Welcome back, I wanted
you to stay because I know
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Ashley you are in the
beginning of this whole process.
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I think you just shared
this information with even some
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of your family
members in that kind of thing.
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So it is very new, can you
talk about why would someone
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want to do this?
Because it's scary right?
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It is scary. - you don't
even know how to act right?
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No you don't and it's just
to be free and to actually live
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my life and I've always
felt that I had just been going
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through the motions and
simply existing all along
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and not really living.
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Not really to allow God
to work out His plans for me
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in my life too
because I was scared.
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Even though I didn't really
have anything I was scared
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what I do have
He would take away.
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Even though He says I'm not
going to hurt you and stuff.
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To hear all His promises,
to hear all that stuff was so
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completely foreign to actually
believe it was, I couldn't.
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I was so stuck in that
negative rut that any positive
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feedback I would get
about anything, music or hockey,
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or life in general, any
positive feedback I would get
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back I didn't believe it.
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See it as a lie - I would,
but I would see it as a lie
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I was so completely backwards.
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The truth look like a lie
to you? - the truth look like
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a lie because
the lie was my truth.
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It has only been recently,
in the last couple years that
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all this has been going on
I have started to completely
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flip that around and see
it for what it really is.
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Awesome, I want to say
thanks for being on the program.
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And I want anybody watching
to just hear what she said
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that right now our lives
look true and God says it takes
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a miracle to turn that
around and say let Me make the
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truth the truth, let Me show
you that there is underneath
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all that stuff that makes
you feel like you're going
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to make it and that you
do belong somewhere in all of
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those addictions and all
those chat rooms and all that
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kind of stuff, God says
if you surrender that to Me
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I will actually
give you joy and life.
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When the Bible says I lay
before you life and death,
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choose life, He is talking
about good life, connections
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everything that we are
screaming out for He is saying
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I want to give you, but
you have to do this part of
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recovery. This part of recovery
seems scary at first but
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once you get it oh man,
it is awesome, it is awesome.
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And I pray that for you.
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Until next time I want
you always to remember that
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God is crazy
about you and me too.
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God bless and we will see
you soon, until then trust Him
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turn it over and when
you do you will be blessed.
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