You know on the last segment
we were talking about, Lem
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we were talking about
you coming out of prison.
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All of the sudden a doctor
giving you drugs and starting
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that whole cycle again.
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I was going to bring your
wife up and introduce Donna
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and all that kind of stuff.
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But I really think I
would like to stay, if it is
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alright with you, with
just what is on your heart about
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addictions, and that
lifestyle, and how tough
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it is to come out.
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I know that for you this
is a big deal, you are not
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telling your story
just to tell your story.
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You know there is people
lost our there in all this.
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Cheri, I don't care how hopeless
that these people at home,
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in prison, around
the world may feel today.
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I don't care how bad your dad
beat you, I don't care how much
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drugs you've
done, who you've robbed.
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I'll tell you what,
there is no hope, we continue
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to do things in our
lives that are un-manageable.
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We continue to make the
same mistakes in our life,
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and we get the same results.
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We go to prison and
find ourselves separated from
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our families and
hopelessness and despair.
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We want to fit in, we want to
be somebody special in society.
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In seeking that all my
life, prison didn't teach me
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nothing, the doctors couldn't
help me, the psychiatrist
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in my young age didn't help me.
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The beatings didn't help
me, sick and ready to die.
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I've been out of
prison Cheri, 24 years.
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Sick and ready to
die, 11 years ago.
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I got down on my
knees in a hospital room.
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For the first time in
my life I wanted help.
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I got down on my knees
and asked Jesus Christ,
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I said, Will you help me?
I want to quit but I can't.
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And this is even in a physc
unit, you're in the hospital,
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and still people
are bringing in drugs,
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still people
asking you for drugs.
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So not even when you were
in a safe place trying to do
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recovery you still have
this bombardment and saying that
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doctors are going to give
it to me, or people in the drug
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world are going to give it
to me, I just don't even know
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how to get out of this.
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I wanted out, I got down
on my knees, I walked over and
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saw the most beautiful sunset I
had ever seen in my whole life.
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And I knew that as God
had created that for a few
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moments, it was there for
a few minutes, a sunset only
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lasts for a few minutes.
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I don't care what part
of the world you are in.
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Jesus Christ could create that
and be gone in a few minutes.
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I knew that He could help me.
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I asked Him for that help in my
life and Cheri I got up off my
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knees, for the first time
with some hope in my life.
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I left my drugs in the
parking lot, I didn't want them
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no more, but I
wanted something different.
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I asked Him for help in my life.
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I had some hope, was there
trials, was there struggles,
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Yes there was!
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But I'll tell you what,
for the first time in my life.
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There was some
meaning in my life.
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Less than 24 hours clean.
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It was a daily struggle,
the nightmares, the bad dreams.
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My sponsor told me
make 90 meetings in 90 days.
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You know, I never heard
about Narcotics Anonymous
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before, or
Alcoholics Anonymous before.
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I never went to Narcotics
Anonymous meeting, but I went
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to my third meeting
with about 4 or 5 days clean.
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There was this lady sitting
across the room in a red coat.
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She had blonde hair, and
I couldn't even look at her.
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She was telling me she had five
years clean, to keep coming back
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I couldn't even hope
to have a week clean.
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I had just had a few days
so, I don't care where you
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are at in society,
your problems and issues.
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Ask Jesus Christ for
help with your life you've
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never really been able
to do it on your own, as
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I was never
able to do it my own.
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But I know that He will
help you, He will empower you,
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you will be forgiven for
the burdens of guilt that your
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are carrying through society.
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What ever it is
you've done there is
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forgiveness and hope.
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You can feel that, when God
steps in, you can feel that.
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God doesn't shame you or
condemn you in any sense.
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You know, I was so crazy
Cheri the world is so messed up.
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I mean, I was going to
meetings from 8 to 10 at night.
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Then I'd go home, I'd
rent three or four videos and
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watch all these gangster
robberies and murders in
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drugs and all this stuff.
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So I would sit up for
hours watching that stuff,
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but yet I'm
trying to stay recovered.
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In society, I do not
think we realize the stuff we
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put into our minds.
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The magazines, in Hollywood
and all that stuff they
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sell it to us on every corner.
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But when we go
out and act out on it,
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then we get locked up for it.
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And so we just feel hopeless,
I mean, I got rid of my
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TV when I probably
had maybe a year clean.
