For the planned session
this afternoon we are going to
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be blessed with a testimony
from a lady named Deniza
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Hush, and you can read all
about her qualifications and
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background in
the program booklet.
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She is a good friend of mine.
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She has a very interesting
background of how she came
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to know the Lord and her
whole conversion experience.
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I encourage you to
listen and you will be blessed.
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Prior to the message there
were be special music by the
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Ketts family and they will
be playing a piece entitled
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"My Peace", may you be blessed.
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Audience: Amen!
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Good afternoon!
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And it is so nice
to see you all here.
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It is such a privilege
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to be a part of GYC.
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I had to fly all over,
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from England to the United
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States and it was a very
long and turbulent journey.
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As we fly, we experienced,
at least for the first time
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in my life, some very,
very shocking turbulence winds.
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As I was sitting next to
my husband, I'm not a panicky
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person, you will learn
more about me in a minute.
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I'm not a panicky person
at all, but as I was sitting
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thinking about the
height, the altitude at which we
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were flying, and feeling
the shaking of the airplane,
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I started being
very, very claustrophobic.
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The panic was taking me
over, I said Lord, I don't know
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how this flight is going
to end up, but if you want me
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to speak to people that
GYC You will have to get me
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there safely.
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Also I said Lord if you
want me to talk about the
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miracles that You
have performed in my life,
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I need a miracle today.
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The Lord is so good,
Jesus is so gracious and the
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turbulent winds stop suddenly
and we could fly safely.
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I was calm and happy.
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So thank you Jesus,
for that experience.
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Now it was a
March morning in 1995.
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I was preparing for a
youth Congress much smaller than
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this one here.
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I was just a newly baptized
Seventh-day Adventist person
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and I got up very early.
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It was maybe seven
o'clock in the morning and I
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already went through
my Sabbath school lesson.
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I sung a few hymns
very quietly in my bedroom.
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Just thinking about the
time, to be on time for the
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train and meeting with
some friends that were traveling
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together to a
little town in Croatia.
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That day I was
supposed to give a testimony.
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A testimony about how
God worked in my life.
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How God converted a
Muslim youth that was struggling
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with atheism,
mysticism, new age, occultism,
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sounds terrible, doesn't it?
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But that was my story
and as I was getting ready,
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suddenly I heard a
little tap at the door and my
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father came in.
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As he walked in the room
he noticed that I had my Bible
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my lesson book, my
hymnbook open on the table.
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I was ready to leave but
he didn't like what he saw.
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He challenged me, he
grabbed my hymnbook and tore it
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into pieces.
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He insisted that this
was the time and this was the
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moment when I was
supposed to declare myself.
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I was supposed to declare
that I believe the Bible was
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the ultimate revelation of God.
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I was shaking with
fear, not because I was so
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frightened of my
dad's stature and strength.
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At the time I was
undefeated karate champion from
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Croatia, I was
preparing for a world champion
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competition just
as much as European.
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I was not frightened of my
fathers fists, but that day
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I decided I would
surrender my pride, my strength,
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my ability to defend myself
and declare that Jesus was
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indeed my God and my Savior.
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I knew the
gravity of the situation,
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it could cost my life.
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Trembling and crying I
made the decision I would not
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fight my dad or
defend myself in any way.
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If I perish I
perish were my thoughts.
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I have nothing to hide,
Jesus was too great to be
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ashamed of and besides
it was His job to protect me
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as His child.
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So I told my
dad what I believed.
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With a silent quiet voice I said
yes dad I believe Jesus is God.
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Suddenly with streams of curses
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he stepped backwards and I saw
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that he was just trying
to gain further leverage for
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what was about to happen.
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The next thing I saw was
his fist flying towards my
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face, I anticipated a full blow,
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but it never reached me.
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His fist flying through
the mid air just stopped,
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and as he struggled to
push further towards me,
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he couldn't move.
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Then he stepped back
and tried again and his fist
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wouldn't go any further.
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In his confusion, he
tried again to punch me,
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but the same happened again.
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He could not do it, not
because he was sorry for me,
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but because his fist was
stopped by an unseen hand.
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While this was
happening, I recalled Psalm 57:4
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promising protection
of God's angels to those
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who fear God.
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I heard a voice saying
to me, there are three lines
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of Angels standing
around you, encamping around you
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and your father
will not harm you.
