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>> Hello and welcome to
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It Is Written Canada.
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Today we're gonna be talking
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to Lorna Spencer.
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Lorna is a mother,
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a homemaker, a woman of God,
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a woman with many talents
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including writing and she has
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written a book called,
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I'm Still Standing, she's
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telling her personal story.
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And Lorna's with us today and
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I'm looking at your book here,
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Lorna, and it's an amazing
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title, we've heard those words
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before, but what you're
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standing on there is solid
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rock and you're in the midst
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of an ocean.
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So thank you for joining us
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and thank you for being
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prepared to share your story
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with us today.
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>> Thank you for having me.
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It's an honour to be here and
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most importantly, thanks to
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God for this opportunity and
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to you, the host of
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It Is Written Canada,
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it's an honour to be here.
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>> Well, Lorna, tell us about
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yourself, so tell us who is
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Lorna Spencer?
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>> Lorna Spencer is a
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Seventh-day Adventist
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Christian, a woman who has
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found her worth in Jesus
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Christ and as you've said I am
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a mother of two young-adult
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daughters, I am an author of
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the book, I'm Still Standing,
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I'm an inspirational speaker,
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a mental health advocate,
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and an early childhood
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educator by profession.
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>> That's multiple talents.
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>> Yes, very talented.
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>> And lots of
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responsibilities.
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[Lorna] Thank you.
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>> So, Lorna, can you give us
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a synopsis of your book
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that you wrote?
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>> Yes, the book,
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I'm Still Standing, the title
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came after praying and fasting.
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After my pastor, Dr. Maitland,
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and my best friend, Tana,
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continued to bother me about
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writing a book and having a
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story, Dr. Maitland gave the
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title, "I Survived."
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However, that title didn't
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seem quite fitting.
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And so I prayed about it and
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came up with the title,
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I'm Still Standing.
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And I'm Still Standing is a
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story of Lorne Gregory who was
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a new bride and she was on the
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top of the world after
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getting married.
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But just two weeks after
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marriage, her world came
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crashing down.
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The man that she married
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turned out not to be who he
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claimed to be.
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He was living a double life.
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Very maladaptive kind of
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lifestyle, very outlandish
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kind of lifestyle.
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He had multiple women,
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including a child that I
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didn't know about and after
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finding out the details of his
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sordid affairs--
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He didn't tell me, by the way.
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I had to investigate him to
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dig to the bottom of
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the truth.
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It came to the point where I
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had to make a decision between
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the man that I love
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or loving myself.
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I chose to love myself and so
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I had to end my marriage.
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Along the way there were,
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you know, heartbreak, there
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was a pregnancy that came
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about because of a violation
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from my husband and I was
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pregnant with twins and I
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wasn't excited about being
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pregnant after all, you know,
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how it happened and
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I didn't know if I could love,
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you know, the child, at that
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time I didn't know
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it was twins.
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And so I had to praise God,
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you know, to ask Him to help
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me to accept my situation and
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the fact that I was going to
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be a mother again.
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And so I fell in love with
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these babies, but three months
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after that I had a miscarriage
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and that sent me into the
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abyss of darkness.
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I had given up the will to
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live, I felt as though all
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hope was gone and prayer was
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my weapon.
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Prayer was the key to finding
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my way back to reality.
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And so that's the synopsis of
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I'm Still Standing.
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>> You went through quite a
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lot, I mean this is very, very
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devastating, everything you
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went through.
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The title, I'm Still Standing,
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obviously saying this has not
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destroyed you...
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>> That's right.
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>> At times did it feel
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like that?
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>> Oh, absolutely.
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There were times when I felt
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defeated, I was perplexed,
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I felt as though I was
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destroyed and--
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because my life was so wrapped
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up and tied up in Jones,
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you know, and wanting to be
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loved and wanting to be happy.
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I, you know, when my world
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fell apart, it hit me hard.
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But the good thing about it is
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that I knew Christ.
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I had a relationship with
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Jesus Christ and although it
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was difficult and challenging
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and overwhelming, I still had
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a glimpse of hope and I prayed
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like Hannah and Rachel
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and Naomi.
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Prayer became my way of life.
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And so although it was hard,
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prayer helped me to live.
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Prayer kept me standing.
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>> You know, Lorna, I read
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your book and there were many
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times that I had to put the
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book down and I'm like,
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"I need to finish this book,"
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"but I just can't read"
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"any more."
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>> Oh dear!
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[René] I had to put it down a
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little bit, but the thing that
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really stood out to me was the
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way that you had just
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mentioned now, that you just
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hung onto Jesus right through
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all of this.
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I was like, "This is"
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"incredible, it's such an"
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"inspiration," because you
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did, you prayed and you didn't
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put God aside.
