Hello, I'm Shelley Quinn and
welcome to Issues and Answers.
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We have a very delicate
topic that we're going to be
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discussing today and I
would like to warn parents that
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parental supervision is required
for this program. We're going
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to be speaking to a convicted
child molester who has been
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born again and converted by the
Lord and it reminds me of the
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scripture from Acts 26:18 which
is one of my favorites. This is
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what Paul had to say, actually
it's what Jesus said to Paul.
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He said that I am sending you
to open their eyes that they may
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turn from darkness to light,
from the power of Satan to God
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so that they may receive
forgiveness of their sins and
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have an inheritance among those
who are sanctified by faith in
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me. I'm very excited to
introduce you to Wayne and Sheri
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Ladins. Wayne, thank you so much
for coming today and Sheri, I'm
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so glad you're here as well.
Now you have a testimony as well
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that we will be talking about in
a later topic. But let's begin
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with what you are doing today.
We're going to talk about your
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former problem but let's talk
about what God is doing in your
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lives today. Well,
first of all he's brought
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Sheri and me here today to share
our testimony, which is, like
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you say, a delicate testimony
and that's a door that God has
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opened. He brought us here and
we can only just say, All right
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Lord, we'll go through it. But
for the last three years God has
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opened other doors. We're
involved in a number of things.
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For one thing, prison ministry,
and we'll have some graphics
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here a little bit later. I'm an
electronic engineer and that's
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basically what I'm doing right
now. Sheri's involved in air
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craft hardware sales.
But we're devoted to ministry
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opportunities and devoted to the
Lord and being available to him
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wherever he puts us. We've
been involved in abuse addiction
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deliverance ministries on
campmeetings, not officially in
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a campmeeting, but just with
the people that God puts in our
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path in the tent, in the aisles,
you know, just talking with
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people. We've also been involved
in public evangelism, door to
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door out reach. I've gone
to the Amazing Facts College of
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Evangelism and we'll have some
graphics on that, too. But some
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of those things are all piling
up together to prepare Sheri and
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me for just ministering to a
wide variety of people. We have
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different backgrounds and God
uses that to really minister to
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a lot of people.
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Why don't we look at some of the
pictures now and see how God is
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leading in your life.
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First of all, I think there's a
picture of us camping. We enjoy
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getting out in God's cathedral,
God's nature, and we need that.
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We absolutely need that. When
the stresses of life are way too
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much, you've got to get away
and we certainly enjoy that.
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I mentioned, I think, prison
ministry as well. We've been
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involved in that. Sheri does it
regularly and I go in on what's
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called family days. Twice a year
the state prison where we're at
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allows a group of people to come
in and minister and to be part
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of the worship service there.
I tell you what, this is a
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powerful ministry. Not everyone
is cut out for it, but the men
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and women behind bars, they are
reflecting on their lives. They
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are ready to hear the good news
about Jesus. When they can get
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past this idea of - well
you don't know what I've done -
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God could never forgive me, when
you can get past that, then they
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respond and that's a real
blessing, a real blessing.
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And the next picture.
Well I think there's a picture,
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yes, there's a picture of me
at the Amazing Facts College of
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Evangelism. I went there last
year and there's probably some
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one you recognize there, not
me. Doug Bachelor. Anyway God
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really opened the door. I've
been trying to get into prison
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ministry full time with Sheri,
but because of my criminal
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background they would not let
me in on a regular basis. When I
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applied to Amazing Facts College
of Evangelism they let me in and
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every staff member there knows
my story and they let me in.
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Glory to God. So do
my classmates, all the
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class members there
know as well with a sermon.
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And the next picture.
Well this is putting the
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knowledge to work basically.
We had two outreach classes at
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our church. This is a picture
of the first one and you can see
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there is a lady in a wheel
chair. She wanted to go door to
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door and, bless her heart, she
did. She wanted to get the word
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out to people and that's what
needs to happen. I'm involved
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with Go Preach Ministries which
is a group of AFCOE graduates
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who are training people in their
churches to do door to door
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ministry public evangelism
partly because when the church
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hires a Bible worker there's
only one Bible Worker and when
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that Bible worker leaves they
tend to take their friendships
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with them. We want to train
20 to 30 people at a time in the
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churches to do outreach ministry
and then you have an army and
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the harvest truly is great then.