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Diabolically angry my
dad started spitting at me
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but he couldn't reach me.
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And while he was
shouting the whole house got up,
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my three sisters, two
brothers, my mother came in.
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There was a big
argument in the room.
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I was just praying and
shaking, this time not in fear,
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but praying for my family.
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I was frightened that the
Lord would bring the ceiling
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down and they would
perish like those in the
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Philistines Temple with Samson.
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I had to pray for them
and the Lord was merciful.
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The last words that I
heard that day was the shouting
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of my father saying,
that I should never again come
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back home and be
part of the family.
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But how did all
this story start?
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I was born into a
Muslim family, into a liberal
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Muslim family as a second of
six children in Zagreb, Croatia.
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My parents were very hard
working parents, very loving.
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They were very sacrificial.
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I was brought up in a
socialistic country where
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religion was ridiculed,
but my father took time to
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instruct us as children
to be proud of our Islamic
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origin, and be proud of
our lifestyle and our religion.
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As a child in elementary
school I used every opportunity
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to witness to my schoolmates
and my teachers, although no
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one could understand what I was
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all about, I felt
very, very special.
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I felt I was a child of God.
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It was only later, as a
teenager, my father started
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being more strict on us.
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He didn't want us
mixing with so-called
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Christian youth, although
very few people in Croatia
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at the time
were truly Christian.
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He imposed lots of rules on us.
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What I didn't like as a
person, I didn't like rules
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without meaning, I didn't
like rules without explanation.
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So slowly in my heart I
started rebelling against my
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father's religion.
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As a teenager I
developed an intense interest in
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philosophy,
fine arts and poetry.
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I dreamt of being a fine
artist and while studying the
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history of art, I got amused
by seeing that most of the
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art actually
depicts Christianity.
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Up to 19th century, all
the European art mainly, just
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tells the story of Jesus,
the story of Christianity.
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That was the time
when I became interested in
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Christianity, not because
I wanted to be a Christian,
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but because I wanted
to be an intellectual.
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I wanted to know
more about things.
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It wasn't just art, it
was the reading that was
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unsupervised, the more I
read, the more my interest in
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some deviant subjects grew.
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The more my interest in
them grew, the more I read.
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It was like a vicious circle.
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It was an exciting cycle
for a growing teenager trying
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to make sense of the world.
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Looking back it was
definitely my rebellion against
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the tight fist of my
father's rule, his religion,
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and his occasionally
vary despotic headship
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in our home.
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My mother at the time
became, I'm talking as a
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14-year-old, I made
a martyr for myself.
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I would do anything,
whatever I desired, shamelessly
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and fearlessly and at the
time I knew very little that
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this was truly a
description of Satan.
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It made more sense to me
to live absurd life as an
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atheist devoid of any
meaning to be enslaved by a
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stupefying nonsense religion.
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As a result I chose to
immerse myself in alternative
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rock music scene and
spend many hours listening to
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music that glorified
disturbed thoughts and emotions.
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This trend continued until
my university years at which
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I was given a new ultimatum.
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My father said I had to
choose between fine arts and
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my rocketing karate career.
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I was happy to leave karate,
I really wanted to study art,
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but before I left my
karate club I met a friend
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with a very special person
who at the time an art student.
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You see when we talk
about art, maybe in America,
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or even in England, many
people can study art here.
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But in Croatia, out of
the whole country, only 12
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people would be selected
after rigorous examination
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to become an art student.
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It was something
very difficult to achieve.
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A very, very high
level of Excellency.
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I needed lots of support,
my family wasn't interested
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in supporting me
in my art career.
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So once I made friends
with this friend from the karate
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club, he offered me
art lessons in his studio.
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I was overwhelmed and we
became really good friends.
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But what was very
interesting in this friendship,
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is that this person
not only trained me in art,
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but actually started
slowly questioning all my
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atheistic views
on a daily basis.
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He wasn't very polite and
he wasn't very tolerant of
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my views, he would just
question me, and question me
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systematically and in each
discussion on spiritual things,
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he would usually win and defeat
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all my arguments.
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So after some time
studying in his studio I learned
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to be quiet.
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It wasn't just him being
so well-versed in defeating
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my views, I noticed that
in that particular art studio
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there was another teacher
who was an ex-Catholic monk.
