Welcome back! We have
covered a lot of things on this
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program and both of you,
your journeys have been really
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different and I would
like to start with you Mylynda.
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You know you've dealt with
all the things that you dealt
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with as far as mom and
their separation and the abuses
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of your dad and then his death.
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How are you coming back and
dealing with your own anger,
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your own addictions and
all that kind of stuff and the
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grief of your father?
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Well I'm taking counseling
sessions in Teen Challenge,
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as with what my
director Apryl said.
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We have a Christian counselor
and she realized that I have
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a lot in me that I am holding
in from my father's death.
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I'm not much of a crier
because I was always raised not
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to cry, so when my dad
died that was the hardest thing
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for me so I sometimes try
to forget my dad's stuff and
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to forget about him even
though he means the world to me.
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Because I don't want to
cry, so they brought me a book
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called 'A Fire In My
Heart and Ice In My Veins'
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to help me recover
from my dad's death.
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That book is about
grief. - yeah it's about grief.
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Because even though we
think that we cover all of that,
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its still unless we actually
get it out and work through
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it, it stays in us
and just causes more pain.
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So I think it's incredible
that you are willing to go into
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that pain, it's incredible
that you have somebody that
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is going to walk
you through that.
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That you get to do that now
instead of 20 years from now.
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It's definitely helping
me, I definitely recommend that
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book to anybody who
has lost a parent. Yeah.
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I could feel what I
wanted to feel before.
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Talk to somebody
that has lost a parent.
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Well I know it must be hard to
lose a parent, they're attached
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to you and they're everything
to you, when you lose them
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that other part of you that
it's gone and this book would
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definitely help you and it
will walk you through it and
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bring out those things in
you that you have been trying
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to cover all along.
It will help you recover.
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Work with counselors
and pastors and grab hold
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of somebody that you
can trust and work through
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those various issues.
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I want to talk with you Megan,
and you were talking about
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a lot of times when we act
out, for both of you, but when
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we act out and we are
angry and drinking and doing all
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this kind of stuff, people
really like to look at that.
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But as you told us your
journey and your story the only
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thing that I couldn't get
out of my head was this little
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girl that was so lost and
just wanted to be loved and seen
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and for someone
to pay attention to.
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Then you talked about
wanting to be in ministry, you
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talked about wanting to
really work with this lost kid.
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Yeah. - I think that
was the core issue for you.
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Or at least one of them. - yeah.
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So would you look at the
camera and talk to that kid
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that doesn't even think
anybody sees them anymore.
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You know what is really
interesting is that kid may be
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3 or 30, or 80, because
until we start working on our
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stuff, we get stuck
with all those feelings.
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So just talk with that kid.
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I just want to tell you
that don't feel like there is
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no buddy by your side and
that there is no way to get
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out of any situation.
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There is always a God that
can help you through anything,
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or any time and if you
just believe and know that He's
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there He will
always answer your prayers.
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And right now when you
say that, you actually can
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feel Him moving
into your life. - yes.
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That has given
you strength. - yes.
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It has given you
courage and hope.
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For both of you it sounds like
you have stepped into a place
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where you are getting
control of your life back.
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I'm absolutely so proud of
you, thank you for being on
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the program, thank you for
being so vulnerable with us.
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You know a lot of people
want to not talk about any of
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that and they stay sick
for a long time but in your
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program they really do
encourage you to say it as many
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times as you need to say it.
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This is not something you
are going to hold onto ever
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again, you are going to deal
with it, use it in ministry,
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or put it away and
get on with your life.
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I love that and God
is going to hold you.
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When God starts working with
our hearts and when God starts
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showing us who we are,
we're never the addict, we're
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never the angry teenager, we're
never the one who is so out
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of control because God says
underneath all of that I know
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who you are, I
know you are My child.
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That's what I
want to wake up in you.
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If you have a child that
is out of control, love them,
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pray for them, call someone.
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Teen Challenge is a good
resource and there is a ton of
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resources out there.
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If you want to call us we
will put you in touch with
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somebody, until next week
always remember that God is
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crazy about you and me too.
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God bless and know there is
nothing that God is ashamed of.
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There is nothing He can't do.
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