THE BOTTOM OF THE LIST.
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BUT IT'S ALL OVER THE WORLD:
AUSTRALIA, AND CANADA, AND
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NEW GUINEA, SOUTH AFRICA.
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JUST EVERYWHERE.
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KOREA.
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AND OF COURSE, MOST OF
THESE PLACES THERE'S AN
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ENGLISH-SPEAKING POPULATION, BUT
WE WANNA WELCOME OUR FRIENDS WHO
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ARE WATCHING ALL OVER THE
WORLD FOR THE MOST IMPORTANT
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QUESTIONS.
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WE'RE DEALING WITH SOME OF
THE PERTINENT AMAZING FACTS FOR
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TEENS.
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AND WE'RE VERY
GLAD THAT YOU'RE HERE.
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WE HAVE A LOT TO
COVER TONIGHT, SO...
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>> ALRIGHT, WELL, LET'S GET TO
OUR QUESTIONS FOR THIS EVENING.
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AND I THINK WE'RE
READY FOR THE FIRST ONE.
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>> HEY, MY NAME'S BRANDON, AND
MY QUESTION IS, IS IT OKAY TO
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GET A MEMORIAL TATTOO OF
SOMEONE THAT JUST PASSED AWAY?
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>> WELL, I THINK I CAN
UNDERSTAND THE HEART OF THIS
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QUESTION.
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THOSE OF YOU WHO WATCHED
AN EARLIER PROGRAM, WE GOT A
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QUESTION ABOUT TATTOOS.
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WE SHOWED YOU THAT VERSE IN
LEVITICUS WHERE IT SAYS THAT YOU
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SHOULDN'T MAKE ANY CUTTINGS
IN YOUR FLESH OR BE TATTOOED FOR
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GOD SAYS, "I AM HOLY."
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OUR BODIES ARE THE
TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.
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WELL, WHAT IF THE TATTOO HAS
SOME AFFECTIONATE IDEA BEHIND
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IT?
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OR IT'S TO REMEMBER SOMEBODY?
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OR IF IT'S
SOMEBODY THAT YOU LOVE?
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OR IF YOU PUT -- YOU
KNOW, A LOT OF SAILORS PUT,
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"MOM."
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I MEAN, IS IT OKAY TO
TATTOO "MOM" WITH A HEART?
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WELL, YOU KNOW, IF THE LORD SAYS
DON'T DO SOMETHING, THEN YOU
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DON'T DO IT.
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THERE'S A LOT OF EXAMPLES WHERE
PEOPLE THINK, "WELL, BUT CAN'T
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YOU SANCTIFY IT
AND THEN MAKE IT OKAY?"
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GOD SAYS YOUR BODIES ARE
THE TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.
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THERE'S A THOUSAND WAYS TO
SHOW YOUR LOVE FOR PEOPLE, YOUR
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RESPECT FOR PEOPLE OR TO
MEMORIALIZE SOMEBODY OTHER THAN
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STABBING INK UNDER YOUR SKINS.
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SO IF GOD SAYS DON'T DO
IT; THAT DOESN'T CHANGE.
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>> ALRIGHT, WELL PASTOR DOUG,
WE HAVE A QUESTION THAT CAME IN
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FROM, I BELIEVE, WEST VIRGINIA.
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WE'LL TAKE A LOOK AT THAT NOW.
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? ?
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>> ANOTHER GOOD QUESTION.
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WELL, OF COURSE, JESUS SAID VERY
PLAINLY TO HIS DISCIPLES, "I'M
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GOING TO BE BETRAYED, I'M GONNA
BE BEATEN, I'LL BE MISTREATED,
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I'LL BE CRUCIFIED AND
I'LL RISE THE THIRD DAY."
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WELL, WHEN JESUS WAS ON THE
CROSS AND THE FATHER WITHDREW
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HIS PRESENCE FROM JESUS, THEN,
I BELIEVE, THAT THE LORD FELT
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THAT THE WEIGHT OF SIN WAS
SO AWFUL HE MAY HAVE HAD MOMENTS
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WHERE HE WAS WONDERING, "HOW
COULD I EVER BE RECONCILED TO A
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HOLY GOD?"
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OF COURSE, HIS FINAL
WORDS ON THE CROSS WERE THOSE OF
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VICTORY -- "FATHER, INTO YOUR
HANDS I COMMAND MY SPIRIT" --
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AND WORDS OF FAITH.
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BUT IT WAS A TREMENDOUS STRUGGLE
FOR JESUS AND THE FATHER TO BE
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SEPARATED FOR THE
FIRST TIME IN ETERNITY.
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AND SO IT WAS A TREMENDOUS
SACRIFICE ALSO FOR HIM TO SUFFER
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THE WAY HE DID.
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KEEP IN MIND JESUS DID NOT
SUFFER LIKE YOU AND I SUFFER.
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HE WAS SUFFERING FOR
THE SINS OF THE WHOLE WORLD.
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HE DIDN'T SUFFER AS A
MAN; HE SUFFERED AS GOD WHO HAD
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BECOME MAN.
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SO YOU AND I CANNOT EVEN
COMPREHEND WHAT JESUS WENT
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THROUGH.
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I DON'T KNOW TOO MANY PEOPLE
THAT PERSPIRE BLOOD, BUT THE
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AGONY OF WHAT HE WENT THROUGH
AND JUST THE WEIGHT OF THE SINS
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AND THE SEPARATION FROM THE
FATHER WAS, I THINK, THE MOST
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PAINFUL FOR HIM.
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>> ALL RIGHT, WELL, I
THINK WE'RE READY FOR THE NEXT
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QUESTION.
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>> HI, MY NAME IS DELANEY.
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MY QUESTION IS, HOW DO WE FIGURE
OUT THE BALANCE OF OUR LIVES?
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WHERE DO WE FIT GOD IN WITH OUR
SOCIAL LIFE AND OUR SCHOOL LIFE
00:10:03.93\00:10:06.43
AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS GOING
ON AND MAKE IT HEALTHY FOR US?
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>> GOOD QUESTION.
00:10:11.96\00:10:13.56
HOW DO WE FIT GOD INTO
OUR LIVES WHEN, ESPECIALLY --
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WE ARE LIVING IN THE BUSIEST
AGE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD.
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THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON.
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THERE'S SO MUCH STRESS.
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SO MANY THINGS THAT
CAN DISTRACT OUR ATTENTION.
00:10:22.93\00:10:25.23
HOW DO YOU FIT GOD IN?
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HAVE YOU SEEN THE ILLUSTRATION
BEFORE WHERE A PERSON TAKES A
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JAR AND THEY'VE GOT ALL THESE
ROCKS, AND GRAVEL AND SAND?
00:10:29.53\00:10:33.96
AND IF YOU PUT IN THE SAND AND
THE GRAVEL FIRST, YOU'LL NEVER
00:10:33.96\00:10:37.50
GET THE BIG ROCKS IN.
00:10:37.50\00:10:39.16
YOU GOTTA PUT THE BIG ROCKS IN
FIRST, AND THEN YOU CAN PUT IN
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THE SAND AND GRAVEL
AND SHAKE THEM DOWN.
00:10:42.16\00:10:44.73
THE IDEA IS NOT, WHERE DO WE
MANAGE TO SHAKE AND SQUEEZE GOD
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INTO OUR LIVES?
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THAT'S A COMMON
MISTAKE PEOPLE MAKE.
00:10:50.36\00:10:52.56
HOW DO WE FIT GOD IN?
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I'D LIKE TO SUGGEST YOU START
WITH GOD AT THE FOUNDATION, THAT
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HE IS THE FIRST
THING YOU PUT IN.
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AND THEN YOU SAY, "WHERE
DO I FIT IN THE OTHER THINGS?"
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SEE, GOD NEEDS TO BE JUST
SATURATED IN EVERY FIBER OF OUR
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LIVES.
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DANIEL'S A GREAT
EXAMPLE IN THE BIBLE.
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KING DAVID, PSALM 55 HE SAID,
"MORNING, EVENING AND AT NOON
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WILL I PRAY."
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AND SO THEY JUST SPENT THEIR
LIVES WALKING WITH THE LORD.
00:11:15.80\00:11:19.13
YOU KNOW, THAT'S THE KEY:
IS WHEN WE LEARN TO HAVE SUCH A
00:11:19.13\00:11:21.96
CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH
THE LORD, IT'S NOT LIKE, "OKAY,
00:11:21.96\00:11:24.20
WELL, DO I HAVE TIME TO SQUEEZE
GOD IN THIS DAY OF THE WEEK?"
00:11:24.20\00:11:27.70
OR "CAN I TAKE A FEW
MINUTES THIS DAY FOR PRAYER?"
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IT'S HAVING AN ATTITUDE OF BEING
IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD, THAT
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JESUS IS HERE NOW.
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HE'S ALWAYS WITH YOU.
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AND THAT'S SOMETHING YOU SHOULD
NURTURE, AND IT GETS BETTER WITH
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PRACTICE.
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PRACTICE LEARNING THAT GOD
IS ALWAYS THERE AND WALKING WITH
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HIM.
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ENOCH WALKED WITH GOD;
GOD TOOK HIM TO HEAVEN.
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NOAH WALKED WITH GOD.
00:11:48.80\00:11:50.16
THE LORD'S LOOKING FOR ANOTHER
GENERATION THAT WILL WALK WITH
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HIM.
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>> WELL, THANK YOU, PASTOR DOUG.
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I THINK WE HAVE
ONE MORE QUESTION.
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>> HI, I'M SAM.
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MY QUESTION FOR DOUG BATCHELOR
IS HOW DO I KNOW WHAT GOD WANTS
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ME TO DO WITH MY LIFE?
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>> PASTOR DOUG:
THAT IS A GREAT QUESTION.
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IF IT'S OKAY, I'M GONNA USE
THAT QUESTION TO SEGUE INTO OUR
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PRESENTATION FOR TONIGHT.
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BECAUSE TONIGHT'S LESSON IS
DEALING THE SUBJECT OF THE WILL
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OF GOD.
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AND SO, THANK YOU VERY
MUCH FOR YOUR QUESTIONS.
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WANNA REMIND THEM OF
THE WEBSITE ONE MORE TIME?
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>> THE WEBSITE IS MIQTEENS.COM,
OR YOU CAN SEND US YOUR TEXT
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QUESTIONS AT 760-523-2287.
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THANK YOU, PASTOR DOUG.
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>> THANK YOU, PASTOR ROSS.
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I JUST DATED MYSELF.
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I SAID THE FAX NUMBER
INSTEAD OF THE TEXT NUMBER.
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TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT
FROM EVERY OTHER NIGHT IN THAT
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WE HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH OUR
MOST IMPORTANT QUESTION ANSWER
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BOOK.
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AND TONIGHT THERE IS A SUBJECT
THAT SPECIFICALLY DEALS WITH,
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"HOW DO I KNOW
GOD'S WILL FOR MY LIFE?"
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I'D LIKE TO RECOMMEND THAT
EVERYBODY LOOKS AT THIS BECAUSE
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IN THIS LESSON, WE TAKE YOU
THROUGH A SERIES OF BIBLICAL
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STEPS ON HOW YOU CAN DETERMINE
GOD'S WILL FOR YOUR LIFE.
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AND FIRST OF ALL, HIS WORD,
CHRISTIAN COUNSEL, PRAY FOR
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THE GUIDANCE OF HIS SPIRIT, LOOK
FOR PROVIDENTIAL OPENINGS, GOD
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WILL OPEN DOORS, FIND
OUT WHAT YOUR GIFTS ARE.
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AND SO, THERE IS A NUMBER
OF STEPS IN THERE, AND I JUST
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WANTED TO BRIEFLY TOUCH ON THAT.
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NOW, TONIGHT I'M GOING TO
DO SOMETHING THAT IS A LITTLE
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DIFFERENT IN THAT I'M GONNA
SHARE WITH YOU MY PERSONAL STORY
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IN HOW I BECAME A CHRISTIAN
AND JUST THE JOURNEY THE LORD
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BROUGHT ME ON, AND I HOPE
YOU'LL PRAY FOR ME AS I DO.
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BECAUSE WHENEVER YOU DO THIS,
WHERE YOU TAKE SOME TIME AND
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TALK ABOUT YOURSELF, THERE'S
ALWAYS THE RISK THAT YOU'LL BE
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LIFTING UP OR
GLORIFYING YOURSELF.
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THAT'S ALWAYS SO
NATURAL TO DO THAT.
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ALWAYS KIND OF MAKE
THINGS BIGGER THAN LIFE.
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IT'S LIKE THE NINE-YEAR-OLD
GIRL THAT DID A BOOK REPORT ON
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ABRAHAM LINCOLN AND SHE WANTED
TO MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION.
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SO WHEN SHE STOOD BEFORE
THE CLASS TO INTRODUCE HER BOOK
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REPORT SHE SAID, "ABRAHAM
LINCOLN WAS BORN AT A VERY EARLY
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AGE IN A LOG CABIN HE
BUILT WITH HIS OWN HANDS."
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AND SO THINGS CAN
KINDA GET BIGGER THAN LIFE.
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AND I'D LIKE TO
BEGIN WITH A SCRIPTURE.
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AND THIS IS
FOUND IN 1 PETER 2:9.
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THE BIBLE SAYS, "YOU ARE
A CHOSEN GENERATION, A ROYAL
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PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION."
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HIS OWN SPECIAL PEOPLE.
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"THAT YOU SHOULD PROCLAIM THE
PRAISES OF HIM WHO CALLED YOU
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OUT OF DARKNESS INTO
HIS MARVELOUS LIGHT."
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AND I JUST LIKE TO
BEGIN BY THANKING THE LORD.
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HE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME AND
CALLED ME OUT OF GREAT DARKNESS
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INTO HIS MARVELOUS LIGHT.
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AND HE HAS A SPECIAL
PLAN FOR EVERYBODY'S LIFE.
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I BELIEVE HE'S KNOCKING
ON THE DOORS OF EVERY PERSON.
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NOW, MANY PEOPLE THINK --
OH, AND BY THE WAY, THE STORY
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THAT I'M SHARING I'M JUST GONNA
CONDENSE WHAT'S FOUND IN THE
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BOOK.
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SOME OF YOU HAVE MAYBE HEARD
ABOUT THE THE RICHEST CAVEMAN
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BOOK.
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AND WE'RE JUST VERY PLEASED:
IT'S IN ABOUT, I THINK 13, 14
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LANGUAGES RIGHT NOW, AND GOD HAS
REALLY BLESSED THE TESTIMONY.
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AND WE PRAISE HIM FOR THAT.
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BUT I'M JUST GONNA HAVE ABOUT
40 MINUTES TO SHARE WITH YOU A
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SUMMARY OF WHAT
THE LORD HAS DONE.
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BY THE WAY, THE TESTIMONY'S NOT
OVER YET; I'M STILL LIVING IT,
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AND I HOPE THERE'S MORE TO COME.
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EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE HAPPY.
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AND PEOPLE ARE LOOKING FOR
HAPPINESS IN MANY DIFFERENT
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PLACES.