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You just said I can't do
it, I can't watch this stuff
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and stay in recovery.
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So, did you feel or know
that that was God saying Lem,
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you can't keep
feeding this into your head.
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I wasn't sure
where it came from.
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I had started reading the Bible.
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And I wanted what was right,
I think that was just a way
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for Him to help me get a
more meaningful relationship
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with Him, because
we can't have both.
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I mean we can't have
the world and have a good
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meaningful relationship
with purpose and meaning.
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And it takes time,
so it don't give up.
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I mean ask for help, don't
give up, because it takes a
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it's a daily relationship.
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If you asked the Bible says
in Matthew 7:7, "ask and you
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shall receive",
does it stop there?
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No, it says, "seek
and you shall find. "
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So we don't just ask
and sit around and wait for.
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We have to seek, knock
and it shall be open unto you.
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So as we seek some
different in our lives.
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We've tried everything
else from young children,
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trying to find hope and
happiness, to fit into society,
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we try from young children,
and it still hasn't worked.
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So I don't care if you're
in prison for the 20th time,
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for many years in prison.
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I don't care - or if
you're in prison and somebody
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can't even see the bars.
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You can't even see the bars.
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I meet a lot of people
that are not physically in
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prison, they've never
been in that lifestyle, but
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they're addictions have
got them so locked up that
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they don't even
relate to people anymore.
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They have no true
connection with anybody, that's
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workaholism, that's
Religiosity, that's gambling,
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that's sex
addictions and all that.
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So their bars are
different than your bars,
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the prison is the same.
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Right, we are empty inside.
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Life has not given us
those happy moments and
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dreams that we thought.
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The new car,
don't glitter no more.
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The new house, don't fix inside.
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And the judges
they can't legislate it.
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The doctors they can't come
and give it to you in a pill.
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They can give you a happy pill,
they can numb you, but they
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don't give you that peace,
that joy, that everlasting
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purpose and meaning
that Jesus Christ does.
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And that's what we're all
seeking is purpose and meaning.
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When you decided to disconnect
from all the kind of junk
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you were watching for
entertainment, was that hard?
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That's like another
withdrawal it seems like.
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It was, it was very hard.
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Those things
tantalize our senses.
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I mean, we sit there,
there was a phrase that was
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coined in society; just
say no, just say no to drugs,
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or just say no to
sin, give me a break,
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It Ain't That Easy.
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We of our own just can't say no.
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And there was another
phrase coined, just do it.
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You know just do it, just do it.
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So everybody is
running around just do it.
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So we get comfortable
in society, to fulfill the
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lust of the flesh, the passions.
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We want to feel good all
the time, but I'll tell you
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when we say no to the world
and say yes to Jesus Christ we
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feel good all the time.
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Are there still
problems in life, yes there are
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still problems in life
but He never gives us a
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trial or a burden that is
greater than what His grace
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provides us to overcome that.
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So that peace and
stability last and it's
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worth holding on to.
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There is nothing that
the world has to offer.
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Millions of dollar can't
give you the pure living water
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of Jesus Christ, the
purpose and the meaning.
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That's huge, and it's
really tough to explain that
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until you feel it.
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You know, the first time I
felt that, I felt like, I got up
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and I thought if it
my birthday or something.
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Cause I felt joy and
hope, and I heard the
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Holy Spirit say, I
know this is health,
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and I'm like
shut up, this is good.
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But to not feel that
loneliness, not to fill that
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anxiety about trying
to live up all the time.
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God says you are my child
and I absolutely adore you.
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I absolutely,
everything that I am, I want
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to pour into you.
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When you are stepping
away from those things in
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your life, Lem, what
else really helped you?
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Because sometimes I think people
forget to say what helped.
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It helped me to disconnect
from all the violence,
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or the sexualized commercial.
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The music, the music,
when I drive down the road I
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leave the radio off, the music.
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I want to take walks,
I'd rather help my wife plant
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flowers and just do some
things outside in nature.
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So you'd disconnected
you literally unplugged?
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Right, you know, there's
no sense starting your day
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watching the news
media and get ten minutes of
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negativity in your day.
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You are better off
picking up the Bible,
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or go for a walk and
listen to the birds and say
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Lord I need your help today.
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Ask Him not knowing
where He's going to take you,
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but knowing that you can
trust were Jesus Christ will
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take you throughout society.