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These people were
truly in love with Jesus.
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Every day they would talk
about how he lived with His
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disciples and
about His teachings.
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Slowly I started listening
to their conversations.
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I still wasn't interested
in any religion or spiritual
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matters, I just wanted to
be as nature says, God is dead.
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I wanted to be like in?, a
person that would be a genius
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in my own field, a
very self fulfilled person.
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Once we had a visitor,
he was a Catholic theologian
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student and I remember I
was struggling painting some
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still nature, and as I was
painting I heard this young
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man quoting something
from the New Testament.
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It was the first chapter
from the book of John about
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Jesus becoming
flesh, the word of God.
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As I was staring at
his strange beaming face,
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I wondered how an
intelligent person can believe
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in something so strange.
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As I was listening to him,
suddenly a very overwhelming
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feeling came upon me,
and for a second I surprised
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myself thinking, I would
like to have such a faith.
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I would like to be so
truly devoted to something so
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noble like God.
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God answered my prayer.
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I started reading
the New Testament,
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I still didn't
want to be a Christian.
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I wasn't interested
in Christianity to learn.
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I just wanted to
get a few references.
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While I was reading the shortest
gospel in the New Testament.
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I found more and more
information about Jesus.
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I found that He
was a strange person.
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He was extremely kind,
extremely helpful, worked
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miracles, but what puzzles
me the most is when I read
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verses about Him
dying on a cross.
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When the captain of the
Roman guard, who was standing in
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front of the cross and
saw everything happening.
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The way Jesus died,
he said with conviction,
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this man was
truly the Son of God.
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When I read these words,
suddenly something pierced
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my heart, I didn't pray,
no one was there with me to
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instruct me, but the
gift of faith, the miracle of
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faith, penetrated my mind
and I said together with the
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Roman commander, truly
this man is the Son of God.
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Secretly, without anyone
knowing in my heart I became
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a Christian, what a miracle.
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But my life didn't
change, I was still a proud,
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rebellious, unsanctified,
prone to sin and attracted to
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anything evil and
interesting person.
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It took three years for
me to come across a friend at
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my university who was a
visitor from an Adventist
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church to start thinking
deeper and talk more about the
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Christian faith.
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This friend of mine spent
many hours trying to talk to
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me about the Bible.
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It was very difficult to
talk to me because I was a
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person who was very much,
at the time, into New Age.
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I would go to different
New Age sessions because I was
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really interested
in spiritual matters.
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Anytime when I had a struggle
with, either with health,
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or any deeper issues, I
always suffered from lack of
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faith, I never had
faith to pray to God.
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I always thought that God
would never answer my prayers
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because although I
believed in Him, I believed in
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Jesus, I never
thought Jesus would actually
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answer my prayers.
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Anyway I was living with a
guy who was sort of a fiancé,
00:21:45.33\00:21:50.70
but it wasn't really that way.
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I was a professional liar.
00:21:53.96\00:21:57.20
My parents never
knew what I was doing.
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I lived a double life, I
was academically excellent
00:22:02.40\00:22:06.60
but in my heart
was very disrespectful.
00:22:06.60\00:22:11.60
I hated drugs and alcohol,
but because my boyfriend
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was doing it,
eventually I started doing it.
00:22:16.76\00:22:20.80
It was just a vicious circle.
00:22:20.80\00:22:24.86
So from time to time,
just release our conscience,
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we would together go and
attend some spiritual séances
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or enlightening seminars.
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First of all I
started meditating.
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At that time I worked
during the summer to earn some
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money, I was a student
so I started making money
00:22:47.20\00:22:50.30
as a lifeguard.
00:22:50.30\00:22:51.80
Working as a lifeguard is
sometimes a bit challenging
00:22:51.80\00:22:55.26
because the weather can
change and you are all the time
00:22:55.26\00:22:58.70
in wet clothes and as a girl
00:22:58.70\00:23:01.70
I just started getting sickly.
00:23:01.70\00:23:04.60
I was going to my doctor
and they said to me that I had
00:23:04.60\00:23:10.00
some chronic problems
and there was nothing they
00:23:10.00\00:23:13.33
could do for me.
00:23:13.33\00:23:15.80
I was quite devastated
at the time and even thought
00:23:15.80\00:23:19.40
that I might have some
life consequences, that I might
00:23:19.40\00:23:23.20
not be able to have
children and things like that.