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YOU KNOW, MUCH OF THE WORLD
THINKS THAT HAPPINESS COMES FROM
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FAME AND FORTUNE.
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"IF I COULD HAVE
MORE MONEY, I'D BE HAPPY.
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IF I COULD BE MORE POPULAR,
BETTER LOOKING, I'D BE HAPPY."
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AND GOD PLACED ME IN A VERY
INTERESTING FAMILY WHERE I SAW
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FIRSTHAND THIS IS JUST NOT TRUE.
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UNUSUAL PARENTS.
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MY MOTHER AND FATHER
WERE DIAMETRIC OPPOSITES.
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THIS IS ONE OF THE PROBABLY BEST
PICTURES I'VE GOT OF MOM AND
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DAD.
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HE WAS A
REPUBLICAN; SHE WAS A DEMOCRAT.
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HE WAS A REDNECK; SHE
WAS BORN IN NEW YORK CITY.
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JUST TOTALLY OPPOSITE.
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SHE WAS A WOMEN'S LIBBER; HE
WANTED A WIFE THAT WOULD STAY
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HOME AND JUST COOK.
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AND IT WAS AMAZING THEY
EVER GOT TOGETHER, BUT THEY DID.
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AND MAYBE I'LL TALK
ABOUT DAD FIRST TO START WITH.
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HE WAS BORN IN OKLAHOMA.
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LIVED THERE
DURING THE DEPRESSION.
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WAS VERY POOR WHEN HE WAS YOUNG.
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AND SOME OF YOU HEARD
ABOUT THE DUST BOWL TIMES.
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HIS FATHER DIED WHEN HE WAS
SEVEN YEARS OLD, LEAVING HIM
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WITH THREE YOUNGER BROTHERS
DURING THE DEPRESSION, AND HE
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LEARNED TO WORK VERY HARD.
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CAME TO CALIFORNIA LOOKING FOR
WORK, ENDED UP LEARNING HOW TO
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FLY, BECAME AN AVIATOR AND
THEN WORLD WAR II BROKE OUT.
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THEN HE BECAME A PILOT DURING
WORLD WAR II AND A CAPTAIN.
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HE WAS THERE D-DAY AND
THAT'S ANOTHER WHOLE STORY.
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BUT AFTER THE WAR, HE
BEGAN TO BUY AND SELL AIRPLANES.
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AND HE'S A VERY SHREWD
BUSINESSMAN AND STARTED MAKING A
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LOT OF MONEY AND BECAME A
VERY SUCCESSFUL EXECUTIVE.
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EVENTUALLY HAD HIS OWN
COMPANIES, LEASING COMPANIES.
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THIS ONE SAYS, "AIRLINE
EXECUTIVE, DECEMBER, 1981."
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MADE MILLIONS OF DOLLARS.
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AT ONE POINT, HE
OWNED TWO AIRLINES.
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HE WAS FRIENDS WITH HOWARD
HUGHES, KIRK KERKORIAN, WHO
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OWNED THE -- WELL,
HE OWNED CHRYSLER FOR A
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WHILE, M.G.M. GRAND
AND SOME OTHER THINGS.
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HERE'S A NEWSPAPER CLIPPING:
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HE STARTED -- I
WAS BORN IN BURBANK.
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HE STARTED IN CALIFORNIA
AND THEN HE MOVED OUT TO MIAMI,
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FLORIDA FOR THE INTERNATIONAL
BASE THAT WAS DEVELOPING AND
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DOWN TO SOUTH AMERICA.
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AND HE LIKED TO
LIVE IN THE FAST LANE.
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DAD RACED CARS.
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HE HAD HIS OWN RACECARS.
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HE'D GO OUT RACING AND
HE KNEW THE VARIOUS RACERS.
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THIS IS WHEN HE WAS MUCH OLDER.
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HE HAD ALL THE TOYS
THAT MILLIONAIRES HAVE.
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WE HAD A HOUSE
RIGHT ON THE WATER.
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WE HAD A YACHT IN THE BACKYARD.
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OF COURSE MY NAME IS BATCHELOR,
SO HE NAMED THE YACHT THE
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BATCHELOR PARTY, WHICH
WOULD SEEM APPROPRIATE.
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AND I JUST THREW THIS IN BECAUSE
THIS IS ACTUALLY PHOTOGRAPHED
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INSIDE THE LIVING ROOM.
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IT WAS REALLY NICE.
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AND WE LIVED ON AN ISLAND, WELL,
AT LEAST WHEN I LIVED WITH DAD.
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THIS IS A GOOGLE PICTURE.
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I ADDED THIS RECENTLY.
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THESE ARE CALLED THE
SUNSET ISLANDS IN MIAMI BEACH.
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THAT TOP ISLAND THERE WAS SUNSET
ISLAND NUMBER ONE, AND DAD
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LIVED AT THE TOP OF IT.
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WE LIVED RIGHT ON
THE BAY THERE IN MIAMI.
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AND WE HAD THREE
BOATS IN OUR BACKYARD.
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AND SO, DAD HAD A LOT OF MONEY.
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AND HAD A LEARJET.
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HERE'S ONE
PICTURE I SNAPPED OF --
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BELIEVE IT OR NOT, THAT'S ME.
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HAVEN'T CHANGED A BIT, HAVE I?
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AND THAT'S MY STEPMOTHER.
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THAT WAS DAD'S
WIFE NUMBER THREE.
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SHE USED TO BE MISS KENTUCKY.
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VERY NICE LADY.
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SO DAD HAD ALL THE TOYS.
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HE HAD A LOT OF MONEY.
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HE KNEW THE PRESIDENTS.
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AND HAPPINESS DOES NOT COME
FROM THE ABUNDANCE OF THINGS
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THAT YOU POSSESS.
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NOW, JUST TO GIVE YOU A LITTLE
IDEA OF WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT I
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THINK MOST OF YOU KNOW THIS
NEXT PERSON I'M GONNA PUT ON THE
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SCREEN.
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SOME OF YOU KNOW A FEW YEARS AGO
DONALD DIVORCED, I THINK IT WAS
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WIFE NUMBER TWO, IVANA.
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AND BECAUSE SHE HAD SIGNED A
PRENUPTIAL AGREEMENT, SHE ONLY
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GOT $14 MILLION.
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WELL, WHEN BETTY DIVORCED MY
DAD, BECAUSE SHE HAD SIGNED A
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PRENUPTIAL AGREEMENT,
SHE ONLY GOT $17 MILLION.
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IT WAS THE LARGEST DIVORCE
SETTLEMENT IN FLORIDA'S HISTORY.
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AND SO, HE HAD A LOT OF MONEY.
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AND WHEN I WAS WITH DAD
WE WERE EXPOSED TO ALL THAT.
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HAPPINESS DOES
NOT COME FROM MONEY.
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HE WAS SUCCESSFUL IN BUSINESS.
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HERE'S A PAPER FROM -- THIS
IS FRONT PAGE OF MIAMI HERALD
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BUSINESS SECTION, 1992.
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AND YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO READ
THAT; I'LL TRY AND READ IT TO
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YOU.
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"AT 71, AVIATION PIONEER
GEORGE BATCHELOR ISN'T READY TO
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DESCEND.
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HE RUNS ONE OF MIAMI'S
MOST SUCCESSFUL BUSINESSES.
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HE PILOTS JETS, RACES CARS,
WATER SKIS, AND IS SOON TO WED
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A BRIDE, AGE 29."
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AND HE WAS 71.
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I'LL TELL YOU, IT WAS
REALLY STRANGE IN OUR HOME.
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I MEAN, HERE WE ALREADY
HAD A WHOLE LITTER OF KIDS.
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AND JUST THINK
ABOUT THIS FOR A SECOND.
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NOW, MY WIFE'S SIX
YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME.
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MY FATHER, WHEN HE MARRIED WIFE
NUMBER FOUR -- AND THAT WASN'T
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THE LAST OF IT -- MY FATHER'S
MOTHER-IN-LAW WAS YOUNGER THAN
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ME.
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AND HE WAS 71.
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MY STEPMOTHER WAS
YOUNGER THAN MY WIFE.
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AND SHE HAD A
BROTHER WHO WAS 11.
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SO HERE MY FATHER IS 71, HE'S
GOT A BROTHER-IN-LAW THAT'S 11.
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I TELL YOU, IT WAS REALLY WEIRD.
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[LAUGHTER] AND I'M
SURE SHE MARRIED HIM FOR
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HIS GOOD LOOKS AND
HIS WINNING DISPOSITION.
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[LAUGHTER]
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SORRY TO BE CYNICAL.
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AND THIS IS THE INSIDE PART
OF THAT STORY, MIAMI HERALD, "AT
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71, BATCHELOR GOING ON 16."
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SO THAT JUST HELPS YOU
UNDERSTAND AT LEAST HALF OF MY
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D.N.A.
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AND HERE'S A PICTURE THAT I'VE
GOT -- I THINK THIS IS ONE OF
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THE ONLY PICTURES I'VE GOT.
00:21:06.33\00:21:07.16
THAT'S MY BROTHER
FALCON, ON THE LEFT.
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MY DAD NAMED US AFTER AIRPLANES.
00:21:09.60\00:21:12.00
I WAS NAMED "DOUGLAS," AFTER THE
D.C. CRAFT, McDONNELL DOUGLAS',
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D.C. CRAFT.
00:21:15.66\00:21:17.03
AND MY POOR
BROTHER WAS NAMED FALCON.
00:21:17.03\00:21:18.80
CAN YOU IMAGINE GROWING UP WITH
THE NAME "FALCON BATCHELOR?"
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HE REALLY GOT TEASED A LOT.
00:21:20.93\00:21:22.73
HE HAD CYSTIC FIBROSIS
AND SO HE REALLY STRUGGLED.
00:21:22.73\00:21:25.06
HE HAD FLAMING RED HAIR.
00:21:25.06\00:21:26.86
I DIDN'T HAVE ANY HAIR, HE
HAD FRECKLES AND BROWN EYES.
00:21:26.86\00:21:29.00
I HAVE BLUE EYES.
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THE SAME MOM AND DAD; JUST
WE DIDN'T LOOK A LOT ALIKE.
00:21:29.66\00:21:33.10
THAT WAS HIS WIFE SANDY, AND
THAT'S MY DAD, WHO I THINK HAD
00:21:33.10\00:21:36.56
ALREADY STARTED DRINKING AT THAT
POINT, AND THAT WAS WIFE NUMBER
00:21:36.56\00:21:39.60
FOUR THERE.
00:21:39.60\00:21:41.06
AND SHE DID HAVE CONNECTIONS
THOUGH, BECAUSE SHE MANAGED TO
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GET DAD IN TO VISIT WITH
POPE JOHN PAUL THE SECOND.
00:21:44.43\00:21:47.23
AND IF YOU'RE WILLING TO MAKE A
TWO MILLION-DOLLAR DONATION, YOU
00:21:47.23\00:21:50.73
CAN GET A PICTURE
WITH THE POPE ALSO.
00:21:50.73\00:21:53.83
SO, YOU KNOW, HE KNEW THE
DIFFERENT PEOPLE AND HE HAD A
00:21:53.83\00:21:57.00
LOT OF MONEY.
00:21:57.00\00:21:58.10
BUT HE WASN'T VERY HAPPY.
00:21:58.10\00:22:00.26
MATTER OF FACT, HE WOULD DRINK
HIMSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT.
00:22:00.26\00:22:03.13
HERE'S A PICTURE OF KAREN.
00:22:03.13\00:22:04.53
AND THAT WAS THE SAME DAY THAT
WE TOOK THAT FORMER PICTURE WITH
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MY BROTHER.
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MY DAD JUST HAD SO MUCH
STRESS FROM HIS WORK, KAREN'S A
00:22:08.70\00:22:11.86
PHYSICAL THERAPIST AND SHE WAS
TRYING TO WORK SOME OF THE KNOTS
00:22:11.86\00:22:14.30
OUT FOR DAD.
00:22:14.30\00:22:15.33
BUT MONEY DOESN'T MAKE A VERY
GOOD FOUNDATION FOR YOUR LIFE.
00:22:15.33\00:22:20.20
EVEN THOUGH HE HAD THE YACHT,
THE ROLLS ROYCE AND THE JET AND
00:22:20.20\00:22:25.83
ALL THE MONEY, HE DRANK HIMSELF
TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT, AND I SAW
00:22:25.83\00:22:29.10
THAT.
00:22:29.10\00:22:29.96
AND HE WAS WORK, WORK, WORK.
00:22:29.96\00:22:31.06
HE NEVER HAD
TIME FOR THE FAMILY.
00:22:31.06\00:22:33.33
NOW, ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE
COIN THEN, YOU'VE GOT MY MOM.
00:22:33.33\00:22:37.76
AND MOM WAS VERY
DIFFERENT FROM DAD.
00:22:37.76\00:22:41.33
MOM WAS FROM A JEWISH
BACKGROUND; DAD WAS FROM A
00:22:41.33\00:22:44.13
BAPTIST BACKGROUND.
00:22:44.13\00:22:45.46
THEY BOTH PRETTY MUCH WERE
ATHEIST OR AGNOSTIC BY THE TIME
00:22:45.46\00:22:48.16
THEY MET.
00:22:48.16\00:22:49.30
AND, THAT'S A PICTURE OF
MY MOM AND MY BROTHER AND I.
00:22:49.30\00:22:53.63
AND MOM WAS VERY TALENTED.
00:22:53.63\00:22:55.83
EVEN THOUGH SHE DIDN'T HAVE
A LOT OF FORMAL EDUCATION, SHE
00:22:55.83\00:22:59.16
USED TO WRITE SONGS AND
SHE COULD SING AND SHE TAUGHT
00:22:59.16\00:23:02.66
HERSELF TO PLAY A
COUPLE OF INSTRUMENTS.
00:23:02.66\00:23:04.36
AND SHE BEGAN WRITING SONGS AT
18 OR 19 FOR SOME FAMOUS PEOPLE.
00:23:04.36\00:23:08.63
SHE USED TO WRITE FOR ELVIS
PRESLEY AND SHE WOULD WRITE, SHE
00:23:08.63\00:23:12.80
WROTE SONGS FOR FRANK SINATRA,
AND SHE BEGAN TO GET INVOLVED IN
00:23:12.80\00:23:15.50
SHOW BUSINESS.
00:23:15.50\00:23:16.26
SHE WAS A SMALL PART ACTRESS,
BUT PROBABLY HER GREATEST
00:23:16.26\00:23:19.20
SUCCESS CAME, SHE WAS EVEN IN
THE MOVIE THE TEN COMMANDMENTS.
00:23:19.20\00:23:22.93
LITTLE PART.
00:23:22.93\00:23:23.70
YOU GOTTA GO, "THERE'S MOM!"
00:23:23.70\00:23:25.20
KIDS ALWAYS SAY,
"WHERE'S GRANDMA?"
00:23:25.20\00:23:26.93
"THERE SHE IS."
00:23:26.93\00:23:28.63
BUT MOST OF WHAT SHE DID WAS NOT
ONLY WRITING SONGS AND HOSTING
00:23:28.63\00:23:32.86
PROGRAMS, SHE
WAS THE FILM CRITIC.
