Hey, I'm CA Murray
and this is "Free Indeed."
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It's a
different kind of program.
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On "Free Indeed" you get to meet
real people in real situations,
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who have made mistakes but are
trying to correct their lives,
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trying to
change their destinies,
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trying to get their selves
correct not only with society
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but with our Lord
and Savior Jesus Christ.
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This is Prince,
Prince has the time to create
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chess pieces out of tissue paper
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but he also has
time to read the word.
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He has time to read his Bible
and he plans on getting out,
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getting straight,
giving his life to God
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and becoming a servant
of God and a servant to man.
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That's what "Free
Indeed" is all about,
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its real people
telling real stories.
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I'm free indeed.
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When I was arrested
and prior to my arrest,
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I had numerous
associates and people
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that always
wanted to be around me.
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I'm goofy person,
I'm easy to get along
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but you know and
I like to have fun
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but outside of that I had money.
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So people like to be
around me because they knew
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that whatever they
needed, I would most likely
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get it or I'll find a way
for them to have it or whatever.
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And when I got
arrested everybody disappeared,
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everybody and my mom always
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tells me that
family is all we have.
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You know, your
family will always be.
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If anybody else, if
everybody else leaves,
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your mom is always going
to be here and she was there.
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And before I realized,
you know, this is after months
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of sitting in this county.
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It set me to realize that
my family is the only people
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that are showing up here.
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And that are doing the
small things that really matter,
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everything else doesn't matter.
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I took so much
stuff for granted,
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like tying with my
family or just seeing
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their face or
hearing their voice,
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I took all these things
for granted and I never-I had
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so much materialistic stuff
and none of that matters now.
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I never thought that being
put in the situation like this,
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everybody would
disappear and everybody
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would just find the next person.
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You know, just
vanish out of my life.
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I never thought that they
would just disappear like that.
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And when I was
arrested, my lowest point.
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I was in the county jail
and I had beat this girl up
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and I had to stay in a
room by myself for 28 days.
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No toilet paper,
no type of hygiene.
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I couldn't keep a towel,
I couldn't keep watch clock.
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They took my mattress from
me every morning about 5:30.
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I didn't get it back till
about 10 o'clock at night.
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And during this time
it seemed like everything
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around me crumbled
and all like I have
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in that little room
with me was a Bible.
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And I can only have one
visit a week for 30 minutes.
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And my mom came to see
me and started to share
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with me and just tried to
help me make it through that.
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And that was some of the
worst-- that was the worst
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that I have
experienced I thought,
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and so down the road
when my mother relapsed again.
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And I just fell like I was back
into a corner and the only thing
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that I could do
was call out to God.
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And I didn't realized that's
where my help and my strength
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lied until I actually
decided to give everything
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that was on my shoulders to Him.
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I didn't realize that it
would be that much easier
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in the midst of all that
madness and all that chaos
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if I just turned it over.
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At times when I
had a lot of money,
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I felt like I was,
you know, unstoppable.
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And even when my money was low,
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I knew that I will get it
back as soon as my phone rung,
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I would get that
money right back.
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It didn't matter to
me, you know, when because
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I knew that time
will come eventually.
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And I didn't-I place my
money before everything.
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I stopped going to church.
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I mean I respect my
grandfather a whole lot.
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He is the main man
in my life next to God.
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And I-- he will call
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and asked me to come in
church and get on the drums.
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And I'm like,
"Okay, I'll be there."
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And my phone would
ring to go give money
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and I will do that
instead of coming to do
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what my
grandfather asked me to do.
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I realized giving myself
to God was the only answer
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when everything
else that I exhausted
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all those other
options, the people,
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the things they all failed.
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That is when I realized
that there was no other way.
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There is no
other option or avenue
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that I could choose besides God.
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I definitely feel that people
can be outside of this prison
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and still be
imprisoned in their soul.
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I was so black
and darkened inside,
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I felt like I was
swimming in a sea of emptiness.
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And was trying to fill
that with instinct ratification
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and it never worked ever,
it may have last for a minute.
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You know, with
a blend or a drink
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or whatever but
it always went way.