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[Lorna] No.
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>> You-- like, He was...
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He was really your life line.
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[Lorna] My anchor, yes.
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[René] And your anchor, as you
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were going through all of
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this, you know, and I think
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for me, that was very
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encouraging because I would
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read and would like, "How is"
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"she going through this?"
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Like, you know, how can
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someone live a double life and
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be such a good con artist?
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[Lorna] Mmhmm!
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[René] And you were just, you
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know, and then I was like,
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"OK, I need to finish it,"
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but I was so angry and so
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upset, you know, but then I
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need to finish it, but the
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thing that was really
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inspirational was that, like
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you said, Jesus was your
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anchor and He helped you to go
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through this and because of
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Him you're still standing.
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>> I am, I am, yes.
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And it's just a testament of
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God's faithfulness.
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My testimony, my story is a
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testament of God's
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faithfulness and although it
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was difficult for me to be
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transparent and put myself out
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there, you know, knowing that
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not everyone will get it
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because I have been
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scrutinized and criticized
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so I would be foolish to think
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that everyone would be
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receptive of my story.
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However, my message is for
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hope because I know what it's
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like to feel hopeless,
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I know what it's like to
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suffer in silence and I want
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people to know that with God
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they can overcome their
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circumstances, only with God.
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And so it's important for them
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to hold on to Christ and,
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you know, don't play church.
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If I was playing church,
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everything that I went
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through, I don't think I would
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still be in the church because
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many people have gone through
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challenging circumstances and
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they become angry at God.
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They turn their back on Him.
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I held onto Him even with a
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more assuring grasp than ever
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before, a stronger grasp
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knowing that Christ was the
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only one who could help me get
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through and come out
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a better person.
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>> So was it difficult to
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share your story?
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Did you find yourself going
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through times of crying and
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emotional-- you know, how did
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you deal with that? Yeah.
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[Lorna] Oh, yes. [laughs]
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It was very difficult.
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Writing I'm Still Standing
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is how I gained victory over
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my brokenness, is how I
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got my healing.
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First I thought that I was
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healed, you know, like six,
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ten months after my life came
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crashing down and I thought I
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had forgiven Jones for the
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things that he had done and
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then when I took the challenge
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to write the book and every
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time, you know, I would sit in
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my chair to pen my thoughts,
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tears would begin to stream
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down my cheeks and I couldn't
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understand what was happening
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at the time because here I am,
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I thought I was OK, you know,
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but I had gotten over my
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bitterness and my anger,
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but here I was, emotional,
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falling apart, beside myself.
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I cried so much to the point
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where I felt as if my brain
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was gonna explode and then
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there were times that I had to
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self-talk, you know, to calm
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myself down and to remind
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myself of the brain condition
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that I have because the more
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emotional I get is the more
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intense the pain in
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my head becomes.
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And so it was quite difficult.
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Even being transparent,
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you know, was hard.
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But I knew that if I wanted to
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help people that I needed to
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be as transparent as I
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could be.
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>> So, Lorna, you trusted this
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man so much.
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You gave him your heart,
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you married him.
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How did it go from trusting
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him to saying, "Wait, I can't"
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"trust this man anymore?"
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What were the kind of steps
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along the way?
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'Cause it didn't just
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happen overnight.
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>> I went from not trusting--
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from loving Jones to being...
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mistrusting of him based on
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the fact that after getting
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married he did not move into
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our home,
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our matrimonial home.
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[Mike] So he was living
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somewhere else?
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>> He was living
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somewhere else.
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He was sleeping out at least
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three nights per week.
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The only time that I would see
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him was on Saturday.
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He would come on Friday night
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to make himself available to
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go to church on Saturday.
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And then after church we would
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interact, fellowship with my
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friends and worship and have
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lunch together and then
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Saturday evening he'd
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be gone again.
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And it-- things didn't add up
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in my brain.
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There were, you know, things
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replaying and I was very
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troubled, it's my--
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>> So you asked him questions?
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>> I asked him questions, but
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he was not being forthcoming.
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He was like a log, I could get
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nothing out of him.
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And so I prayed about it.
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I fasted and I asked God--
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I mean God knew how troubled
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and disturbed that I was and
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that I needed answers.
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I asked God for guidance and
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then it hit me:
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Hire a private investigator.
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And I don't know where I came
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up with that idea and I could
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only say God gave me the idea
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and it was the only way
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for me to get the answers
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that I needed.
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And so he followed Jones for
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four days.
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He followed him at his
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workplace and from his
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workplace to an apartment and
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then finally the final stop
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that Jones made was at another
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apartment where he parked
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underground and came up from
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underground and the only way
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to get into the building,
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you must have access so he
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must have had a fob of some
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sort to unlock the doors.
