Welcome back, so the last
segment we talked about where
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God has led you, even from
being a small boy and that fear
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and how your father wasn't,
I just fell in love with you,
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I thought that was incredible.
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I know there are some
questions in the café so we are
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going to open it up right now.
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Any questions? Erin!
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Doctor Weber, I would
like to ask you a question,
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but first of all but like
to say that I really enjoyed
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your testimony and
thought it was real interesting.
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But the question I have,
which pertains to me also,
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is I heard you
mention that you moved around,
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maybe 22 times in your lifetime.
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The reason I'm asking is
because when I was younger my
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parents were military and
they moved around a lot which
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caused a lot of problems
of identification for me.
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Who am I? So I want to know
how did you deal with or cope
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with identifying with yourself
through moving around that
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constant amount times?
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That's quite a perceptive
question to talk about identity
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in the context of moving around.
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For me I realized that when
Jesus rose from the dead and
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went up to heaven that He
entered into God's presence,
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I find my identity rooted
in His presence there with the
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Father, I see myself there
with the Father, the Bible puts
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us there so that has
really helped anchor me.
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The Bible says it's
like an anchor to our soul.
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So I found that to be true.
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So as a child of God literally
a child of God, in the holy
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of holies with God
Himself. - Yeah, yeah!
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Which really, for someone
who has no spiritual background,
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just coming from that
myself is that I felt like God
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a little at a time just help
me to laugh and realize that
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the laughter was not something
I was putting on to con
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someone, or putting on
because it was something I was
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supposed to do, but the laughter
was truly me laughing at
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something, or when
I enjoyed something.
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He just started showing
me little by little what was
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actually real, what
was flesh in my life.
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So for some folks it is
really a simple step-by-step and
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now I feel like I am totally
healed, a women of God standing
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in my own right in any kind
of environment or conversation.
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It's tiny little
steps, I had no idea.
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Sometimes I would even tell
somebody I felt like missed,
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if you walk by me too fast
that just the mist of who I was
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would just disappear and
God said, in My love toward your
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recovery I'm going to
help you to see yourself solid.
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It is amazing that He does
that because we don't have a
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sense of who we are, we don't
have a sense of even how to
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laugh, how to
socialize, how to be.
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God says I'm going
to teach you all that.
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I don't care if takes one
week or thousand years, I'm with
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you and there's something
really cool about that.
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On this thing of laughter,
for me I learned to laugh as,
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my father never wanted
us to laugh about anything.
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I find myself you with
the Lord the other day, I was
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praying about
something and praying again.
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Lord what do I need
to do stand on my head?
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Just humor with the Lord which
was unthinkable growing up.
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That is really fun, I
think that is what your identity
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for a lot of
people is just huge.
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If you're raised with
dysfunction, if you then step
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into addictions and you
come out of that and your
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maintenance time,
especially is who am I?
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What's actually in my pocket
and I tell people, get out
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there, take music lessons,
learn how to draw, join groups
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were people reflect who
are, and start listening up to
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the Holy Spirit and to God.
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I think God delights in showing
us that you are incredible
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to Me, your My
child and I love you.
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I think He
delights in showing us that.
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And all that fear if people
really knew me would run because
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I have nothing to
offer, God said let that go.
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Let all those fears go
because if they really knew you
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they would invite
you over everyday.
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Lovability I find, I see it
not as something that I have
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to earn with somebody else,
or even with God, but rather
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it's a quality in
God's heart towards me.
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Amen! That's awesome.
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Any other questions?
- yes I have a question.
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Doctor Weber I too
enjoyed your testimony,
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it has been a blessing.
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When you spoke about how
God has moved in your life,
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I think about your growing
up, the fears you mentioned.
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How can the work that God
led you into, have you seen how
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that has impacted upon
your fears, in overcoming your
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fears, because your life
work is now dealing with fears.
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Can you speak about
the correlation there?
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Yeah, Vonsel
that's a great question.
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I think of Romans 8 where
it says you have not been given
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spirit of bondage to
fear, but the spirit of son-ship
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whereby we cry out Abba Father.
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So for me, my fears are
healed by realizing God is my
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Father and now I can
share that and help other people
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realize that this sense of
need they have, this fear that
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they have is healed by their
Heavenly Father and then we
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can go through
life as conquerors.
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I think it is interesting
that as God heals, you come in
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boldly to tell
someone else, don't be afraid.
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You say that in so many
ways over and over and over.
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It is amazing to me,
that I have never seen God,
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and I have been doing
Ministry for a long time now,
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I have never seen God not
go into the very core of who
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someone is and give them
such victory that person then
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gladly out and
offers that to someone else.
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That is an amazing,
amazing thing about God.
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The questions were amazing,
thank you so much for asking.
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Thank you so much for
being on the program and I am so
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proud of God, the way He
has walked you in your life.
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We are going to go ahead
and break and come back for our
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close, I would like you
to join us for the close.
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I know you have a couple
more things that I want you to
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share, one is the
story about a funeral that
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you did at the Salvation Army.
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I think that
would be a great way to
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close out this segment.
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If you are afraid, if you
are in bondage to that thing,
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no identity or whatever,
right now just get on your knees
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and ask God who am I, who
are you? What plans do you have
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for my life and then just be
quiet and let Him answer you.
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It is really cool, we will
be right back, stay with us.
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