>> Hello and thank you for
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joining us on
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It Is Written Canada.
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Imagine spending 25 years
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locked in solitary confinement
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and your prison is a mental
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cell of anger and rage
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with guilt and shame
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acting as your guards.
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Guilt keeps reminding you that
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you have done wrong
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and shame labels you and says
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that you are wrong.
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>> Our guest on It Is Written
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Canada today is Daniel Cullen.
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For 25 years, this was
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his experience.
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[René] Daniel felt like he was
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just a statistic, a number on a
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piece of paper, a homeless man.
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For 25 years, Daniel Cullen
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was living on the cold streets
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of every major city
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across Canada.
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>> And Daniel is here to tell
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us how he turned his life
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around from being an addict,
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slowly coming apart mentally
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and emotionally, using drugs
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to numb the pain,
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but what fascinates me about
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Daniel's story is that he did
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more than just recover,
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he is now thriving and for the
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last 20 years, he has been
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helping others to recover from
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lives of homelessness
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and addictions.
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¤¤
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[heart beating]
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>> Welcome, Daniel Cullen,
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to It Is Written Canada.
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>> Thanks, Mike,
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it's good to be here,
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René, it's good to be here.
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>> I'm really fascinated by
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your story, it's an amazing
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story and I know that our
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viewers will be amazed as they
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listen to it as well.
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I wanna go back
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to your childhood.
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>> My father was radio
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broadcaster, radio personality
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in the community.
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My mother was a real estate
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agent and she was good in the
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community and two of my
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brothers and sisters that were
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still at home were with me and
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they were-- we were all in
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school together and they were
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doing good and...
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Yeah, I had a good home.
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Five-bedroom home in a nice
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neighbourhood in Kelowna, BC.
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>> And, Daniel, from an early
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age you had an experience with
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the Bible and with
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Christianity and that acted as
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a compass to guide you and to
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lead you, especially when
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things started to fall apart
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in your life.
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Can you tell us what happened?
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>> Yeah, I'll never forget
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Aubrey, you know, um...
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My parents wanted me--
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like, I was rambunctious so my
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parents were always trying to
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get me into things to keep me
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going and busy 'cause I had so
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much energy.
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And so I was a candy striper,
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a healthcare cadet working
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in a hospital and my job was
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to go in every once a week and
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to visit with the patients in
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the long-term extended care
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and keep them company.
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One of them there, his name
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was Aubrey, I used to feed him
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on a regular basis.
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Six-foot something this guy
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was, he was a huge man, but
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muscular dystrophy whittled
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him into a chair and he used
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to tell me that he was a
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different man before he got
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struck down by muscular
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dystrophy and he talked about
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a faith that he found.
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He finally said, "Are you"
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"born again, are you born"
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"again, are you born again?"
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I had no idea what he was
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talking about so I said "yes"
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so he'd leave me alone.
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And he said,
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"Well, then how do you spell"
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"your last name?"
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And I told him how to spell my
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last name, C-U-L-L-E-N.
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And then he said, "OK."
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"Thank you," and that was it.
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The next week I come to feed
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him, he said, "After we're"
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"done, when you've got time,"
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"come and see me."
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And I came and saw him,
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he handed me a box about this
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big, hard cardboard.
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I opened it up and there was a
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blue Bible, King James,
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leather-bound Bible with my
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name embossed in it,
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"Daniel Cullen" and he gave me
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my first Bible and that was a
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book that's been with me for
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43 years now.
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[René] How old were you
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at the time when you were
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volunteering at the hospital?
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>> Fifteen.
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>> Fifteen? Wow.
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>> Yeah, yeah.
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>> So you're coming from a
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good home, you're
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volunteering, you're having
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Christian input, that seems so
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ideal, like an idyllic
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environment, what went wrong?
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How did you end up
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on the streets?
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How did you end up in
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the addictions?
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>> Uhh...
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I was the one that didn't fit
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in, I didn't find good
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friends, I just-- I was low
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self-esteem, no self-worth,
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no self-awareness.
