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- Welcome, everyone.
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We're excited to share
some Country Wisdom with you.
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- King Solomon had
a thing or two to say
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about the path to wisdom.
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In Proverbs 4, he wrote,
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let your eyes
look directly forward
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and your gaze be
straight before you.
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Keep straight the
path of your feet,
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and all your ways will be sure.
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- Join us now
for Country Wisdom.
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We are in a world of sin.
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We are in a world of sorrow.
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This wasn't God's plan.
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This is not the way it
was supposed to turn out
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or the way it was
supposed to happen.
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A third of God's
family left heaven.
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The God of the
universe lost his own children,
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but he's got a plan.
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It is not always
going to be this way.
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Matter of fact, I believe
it's going to wrap up soon.
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Let me read you a verse.
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Couple of verses
actually in Revelation 21.
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And I saw a new
heaven and a new earth:
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for the first were passed away.
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And verse four, and God
shall wipe away all tears
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from their eyes.
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There shall be no more death,
neither sorrow, no crying,
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neither shall
there be any more pain:
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for the former
things are passed away.
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That's what God has in store,
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but in the meantime, we are
still down here on this earth,
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and we have a story today
that hopefully can help you
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or a family member.
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- Dori, you have a story that
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I'm so thankful that
you're willing to share
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because people need to hear it,
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but it's not a story
you ever wanted to tell,
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a story that you ever
wanted to be put in a position
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of having to tell.
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- No, it wasn't.
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Alright, so I'll just say this.
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I lost my son
December 12th of '20.
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So how many? Nine months ago.
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And, but I didn't
lose him the day he died.
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I lost him, I was in
the process of losing him
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years before that, because.
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- When did that start?
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- When did it start?
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It actually started, it
actually probably started
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when his father kind
of abandoned his children.
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And he was eight years old.
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And according to
all that I've studied,
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eight is a worst time for a boy
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to be abandoned by his father.
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And it just shows you
also that broken homes,
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what broken
homes do to children.
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So his dad was a
pharmacist. I'll just say this.
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And he ended up
getting into drugs,
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and he's already passed away.
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He passed away when he
was 51, about seven years ago.
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But he ended up, so
it broke up our family.
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And then I ended up
taking care of the kids myself,
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actually when
Christopher was eight,
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and I have two daughters.
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They were four
and a one-week-old.
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And I raised them
by myself in essence
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with the help of
God, and friends,
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and family, and stuff, but.
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- So you have a faith in God.
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- Absolutely have faith in God.
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I've always had a
desire to know God.
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I've always had a love for
him and a desire to know him
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since I can remember actually.
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But I will say this.
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When all that happened,
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I have to share the
story 'cause it's really cool.
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It was, and you can
take it out if you need to.
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But when my third baby was born
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it was when I was
having a lot of hard times
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with my marriage and everything.
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And he had gone already,
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and it was about a
month after she was born.
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It was just me and the kids,
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and I went out on my porch.
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And I had two books.
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I had like a chapter
book and I had the Bible,
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and I told God, I
read the chapter book.
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I think it was a
Mark Finley book actually.
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It was a chapter.
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And as soon as that finished,
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I was gonna open up
the Bible and read it,
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but my baby started crying.
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She was only like a month old.
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And I told God, I was like,
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I talked to him
in my mind a lot.
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I was like, oh Lord, I
was gonna read your word.
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I probably should
have read it first,
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but Brianna's crying
and I need to tend to her.
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She probably needs to be fed.
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And so I was walking.
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I turned to walk to
my sliding glass door,
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and I said, you know
what? I am gonna read your word,
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but I'm just gonna hold it out.
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I'm gonna point,
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and whatever my finger lands
on, that's what I'm gonna read.
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And it was the book of Malachi.
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And I had never read Malachi.
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And I was like-
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- [Janice] It's
not one of the biggies.
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- I was like, I literally said,
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what good can
come out of Malachi?
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(Dori laughs)
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And it was Malakai 3:10.