00:23:32.86\00:23:35.16
SHE WAS THE PRESIDENT OF
THE FILM CRITICS ASSOCIATION IN
00:23:35.16\00:23:38.03
BEVERLY HILLS, AND SHE ALSO WAS
THE FILM CRITIC FOR GOOD MORNING
00:23:38.03\00:23:42.20
AMERICA.
00:23:42.20\00:23:43.13
AND IT GAVE YOU A LOT OF POWER.
00:23:43.13\00:23:45.53
AND SHE KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE
IN HOLLYWOOD AND THEY KNEW HER.
00:23:45.53\00:23:49.80
BECAUSE IF YOU SAY A MOVIE IS
SUCCESSFUL, THE STUDIOS MAKE A
00:23:49.80\00:23:53.40
LOT OF MONEY.
00:23:53.40\00:23:54.56
IF YOU SAY, IN WRITING, THE
MOVIE IS JUST NOT ANY GOOD, THEY
00:23:54.56\00:23:57.23
LOSE MILLIONS.
00:23:57.23\00:23:58.36
AND SO THEY WERE VERY AFRAID
OF MOM, AND THEY WOULD SEND HER
00:23:58.36\00:24:00.93
GIFTS AND FREE TRIPS AND FREE
RESTAURANTS AND MOM KNEW HOW TO
00:24:00.93\00:24:06.30
EXPLOIT THAT ALL TOO.
00:24:06.30\00:24:07.86
AND I'VE JUST GOTTA, I
TELL PEOPLE THIS AND I THOUGHT,
00:24:07.86\00:24:10.46
"WELL, I BETTER THROW SOME
PICTURES IN," SO HERE'S A COUPLE
00:24:10.46\00:24:12.26
OF QUICK PICTURES OF SOME
PEOPLE YOU MAY... RECOGNIZE.
00:24:12.26\00:24:16.00
HERE'S MOM AND
MOHAMMED ALI IN YOUNGER DAYS.
00:24:16.00\00:24:19.40
MATTER OF FACT, MOST OF THESE
PICTURES ABOUT 25 YEARS OLD.
00:24:19.40\00:24:22.20
HERE'S MOM WITH A
YOUNGER SYLVESTER STALLONE.
00:24:22.20\00:24:25.36
THE NEXT ONE IS ONE OF MY
FAVORITES BECAUSE I WAS THERE
00:24:25.36\00:24:28.00
THAT DAY, IS MOM
WITH THE THREE STOOGES.
00:24:28.00\00:24:30.73
NOW, THAT'S THE ORIGINAL MOE AND
LARRY ON THE RIGHT, AND THEY HAD
00:24:30.73\00:24:33.06
A SUBSTITUTE CURLY THAT
FILLED IN FOR A PROGRAM.
00:24:33.06\00:24:36.43
MOM WROTE A MUSICAL THAT WAS ON.
00:24:36.43\00:24:38.80
AND THEN, WHAT DO WE GOT NEXT?
00:24:38.80\00:24:39.83
MOM, I THINK,
WITH JIMMY STEWART.
00:24:39.83\00:24:41.73
SOME OF YOU
REMEMBER THAT FAMED ACTOR.
00:24:41.73\00:24:44.16
HERE'S A PICTURE OF MOM
HAVING DINNER WITH BOB HOPE.
00:24:44.16\00:24:46.83
AND WE PUT ALL THESE JUST IN
BLACK AND WHITE TO KIND OF MAKE
00:24:46.83\00:24:50.20
THEM FIT.
00:24:50.20\00:24:51.23
NOW, SHE'S STILL
ACTING TODAY, I BELIEVE.
00:24:51.23\00:24:53.43
THIS IS A PICTURE OF
MOM WITH SALLY FIELD.
00:24:53.43\00:24:56.36
I THINK MOST OF US KNOW
THE DIRECTOR AND ACTOR, CLINT
00:24:56.36\00:24:59.36
EASTWOOD.
00:24:59.36\00:25:01.76
AND -- NOW, I DIDN'T
KNOW ALL THESE PEOPLE.
00:25:01.76\00:25:04.00
WE KNEW SOME OF THEM.
00:25:04.00\00:25:05.20
SOME OF THEM WERE ACADEMY AWARD
WINNERS THAT WOULD COME OVER TO
00:25:05.20\00:25:07.13
OUR HOUSE.
00:25:07.13\00:25:07.60
HERE'S MOM WITH PAUL NEWMAN.
00:25:07.60\00:25:09.23
AND PAUL ALSO RACED CARS.
00:25:09.23\00:25:10.93
I THINK DAD KNEW HIM.
00:25:10.93\00:25:12.10
AND HERE'S MOM
WITH DUSTIN HOFFMAN.
00:25:12.10\00:25:14.30
AND SO, SHE KNEW ALL THESE
PEOPLE IN HOLLYWOOD, BUT YOU
00:25:14.30\00:25:17.66
KNOW, WHEN MOM FINALLY GOT HER
FINAL ILLNESS, AND WE WENT TO
00:25:17.66\00:25:22.66
SEE HER AT THE HOSPITAL...
00:25:22.66\00:25:24.13
NOBODY WAS THERE BUT KAREN
AND I AND GRANDMA AND GRANDPA.
00:25:24.13\00:25:28.10
PEOPLE JUST, IT WAS SO SHALLOW,
IT WAS SUCH AN ARTIFICIAL WORLD
00:25:28.10\00:25:31.43
AND BASICALLY, SHE DIED ALONE.
00:25:31.43\00:25:34.43
PEOPLE DON'T CARE.
00:25:34.43\00:25:35.46
FAME IS SO FLEETING, AND
IT'S SUCH A CUTTHROAT INDUSTRY.
00:25:35.46\00:25:39.26
WELL, I GREW UP SURROUNDED
BY THAT AND I COULD QUICKLY SEE
00:25:39.26\00:25:42.93
PEOPLE WEREN'T HAPPY.
00:25:42.93\00:25:43.76
FAME DIDN'T BRING HAPPINESS.
00:25:43.76\00:25:46.26
MONEY DIDN'T BRING HAPPINESS.
00:25:46.26\00:25:47.63
AND I BEGAN TO WONDER, "WHERE
DOES HAPPINESS COME FROM?"
00:25:47.63\00:25:50.46
SO I STARTED SEARCHING.
00:25:50.46\00:25:51.73
NOW, YOU KNOW, I WAS BORN IN
BURBANK BUT MOVED TO NEW YORK
00:25:51.73\00:25:56.26
CITY, AND
THAT'S WHERE I GREW UP.
00:25:56.26\00:25:58.03
AND I THINK ABOUT SIX YEARS OLD,
WE MOVED TO MANHATTAN, ONE OF
00:25:58.03\00:26:02.26
THE BIGGEST CITIES OF THE WORLD,
WE LIVED RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF
00:26:02.26\00:26:04.63
THE CITY, 51ST
STREET, 81ST STREET.
00:26:04.63\00:26:07.83
AND I WAS EXPOSED TO A
LOT OF THINGS THAT PROBABLY...
00:26:07.83\00:26:13.10
NOBODY SHOULD BE EXPOSED TO,
AND AT A VERY EARLY AGE, BECAUSE
00:26:13.10\00:26:15.90
MOM WAS SO BUSY WITH HER CAREER,
MY BROTHER AND I JUST KIND OF
00:26:15.90\00:26:19.73
TOOK CARE OF
OURSELVES A LOT OF THE TIME.
00:26:19.73\00:26:22.30
AND I GOT INTO SO MUCH
TROUBLE -- I THINK IT'S BECAUSE
00:26:22.30\00:26:24.96
I WANTED MY PARENTS'
ATTENTION -- THAT I WENT TO 14
00:26:24.96\00:26:28.53
DIFFERENT SCHOOLS, BUT I
ONLY GRADUATED THE NINTH GRADE.
00:26:28.53\00:26:33.43
AND I DID GO BACK AND GET A HIGH
SCHOOL DIPLOMA AND THEN I WENT
00:26:33.43\00:26:35.73
BACK AND TOOK SOME COLLEGE, SO
I'M NOT TRYING TO GIVE YOU ANY
00:26:35.73\00:26:37.73
IDEAS, BUT THAT ALL CAME LATER.
00:26:37.73\00:26:40.60
MY PARENTS WOULD ALWAYS SEND
US OFF TO SUMMER CAMP, AND JUST
00:26:40.60\00:26:44.56
ABOUT EVERY SUMMER,
STARTING VERY YOUNG.
00:26:44.56\00:26:47.00
WASN'T I CUTE?
00:26:47.00\00:26:48.46
AND NO, THAT'S NOT A
TOUPEE THAT I'M WEARING THERE.
00:26:48.46\00:26:51.73
OH, OR THEY'D SEND US TO
BOARDING SCHOOL, BECAUSE DAD WAS
00:26:51.73\00:26:55.26
SO BUSY MAKING MONEY AND MOM WAS
SO BUSY WITH HER CAREER THAT WE
00:26:55.26\00:26:58.16
JUST SORT OF GOT
FARMED OUT EVERY YEAR.
00:26:58.16\00:27:00.60
AND I WENT TO, AMONG THE 14
SCHOOLS I WENT TO, I WENT TO
00:27:00.60\00:27:04.33
MILITARY SCHOOL, AND HERE'S
A PICTURE OF NEW YORK MILITARY
00:27:04.33\00:27:08.00
ACADEMY.
00:27:08.00\00:27:08.60
MATTER OF FACT, I WENT A
COUPLE YEARS BEFORE DONALD TRUMP
00:27:08.60\00:27:10.80
GRADUATED.
00:27:10.80\00:27:11.53
I JUST MISSED HIM.
00:27:11.53\00:27:12.56
HE WENT TO THE SAME SCHOOL.
00:27:12.56\00:27:13.73
AND FIRST MILITARY SCHOOL I WENT
TO IN CALIFORNIA, I WAS FIVE
00:27:13.73\00:27:17.53
YEARS OLD.
00:27:17.53\00:27:18.76
BLACK FOX MILITARY ACADEMY.
00:27:18.76\00:27:20.66
AND THEN I WAS IN AND OUT
OF SCHOOLS BECAUSE I WAS IN
00:27:20.66\00:27:23.43
TROUBLE, ALL THE TIME, BECAUSE I
THINK I WAS JUST LOOKING FOR MY
00:27:23.43\00:27:26.76
PARENTS' RECOGNITION.
00:27:26.76\00:27:29.90
I WENT TO JEWISH SCHOOLS,
CATHOLIC SCHOOLS, MANY PUBLIC
00:27:29.90\00:27:32.83
SCHOOLS.
00:27:32.83\00:27:34.46
I EVEN WENT TO A SCHOOL WHERE
THERE WAS ABSOLUTELY NO RULES.
00:27:34.46\00:27:37.43
YOU'RE THINKING, "OH
THAT WOULD BE PRETTY NEAT."
00:27:37.43\00:27:39.33
SCHOOL CALLED "PINEHENGE."
00:27:39.33\00:27:40.80
YOU CAN EVEN FIND IT ONLINE.
00:27:40.80\00:27:42.46
IT WAS AN EXPERIMENTAL SCHOOL
WHERE THEY SAID, "YOU KNOW,
00:27:42.46\00:27:45.43
KIDS, IF YOU JUST DON'T GIVE
THEM ANY RULES, AND LET THEM
00:27:45.43\00:27:47.36
FIND THEMSELVES, THEY'LL LEARN
WHAT THEY NEED TO LEARN AND
00:27:47.36\00:27:49.56
THEY'LL REALLY DISCOVER
THEMSELVES," AND I'D GOTTEN INTO
00:27:49.56\00:27:52.56
SO MUCH TROUBLE THAT ONCE MY
MOM CALLED MY DAD -- I'D BEEN
00:27:52.56\00:27:56.03
ARRESTED -- AND SHE SAID,
"HE NEEDS TO EXPRESS HIMSELF,
00:27:56.03\00:27:59.40
GEORGE; HE NEEDS
THIS SPECIAL SCHOOL."
00:27:59.40\00:28:01.30
SO THEY SENT ME TO THE SCHOOL.
00:28:01.30\00:28:02.76
AND THEY REALLY HAD NO RULES.
00:28:02.76\00:28:04.60
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO
WAKE UP -- BOARDING SCHOOL.
00:28:04.60\00:28:07.40
CO-ED DORMS.
00:28:07.40\00:28:09.56
I'M TELLING YOU, THIS
WAS JUST WAY OUT THERE.
00:28:09.56\00:28:12.16
AND THERE WAS ALMOST NO RULES.
00:28:12.16\00:28:14.06
THE ONLY RULES --
THEY HAD THREE RULES.
00:28:14.06\00:28:16.16
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO WAKE
UP IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO.
00:28:16.16\00:28:17.63
DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO MEALS.
00:28:17.63\00:28:18.43
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO CLASS.
00:28:18.43\00:28:19.96
AT THE END OF THE YEAR, YOU
MIGHT NOT HAVE ANY GRADES, BUT
00:28:21.93\00:28:23.93
THAT WAS UP TO YOU.
00:28:23.93\00:28:24.93
YOU JUST DO WHAT YOU FEEL LIKE.
00:28:24.93\00:28:26.53
THREE RULES WERE: NO
FIGHTING, NO SEX, NO DRUGS.
00:28:26.53\00:28:30.86
AND NOBODY PAID
ATTENTION TO THE THREE RULES.
00:28:30.86\00:28:33.36
IT WAS THE MOST CRAZIEST THING
THAT YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
00:28:33.36\00:28:36.70
WELL, WHAT DIDN'T HELP THINGS
WAS I DIDN'T HAVE THE BEST
00:28:36.70\00:28:40.53
EXAMPLES AT HOME.
00:28:40.53\00:28:42.16
NOW, BECAUSE MOM WAS IN SHOW
BUSINESS, YOU KNOW, A LOT OF
00:28:42.16\00:28:45.06
PEOPLE IN SHOW
BUSINESS USE DRUGS.
00:28:45.06\00:28:47.26
I THINK EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT.
00:28:47.26\00:28:49.06
AND MOM WAS NOT IMMUNE TO THAT.
00:28:49.06\00:28:51.56
NOT ONLY DID SHE SMOKE
CIGARETTES AND DRINK, BUT SHE
00:28:51.56\00:28:54.50
DID OTHER THINGS.
00:28:54.50\00:28:55.46
AND I REMEMBER ONE TIME, I WAS
13 YEARS OLD, AND -- ACTUALLY
00:28:55.46\00:29:00.26
IT WAS BEFORE THAT -- AND MOM
SAID, "DOUG, I KNOW YOU'RE GOING
00:29:00.26\00:29:03.53
TO BE EXPOSED TO THIS EVENTUALLY
OUT ON THE STREETS OF NEW YORK.
00:29:03.53\00:29:08.00
I'D JUST ASSUME YOU DID IT AT
HOME, WHERE I CAN KEEP YOU OUT
00:29:08.00\00:29:09.96
OF TROUBLE," AND SHE ROLLED
A JOINT AND SMOKED IT WITH ME.
