Welcome back, you know,
we've been talking to Stephanie
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on the last segment with
Monica and then Stephanie.
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And for some of it was tough
to hear what she had to say as
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a child that has been abandoned,
has been molested has been
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kind of left on her own.
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But you know what as you
think about that don't forget
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she was taken into the
home of Monica and her husband.
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She's been loved by them,
they will not abandon her,
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they will not
they are her parents.
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They have so
stepped into her life.
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There are people around
her right now, that will walk
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her through whatever
she has to walk through,
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not because they
have to, they love her.
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She has friends right now
that are committed to her and
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helping her walk through that.
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Like I said, for me,
she comes up in the weirdest
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time, she'll come up in my mind.
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I think we met Monica a
few years ago, you know.
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So a few years ago that
we met and I still constantly
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just think of her because I
remember the struggle for me
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when God was first standing
me up and tried to heal me
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from all that
damage, it takes time.
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So now I want to introduce
you to Amanda, and Amanda has
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a whole different story.
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Well, you know, sometimes I
think, go ahead start coming
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up, sometimes that's a different
story but not really in
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a sense it is the same story
with different circumstances.
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Who are you and where did
you come from and first of all
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I have to say I know
this is hard for you.
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Yeah, well, when
I was really young.
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I lived with my
mom and real dad.
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He beat my mom for
9 years, she was very
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young when she had me.
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It was kind of hard - it
was kind of a violent home
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definitely - yeah, yeah
- and you watched that and
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remember watching it
- yeah, he hit us to but
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I don't really remember
because I know we were really,
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little, though he would get
very mad and take all of his
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anger out on
everyone that was around.
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I remember when I was a
kid with my dad because my dad
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was violent like that.
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We would just scatter
like little mice, poof, because
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you would know when to
be in the room and when
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not to be in the room.
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When to be visible when
not to, and if dad was not
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happy it was like, let me
find something to do in my
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room, or maybe
even under my bed.
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We would actually hide
sometimes too because I remember
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when he would get really mad.
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He would immediately go to
my mom and try to hit her or
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yell at her and stuff like
that, so we would run to the
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bedroom and hide in
there and lock the door.
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I remember one specific
time, and I was really little,
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but I remember some of it.
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We were hiding in the
room, because we knew something
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was going to happen and he
was going to get mad and he
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was really mad because we
hid in the room so he hit the
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door and knocked it open
- just shattered the door.
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Yeah we ran outside, we
climbed through the window and
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went outside and
tried to jump the gate.
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It was a tall gate, and
we were - really little.
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So we trying to get up on
the gate, and so we were just
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trying to run because
we thought he was going
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to get mad at us too.
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But we didn't do anything
and so - for little kids,
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what really is interesting
and I know as you're little.
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for me, I didn't
have any perspective.
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And there was some times I was
wondering if I was going to be
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killed, I wonder if he's going
to kill me - yes - this time.
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In its like, it's a weird
thing, and probably you are
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not in that much danger,
but it does feel like that.
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It kind of feels like
he's so angry that you don't
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know what he can do.
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You see their face - he's
so out of line and control -
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yeah, exactly.
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Satan has totally
taken over him and he doesn't
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know what he's going to
do - I know that you didn't
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live with your folks whole time.
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What happened and what
moved you out of that house?
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When I was about 2, my mom
gave me to my grandma because
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he started telling me
to call my mom bad names.
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I did, because I didn't
understand what was and I feel
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kind of bad now because I
think it really hurt my mom
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for what I said, but I
don't know exactly what I said.
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But I started getting mad
at him and saying don't hit my
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mom, stop this,
and I was only 2.
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My mom was scared that he
was going to like kill me or
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something, because I
was talking back to him.
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So she gave me to my grandma
and I was really angry at
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her because she kept my sister
Carina and my brother Raymond.
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I thought she didn't want
me, so I was just like mad and
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hated my parents and didn't
want anything to do with them.
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So I stayed with my grandmother
and was really close to
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my grandmother - grandma
and grandpa or just grandma -
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just my grandma.
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She had a boyfriend, that
sounds kind of weird, but she
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had a boyfriend - she's a girl
she's allowed have a boyfriend.
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She had a boyfriend -
she's like 50, how old is that.
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No - oh, sorry,
excuse me, alright.