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It was in the Good News Bible.
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And it said, put me to
the test and you will see,
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I will open the
windows of heaven
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and pour out upon you in
abundance all kinds of good
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things. And I just
looked up to him and I said,
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you're such a good God.
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So even though I
was, it was hard,
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I knew that God was in charge.
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But I thought
life would get easier,
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but that was like the,
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that was one of my
very first big, big sorrows
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was the breakup of our
marriage and stuff, and-
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- But you didn't quit
believing in God because of it.
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- I did not quit
believing in God.
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I pursued him more.
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And, but then I will tell you,
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my life and my family's
have been full of trials,
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full of trials,
like one after another,
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after another, after
another, after another.
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And they were big, big trials.
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And I was just
like, this doesn't feel,
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this doesn't feel good, Lord.
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And I thought that
James, when he said,
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count up joy when you
face trials of many kinds,
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I was like, he is insane.
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But I realize now that the
trials either do two things.
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You either can
decide to choose God,
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or you can be bitter.
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And I chose to choose
God and to go his route.
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And-
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- When you choose the other,
when you choose to be bitter,
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it's not like
those trials go away.
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It's just that now you're
all, you're bitter and alone.
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- Yeah.
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- Instead of having God,
holding his hand through it.
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- Yeah. It was hard.
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I mean, it was like, I mean,
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I thought that was like the
worst thing that could happen
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was the breakup of our family,
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but it got harder.
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And so then Christopher,
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because he didn't have a father,
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his father wasn't
really in his life then.
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And he had
learning disabilities.
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Even though he was brilliant,
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he had learning disability.
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He was diagnosed with bipolar,
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or manic
depression, and other things.
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And I'm like, how can you
diagnose a teenager with that
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because they're teenagers?
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But yet he was
diagnosed with that.
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And I think it's just
really hard in this day and age
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that we live, all the media,
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everything that
bombards our children,
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it's really hard on them.
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I can't imagine what it's
like to be a kid right now.
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- It definitely is worse
than it was 10 years ago even.
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- Oh, absolutely.
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And I really think that we
need to be praying for them,
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like with such intensity.
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But Christopher ended
up being hurt by things.
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I'll just say it that way. He
ended up being hurt by things,
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and then he
reacted to it by trying to
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do whatever he
could to avoid the pain.
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So he started doing pills,
anything like Coricidin, pills.
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And then he did
things that he didn't want,
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he felt bad about doing.
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And so he was
cutting on himself some.
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I remember like calling
the ambulance several times
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'cause he was just
cutting on himself.
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- So when he was
like 13 years old,
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I even put him in
actually Advent Home
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because he was just
trying to numb his pain
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however he could.
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And so I, like I said, I just,
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tried to tackle whatever
was going on at that time.
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He required a lot of
attention, a lot of energy.
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And I focused on him a lot,
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even probably to the
demise of my two other children,
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but they've been, they're great.
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And so he ended
up, long story short,
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he ended up
becoming addicted to opiates,
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and he ended up doing IV stuff,
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and he did things that
he would never have done
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in his right mind, or,
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'cause he was a very tender
hearted, kind hearted boy.
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He had so many
wonderful qualities,
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but addiction, I honestly
think it's demon possession.
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I really do because
it changes the person
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to who they would
not even wanna be.
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And anyways, so I
lost him over years,
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and I tried to, I
prayed to God like,
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and I said,
please don't let him,
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please don't let him become
homeless, and hungry, and cold,
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please don't let him go to
jail, and be beaten, and raped.
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And then I saw
a story on YouTube
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of a girl that went
through something horrific.
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I mean her life went from,
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I'll just say, it went
from horrible to finding God.
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And God was
telling me at that time,
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I was in the
bathtub seeking him,
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but I listening, and he
was telling me at that time,
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you don't know what Christopher
needs to be in my kingdom.
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I do.
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So I let go of
him at that moment.
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I said, then do
whatever it takes to save him
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for your kingdom.