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And so the pictures and the
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video showed Jones going into
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the elevator, going up to an
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apartment and all of this
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information was being fed to
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me by the private investigator
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and so I realized, "Hmm,"
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"something is not right here."
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You know, and so there wasn't
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anything concrete to go to
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Jones with and so I told the
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private investigator to keep
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searching, to keep
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following him.
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And then finally on day four,
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Jones went back to this
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apartment where he walked out
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with a child in his arms and
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from that apartment, which
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happens to be a daycare by the
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way, he picked up his son from
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daycare and now went to the
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second apartment which is
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where he resides with the
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mother of his child.
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So all the times Jones was
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missing from my home during
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the week, he was at home
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with his--
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>> With another woman.
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>> With another woman and a
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son, yes.
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>> And when you did ask him
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and you started asking
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questions, he said that he had
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another job.
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[Lorna] He said he had--
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[René] And so he answered
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obviously dishonestly, right?
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[Lorna] Yes, yes.
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>> And so there would be
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another reason why you
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couldn't trust him.
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>> Absolutely, absolutely.
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I mean, Jones, he's always
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been very private and
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protective of his things, but
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when he wasn't, you know,
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around much I find out that he
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was around less after marriage
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than when we were courting.
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And all of those red flags
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just didn't add up and so I
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felt that I needed to
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get answers.
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But the answers that I got
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were shocking.
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I was not prepared to have
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found out the things that I
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had discovered.
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>> So you are in a place where
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it's just like
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pretty much a nightmare.
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[Lorna] Yes.
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>> And you know that you can't
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trust this man.
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You called him "Jones,"
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that's not his real name.
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[Lorna] That's right.
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[Mike] It's a pseudonym to
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protect him.
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[Lorna] Yes, yes.
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[Mike] And so he's doing all
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these things.
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Did you get help from
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someone else?
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>> My pastor, Dr. Maitland,
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was very supportive.
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He was the pastor that
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officiated our marriage.
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He counselled us for months.
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All through our counselling,
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I mean, Jones said all the
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right things, I mean, you know,
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he had won everybody over.
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He played his role very well.
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And as I said in the book,
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if he was to win, you know,
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if he had--
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if he was nominated because of
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his acting skills he would win
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the Oscar, and the Emmy and...
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But Pastor Maitland was there
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to support me and guide me and
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also my best friend who I
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refer to as "Tango" in the
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book, she was very supportive
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as well.
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She carried my pain,
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she carried my burden.
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God is such and awesome God
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because He knew I couldn't
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carry this burden and
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this pain.
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If I had to carry the full
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effect of the pain that was
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inflicted on me, I don't think
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I would be here right now.
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But my best friend carried my
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pain, she felt my pain.
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There were times when at the
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beginning when my world came
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crashing down, I didn't shed a
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tear, I didn't cry.
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But my best friend cried for
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me and that just goes to show
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how God knows best and that He
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works in such awesome ways.
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You know, so I had the support
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of my best friend and
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my pastor.
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My daughters, of course, they
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were supportive, you know, as
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supportive as they could be.
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My mom who was a praying woman
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of God, I knew she was
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praying for me.
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My adopted mom who is my best
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friend's mom is also a prayer
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warrior and I knew that there
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were people who loved me who
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were praying for me, yes.
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>> In the book, I am
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Pastor Moore.
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I am the one who did the
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counselling, pre-marital
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counselling, did the wedding,
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did baptism, did follow-up
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after the wedding, and tried
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to mend what was broken.
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Part of Lorna's transparency
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that strikes me was the
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motivation that she received
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from what was not happening.
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She had married a man who was
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anything but transparent and
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he was hiding everything,
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everything was undercover.
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This man had a mistress who
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had a child for him, 14 months
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old that he was covering up so
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I could see some of that come
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out in Lorna saying, "Mm-mm,"
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"I cannot cover up the mess,"
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"but I'll be transparent,"
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"let the world know who I am"
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"and what's happening to me"
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"so that in order to receive"
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"help, that help can only"
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"come if God and the world"
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"knows what I'm"
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"going through."
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>> In the book I'm "Tango,"
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I'm Lorna's best friend.
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I chose that name because it
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meant "Tana on the go"
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and I'm always on the go.
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Being transparent was so
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important because it allowed
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others to open their own self.
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A lot of people are becoming
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like prisoners within
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themselves because they're in
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so much pain.
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They're walking around...
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with a mask...
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hiding behind
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their shame, their hurt,
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their pain, their rejection.
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Not until you remove the mask
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will you be able to
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be true to yourself
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and to be true to God.
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>> In the book, Lorna was
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incredibly transparent and I
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think that as she journeyed
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with God through this
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experience He encouraged her
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to be transparent for
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her healing.