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So as you ask, and say
Lord, I need Your help today.
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Then you are opening
the door to your heart,
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and actually seeking
His will for your life,
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and it doesn't change overnight.
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But hey, the TV's
gone, that junks gone,
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and I can think clearer.
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And I'll tell you something
else Cheri, that I hope our
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viewers will
really pay attention to.
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Water is so very
important, I tell you what
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we don't even think that.
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When we first get in
recovery, somebody says,
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let's have some water.
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Oh I can't stomach
that give me some tequila.
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You know, I mean it's true.
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But there is a book called
The Body Many Cries for Water.
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I read that, I
read part of that yep.
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I mean, our brain is made
up of like 70 percent water,
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or something like
that I'm not sure.
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So what happens is
your kidneys and all them
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other things, they will
go without water so that
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your brain can still think.
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So water, you know what
I went to the hospital for
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drug rehabilitation,
they didn't tell me about
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health and nutrition.
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A mean, you still eat
the way you eat, you sleep
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when you sleep, or whatever.
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I got real sick after about a
year clean, somewhere in there.
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I got real sick I had
this physical problem,
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and I went to this
health nutritional place.
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I had the doctors come
in and they examined me.
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Before they examined me,
they got down on their knees
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and had prayer with me.
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They said, Lord help us
to understand what Lemuel's
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problem is, and I'll
tell you what, they told me
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the nuts and
bolts about nutrition.
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I mean, I began to
understand that I can't drink
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Pepsi anymore, why
can I drink Pepsi anymore,
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because I'm clean
for 2 or 3 months and
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find myself,
I'll drink a half pop,
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and that little bit of caffeine
buzz makes me feel good.
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And then I want to feel
good all the time and now
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I see on every street
corner, we've got all these
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energy drinks, we've
got jolt Cola, jolt gum.
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We have got all this
stuff to keep us going.
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And that's not the right keep
a going we want to keep a-going.
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Because you had that
crash, and also what is really
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interesting to me, the first
time I had an energy drink,
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and I had it while we
were doing a building project,
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and didn't think anything of it.
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I don't think it's
a drug or anything.
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I had this energy drink
and I'm sitting there in the
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quiet of building this
project, just taking a break.
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And I thought, I
wonder what ecstasy is like?
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I was thinking, where
did that thought come from.
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But for myself being
an addict it just hooks
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right into that
wanting to feel good and feel
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you could feel
better if you take this.
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So, I think that in God's
mercy says don't stimulate
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yourself with these kind of
drinks or this kind of junk.
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I learned at that little medical
seminar, even about sugar.
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In a Mountain Dew,
you've got 39 grams of sugar,
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and that's like 10
teaspoons of sugar in a soda.
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So if you're taking 10
teaspoons of sugar, sugar
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weakens your immune
system, it makes our brain foggy
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and cloudy and stuff.
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So, it doesn't just
have to be alcohol and drugs.
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I am not trying to tell you
this stuff to discourage you.
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Yes it is a blessing
to be off of the drugs.
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But then, we don't
have to do it, as we ask God
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for help in our life He
brings the recovery and the
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healing, we'll
probably still have scars,
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we will have
scars all our lives.
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I don't care if you
have a bullet wound.
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I don't care if you
have emotional scars.
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I don't care if you
got brain damage, I mean,
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we do have to have
scars in our life that we will
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probably carry to the
grave until Jesus comes back
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and changes us in
the twinkling of an eye.
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They were changed forever
for Him if we have been willing
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as we have been willing to
seek Him daily to be our guide.
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You know I'm going to ask
you, I'm going to open it up.
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Nyse Collins is on
the set today in the café.
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Nyse, I always tease him about
being our resident health nut.
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And I really mean that in a
good way, but I want him and
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you to kind of dialogue a
little bit more about what
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actually helps in our
recovery, because I think
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sometimes we forget that.
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We really look at the
spiritual sense of what that
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means and what I do as
far as not taking this drug,
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but I don't think we
cover enough the things that God
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says do this and it
will a help you think better.
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So Nyse, what you think
about what he is saying about
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his recovery and what he
has learned about health?
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Well, I think it's
powerful and matter of fact,
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you have taken the
program that we use when we are
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working with individuals
recovering from different
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situations and have
actually applied it.