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But when you fill yourself
up with the goodness of Jesus,
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there is no
better feeling than that.
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And it's not a
feeling that comes and goes,
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it's something that you want
to hold on to and it's something
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that you want to
share with someone else
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and try to encourage them
to try to grasp or hold off,
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so that they can share
that with the next person.
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What is grace? What is mercy?
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Are grace and mercy
two sides of the same coin?
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Is grace, mercy in action
or is mercy, grace in acting?
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Is grace not getting
what we deserve or getting
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what we don't deserve?
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Or getting what we want
or not getting what we want.
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In today's program Vince
is a recipient of God's mercy.
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He sings about
God's mercy and His grace.
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It's God's grace that keeps us.
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It's His mercy that draws us.
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It keeps us sound and saved
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and sane even in
a place like this.
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I had children when I was
right coming out of high school.
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Started having
children-- and my whole thing
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was I had to take care of them.
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I knew that my
parents took care of me
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and I will be
there for my children.
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And at first I tried working
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but I just wasn't
making enough money.
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So my thing was to
by any means necessary
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to take care of my
children, I had do it.
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So that's what I
did, whatever it took
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to get to feed my
children's what I did.
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Back then it seem like the
not so honest made more money.
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So they are not so honest
job, that's the job that I took.
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I sold drugs, I obtain items
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that were stolen
and I resold them.
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I was middleman, I was all that.
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When you become a
hustler, if--to me hustling
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is not just selling drugs.
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If it comes down
to painting a house,
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I'm going to be the best
house painter I could paint it.
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If you're going
to paint it for $100,
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I'm going to paint it for 99.
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So I make sure
that I get that job.
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So if it comes
to feed my children.
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I'm going to do it.
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I can't envision
a time or situation
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that where I want to
go back to where I was.
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Because my
mother always told me,
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if you do what you did, you
continue to get what you got it.
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So you're going to get the
same results for your action so.
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Now there's no
possible way I go back.
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When I came to the system,
at first I was angry because
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there were lot of things that
I did do and didn't get caught
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for it and I
thought about it when
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I sat back and
to see about myself
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and I really thought about it.
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I was really blessed because
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I didn't have to
make it this far.
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I could have gotten killed,
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things that I was
doing out on the street.
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And to me God put
you where you need,
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where He needs
you to be actually.
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Because doing what I was
doing I could have been dead.
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I wouldn't be able
to call my children.
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I wouldn't be
able to write to them.
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They wouldn't be
able to come and visit me.
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They wouldn't have a dad at all.
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So I think he
just put me somewhere
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to sit down to really, you
know, catch my breath basically
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and get by head together.
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I was at wreck one day.
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I went over there
to try to give my,
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try to work out a little bit.
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And I heard a guy
singing in the yard.
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Two guys are walking
and they were singing
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and so I walked to
them and I was listening.
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So I asked the guy, I said,
"Hey, do you know this song."
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Like that and I
started singing it.
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And he said, "Hey, you know,
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you can sing a
little bit like then."
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And I said,
"Well, I do a little."
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And then he said, well,
would you like to come over
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here and come over
check at the choir like that.
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So I was like ah, I
don't know like there so.
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I said well, I'll check it
out, went there, so he said,
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well, here sing this with me.
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So we started
singing and we've been
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singing through the whole [838].
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And finally I get a
pass telling me to call
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to the chapel and they know.
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And I'm here and I wouldn't,
I mean it's the best thing
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that ever happened to
me as far being down here.
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Having guys to sing
with and worship with.
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And if you just
need somebody to talk to,
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just I feel like the
choir is my brothers.
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All of them are my brothers
even from another mother
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because I can go to them
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and we can talk about anything.
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And if I have a
problem or they have a problem,
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we can share
that with each other.
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And it's almost like,
you know, like first hand.
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I mean it's like, like
Vince our choir director.
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If I'm having a
problem with something,
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I can go to him. He
is going to stop doing
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what he is doing
to make sure I'm okay.
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Again I've
being singing for him.
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God's mercy kept me
means to me on a personal level
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that if it
wasn't for God's mercy,
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I wouldn't be here today.
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I'd probably be six feet under.