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I had a friend, brought me
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home one time and he showed me
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his father's collection,
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his father had a gun
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and so when my friend went to
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the washroom that day and I
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was at his house, his parents
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weren't home, I snuck into the
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room and stole the gun and
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stuffed it in my jacket and
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made an excuse that I had to
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go home and I went home with a
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stolen gun.
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I went around bragging that,
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"Yeah, I got a gun,"
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"I got a gun."
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It didn't take long for the
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principal to come and check my
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locker and yeah, I did
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have a gun.
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And back in the 70's, taking a
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gun to school was not a good
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thing to do.
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>> So what did you end up
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doing, I mean did your parents
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find out about this?
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>> When I got home, everything
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was good and about a week
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later when I walked in the
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house and there was a cop
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sitting there and they told me
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that "No, you didn't find"
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"the gun, actually the gun"
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"has been stolen."
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And I had a great long lecture
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and my mom said, "When your"
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"father gets home,"
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"we're gonna have a very"
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"serious talk."
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And so my remedy to that was
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to run away.
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And I ran away.
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And I ran up into the hills
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behind our house, but then
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about midnight, it was getting
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cold and I was getting hungry
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and I'd never run away before.
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I was 12 maybe, I think, 12 or
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13 and I'd never run away
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before and so I made my way
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back home and instead of my
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parents being really angry at
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me, they were just grateful to
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have me home so I kind of got
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away with it, but what that
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set inside of me was a pattern
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that when I couldn't face
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something or when I was
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scared, I would run.
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Run and hide, just gone.
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And that set a pattern for me
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for my years on the streets.
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[Mike] So you developed this
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pattern of running away
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whenever you got into trouble,
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in time so you kept on getting
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into trouble.
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>> Mmhmm.
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>> How did that lead you to
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get onto the streets?
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>> When I was about 14, a guy
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introduced me to what is LSD,
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I don't even know what the
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technical name for it-- but
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back then, we called it "acid"
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and I did like five hits.
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I'd never done drugs before.
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He said, "Have these,"
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and I did like five hits.
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And then I smoked a quarter
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ounce of, I think, marijuana
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and so I was pretty high and
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that was my explosion into my
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drug addiction on the streets.
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And so I couldn't handle
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things, I'd run away, I'd get
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into trouble because I didn't
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like myself and when I ran
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away, I'd end up doing drugs,
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and when I'd end up doing
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drugs, I'd get fed up and then
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it just turned into a cycle.
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So I run away so many times
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that when my parents caught up
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to me the last time,
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shorten the story, I'll just
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bring it to that point, when
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they caught me-- caught up
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with me the last time I ran
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away, I was in Calgary,
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I started-- left from Kelowna
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and they caught up with me in
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Calgary and my father said out
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of just-- he did all that he
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could do and he had to let me
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go, I was 16 and he said,
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"If you wanna be on your own,"
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"good luck."
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He shook my hand and he said,
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"Good luck."
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And that was the beginning of
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my life and so I hitch-hiked
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across Canada
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the first time to Quebec.
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And then I got tired of Quebec
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and I hitch-hiked back and
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that's when trouble started.
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>> And that's trouble, what
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did that look like?
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>> One in three run-away
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children, teenagers,
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approximately on the street,
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male and female are sexually
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exploited and raped.
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The first person brought me
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down to Abbotsford, he said,
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"You know, it's a cold night."
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"Come on down to Abbotsford."
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"You can head out in the"
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"morning, I'll give you a"
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"good place to sleep"
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"and a meal."
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And I didn't have any idea
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about nothing, I was wet
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behind the ears.
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He said, "Hey, have some"
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"wine," and he said, "Here,"
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"smoke this," it was marijuana
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and I felt like an adult,
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I can live on my own,
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I'm on my own now,
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making my own roots.
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And he put on a song called
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Bad Out of Hell from
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Meat Loaf and that was
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the first guy to rape me.
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I got away from that and that
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was in Abbotsford and I got
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away from that and I ran up to
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Grande Prairie, Alberta.