00:29:09.96\00:29:14.03
AND THEN IT GOT TO BE WHERE
IT WAS MORE AND MORE FREQUENT.
00:29:14.03\00:29:15.96
AND SO IT WAS PRETTY COMMON:
TWO OR THREE TIMES A WEEK, MOM
00:29:15.96\00:29:19.70
AND I WOULD SMOKE POT AND
EAT ICE CREAM AND WATCH TV.
00:29:19.70\00:29:23.96
OR HASHISH.
00:29:23.96\00:29:25.63
AND -- NOW, MY BROTHER, HE
WENT TO LIVE WITH DAD IN FLORIDA
00:29:25.63\00:29:28.86
BECAUSE OF HIS LUNG DISEASE.
00:29:28.86\00:29:30.66
WHEN HE'D COME AND VISIT,
HE'D SAY, "THIS ISN'T FAIR.
00:29:30.66\00:29:32.96
YOU WON'T LET ME SMOKE POT."
00:29:32.96\00:29:34.36
SHE SAYS, "IT'S BAD FOR YOUR
LUNGS," BUT SHE WAS A LOVING
00:29:34.36\00:29:36.03
MOTHER, SO SHE WOULD MAKE
MARIJUANA OR HASHISH COOKIES FOR
00:29:36.03\00:29:39.40
MY BROTHER.
00:29:39.40\00:29:40.76
[LAUGHTER] AND ONE
TIME, MY BROTHER AND I
00:29:40.76\00:29:42.60
TOOK THEM TO A SCHOOL PARTY
AND GAVE THEM TO THE TEACHERS.
00:29:42.60\00:29:45.30
[LAUGHTER] IT'S TRUE.
00:29:45.30\00:29:50.46
MOM WAS A GOOD COOK.
00:29:50.46\00:29:51.03
WE SAID, "THEY'RE ORGANIC."
00:29:51.03\00:29:52.53
[LAUGHTER] SO, BUT I
WAS GETTING INTO LOTS
00:29:52.53\00:29:57.56
OF TROUBLE, AND YOU KNOW,
WE'RE LAUGHING NOW, BUT IT WAS
00:29:57.56\00:30:00.83
PRETTY SAD BECAUSE I GREW
UP MOSTLY BELIEVING IN ATHEISM.
00:30:00.83\00:30:04.63
AND I DIDN'T
THINK THERE WAS A GOD.
00:30:04.63\00:30:07.06
AND EVEN THE CATHOLIC SCHOOLS
I WENT TO, THEY WERE TEACHING
00:30:07.06\00:30:09.96
ATHEISM, AND I THOUGHT TO
MYSELF, "MONEY DOESN'T BRING
00:30:09.96\00:30:12.90
HAPPINESS.
00:30:12.90\00:30:15.03
FAME DOESN'T BRING HAPPINESS."
00:30:15.03\00:30:16.86
I KNEW KIDS THAT WERE IN SHOW
BUSINESS THAT WERE TALENTED,
00:30:16.86\00:30:21.20
YOUNG, TWICE AS SMART AS I AM,
COULD SING, COULD DO ANYTHING.
00:30:21.20\00:30:26.00
AND THEY WERE SO DISCOURAGED,
THEY LOCKED THEMSELVES IN A
00:30:26.00\00:30:29.50
GARAGE, TURNED ON THE
CAR AND KILLED THEMSELVES.
00:30:29.50\00:30:31.96
AND EVERYBODY SAID, "THEY HAD
MONEY, THEY HAD TALENT, THEY HAD
00:30:31.96\00:30:35.76
LOOKS."
00:30:35.76\00:30:37.53
AND THEY WERE SO
EMPTY, THEY KILLED THEMSELVES.
00:30:37.53\00:30:39.73
THAT HAPPENED TO SO MANY PEOPLE
THAT I BEGAN TO THINK, "WHAT'S
00:30:39.73\00:30:42.63
THE PURPOSE OF LIFE?
00:30:42.63\00:30:44.73
NOBODY'S HAPPY.
00:30:44.73\00:30:46.00
EVERYBODY'S STRIVING FOR
SOMETHING, YOU JUST DIE, YOU
00:30:46.00\00:30:49.16
TURN INTO FERTILIZER.
00:30:49.16\00:30:50.63
WHY NOT GET IT OVER WITH?"
00:30:50.63\00:30:52.70
AND I REMEMBER AS FAR BACK AS
SEVEN, I BEGAN TO THINK, SEVEN
00:30:52.70\00:30:54.93
YEARS OLD, "WONDER WHAT WOULD BE
THE BEST AND FASTEST WAY TO KILL
00:30:54.93\00:30:58.33
YOURSELF."
00:30:58.33\00:30:59.63
BY THE WAY, YOU KNOW A LOT OF
TEENAGERS, THEY'RE THE HIGHEST
00:30:59.63\00:31:02.73
PERCENTAGE OF
PEOPLE THAT COMMIT SUICIDE.
00:31:02.73\00:31:05.53
AND MORE GIRLS
ATTEMPT SUICIDE THAN BOYS.
00:31:05.53\00:31:09.23
BUT MORE BOYS SUCCEED.
00:31:09.23\00:31:10.63
AND I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S
BECAUSE YOU KNOW, GIRLS MAYBE
00:31:10.63\00:31:14.13
JUST TAKE PILLS OR SOMETHING
AND BOYS LIKE JUMP IN FRONT OF
00:31:14.13\00:31:16.86
A TRAIN.
00:31:16.86\00:31:17.70
MAYBE THE
TECHNIQUES THAT THEY USE.
00:31:17.70\00:31:20.20
BUT FOR THE GIRLS, IT MAY BE A
CRY FOR HELP, BUT IT IS SERIOUS
00:31:20.20\00:31:24.50
BUSINESS.
00:31:24.50\00:31:25.26
AND I BELIEVE THERE'S A
CONNECTION BETWEEN BELIEVING
00:31:25.26\00:31:27.36
THAT YOU'VE JUST EVOLVED AND
THERE IS NO PURPOSE TO LIFE, AND
00:31:27.36\00:31:31.03
YOU'RE JUST GONNA DIE
AND THAT'S THE END OF IT...
00:31:31.03\00:31:33.33
AND SUICIDE.
00:31:33.33\00:31:34.53
THAT'S HOW I FELT.
00:31:34.53\00:31:35.10
I THOUGHT, "WHY
NOT GET IT OVER WITH?
00:31:35.10\00:31:36.53
I'M UNHAPPY.
00:31:36.53\00:31:37.53
KILL YOURSELF, GO TO SLEEP.
00:31:37.53\00:31:39.33
NO MORE TROUBLES."
00:31:39.33\00:31:40.96
WHEN I LIVED IN NEW YORK CITY,
I REMEMBER SEVERAL TIMES, I'D GO
00:31:40.96\00:31:44.00
TO THE ROOF.
00:31:44.00\00:31:45.63
I OFTEN HEARD ABOUT PEOPLE THAT
WERE JUMPING OFF BUILDINGS IN
00:31:45.63\00:31:48.10
NEW YORK OR JUMPING OFF THE
BRIDGE, AND I'D STAND ON THE
00:31:48.10\00:31:51.16
EDGE OF... THIS BUILDING, 20
STORIES HIGH, I'D PUT MY TOES
00:31:51.16\00:31:55.06
OVER THE EDGE, I
USED TO PLAY A GAME.
00:31:55.06\00:31:57.86
AND I'D TRY AND SEE HOW FAR OUT
I COULD LEAN BEFORE I FELT MY
00:31:57.86\00:32:00.80
CENTER OF GRAVITY.
00:32:00.80\00:32:02.33
AND I, IT WAS LIKE I WAS
FLIRTING WITH DEATH, BECAUSE I
00:32:02.33\00:32:05.43
WANTED TO END IT, BUT
SOMETHING HELD ME BACK.
00:32:05.43\00:32:07.50
AND YOU KNOW, ONE OF THE THINGS
I KNOW THAT HELD ME BACK WAS, I
00:32:07.50\00:32:10.93
THOUGHT, "WHAT IF I LIVE THROUGH
IT AND I'M JUST ALL SMASHED UP?"
00:32:10.93\00:32:15.00
AND I THOUGHT, "I DON'T WANNA
BE CRIPPLED; I WANT TO DIE."
00:32:15.00\00:32:17.86
I HEARD ABOUT PEOPLE THAT JUMPED
AND LIKE LANDED ON A CAR AND
00:32:17.86\00:32:19.96
LIVED THROUGH IT,
BUT THEY'RE ALL MANGLED.
00:32:19.96\00:32:21.96
"SO I WANNA MAKE SURE
THAT WHEN I DO IT, THAT'S IT."
00:32:21.96\00:32:24.70
AND THEN I KNEW MY MOTHER TOOK
SLEEPING PILLS, AND SO ONE DAY I
00:32:24.70\00:32:29.16
THOUGHT, "YOU KNOW" -- I
WAS IN TROUBLE AT SCHOOL.
00:32:29.16\00:32:31.50
GOSH, I WAS IN TROUBLE A LOT.
00:32:31.50\00:32:33.76
AND YOU KNOW
WHAT'S REALLY STRANGE?
00:32:33.76\00:32:36.10
ONE THING I WANT TO DO IS I
WANTED TO KILL MYSELF TO TRY TO
00:32:36.10\00:32:38.80
GET MY PARENTS' ATTENTION.
00:32:38.80\00:32:39.83
IT'S KINDA DUMB
THOUGH, ISN'T IT?
00:32:39.83\00:32:41.80
BECAUSE I THOUGHT, "I WANT
TO SEE THEM AT MY FUNERAL."
00:32:41.80\00:32:43.40
BUT I'D BE DEAD;
I WOULDN'T SEE IT.
00:32:43.40\00:32:45.76
AND I REMEMBER I WENT TO
MY MOTHER'S BEDROOM ONE TIME.
00:32:45.76\00:32:48.10
SHE TOOK SLEEPING PILLS, AND I
DECIDED -- I WAS IN TROUBLE, SHE
00:32:48.10\00:32:51.30
WAS OFF AT SOME
PARTY, MY BROTHER WAS GONE.
00:32:51.30\00:32:53.70
I FELT SO LONELY, I THOUGHT,
"I JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP AND
00:32:53.70\00:32:57.10
NEVER WAKE UP."
00:32:57.10\00:32:58.43
HAVE YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY?
00:32:58.43\00:33:00.23
"I JUST WANT TO GO TO
SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP."
00:33:00.23\00:33:03.30
AND I WENT INTO THE BATHROOM AND
I SEARCHED THROUGH HER MEDICINE
00:33:03.30\00:33:05.80
CABINET, AND I FOUND THIS BIG
BOTTLE OF PILLS AND IT DIDN'T
00:33:05.80\00:33:09.46
SAY "SLEEPING PILLS" ON IT.
00:33:09.46\00:33:11.20
YOU KNOW, THEY'RE
NOT LABELED THAT WAY.
00:33:11.20\00:33:13.73
IT SAID, "VALIUM."
00:33:13.73\00:33:15.46
"TAKE ONE AT BEDTIME."
00:33:16.53\00:33:18.23
AND I FILLED MY HAND WITH THESE
PILLS, AND I JUST GOT READY TO
00:33:19.53\00:33:22.80
SWALLOW THEM AND I
JUST KEPT HESITATING.
00:33:22.80\00:33:24.46
YOU KNOW WHAT STOPPED ME?
00:33:24.46\00:33:25.46
I KEEP LOOKING ALL OVER
THE LABEL FOR WHERE IT SAID,
00:33:25.46\00:33:27.30
"SLEEPING PILLS," AND
I WAS LIKE 13 BACK THEN.
00:33:27.30\00:33:30.56
I THOUGHT, "WHAT IF VALIUM ARE
LADY PILLS FOR THEIR PLUMBING OR
00:33:30.56\00:33:35.23
SOMETHING?
00:33:35.23\00:33:35.86
I'D JUST GET REALLY SICK."
00:33:35.86\00:33:37.26
I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS.
00:33:37.26\00:33:38.23
I THOUGHT, "THAT'D MAKE THINGS
EVEN WORSE," AND SO I POSTPONED
00:33:38.23\00:33:40.93
MY SUICIDE AGAIN THAT DAY.
00:33:40.93\00:33:43.63
AND THEN SOMEWHERE ALONG
THE WAY, I DECIDED, "WHY KILL
00:33:43.63\00:33:46.73
YOURSELF BY DOING
SOMETHING BORING?"
00:33:46.73\00:33:48.36
I SAID, "WHY NOT HAVE
AS MUCH EXCITEMENT--?"
00:33:48.36\00:33:50.00
I SAW AN OLD BEER COMMERCIAL.
00:33:50.00\00:33:51.80
IT SAID, "YOU ONLY
GO... AROUND IN LIFE ONCE.
00:33:51.80\00:33:54.30
GET ALL THE GUSTO YOU CAN."
00:33:54.30\00:33:56.36
I WAS SO INFLUENCED BY TV,
I THOUGHT, "THAT'S THE IDEA.
00:33:56.36\00:33:58.66
GET ALL THE GUSTO."
00:33:58.66\00:33:59.90
I WASN'T SURE WHAT
THAT WAS, BUT I WANTED IT.
00:33:59.90\00:34:01.86
I SAID, "I'M JUST GONNA LIVE
AS WILD AS I CAN AND I'LL DIE IN
00:34:01.86\00:34:06.50
THE PROCESS."
00:34:06.50\00:34:08.23
AND I REALLY
WAS LIVING THAT WAY.
00:34:08.23\00:34:10.63
I WAS -- I STARTED GETTING
INVOLVED IN MORE AND MORE DRUGS
00:34:10.63\00:34:14.23
NOW.
00:34:14.23\00:34:15.96
AND HERE'S A PASSPORT PICTURE
YOU CAN SEE OF ME DURING THAT
00:34:15.96\00:34:19.53
AGE.
00:34:19.53\00:34:20.90
YEAH, I...
00:34:20.90\00:34:22.43
THAT'S ME.
00:34:22.43\00:34:24.56
AND I THINK I WAS 16 THERE,
BUT AT THAT POINT, I HAD ALREADY
00:34:24.56\00:34:27.90
BEEN IN AND OUT OF
JAIL FOR ABOUT FIVE TIMES.
00:34:27.90\00:34:31.90
DRINKING, DRUGS, STEALING.
00:34:31.90\00:34:34.66
I WOULD STEAL A CAR, AND THEN MY
BUDDY AND I WOULD PULL UP TO THE
00:34:34.66\00:34:39.23
POLICE AND ASK FOR DIRECTIONS,
AND WE'D HOPE WE'D GET INVOLVED
00:34:39.23\00:34:41.70
IN LIKE A HIGH-SPEED CHASE.
00:34:41.70\00:34:43.76
I MEAN, IT WAS
REALLY CRAZY BACK THEN.
00:34:43.76\00:34:46.00
WHEN I WAS WITH MY DAD, IN
MIAMI BEACH, HE LIVED ON THIS
00:34:46.00\00:34:49.06
EXCLUSIVE ISLAND.