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So it means a lot
to me and it comes,
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it really hits
home when it comes
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you know my
personal life because
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if it weren't for
God's mercy shew...
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I just wouldn't be and
I know that for a fact.
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Lamentations 3:22 says,
"God's mercies are new everyday.
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His compassion fails us not.
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Oh, great is thy faithfulness."
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When you think
about what the Lord
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has done for you and
where He has brought you from,
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you should want
to shout hallelujah.
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God's mercy will sustain
you and will keep you, amen.
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I almost let go
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I felt like I just
couldn't take life any more
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My problems had me bound
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Depression weighed me down
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But God held me close
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So I wouldn't let go
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God's mercy kept me
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So I wouldn't let go Hallelujah
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I almost gave up
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I was right at the
edge of a break through
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I couldn't see it
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The devil really had me
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But Jesus came and grabbed me
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And He held me close
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So I wouldn't let go
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God's mercy kept me
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So I wouldn't let go
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So I'm here to day
because God kept me
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I'm alive today
only because of His grace
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Oh, He kept me
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God kept me
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He kept me
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So I wouldn't let go
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Thank you, Jesus.
Hallelujah. Come one man.
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I almost let go
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I felt like I just
couldn't take life anymore
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Come on man
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My problems had me bound
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Depression weighed me down
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But God held me close
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Yes, indeed
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So I wouldn't let go
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And God's mercy kept me
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So I wouldn't let go
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So I'm here today
because God kept me
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I'm alive today
only because of His grace
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Oh, He kept me
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My God kept me
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He kept me
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He kept me God kept me
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He kept me
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Jesus kept me
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God kept me
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Oh, He kept me
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He kept me
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I know that God kept me
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God kept me
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He kept me
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In storm and in rain
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God kept me
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God was right by my side
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He kept me
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When I was
running out of my mind
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God was right by my side
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He kept me
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Through the storm and the rain
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And when my body was in pain
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God reached
down and picked me up
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He put my feet on a solid rock
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In the midnight I would wake
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God was right by my side
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Yes, He was
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Trouble all around me
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And I couldn't find my way
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God, my God stepped in
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He stepped in Yes, He did
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He picked me up like
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He did Daniel in the lions' den
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He was checking me like
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he did with Paul
and Simon [...14.51]
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He reborn them in
the fire of furnace
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My God would do the same thing
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Same thing for you
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Yes, He will
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God, trust in the Lord
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So I would know
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He kept me
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So I wouldn't let go Hallelujah.
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Let's pray, Father God,
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we're going to
reach your word now.
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And we ask You please
shine the light in our eyes,
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so that we can truly see.
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We thank You in
Jesus' name, amen.
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Amen. "Then he began
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to speak to them in parables."
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I'm in Mark 12:1
reading from the New King James.
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"A man planted a vineyard
and set a hedge around it,
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dug a place for the
wine vat and built a tower.
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Then he leased
it to vinedressers
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and went into a far country.
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Now at vintage-time he sent
a servant to the vinedressers,
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that he might
receive some of the fruit
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of the vineyard
from the vinedressers."
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It's only fair, he
want to get little some back
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on his investment.
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"And they took him and beat him
and sent him away empty-handed.
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Again he sent another servant,
and at him they threw stones,
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wounded him in the head,
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and sent him away
shamefully treated.
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And again he sent
another, and him they killed,
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and many others,
beating some and killing some.
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Therefore still
having one son, his beloved,
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he sent him to them at last,
saying they will respect my son.
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But those vinedressers
said among themselves,
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'This is the heir.
Come, let us kill him,
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and the
inheritance will be ours.'
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So they took him and killed him
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and cast him
out of the vineyard.
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Therefore what will the
owner of the vineyard do?
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He will come and
destroy the vinedressers,
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and give the
vineyard to others."
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There is an old song
sung by Elvis Presley.
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I guess it's got
to be better part
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of 60 years old
called Return to Sender.
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Now if you know that
song, you're no baby.
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Because that's an old song.
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And I remember hearing
that when I was a little fat.
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That song is
almost 60 years old.
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But the thoughts of
that song are still the same.