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Wayne, when I met you and Sheri
and, of course, you spoke some
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time with my husband J.D. and
I heard all your story, I was so
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excited to invite you to come
and do Issues and Answers with
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us because we know that child
molestation is a problem that is
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widespread and there are
many predators even that are
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attracted to churches. What
I appreciated so much about you
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was the accountability program
that you promote. For our
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viewers' sake, let's go back
and share some of your story.
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As you were growing up as a
young boy, what kind of set you
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off to where you took that first
step in the wrong direction and
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then how you were led?
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Yes. This is kind of a light
story that God has ended up with
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and we are praising him
for that. It started in real
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darkness; it really did. But I
think it's important for people
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to know that no matter how dark
things start, God is wanting to
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draw them out of that and
he can and he will. With Jesus'
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strength he can. So it basically
starts when I was five and my
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folks divorced and that was
traumatic for me. My younger
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brother didn't get affected as
much and my older brother seemed
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to be able to handle it better.
I was really traumatized.
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I remember crying deeply about
it and in fact if I needed to
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cry for a reason to get
something out of my eye, I would
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actually think of the divorce
and the tears would just come
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up; I would just start
crying. My dad moved out and he
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remarried. He and the lady
he married thought it was okay
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to walk around the house naked.
They did that in front of her
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children and in front of
us. It was a very sexualized
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environment. They took us to
a nudist colony where we went
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camping and we did all
the things you do when you go
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camping but everybody was
walking around naked. So for a
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child, he sees normal behavior
but everybody's naked and he
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somehow associates it as must
be okay. So the messages being
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sent were very wrong but of
course at five, six, seven I
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didn't know that. My dad
molested his stepdaughters
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in front of me, one of them,
by stroking her genital area.
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As far as I know there was no
penetration. But that behavior
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is something that I saw and
later in my teen years I started
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doing the same. You
become what you behold.
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That's a biblical principle.
So this is what appeared to you
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to be normal behavior. You
didn't know that this was really
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that aberrant and
then you repeated it.
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Well, I would at least say that
if I knew it was abnormal, it
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was like well Dad's doing
it. It must somehow be okay.
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As I was a 14-year-old, I
knew it was not okay, but I was
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experimenting. There was a 7-
year-old girl in particular who
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I was grooming and that's a
word that's used to describe
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how a perpetrator gains the
confidence of a victim to the
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point where they will surrender
and be under the power of a
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perpetrator and it's a very
scary thing. It was real and it
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happened. Fortunately we got
caught before, again, there was
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any penetration although I'm
sure that's where we were headed
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I know there would have been
something I would have tried
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at 14. We got caught. The young
girl told her parents, praise
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God and unfortunately all that
was done was then parents said,
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Well stay away from each other.
We didn't get any help and the
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victim in particular.
So there really weren't any
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consequences for your actions?
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Not really, not really, and I'll
deal with that later. It's very
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important that there are
consequences. God chastens those
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he loves. There needs to be a
punishment, there needs to be a
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consequence for true healing.
Well that didn't happen. The
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problem was there and identified
but, again, there was no help.
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I was overweight, wore horn
rimmed glasses. I was a brain,
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an honor student. I didn't have
much social skills. I withdrew
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to myself and plus I'm feeling
guilty about this sexual side
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of me that I know is abnormal.
But I didn't know how to get any
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help. Were you
getting any kind of
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religious training at
all? My mom was a Seventh-day
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Adventist. She worked nights at
the Adventist hospital so if she
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worked Friday night, we didn't
go to church Sabbath usually and
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I would say the Christianity
was kind of nominal in the home.
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We read the Bible Christmas Eve,
we read the Bible story. Sabbath
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was a drag. The whole idea
was kind of a drag. But you know
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what? It laid a foundation.
