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[MIKE] Welcome to It Is Written
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Canada.
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Thank you for joining us here
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in the boys dorm at
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Fountainview Academy in
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beautiful British Columbia and
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we are with our special guest,
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Caleb Tam, who happens to be
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one of the boys dorm deans and
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he is prepared to share with us
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his story about how tragedy
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struck his life, probably the
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worst thing that anyone could
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ever possibly think of.
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>> Caleb, we are really looking
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forward to spending time with
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you today.
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Welcome to It Is Written
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Canada.
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>> Oh, thank you, it's a
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honour to be here.
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>> So, Caleb, I wanna start off
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by asking you to kind of
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introduce yourself to us.
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What do you like to do?
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[CALEB] I'm a huge fan of
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the outdoors.
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I grew up in the country and my
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sister and I, we'd spend all our
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time exploring different
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ridges, climbing mountains,
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hiking, mountain biking,
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climbing trees, falling out
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of trees...
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One of our favourite things to
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do is wait for a thunderstorm
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and then we'd go, when it's
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really windy, go to the top of
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a tree and, you know, you get
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blown around.
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It's pretty exciting.
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>> Oh, wow!
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>> Probably wasn't the smartest
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idea if there's lightning, but
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yeah, I love the outdoors and
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spending time in God's nature.
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My mom was also music teacher
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and as a result we had a lot of
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music in our home and I've
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always been really passionate
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about music and I've really
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enjoyed it.
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I play piano, I sing, I play
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trumpet and French horn as well
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and it's something we like to
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do as a family.
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On top of that, I have a
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passion for sharing God's
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character and for sharing who
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He is and what He's done for me
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and I especially enjoy doing
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that one-on-one with young
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people and that's one of the
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reasons why I'm here at
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Fountainview Academy, to be
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able to share what Christ has
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done in my life with others and
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so they can see a glimpse of who
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He is and how much He loves
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them individually.
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God has shown His character and
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His love to me in ways that
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I've never seen before and I've
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realized that one of the
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biggest problems we have now
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today is that we have
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misperceptions of God's
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character of who He is and how
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He views us and as a result our
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relationship with Him is based
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on fear, based on, "Oh, I gotta
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do this because then I'll earn
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God's favour," instead of, "Oh,
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this is how He sees me and
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because of His love for me I
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wanna love Him back with
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everything I've got."
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And, in fact, it was actually
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as I was preparing a vespers
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talk to talk about God's
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character and the ways that we
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don't understand it, that
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someone mentioned the book,
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Finding the Father by Herb
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Montgomery to me and it's so
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intrigued me that I actually,
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right there, I got on Amazon
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and I ordered it and that book
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has given me so many new
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insights into God's character
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and how He views us that have
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just blown my mind.
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And as I've seen clearer and
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still clearer pictures of who
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He is and as the Bible has just
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become so interesting as I see
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things that I've never seen
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before, passages that before I
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found dry, it's like, "Oh, I
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just gotta go through this and
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get on with my day."
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Now I see God's love for me
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poured out in those stories and
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how He views me and treasures
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me as a son.
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>> Caleb, tell us about
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your family.
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>> So I was actually born in
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Langley which is in lower
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mainland of British Columbia
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and my dad is an electrical
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engineer and my mom was music
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teacher there at Fraser Valley
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Adventist Academy.
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And my sister was born a couple
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years before I was.
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Yeah and so our parents wanted
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to give us every opportunity to
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know God and to therefore raise
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us in an environment that was
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conducive to that and therefore
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in 2004 when I was two, my
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parents decided to leave my
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dad's job with BC Hydro and my
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mom had actually already quit
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working so that way she could
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be full time at home with us
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and we moved out to Cranbrook
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which is in southeast British
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Columbia.
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One of the reasons we moved to
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the country was so that my
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sister and I could be
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homeschooled in a country
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setting.
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My mom actually never worked
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again after my sister was born
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and instead she was full time
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at home with us and therefore
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we, both my sister and I,
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developed very close ties to
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our mother.
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You know, I think most people
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growing up, they all have one
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or two things in their minds
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that are their greatest fears.
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They're willing to face a lot
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of stuff, but there's a couple
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things that are just in the
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"don't touch that" area, zone,
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things that they're unwilling
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to face that there's like, "No,
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there's no way that's ever
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gonna happen to me, I'm not
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gonna let it."
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My biggest fear was losing a
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parent and I always just kinda
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push it to the back of my head,
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like, "You know you don't--
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that's not gonna happen,
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not to me."