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I didn't mean that, I'm sorry.
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I love you, alright.
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Well its sounds kind
of weird, my grandma had a
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boyfriend, but he was a
drunk - not to any 50 year
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olds out there - his
mind was just on the floor.
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He didn't know
what he was doing.
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So you moved from the
violence and to alcoholism with
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your grandma's boyfriend.
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He wasn't always around,
and my grandma kind of got rid
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of him because he was just
falling over tables, because
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he was so drunk.
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So, she said she finally
had enough and said I'm done
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with you, and threw
his stuff out the door.
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So I was really close to
my grandma, she was one of the
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greatest people in the world.
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I looked up to her
and I loved her so much.
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And I was really close
to her because I had no
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relationship with my parents.
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But then December 24th, which
is the day before Christmas.
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Well, she started
getting really sick, because she
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smoked from when she was
in 6th grade, so she's smoked
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a long time, she
kept trying to quit.
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I can't tell her to quit
and would actually get so
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mad at my parents
and my grandmother
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because everybody smoked.
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And I hated it, one
time I was like I'm going
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to grab their
cigarettes and rip them up and
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bury them in the ground.
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And I know, they will get
mad at me but I don't care.
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As if there's no more cigarettes
on the planet if I did
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it - yeah, and I -
but kids think like that.
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We weren't the richest
family, we have food stamps and
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stuff like that, but so
much money went to cigarettes,
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and it just annoyed me
because I was like why are we
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spending so much on cigarettes.
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But anyway, so she
started getting really sick.
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And I remember, I came and
started going with Luke and
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Candace which were people
in a group called Pathfinders.
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It's like a boy's Girl Scout
thing, but its religious - right
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I love that group, I was
a Pathfinder leader once.
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I really had fun with that.
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Oh well I was having a hard time
because I had moved in with my
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dad and I don't get along
with my dad at all, because I
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just, I don't know.
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Because he was violent -
yeah, he is changing now, but
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he still - still has junk -
he actually stopped drugs and
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alcohol, stuff like
that, that's good I should
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give him some credit - right.
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So anyway Luke and
Candace took me in - Luke and
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Candace are related
to Monica - yeah, yes.
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Luke's aunt is Monica -
okay - so they took me in and
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at first - they must be
just the coolest family on the
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planet right,
this family - yeah.
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I mean, everybody is rescuing
kids - they are like just
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come on - how fun is that.
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But yeah, they took me
in and at first I was like.
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Well, I had a hard
time, I'm going to live with
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this family, they
have stuff a home way
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better than my house.
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So I was just like sweet,
this is going to be really fun.
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I moved in, and I remember
the first few months was hard
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on them, because - you're so
nice, that you were hard on them
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Well, so anyway moved in
their house, and I really
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started to see how
they were very Godly.
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They really showed me things
that I didn't get to see in my
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old family
because there was no love.
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Well, like no one really
associated with each other -
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because all that junk
was happening - yeah, and
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everybody was
doing their own thing.
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The kids were out of the
house, my mom was doing stuff
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at the house and everybody
was just into their own stuff.
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So was really cool to see how
Godly they were, there was no
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arguing, because ours was use
to Ah, you know, the yelling.
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But in their house, they
sat down and talked about it,
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they would leave each
other for awhile and then come
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back and discussed everything.
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They didn't just yell and
throw things - they were not
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out of control - yeah.
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Even if they had to deal
with issues they dealt with
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them, just were out of control.
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Yes, my siblings and I
had issues with each other,
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we would throw
things at each other,
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you know chase each other
around the house with knives.
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You know what I want to do
is I want to meet your mom.
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And I got to meet her,
because you said to me at one
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point is that you
wanted me to meet your mom.
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And you are so proud of
her recovery and her journey
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with God and that was
unfolding for her and that you
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were so proud you
wanted to introduce us.
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And I met her on My
Space which cracks me up, okay.
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So I'm going to
bring your mom up.
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Okay, will you come up, and
I just want to say, go ahead
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and have a seat, when
you come up Rosalina right?
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We haven't met in person other
than today I met you online.
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So now what I want you to
tell us is that she talked
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about the home life, that must
be hard to hear from your child.
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You know, it is, but it
isn't because of who I used to
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be, I can help others today.
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So was her take on it,
you know more about what was
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happening in the
relationship than even she does,
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because she was a kid - yeah.