I want to say right now for
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parents who are wondering
if their kids will ever make it
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back into the church, the
foundation you lay now really
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does help and it helped me
later. As a teenager in high
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school, I didn't have a girl
friend, not until senior year in
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high school. Then when I did
it was like, Thank goodness, I'm
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normal now; I have a girlfriend.
And I'd hope that the problems
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of molest behavior would be
somehow buried. The thing is I
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got involved with a high school
student who had herself had been
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abused. It is typical; people
who are abused are for some
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crazy reason often attracted
to those who are abusers and
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so we have dynamite here. It's
going to blow sooner or later.
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But at this time, again, I was
feeling like we have a normal
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relationship. We did get engaged
we got married and about two
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years into college there was one
night we shared the worst things
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we've ever done. I had
shared what I had done with this
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seven-year-old girl earlier and
it just floored her because my
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wife had been molested by a
junior high teacher and she had
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never gotten help, never gotten
any therapy and nothing really
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happened to the teacher. He sort
of quit his job and went on to
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something else. So this is
the mistake that we make as a
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society and especially sometimes
as a church where we don't deal
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with these issues head on and
that's really the only reason
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we're here today is to
help people who are in abusive
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situations get help, but also
for the church. What can the
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church do? We'll
deal with that later.
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Now you and your
wife had a baby girl.
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Yes, we had three children and
actually as a young dad who has
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got problems already and very
selfish unfortunately although
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I was very happy to have my
children some days, other days
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I was very resentful, very angry
because it took away time from
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my wife and me and we
did not have a good intimate
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relationship. She was
uncomfortable with sexual
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activity. I was oversexed.
It was a real mess. It was not a
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healthy relationship in any way.
Unfortunately, yes, after we had
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our daughter about two years,
she was about two years old,
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with the stresses and strains
of the marriage not working out
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my molest behavior returned and
that's not a justification for
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the behavior in any way. It just
explains the dynamic that was
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happening there. I started
molesting my daughter during
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bath time. And
you were fondling your
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daughter during bath time?
Yes. I was rubbing her genital
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area. There was no penetration,
but, you know, early in therapy
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it hit me, I'm the father, the
one person on the whole planet
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most responsible for protecting
his children, especially his
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daughter and I'm the one who
is hurting her. Sometimes I look
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at these hands and I think
of what Jesus said, If your hand
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offend thee, cut it off. And he
is serious about that. Early on
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I thought did he really mean cut
my literal hand off and he meant
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cut sin out. Zero tolerance;
that's what God is interested in
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Complete healing, not partial
healing. He never said, Go and
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sin a little less, to the woman
caught in adultery. Go and sin
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no more. If we believe that
God has the power to do that
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in us, because he says it right
here, we have to walk in that
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belief. We have to walk
it, put it into practice.
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How long as a young father now,
and you are doing these things
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during bath time. You know
it surprises me your wife even
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allowed you to bathe your
daughter when she knew your
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history. But she obviously
trusted you. How long did this
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behavior go on and what affect
was it having on you? When did
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you wake up and take
a step toward recovery?
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Well, there was one situation
where my wife came to me and
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said, You know, I've
noticed some behaviors about our
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daughter and she says, Should I
be concerned? And I did not have
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the guts to say yes there's a
problem. But six months later,
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this would be the fall of 1992,
the guilt was so strong, the
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anger was so strong. When
I would come home from work I
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would be so angry because I
knew what I was. The guilt could
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not come out in terms of I need
help, so it came out as anger
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towards my family. Because
if they weren't around, if I was
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angry at them they stayed away,
I couldn't hurt my daughter, I
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couldn't hurt them. So
unfortunately although I was a
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great guy in many respects some
of the time my mood could change
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just like that and so my whole
family, wife and kids, were
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walking around on eggshells
waiting for Dad to blow and Dad
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would blow but couldn't share
why he was so torn up inside
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out of guilt for what he's doing
and couldn't get help. The thing
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is, people need to know, don't
listen to that voice where it
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says you can't get help, you're
scum, no one will believe you,
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you will lose your job, you'll
lose your marriage, you'll lose
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you liberty if you're committing
a crime. This was a crime. This
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was against not only God's law
but man's law and there's a lot
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of fear. But God says, Perfect
love casts out fear, and God
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says, I will help you. I
will lead you out of this mess
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of a wilderness. No matter how
low the gutter is, he will pull
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you up out of it. He promises
that, so we need to hold onto
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that. And that's what I want to
encourage people. When my wife
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asked six months later I finally
did have the guts to say yes
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there is a problem, and she was
devastated. I mean this was her
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nightmare come true. I mean this
was the thing she feared most in
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her whole life and there it was
and it was in her house and I
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had devastated her, betrayed her
trust. I had abused my daughter.