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And I was alone and lonely.
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There's a difference.
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Aloneness and lonely are not
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the same thing and aloneness
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was following me.
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And aloneness--
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I wanted back home, I wanted
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to find my family.
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At that point I was ready to
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fix it, I didn't want to do
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addictions anymore, I got
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tired of it, I'd hitch-hiked
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across Canada, I'd seen enough,
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I was confused, I was hurt.
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I would go to this religious
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place that cares for the
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homeless and they'll help me
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'cause I remembered my Bible,
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right, and I was--
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I had faith that maybe this
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was the thing to do.
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And I went there and the
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night shift manager of the
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place told me, "God brought"
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"you here and God's been"
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"good to you, and God brought"
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"you here so you could learn"
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"what love was."
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And he was the second guy,
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he told me God loved me
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and raped me.
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And I got away from that
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and ran away to my hometown,
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Fort St. John.
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And again, I'm stupid, young,
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wet behind the ears,
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16 years old, a guy invites me
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over to a party at his place
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and there was only him.
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And he was the third guy to
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rape me and that's when my
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mind snapped and that was
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the beginning of a
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25-year experience.
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>> And after that you never--
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you decided never ever to go
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home again, right?
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>> Nah, I didn't know how to go
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home anymore and it wasn't
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that I didn't want to go home,
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it was that I just didn't feel
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like I belonged
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at home anymore.
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It was-- my parents would have
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brought me back.
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I showed up many times, I'd be
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gone for months and months and
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months then just without
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calling anybody, I'd just come
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and knock on the front door
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and walk in the front door and
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my dad was such a good man,
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he had cancer, lots of pain,
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but when I'd come in the door,
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he'd jump off the couch
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to come and see me.
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>> Exactly, exactly.
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>> So...
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>> You didn't only sleep on
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the streets...
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>> Uh-uh.
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>> What would help you?
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You would retire
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into libraries?
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>> Yeah. [chuckles]
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I sat in libraries.
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It's cold in the winter time
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and it's hot in the summer time
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so the best place to sit is in
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libraries and I sat in
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libraries and studied.
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And if you don't do something
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in a library and you go to
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sleep, and the library,
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they'll kick you out so I
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learned to study.
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I hated school,
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but I learned to study.
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I studied philosophy,
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psychology, sociology,
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anthropology, metaphysics,
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occult, and theology.
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So I built information in my
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head to stop the noise of the
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guilt and the shame.
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I've done wrong,
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you are wrong.
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I was an angry person,
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angry, angry man.
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I couldn't even talk without
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showing anger.
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My tone, my words, everything,
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my body language was anger.
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>> Did Christianity come into
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your recovery?
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>> Actually what became the
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answer wasn't Christianity
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because the people that were
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telling me Jesus loved me were
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the people that kicked me out
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of the shelter because I
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didn't follow their rules.
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So as a homeless man, I didn't
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fit into their mold how I
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should behave, so I finally
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said, "Give me a chance to"
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"talk to everybody."
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I got the manager, the
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executive director, we all had
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a conversation and I said to
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him, "Does your Bible say"
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"that if a man sins against"
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"you seventy times seven in"
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"one day you're supposed to"
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"forgive him?"
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And they couldn't answer that
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question, I said, "Give me"
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"a chance to prove to you"
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"that I'm sorry and I'll"
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"prove to you that I'm sorry."
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And they gave me one chance.
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I wasn't trying to be a
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Christian, but when I put the
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principles of scripture into
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practice to show these people
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to be hypocrites, my mind got
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clear, my mind came back
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and I went, "What?"
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And the only thing I could
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conclude was it was me
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implementing the principles of
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scripture that gave me the
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ability to find the clarity,
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to find the strength to begin
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the real change in my life.
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So it was the word of God that
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gave me back-- that started my
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journey back and then it's my
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faith in Christ of course that
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carries me through, but it was
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using the principles from
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scripture, the Divine Word of
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God that when I got that book
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and then I applied the
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principles, boom!
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I got my mind back
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and then began a whole
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new transformation.