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Well, there was a lot of
fear why I gave her away.
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And what I should have
done was gotten rid of the
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relationship, but at 16
years old, a child trying
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to raise a child.
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I decided to protect her,
the best thing to do is to
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give her away not knowing
it was going to stir up anger
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issues later - and you
know, what is really interesting
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is that my mom got rid
of me at 2 when I was little
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and I was 10 or sent
me to live with an aunt.
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She set me to live with
somebody she knew would love me.
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And that's probably what
you do with your mom and her,
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because she knew she
would take care of you.
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So, you are 16, you
were a kid yourself.
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With somebody that was
violent - yeah, I was a kid and
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going to school, and
always working trying to support
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everything because he
didn't work or anything.
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Throughout the years I
went on with the abuse,
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went on with the hurt.
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Then I started to do
some things that were not me.
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I used be raised in
church, and so there were a
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conscience of knowing
what I was doing and it was not
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what God had wanted.
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And knowing that there
was a lot of things that
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God had His hand on.
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There was a lot of things
that I could have done but
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didn't do because there
was that spirit that lived
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inside of me - when you
looked back on that you can see
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clearly - oh yeah - not
when you were there, but when
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you look back - yeah.
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And then I discovered the
drugs - then somebody says
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the hand of God
was not on me, and I
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I'm thinking, you
would not survived it.
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Then I experienced drugs
for a couple years and ended up
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going to jail and in the
process of me going to jail
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Amanda ended up
with Candace and Luke.
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It has just been a blessing
watching myself grow - when
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did God come back into
your life where you said - 3
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years ago - alright - and
now I have - give me a kiss.
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And I've served the
community and dealing with other
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women who have
experienced the same experience.
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And so when he came
back in jail - came back in a
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recovery home and surrendered
October 19,2005 and I
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surrendered everything
to Him - you know that your
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daughter was so proud of you
that she Like when I met her.
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You have to meet my mom.
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It's like with
somebody tells me that.
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And I see in their eyes
that you just have to meet her,
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you know, you have to meet
her and she's coming back to
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God and loving that.
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It is stepping into a
ministry, working with other
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women, how cool is that!
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And the damage that happens
in our lives still has to
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unfold God still has to
heal it, all that kind of stuff,
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but God says, you know what
I will make all things good.
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Amen - and I'm thinking,
how do you do that - a gift
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for those who love Him -
what is really interesting
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is, as He unfolds
that and it all turns out.
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You see children blessed
and relationships blessed and
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all that kind of stuff.
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You are remarried to a wonderful
guy, I wish we had time
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to introduce him, cause
he's here with you now, and God
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is blessing your life.
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Incredible, I want to introduce
Beau, thank you for joining us.
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So what was funny is when I
looked up and saw you, I thought
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know what you probably
just came out from smoking weed
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in the back room.
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That is the first
thing I thought about.
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So I want, you just tell
us was that take right and who
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drug you to the meeting?
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Well, the take
was right, it was.
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Getting drug to the
meetings wasn't really.
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I never really
got drug to meetings.
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I volunteered, ever since
I grew up kind of always had
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something to do with the church.
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No matter what my mom
was really never a churchgoer
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but I always had
something to do with the church.
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Coming to see you was kind
of dreadful at first - can I
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ask, can I ask you because
when you said that I know
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you're living with Monica right?
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She is not your mom, you
call her mom, but she's not
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your real mom.
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And so where did you come
from and briefly go into that.
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And that I just want to
get back to where I met you.
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I just fell in love with you,
I just think you're coolest ever
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So how did you
where did you come from?
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I came from Modesto
so I was born in Sonora
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originally in California.
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I live with my mom, and it
was just a drug addict area.
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She always made sure there
was a roof over my head, but
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no matter where ever I went.
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There was always a church
somewhere near round - was
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your dad around - no.
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My dad left when I was
3, and my mom went to drive
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me up to see him one
time, and all of a sudden he was
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just gone and I
haven't seen him since.
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but you know it's him
missing out not just me.
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So just doing that and I
lived with my mom for a while
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and she sent me to my grandma.
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She moved to a small town
in the mountains and kind of
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recovered from drugs.
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She has really turned
her life around - Amen,
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how cool is that!