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This is a blink.
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Life here is a blink.
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Do whatever it takes to
save him for your kingdom.
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And that is my prayer.
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Now for my girls,
do whatever it takes
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to save them for your kingdom
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because they
don't have an addiction,
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but I think all our children,
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we need to like
fully submit them to God,
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commit them to
God, submit them to God,
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and let him do his work,
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because life here is nothing
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compared to what
God wants for us.
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And we can even have a little
bit of heaven here on earth,
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just knowing God and his love.
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- You literally
loved him enough to let go
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and stop being the mom
you thought you ought to be.
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That's right.
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And I didn't even
care what people thought.
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The people like, what
they think of him or me.
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I know that I prayed for him,
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and I probably had hundreds
of people praying for him.
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I interceded for him.
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They interceded for him.
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And I told God, do not,
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please do not take
him before he's yours
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or before you've given him
every opportunity to be yours.
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And I know beyond a shadow
of doubt that God did that.
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God did not take
my son before that.
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And I know that
God is just and fair,
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and he's the only one
that can judge period.
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Nobody can judge anybody
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because we don't
know their genetics,
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we don't know their experiences,
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we don't know what
happened to them, we don't know.
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We might think
we do, but we don't.
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Only God does.
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And he knows the hearts.
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- Through this
progression of time,
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what was your
relationship like with your son,
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or was there any?
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- Oh, my relationship,
he was my first born.
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He was born one day shy
of being 14 weeks early.
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He weighed less than
two and a half pounds.
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I adored him.
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I loved him to pieces.
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I didn't drink
one drop of caffeine.
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I was so careful.
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And he was so funny.
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We, he talked to me more
than my two girls together.
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He told me things I
didn't even wanna hear.
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But as the addiction increased,
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the relationship
became less close,
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because he ended up stealing,
and taking my checkbook,
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and just stuff
that he wouldn't do.
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And, but, and we would argue
because he's strong-willed,
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and I guess I'm pretty
strong-willed too maybe.
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- Maybe. (Jim laughs)
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- And so we would argue
and yell at each other even,
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but then we would
like always apologize.
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I always just
remember always apologizing.
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And he was like so
good about apologizing too.
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So he was a terrific kid
other than that addiction part.
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He was an awesome kid.
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I miss him.
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I miss him.
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- It's still pretty raw.
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- Yeah.
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And it's actually,
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I find that it's
actually harder right now.
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I think because God, in
his love and kindness knew
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that for me to
deal with his death,
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I just, all I could see was like
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so much of the things
that he did so hurtful.
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I know that Christopher
is no longer suffering.
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He's no longer in pain,
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and he's no longer
able to hurt anybody else.
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And I think addiction,
especially drug addiction,
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makes people do things
that they would not normally do
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because it costs money.
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It costs a lot of money.
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And so he's no longer suffering,
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and he's not
hurting anyone else.
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And that gives me comfort too.
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- If you don't mind,
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could you kinda lead us on to
where and when, what happened?
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- In this-
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- A year ago, where
were the two of you?
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- So he was in and out of jail,
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and I thought the
first time he went in jail
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that would scare him,
and he would never wanna go,
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but he was so gregarious.
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He made friends
wherever he went.
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And he was quite smart too.
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So he knew, and you
can get drugs in jail,
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I mean, just as easily
or maybe even easier than,
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I mean, where he was at.
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I mean, it was so easy to get.
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- How did you know all of that?
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Did he share that
with you? - He told me.
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- He told you, okay.
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- He told me.
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- So he's breaking your
heart more at the same time
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as he's sharing with mom.
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- Well, he's telling me,
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which I love that he
could tell me things.
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I love that part
because he felt close enough
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to be able to tell me.
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And I love that. I
miss that tremendously.
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But of course I was
like, it hurt me that he was
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doing things that
harmed him and harmed others.
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But so he ended up
being in and out of jail.
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And then he
ended up coming home,
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and I actually moved
away for a short time.