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But then in 2018 my mom's
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health actually began to
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deteriorate and we were all
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worried, like, "What's going on
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here?" and it wasn't like my
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mom was doing anything to cause
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her health to get worse, in
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fact she was probably the
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healthiest, at least one of the
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healthiest people I've
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ever met.
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She would go to the garden and
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pick raw kale and spinach and
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collard and stuff it in the
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blender and take, like, a
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little slice of apple and drop
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it in there, whip it up and...
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You know, to get that down you
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gotta, like, plug your nose and
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just swallow and to just get it
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over with and eat something to
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help the lovely flavours to
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disintegrate quickly.
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So, of course, in my mind it's
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like, "Well, my mom's so
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healthy, she's gonna get better
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and besides, she's given her
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everything to God, to--
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and for us.
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Therefore, God'll protect her,
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won't He?
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I mean, He's not gonna let her
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pass away."
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And so I just entertained these
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thoughts of unwillingness to
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ever let anything happen, but
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my mom's health actually began
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to get worse and I remember,
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one day in particular, I was
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with my dad in town, I think we
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were doing some mountain
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biking, and just as we're
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getting back in the car, my
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dad's phone rings and it's Mom
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and she's like, "I'm coming to
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the hospital.
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Something's up with my blood
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sugar and it's just going
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crazy, I need to get this
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checked out."
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And at this point, her health
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had been declining for a couple
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months already and I remember a
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specific spot on the highway
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where we were driving home with
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Dad, so on Highway 3 between
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Cranbrook and Wardner there and
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my dad and I, for the first
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time, talked about, "You know,
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what if Mom doesn't make it?"
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And that was the first time
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that I really had to come face
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to face with this fear that,
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you know, maybe, this, my
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biggest fear might actually
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materialize and if that
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happens, what am I gonna do?
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Am I gonna allow that to just
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crush me down or am I gonna
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say, "No, I know that I can
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trust God anyway."
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And that was kind of the first
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time this thought was
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introduced to me and
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it was really hard.
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I was 15 at the time and having
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your mom's life teetering isn't
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the best thing at that age.
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[MIKE] So, Caleb, did they have
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any idea what she had?
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What kind of sickness?
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[CALEB] Not really, honestly.
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I mean, it kinda started with
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severe insomnia.
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There'd be days when she
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wouldn't sleep for several
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nights in a row, like, at all
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and that's, that just takes
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it's toll on your body, right,
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and on top of that she had lots
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of blood sugar problems and
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problems with her adrenals and
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eventually we discovered that
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Lyme disease was involved, but
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that was further down the road
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when we found that out.
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But to this day we don't
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entirely know what was going on.
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[MIKE] So there was no cancer?
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>> No, there was no cancer
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involved and we spent thousands
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of dollars and we travelled to
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different places trying to at
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least get a diagnosis so we can
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have some idea what's going on,
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but most things we tried, her
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body would just reject them and
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she'd feel horrible so we--
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Every door we'd try to walk
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through, you know, to find some
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answers, it'd just slam again
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and again and again.
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>> That's so frustrating, not
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knowing, and she keeps getting
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sicker and sicker.
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So did she stay home?
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>> Yeah, she was home for the
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entire time.
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>> Mm-hm.
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And who was taking care of her?
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>> So when she first began
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getting sick, or I guess a few
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months after she began getting
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sick, my sister was taking a
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one-year course at Selkirk
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College in Castlegar so it was
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my dad and I at home with my
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mom for the first part of her
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illness as she was getting
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worse.
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So we'd make her food and get
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her whatever she needed and a
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few months later down the road
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as she was getting worse and
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more emaciated and wasn't able
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to do as much for herself,
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there came a point where we
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actually had a doorbell system
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where she had-- my mom had
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doorbell she could ring and it
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would ring in our rooms in the
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middle of the night and we'd
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take shifts to go get her
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whatever she needed because
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with her blood sugar, she often
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couldn't make it through the
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night without getting something
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small to eat even though
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every time she ate it made her
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feel worse.
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She had no choice and therefore
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we were basically providing
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24/7 care for her, especially
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later on as she became more
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bed-ridden.
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>> And then, Caleb, you decided
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to come to Fountainview Academy
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as a senior student here and so
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it must have been so hard for
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you to leave home at that time,
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knowing that your mom was
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so sick.
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>> Yeah, for sure.
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The door opened for me to come
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here to Fountainview Academy.
