Welcome back!
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You know what, I'm so
proud of God in the fact
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that He does not want
us to be someone else.
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He doesn't want us
to be something else.
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He doesn't want us to be
anything except what we are.
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And I see that my own life.
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I seen that Max when
he gave his testimony.
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When Kerry
talks about who he is.
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And we can't try to
figure out God which is
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incredible to me.
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I can't figure out
when I came off the street,
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I was just so glad to
be on solid ground and I'm
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thinking look at me,
I'm like standing here and
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I'm not high.
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I'm thinking I'm not
lying to anybody, well maybe.
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And I really for 10
years tried to be someone else,
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that was the only thing
that kind of freaked me out.
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I wore somebody else's
clothes, I sat like someone
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else, I try to eat
brown rice every meal.
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It was just like I tried
to do all these different
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things and God said,
you know Cheri I miss you.
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I miss you, I want you to
be yourself, and now it is
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like I am loud and
obnoxious and love life.
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Well I mean I love life
and I love God, I love who
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I am now as a
woman of God in Christ.
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I love all that stuff,
I love the fact that every
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day He stands us
up in a different way.
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Every day He works
with us in a different way.
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Every day His plans unfold.
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If you would have asked
Kerry, she think at the end
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of your, not at the
end of your life hopefully,
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but as you walk
through your life that you are
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going to work in
the Police Department?
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You are going to work for
police officers and try to
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get them to just stand up
with their first initial draw
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to this kind of service
field and stand up as men and
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women of God, with integrity,
loving on the community.
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Do you think you would
have seen yourself in that?
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He would have said
absolutely not, I wouldn't have
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guessed it and yet all of
heaven said, oh man, Kerry
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this is what you are
gifted for, this is what
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I created you for.
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And even Max, Max was
this kid that just was almost
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destroyed, and now I'm
doing stuff that would make us
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cringe if he totally was
honest about his testimony.
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I'm not saying he's not
honest, I'm saying probably
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with God and him, the only time
he fully discloses who he was
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he has done, and all of a sudden
He said I'm going to have you
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standing in front of judges,
and mayors, and people in law
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enforcement so that you
can teach them how to have a
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heart for the
very child you were.
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And if you would've said
to him at one point this is
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who you are, this is the
man of God I'm going to raise
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you up to be, he
would have laughed at you,
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but all of heaven knew.
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When I came off the street,
I'm only 23 years old, I had
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teeth missing, I'm illiterate,
I'm strung out on heroine.
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I don't know if I knew
anything about anything.
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I don't know if I knew
anything about relationships,
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anything about how to
survive, how to be honest,
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how to get from one thing
to another when people say,
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when I went to church and
they invited me to potluck
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I did know how to
eat with somebody.
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My palm's would sweat, I
did know how to socialize.
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I didn't know how to do
anything, my husband almost
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didn't marry me.
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For one He said, you
know what Cheri, you don't
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even know how to talk in
front of people and I work
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at the University, I
work at the Philharmonic.
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The fact that you can't
even get so anxious that you
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can't speak, and now
he's wishing I would shut up.
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I'm kidding, but you
know it's like who would've
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guessed God would open
up where I get to talk to
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addicts all over the world.
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I am hoping that I'm
talking to you, I hope you're
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hearing me say that God
has a plan, an individual
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plan for your life.
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Not for conformity that He
want you to be like everybody
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else in the body of
Christ because you are you.
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You were created so
incredibly uniquely for Him and
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for purpose that He
said please wake up to that.
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And as you wake up, He
is not waking you up just to
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behave, behaving is good so
I'm not saying don't behave.
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Behave is good but He
saying I have a bigger plan than
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that, I actually
want to give you a life.
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I want to transform
everything about you so
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that the people
around you will actually
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blessed by who you are.
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Will actually step in
and say man, I am so glad
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you're in my life,
when someone says that to me
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I want to cry because
that is not what most people
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said to me most of my life.
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So God says I have a
plan to turn all that around
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for you and it is
just a matter of saying,
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I'm done, I'm done.
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And when somebody says
what does that mean exactly?
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I'm done, it's like a surrender.
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If you see somebody that
is in war and they surrender,
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they throw out the
white flag, I surrender.
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I don't know what
else to do, or how else
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to do this on my own.
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I need to come under
authority to someone.
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And Kerry did that with
a lot men that came around
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him, and people that came
around him and loved on him.
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So just throw up your
white flag, find someone that
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you can trust, and that
is really tough for a lot
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of us to find
somebody that you can trust.
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Hopefully a man or
woman of God, if you are a man
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find a man and if your
woman find a woman just because
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that is a huge issue, but
find somebody you can trust
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and step under authority
and tell them I don't even
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know how to speak right now.
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So I'm going to ask
you to start teaching me.
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Start mentoring me,
start walking me through that.
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And as soon as you get
some kind of spiritual legs
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your older than 4 months
old you can start doing some of
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that kind of stuff.
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God will step in an
open up your life for you,
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you have a destiny and
God wants to reveal that
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to you and He can't
right now because you've got
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all these
addictions in your hand.
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Surrender them, put you
white flag out and trust Him.
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Until I see you next time
always remember that God is
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crazy about you and we are
too, absolutely beyond what
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you can think of, God has
a plan and trust that plan.
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See you next time, God bless!
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