Welcome back, I love the
fact that every once in while
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we get to see the whole family,
not the whole family but the
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mom and dad are
here, mom and your stepdad.
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Who is my dad, I feel like
the Lord intended me to have
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the whole time.
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So from the time she
was a little girl with her
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bio-father, an alcoholic
and you left him and she goes
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in and out living with
you, living with him and
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all that stuff.
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She's in and out of drugs,
but you didn't know that did
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you? No, I knew she wasn't
living for Christ but I didn't
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know that she was into drugs
- that's the sweetest thing
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I've ever heard, I knew
she was living for Christ.
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Well I would have been
more scared I'm sure if I had
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known now. - You knew did
some thing was wrong. - yes.
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So even thought at one
time maybe she was taking
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prescription stuff. - she
came to visit one time and
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I realized then that something
was different about her.
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I thought maybe she was
on prescription drugs of some
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kind but I didn't really
worry about it that much.
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When did you start to really
decide that I need to pray
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for her, that she
needs to be covered?
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Well when we would be around
her and her actions and the
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way she dressed, the way
she talked and I knew that she
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really needed the Lord
and so we began to pray.
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Somebody said like 15
years. - probably 15 years.
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I would imagine it probably
was when she left home to go
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live with her father, that's
when we start praying because
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I knew she was in trouble then.
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- you knew the
influences? - yes. - right.
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What would you say to a
mother that says you know what
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I just don't think my
child is going to be okay?
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They are not
going to survive this?
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I would say never to give
up, prayer is so powerful.
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If we really knew how powerful
it was and just to never
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give up. - were their
days that you said I just don't
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think this is working? -
I may have said that, that
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I just felt like that I
loved her that much and I knew
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my husband loved her that
much that we was going to stand
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together and believe on
the Lord because it is His
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will for our loved ones
to be saved. It's God's will.
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He says I promise I will
bring your children back around.
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I will restore your families
and all that kind of stuff
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when the Bible talks about
raise them up in the Lord and
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they will not depart.
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Not saying they're not
going to run and be crazy.
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So now I want to say Chris,
you know there is a lot of
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people whose parents are
praying for them and everybody
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is praying for them but they
are still running like crazy.
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In the last few minutes
what would you say to them?
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God has a plan, you know
this isn't anything we would
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have ever dreamed would
happen, and I'm sure when mom
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had and Bud had to drop
me off at prison and watched
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me walk through those
doors, they certainly never knew
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it would culminate to this,
to me having first off a career,
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a platform for ministry,
to be going around and talking
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to other people. -
how does that feel?
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Well I think it's awesome.
- exactly, how incredible
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is that? It is we were out
shopping about some speaking
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engagements coming up
and we were out shopping for
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clothes the other day and I
was just in the dressing room
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and it just dawned on
me, mom how does it feel that
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we are shopping for clothes
together so I can go out and
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evangelize for the Lord.
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Because it is all about
what He's done not about what
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I have done. It's all
about Him. - what did she say?
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She was like oh. - but
it feels good. - it does.
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It feels so good so
never give up, never give up.
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God has a plan and no matter
what a mess we make of our
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lives, our
family still loves us.
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- exactly, and what I want
to cover too here in just the
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last few minutes Chris, is
there any point that you had to
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look at both your mom and
your stepdad and say I'm sorry?
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Oh yeah, oh gosh yeah.
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When they moved me back
from Florida to Illinois and
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I think I said that on
such a regular basis because the
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more my brain started to
heal, and the more sober I got
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the more I was faced
with the consequences.
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People used to tell me I
had to forgive myself, you hear
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that in the recovery of
a lot, and I would say no
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I want to feel this, I
want to feel this guilt.
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- I don't want to run
for these feelings anymore?
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Right, I want to know, I
want to look in my mom's eyes
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and my dad's eyes and
know what I have done and what
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this has cost them.
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I used to think that drug
addiction was a victimless crime
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who am I hurting other than me?
Well this is who I was hurting.
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But they never turn their
backs on me, which I was a
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afraid if they knew who I
was they wouldn't want me.
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If God knew who I
was, He knows who I am.
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- He wouldn't want
me. - it was the opposite.
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You know when we talk about
that we definitely have an enemy
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and that enemy says, you
know what? I don't want you
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I don't want you. I
mean God doesn't want you.
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The people around
you, you have gone too far.
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I want to say thanks for
sharing this with me and I want
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to look right out to
the audience and say that if
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you ever hear that message
in your head that you have
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gone too far, you've done
too much, you have twisted
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yourself out of shape and
there is no way to come in
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and bring you
back to a place where
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you are going to be healthy.
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That's a lie, that is a
lie. I don't know why but God
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says if you trust Me, if
you give Me what ever, what ever
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your addiction is whether
its chemical addiction, whether
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it's sexual addiction,
whether it is just that you are
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prideful and lying and a
perfectionist, workaholic, or
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whatever it is if
you give Me that I will
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restore not only you
but your entire family.
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And that is
amazing, that is such a gift.
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God says I will do it and
there is going to be a time you
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will stand there and just
want to smile saying I had no
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idea that all these promises,
all of this incredible life
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was meant for me
because I am a child of God.
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It is just amazing,
it is too cool and that
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is all I can say.
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Until next time I want to
remind you that God is crazy
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about you and me to. Never
forget that, not for a moment.
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I don't care what your dealing
with, turn it over and then
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go tell somebody you're sorry.
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