Welcome back! So we are going
to find out in this program,
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in this whole season we
are talking about maintenance.
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We are talking about the
11th and 12th step of a 12 step
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program, how do you, after
you have done your inventories,
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after you turn it over to
God, you know that God is bigger
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than your craziness, He can
restore you to sanity and all
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that stuff, you have looked
at your stuff and say I can't
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even do this, I'm going to
hand it to God and after that,
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how do you walk into
a life without the drug?
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Jeremy you were talking
about this drug was your lover.
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How do you say goodbye to
that lover and actually have God
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develop a life of you?
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So I would like
you to both speak on
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how that looks for you at
the close of this program.
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When I first are going to
church, I still to this day
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haven't read the Bible in
its entirety, bits and pieces
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here and there, so I
don't have a Scripture that
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I miraculously
just popped in my head.
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I constantly have this little
voice that I talk with God
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when I am struggling, I
will start talking to Him in my
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head, I don't talk out
loud because I'm afraid people
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will think I am a little crazy.
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Even though at times when
I am alone, I do, do that,
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actually cried out to
Him, I have yelled at Him.
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When I am struggling I have
friends that I can call and say
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I'm having rough time, they
may pray with me or just talk
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to me, or we may go have
coffee, but that is about the
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extent of what I do right now.
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Like I said I'm
still in recovery.
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So you connect with community,
pray to God even if it is
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in your head, that small
voice, the Holy Spirit comforts
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you and calms you, and
you connect with friends?
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That is amazing, because
most people disconnect and then
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they get in trouble.
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How about you Jeremy?
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Well at first I know I
had to get some research as
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to what I needed to
do, like a 12 step program.
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I got myself into that and
daily reading, it always helps
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because it helps your thoughts.
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I constantly pray throughout
the day, I talk to God in my
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head all the time.
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Just finding people
that are in a healthy stance,
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a healthy relationship
is really important.
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Knowing your red flags
is very important to know.
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- so red flags,
what are some a yours?
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Bars yeah, bars
are bad, bars are bad.
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Me yelling, - yeah her yelling.
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If you get on him and
your yelling you get stressed.
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For you if you allow
that to continue too much,
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that is a red flag.
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If we don't sit down and
process it, and talk about it,
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yeah, it starts to
build and then, yeah.
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He can tell me now, we have
been together off and on for
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10 years and he can tell me
now, sweetheart I'm starting
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to shut down, so I
know, okay I'm ragging now,
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I need to back off a little bit.
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It doesn't always
work, but we recognize.
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- you are trying to say it
out loud, because red flags
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are huge, if I am never going
to use until all these things
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happen first, so you are
saying watch these things,
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what ever they are.
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Like whether you get an
AA, whether you get too tired,
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too hungry and all that stuff.
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So next week we have to
have you back, because I want to
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hear all the healing stuff
that God has done in your life.
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I want you to come back next
week because there's lots of
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good stuff, that's exactly
what God wants us to know.
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He wants us out from underneath
all that and it is too
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cool, so come back next week
and until then always remember
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that God is crazy
about you and me too.
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