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And the ramifications just go on
and on. But, you know, at least
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there's a starting point for
recovery, a starting point for
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healing. That is admitting it.
Admitting it is first. Once you
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can get over the denial and get
into admitting it and confessing
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it, that's a big, big step but
it's only the first. I called
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Child Protective Services
and said I need help. I have
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molested my daughter. What
do we do? How do we go through
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this? What do we have to do?
And they said, Well, you have to
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leave the house. You have to get
out of the house right now. You
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can't stay there tonight. And
that was the first part of my
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anger coming back, kind of. It's
like, wait a minute. I'm calling
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to get help, why do I
have to leave my house?
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So that's still very
self- oriented, very selfish.
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Oh yes, we are so selfish.
The heart is desperately wicked,
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desperately so. Pride is the
first thing. We are so into self
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especially young men and I was
a young father. But I complied.
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I wanted to get help. I wanted
to get help. They set up a
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social worker and also in
talking with them I knew there
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would be a police report, so
I called the police and said I
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have a situation so you need
to come on down and get your
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statement. I talked to the
detective and told him what had
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happened. So started the whole
process of being involved with
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these agencies. Praise God, for
the first time in years I was
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getting a sense of relief and
help, but my whole family was
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now having to deal with a lie
that was finally just out and
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they were devastated.
What were the consequences of
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this confession? First did you
turn to God at the same time?
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No. You still weren't turning
to God. So you were just dealing
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with the consequences
of man's law at this point.
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Man's law and I can do
this. I'm going to get better.
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I'm going to solve this. I'm
going to work hard, and I did.
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I was required to get into
therapy with a therapist who
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specializes in sex offenders and
we met twice a week for many,
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many weeks. I had to live
outside of my home. I could only
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see my children when my wife was
there, supervised visitation,
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line of sight and also auditory
supervision. After about three
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months of intense therapy the
anger went away pretty quickly
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as I realized this is what has
to happen. The laws are there to
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protect the children, not me,
not to help me really; it's to
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protect the children and
they have to be that way because
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otherwise people
will fall into a relapse.
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Was the remorse really coming
over you to recognize, not just
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oops, now I've got myself in
a situation, but were you really
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remorseful for what you
had done to your daughter?
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No, not at first, not at first.
There was a lot of empathy
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training. I realized, You know
what, this is not an object.
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This is a living, breathing soul
here. These are people, these
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are children that are powerless
and most importantly, this is
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your daughter, your flesh and
blood. She does not deserve to
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have this behavior from you,
from anyone, and she is not at
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fault in any way. You
are entirely responsible.
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And later in group therapy
we sometimes see this especially
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with those who have gotten
involved with 14-year-olds or
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15-year-olds. Well she
wanted it. She was consensual.
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You know, she's not old enough
to make the decision to be
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sexually involved. You're
the adult. It's fully your
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responsibility. That has
to happen and that did happen.
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I started to realize I've
hurt my daughter, my precious
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two-year-old daughter. I mean,
it sickens me to think about it,
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but it happened. Now,
you did not get convicted
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then? No. Three
months or so later
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I was able to move back into
the house and it looked like,
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by the way this is my second
wife, my first wife... we're
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going to be able to get back
together again. I was making
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good progress in therapy and the
therapist was allowing certain
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modifications to the therapy
contract to be able to be around
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my children again. But it
was in the spring of 1993 that a
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daughter of very good friends
of ours at the time recalled an
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incident the previous summer
before I had admitted my problem
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with my daughter where she was
molested by me and when I talked
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with the mother about that, I
didn't deny it. I said, Yes that
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did happen. We were reading on
the chair and I had put the book
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in her crotch and she got
stimulated and then I started
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rubbing her and same sort
of things. She didn't recall it
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apparently until nine months
later and I didn't bring it up.
