Welcome to Faith Factor!
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A program where you meet real
people who face real challenges
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in the real world and for whom
faith has been a factor in the
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outcome!
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We want to look at
the Search for Love!
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Do you sometimes maybe in your
life or have you at some point
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in your life felt love starved?
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Children, adults, women, go
through that experience and it
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could be very devastating
when not only love is denied
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but when you are
made to feel unlovable.
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Here is a Scripture
that will encourage you!
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It is from Song of Salamon,
chapter two, verse four.
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The imagery is so appealing!
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'He brought me to
the banqueting-house...'
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A house of plenty, a
house of luxury if you will.
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'He brought me to
the banqueting-house,
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And his banner
over me was love.'
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The picture that you get there
is one of a host who wants to
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lavishly love and
express affection for someone!
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God's banner over
you is a banner of love.
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Many of you, particularly women
go through experiences of life
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where you are made
to feel worth less.
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Where you are made to
feel unattractive, unlovely and
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unlovable.
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The God of the universe says:
you are wonderful enough to
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die for...
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He brings you to the
banqueting-house of his lavish
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affection and he puts
his banner of love over you.
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If you can accept that, you can
begin the path to an exciting,
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new, wonderful life because
of your faith and the one who
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truly loves you with a love
that will never ever let you go!
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Faith Factor
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I am sure that you've heard
the term: 'love starved' before.
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It is easy to understand
starvation in terms of food.
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If you don't have food for one
week, two weeks, three weeks,
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you can see what starvation
will do to the human body.
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You are not gonna live
very long without food.
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Yet at the same time how
can one survive without love?
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There are many today, who
are love starved women, children
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love starved, dying inside...
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We wanna take a look at the
journey of Carla South, a very
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attractive young woman who went
from a point of love starvation
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that almost distroyed her life.
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But her story is
going to inspire you!
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Carla, welcome to the program!
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-Thank you!
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Let's start with the roots.
I always believe that what we
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become is influenced
by where we came from!
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So tell me about your roots.
Tell me about your childhood,
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what was it like?
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Well, it didn't get
off with a very good start.
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The day I was born my mother
made it quite clear that I
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wasn't what she wanted,
she wanted a boy which...
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I have an older sister at this
point so it was made known to
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everybody that just...
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-That she was devastated
because you turned up!
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-I was just a girl...
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-And you were just a girl...!
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-Ya, and so growing up, my mom
and I didn't have a relationship
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in the beginning.
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I don't ever remember sitting
on her lap, holding her hand,
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kissing her, except two
occasions where I held her hand
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once and I sat on
her lap another time.
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-You held her hand once!
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-Aham...
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-She was distant from you?
You didn't want to be close to
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her, that's it?
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-No, she removed herself from
me and my sister basically and
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so we had each other and...
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-What is your sister's name?
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-Patty!
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-Patty! So you and
Patty had each other!
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-Yes!
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-Did your mother ever tell
you that she didn't love you?
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-Yes, on a
regular basis actually...
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-On a regular basis she told
you that she didn't love you.
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-Yes! And that she hated me
because the matter of fact I
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ruined her life and...
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-Ruined her life by
being a girl? Is that it?
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Or by being there?
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-Being there.
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-Was she a young mother
or what were the factors?
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-No, I know it has to do
with the way that she was raised
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and so she did what she knew...
and I was a pillar of strenght
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for my sister until the age
of 14 I actually was giving the
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opportunity to be strong
for her because she was weaker
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even though she was older.
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-She was older but she
suffered from the same, I guess
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you want to call it
'love starvation' like you.
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-Oh ya and
probably even more so.
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She was very fragile and...
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-How did you feel as a
child growing up with no touch,
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not touch and yet all the
time saying 'I don't love you',
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'I hate you' and you
had to live with that!
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How did you sustain yourself?
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-By being strong for her!
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-By being strong
for your sister...
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-For my sister! Ya, and so we
were very close, meaningless to
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say, I mean we did have our
moments when we didn't get along
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very well you know, trying to
put my older sister's clothes on
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and those type.
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And when I was 14 years old,
I lost that strenght that I had
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when my sister
committed suicide.
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And...
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-How did that happen?
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-She drove her car off up in
Colorado in the mountains and
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went down 600 feet and she
and I actually looked alot alike
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and people thought we were twins
actualy and so it was very hard
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for me to lose her and have
nobody to be strong for anymore.
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-Did you get so say good bye
to her? Was there any connection
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or just wanished?
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-This is how good God is.