00:34:49.06\00:34:50.10
I WENT BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN
BOARDING SCHOOLS, MY DAD, MY
00:34:50.10\00:34:52.80
GRANDPARENTS IN CALIFORNIA.
00:34:52.80\00:34:54.06
WE KEPT GETTING
BOUNCED ALL OVER THE PLACE.
00:34:54.06\00:34:56.00
LIVING WITH DAD, HE
HAD A BAR IN THE HOUSE.
00:34:56.00\00:34:59.96
BETTER THAN SOME BARS YOU'D
FIND IN A CITY AND WE COULD
00:34:59.96\00:35:04.56
DRINK WHENEVER WE WANTED.
00:35:04.56\00:35:05.56
IT WAS JUST AN OPEN ROOM.
00:35:05.56\00:35:07.60
AND HE HAD A BUTLER AND A MAID,
AND THE BUTLER ALWAYS RESTOCKED
00:35:07.60\00:35:09.80
THE BAR, BECAUSE
MY DAD DRANK A LOT.
00:35:09.80\00:35:11.50
MY DAD NEVER KNEW WHAT
WAS MISSING BECAUSE THE BUTLER
00:35:11.50\00:35:13.93
RESTOCKED THE BAR.
00:35:13.93\00:35:15.56
SO WE'D WAIT UNTIL HE WENT TO
WORK AND THE GARDENER AND PEOPLE
00:35:15.56\00:35:18.46
WERE OUT DOING THEIR THINGS,
AND WE'D JUST GO MIX DRINKS.
00:35:18.46\00:35:21.93
SO I STARTED DRINKING AT
AN EARLY AGE AND MORE OF MY
00:35:21.93\00:35:24.93
FRIENDS -- BY THE WAY, I'VE
TRIED ALL KINDS OF DRUGS, BUT
00:35:24.93\00:35:27.73
MORE OF MY FRIENDS DIED FROM
ALCOHOL THAN ALL OF THE OTHER
00:35:27.73\00:35:30.76
DRUGS PUT TOGETHER.
00:35:30.76\00:35:32.60
BUT WE BEGAN TO GET INVOLVED
IN CRIME, WHICH WAS REALLY CRAZY
00:35:32.60\00:35:35.56
BECAUSE WHEN I WAS LIVING WITH
DAD, I LIVED ON AN ISLAND WITH
00:35:35.56\00:35:38.46
ALL THESE
MILLIONAIRES AND THEIR KIDS.
00:35:38.46\00:35:40.70
YOU EVER HEARD
OF FIRESTONE TIRES?
00:35:40.70\00:35:43.53
I USED TO DATE AMY FIRESTONE.
00:35:43.53\00:35:45.60
AND YOU'VE HEARD OF
HOOVER VACUUM CLEANERS?
00:35:47.06\00:35:49.76
USED TO PLAY WITH SANDY HOOVER,
THE KID THAT LIVED ON THE
00:35:51.13\00:35:54.53
ISLAND.
00:35:54.53\00:35:55.06
AND I COULD NAME A LOT OF OTHER
PEOPLE; WE KNEW THESE KIDS.
00:35:55.06\00:35:58.20
WE'D GET BORED -- AND WE WERE
PROBABLY JUST SPOILED -- WE'D
00:35:58.20\00:36:01.26
GET BORED AND WE'D SAY,
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?"
00:36:01.26\00:36:02.96
"I DON'T KNOW."
00:36:02.96\00:36:03.70
"LET'S GO BREAK
INTO SOMEONE'S HOUSE."
00:36:03.70\00:36:05.80
WE DIDN'T NEED ANYTHING, BUT
JUST FOR THE THRILL, WE STARTED
00:36:05.80\00:36:08.60
BREAKING INTO ALL
THESE MILLIONAIRES' HOUSES.
00:36:08.60\00:36:11.23
MATTER OF FACT, SOMETIMES WE'D
BREAK INTO EACH OTHER'S HOUSES.
00:36:11.23\00:36:12.96
[LAUGHTER] "WHAT
DO YOU WANT TO DO?"
00:36:12.96\00:36:14.93
"OH, WE BROKE INTO MY HOUSE
LAST WEEK; LET'S BREAK INTO YOUR
00:36:14.93\00:36:16.73
HOUSE."
00:36:16.73\00:36:17.43
AND WE'D JUST DARE EACH OTHER.
00:36:17.43\00:36:19.06
AND -- NO, I'M SERIOUS.
00:36:19.06\00:36:19.90
IT WAS CRAZY.
00:36:19.90\00:36:20.83
WE'D SAY, "SEE IF YOU COULD..."
00:36:20.83\00:36:22.36
THEY'D SAY, "SOMEONE'S, IT LOOKS
LIKE THEY'RE STILL AWAKE, DOUG.
00:36:22.36\00:36:24.83
I DARE YA TO BREAK IN
AND TAKE --" WE'D JUST GET
00:36:24.83\00:36:27.76
SOMETHING, JUST TO PROVE THAT
YOU WENT INTO THE HOUSE AND TOOK
00:36:27.76\00:36:30.66
SOMETHING.
00:36:30.66\00:36:31.76
I WANTED SO MUCH TO BE LOVED,
I'D DO ANYTHING JUST TO GET MY
00:36:31.76\00:36:34.46
FRIENDS' APPROVAL.
00:36:34.46\00:36:37.16
AND THEY'D DARE ME TO JUMP OFF
THE BRIDGE INTO BISCAYNE BAY.
00:36:37.16\00:36:41.83
I DID IT.
00:36:41.83\00:36:43.63
I'D DO ANYTHING, JUST TO
TRY AND GET SOMEONE TO LIKE ME.
00:36:43.63\00:36:48.00
WELL, I GOT INTO A LOT OF
TROUBLE AND WAS IN AND OUT OF
00:36:48.00\00:36:51.93
JAIL SEVERAL TIMES AND
STARTED RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME.
00:36:51.93\00:36:56.00
BY THE TIME I
WAS 15, I LEFT HOME.
00:36:56.00\00:37:00.26
AND I HITCHHIKED FROM FLORIDA.
00:37:00.26\00:37:03.30
DAD SAID, "I DON'T KNOW WHAT
TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE," AND I
00:37:03.30\00:37:05.13
LEFT FLORIDA AND
I WENT UP TO BOSTON.
00:37:05.13\00:37:07.90
AND I STARTED BREAKING INTO
HOMES AND STEALING, STEALING
00:37:07.90\00:37:10.43
CARS, AND...
00:37:10.43\00:37:13.06
I HAD A PART-TIME
JOB AS A SECURITY GUARD.
00:37:13.06\00:37:16.46
[LAUGHTER] THAT'S THE TRUTH.
00:37:16.46\00:37:18.93
I GOT A DRIVER'S LICENSE THAT
SAID MY DATE OF BIRTH IS 1957,
00:37:18.93\00:37:24.23
AND I FORGED IT TO SAY, "1952."
00:37:24.23\00:37:27.50
AND I GOT A DRIVER'S LICENSE
TO SAY I WAS OLDER THAN I WAS.
00:37:27.50\00:37:30.80
AND SO HERE I WAS 16 YEARS
OLD NOW AT THIS POINT, AND I'M
00:37:30.80\00:37:33.80
WALKING AROUND BOSTON, CARRYING
A WEAPON -- I'M A SECURITY
00:37:33.80\00:37:36.50
GUARD -- DURING THE NIGHT,
AND DURING THE DAY, I'M STEALING
00:37:36.50\00:37:40.20
FROM PEOPLE.
00:37:40.20\00:37:41.23
BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WALK OUT OF
SOMEONE'S HOUSE WITH THEIR TV,
00:37:41.23\00:37:43.43
AT NIGHT, YOU LOOK SUSPICIOUS.
00:37:43.43\00:37:45.86
BUT IN BROAD DAYLIGHT,
THEY JUST THINK YOU'RE MOVING.
00:37:45.86\00:37:49.10
AND SO I STARTED DOING A LOT OF
STEALING AND BURGLARY AND I MET
00:37:49.10\00:37:52.20
A FRIEND WHO WAS VERY RELIGIOUS.
00:37:52.20\00:37:54.66
AND HE WAS INTO ALL OF
THESE EASTERN RELIGIONS.
00:37:54.66\00:37:58.46
AND HE WAS A SECURITY GUARD.
00:37:58.46\00:37:59.80
AND HE FOUND OUT WHAT I
WAS DOING FOR MY PART-TIME JOB.
00:37:59.80\00:38:04.43
AND I SAID, "ARE YOU
GONNA TURN ME IN, JERRY?"
00:38:04.43\00:38:07.83
HE SAID, "NO DOUG.
00:38:07.83\00:38:08.50
YOUR KARMA'S GONNA GET YOU."
00:38:08.50\00:38:10.56
I SAID, "WHAT'S THAT?"
00:38:10.56\00:38:11.63
HE SAID, "OH,
EVERYTHING YOU DO COMES BACK."
00:38:11.63\00:38:13.33
I SAID, "NAH."
00:38:13.33\00:38:14.76
I SAID, "THERE'S NO GOD."
00:38:14.76\00:38:16.83
I SAID, "I STOLE THAT TELEVISION
SET, I GOT RID OF IT: NOTHING
00:38:16.83\00:38:19.93
HAPPENED TO ME."
00:38:19.93\00:38:21.13
HE SAID, "YOU'LL FIND OUT."
00:38:21.13\00:38:23.53
AND A FEW DAYS AFTER HE TALKED
TO ME, I WOKE UP IN MY APARTMENT
00:38:23.53\00:38:26.40
IN BOSTON, AND MY DOOR WAS AJAR,
AND I LOOKED, AND MY TV WAS
00:38:26.40\00:38:30.66
GONE.
00:38:30.66\00:38:32.20
AND MY RADIO.
00:38:32.20\00:38:33.26
AND I WAS SO MAD, I SAID --
I CALLED THE POLICE RIGHT AWAY.
00:38:33.26\00:38:35.86
I WANTED THEM TO
TRACK THOSE THIEVES DOWN.
00:38:35.86\00:38:38.43
AND THEN I BEGAN TO NOTICE,
THAT EVERYTHING I DID SEEMED TO
00:38:38.43\00:38:41.63
BACKFIRE.
00:38:41.63\00:38:43.36
I'D STEAL SOMETHING, AND
MY FRIENDS WERE ALL THIEVES:
00:38:43.36\00:38:45.43
THEY'D THEN STEAL IT FROM ME.
00:38:45.43\00:38:47.33
THERE IS NO HONOR AMONG THIEVES.
00:38:47.33\00:38:48.96
OR I WOULD STEAL SOMETHING WHILE
I WAS DRINKING, AND I'D FORGET
00:38:48.96\00:38:52.50
WHERE I HID IT.
00:38:52.50\00:38:54.83
AND I'D... I'D SOBER UP
AND I'D FORGET WHERE IT WAS.
00:38:54.83\00:38:58.36
AND THEN I WOULD STEAL
SOMETHING, AND LIKE RISK MY LIFE
00:38:58.36\00:39:01.70
TO STEAL A STEREO OR SOMETHING.
00:39:01.70\00:39:03.50
I SPECIFICALLY REMEMBER ONE
TIME, I JUST ABOUT GOT KILLED
00:39:03.50\00:39:05.60
STEALING A STEREO.
00:39:05.60\00:39:06.56
I GOT BACK, PLUGGED IT IN,
I HAD STOLEN A BROKEN STEREO.
00:39:06.56\00:39:09.36
DIDN'T EVEN WORK.
00:39:09.36\00:39:10.70
AND I THOUGHT, "BOY, THIS
IS, THIS CAN'T BE A COINCIDENCE.
00:39:10.70\00:39:13.00
EVERYTHING I'M
DOING IS GOING WRONG."
00:39:13.00\00:39:15.06
I STARTED, KEPT
THINKING ABOUT THE KARMA THING.
00:39:15.06\00:39:17.96
AND WHAT CONVINCED
ME WAS A LITTLE THING.
00:39:17.96\00:39:20.03
I DIDN'T JUST QUIT STEALING COLD
TURKEY; I TRIED TO TAPER OFF.
00:39:20.03\00:39:23.46
I USED THE PATCH.
00:39:23.46\00:39:25.70
AND I WENT TO SOMEONE'S HOUSE,
AND WHILE THEY WERE OUT OF THE
00:39:25.70\00:39:29.20
KITCHEN, I LOOKED IN THEIR
CUPBOARDS AND I SAW THAT THEY
00:39:29.20\00:39:31.40
HAD A BOX OF
KRUSTEAZ INSTANT PANCAKE MIX.
00:39:31.40\00:39:36.33
AND IT WAS THE WHOLE WHEAT
VARIETY, AND I WAS A HIPPIE BACK
00:39:36.33\00:39:39.16
THEN, AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS
SMOKING AND DRINKING AND USING
00:39:39.16\00:39:41.53
DRUGS, I ONLY
WANTED WHOLE WHEAT.
00:39:41.53\00:39:44.70
AND SO I STOLE THIS BOX OF WHOLE
WHEAT PANCAKE MIX, AND IT WAS
00:39:44.70\00:39:48.36
STAMPED ON THE TOP, "$1.19."
00:39:48.36\00:39:50.90
THAT'S BACK BEFORE THE BAR
CODE, AND IT WAS STAMPED $1.19.
00:39:50.90\00:39:55.10
AND SO, I THEN GOT BACK TO
MY PLACE THE SAME DAY, AND SOME
00:39:55.10\00:40:01.10
FRIENDS HAD COME THROUGH MY
PLACE AND THEY'D TAKEN MY BRAND
00:40:01.10\00:40:03.90
NEW JAR OF TANG INSTANT
BREAKFAST DRINK, AND THEY DRANK
00:40:03.90\00:40:07.46
THE WHOLE JAR.
00:40:07.46\00:40:08.90
AND THERE BY THE EMPTY JAR WAS
THE LID SITTING ON THE TABLE,
00:40:08.90\00:40:11.83
AND IT WAS STAMPED, $1.19.
00:40:11.83\00:40:14.86
AND I LOOKED AT THE
PANCAKE MIX IN MY HANDS: $1.19.
00:40:14.86\00:40:17.60
I LOOKED AT THE LID, AND I
THOUGHT, "CRIME DOESN'T PAY."
00:40:17.60\00:40:20.16
EVERYTHING I WAS
DOING WAS BACKFIRING ON ME.
00:40:20.16\00:40:23.03
AND I BEGAN TO THINK,
"THERE MUST BE A GOD."
00:40:23.03\00:40:26.23
AND ONCE I BELIEVED THERE WAS A
GOD, I STARTED WONDERING, "WELL,
00:40:26.23\00:40:30.86
WHAT IS THE TRUE GOD?"
00:40:30.86\00:40:32.83
WELL, I WROTE OFF CHRISTIANS
RIGHT AWAY AS, "AH, CHRISTIANS:
00:40:32.83\00:40:34.70
THEY'RE ALL
HYPOCRITES," YOU KNOW.