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It was quite scary.
00:23:26.96\00:23:29.23
I remember coming from a
hospital and was quite upset.
00:23:29.23\00:23:34.00
A thought came to me,
why don't you pray about your
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problems, why
don't you talk to God?
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But I couldn't talk to
God, I thought I am to evil.
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I am just evil,
how can I pray to God?
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Suddenly I dismissed that
thought about prayer and as
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I was walking by a newspaper
shop, I was like pulled
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into that shop and
picked up this spiritualistic
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magazine "The Third Eye".
00:24:03.13\00:24:06.16
It sounds really yucky,
but I picked it and went home
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and with thinking why
did I buy, why do I need it?
00:24:09.80\00:24:13.36
I was drawn to it,
it was just incredible.
00:24:13.36\00:24:17.46
As I was flipping the
pages I came across this guy
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with the turban and
he was like a healer.
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I decided to
try it, to meditate.
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I would meditate twice a
day and once as I meditated,
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suddenly something
started happening to me.
00:24:32.46\00:24:36.76
The usual experience something
like electrical currents
00:24:36.76\00:24:41.36
flowing through my limbs.
00:24:41.36\00:24:43.20
I would see different
color rays of light coming out
00:24:43.20\00:24:46.73
of the picture
straight onto my face and body.
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Once as they stared at
this picture at friends
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apartment I fell
into a strange trance.
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I completely became possessed.
00:24:57.83\00:25:01.26
I lost my sight, I
didn't have the speech power,
00:25:01.26\00:25:05.63
I couldn't see, I
couldn't speak, I couldn't feel,
00:25:05.63\00:25:09.60
I was just translated
into another spiritual realm.
00:25:09.60\00:25:14.03
Around me there were rings
of light going up and down.
00:25:14.03\00:25:18.96
I was completely imprisoned
and in my mind that was
00:25:18.96\00:25:23.86
the only little bit
of me that was still me.
00:25:23.86\00:25:27.43
I was screaming in fear,
and while screaming in fear
00:25:27.43\00:25:31.50
how can I be
saved, relieved from this?
00:25:31.50\00:25:35.93
Suddenly a calm
thought came that wasn't mine.
00:25:35.93\00:25:40.50
Only prayer to God
can bring you back.
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Only prayer to God can
heal you from this state.
00:25:43.46\00:25:47.33
I took it seriously, I
just started praying, any
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prayer, any Arabic prayer
I ever heard from Hail Mary,
00:25:51.10\00:25:57.46
and finally I
settled on the Lord's prayer.
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It was serious, I
was not there anymore.
00:26:02.00\00:26:06.46
If I didn't pray that day
I would have ended up in a
00:26:06.46\00:26:10.40
mental hospital and who
knows maybe never recovered.
00:26:10.40\00:26:14.23
But as I prayed the
Lord's prayer, it was like a
00:26:14.23\00:26:18.03
drumming on a drum.
00:26:18.03\00:26:19.86
Every word has
such a meaning for me.
00:26:19.86\00:26:23.63
As I prayed, slowly my
condition got better and better.
00:26:23.63\00:26:32.23
My senses
returned and I recovered.
00:26:32.23\00:26:37.76
I couldn't speak
for about two hours and
00:26:37.76\00:26:40.70
I couldn't walk.
00:26:40.70\00:26:42.30
Someone would think I
learned a lesson through that
00:26:42.30\00:26:45.26
experience, but
unfortunately I haven't.
00:26:45.26\00:26:48.40
Very soon after I was persuaded
by my delightful fiancé
00:26:48.40\00:26:53.33
to go on another spiritual
experience of this kind.
00:26:53.33\00:26:58.16
Again looking for a
great spiritual enhancement.
00:26:58.16\00:27:03.06
We went to another session
where we were supposed to
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meditate, it's called
like a speech meditation.
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You sit in a team and
have a meditational partner.
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You just speak out anything
that comes to your mind.
00:27:17.03\00:27:20.90
Anything, it doesn't
matter how awful or how nice
00:27:20.90\00:27:24.76
or anything, you
just speak it out.
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After so many sessions
you just change partners,
00:27:26.90\00:27:30.16
five minutes you
speak, five minutes the
00:27:30.16\00:27:32.93
other person speaks.