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It's about a guy who
loves a girl and he is sending
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her letter to tell
him about his love.
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But she is sending them
back unopened and unread.
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And so the last
part of the song says,
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this time I'm
going to walk right up
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and put it right in her hand.
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And if it comes
back the very next day
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then I'll understand.
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She wrote upon it
"return to sender."
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I don't think there's
anything worse in the world
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than loving
somebody, who don't love you.
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Amen. That's
about the worst thing
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in the world, loving
somebody, who doesn't love you.
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Amen. Caring about somebody,
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who doesn't care about you.
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Needing somebody who
just doesn't need you.
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That's tough Amen.
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This parable that's recorded
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here in Mark is also
written in the Book of Luke 20.
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And Christ is talking
about that kind of relationship.
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God sent prophets,
priests, finally Jesus.
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We neglected the priests,
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rejected the
prophets and killed His Son.
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It's tough when you love
people, who don't love you.
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That's right. Me
people, don't need you.
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Care about people
that don't care about you.
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Years ago when I first realized
this as a young Christian,
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I kind of felt bad for God.
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Because it
occurred to me that God
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was a prisoner of His own love.
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God's in this thing for keeps.
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He can't get out.
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God is as much a
prisoner as you are.
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Have you ever
thought about that.
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He can't get free,
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He cannot stop loving.
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1 John 4:8 says, "He that loveth
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not knoweth not
God, for God is love."
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Not has love,
sells love, rents love,
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gives love, God is love.
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He is a
prisoner of His own love.
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He is got to love you.
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And He cannot stop loving you
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whether you love Him or not.
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It's tough when
you love somebody
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that doesn't love you.
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Care about somebody,
doesn't care about you.
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Needs somebody
who doesn't need you.
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So when I realize
that I felt bad for God.
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Then I realized I
don't have to pity God.
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God needs to pity me.
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But He is a
prisoner of His own love.
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God cannot change, He says that.
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I'm the Lord,
thy God I change not.
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So He loves you yesterday,
today forever and there
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is nothing you
can do to change that.
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You know, I'm so glad and its
in my just popped in my mind.
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There is nothing you can do
that's God is not prepared for
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Amen. You can't surprise God.
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That's right.
Can't sneak up on him.
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It's funny
sometimes we do things
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and we say what was I thinking.
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Did you ever do that?
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I don't know what is
going through my head
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I'm so what was I thinking..
And you're surprised at you.
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But it's interesting
the devil is not surprised
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because he prodded you to do it.
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So he knew it was coming.
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God is not surprised because
He knew it was coming before
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the thought entered your mind.
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The only person that surprised
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when you do the
things you do, is you.
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Amen. Because
God is not surprised,
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devil is not surprised.
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And through all
of that God says,
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I love you still,
I can't stop loving.
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Let me show you a great
text, just popped in my brain.
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Let me show you and
this is a great text.
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2 Timothy 2:13, its great text.
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"If we are
faithless, He remains faithful."
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Yeah. "He cannot deny Himself."
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Now here is what that saying.
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He's not saying if
you give upon the faith
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you're still going to be saved.
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That's not what he is saying.
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God is saying His faithfulness
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is not dependent
upon your faithfulness.
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Amen. Right. He is saying
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I don't move the goalpost.
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I'll always be here whether
you're looking for me or not.
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So when you run away,
I'm right here waiting
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for you and when you get
back around to looking for Me,
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I will be right
where you left Me.
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Do you follow me.
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Whether you are
faithful or faithless,
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I'm going to be faithful.
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So that when you get
around to need something,
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I have it ready for you.
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He cannot deny
himself that's just how He is.
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He can't stop loving you.
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He can't stop caring about you.
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He can't stop needing you
because that's what God does,
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He can't do
anything else, cannot change.
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He is the loving God.
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And He loves us
with an everlasting love.
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Ah, Rob, it is,
this is very serious.
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This is a very
life changing experience
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that you've shared with me
in that baptism orientation.
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Tell me little
bit about yourself
00:25:15.72\00:25:17.11
and why you
made this commitment?
00:25:17.14\00:25:18.58
Well, 12 years in
penitentiary, five years ago,
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after 25 years of drug
addiction I fell on my face
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in a visit room and
gave my heart to God.