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The back of my mind all the
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time is, like, "Well, you know,
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my mom might not be around for
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that much longer," and, of
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course, as long as she's alive
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there's hope that we can-- that
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I could cling to and hang on to
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that, yeah, God's gonna heal
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her, just wait, just have faith.
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And, of course, I'm always
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clinging onto that, but at the
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same time I realize
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realistically that, "Well, she's
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probably not gonna make it."
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So, yeah, coming here to
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Fountainview and having to
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leave home with that in mind
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was difficult and just the
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mental strain going through all
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this is tough.
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>> How long, how long did the
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sickness last?
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>> So she began, her health
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began to deteriorate in
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probably around March of 2018
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and by early 2019 she was
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nearly bed-ridden and she
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finally passed away in October
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of 2019.
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[RENÉ] So when was the last time
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that you saw your mom then,
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before she passed away?
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>> When I went to-- when I came
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here to Fountainview Academy I
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came here with the realization,
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the acknowledgement that, you
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know, I might not be able to
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see her again, but October,
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beginning of October was fall
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break and I remembered going
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home and walking in the house
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and seeing my mom there at, she
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was probably, like, 90 pounds
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at that point and she was frail
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and it was really hard to see
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her in that state.
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She had always been worsening,
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but it was always progressive
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and then as soon as I left home
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for a bit and I came back and
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saw a difference, it was really
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hard and I remember that time
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actually I went up the hill
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behind our house, we have a
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little platform there that, in
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a tree, that my dad built for
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us when we were younger and I
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remember, actually it was over
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that break that, there was one
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day that she just really wasn't
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feeling well and...
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And then she started throwing
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up in response to something
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that she ate probably and it
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was, it just-- my sister and I
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just couldn't take it, it just
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ripped us apart and I ran up the
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hill and I threw myself on the
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ground and I just, I was just
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in tears crying asking God,
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"Why? Why are You letting
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this happen?
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Are You faithful, are You good,
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are You who You say You are?
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You've performed these miracles
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in the Bible, why can't You do
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it now?"
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Then I sat on the platform, I
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mentioned I was overlooking the
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valley, beautiful day, and I
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just looked up at God and I
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told Him all the reasons why I
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needed my mom.
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I told Him that He couldn't
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take her away because this and
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that and the other.
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Basically I was telling God
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what He could and couldn't do,
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what I was willing for Him to
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do and what I wasn't willing
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for Him to do and looking back,
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it's pretty clear I wasn't
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surrendering and, you know,
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we're told that we have to
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surrender all and that includes
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the things that we hold, and
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the people that we hold most
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dear to us.
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And I remember there as I was,
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tears streaming down my face,
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sitting on that platform, I
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remember God speaking to me
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saying, "Do you trust Me?
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Do you trust Me enough?"
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And up to this point I had
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tried to surrender a few times,
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but I remember that day
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overlooking the valley that, it
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just hit me that, you know, I
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can't, even if I wanted to,
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there's nothing I can do to
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save her and if God can see the
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end from the beginning and He
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loves her and me more than
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anyone else, the only thing I
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could do was say, "Okay, fine.
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I'm done fighting on my own.
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I'll give her to You and I'll
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trust that whatever outcome You
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see best is the best because
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You are love and because You
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can have a purpose even in the
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pain and maybe You can bring me
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to a place and teach me about
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You that I would not have been
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able to reach otherwise without
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going through this trial."
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And I remember, as hard as it
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was, I had peace, I had peace
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that night, as hard as it was
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to see my mom in that state and
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I knew at the end of break when
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I got on the airplane to come
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back here to Fountainview that
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I probably wouldn't see
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her again.
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The last time I spoke to my mom
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was probably about two weeks
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after break.
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I remember calling home and
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usually when I call home, my
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dad would answer the phone
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'cause my mom was pretty weak
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and honestly answering the
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phone and talking was, like,
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all she could do at that point.
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Usually I'd talk to my dad and
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say, "How's Mom?" and it was
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always, "Just a little worse,"
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you know, and that was hard.
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And this one night in
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particular, it was Sunday
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night, October 20, 2019 and I
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remember I called home and
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instead of hearing my dad pick
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up, my mom actually picked up
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the phone and we only talked
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for 5 or 10 seconds, that's
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all, it's all she could do.
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But I remember, she said,
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"I love you," and those are
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actually the last words that I
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heard, that I heard from my mom.
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The next day started as usual,
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didn't think anything different
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of the day and I remember I was
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sitting in biology class that
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afternoon, I had just given a
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presentation, I just sat down
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and there was a knock on
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the door, a couple of my
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classmates from a different
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split, they said, "Caleb, you
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got a phone call upstairs."