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So I was living
where he was living,
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which was his grandma's house.
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And I was able to spend the
last week and half with him.
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And I feel honored to do that,
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and I even left a job,
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and I'm pretty sure I
was there for only one month,
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and I'm pretty sure
that the reason why,
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'cause I was like, why?
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'Cause I felt like God called me
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to this place in North Carolina.
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And I'm like, why?
Why am I back here?
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I think it was just for
this one week with Chris,
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and this was one of the reasons.
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And so I was able to pray.
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I prayed with them
during that week and half twice.
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And I asked him,
I said, Christopher.
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I said, I don't even know,
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because his
girlfriend had a ouija board
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and stuff like that.
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And I said, I don't even
know if you believe in God.
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And he looked
straight at me and he said,
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of course I do, Mom.
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You're you're my
mother. You raised me.
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And so that gave me some hope.
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And then there was a
time, I think it was a Tuesday.
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They found him on a
Saturday, on a Sabbath.
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But the Tuesday before,
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I remember going,
his room was open.
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The TV was blaring,
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and I went into his room.
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I turned off the TV,
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and I just felt impressed
to like pray over Christopher.
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I just got on my
knees, and I rebuked Satan,
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and told him he had
no rights to my kids.
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He was dedicated
to God as a child.
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He was baptized in
the name of Jesus Christ.
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And then I asked God to
make himself known to him.
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And I know he did.
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And then what
happened was we found out that,
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I got a call.
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I was at my daughter's
house spending the night there,
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and we got a call
from their grandmother
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where I was staying at.
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And she said the
police were there.
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And I knew that
wasn't good news.
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And so I rushed over there,
00:19:20.36\00:19:25.46
and I remember it's only
like five minutes away or so,
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but I remember
driving like a maniac,
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and I was like, Lord, I
know that this is not good news.
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And I think that she had
told me that he was dead.
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She's like, Chris is dead.
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And I'm like, I know he's dead,
00:19:41.14\00:19:43.55
but I'm gonna
intercede for him one more time.
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Be with my
child and do whatever.
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I'm just gonna intercede.
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I don't even know
if that's possible,
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but just save my son.
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And so then when we got there,
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there were two policemen there,
00:19:58.99\00:20:01.00
and they told us that he
had gone to a narcotic party
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in a hotel and paranoia ensued,
00:20:10.67\00:20:15.18
and somebody
shot him in the head.
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And God has
given me forgiveness.
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I'm not, I don't hate
the guy that killed him,
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which is amazing.
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And I had a little
problem with his girlfriend
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'cause she introduced him to it,
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but I try to pray for her now.
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And God just has given me peace
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that he's a good God,
even though I have sorrow.
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And I know that it's
God's kingdom, right?
00:20:57.72\00:20:59.82
He gets to choose
who live there anyways.
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(Dori laughs)
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So I'm like, you
have full whatever.
00:21:02.86\00:21:07.03
And so I just want people
to know that you can have peace
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even though you have sadness,
00:21:12.90\00:21:13.97
and that I know what
it's like to be a mother
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of the child that has addiction,
00:21:17.81\00:21:19.91
and that it's a very,
very, very hard place to be,
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extremely.
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- You're not
alone, as we all know.
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- No.
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- It is so common
nowadays, so much more common.
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It's incredible that
in a situation like this,
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having such issues
with your son, watching him,
00:21:36.99\00:21:40.96
as you said, you began
to lose him when he was 13,
00:21:40.96\00:21:43.67
and to lose him in
little bits all along,
00:21:44.83\00:21:47.50
and then completely lose him,
00:21:47.50\00:21:49.74
and sit here not
even a year later and say,
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even in spite of all
the sorrow, you have peace.
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- I do.
00:21:58.18\00:21:59.41
- That's
difficult to understand.
00:21:59.41\00:22:00.55
- It's only from God.