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[Rene] Wow!
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[Mike] I want you to talk
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about that model that you used
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that you came to, but before
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we do that, I want us to
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listen to a song and this is
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sung by some students up in the
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mountains of British Columbia,
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it's called
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I Know Whom I Have Believed.
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¤I know not why God's
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¤wondrous grace
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¤To me He hath made known
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¤Nor why, unworthy,
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¤Christ in love
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¤Redeemed me for His own
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¤But I know Whom
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¤I have believed
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¤And am persuaded
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¤that He is able
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¤To keep that
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¤which I've committed
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¤Unto Him against that day
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¤I know not how
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¤this saving faith
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¤To me He did impart
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¤Nor how believing
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¤in His Word
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¤Wrought peace within
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¤my heart
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¤But I know Whom
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¤I have believed
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¤And am persuaded
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¤that He is able
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¤To keep that
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¤which I've committed
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¤Unto Him against that day
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¤I know not
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¤how the Spirit moves
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¤Convincing men of sin
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¤Revealing Jesus
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¤through the Word
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¤Creating faith in Him
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¤But I know Whom
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¤I have believed
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¤And am persuaded
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¤that He is able
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¤To keep that
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¤which I've committed
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¤Unto Him against that day
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¤I know not
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¤when my Lord may come
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¤At night or noonday fair
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¤Nor if I walk the
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¤vale with Him
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¤Or meet Him in the air
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¤But I know Whom
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¤I have believed
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¤And am persuaded
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¤that He is able
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¤To keep that
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¤which I've committed
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¤Unto Him against that day
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¤But I know Whom
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¤I have believed
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¤And am persuaded
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¤that He is able
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¤To keep that
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¤which I've committed
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¤Unto Him against that day
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>> Those students are so brave
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to be outside singing on a
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cold winter's day with snow on
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the ground up in the mountains
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of British Columbia.
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The words of this song that
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really spoke to me are these:
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"I know not how"
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"the Spirit moves,"
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"Convincing men of sin,"
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"Revealing Jesus"
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"through the Word,"
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"Creating faith in Him."
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>> So, Daniel, you started
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reading the Bible, and that
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was a transformational
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experience for you.
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You had received a Bible from
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Aubrey when you were younger,
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but now you're looking at it
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with new eyes.
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You're in a position where
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you're just like, "I need"
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"healing 'cause nothing"
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"else is working."
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So what kind of model did you
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come up with?
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What did God show you?
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>> You know, my-- I got all my
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psychiatric records given--
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gotten for me, all of them,
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a stack of them like this of
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all the years that I'd spent
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in the psychiatric wards and
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I read the psychiatric
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reports, I read everything
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they wrote about me, the
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nurses note, the doctors
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notes, the good stuff, the bad
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stuff, I counted the mental
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disorders the gave me and they
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gave me 22 of them different
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times they couldn't
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figure me out.
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I was on 18 psychotropic
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pills a day.
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On the DSM IV they have a
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thing called acc-- the fifth
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access and it's the access
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they use for socialization and
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working in a community, what's
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your mental well-being for
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that and mine in that access
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was long-term
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institutionalization, it
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doesn't look like you'll ever
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stop being a transient
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homeless man.
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So they had written me off and
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I'm already written off
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because I'm living in a
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long-term care group home
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because I didn't have the
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ability to care for myself.
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So I picked up the Bible that
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I've always had with me for
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all those years and I started
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to look for solutions and I
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realized that, like I said,
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I realized that something had
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to change and nothing was
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working for me, they had
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written me off and my only
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solution was to come up with
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something so I said a prayer,
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I suppose I did, I mean I did
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a lot of thinking and I know
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there were some
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prayers in there.
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I used to sing a song,
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Pour Your Healing Oil
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Through Me, just to myself
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and that kind of stirred
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up my faith, right?
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And by stirring up my faith,
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the scriptures started to come
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alive a bit and so I realized
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if I took the word of God at
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what it was, I could
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do it again.
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So John 3:7, alright, it says
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you must be born again.
