Welcome back, I want to
thank you for joining us,
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for that prayer with Caleb.
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I know it is a little
odd to be doing that on set,
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but those are the things
that people need to remember.
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There are layers in
people's lives that until
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we actually say them out
loud and surrender them to God,
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we carry them.
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We can be manipulated and
buttons are pushed for the
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oddest things and we may
respond to something that
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happened when we were three.
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We may not realize that
this is not a current thing,
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but it happened
when I was three.
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I love the fact that God
says, just give it to Me because
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I died for that, you
don't have to work it out.
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Some of us go to counseling,
and I don't mind that
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counseling stuff, but
God says, you can bypass that
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because I am willing
to take that from you.
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I will fill you up
with the knowledge of who
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you are in Me, it's amazing.
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Karina I just want to say
thank you for coming back on
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the show, because you
have been on the show before.
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You are coming back as
staff right now, but you were
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not always staff, so talk
about how you first came to
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Miracle Meadows and what
brought you back this time.
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Okay, I was enrolled in Miracle
Meadows when I was 13-14.
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I just had so much in me at
that age, so much struggles,
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so many trials I guess.
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And so my family, - I love
the way you say that, and so
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my trials, and I'm
thinking you had a ton of stuff.
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Growing up, I grew up in
Mexico at the time, I was
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confused for most of my
childhood until I was 6 or 7.
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I thought my grandfather
was my dad, so when he passed
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away it was a shocker.
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I thought my mom was my
sister and my grandmother was my
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mom, it was a very
confusing scene for me.
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When my grandfather died
everything was told to me how it
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was and I was brought
over to the United States.
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It was something totally
different for me because I was
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born there and raised over there
and then brought over here.
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The language was different,
the culture was different,
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I just lost it. - even
your parents were different.
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Yes my family
setting was different.
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Unfortunately mom was a single
mother and she had to work
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to support myself and herself.
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I was from babysitter to
babysitter and to babysitter.
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I began to be
molested at a young age.
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I think, when I look back
at it, I think all that put
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together, all at the
age 6, in less than 8 months
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altogether it just overwhelmed
me when I was a child.
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From that point I started,
not acting out from that point,
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but thinking differently.
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My mother got together
with another man and because of
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some of the family issues,
as well, we moved around.
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- a lot. - a lot!
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By the time I graduated from
high school, this past year,
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I had been to 18
different schools.
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It was crazy. - so when
you came to Miracle Meadows,
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you had all that, I don't
know who you are, I don't know
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who I am, I just know
that nobody's going to hurt me
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again, you were very self
protecting and very angry.
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You know watching you go
through Miracle Meadows and just
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getting yourself back,
getting your sense of that maybe
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the world is not as
unsafe as I thought it was.
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Maybe I will have a
life, maybe I will graduate.
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Because you didn't think
at all that you are going to
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graduate seventh-grade.
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No, but I had to do my
eighth grade year twice because
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I got expelled from the
county and stuff happened that
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I wasn't going to school.
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So I would like to have you
back and just talk about your
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story, but I want to know,
you worked through some issues,
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get your high school and
graduate from Miracle Meadows,
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but then you came back
as staff, are you crazy?
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Because it is a hard group,
you were hard, you know what
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I mean, so what would make
you come back to face that kind
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of abuse from kids that are
going through all this trauma.
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Why did you come
back? Why staff here?
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I think it is because I
know, I know where you can come
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from, and how hard it is
to transition all that to see
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yourself in a different light.
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To wake up every morning and
know that you are in a place,
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that you are having struggles,
you have to work something,
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and you can't
see what you can be.
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There are people telling
you constantly that you can be
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something, you don't see
it and it's so frustrating.
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I just thought, now I
can look back at it and see
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different things, so now
I... - you want to tell them.
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The fact that you can
forgive the people in your life,
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you can walk out from
underneath all that stuff.
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You have been staffed
there for how long now?
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Around 5 to 6 months.
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- and you're in college,
what are you taking in college?
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Criminal Justice
and forensic psychology.
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I can't even stand you
saying it, how cool is that?
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I know you didn't even think
you were going to finish high
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school and so I want to
say I am so proud of you.
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You're beautiful, you have
such a spirit about you that
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is so cool, I know that you
love God and I know you love
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these kids and I think God
has brought you full circle
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in all that. - yeah, thank you.
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How fun, I want to say
in closing out this program,
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is that as Christians and
were talking about recovery.
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Everybody's
recovery is different.
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We have some real serious
issues throughout your whole
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life, your recovery
is going to be intense.
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You are going to need
people around you sometimes in a
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school like Miracle Meadows.
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You're going to need
someone that will stay with you
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regardless of your
yelling, cussing or whatever.
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They will stay with
you to the very end.
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Some of us don't need
that, but what we do need is the
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reality that there is a
God, I am powerless to do with
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myself and there is a God
outside of that that can restore
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me to sanity, can teach
me who I am, can teach me how
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to forgive and how to
let people in my life go.
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And not go as far as not
being in relationship, but go as
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far as what they owe me, or
I owe them, or what they have
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done to me, but right or
wrong of it and just being able
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to walk out from
underneath that and heal.
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If you are listening and
you have those struggles, get on
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your knees and say whatever
the devil meant to destroy you
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with, whatever the devil
meant to twist you with and rob
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you from, and I would say take
all that back and all the shame,
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if you feel like a mistake,
say God I feel like that.
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I want to forgive everybody
in my life and take it back.
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I want to surrender that
to God and I want to be free
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for the first time
from all that stuff.
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Until we see you next time,
always your remember that God
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is crazy about you, us too,
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Bye, God bless!
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