I didn't even have God in my
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life at the time and the very
last time I saw my sister, she
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was driving away and I said:
'Hey, can you give me a ride
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home?' and it was like
two blocks away and she says
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'No, I have to go to work
and I am late' and I said:
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'Please...' and she
says: 'Get in the car brat!'.
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and I said 'Thank you'!
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Because we didn't have alot of
affection and things like that,
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we didn't share it.
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-You didn't know how.
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-Right! And so she
drops me off at the
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house and I ran up to the door
and I looked in her eyes and
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said 'Wait!' and she
says 'What now? I have to go!'
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and I ran up to her, I gave
her a hug and I gave her a kiss
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and I told her I loved her.
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And I don't remember ever doing
that before that time and I
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never got to again because that
was the last time I've seen her.
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I know that that
was a gift from God!
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-I am with you there...
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At least you got to.
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Did she know the Lord?
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-We weren't raised with...
We went to church and that was
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full of alot of traditions and
we did not know of God really.
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And we went to church every
Sunday but there was no feeling
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if you will to hear who God is.
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-Exactly!
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-Ya!
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-So after the loss of your
sister what happened to you?
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-I ended up getting the brant
of everything from my mom and
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it was harder to sustain for
myself because I no longer had
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anybody to be strong for and
by the time I was 19 years old,
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I was pregnant and shortly
thereafter was married and
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ended up marrying an alcoholic
and by the time we were married
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three years, I already had a son
and you know, I was, made that
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commitment to stay with him
further and it was very very
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hard time in my life.
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-You were 21 then,
got two children...
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-I had well one child at that
time and we were married for
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11 years and...
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-Was is a good marriage?
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-It was a very
very unhealthy marriage.
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He was always drinking
and always gone and out at
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strip-clubs and
things like that.
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-You had a few problems.
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-Oh ya! And so
finally when he left me
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the 4th time, my son said,
some things can really wake me
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up and I thought I can't
put the kids through this.
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Not just myself but...
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-He will come back,
he will come back...
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-Ya!
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-Was he ever physically abusive?
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-He was
threatening to but as far as...
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-Did he do it verbally?
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-Ya! Which was enough
to make me just withdraw.
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-What impact did that kind of
home life had on the children?
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-They actually were... He
was gone so much, more the
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lack of having a father
figure was the biggest issue.
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I mean he almost never
came home and so I raised...
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-Almost living a single life...
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-Absolutely! Absolutely!
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After I was divorced, it wasn't
an issue because I had already
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done everything.
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-So what next?
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-Well, in late 2003 I
had somebody invite me to a
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Daniel Study and I had started
for the first time in my life
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reading the Bible for myself...
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-Who invited you, I mean
you said you grew up in a
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traditional church environment.
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-Yes!
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-And so you really
didn't know the Lord.
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You were invited to a Daniel
Seminar and started reading the
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Bible for yourself.
What were you looking for?
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Were searching
with, looking for God...
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-I have never been asked out to
a Bible Study so I thought okay!
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Fine and so I went and you know
it was a little bit embarassing
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to sit there with so many people
looking at different books and
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I'm like 'well there's
different books in there?'
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-You knew nothing
at all about the Bible!
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-Nothing! Absolutely nothing!
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-So tell me what happened at the
Bible Study and how you and all
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came together?
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-Well, after about three of
the Daniel Studies, a revelation
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series came from pastor
Mark Finley into town and I
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was invited to that next
and I thought okay, sure!
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This is pretty good start
so why not and I started to go
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and I at this point I am reading
my Bible 6 to 8 hours a day.
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-So after nothing
at all you are hungry.
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I can tell, okay!
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-I am thinking this is
good start you know, wow!
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This is amazing and we
were driving home one night,
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a friend of mine and
myself and I said: 'who is God?
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Who is He? He is not
who I thought He was!
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And he said and I know it was
the Holy Spirit that was in this
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because He said: 'do you know,
all of your life you've tried
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and tried to please your
mom and no matter what you did,
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she always turns
her back on you.'
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And now being a people pleaser
in the first place because of
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that relationship with my
mom I've tried and tried, I mean
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if you ask me and He said:
'now imagine someone whom you
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never ever tried to please
and He will never turn His back
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on you!' I
instantly fell in love...
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-With Christ!
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-Yeah!
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-Discovering the love
you're heart was longing for!
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-Yes!
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-A huge turning point was that!
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-Huge!
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-Yes! Yes!
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The beautiful thing about Christ
is that he sees at the long
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distance when we don't even
know that He exists, whether
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we know to read it or not, it
is not about whether we know Him
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and we go after Him but he seeks
us and finds ways of introducing
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himself to us so that we
can find out how loving He
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really is!