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It's nice to see it, she
has got another boyfriend now,
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with a 7-year-old boy, my
little brother - your brother.
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So your living with
Monica, how did that happen?
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And how did you
get in their place?
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Well just being a teenager I
was, and never really listened
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to my mom, I kind of fell
into smoking weed and just
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doing bad things in school.
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The community - you got
kicked out of a few schools -
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yeah, I did, I did - when
you say that you say it's so
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nice like, I kind of did,
and I'm thinking kind of, you
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got kicked out they
didn't even want you there.
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That's like get this guy
out of here, out of I my life,
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and so when you ended up
with Monica it cracks me up
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because she's such a sweetie,
but you are probably hard
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to deal with, at first.
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Oh, I guarantee you I
was without question - and as
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sweet as you look, I'm
thinking he's so calm his
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testimony and I'm like, get out.
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Because to me, all that
junk, just kind of followed you
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where ever you went, and
you know, for authority for
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someone to tell you what
to do it was like hold off.
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Yeah, big time, big
time, yeah hold off.
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I have big-time problem
with authority - of course, why
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wouldn't you, I mean
with the life that you've had.
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Why wouldn't you - kind
of growing up in teaching
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myself and just taught in
going through the motions.
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So one point I kind of called
you out at smoking weed in
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front of the congregation
and everybody laughed because
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everybody knew I was telling
the truth, but I didn't know
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that they knew, so talk
about about our meeting.
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Is there anything in
particular that you remember
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about that meeting?
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Oh Man, okay, you know,
we were walking in to the
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church, and I see you seen up
there and I'm thinking, oh great
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Oh this crazy ex-drug addict
lady, she is just going to
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go on about her story and
ramble on about God and say.
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She gave her
life, blah, blah, blah.
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And you know, I'd drove
from Grove land, and I had my
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little brother with me.
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I ended up sitting in the
front row, because you asked
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for some of the teenagers
to come sit in the front row
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for a demonstration or
something - I needed everybody
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in the front row,
leave and you guys came up.
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Exactly, and we walked up
and were sitting down and you
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had a 20 dollar
bill in your hand.
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And you go, who wants to
trade a 20 dollar bill for a 50?
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My mom here is I will and
she traded a 50 dollar bill,
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and you are hold in this
50 dollar bill in your hand.
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50 dollar bill, so I will
do a demonstration - that's
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the real 50 let me see.
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And it's not fake it's
not forfeited or nothing.
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It's a real 50- it is -
I got from the bank - it's
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really new - it's
it is, its crispy.
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So are you going to do
the demonstration - I am just
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because I can.
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So she takes his 50 dollar
bill and shows it around and
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ask who wants this 50 dollar
bill, and everybody is like
00:18:03.57\00:18:08.01
woo Hoo well, anytime -
all the kids were crazy, it
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was like I so want it.
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Well yeah cause, you know
the town that live we live in
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is small, and there's not
really that much money that
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floats around.
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Not that many jobs that
you can do and stuff like that,
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So 50 dollars is hey you know,
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anyways, so you know you're
holding it in crinkling it up.
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And you throw down on the
ground and kind of step on it.
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Then you pick it up, and
this was the one that really
00:18:32.83\00:18:38.18
got everybody, you spit on
it and crumbled it up - well
00:18:38.21\00:18:43.52
I heard in the background,
Yew, and so I asked if
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they still want this 50 bucks?
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And some people put their hand
down, everybody were like Yeah.
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And she spreads it out
and said well, who wants this
00:18:51.72\00:18:54.56
50 dollar bill?
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And I'm like well I'll still
take it - and you asked me why?
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it's been spit on,
stepped on, it doesn't look as
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good as it did before -
and I said, because it is still
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worth the same.
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And you turned around and said,
that is the way God looks at us.
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That was really big, that
50 dollar bill was my life at
00:19:10.67\00:19:15.84
a younger age, getting stepped
on, spit on, not physically
00:19:15.87\00:19:21.00
really, but - exactly.
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But in that whole sense
- and God still wanted me.
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And so that was a big thing.
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Then you go on talking to
the people in church, and you
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are standing pretty much
on the other side - so I had
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given him the 50 bucks,
because he got it, he so got it.