00:22:00.55\00:22:02.18
It's truly only from God,
00:22:02.18\00:22:03.92
in the fact that I'm not bitter
00:22:03.92\00:22:05.49
to the person that killed him.
00:22:05.49\00:22:07.39
That is only from God.
00:22:07.39\00:22:08.82
I don't know how, I
mean, I don't see how.
00:22:08.82\00:22:13.19
It has to be from God.
00:22:13.19\00:22:15.03
- Have you seen
that person since?
00:22:15.03\00:22:17.23
- I mean, I've
seen pictures of him,
00:22:18.30\00:22:21.00
but he's in jail, but no.
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- And how old is your son?
00:22:24.71\00:22:26.47
- He was 29.
00:22:26.47\00:22:27.31
- 29.
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So from 13 to 29, a
lot of years of struggle,
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and a lot of years of heartache.
00:22:33.18\00:22:34.85
When you first came,
00:22:36.12\00:22:37.75
and you and I were
talking before we sat down,
00:22:37.75\00:22:40.52
you said you just
wanted people to know,
00:22:40.52\00:22:43.02
and you listed a
whole bunch of things.
00:22:43.02\00:22:45.19
You've got a heart
that wants to help others.
00:22:46.29\00:22:47.83
Do you mind just sharing
some of those things with us?
00:22:47.83\00:22:50.40
- Yeah, I want people to know
that there is a God in heaven
00:22:50.40\00:22:54.54
that loves them dearly,
knows everything about them,
00:22:54.54\00:22:58.41
and just like a
parent, like I loved.
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Christopher taught me that,
00:23:00.81\00:23:02.51
that the things that he did,
00:23:02.51\00:23:04.35
there wasn't
something he did that I thought,
00:23:06.31\00:23:08.32
I don't know if I can, like,
00:23:08.32\00:23:09.78
I don't know if I can love him.
00:23:10.69\00:23:12.42
And I loved him no matter what.
00:23:12.42\00:23:15.39
I loved him with such intensity.
00:23:15.39\00:23:17.93
And I know that
God loves us more,
00:23:17.93\00:23:21.06
and he loves every
person that's listening today.
00:23:21.06\00:23:23.77
He is like, he
loves them so much.
00:23:23.77\00:23:26.70
He loves, I wanna
say he loves you so much.
00:23:26.70\00:23:30.64
And he wants to know you,
00:23:30.64\00:23:32.61
and he doesn't
wanna live without you.
00:23:32.61\00:23:36.78
And if we just would,
if we would just seek him,
00:23:36.78\00:23:40.85
and all you have to do is repent
00:23:40.85\00:23:42.65
and say, I'm sorry for my sins.
00:23:42.65\00:23:45.22
I don't, I choose you.
00:23:45.22\00:23:46.76
That's what I tell him everyday.
00:23:46.76\00:23:47.99
I'm like, I'm not perfect.
00:23:47.99\00:23:50.03
I have my flaws,
00:23:50.03\00:23:51.03
but I'm like, I choose you.
00:23:51.03\00:23:52.93
I want you in my life.
00:23:52.93\00:23:55.50
I want your spirit.
00:23:55.50\00:23:56.97
But I'm a leopard.
I can't change myself.
00:23:56.97\00:23:59.37
You're gonna have to change me
00:23:59.37\00:24:01.04
because I desire
things that are not good,
00:24:01.04\00:24:04.04
but I don't want to.
00:24:04.04\00:24:05.24
I want to do your will.
00:24:05.24\00:24:06.68
I want to be bold for you.
00:24:06.68\00:24:08.54
I want to, I want to,
00:24:08.54\00:24:11.58
I want everyone to
know that you love them.
00:24:11.58\00:24:14.28
And I, that's what I want.
00:24:15.18\00:24:17.12
I want everyone to know that
they are deeply, deeply loved
00:24:17.12\00:24:19.72
by a God who is
bigger than anything,
00:24:19.72\00:24:23.32
and that he is coming soon.
00:24:23.32\00:24:25.93
He is coming
really, really soon.
