Welcome back!
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Were you blessed,
didn't you have a great time?
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I know that when I started
speaking about my own life,
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when I started
bringing all that stuff out,
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I just healed leaps and bounds.
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Every single time I was
so afraid, when somebody said
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I wanted to be rebaptized.
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So I brought all this
stuff to my pastor thinking,
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you know I'm not
going to lie anymore.
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I'm not going to
pretend I'm somebody I'm not.
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I want to tell you every
single thing about my life.
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Every single thing
about my mom's life.
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Every single thing
about my grandmother life.
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My Dad's in a crack
house, with a sexual addiction
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that is unbelievable,
I'm going to tell you that.
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And if I'm good enough
then baptize me, if I'm not just
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tell me to leave the
building, because I'm tired.
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I've been here ten years
trying to pretend, I'm tired.
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At the end when he said to
me, that you know I would be
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honored to baptize
you, I almost wept.
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The first time I
was getting ready
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to tell the testimony.
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God, what do I tell them,
because I'm thinking I'm just
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going to tell you the good part.
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God said, if you
don't tell them everything,
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don't tell them anything.
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Because it vindicates who I am.
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It vindicates what I
am capable of bringing
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to your life in healing.
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If you are going to be
ashamed, then you are still in
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bondage somewhere.
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Work through that
before you get up and speak.
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And I'm just like, oh man.
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The more I spoke,
the more I healed.
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The more I looked at somebody.
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I would say something horrible,
and I'd look at somebody
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and see all this
love in their eyes.
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And they say, I'm so
thankful that you are
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in the body of Christ.
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I'm so thankful that
God stepped into your life.
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And I just would want to cry
and I would want to say, really.
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Every time somebody invited
me to their home, and weren't
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afraid to let me sit at
their table with them, I healed.
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I didn't know how to
socialize, so it was really
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difficult to me,
my palms would sweat.
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Like I don't even
know how to be here.
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But I healed, it
was just amazing.
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And I'm going to end
with a couple of things.
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One of the things I want
you to know is, I read a book
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called The Great
Divorce, by C. S. Lewis.
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Incredible, and in the
first part of that book,
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he says when you go on a
trip you can't take all the
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baggage with you, on every trip.
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And even the smallest souvenir
from your previous life,
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will stop you from getting
into heaven, will stop you
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from this journey of recovery.
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So this show, when we
talk about saying something
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out loud, connect
with a body, don't let your
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secrets destroy you,
that's why we are saying it.
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It's not that
God doesn't love you.
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Because that is a given,
God is love, it's who He is.
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It's just saying that
anything you hide, anything that
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stays in your pocket,
and stays in the closet, will
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somehow get in your
way of your recovery.
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In a huge way, so get rid
of the souvenirs, get rid of
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all the secret sins that
you don't think are getting in
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your way, because
it will trash you.
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And remember when I said
I am sad that this show is
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going to end, it
doesn't have to end here.
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It actually doesn't have to end.
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If you get this message
that you need to connect
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with someone, it will
go on for every single
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person you connect with.
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Ever single person you help.
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Every single time you
get healing in your life.
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And as a church if you
hear us, learn to love one
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another, because it's huge.
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The world isn't dying out
there because they don't know
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doctrine, not because they
don't know what the Bible says.
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It's because they've
never been loved, ever.
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They've never been loved
by their natural parents.
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They've never been loved
by anyone, they've been abused
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in every single way.
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And as they come into the
building, all they are asking,
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is it different here?
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Is this place different?
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