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The first step in everything,
because we can't look at
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health, but if it was
just about eating apples and
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grapes, one of us can be
healthy and free from problems.
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But the first step that
you mention was that time,
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where you sat down and said,
Lord I have a situation here.
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And I need your help,
you got on your knees and
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looked at the Sunset.
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So the first key in all of
this is asking God for help.
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Once such you got that
help, which is the Spiritual
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foundation as we know it
as the foundation of all that,
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then you went ahead and
started to ascertain some of
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the other problems.
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Our goal in our
teaching is first identify the
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root cause of the problem.
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What is the true characteristic
of the problem than
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to work
intelligently to eliminate that.
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So you worked
intelligently by getting who,
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God to give you
a hand with that.
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And I think that was the
key because as we read over
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and over it is a waste of
time to teach people to look
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to God as a healer of their
infirmities, unless they are
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taught also to lay aside
what? unhealthful practices.
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What did you lay aside, you
laid aside the TV-That's huge!
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Oh my goodness is like
one of the hugest things ever
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just infiltrate your mind with
just so many different things.
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You laid aside your
music, and one of the key items,
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because when we look at health.
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When you think of health, what
is the first thing you think of?
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When somebody says are
your healthy when you think of?
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Am I walking and am I
drinking, that's a part of it,
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but spiritual part.
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But the second part of
health is the physical part.
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What did you lay aside, you
laid aside some of the items,
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power drinks and
whatever like that.
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There are many people
who are not dealing with
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addictions, but man, they
are addicted to sugar, they're
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addicted to caffeine, they
are addicted to Coke and all
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these things and you
hit it right on the head.
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Oh man this is so beautiful
I wish I could just record
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that, and I'm
going to take a copy.
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What happens is, it sets
you on a mental high that all
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your body now is doing
is craving to fulfill that.
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Before in our earlier
programs we talked about
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even something like spices,
spices are a fiery food is a
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stimulant that gets you
on a high and sooner or later
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you desire another
stimulant which leads now to
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alcoholism or maybe drugs.
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What society has done
unfortunately, I guess they
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are trying to do what they can,
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as you said they
are moving you off
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the free drugs, cocaine
or the heroine, or stuff and
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they put you on
controlled substances.
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The different
drugs that they use.
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Have they solved the problem
- absolutely not - no you said
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that a 100 times it was
not solving my problems.
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All the doctors did everything
in the world and didn't
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solve it, because they
haven't identified the true
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character of the cause.
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You identified it and said Lord,
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I need a relationship with you.
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After you realize that that
doesn't work now do you went
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ahead took some steps.
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What I'm hearing over and
over throughout these sessions
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that you guys have been
having, is one of the main
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things that you found
helpful was a routine.
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What did you say, every
morning, before you put on that
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TV as a matter of fact
don't even put on the TV and
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unless you're putting it into
Celebrating Life and Recovery.
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3ABN, or even
before you do that.
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What was it that you
mentioned that they should do?
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As the Lord for
help in their life.
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As the Lord for help after
you've done that how is the
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Lord going to help
you, through His Word.
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He is going to show
you what you should do.
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Another very important
thing, this is before we start
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eating our apples and
grapes, you said get out and go
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for a walk in nature.
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That fresh air helps with
the circulation and you know
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what guys save your money.
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Do not waste your
money on gym memberships.
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Save that 4 or 500 hundred
dollars, take that support in
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3ABN or Celebrating Life
and Recovery, or use that money
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to buy some good
healthy fruits and veggies.
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But get outside, there
is something about nature.
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What I have been hearing
and what we read over and over
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it says, nature
testifies of the love of Christ.
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So we start experiencing
that not once a week basis,
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not twice a week.
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As a matter of fact, when
you take a medication or when
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the doctor tells you to
take medication, how many times
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a day are you
taking the medication?
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Once a week or twice a week?
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No, you took it everyday
- every day - 2, 3 times.
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So 3 times - and
before you went to bed.
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Oh my God, you
hit this on the head.
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How may times do
we need to be outside?
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3 or 4 times a day
- 3 or 4 times a day.
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Not once or twice
a week, but everyday.
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And we will be blessed by
it, literally we will bring
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blessings into our lives.
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That is powerful,
and you've done that.
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Now you are here you
are witnessing to us.
