I'm going to have
Amber join me for the close.
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because I know you wanted to
say something else, what was it?
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Well this is actually amazing
because on Halloween night
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between 5 or 4, I had found a
bottle of pills and I took the
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whole bottle and I guess
that day was grandpa's payday so
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he came back and he and grandma
had brought back some pizza.
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I was really sick and I told
them I was going to get some
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sleep so, Nobody
knew that you had taken
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the pills yet? Yeah no one knew.
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I kept waking up and vomiting.
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That whole day I didn't eat so
they thought I was getting sick
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so they forced me to eat and
I vomited the whole thing up.
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That night they tried
looking for their pills.
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Around 10 or 11 they found
out that I took the whole thing.
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So then the whole
day to them made sense?
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Yeah! The fact
that you were sick
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and the fact that you
were in your room. Yeah!
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At some point I try to
force myself to throw up because
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I got tired of
being sick from it.
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So they took me in to a small
clinic and a stuffed a tube
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down my throat and said that
I might end up with liver damage
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so they flew me to Flagstaff.
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Some overdoses you end up
hurting organs and that is what
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you are saying that you
could have had permanent damage.
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Yeah because they came in late
and I told them I didn't want
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the tubes down my throat
so if I could take charcoal?
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They said no it is too late.
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So I guess when I was
in Flagstaff, the hospital,
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and stayed until Sunday and
a nurse came up to me and said,
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I was lucky I
didn't get liver damage.
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In my head I wasn't thinking
I was lucky because it was
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screaming a miracle. I
was actually afraid I might
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get liver damage.
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So you knew, even then,
this was probably a miracle?
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Yeah! That God more
than likely stepped in?
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Yeah and I guess thinking about
my past trying to commit suicide
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I noticed that I should stop
and I know He wants me to live
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to help others.
Exactly I just have to give you
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a kiss with that.
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What's really weird is
that we are running out of time.
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What is really interesting is
we have seen today a number of
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recoveries at very early stages.
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At early stages, but
God is wooing us no matter
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where we are at.
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Even as teenagers where
we are young and feel sad.
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We don't even know where to
go and Amber was talking about
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the suicide attempt and that
at one point realizing that God
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wanted her to live.
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She is still dealing with
some of that, each of the people
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that stood up are still dealing
with some of those things.
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Amber I want to say that
you are in my prayers forever.
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Just because I know that you
will be helping someone else,
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like you said and for everybody
in recovery, God's deal is
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to come in and give
us the courage to heal.
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Some of the damage is from the
very core of who are families
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are, and not because
they were horrible people.
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Just because they were
lost in their own addictions.
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From the very core people will
come around us and start walking
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us into recovery and then the
next person will stand us up.
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The next person will stand us
up and eventually, like what Hep
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was saying, is you
see the face of God.
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You realize that God
Himself wants to stand you up.
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Not only stand you up
but He has a plan for you.
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I love what was said earlier
I don't even know what that
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plan is, I don't
fully see it myself yet,
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but I know it is right on the
horizon and if you are there,
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it might be right on the horizon
and if it is already done for
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you look around because somebody
needs you to say to them
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can I do anything for you
today, can I help you out today?
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I love recovery.
Thanks for joining us.
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Celebrating Life in Recovery
and always that God is crazy
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about you and me too.
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