00:40:34.70\00:40:37.73
MY MOTHER TOLD ME,
"CHRISTIANS CAUSE ALL THE WARS."
00:40:37.73\00:40:40.70
AND YOU SURF THROUGH THE
CHANNELS, AND IT WOULD SAY, "IN
00:40:40.70\00:40:42.80
IRELAND, THE PROTESTANTS
ARE KILLING THE CATHOLICS."
00:40:42.80\00:40:45.16
THEY BOTH ARE SUPPOSED TO BE
CHRISTIANS, AND THEY'RE BLOWING
00:40:45.16\00:40:47.40
EACH OTHER UP.
00:40:47.40\00:40:48.03
"AH, CHRISTIAN, I DON'T
WANT TO BE A CHRISTIAN."
00:40:48.03\00:40:50.86
AND SO I BEGAN TO GET INTO SOME
OF THE EASTERN RELIGIONS, LIKE
00:40:50.86\00:40:54.83
MY FRIEND JERRY WAS INTO:
SHAKDI, THE SPIRITUAL SCIENCE
00:40:54.83\00:40:57.93
OF D.N.A.
00:40:57.93\00:41:00.06
AND I GOT INTO --
WELL, I ALREADY HAD SOME
00:41:00.06\00:41:03.23
BACKGROUND IN CATHOLICISM
BECAUSE I WENT TO CATHOLIC
00:41:03.23\00:41:05.86
SCHOOLS.
00:41:05.86\00:41:06.73
AND MY MOTHER WAS JEWISH, SO I
KNEW ABOUT THAT, BUT I WANTED TO
00:41:06.73\00:41:09.73
GET INTO SOME OF
THESE EASTERN RELIGIONS.
00:41:09.73\00:41:11.60
I GOT INTO BUDDHISM
AND I GOT INTO YOGA.
00:41:11.60\00:41:15.33
THAT'S WHERE YOU KINDA LOOK FOR
GOD BY STANDING ON YOUR HEAD,
00:41:15.33\00:41:18.56
AND ALL I FOUND WAS MY
HAIR FELL OUT WHEN I DID THAT.
00:41:18.56\00:41:21.20
[LAUGHTER] AND I
TRAVELED AROUND THE
00:41:21.20\00:41:23.10
COUNTRY, TRYING TO FIND GOD.
00:41:23.10\00:41:25.00
I WAS HITCHHIKING
AROUND WITH FRIENDS.
00:41:25.00\00:41:26.56
I WAS TRYING ALL THESE DIFFERENT
RELIGIONS AND MIXING THEM ALL UP
00:41:26.56\00:41:28.36
TOGETHER.
00:41:28.36\00:41:29.53
WHEN I WAS LIVING IN SOUTHERN
CALIFORNIA ON THE STREETS, I
00:41:29.53\00:41:32.53
WENT TO A CHRISTIAN MISSION,
BECAUSE THEY GIVE YOU A FREE
00:41:32.53\00:41:34.40
MEAL IF YOU
LISTEN TO THEM PREACH.
00:41:34.40\00:41:36.16
AND I THOUGHT,
"WELL THAT'S NOT SO BAD."
00:41:36.16\00:41:37.96
AND THEN I FOUND OUT THE HARE
KRISHNAS ALSO GIVE YOU FREE FOOD
00:41:37.96\00:41:41.63
IF YOU LISTEN TO
THEM DO THEIR SERVICE.
00:41:41.63\00:41:44.80
SO A FRIEND AND I WENT
TO THE HARE KRISHNA SERVICE.
00:41:44.80\00:41:47.53
WE WERE REALLY HUNGRY THAT DAY.
00:41:47.53\00:41:49.60
AND THEIR SERVICE INVOLVED
JUMPING UP AND DOWN WITH THE
00:41:49.60\00:41:52.13
DRUMS AND THE BASS, FOR
IT SEEMED LIKE TWO HOURS.
00:41:52.13\00:41:57.43
AND ALL THEY SAID WAS, "HARE
KRISHNA, HARE KRISHNA, KRISHNA
00:41:57.43\00:42:01.23
KRISHNA, HARE HARE.
00:42:01.23\00:42:02.96
HARE RAMA, HARE RAMA,
RAMA RAMA, HARE HARE."
00:42:02.96\00:42:05.86
I NEVER FORGOT IT.
00:42:05.86\00:42:07.30
FOR TWO HOURS THEY DID THAT.
00:42:07.30\00:42:08.63
AFTER A WHILE I THOUGHT,
"MAN I'M GOING TO THE BATHROOM."
00:42:08.63\00:42:10.70
I SNUCK OUT.
00:42:10.70\00:42:12.80
WHEN I CAME BACK, MY FRIEND
JERRY, HE WAS STARTING TO GET
00:42:12.80\00:42:14.53
INTO IT.
00:42:14.53\00:42:15.10
I SAID, "HEY MAN,
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
00:42:15.10\00:42:16.63
THIS IS JUST HYPNOSIS."
00:42:16.63\00:42:18.80
AND ALL THAT JUMPING AROUND --
ALL THEY GAVE US WAS YOGURT AND
00:42:18.80\00:42:22.13
RAISINS.
00:42:22.13\00:42:24.16
AND I KNEW RIGHT THEN I
WASN'T JOINING THAT RELIGION.
00:42:24.16\00:42:26.30
[LAUGHTER] SO I
STARTED SEARCHING --
00:42:26.30\00:42:28.96
NOW, ABOUT THIS TIME, MY DAD
CAME BACK TO BOSTON -- I WAS UP
00:42:28.96\00:42:31.26
THERE -- TO VISIT ME.
00:42:31.26\00:42:32.80
HE SAID, "DOUG, YOU
GOTTA GO BACK TO SCHOOL."
00:42:32.80\00:42:34.96
HE SAID, "YOU
NEED AN EDUCATION."
00:42:34.96\00:42:37.40
MY BROTHER WAS SICK; HE KIND OF
WANTED ME TO HELP TAKE OVER THE
00:42:37.40\00:42:39.60
BUSINESS.
00:42:39.60\00:42:41.00
HE SAID, "I FOUND A SCHOOL.
00:42:41.00\00:42:43.46
IT'S ON A BOAT.
00:42:43.46\00:42:45.16
SAILS AROUND THE WORLD."
00:42:45.16\00:42:46.63
MATTER OF FACT,
IT WAS TWO BOATS.
00:42:46.63\00:42:48.63
AND UH -- IT'S
CALLED FLINT SCHOOL
00:42:48.63\00:42:51.03
ABROAD.
00:42:51.03\00:42:53.00
AND HE SAYS, "THERE'S GIRLS.
00:42:53.00\00:42:54.00
YOU'LL SEE THE WORLD.
00:42:54.00\00:42:54.96
THERE'S SCUBA
DIVING, WATER SKIING."
00:42:54.96\00:42:56.83
HE SAID, "YOU
GOTTA GO BACK TO SCHOOL."
00:42:56.83\00:42:58.60
SO HE SOUNDED SO
DESPERATE, I SAID, "ALL RIGHT."
00:42:58.60\00:43:01.16
SO HE TOOK ME RIGHT THERE --
I DON'T KNOW HOW HE DID IT, BUT
00:43:01.16\00:43:03.23
HE GOT A PASSPORT FOR ME
IN LIKE 24 HOURS SOMEHOW.
00:43:03.23\00:43:07.46
YOU GOT MONEY, YOU CAN DO IT.
00:43:07.46\00:43:10.03
FLEW ME FROM
BOSTON TO MILAN, ITALY.
00:43:10.03\00:43:13.16
WE DROVE TO GENOA WHERE THE SHIP
WAS PARKED, AND HE PUT ME ON
00:43:13.16\00:43:15.33
THIS BOAT.
00:43:15.33\00:43:15.93
I GOT THERE LATE.
00:43:15.93\00:43:17.36
AND AFTER HE SMILED AND LEFT,
I FOUND THAT HE TRICKED ME.
00:43:17.36\00:43:21.16
THIS SCHOOL WAS A VERY UNUSUAL,
EXCLUSIVE SCHOOL FOR THE
00:43:21.16\00:43:24.56
CHILDREN OF MILLIONAIRES AND
POLITICIANS, WHO WERE GETTING
00:43:24.56\00:43:27.86
MIXED UP IN VARIOUS CULTS OR
DRUGS, TO GET THEM OUT OF THEIR
00:43:27.86\00:43:32.00
ENVIRONMENT, TO TRY TO INSULATE
THEM AGAINST THESE THINGS.
00:43:32.00\00:43:35.36
AND THEY PUT THEM ON A BOAT AND
THEY TAKE AWAY YOUR PASSPORT.
00:43:35.36\00:43:37.93
AND I WAS MAD, BECAUSE HERE I
HAD BEEN LIKE AN ADULT, AND NOW
00:43:37.93\00:43:41.00
I'M BACK 16 AGAIN, AND I WAS 18.
00:43:41.00\00:43:43.33
JUST GOING AROUND
THE WORLD BY MYSELF.
00:43:43.33\00:43:46.06
IT WAS AN INTERESTING SCHOOL.
00:43:46.06\00:43:47.36
WE WENT -- SAILED
AROUND THE MEDITERRANEAN.
00:43:47.36\00:43:49.46
INTERESTING THING WAS,
THIS SCHOOL TAUGHT ATHEISM.
00:43:49.46\00:43:52.70
AND NOW I'M VERY RELIGIOUS.
00:43:52.70\00:43:54.50
I'M IN MY ROOM, I'M MEDITATING,
TRYING TO BE AT ONE WITH MY
00:43:54.50\00:43:56.86
D.N.A. MOLECULES, AND
EVERYBODY'S MAKING FUN OF ME.
00:43:56.86\00:43:59.90
AND THEY'RE SHOWING US FILMS OF
DARWIN AND THEY WERE ALL TEASING
00:43:59.90\00:44:02.86
ME.
00:44:02.86\00:44:04.36
WELL, I LEARNED
SOMETHING INTERESTING.
00:44:04.36\00:44:06.36
WE WERE SAILING FROM NORTHERN
AFRICA ACROSS THE MEDITERRANEAN
00:44:06.36\00:44:09.06
TO SPAIN IN WINTER, CHRISTMAS.
00:44:09.06\00:44:12.30
MIDDLE OF THE WINTER,
HALFWAY ACROSS, WE ENCOUNTERED A
00:44:12.30\00:44:16.43
TERRIBLE WINTER STORM.
00:44:16.43\00:44:17.93
YOU CAN READ ABOUT THIS IN THE
BIBLE, THEY'VE GOT THESE STORMS:
00:44:17.93\00:44:20.46
ACTS 27.
00:44:20.46\00:44:22.86
AND WE THOUGHT THE WAVES
WERE GONNA SWALLOW THE SHIP.
00:44:22.86\00:44:24.96
THEY WERE LIKE 25, 30 FEET TALL.
00:44:24.96\00:44:28.10
EVERYTHING WAS
DISRUPTED IN THE BOAT.
00:44:28.10\00:44:30.50
THINGS WERE ALL FALLING;
MATTRESSES, BOOKS, EVERYTHING
00:44:30.50\00:44:32.56
WAS EVERYWHERE.
00:44:32.56\00:44:33.86
THE MAIN SAIL RIPPED.
00:44:33.86\00:44:36.73
WATER WAS COMING IN.
00:44:36.73\00:44:38.03
EVERYBODY WAS SEASICK.
00:44:38.03\00:44:39.53
WE HAD THE PUMPS GOING.
00:44:39.53\00:44:41.93
CAPTAIN WAS SEASICK.
00:44:41.93\00:44:44.30
WHAT DO YOU THINK ATHEISTS
DO WHEN THEY THINK THEY'RE GONNA
00:44:44.30\00:44:46.00
DIE?
00:44:46.00\00:44:47.96
IT WAS AMAZING.
00:44:47.96\00:44:49.36
NOBODY WAS GOING,
"HARE KRISHNA, HARE KRISHNA."
00:44:49.36\00:44:51.93
[LAUGHTER] EVERYBODY
WAS PRAYING, AND THEY
00:44:51.93\00:44:55.30
WERE MAKING PROMISES TO GOD THAT
IF GOD WOULD JUST SPARE THEM --
00:44:55.30\00:44:59.33
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
00:44:59.33\00:45:00.16
THEY ALSO KNEW WHAT TO CONFESS.
00:45:00.16\00:45:01.33
THEY'RE CONFESSING THEIR SINS
SAYING, "LORD I'LL NEVER DO IT
00:45:01.33\00:45:03.30
AGAIN."
00:45:03.30\00:45:04.00
INSTANTLY PEOPLE
KNEW WHAT TO CHANGE.
00:45:04.00\00:45:06.06
AND I WAS DOING
SOME PRAYING OF MY OWN.
00:45:06.06\00:45:08.46
I WASN'T GOING, "OM."
00:45:08.46\00:45:10.36
I WAS JUST CALLING OUT TO
GOD SAYING, "PLEASE, SAVE US."
00:45:10.36\00:45:14.73
THERE'S NO ATHEISTS, THEY SAY,
IN A FOXHOLE OR A STORM AT SEA.
00:45:14.73\00:45:19.36
WELL, WE SURVIVED THE STORM,
AND I RAN AWAY FROM THAT SCHOOL
00:45:19.36\00:45:22.90
DURING CHRISTMAS BREAK.
00:45:22.90\00:45:25.03
AND NOW I DECIDED I WANTED
TO FIND GOD THROUGH NATURE.
00:45:25.03\00:45:29.13
SO, I TOOK OFF.
00:45:29.13\00:45:30.93
I SOLD EVERYTHING I HAD TO
MY BROTHER WHO ALWAYS WANTED TO
00:45:30.93\00:45:33.00
MAKE A GOOD DEAL.
00:45:33.00\00:45:34.40
I TOOK A BUS TO VIRGINIA,
AND THEN I LOST ALL MY MONEY
00:45:34.40\00:45:38.13
DRINKING AND PLAYING POOL.
00:45:38.13\00:45:40.56
AND I GOT OUT ON THE
HIGHWAY, HITCHHIKING.
00:45:40.56\00:45:43.26
I'M WEARING FLORIDA CLOTHING IN
THE MIDDLE OF WINTER, AND I GET
00:45:43.26\00:45:46.43
STUCK IN OKLAHOMA...
00:45:46.43\00:45:48.26
AND IT WAS FREEZING COLD.
00:45:48.26\00:45:50.10
AND ALL I'VE GOT WAS A
SHIRT LIKE THIS AND A REAL LIGHT
00:45:50.10\00:45:52.90
WINDBREAKER.
00:45:52.90\00:45:54.43
AND I STOOD ON THE HIGHWAY
FOR HOURS -- I'VE HITCHHIKED ALL
00:45:54.43\00:45:58.43
OVER THE COUNTRY
-- BEGGING FOR A RIDE.
00:45:58.43\00:46:02.20
AND SOMETIMES I'D GET SO
DESPERATE, I'D GET ON MY KNEES
00:46:02.20\00:46:05.13
AND BEG FOR A RIDE.