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Amen. What inspired
you, who told you about God,
00:25:31.31\00:25:34.14
who encouraged you,
who gave you a Bible.
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Tell me about that?
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A family friend after
30 years of not seeing her.
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As she wrote me
a letter and asked
00:25:42.04\00:25:44.71
to get on my visit list.
00:25:44.74\00:25:46.66
Okay, no problem,
she says will you put
00:25:46.69\00:25:48.85
my new husband on there too.
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Yeah, no problem.
00:25:50.21\00:25:51.76
Well, the next letter I get
she says my husband is minister.
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Okay, I was kind
of raised in a church.
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I can handle that.
00:25:59.21\00:26:01.45
After a little
while, we corresponded
00:26:01.48\00:26:05.10
they came to see
me and I couldn't get
00:26:05.13\00:26:08.46
to the visit room fast
enough to get with this preacher
00:26:08.49\00:26:11.79
to give my heart to God.
00:26:11.82\00:26:13.38
I was so sick and tire
of being sick and tired
00:26:13.41\00:26:16.04
in my life in drugs and alcohol.
00:26:16.07\00:26:18.44
And the freedom I
feel now on the inside,
00:26:18.47\00:26:22.95
the freedom from that
bondage to drugs is so powerful.
00:26:22.98\00:26:26.75
Yeah, freedom on the inside,
00:26:26.78\00:26:27.94
you're on the
inside on the inside.
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So double inside
and you're free indeed.
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Amen, praise God let
me ask you something man.
00:26:32.28\00:26:34.34
As far as expressed
to me and our viewers
00:26:34.37\00:26:37.63
about the power of the gospel.
00:26:37.66\00:26:39.07
You haven't been baptized yet.
00:26:39.10\00:26:40.55
But tell me about
the power that God
00:26:40.58\00:26:42.53
has instilled in your
life prior to baptism?
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God started with me 10
years before I got saved.
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He started dropping things
by the wayside one at a time.
00:26:51.47\00:26:54.80
What kind of things.
00:26:54.83\00:26:56.28
First he dropped away alcohol,
in 2001 I quit drinking.
00:26:56.31\00:27:00.65
Then he took away some hatred
in my heart for my codefendant.
00:27:00.68\00:27:04.51
I want to kill him for years.
00:27:04.54\00:27:06.23
I had murder in my heart.
00:27:06.26\00:27:08.16
Amen. And if I
would have seen him,
00:27:08.19\00:27:09.31
I would have killed him. Amen.
00:27:09.34\00:27:11.07
He took away, he took
away the drugs in 2008.
00:27:11.10\00:27:18.01
It was after I was saved. Amen.
00:27:18.04\00:27:20.38
I had a relapse but
since Christmas of 2007,
00:27:20.41\00:27:27.58
the first of 2008
no drugs whatsoever.
00:27:27.61\00:27:30.94
None. So four or five years
00:27:30.97\00:27:32.48
clean you've been experiencing
this power of the gospel-
00:27:32.51\00:27:35.24
Each day something
drops away from me.
00:27:35.27\00:27:37.56
Each day I get
stronger in the walk.
00:27:37.59\00:27:39.54
This year is an
outward proclamation
00:27:39.57\00:27:42.66
of my faith in Jesus Christ
of what He has being doing
00:27:42.69\00:27:45.49
in my life and He
is going to continue
00:27:45.52\00:27:47.17
to do and He can do for you too.
00:27:47.20\00:27:49.26
Amen, amen. Pray,
00:27:49.29\00:27:50.99
and I love that
because you said the old man-
00:27:51.02\00:27:53.13
He keeps falling away, I
got to kill him everyday.
00:27:53.16\00:27:55.58
Amen. And he keeps going
00:27:55.61\00:27:57.03
by the wayside everyday.
00:27:57.06\00:27:58.09
Somebody in the Bible
that shared that Paul said,
00:27:58.12\00:27:59.78
I died daily, amen. Amen.
00:27:59.81\00:28:01.74
Died daily and I love Christ in.
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thank you so very,
very much, blessings to you.
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