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And I remember just then, it
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just-- I just knew.
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I just knew what was going on
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and just, it just hit me and...
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Just, I remember the mental
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turmoil that was going on as I
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went up the stairs to the
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office to take that phone call
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and it was my dad on the other
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end and then I heard the
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hardest words I ever heard in
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my life and it was my own dad
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saying, "Mom passed away this
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morning," and it just
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extinguished the little bit of
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hope that I had left that I was
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still hanging onto that maybe
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God will heal her, maybe
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something would happen, right?
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>> So, Caleb, what was the
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initial response then to your
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mom's death at that time?
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>> I think it forced me to
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evaluate who I was as a person
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and ultimately we all have to
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answer the question, who am I,
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what is my identity?
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And when all the things that we
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think characterize who we are,
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when some of those are taken
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away, for example, when my
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identity as my mother's son is
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taken away, what do I have left?
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And the only thing that can't
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be taken from us is our
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identity as the children of
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God, because of His love for
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us, our identity as Christians,
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and I remember having to face
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that question, like, "Now what?
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Am I still gonna believe and
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trust and love God?
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Or am I gonna cause this to
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separate me from Him?"
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And I really had to, at that
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point, decide, you know, this
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isn't my mom's religion
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anymore, this is mine.
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It's now that I have to
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decide that...
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...God is my God.
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There's a quote that someone
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said once, "God doesn't have
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grandkids," and I think that's
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really deep if we think
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about it.
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We-- our relationship with God
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can't be through someone else,
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we have to know Him personally
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for who He is and realize that
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He knows us individually and...
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I chose that I wasn't gonna let
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go of God 'cause I needed Him
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and I felt my need of Him like
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never before and through that
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time, He, the next few days, He
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was there for me and I felt His
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presence, like I never had
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before.
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I remember He was my strength,
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He was my comfort, that that
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afternoon, just a couple hours
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later, I remember walking down
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the hall of the school
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building, I was singing Great
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Is Thy Faithfulness...
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>> So, Caleb, how did the Bible
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help you in dealing with your
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mother's death?
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[CALEB] Well, the Bible is
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essentially a love letter from
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God to us, it's a depiction of
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His character, of His thoughts
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toward us and, therefore, I
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found it to be a great solace,
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great comfort to me
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during that time.
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I remember that evening I
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opened my Bible to Isaiah 61
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and verse 3, it says, speaking
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of Jesus that the spirit of the
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Lord God is upon Him...
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And then it says why, "That He
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might be glorified."
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And that really spoke to me
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that God has a purpose that
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somehow through this pain, He
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can be glorified and He can
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turn these ashes into beauty,
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He can turn my mourning into
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joy, He can turn this spirit of
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heaviness into praise and make
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something beautiful out of it.
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And one of my mom's favourite
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verses actually, 2 Corinthians,
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chapter 4, verse 17, it says...
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Some day when I look back at
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this life I've trod here below
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and I've-- and I look at the
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pain that I've gone through,
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that I'll be able to look at my
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Redeemer and the nail scars in
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His hand and what He's done for
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me and I'll be able to say,
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"Thank you...thank You that You
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allowed me to go through this,
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that I could come to a better
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understanding of You," and
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ultimately going through this
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has brought both me and my
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sister so much closer to God
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and if her sufferings were what
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allowed my sister and I in the
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end to be safe, she would have
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gladly done it a thousand times
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for us.
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>> And, Caleb, your mom, even
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though she was going through so
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much pain and suffering, she
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never let go of her faith
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in God.
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[CALEB] No.
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>> She always held onto Him.
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That must have been so
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impactful for you.
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[CALEB] Yeah.
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Yeah, for sure.
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I remember how much the Bible
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meant to her in the last few
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months of her life and it's
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powerful that there'd be days
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we'd be walking by and she'd
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say, "Open my Bible and read to
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me a verse."
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And just the privilege that, I
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wish I had done it more, but
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the privilege that I had a few
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times just to just open up to
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some beautiful Psalm, some
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promise of God, to sustain, to
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give strength, that He-- the
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promise of His love, His
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faithfulness, to be able to
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share that with my mom in her
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darkest days is a blessing
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to me.
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>> So, Caleb, you are now a
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dean here at Fountainview
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Academy, how do you see God's
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purpose being fulfilled in your
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life right now?