00:24:25.93\00:24:29.16
I believe with all my
heart that we will see him come.
00:24:29.16\00:24:32.43
- Counsel for moms and
dads, anything special for them?
00:24:34.20\00:24:38.31
I mean, some are
probably going through
00:24:38.31\00:24:40.41
what you are right now.
00:24:40.41\00:24:42.21
Others, maybe are getting close.
00:24:42.21\00:24:43.85
What would you say?
00:24:43.85\00:24:45.45
- I would say, get
on your knees and pray,
00:24:45.45\00:24:48.12
'cause this battle is
not against flesh and blood,
00:24:48.12\00:24:51.15
but against principalities
and things of darkness.
00:24:51.15\00:24:53.79
This is a spiritual battle.
00:24:54.79\00:24:57.03
You're more powerful on
your knees than anything else.
00:24:57.03\00:24:59.86
But I would also
say, catch it early on.
00:24:59.86\00:25:03.90
When you catch it early on,
00:25:03.90\00:25:05.80
I don't know.
00:25:09.24\00:25:10.57
'Cause I think do the
tough love thing early on,
00:25:10.57\00:25:12.57
but I'm not positive.
00:25:12.57\00:25:13.68
I don't know. It's so
hard to know because I-
00:25:13.68\00:25:17.65
- Even as I started
out, even God the Father
00:25:17.65\00:25:20.28
couldn't totally
stop some of the children
00:25:20.28\00:25:23.02
from leaving the
glories of heaven and his side.
00:25:23.02\00:25:25.79
- And that's when I realized
that I was kind of playing God
00:25:25.79\00:25:29.42
with Christopher,
00:25:29.42\00:25:30.76
because I was like thinking that
00:25:30.76\00:25:34.10
I could persuade
him to come back.
00:25:34.10\00:25:35.73
And I was like, God is perfect,
00:25:35.73\00:25:37.60
and then Satan chose to leave.
00:25:37.60\00:25:39.33
So, but I would say
the most powerful thing,
00:25:40.40\00:25:45.34
the most, is get on
your knees and pray.
00:25:46.47\00:25:48.54
I believe that it allows God,
00:25:48.54\00:25:51.11
because God's such a gentleman,
I think of Satan as mafia.
00:25:51.11\00:25:54.92
And he's gonna kick
you when you're down,
00:25:54.92\00:25:56.62
and hit you, and kick you,
and punch you, and everything.
00:25:56.62\00:25:59.22
And I think of God
as a perfect gentleman.
00:25:59.22\00:26:00.82
He's just at the door knocking.
00:26:00.82\00:26:02.96
Just let me in.
00:26:02.96\00:26:04.36
And so you come to him
and like, I'm letting you in.
00:26:04.36\00:26:06.13
Now he tells his
angels, go sick 'em.
00:26:06.13\00:26:08.23
That's exactly how I see it.
00:26:08.23\00:26:10.23
It gives God permission
to do in the spiritual realm,
00:26:10.23\00:26:14.97
what needs to be done.
00:26:14.97\00:26:16.77
- Dori, we just can't thank
you enough for coming today
00:26:18.17\00:26:20.88
and the courage to share.
00:26:20.88\00:26:21.91
- Being willing to
tell a story like that,
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because there are other
hurting parents out there
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who maybe haven't
lost their child yet,
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but feel like, in
many ways, they have.
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And to throw out that
little lifeline of hope
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and remind them that
God loves their child
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more than they do.
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- Absolutely.
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- So thank you for coming today.
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Appreciate it a lot.
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- Thank you for having
me and letting me share.
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I appreciate it.
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- Scientists tell us that
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for survival, food,
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But beyond mere survival,
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we also need to know
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And there is someone who cares,
someone who is always there.
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This little track,
Someone Cares About You,
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is full of Bible
verses that will help you know
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just how much God cares for you.
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Someone Cares About You.
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- Thank you for watching.
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Join us again for
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- See you next time.
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