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So, I think that's powerful,
you even set on the item of
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water pulled off the
colas and stuff like that.
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And how did that help you
personally, what did you see?
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It kept me stable
all throughout the day.
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You know, you eat a good
breakfast in the morning,
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and you just feel good,
you've got steady energy
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all throughout the morning.
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I'm not talking
about Twinkies and a
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cup of coffee for breakfast.
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I'm talking about nuts and
whole grains, where you have
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steady energy all day long.
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You're not one up and down
and having this roller coaster.
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And by lunch, you are
starting to get a little tired,
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hungry so you have a good lunch.
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Then you're good to go
all the way through supper.
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It's a real blessing and
talking about nature, dude I
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want to tell you something,
I had about 2 years in
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recovery, and we
were down in Florida.
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I love butterflies, and I
can't see real good so I am
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through this orange
orchard, I'm trying to follow
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this butterfly and I
come upon this orange tree.
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Do you know what I
saw? I saw baby orange.
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I mean, it freaked me out,
I mean a little tiny orange.
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That wasn't a bloom it was
a little baby orange and it
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had just the
lines, I had no idea.
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It blew me away and God
has created so many things like
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that, and we just
take it for granted.
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We think Wal-Mart
produces that stuff.
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And it was no
spectacular show of events.
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It was something as simple
as that that touched your heart.
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You know what I mean, it's
the something with mine, I see,
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people would say stupid, but
I see like wow did you see that?
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How a cloud goes like this
and they say, are you okay?
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I'm like I'm fine, but
you hit on it, those little
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simple things that bring
peace of mind, clarity in
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spirit and a key item
that you have mentioned.
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When we read over and
over it says, in order to
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receive God's blessings in
answer to that prayer that you
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just made, because that
prayer could have went up
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and came right back down.
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It says we must cease to
do evil and avoid the self
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gratifying habits, then we
can see the answer to our prayer
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And that's only by God's grace.
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What I was going to say to
is that real interesting is
00:19:05.71\00:19:09.45
that a woman writer that
is amazing, but she said,
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"out in nature Angels
will minister and teach us. "
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And I've always have
that kind of vision now
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when I go out is that
right now I'm being taught
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by the things around me.
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And God will use birds,
rainbows, and sunsets and
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all of a sudden
you're just thinking wow.
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And I don't care who on the
planet tells you that really
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wasn't from God to
you you're like, oh right.
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It couldn't have
been for anyone else.
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I think God does that just
to tell us that I so know where
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you are at, I so know what
you're prayer was, and I so
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know every step you're
making, I know when it's hard
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and I know it is easy.
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I know when you're full of
joy, and I know when you are
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afraid, but I am God and
am with you during all that.
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It I never dreamed that
God could take a tragedy of a
00:19:54.36\00:19:57.46
young man being in prison
for years and turn it around
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to use it for
His honor and glory.
00:20:00.58\00:20:01.77
I just never knew how
that could be but God is in the
00:20:01.80\00:20:04.35
business of taking our
terrible mistakes, that sin has
00:20:04.38\00:20:06.89
caused in our lives and
turn around and using it
00:20:06.93\00:20:09.02
for His honor and glory.
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I had about 5 years
clean and met my friend who had
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been in prison for 25 years.
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He was out, now, I stopped
by his house, hadn't seen
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him, He said
come on man jump in.
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I jumped in his fancy car,
music a going, he's going down
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to shoot pool, I
hadn't seen him in years.
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He stood up for me in prison.
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I would rent Lincoln Continental
and take his mama down
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to the prison and
do all kinds of things.
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Jumped in his car, I
was hungry and I was tired.
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And we went down to the
pool hall and listen to that
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awful music going down there.
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I did want to tell
them to shut the music off.
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I had just talked,-
didn't want to offend him.
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We get down of the pool
hall and I'm looking around.
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I'm starving and the only
thing I can see was corn chips.
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I ate two bags of
corn chips for my supper.
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And I sat there and
the drugs went around
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through out that evening.
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Here man, whatever you
want take it, it's yours.
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I said no man, I don't want it.
00:20:54.98\00:20:56.38
He said you really
did change didn't do?
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I said a man I
don't want it no more.
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On the way home I stopped
at a garage sale and picked
00:21:00.65\00:21:04.72
up 3 videos that I
didn't know what they were,
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and at home, I had a
video player, and I stuck
00:21:07.67\00:21:10.42
one of them in.