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>> I think as humanity and as
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Christians we have a lot of
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misconceptions, misperceptions
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about God's character and how
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He sees us.
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I wanna do my part to share
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with others who God is and to
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use my own testimony, the
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things that I've gone to
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to say, "Look, I've lost my
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mom, the worst thing I could
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ever imagine, and yet I can
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tell you that God is good and
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God is faithful."
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>> So, Caleb, you mentioned
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that your family was very
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musical.
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Your mom was the music director
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for an academy and I believe
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that you wrote a song.
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>> One of my passions is
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song-writing and sharing with
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others who God is through music
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and so I wrote a song entitled
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"I Chose To Trust" and it talks
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about how even when we can't
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see God's face, we can choose
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to trust, knowing that He's in
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control and through our tears,
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through our broken pieces,
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He'll put them together, He'll
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put them back together and some
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day, we'll look back and in our
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broken pieces, we'll see His
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face, we'll see how He was
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leading us and then I tie that
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into my own experience losing
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my mom and how God's in control
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and no matter what happens,
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we're sheltered in His hands.
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[gentle piano music]
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¤¤
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¤ Father, if Your face
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¤ is lost in darkness
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¤ And Your tender voice ¤
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¤ no longer I hear
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¤ If my cries echo off
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¤ the starry silence
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¤ But no answer I receive
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¤ and Your hand
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¤ remains unclear
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¤ If You deem it best
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¤ to take away my mama
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¤ And replace my fragile heart ¤
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¤ with broken space ¤
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¤ If You decide to nevermore ¤
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¤ fulfill my longing
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¤ To look into her eyes
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¤ or feel her warm embrace
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¤ I choose to trust
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¤ the Rock that is
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¤ higher than high
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¤ To fill my empty heartache ¤
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¤ to hear my silent cry
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¤ And even though my heart
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¤ in a thousand pieces lay
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¤ I rest assured that some day
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¤ when I trace this life
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¤ I've trod
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¤ That my shattered tears
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¤ they in pieces would reveal
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¤ the face of God
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¤¤
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¤ Your perfect way
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¤ I cannot begin
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¤ to fathom
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¤ And salvation's grand design
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¤ I cannot see
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¤ But the shadow
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¤ of Your wings
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¤ remains my refuge
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¤ And my Father's
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¤ precious child
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¤ evermore I'll be
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¤ I choose to trust
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¤ the Rock that is
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¤ higher than high
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¤ To fill my empty heartache ¤
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¤ To hear my silent cry
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¤ And even though my heart
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¤ in a thousand pieces lay
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¤ I rest assured that some day
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¤ when I trace this life
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¤ I've trod
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¤That my shattered tears
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¤ they in pieces would reveal
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¤ the face of God
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¤¤
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>> Caleb, thank you so much for
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sharing that song and I wonder,
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in conclusion, if you could
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pray, pray for our viewers,
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those who are watching this
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program and are really touched
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by your story as we have been.
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Can you pray for us right now?
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>> Absolutely.
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Let's bow our heads.
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Father, thank You that You are
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love and thank You that You
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choose to reveal that love to
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us, Lord, in Your interactions
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with us that You have proven
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Yourself faithful time and time
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again even when we don't
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respond in the same way.
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Lord, in Psalm chapter 50,
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verse 21 You say...
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Father, help us to not put You
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in a human box, but instead to
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realize that You're so much
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higher than us, that You don't
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respond and think and feel in
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the same way that we do.
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Therefore, Father, we wanna
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trust You 'cause You can see
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the end from the beginning and
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You love us so much and we ask
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all these things in Jesus'
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name, amen.
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[MIKE & RENÉ] Amen.
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>> Thank you so much, Caleb,
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for being willing to share your
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story and how God has really
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moved and is moving in your
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life now here on It Is Written
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Canada, thank you.
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>> Oh, thank you.
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It's been a pleasure.
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>> Friends, as Caleb shared
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with us, the book, Finding the
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Father, changed his
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understanding of God.
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So our free offer for you is
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that book, Finding the Father
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by Herb Montgomery.
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[MIKE] Finding the Father goes
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straight to the root of several
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moral dilemmas and sweeps aside
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the misperceptions of God and
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His character that often cause
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us to reject the only one who
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truly loves us.
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Friends, we want you to
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experience the truth that is
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found in the words of Jesus
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when He said, "It is written,
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‘Man shall not live by bread
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alone, but by every word that
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proceeds out of the mouth
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of God.'"
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[piano playing the tune
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Great Is Thy Faithfulness]
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¤¤
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