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How old was this child?
She was three. Three years old.
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So she was able to remember.
My daughter was never able to
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remember any physical abuse. She
was examined and there was no
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evidence, so there was no case.
But this did turn into a case.
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She had recalled an incident,
I didn't deny it. We went into
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court and that it was it for
my ex-wife. That was it. She was
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like I can't deal with this any
more. That was the end of our
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relationship. The
consequences then of your
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actions finally are hitting you.
Now you go through a divorce.
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You are convicted of child
molestation. Now you received
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probation, is that correct?
Eight years' probation, 75 days
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in county jail.
Did you lose your job?
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I did not lose my job. God saw
fit that I could keep my job and
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the way it was structured
was my ex-wife and children were
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dependent on my job. So I thank
him for that. I still have that
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job today and all of the
management at my work know of
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my situation and
all of my offense.
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So as a convicted child molester
you were obligated to inform
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everyone around you.
No. No? That was my choice,
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that was my choice as a part
of the accountability. It was
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that time when I was going
through the court process that I
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met a man who shared his faith
with me and for the first time
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in my life someone who mentioned
Jesus was someone I could listen
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to. Anytime anyone had
approached me with do you know
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Jesus, I would say no, go away;
because I knew I couldn't be
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a hypocrite. I couldn't
get involved in Christianity.
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I had dabbled in it in college.
In fact, there was one dear
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friend in college who
was frustrated with me:
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You know so much. You know the
Gospel but you haven't taken the
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step to receive Christ. There's
an act of receiving. It can't
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just be head knowledge.
You can't just know about it.
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Wayne, you did receive Jesus
Christ and he did make you over
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as a new creation. If you could
speak to someone who is caught
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up in this sexual sin
right now, what would you say?
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What I would say is, Christ can
lead you out of that mess, no
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matter now messy you think
it is he can. He wants to do it.
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I want to make this point though
that nothing, losing your job,
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losing your marriage, losing
your freedom, even if you go to
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jail, none of that compares
to the damage of molesting or
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hurting a child even one more
time. You have got to get help.
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As soon as you become
accountable to even one person
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the chances of you repeating
your behavior drop dramatically.
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Please, get help. We
are going to have you come
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back and do some programs
on recovery and accountability,
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but I know that one of the
blessings that God has brought
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into your life is Sherri.
You heard this awesome testimony
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and yet you chose
to marry this man.
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That's true, yes, that's true.
Well that is an amazing story
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that God led us and I'll
share that with you later.
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Okay, we're going to do a
program with you and hear your
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personal testimony in how the
Lord led the two of you together
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But, you know, God restored more
that just a marriage. He has
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restored your relationship
with your daughter. Tell us.
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Absolutely. Well actually when
she was informed of the molest
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she wasn't informed until
she was about 9-10 years old and
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there were some difficult years
there, in fact, three years
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where she didn't even
communicate with me or anyone
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in my family. But, you
know what? She reached out to my
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mom during one Thanksgiving and
then she decided to come out for
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Thanksgiving and we had a lot
of healing; some heart-to-heart
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talks that needed to happen. She
needed to hear that I took full
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responsibility for what I did,
that she did nothing to bring on
00:27:06.84\00:27:10.07
what had happened. Praise God!
In the next nine months, she
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wanted to go to campmeeting with
us and at that campmeeting, I
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think we might even have a
picture, there it is, she got
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baptized. Over those 10 days
she got baptized. I just love
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the look on her face there.
Praise God! She's a child of God
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and she loves Jesus. God is
in the business of restoration.
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That's his job, he
wants to bring healing.
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Amen, that is. He is a God
of new beginnings. I am sorry
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that we're out of time,
but remember this, that God's
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mercies are new every morning
and great is his faithfulness.
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This is the story of Wayne and
Sherri Ladins. Please tune in
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next time and we'll be hearing
part of Sherri's testimony.
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Good bye, for now.
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