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I said, "Wait a minute."
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Now I'd studied psychology
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enough to know that when a
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child is born, they're born
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with nothing more than a few
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imprints that come from birth
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and some genetic things,
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everything else they learn,
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they learn by experience.
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And from experience after
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experience when a child,
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you know, is growing up they
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learn by crying at a certain
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time in a certain way, they
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get a certain thing so they
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start to create memories
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and those memories lead to
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their emotions.
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If the experiences are good,
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because the-- the experience
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has been good, the memory is
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good, the emotions will be a
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positive response, if not,
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it'll all be negative, right?
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It's just destructive and so
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people think and feel based on
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those things so when I said,
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"you must be born again" and
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the scripture said it, but--
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Born again, I mean, I can
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build this all over again,
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I can start again if I give
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myself a reference point.
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So December had rolled around
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and I'd done all the
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evaluations and looked at
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myself, I was in rough shape.
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I went out in the snow of
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Lake Simcoe on the frozen lake
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at about 11:30, sat down and
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waited for 12:01 to roll
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around when New Year's Eve
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2000, new millennium, it will
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never happen in my life again,
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it could be a mark reference
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point for me and that's when I
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put myself foot forward and I
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said, "I'm no longer gonna"
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"be a statistic."
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I used to feel bad about not
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measuring up to my sister's--
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she's been very good at what
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she does, she's very
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successful-- she was, and I
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always lived in her shadow...
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>> She was your twin sister?
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>> My twin sister, right.
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And she's a great girl, I love
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her with all my heart, right?
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But I always tried to measure
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up to what I thought her
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quality was and I never felt
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accepted by my quality,
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but I decided now I was gonna
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go back to factory reboot.
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I was gonna start all over
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again and rebuild me.
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And that's what I started and I
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built the model that said if I
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create a vision of who I am,
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then I fill myself with the
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knowledge I need to learn
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to fulfill that vision that I
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have clearly with myself,
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that switched my emotional
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lifestyle of being emotional
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and acting emotional,
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to be driven by a passion.
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And a passion is different
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than an emotion because a
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passion burns low and it goes.
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Emotions are erratic and all
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over the place.
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Passion burns all the time,
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it's a low-burning ember.
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That's-- right? And...
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in fact that is
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the literal meaning of the
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word "passion," right?
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And it just switched my
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pattern and I set my goals on
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new things and I set my
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objective on new things and I
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decided I was no longer gonna
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be a statistic, I was gonna
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make a change and that started
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in January 1st, 2000 and
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hasn't stopped.
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>> Wow!
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>> Praise God.
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>> And so, Daniel,
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Jesus set you free.
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>> Without a shadow
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of a doubt.
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>> And you were set free from
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alcohol, from street drugs,
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antidepressants, anti-anxiety,
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and so many other medications,
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right, set free from that.
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So what motivated you
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to keep on going?
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>> At first I wanted to make a
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change, I wanted my mom to be
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proud of me so I pushed and I
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pushed and I pushed so that
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before she died she would
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see that I had made a change.
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I was supposed to appear
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before a parliamentary
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standing committee to talk
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about poverty and
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homelessness.
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The day they buried my
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mother, I was at that
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committee speaking at that
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committee 'cause I had
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destroyed my family relations
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to such a point that it would
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be best if I didn't go home.
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So I didn't go home,
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but I gave honour to my mother
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by speaking at Parliament Hill
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on the issues of poverty
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and homelessness,
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which was my goal.
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And then my reputation ran in
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front of me.
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I started working with the
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nurses at York University as a
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preceptor, using my voice of
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lived experience and the lived
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experience to demystify
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poverty and homelessness and
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then I got-- it goes on.
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I put over 200 students
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through placement, nurse--
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about 100 nurses at least
00:22:36.52\00:22:37.95
through placement and I'd
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teach about what it means to
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be poor and how to adjust and
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treat the poor differently.
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The GAP committee is a
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committee I'm on in Durham
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Region with Mayor Dan Carter,
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Councillor Rick Kerr...