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And if your heart is hungry and
you are searching, that is the
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place to begin!
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If you are looking for
real love that is meaningful and
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life changing, that is
the place you will find!
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Well Carla, you have
been searching all your life,
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you have been rejected, you
have been hated by your mother,
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you have been is
essence discarded and suddenly
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you followed somebody by the
name of God, you read your Bible
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and you finally know that
He loves you in a way that your
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mother never could.
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What happened to your heart?
What happened to your life?
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-Ah, talk about taking heart to
heart and melting it to be ready
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to receive what ever it was that
it was next to Lord, I had no
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idea that it means this much
and it is just the overwhelming
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sense of security,
was just incredible.
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And I wanted to get to know
more of Him and so I constantly
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desired to want just hear Him
and His word, to speak to Him,
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to tell Him whatever it is.
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I remember the second prayer
that wasn't something that...
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I grew up saying prayers that
were memorised and I never knew
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I could just talk to God.
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So it was like...
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-In those prayers
did you talk to God?
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Or did you talk
to somebody else?
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-No, they were just
recited words that I just spoke.
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I didn't know God!
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I really did not and so
once I found out that how much
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He loved me, and each and every
one of us, I two o'clock in the
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morning a couple of weeks later
I was sobbing after reading my
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Bible about eight hours and I
thought: all I want for the rest
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of my life is to bring as many
of Your children home with me
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as I can.
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So any way that that is
possible, use me, do whatever
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it is and I will tell
You, I will try and get myself
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out of the picture is what I was
saying at the time and now I say
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'Lord! Not me, You!
It is all about You!'
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And so just really learning
how to not live my life for me
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anymore.
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-You know, for someone with
the hunger, a hunger for love,
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do you feel that at that moment
that connection with Christ,
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that hunger was felt?
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-Absolutely!
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-Absolutely and...
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-Did you feel it
with relationships before,
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any other relationship?
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-Absolutely! I mean
looking for love in all
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the wrong places, that
would definitely be me!
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And I have been shown how I
do try to still get that fixed
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if you will when I
don't focus on Christ.
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-You still feel that
your heart is hungering...
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I was saying that for
human affection as well.
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-When I am not
reading and praying...
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-When you are not focusing...
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-And I am not focusing
on Christ, I can definitely
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fall back into that tread.
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-So what was your life
like after finding Christ?
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What did you do?
What kind of work you do,
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paint me a picture of
what colours life looks like?
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-I actually had my own shop.
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I am a barber and not a
hairstylist, I don't do women's
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hair if you will.
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I could if I'm forced
to but I do men's hair.
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When I found Christ, 650 of
my clients heard about Him and
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had questions answered
and so many people say:
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'Oh no no no no no... don't talk
about that in your business!'
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Well ya, if you hand people
laws and regulations, they will
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slam that door shut but when you
hand them what God is made of
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and that's pure love, the
door is open all the time.
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I haven't met a person yet who
hasn't been receptive to love.
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-So you came from a position of
seeking to a position of really
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telling the word
yourself, telling to everyone.
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-I say the most important
element for the success of
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any business is word of mouth
and this is the most important
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business on the
face of this world.
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-Praise the
Lord, praise the Lord!
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-Ya, so ya, absolutely!
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-Did you ever remarry?
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-I did! I did!
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-A christian man?
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-A christian man and he
is actually an elder and
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Sabbath School
superintendent and...
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-Was that marriage a happy one?
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-It lasted 6 months.
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-6 months!
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Well you developed a walk with
God and did into a new marriage.
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It lasted 6 months.
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Do you feel it as women will
become single that you lack some
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of the tools, hard to
make choices or what is it?
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-I took God and put Him into
the same way that I was before.
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I didn't trust. I
trusted men if you will.
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He told me he was a christian
and he exposed so eloquently
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about the Bible and I
was completely, I let my
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my guard down and so I...
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-Have you sensed that
you listened to the word and
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listen to what was said, I
am a christian and I love Christ
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and you didn't look beyond that.
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-Ya! And for a period of
time he was able to exude those
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qualities that and just I
fell in love with somebody who
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loved Christ.
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It is what let my guard down.
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-What happened
in the relationship?
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-I mean what was it like?
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-When you love Christ you have
the characteristics of Christ.
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-Exactly!
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-And there was
alot of anger there...
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And it was very very difficult
for me to look at my mistake
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which my mistake is
again looking for love in
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the wrong places.
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And this time I was relying
on men to give me what it was
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that I was
already getting from God.