00:46:05.13\00:46:06.33
AND YOU GET DEPRESSED.
00:46:06.33\00:46:07.40
YOU KNOW, THAT'S
A LOT OF REJECTION.
00:46:07.40\00:46:09.06
YOU STAND THERE ON AN
INTERSTATE, INTERSTATE 40, HOUR
00:46:09.06\00:46:11.20
AFTER HOUR.
00:46:11.20\00:46:12.03
YOU SEE PEOPLE GOING YOUR WAY.
00:46:12.03\00:46:13.93
YOU'RE SAYING,
"CAN YOU HELP ME?"
00:46:13.93\00:46:15.23
AND WHEN THEY GO BY
THEY'RE SAYING, "NO."
00:46:15.23\00:46:17.20
"CAN YOU HELP ME?"
00:46:17.20\00:46:18.16
"NO."
00:46:18.16\00:46:19.23
"NO, NO, NO, NO, NO."
00:46:19.23\00:46:20.96
AND AFTER HOURS OF
THAT, AND YOU START FEELING...
00:46:20.96\00:46:23.46
[SIGHS] AND YOU'RE FREEZING.
00:46:23.46\00:46:25.30
EVERY TIME A TRUCK WENT
BY I'D GO, "ONE, TWO, THREE."
00:46:25.30\00:46:26.90
THEN YOU TURN AROUND BECAUSE
THREE SECONDS AFTER THE TRUCK,
00:46:26.90\00:46:29.10
THE WIND HITS YOU AND YOU
GOT THE 60 BELOW ZERO WIND-CHILL
00:46:29.10\00:46:33.36
FACTOR.
00:46:33.36\00:46:34.60
AND I BECAME SO DESPERATE THAT
I JUST PRAYED, AND I REALLY --
00:46:34.60\00:46:39.33
I HAD SOME TIME TO PRAY.
00:46:39.33\00:46:40.73
AND I PRAYED, AND I
ASKED GOD FOR FOUR THINGS.
00:46:40.73\00:46:43.53
AND I SAID, "LORD, I
KNOW I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON.
00:46:43.53\00:46:46.16
I'M SELFISH AND DONE
A LOT OF THINGS WRONG.
00:46:46.16\00:46:49.30
HURT A LOT OF PEOPLE."
00:46:49.30\00:46:50.33
I SAID, "WOULD YOU PLEASE GIVE
ME SOME PURPOSE FOR LIVING?"
00:46:50.33\00:46:54.26
I SAID, "PLEASE HELP ME
GET A RIDE TO WHERE I'M GOING."
00:46:54.26\00:46:59.76
I HAD 2,000 MILES TO GO.
00:46:59.76\00:47:01.86
I SAID, "PLEASE
HELP ME GET SOME FOOD."
00:47:01.86\00:47:03.60
I WAS HUNGRY.
00:47:03.60\00:47:04.96
I LOST ALL MY MONEY.
00:47:04.96\00:47:06.33
I PRAYED FOR MONEY,
WAS THE THIRD THING.
00:47:06.33\00:47:08.66
THE FOURTH THING, I PRAYED
GOD WOULD GIVE ME A RIDE WITH
00:47:08.66\00:47:10.63
SOMEONE NORMAL.
00:47:10.63\00:47:11.96
[LAUGHTER] BECAUSE I
KEPT GETTING PICKED UP
00:47:11.96\00:47:13.86
BY -- YOU THINK IT'S DANGEROUS
TO PICK UP HITCHHIKERS?
00:47:13.86\00:47:17.73
I TELL YOU: IT'S
DANGEROUS TO HITCHHIKE.
00:47:17.73\00:47:19.66
[LAUGHTER] AND I'D
GET PICKED UP BY THESE
00:47:19.66\00:47:21.73
PEOPLE THAT WERE
EITHER DRUNK, OR --
00:47:21.73\00:47:24.73
SOME COLLEGE STUDENTS PICKED
ME UP -- I WAS WITH A BUDDY ONE
00:47:24.73\00:47:27.10
TIME -- AND THEY WERE SMOKING
SO MUCH POT THAT THEY CLOUDED
00:47:27.10\00:47:29.83
UP AND THEY COULDN'T SEE THE
ROAD, AND THEY WENT ACROSS THE
00:47:29.83\00:47:32.30
MIDDLE OF THE ROAD
INTO ONCOMING TRAFFIC ON AN
00:47:32.30\00:47:34.40
INTERSTATE.
00:47:34.40\00:47:35.53
[LAUGHTER]
SCARED US HALF TO DEATH.
00:47:35.53\00:47:38.53
SOME OTHER DRUNK
GUY SAID, "OH..."
00:47:38.53\00:47:40.53
HE'S DRIVING HIGHWAY 1 IN
CALIFORNIA, WHERE THE CLIFFS,
00:47:40.53\00:47:42.90
YOU KNOW?
00:47:42.90\00:47:43.93
TWO LANES?
00:47:43.93\00:47:45.06
HE SAYS, "I CAN
SEE IN THE DARK."
00:47:45.06\00:47:46.50
HE TURNED OFF HIS
HEADLIGHTS TO IMPRESS US.
00:47:46.50\00:47:48.43
[LAUGHTER] I SAID,
"LOOK AT THIS, THIS IS
00:47:48.43\00:47:50.16
MY STOP RIGHT HERE; THIS REDWOOD
TREE IS WHERE I WAS GOING."
00:47:50.16\00:47:53.03
[LAUGHTER] SO I
PRAYED FOR A RIDE WITH
00:47:53.03\00:47:55.36
SOMEONE NORMAL.
00:47:55.36\00:47:57.56
AS SOON AS I FINISHED PRAYING,
THE NEXT VEHICLE STOPPED.
00:47:57.56\00:48:02.80
IT WAS A WHITE VAN.
00:48:02.80\00:48:04.53
THERE WAS A GUY IN THERE.
00:48:04.53\00:48:06.53
YOUNG GUY, ABOUT 22 YEARS OLD.
00:48:06.53\00:48:08.46
HE PICKED ME UP.
00:48:08.46\00:48:09.86
HE TOOK ME 2,000 MILES FROM
OKLAHOMA TO THE DOOR OF WHERE I
00:48:09.86\00:48:13.66
WAS GOING IN CALIFORNIA.
00:48:13.66\00:48:15.13
I JUST PRAYED FOR A RIDE.
00:48:15.13\00:48:17.70
HE FED ME ALL THE WAY THERE.
00:48:17.70\00:48:19.56
I DIDN'T ASK HIM TO; HE JUST
OFFERED EVERY TIME WE STOPPED.
00:48:19.56\00:48:22.40
HE GAVE ME $40
WHEN HE DROPPED ME OFF.
00:48:22.40\00:48:24.90
I DIDN'T ASK FOR IT.
00:48:24.90\00:48:26.30
I ALSO SHOULD MENTION I DID NOT
ASK FOR HIM TO PREACH TO ME ALL
00:48:26.30\00:48:29.20
THE WAY FROM
OKLAHOMA TO CALIFORNIA.
00:48:29.20\00:48:32.50
HE HAD RECENTLY ACCEPTED
CHRIST, AND HE WAS SO EXCITED.
00:48:32.50\00:48:35.63
HE WAS NOT ONLY PREACHING TO ME.
00:48:35.63\00:48:36.70
HE WAS PREACHING TO
THE GAS STATION ATTENDANT.
00:48:36.70\00:48:38.53
HE WAS PREACHING TO
EVERYBODY ALL ALONG THE WAY.
00:48:38.53\00:48:40.90
THE WAITRESS IN THE RESTAURANT.
00:48:40.90\00:48:42.36
HE WAS JUST IN
LOVE WITH THE LORD.
00:48:42.36\00:48:45.36
AND I THOUGHT, "HOW CAN
THIS GUY BELIEVE THE BIBLE?
00:48:45.36\00:48:47.66
THE BIBLE'S A FAIRY TALE."
00:48:47.66\00:48:49.33
SO WHEN HE LET ME OFF, I
DECIDED, "I'M GONNA FIND GOD IN
00:48:49.33\00:48:52.63
NATURE NOW."
00:48:52.63\00:48:54.13
HE LET ME OFF IN PALM SPRINGS.
00:48:54.13\00:48:56.00
I WENT UP TO A CAVE I HAD FOUND
WHEN I WAS 15 GOING AROUND THE
00:48:56.00\00:48:58.90
COUNTRY.
00:48:58.90\00:48:59.63
I DECIDED -- AND THIS IS A
PICTURE OF WHAT I LOOKED LIKE
00:48:59.63\00:49:02.40
BACK THEN.
00:49:02.40\00:49:03.00
MY BROTHER ACTUALLY CAME OUT AND
VISITED ME ONE TIME AT THE CAVE.
00:49:03.00\00:49:06.40
AND I MOVED INTO A CAVE, WAY UP
IN THESE DESERT MOUNTAINS, AND
00:49:06.40\00:49:09.83
WE HAVE TO GO
THROUGH THESE PRETTY QUICK.
00:49:09.83\00:49:11.70
IT'S MOUNT SAN JACINTO; IT'S AN
11,000-FOOT MOUNTAIN IN SOUTHERN
00:49:11.70\00:49:14.96
CALIFORNIA.
00:49:14.96\00:49:15.63
ONE OF THE HIGHEST
MOUNTAINS DOWN THERE.
00:49:15.63\00:49:17.30
I LIVED RIGHT WHERE THAT
SHADOW IS NEAR THE BOTTOM.
00:49:17.30\00:49:19.96
IN THESE DESERT MOUNTAINS, THERE
WAS A CREEK THAT RAN THROUGH
00:49:19.96\00:49:23.03
THIS ONE CANYON BEFORE
IT WENT UNDERGROUND BY MY --
00:49:23.03\00:49:26.16
MATTER OF FACT,
YOU'VE HEARD OF PALM SPRINGS?
00:49:26.16\00:49:28.46
THE WATER FROM PALM
SPRINGS RAN BY MY CAVE.
00:49:28.46\00:49:31.96
MATTER OF FACT, HERE'S THE VIEW.
00:49:31.96\00:49:33.43
LET ME SHOW YOU
THIS JUST REAL QUICK.
00:49:33.43\00:49:35.33
AND THAT'S WHAT I'D SEE: I'D
CLIMB FROM PALM SPRINGS UP TO MY
00:49:35.33\00:49:38.36
CAVE, UP TO THE TOP OF THE HILL
AND THEN I'D HAVE TO GO BACK
00:49:38.36\00:49:41.73
DOWN TO THE CANYON, AND I
HAD A CAVE RIGHT BY THE WATER.
00:49:41.73\00:49:45.10
AND I USED TO SWIM IN THE
WATER THAT BOB HOPE DRANK.
00:49:45.10\00:49:50.63
ALL THE MOVIE STARS
DOWN THERE IN PALM SPRINGS.
00:49:50.63\00:49:52.30
THAT USED TO GIVE ME SOME
KIND OF FIENDISH SATISFACTION
00:49:52.30\00:49:54.96
WHENEVER I'D DIVE IN
THE POOL OUTSIDE MY CAVE.
00:49:54.96\00:49:56.83
I THOUGHT, "ALL THOSE
MILLIONAIRES DOWN THERE, I WANT
00:49:56.83\00:49:58.73
YOU TO KNOW I JUST TOOK
A BATH IN YOUR SPRINGS."
00:49:58.73\00:50:01.50
[LAUGHTER] SO, I
DON'T KNOW, THAT'S NOT
00:50:01.50\00:50:04.16
VERY NICE.
00:50:04.16\00:50:05.06
BUT -- SO I MOVED INTO THIS
CAVE, AND THAT'S A PICTURE OF
00:50:05.06\00:50:08.93
THE INSIDE OF THE CAVE.
00:50:08.93\00:50:10.26
AND IT WAS MORE LIKE
A BIG, OVERHANGING ROCK.
00:50:10.26\00:50:11.93
HAD A BEAUTIFUL POOL
RIGHT OUTSIDE THE CAVE.
00:50:11.93\00:50:14.23
I HAD A CAT.
00:50:14.23\00:50:15.26
HE JUST SHOWED UP ONE DAY AND
LIVED WITH ME FOR ABOUT A YEAR
00:50:15.26\00:50:17.46
AND A HALF.
00:50:17.46\00:50:18.20
CRYSTAL CLEAR WATER.
00:50:18.20\00:50:19.46
HIS NAME WAS STRANGER.
00:50:19.46\00:50:21.03
IT'S KIND OF NEAT.
00:50:21.03\00:50:21.73
HE'D GO DOWN MY SLEEPING BAG,
AND HE'D PURR AT THE BOTTOM OF
00:50:21.73\00:50:23.70
MY FEET BEFORE I'D
GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.
00:50:23.70\00:50:25.73
IT'S LIKE A LITTLE FOOT WARMER.
00:50:25.73\00:50:27.60
TO WAKE ME UP,
HE'D PUSH ON MY FACE.
00:50:27.60\00:50:29.53
AND I'D OPEN UP THE SLEEPING
BAG AND HE'D GO DOWN THERE AND
00:50:29.53\00:50:31.80
JUST...
00:50:31.80\00:50:32.56
[PURRS] [LAUGHTER]
00:50:32.56\00:50:35.53
AND OF COURSE, SOMETIMES HE'D
BRING HOME A SQUIRREL AND EAT IT
00:50:35.53\00:50:37.93
ON MY SLEEPING BAG,
SO IT WASN'T ALL GREAT.
00:50:37.93\00:50:40.06
BUT HERE'S A PICTURE OF ME,
I GUESS, WHEN I WAS IN THE CAVE
00:50:40.06\00:50:44.73
WITH STRANGER.
00:50:44.73\00:50:46.66
I LIVED UP THERE
FOR A YEAR AND A HALF.
00:50:46.66\00:50:50.46
AT ONE POINT I GOT ARRESTED AND
SENT TO NEW MEXICO, AND THEN I
00:50:50.46\00:50:52.63
CAME BACK AGAIN.
00:50:52.63\00:50:54.53
BUT... I NEVER WORE ANY CLOTHES.
00:50:54.53\00:50:59.46
I WAS TRYING TO
FIND GOD THROUGH NATURE.
00:50:59.46\00:51:01.93
I'D HIKE DOWN TO PALM SPRINGS
ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK, AND I
00:51:01.93\00:51:05.60
WOULD PANHANDLE, OR I'D
DIG IN THE DUMPSTER FOR FOOD.
00:51:05.60\00:51:10.93
I WAS TOO PROUD TO ASK
MY FATHER FOR ANY HELP.
00:51:10.93\00:51:13.93
BY THE WAY, FIRST TIME I SAW
FRIENDS DIGGING IN THE DUMPSTER,
00:51:13.93\00:51:16.90
IT WAS REVOLTING TO ME.
00:51:16.90\00:51:18.90
BUT I KEPT HANGING AROUND THOSE
PEOPLE, AND PRETTY SOON YOU CAN
00:51:18.90\00:51:20.80
GET USED TO ANYTHING.
00:51:20.80\00:51:22.70
GOTTA PICK YOUR
FRIENDS CAREFULLY.
