It's unbelievable
to me to see how God
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works in someone's life.
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Sometimes I hear stories and
the stories are, they seem like
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what I consider
nothing stories at first.
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What I realize is that
every story is important.
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It could be way intense
like what Cheryl just shared
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with us about her husband, and
flying into the Trade Centers.
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All the aftermath of
9/11, and trying to stand up and
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get a hold of her life.
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But you know, what is
really cool to me about
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God is that He
doesn't look at the bigness or
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smallness of the story.
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He looks at the heart and
the issue behind the stories.
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About forgiveness and
bitterness and having that
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so take over your life.
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What Cheryl said, which I
thought was incredible, is
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that she literally had to
start getting up from bed.
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Making her bed so that
she doesn't get back in it.
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Doing the right
things, getting outside.
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Letting the sun hit
her skin, and taking some
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breaths, and looking around her.
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All of that is
important in recovery.
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When I first heard,
there is two people in my
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life that I heard their
story that just hit me as
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far as my own need
to ask God help me with
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forgiveness and bitterness.
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It was Cheryl McGuinness
and Joyce Swift were the two
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people that just got me as
far as their story and what
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they learned to forgive.
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So I went to God, and I'm
like God, you know I'm hearing
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what they're saying.
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I'm hearing about
forgiveness, I'm hearing
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that it is important.
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But how do you do that.
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My mom tried to self
aboard six different times.
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They didn't love me,
I was neglected I was
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homeless by twelve.
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After pregnancy and all
that junk, I can't do this.
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And finally I just ask
God like what Cheryl said.
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It made be overwhelming to
think that your going to do it.
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That you are going to
some how muster it up yourself.
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Just stop and say, God, I
don't even know where to start.
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I don't even
know the first step.
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And what He
said, my first step is?
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My parents as far as
forgiving and all that.
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He said can you imagine
your mom as a little tiny girl.
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And I did, I saw a picture of
her one time when she was three.
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And he said forgive her, then,
when she was three years old.
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before all this stuff hit her
so that she got so damaged in
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her own life that to
love her own children were
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difficult, forgive her then.
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So, ask God wherever
He wants to take you.
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However He wants to help
you, so you can forgive the
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people in your life.
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You can move on in life,
you can say to God that maybe I
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can see the possibility,
the possibility of forgiving.
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An abuser, a parent that
wasn't there, a father, who left
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or someone that
murdered her husband.
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You know some of the
stories are bigger than others,
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but the bitterness
in the root of those
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are the same, they
are absolutely the same.
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And God said, I never want
to leave you in that place,
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because I promise you, you
give that to Me I will teach you
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However I have to teach you
individually how to do that.
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You will be able to come
out of that with those roots
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pulled out and step into a life
of joy and a life of healing.
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