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And it's loud and clear right
now and the Lord is gracious for
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pointing out that
flaw that I have in me.
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-Was the marriage,
is the marriage abusive?
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-I am actually
disabled right now because of an
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incident that happened...
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-Disabled how?
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-I have...
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-What happened?
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-I had such a severe
shaking that I have chronic pain
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and it is very, it's kept
me from being able to work
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right now and...
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-So are you saying that
that relationship that you
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developed with a man who
was being said godly, was a
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physically abusive one if
you are disabled because of
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this obviously is something
there that was not good,
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that was not right...
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-Right!
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-Was that the only time?
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-After two months of marriage
I was pushed one time but
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thereafter it was just one
other time and didn't really
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have any means to leave right
away and I really prayed about
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it and I was able to
get out of the situation.
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-So now that you are disabled,
you cannot do the kind of work
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that you did because
of your injury to what
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part of your body?
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-It's actually this entire
quarter section of my body.
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-Where is the Lord leading you?
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-Ah! He has opened
doors you would not believe.
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I mean He is
amazing and I don't...
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People are saying
you know wait a minute!
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If that is what a christian has
to go throught, I'm gonna tell
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you brothers and
sisters out there,
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there is a God out there
that will take care of you,
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no matter what you are
going through and no matter what
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you are dealing
with, you can lean on Him
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and He will provide!
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Will it be love, compassion,
financial, food, the basic
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things He will take
care of you no matter what!
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And because I am in a
situation that I am now,
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people say 'wow, I don't wanna
be a christian if I am gonna go
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throught that'!
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No, you have to understand
I was really screwed up before
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this and I'm just getting
straight where the insides are
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healing mentally, emotionally,
the things that I do wrong
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are brought to the front
and so I am having healing.
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-God is helping you,
have you had any counselling,
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you know any of that?
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-I haven't had any counselling
if you will by anybody else but
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definitely people have helped me
in ministering to me with prayer
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and I have had so many wonderful
people step up to the play and
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really helped me
and it's been amazing...
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-A blessing!
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-Ya!
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-What we are talking
about your journey is a real God
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doing extraordinary
things in our ordinary life.
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Have you seen...?
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Tell me for example one
recent incident that really
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let you know, He is letting
you know I am here Carla,
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I'm here!
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-I met a fellow who actually for
the first time is His life was
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reading the Bible and he
was finding out Sabbath thruths
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and things like that and he
was just reading a book from
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pastor Mark Finley and so I
was so excited to tell him that
00:25:37.62\00:25:40.94
pastor Mark Finley
actually baptised me and he just
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knew that God's hand was in it.
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-And he was, how
did you meet him?
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He was one of your clients?
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-Ya...
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-Did you offer to give...
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-I offered to give him a haircut
and I was in the middle of
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cutting his hair before I even
realised he was a christian.
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A new christian!
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-Just searching for the Lord!
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Just beginning to
search for the love you found!
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-Yes!
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-Praise the Lord!
Carla, you found it!
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What an absolute
delight you have been!
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Thank God for you!
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God promises us that when
we seek Him, we would find Him.
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If we search for
Him with all our hearts.
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And even Carla sought to
find love throught all kinds of
00:26:16.33\00:26:20.27
relationships and then
they turned out to be abusive,
00:26:20.31\00:26:24.24
they turned out to be
not what her heart needed.
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She found the fullness of
joy when she found Christ.
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And even though life still isn't
perfect, and even though she
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still in a journey,
she bubbles with life.
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Because God promises us a
sufficiency, He promises us
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His companionship, His
forgiveness and he promises us
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a kind of love that
we can never ever earn.
00:26:47.18\00:26:50.73
We will find Him
when we seek Him.
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That promise is rock
solid, it is true and as Carla's
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particular text says:
even if a father cannot
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meet your need, or a
mother cannot meet your need,
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Jesus actually can
supply all your needs.
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Praise Him!
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Faith Factor
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It's always difficult when
your heart is hungry and when
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you feel unloved and unlovable.
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To try to connect with a
God that you can not see,
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someone who seems so
impersonal and so far away.
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But the Bible is full
of ensurances that His love
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never fades and He is
there for you all the time.
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Psalms 145, verses 18 and 19.
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Here is what it says...
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'The Lord is near to all
who call upon Him, to all who
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call upon him in truth.
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He will fulfil the
desire of those who fear him;
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he will hear
their cry and save them.
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The Lord
preserves all who love Him.'
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He hears us even when
all cries are for love.
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And He answers those
cries with His own love!
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