The following program
discusses sensitive issues
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related to addictive behavior.
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Parents are
cautioned that some material
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may be too candid
for younger children.
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Welcome back.
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You know it says in Job
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that you make a
covenant with your eyes.
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And so you were
talking about that, Tracy,
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when you see a girl or a
woman, or I don't know if men,
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I don't know if you
did the same-sex stuff
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but whatever it is, you see skin
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and all the sudden you go there
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with all of your addictions
just kind of screaming.
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And the demons themselves
telling you to play with that.
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Right.
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And you're saying with
God, I am bouncing my eyes away.
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I am saying, you
know, to look once,
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to actually catch it and be
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sucked in a
little bit is one thing
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but I'm not going to look again
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because I'm asking God,
please change my very desires.
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That's exactly right. Yeah.
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Yeah, to look
once and look at it,
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then I feel the demon
tempting me to go places
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I've been in
the past with images
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and I know God saying,
if you go the second time
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you'll be inviting the
demons back in your eyes,
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you know, you cherish something
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that's not in the
kingdom of heaven--
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And I can't protect you there.
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Yeah. Right--
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Because it's your choice.
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It's going to be a coned off
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accident scene leading to death.
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It's not going to
be a pretty picture
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for anyone to do that.
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What's really interesting
to me is you talked about
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being a deacon in the church
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and stepping into
those roles and leadership
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and I am so proud of you
as you do that, you know.
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And so that is way
different than where you were.
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First of all, what does
your momma think of that?
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Oh, she's very
happy for me right now
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and she's probably watching me,
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she will be watching
and she's praying for me.
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She's so happy for
me to be doing so well.
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You know she
said that 10,000 to go
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and to walk over sin is a
lot better than a funeral bill
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because she could
see where I was going,
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you know, down to 170
pounds of bruises all over me
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and she's just
so happy, she is...
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Amen. Yeah. I love her.
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So what is
your-- if you'd to say
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if God physically
walked into the room right now?
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You know, what would you
want to thank Him for first?
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Oh, man.
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For being my big
brother, you know,
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I got the biggest big
brother in the universe.
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Jesus being my big
brother is awesome.
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I want to thank Him for
being there all the time
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but giving us the freedom
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to choose our
way, the free will--
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starting from the
sacrifice on the cross
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the free will to actually choose
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to do evil is incredible.
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Or good. To find out, yeah.
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And then the freedom to escape
the enemy anytime you want.
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We have the free will to
walk right out of that valley
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any time we want
which the devil hates that
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but we've got it,
God has insured it.
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So did you
realize that in coming out
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that the only
power was in Christ?
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Oh, yes, I knew,
if it was up to me,
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you know, I just
keep getting more drugs
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and kill myself eventually.
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Well, I am glad you
didn't, I am glad you were here.
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I love you. Thank
you. Love you too.
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I want to just say
for anybody watching
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is that if you are
struggling with any of that,
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grab hold of God,
grab hold of Christ down,
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resist the devil and
he has to flee from you.
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That's an
incredible thing, just the joy
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for any of us addicts for sure.
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Until next week, always remember
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that God is crazy
about you, me too.
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