00:51:22.70\00:51:25.83
MY DAD FOUND OUT -- HE
HAD WORKED SO HARD TO TAKE
00:51:25.83\00:51:27.90
CARE OF US AND PROVIDE FOR US.
00:51:27.90\00:51:29.50
WHEN HE FOUND OUT FROM MY
GRANDFATHER I WAS GETTING FOOD
00:51:29.50\00:51:31.33
OUT OF THE GARBAGE
CAN, IT BROKE HIS HEART.
00:51:31.33\00:51:34.26
AND I'VE OFTEN THOUGHT, "I
WONDER HOW OUR HEAVENLY FATHER
00:51:34.26\00:51:36.50
FEELS WHEN, INSTEAD OF GOING
TO JESUS FOR HAPPINESS, WE GO TO
00:51:36.50\00:51:41.13
THE DUMPSTER OF THE DEVIL."
00:51:41.13\00:51:43.80
WELL, THE MIRACLE I DIDN'T TELL
YOU IS WHEN I MOVED INTO THIS
00:51:43.80\00:51:45.93
CAVE UP THERE IN THE MOUNTAINS,
THERE WAS A BIBLE IN THE CAVE
00:51:45.93\00:51:48.93
SOMEONE HAD LEFT THERE.
00:51:48.93\00:51:50.86
SOMEONE ASKED ME ONE
TIME, "WAS IT A GIDEON BIBLE?
00:51:50.86\00:51:52.96
DID THE GIDEONS PUT IT THERE?"
00:51:52.96\00:51:54.53
I ALWAYS THOUGHT
THAT WAS VERY FUNNY.
00:51:54.53\00:51:55.83
THEY FIGURED HOTEL
ROOMS AND CAVES, EVERYWHERE.
00:51:55.83\00:51:58.36
[LAUGHTER] AND --
BUT IT WAS A KING JAMES
00:51:58.36\00:52:01.83
VERSION.
00:52:01.83\00:52:03.10
AND IT WAS THERE FOR A WHILE,
BUT EVENTUALLY I THOUGHT --
00:52:03.10\00:52:06.60
I KEPT RUNNING INTO CHRISTIANS
AND THEY ALWAYS SEEMED SO
00:52:06.60\00:52:09.90
CARBONATED AND --
"OH, DO YOU KNOW THE LORD?
00:52:09.90\00:52:12.00
HAVE YOU BEEN SAVED?
00:52:12.00\00:52:12.73
ARE YOU SANCTIFIED?"
00:52:12.73\00:52:13.60
AND I THOUGHT, "WHAT IN THE
WORLD ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT?"
00:52:13.60\00:52:16.10
AND I FELT IGNORANT BECAUSE
I'D NEVER REALLY READ THE BIBLE.
00:52:16.10\00:52:19.76
SO ONE DAY I DECIDED, "I'M GONNA
READ THE BIBLE SO I CAN ARGUE
00:52:19.76\00:52:22.30
WITH THESE CHRISTIANS."
00:52:22.30\00:52:24.00
WELL, I'LL TELL YOU:
IT'S A POWERFUL BOOK.
00:52:25.26\00:52:27.93
I STARTED READING; I GOT BOGGED
DOWN IN THE OLD TESTAMENT AND A
00:52:27.93\00:52:30.33
FRIEND SAID, "YOU GOTTA
GO TO THE NEW TESTAMENT."
00:52:30.33\00:52:32.66
SO EVERYDAY I USED TO MAKE
BANANA BREAD, BECAUSE I'D GET
00:52:32.66\00:52:35.00
THE DAY-OLD BANANAS, AND I
MADE MY OWN BREAD IN AN OVEN I'D
00:52:35.00\00:52:37.53
BUILT ON THE FIRE.
00:52:37.53\00:52:39.13
I'D EAT BANANA BREAD
AND I'D READ THE BIBLE.
00:52:39.13\00:52:41.83
HAD A LOT OF
TIME; I WAS A HERMIT.
00:52:41.83\00:52:44.46
I'D GO DAYS -- YOU
EVER GO FIVE DAYS WITHOUT
00:52:44.46\00:52:46.30
SEEING ANOTHER HUMAN BEING?
00:52:46.30\00:52:47.46
I'D GO DAYS
WITHOUT SEEING ANYBODY.
00:52:47.46\00:52:49.13
NO VOICE, NO TV, NO
CELL PHONE, NO NOBODY.
00:52:49.13\00:52:52.23
I COULDN'T GET
ALONG WITH ANYONE.
00:52:52.23\00:52:53.70
I DIDN'T THINK
ANYONE CARED ABOUT ME.
00:52:53.70\00:52:55.23
I JUST WANTED TO RUN AWAY.
00:52:55.23\00:52:58.00
AND AFTER I GOT THROUGH MATTHEW,
MARK, LUKE AND JOHN, THEN I WAS
00:52:58.00\00:53:02.13
FACED WITH THAT DILEMMA
THAT C.S. LEWIS TALKS ABOUT.
00:53:02.13\00:53:05.26
JESUS IS -- I
THOUGHT, "HE REALLY LIVED.
00:53:05.26\00:53:08.80
HE WAS EITHER A LIAR OR HE WAS
A LUNATIC, OR HE WAS GOD BECOME
00:53:08.80\00:53:13.83
MAN.
00:53:13.83\00:53:14.50
HE WAS THE LORD."
00:53:14.50\00:53:16.13
AND YOU KNOW, I'D
TRIED EVERYTHING ELSE.
00:53:16.13\00:53:18.90
I THOUGHT, "WHAT
HAVE I GOT TO LOSE?"
00:53:18.90\00:53:21.10
SO UP THERE IN THE
CAVE ONE TIME, I THOUGHT --
00:53:21.10\00:53:23.10
I FELT SILLY DOING IT BECAUSE
I DIDN'T REALLY EVEN KNOW HOW TO
00:53:23.10\00:53:24.93
PRAY.
00:53:24.93\00:53:26.06
GOT ON MY KNEES; I'D READ ENOUGH
OF THE BIBLE TO GET AN IDEA OF
00:53:26.06\00:53:29.43
HOW IT WORKS AND...
00:53:29.43\00:53:31.03
I SAID, "LORD, I'M A BIG ZERO,
AND IF YOU HAVE ANY PURPOSE FOR
00:53:31.03\00:53:36.03
MY LIFE, WOULD
YOU PLEASE HELP ME?"
00:53:36.03\00:53:38.33
NOW, YOU GOTTA
JUST GET THE PICTURE.
00:53:38.33\00:53:39.86
I MEAN, HERE I AM -- I'M
RUNNING AROUND NAKED UP IN
00:53:39.86\00:53:42.33
THE MOUNTAINS, WITH A BEARD AND
LONG HAIR, STEALING AND CURSING,
00:53:42.33\00:53:47.26
USING DRUGS, DRINKING, LYING.
00:53:47.26\00:53:48.86
I WAS VERY RELIGIOUS, BUT
WAS VERY LOST, LIVING IMMORALLY.
00:53:48.86\00:53:54.36
AND I SAID, "LORD, WOULD
YOU FORGIVE MY SINS" -- I WAS 17
00:53:54.36\00:53:57.86
YEARS OLD -- "AND GIVE
ME SOME PURPOSE FOR LIVING?"
00:53:57.86\00:54:01.76
AND YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T
SEE A FLASH OF LIGHTENING, BUT
00:54:01.76\00:54:05.83
EVERYTHING CHANGED THAT DAY.
00:54:05.83\00:54:08.30
ALL OF A SUDDEN, I FELT THIS
PEACE COME INTO MY HEART, AND I
00:54:08.30\00:54:11.26
JUST KNEW IT WAS TRUE.
00:54:11.26\00:54:13.26
AND I BEGAN TO READ THE BIBLE
AND TRIED THE THINGS THAT WERE
00:54:13.26\00:54:18.13
IN IT, AND IT WAS INCREDIBLE.
00:54:18.13\00:54:21.33
I REMEMBER ONE TIME I WAS DOWN
WITH A FRIEND ON THE STREET AND
00:54:21.33\00:54:23.70
I SAID, "HEY, I JUST PRAYED --
I READ IN THE BIBLE THAT IF WE
00:54:23.70\00:54:27.60
PRAY AND ASK FOR
FOOD THAT GOD'LL FEED US."
00:54:27.60\00:54:30.33
AND WE HAD NO FOOD.
00:54:30.33\00:54:32.46
AND SO I SAID, "LET'S
PLAY AND LET'S PRAY" --
00:54:32.46\00:54:35.70
I PLAYED THE
FLUTE AND PANHANDLED --
00:54:35.70\00:54:37.40
"AND LET'S SEE
IF WE CAN GET $4.00.
00:54:37.40\00:54:39.76
HE SAID, "YOU'RE CRAZY."
00:54:39.76\00:54:40.43
I SAID, "OH, LET'S TRY IT."
00:54:40.43\00:54:41.70
AND WE PRAYED, AND WE STARTED
PLAYING, AND THE FIRST LADY CAME
00:54:41.70\00:54:44.03
BY AND SAID, "OH, TODAY'S MY
SON'S BIRTHDAY, HERE'S $4.00."
00:54:44.03\00:54:48.13
AND THINGS LIKE
THAT KEPT HAPPENING.
00:54:48.13\00:54:50.16
ONE TIME I WENT TO A RESTAURANT
WITH NO FOOD, AND I PRAYED AND
00:54:50.16\00:54:52.20
SAID, "LORD, I'M
HUNGRY, BUT I HAVE NO MONEY."
00:54:52.20\00:54:54.50
THE WAITRESS COMES UP AND SAYS,
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO ORDER?"
00:54:54.50\00:54:56.66
I SAID, "I HAVE NO MONEY."
00:54:56.66\00:54:57.50
SHE SAID, "I'LL
BUY YOUR FOOD TODAY."
00:54:57.50\00:55:00.20
I MEAN, I JUST -- ALL
THESE THINGS, I THINK GOD
00:55:00.20\00:55:01.66
DID THAT FOR ME THEN SO
I'D KNOW HOW REAL HE IS.
00:55:01.66\00:55:06.53
AND YOU KNOW, FROM THAT POINT
TO THIS POINT, IT'S JUST BEEN...
00:55:06.53\00:55:09.86
IT'S BEEN A
TORNADO OF ADVENTURE.
00:55:09.86\00:55:12.16
AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THE
CHRISTIAN LIFE IS AN ABUNDANT
00:55:12.16\00:55:14.13
LIFE.
00:55:14.13\00:55:15.33
GOD HAS OPENED THE WAY NOW.
00:55:15.33\00:55:16.76
THE MORE I TRAVEL AROUND THE
WORLD AND I TELL PEOPLE ABOUT
00:55:16.76\00:55:19.56
HOW HE'S CHANGED MY LIFE AND
HOW HE CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE...
00:55:19.56\00:55:24.46
HOW HE HAS A BIG
PLAN FOR EVERY ONE OF YOU.
00:55:24.46\00:55:27.83
WOULD YOU LIKE TO KNOW WHAT
GOD'S WILL IS FOR YOUR LIFE?
00:55:27.83\00:55:30.80
THE NUMBER ONE STEP TO KNOWING
WHAT GOD'S WILL IS FOR YOUR LIFE
00:55:30.80\00:55:33.83
IS, ARE YOU
WILLING TO DO HIS WILL?
00:55:33.83\00:55:37.40
WHEN YOU SURRENDER YOUR
LIFE INTO HIS HANDS, THEN HE'LL
00:55:37.40\00:55:40.83
REVEAL HIS WILL.
00:55:40.83\00:55:42.86
WELL, YOU KNOW, MY FATHER
PASSED AWAY; MY MOM PASSED AWAY.
00:55:42.86\00:55:49.23
I WAS WITH MY
BROTHER WHEN HE PASSED AWAY.
00:55:49.23\00:55:51.76
THEY HAD ALL THE MONEY AND THE
FAME AND I REMEMBER TALKING TO
00:55:51.76\00:55:55.16
FALCON JUST BEFORE
HE STOPPED BREATHING.
00:55:55.16\00:55:58.00
AND HE USED TO TEASE ME
WHENEVER I PRAYED, BECAUSE OF
00:55:58.00\00:56:00.20
MY RELIGION.
00:56:00.20\00:56:00.96
HE'D ARGUE WITH ME.
00:56:00.96\00:56:02.30
I SAID, "FALCON, WOULD
YOU LET ME PRAY WITH YOU?"
00:56:02.30\00:56:04.80
AND HE SQUEEZED MY HAND
AND HE ASKED ME, "PLEASE PRAY."
00:56:04.80\00:56:07.66
AND YOU DON'T KNOW HOW
DIFFERENT THAT WAS FOR HIM.
00:56:07.66\00:56:09.86
AND SO I WAS ABLE TO PRAY WITH
MY BROTHER, AND I HOPE, I HOPE
00:56:09.86\00:56:13.23
THAT I SEE HIM IN THE KINGDOM.
00:56:13.23\00:56:15.90
YOU KNOW, IT'S EXHIBIT "A"
THAT -- HAPPINESS DOES NOT COME
00:56:17.43\00:56:22.46
FROM FAME.
00:56:22.46\00:56:23.36
IT DOESN'T COME FROM FORTUNE.
00:56:23.36\00:56:24.40
IT DOESN'T COME FROM THE WORLD.
00:56:24.40\00:56:26.03
THE ONLY HAPPINESS COMES FROM
YOUR CREATOR WHO LOVES YOU SO
00:56:26.03\00:56:29.53
MUCH THAT HE DIED TO SAVE YOU.
00:56:29.53\00:56:33.00
AND AS WE CLOSE THIS MEETING
RIGHT NOW, I'D JUST LIKE TO ASK
00:56:33.00\00:56:36.70
YOU, AND EVEN THOSE
WHO MAY BE WATCHING...
00:56:36.70\00:56:40.06
DO YOU KNOW WHAT
GOD'S WILL IS FOR YOUR LIFE?
00:56:40.06\00:56:42.03
I'LL TELL YOU: IT'S TO SURRENDER
AND TRUST YOUR LIVES TO JESUS.
00:56:42.03\00:56:46.63
WOULD YOU LIKE TO DO THAT NOW?
00:56:46.63\00:56:47.96
BEFORE WE CLOSE, I'D JUST LIKE
TO PRAY WITH EACH ONE OF YOU.
00:56:49.76\00:56:52.66
FATHER IN HEAVEN,
THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE.
00:56:54.03\00:56:57.43
THANK YOU FOR SENDING JESUS.
00:56:57.43\00:56:59.40
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE
AND YOUR PERSISTENCE TO SAVE US.
00:56:59.40\00:57:03.20
BE WITH EACH OF
THESE YOUNG PEOPLE.
00:57:03.20\00:57:05.80
AND I PRAY THAT YOU'LL FORGIVE
THEIR SINS AND REVEAL YOURSELF
00:57:05.80\00:57:08.56
TO THEM.
00:57:08.56\00:57:09.63
IN CHRIST'S NAME WE ASK, AMEN.
00:57:09.63\00:57:12.26
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