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I just thought, you know
what I'll just pray, everything
00:19:37.18\00:19:40.35
in me just wanted to pray
that he literally heard that
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even though you're acting
like an idiot, you're angry,
00:19:43.48\00:19:46.51
you're smoking weed or
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what ever God does not
look at you any different than
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the person He created you to be.
00:19:51.17\00:19:52.88
He knew you from the
womb, He has always known you
00:19:52.91\00:19:54.90
and always loved you.
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When I gave him the 50
dollars I, it was almost like
00:19:56.03\00:19:59.14
part of me wanted to
say, please never forget this.
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So I gave him the 50
bucks, and then I go on talking
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right - right.
00:20:04.73\00:20:05.72
And it's not
like 5 minutes later.
00:20:05.75\00:20:08.12
It's more like 20
minutes later, and she's talking
00:20:08.16\00:20:11.47
an I don't remember what
she is talking about, her story.
00:20:11.51\00:20:15.71
She's talking about the whole
drug thing and all that other
00:20:15.74\00:20:20.37
good stuff, anyway no, and she
just stops dead in her tracks.
00:20:20.41\00:20:25.00
It might be the one brain
cell thing I'm not sure - and
00:20:25.04\00:20:28.05
it lined up with you -
and all of a sudden she just
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turns and goes, you're not going
to buy a weed with that are you?
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She just hit me straight
on the spot and I totally
00:20:33.83\00:20:37.08
wasn't expecting
it and was like no.
00:20:37.11\00:20:39.54
What do you mean, you know.
00:20:39.57\00:20:42.80
Just for everybody to
know, I went and got gas - and
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what is really interesting
to me because I hadn't seen
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you since then.
00:20:49.43\00:20:50.53
And when I first ran into
him on this trip, he literally
00:20:50.56\00:20:52.70
came up to me and said to
me I want you to know that I
00:20:52.74\00:20:54.84
went and bought gas with that.
00:20:54.88\00:20:56.22
I just want to say that for one,
how cool you were to remember
00:20:56.26\00:21:00.57
let me know that, I know that
God has a plan for your life.
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Because you didn't want to come
here again to this drug addict
00:21:04.97\00:21:09.27
talk about her story and God.
00:21:09.31\00:21:10.65
Well no, I did, I mean, I
was excited about it, but on
00:21:10.68\00:21:14.49
the way here
things kind of happened.
00:21:14.53\00:21:16.36
My heart started to get
hardened and we showed up and I
00:21:16.40\00:21:20.01
was just like, I don't even
want to be here, I just want
00:21:20.04\00:21:23.62
to go home - you
just drove 36 hours - I'm
00:21:23.66\00:21:25.79
just sitting there
listening to music.
00:21:25.82\00:21:27.88
I'm just like you know,
I do not want to be here,
00:21:27.92\00:21:31.21
spending money that I do
not have, and I was really
00:21:31.25\00:21:34.51
excited about it
at first, you know.
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I just didn't really
know what was happening - then
00:21:36.11\00:21:40.24
last night you meant a
group that - that night we found
00:21:40.27\00:21:44.37
out they had a small concert.
00:21:44.40\00:21:47.73
We went out and ate -
and this was the Otto family
00:21:47.77\00:21:50.48
concert and they are an
incredible group from Australia.
00:21:50.52\00:21:53.55
So, they have been blessing
us with being on the show,
00:21:53.58\00:21:56.58
but also did a concert in town.
00:21:56.62\00:21:58.22
We went out in ate I
figured we come back and it will
00:21:58.26\00:22:01.04
be too and I don't want
to show up in the middle of
00:22:01.08\00:22:03.83
it, or nothing like that.
00:22:03.86\00:22:05.41
We ended up getting
back it was only like 7:15.
00:22:05.44\00:22:09.85
Mom and them drove down
and put some groceries away and
00:22:09.89\00:22:14.29
I walked on down.
00:22:14.33\00:22:15.72
As soon as I walked into
the building my whole body just
00:22:15.75\00:22:20.67
started tingling, I mean
literally as soon as I stepped,
00:22:20.71\00:22:25.60
the first step it was like woof.
00:22:25.63\00:22:28.28
Softened, I was like wow -
what is happening - what in
00:22:28.31\00:22:34.58
the world, you know.
00:22:34.61\00:22:35.58
I don't have the piece of paper,
but um, one second with that.