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As Lorna was writing and was
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being transparent she had to
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face certain things
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about herself.
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And it's in facing those
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things that I believe God
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was bringing on the
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transformation.
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Transparency
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is a part of healing.
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>> So, Lorna, you talked about
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the word, "intimacy," and I
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always think of the word,
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"intimacy," as "into me see"
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and the only one who can allow
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anyone to see into me is me.
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And so you're opening your
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heart to God and you're
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allowing Him to see into you
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and He speaks to you through
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His word and you get to know
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Him through His word.
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So is there a Bible text that
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speaks to you?
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I mean, there are many,
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I'm sure.
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Is there one specifically that
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you can share with us?
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>> Yes, there is.
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Jeremiah 29, verse 11 is my
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favourite Bible text and I've
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quoted it several times
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in the book...
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I know that I can trust in
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God's promises because His
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promises are true.
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God is faithful and is true to
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His words and therefore I need
00:23:34.48\00:23:37.18
not fear, but just to trust
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Him, come what may.
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He's gifted me with two
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priceless gifts.
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You know, there are things
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that money can buy, but it is
00:23:46.49\00:23:48.49
true that money cannot buy joy
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and money cannot buy peace
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and these are gifts that God
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has gifted me and I would not
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trade them for the world,
00:23:59.13\00:24:00.37
you know?
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For everything that I've been
00:24:01.97\00:24:03.71
through, I've learned to
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appreciate the peace that God
00:24:06.88\00:24:09.41
has given to me.
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That peace which passeth all
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understanding and no matter
00:24:13.18\00:24:16.65
what you're going through,
00:24:16.65\00:24:19.15
this is my encouragement to
00:24:19.15\00:24:20.49
you, just trust God, hold onto
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Him, don't let go, you know,
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He will help you to get over
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on the other side.
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And trust in Jeremiah 29:11
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that God's promise is to
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prosper you.
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>> So you have gone from not
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being able to talk about it to
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writing it, now you're talking
00:24:39.81\00:24:41.64
about it and as you said,
00:24:41.64\00:24:43.04
you're inspiring others with
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it and so as we close off our
00:24:44.35\00:24:47.05
program today, I wonder,
00:24:47.05\00:24:48.52
Lorna, if you could have a
00:24:48.52\00:24:50.02
word of prayer for us?
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>> Absolutely,
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I would love to.
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Our Father Who art in heaven,
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hallowed be Thy Holy and
00:24:57.76\00:24:59.96
Thy powerful name.
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Lord, we are so grateful for
00:25:01.53\00:25:03.30
Your love.
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In spite of the challenges
00:25:05.07\00:25:06.67
that we face, we know that we
00:25:06.67\00:25:08.57
can look to You for help,
00:25:08.57\00:25:10.21
we know that we can come to
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You for help.
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You not just care about the
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big things, You care about the
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small things as well.
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You care about everything
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that concerns us.
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And, Lord, as I've shared my
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story today, I pray dear God
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that it will be a blessing to
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others and that You will get
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the glory, the honour, and the
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praise, that lives will be
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inspired and transformed,
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that others will know of Your
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faithfulness, to know that
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they can trust You
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implicitly.
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And, Lord, we thank you for
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the victories, we also thank
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You for the tests, Lord,
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because if there are no tests,
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there will be no testimony.
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So we just ask that You'd give
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us the strength and the
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courage to continue to press
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forward knowing that You will
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keep us standing.
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In Jesus's name I pray, amen.
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>> Amen.
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Lorna, thank you very much for
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your wonderful prayer.
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Thank you for being vulnerable
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enough to share your story,
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to write it so that others can
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be blessed by it and by coming
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in and sharing with us today
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here on It Is Written Canada.
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>> Thank you so much.
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God bless you.
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when He says, "It is written,"
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"man shall not live by bread"
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"alone, but by every word"
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"that proceeds out of the"
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"mouth of God."
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>> Next on
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[Pastor Maitland] A survivor
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is one who lives
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after an ordeal.
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He had gone to the house,
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he had forced himself on her
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and he had raped her.
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And she saw all the weapons
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that the Devil forged and she
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said, "No, by the help of God"
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"they will not prosper."
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>> Yes, I find that sometimes
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when red flags come up we try
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to change it to a green flag.
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>> Definitely it's never too
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late to make the changes and
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go for what you really do
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want in life.
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You should never just accept
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things that don't truly make
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you happy and you should never
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trick yourself into thinking
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that you are happy
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when you're not.
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>> It's powerful
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because we've all had our
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moments of brokenness.
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>> She's not walking alone
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anymore, she's walking
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with God.
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Through earth's storms, He's
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in there with her and that is
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why she's now changed.
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¤¤
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