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One was all about
drugs, all about gangsters,
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all about the Mafia.
00:21:13.68\00:21:14.69
And I watched that and do
you know within a matter of
00:21:14.73\00:21:18.31
probably 36 hours my
mind was thinking he has
00:21:18.34\00:21:22.74
all the drugs that I want.
00:21:22.77\00:21:23.93
I could just go get
4, 5 ounces of cocaine.
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I can hold up for a couple
of days, and nobody would know.
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And I had made a
decision to go and get high.
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I had five years clean,
and I was willing to give it up
00:21:33.82\00:21:37.03
because nobody would know.
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I want you to know that I
went down to Tennessee and
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heard this doctor speak
on the mind and how the mind
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can be re-mapped.
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It says is pliable like
plastic, I didn't understand it
00:21:47.44\00:21:50.41
but already decided I
was going to use cocaine.
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And I went to him
after the meeting and said,
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tell me what you meant.
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The lady that had
spoke on it she was busy.
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I talked her husband I
said, what did she mean?
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He says in the mind, we
have deep ruts in the mind.
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The electrical current travels
the least path of resistance.
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So we have ingrained tendencies
in our lives, but when
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you make a decision for
right, there is an electrical
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burst of electrical
current that will jump that deep
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rooted cocaine, alcohol, sexual
addiction, whatever it is.
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That extra burst of electrical
current will jump that
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pathway and as we choose
to make the right choice by
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God's grace, there will
form new pathways in the mind.
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And he gave me one Bible verse.
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It was Philippians 4:13
"I can do all things through
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Christ Jesus
which strength to me. "
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I just couldn't believe
it, I just couldn't believe it.
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I said what was
that verse again,
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and I had tears in my eyes.
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I went out to the van I
was sleeping in that night and
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looked up that Bible verse.
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I cried, because I
had made a decision that
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I didn't want to
use that cocaine.
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I had already decided I
was going back to it as soon
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as I got home I
was going to go get it.
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And because of that, I said
dear Jesus, please help me again
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My original prayer to
Jesus Christ's when I got down
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on my knees in the hospital
room was dear Jesus please
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help me I want
to quit but I can't.
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It wasn't just drugs, it
wasn't a alcoholism, it wasn't
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sexism, it was a problem
in my life called sin that I
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had from a little child.
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Let me tell you where does sin
start in a little child's life?
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Does it start with a
13 years old automatically
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you begin facing sin.
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If you take a great big
candy bar and you take a little
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candy bar at call
little Johnny up here.
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Say Johnny come up here
and get you one of these
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candy bars, a which one
is Johnny going to take?
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The big one! - the big one.
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Why is that? - because
it's a big one - the big one.
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And that was the
problem in my life.
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Maybe it is a problem in
your life too, that all through
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your life you want the big one.
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You want the best, you
want the fanciest, you want
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to be somebody
special, and so it started my
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life as a little child.
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My mother didn't have to
teach me how to lie, steal or
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cheat, she taught
me the exact opposite.
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I had good moral
principles, by the time
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I was in first grade.
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By the time was in
second grade, I was dealing
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with sexual issues, I was
stealing stuff all summer long.
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I wouldn't take books to
school, I took stuff to school
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to sell it at recess time.
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And the glory of it, you
know what God is now using
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those talents that were
once used for wrong, now for His
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honor and glory because now
I have the opportunity to be
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out hustling
snacks, cookies and chips.
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And you take them into
prisons for prisoners to give
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your testimony now- I do.
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Because you want them to
know that they can change.
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I want them to know without
a shadow of a doubt, if my
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life can be different
today. I know that my partners
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and friends in an out of
prisons, around the world.
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I don't care what country
you're in that God is working
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for us in this
year which we live.
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So I just want to tell them
I wish them God's blessings.
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There is hope, and I
know if they'll just ask.
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I don't care what creed,
what denomination, I don't care
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what you believe in.
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But apparently it hasn't
worked in your life up until
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now, or you be
satisfied, happy, and joyful.
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I tell you that is what
has worked in my life and in
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these brothers and
sisters lives here.
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That I promise you out
there that He will do it for you
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too, is that not right?
does that not make sense?