00:22:35.59\00:22:40.95
So I walked in and set down
in the very back, mom didn't
00:22:40.99\00:22:44.32
know I was there a
you didn't know was there.
00:22:44.36\00:22:45.73
And I almost went up and
sat next to you, but nobody
00:22:45.77\00:22:48.28
really knew I was there.
00:22:48.32\00:22:49.75
And I was sitting there
listening to them and my heart
00:22:49.78\00:22:51.68
really started to get softened.
00:22:51.71\00:22:53.09
This one little girl,
she was 7 years old Danielle.
00:22:53.13\00:22:57.70
She was sitting in front
of me kind of sitting there
00:22:57.74\00:23:02.28
holding her grandma
and stuff like that.
00:23:02.31\00:23:03.98
All of a sudden gets up and
she is writing on this piece of
00:23:04.01\00:23:07.13
paper, she's just writing
stuff down, writing stuff down.
00:23:07.17\00:23:10.25
And she just really
concentrated on this piece of
00:23:10.29\00:23:14.00
paper, and I'm like okay,
she's just drawing to keep
00:23:14.03\00:23:17.71
yourself occupied.
00:23:17.75\00:23:18.80
And I'm paying attention
to everybody up on stage and
00:23:18.83\00:23:22.17
stuff like that and all
of a sudden I see out of the
00:23:22.21\00:23:25.51
corner my eye this
little piece of paper moving
00:23:25.55\00:23:27.40
down on the floor.
00:23:27.43\00:23:28.40
I'm like, you know, my legs
are crossed and I am kind of
00:23:28.41\00:23:33.40
just watching.
00:23:33.43\00:23:34.40
This piece of paper is
getting pushed closer to me from
00:23:34.41\00:23:37.36
underneath the seat.
00:23:37.39\00:23:38.44
And this little girl just kind
of leaning back-and-forth at me.
00:23:38.47\00:23:42.21
All of a sudden, I looked
down and read the piece of
00:23:42.24\00:23:45.38
paper and it said, God
loves you no matter what.
00:23:45.41\00:23:48.48
And it was a picture of me
and this little girl Danielle
00:23:48.52\00:23:51.91
sitting in front of me.
00:23:51.95\00:23:53.25
It was just like whoa -
Amen - I don't even know this
00:23:53.29\00:23:57.43
little girl, I didn't
even know she was 7 years old
00:23:57.46\00:24:01.57
until after the fact.
00:24:01.60\00:24:02.91
I just figured another
little girl - you just bless you
00:24:02.94\00:24:07.63
- it was like woo - wow.
00:24:07.66\00:24:10.15
Do you know what I am
sorry to say that we have to
00:24:10.19\00:24:14.57
close, but I know that
God is after you, and He's put
00:24:14.61\00:24:17.87
you in a cool place and
the fact that He brought you
00:24:17.90\00:24:21.13
into my life I feel grateful.
00:24:21.16\00:24:22.48
I feel grateful - I'm
glad He put you in mine - last
00:24:22.51\00:24:25.11
night after the concert,
they hung out and blessed you
00:24:25.15\00:24:27.72
more, you left with the band.
00:24:27.75\00:24:29.43
Oh Man! - how cool are you?
00:24:29.47\00:24:30.91
Okay by, I love you, I love you.
00:24:30.94\00:24:34.93
And do I get that 50
bucks, Amen - alright.
00:24:34.97\00:24:39.58
We are going to go ahead
and take a break and I want you
00:24:39.62\00:24:42.01
to know that as you have
seen in every one of these
00:24:42.04\00:24:44.93
folks, God wants to be
so present in your life too.
00:24:44.96\00:24:47.40
And I don't care who you
are, if you are smoking weed in
00:24:47.44\00:24:50.20
the back, or you just coming
from a horrible situation,
00:24:50.24\00:24:52.93
or just coming from a treatment
center, you are just coming
00:24:52.97\00:24:55.49
from jail, or you are sitting
in the church just dying because
00:24:55.52\00:24:58.01
you haven't been sharing
with anybody who you are.
00:24:58.04\00:25:00.83
God knows who you are, and
He loves you, He loves you,
00:25:00.86\00:25:03.47
and he'll will have like
little girls who are 7 slide
00:25:03.50\00:25:06.74
notes to you, I love you
no matter what, I love you.
00:25:06.77\00:25:09.97
We will be right
back, stay with us!
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