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I am the assistant director to
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Ann Thompson at New Life
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Neighbourhood food bank and my
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job is community engagement,
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we've got the SLIP program
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going there which is a true
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potential program
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and it talks about identifying
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the real you and once you find
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the real you, you won't sell
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yourself short.
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So we have students running
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for that, Self-Empowerment
00:23:13.29\00:23:14.46
Livelihood Improvement
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Project, phenomenal program
00:23:15.79\00:23:17.46
watching the results take
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place and people's lives
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coming alive because they're
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seeing themselves and their
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true value and they're not
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accepting anybody's opinion of
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themselves, they've found
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their own true worth and we
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move forward with them
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from there.
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I have enough success in front
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of me now to mitigate all the
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failures behind me.
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I've just switched
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the game plan.
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>> And the Lord has just
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worked miraculously.
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>> If it wasn't for the Lord
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who was on my side,
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where would I be?
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>> Can you share with us
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just a couple words
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of encouragement.
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Someone may be watching and
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feeling really, maybe
00:23:54.13\00:23:55.40
discouraged at this point
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and they're listening
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to your story,
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anything from the Bible
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something that you would like
00:24:01.44\00:24:03.34
to say to them?
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>> Psalms 46, I think, says,
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"When the heart is"
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"overwhelmed, lead me to a"
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"rock that is higher than I."
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You come into a situation that
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you can't understand,
00:24:16.02\00:24:17.09
can't figure out:
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What's going on?
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Where am I gonna go?
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Depression's got ahead of me,
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the bills got ahead of me,
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nobody likes me,
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I don't feel self worth...
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When the heart is overwhelmed,
00:24:25.89\00:24:27.93
you ask, lead me, and He will.
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Bring you to a place that only
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you and Him understand.
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[snap] Like that.
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>> Can you have a word of
00:24:38.74\00:24:39.77
prayer for us, Daniel,
00:24:39.77\00:24:40.61
in closing?
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>> Father, when we come
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against struggles that we don't
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understand, when we've been
00:24:46.55\00:24:48.28
written off, when we don't
00:24:48.28\00:24:50.39
feel the value of life, when
00:24:50.39\00:24:52.59
life just doesn't make sense,
00:24:52.59\00:24:55.16
we can come to You,
00:24:55.16\00:24:58.29
with our hearts open wide,
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as broken as it is
00:25:00.80\00:25:03.26
and You will atone,
00:25:03.26\00:25:05.33
You will redeem, You will
00:25:05.33\00:25:07.84
justify, You will sanctify
00:25:07.84\00:25:10.74
with the simple act of faith
00:25:10.74\00:25:12.41
that says, "Lord, I believe."
00:25:12.41\00:25:15.08
Help me, lead me to a rock
00:25:15.08\00:25:17.78
that is higher than I.
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Whoever hears this program,
00:25:19.45\00:25:21.65
whoever watches this program,
00:25:21.65\00:25:24.05
understand that You, oh Lord,
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are the greatness and the
00:25:26.35\00:25:27.82
goodness and the quality in
00:25:27.82\00:25:30.09
our lives and that You will
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lead us and guide us and keep
00:25:31.66\00:25:33.13
us in our ways.
00:25:33.13\00:25:35.16
So, God, for those who are
00:25:35.16\00:25:36.40
overwhelmed, for those who are
00:25:36.40\00:25:38.10
blessed, God, and have felt
00:25:38.10\00:25:39.87
the glory of Your presence,
00:25:39.87\00:25:42.00
I pray that You would continue
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to move them forward and they
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would understand that they
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alone cannot do it.
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You are the Redeemer and
00:25:48.68\00:25:50.28
Saviour and Confidant that
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walks with us.
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I know whom I have
00:25:53.38\00:25:54.45
believed in.
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Lord, help other to know whom
00:25:55.85\00:25:57.35
You are that they can believe
00:25:57.35\00:25:59.09
in You also, in Jesus' name...
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>> Amen.
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>> You know, while I was
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Aubrey, I was reminded of how
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