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That is so right, you know,
when I look at you, the only
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thing I see is a passionate
man of God that says, you
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know what I couldn't believe.
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I didn't have any faith in
myself, that I would ever get
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through this, and God
just stepped in and said I
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will re-map your brain.
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I will help you - isn't
that what comes - you even at
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one point through your
recovery had drugs stashed in
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different parts of the
house, because just in case.
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Yeah, I wasn't able to
throw them away for 3 years.
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Pillow case, garbage yeah,
pornographic stuff, you know,
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and I wanted to throw them away.
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I felt this wasn't
right, you can't live life in
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recovery, and still be
having a dirty, dirty rooms.
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In our life and our mind.
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Because there's a sense in
us that we know we are planted.
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I think that God says that
there will be a point in your
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life that you get
honest about this recovery.
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That you don't watch for
entertainment, the very things
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that are trashing you.
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That you really take
care of what you are putting
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your body, really make
choices and follow through,
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that you discipline yourself.
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And God says there's going
to be a point when you get to
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that point, and at that point
you're throwing things away.
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Amen, and it is by His
grace, because I don't see
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anything wrong with them.
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And it doesn't happen in
our lives Cheri - and you even
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told me when you even started
to throw it away, that as
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you were taking the
trash out, you are like,
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oh I don't want
to throw this away.
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Yep Yep, and actually I
couldn't, the first day I
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couldn't. I said,
no it's not that bad.
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Next day I had devotion
and said Lord please help me.
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I had to ask the Lord to
help me all the way through
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throwing all the stuff away.
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Lord please help me out
one, then it was possible.
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We don't realize our
needs until we hit rock bottom.
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We think that we can hang
onto, if you nuts and bolts
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and a few cookies and
candies and things in life.
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A few gold trinkets,
it ain't going to happen.
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We are going to have to
realize we need total dependence
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on Him, and each and
every day He will help us.
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It doesn't start that we
get all cleaned up and get rid
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of our baggage, we don't
get all fixed up and put on our
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makeup and say, okay Lord
am ready to serve You now.
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We come to Him just as we are.
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I met a dude in California,
and I told him I said look
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man, be sure you thank
God, I had done a favor for him
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out there, and he was
walking away and I said, be sure
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to thank God for that tonight.
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He said, oh man, you don't
understand, I can't thank God
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I can't talk to Him
until I get all cleaned up.
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I jumped down off of what
I was doing and I went, said
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no, buddy, lets talk
man please let's talk.
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I said we come to
Him just as we are.
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I don't care what monkey
desires are going on in your
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life, you come to Him just
as you are, and He's the One
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that begins to clean us up.
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From the
outside? From the inside.
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It's from the inside out.
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So I'm going to ask you,
because some of the stuff you
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have to come to God
with is pretty ugly stuff.
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We talk about our deeper sexual
sins and those kind of things,
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and you're
saying, come with that?
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Come - don't be afraid of that
either - come just as you are.
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I mean those things, He doesn't
shame you for any of that.
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- NO! He doesn't
shame us, He forgives us.
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The desires change in our mind,
they change to where that's
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no longer what
I want in my mind.
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Our very desires are
very thoughts change - yeah!
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The passions that once
used to be there to fulfill the
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sexual desires and lifestyle,
it changes and now you
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want help somebody else.
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I want to help my friends.
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I'm looking to get
apples and oranges to take it to
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the prison and let them
know that I love them and
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they are not forgotten.
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It's different because
now we are in service for Him
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not self, self has to die.
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Paul says I have to die daily,
and for us today, we need to too
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I usually break
right now, and then
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comeback for the close.
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And I want to break right
now, do the same as normally,
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but would you come
back to the close with me?
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I want to break,
but please hear this.
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If you're stuck with
anything, some people are stuck
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and they look so
much better than somebody,
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coming out of prison.
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But if you are stuck with
anything, know that God just
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says nothing, nothing
you have in your pockets.
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Nothing you have in your
closets, nothing you have is
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going to turn God away from you.
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And He says I promise you,
if you honestly step forward,
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you don't even have to
know what that means but if you
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honestly just ask Me.
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I am with you for
the rest of your life.
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I am with you and I'll fulfill
in you in all the things that
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need to changed.
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I will fulfill in you everything
that needs to happen in
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order for your recovery
and you will be blessed.
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So we will be
right back! Stay tuned!
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