00:27:32.93\00:27:34.20
After three days you
completely freak out.
00:27:34.20\00:27:37.00
Your brain goes completely numb.
00:27:37.00\00:27:39.76
You have nothing else to
think about and nothing else
00:27:39.76\00:27:43.53
to say, you
become like an empty box.
00:27:43.53\00:27:47.00
The meditational question
that we were meditating on
00:27:47.00\00:27:51.26
is Discover who you
are, experience who you are.
00:27:51.26\00:27:55.43
We were searching for
the true meaning and essence
00:27:55.43\00:27:59.56
of our own lives.
00:27:59.56\00:28:01.10
This is serious
stuff, we even paid
00:28:01.10\00:28:03.10
one hundred of dollars for it.
00:28:03.10\00:28:06.33
As we meditated the third
day, each of us, one after
00:28:06.33\00:28:12.40
another we started going
into some sort of a trance.
00:28:12.40\00:28:17.93
Suddenly, I had this
vision of myself sitting in a
00:28:17.93\00:28:22.70
Yogi position and the
tree was in the same color,
00:28:22.70\00:28:27.10
and I was the same
color, and suddenly I heard the
00:28:27.10\00:28:31.46
revelation of who I truly was.
00:28:31.46\00:28:34.20
It was implanted into my
mind, you are who you are.
00:28:34.20\00:28:38.80
You are, I am.
00:28:38.80\00:28:42.30
Wow, I am God, that is
what I heard and that is
00:28:42.30\00:28:50.03
what I experienced.
00:28:50.03\00:28:51.80
After we left that session,
although we became gods,
00:28:51.80\00:28:56.53
supposedly, my boyfriend
became a heroine addict.
00:28:56.53\00:29:00.93
Other people who had
attended this seminar ended up
00:29:00.93\00:29:05.26
in divorces and some
other strange lifestyles.
00:29:05.26\00:29:12.56
I became very deeply
disturbed and depressed.
00:29:12.56\00:29:19.76
I decided to put aside all
these spiritualistic nonsense
00:29:19.76\00:29:26.96
and I decided to read the Koran.
00:29:26.96\00:29:30.60
I wanted to find out the
truth about God, because it
00:29:30.60\00:29:34.70
didn't seem quite
true that I was God myself.
00:29:34.70\00:29:38.96
That was the time when
my friend from the Uni,
00:29:38.96\00:29:43.16
who attended a Seventh-day
Adventist church invited me
00:29:43.16\00:29:48.16
to meet a lady who became
a Christian through a series
00:29:48.16\00:29:53.13
of dreams.
00:29:53.13\00:29:55.03
At that time I knew very
little about Muslim people who
00:29:55.03\00:29:58.80
became Christians.
00:29:58.80\00:30:00.33
I didn't know that it usually
takes a miraculous healing
00:30:00.33\00:30:06.90
or dreams, a miraculous
God-given dreams for them to
00:30:06.90\00:30:12.06
change from their
beliefs, and their faith, to a
00:30:12.06\00:30:17.16
Christian faith.
00:30:17.16\00:30:18.76
I was just intrigued,
oh another person who has a
00:30:18.76\00:30:22.30
spiritual experience
was going and see and hear
00:30:22.30\00:30:25.76
the lady.
00:30:25.76\00:30:27.06
I had this lightheaded
attitude and there we went.
00:30:27.06\00:30:31.96
To my surprise, when this
lady started talking about
00:30:31.96\00:30:36.36
her life, it turned out
to be a very heartbreaking
00:30:36.36\00:30:40.70
experience, she had
a very difficult life.
00:30:40.70\00:30:43.36
In many different points,
because she is coming from
00:30:43.36\00:30:46.63
a Muslim background, with
a similar lifestyle I could
00:30:46.63\00:30:49.83
identify myself.
00:30:49.83\00:30:51.80
I was really touched,
but when she started talking
00:30:51.80\00:30:54.63
about spiritual things
and how she nearly committed
00:30:54.63\00:30:58.06
suicide, how she cried
to God, she was forced into,
00:30:58.06\00:31:01.46
how do you call those marriages?
00:31:01.46\00:31:05.76
Prearranged marriage,
yes she was to be forced into
00:31:05.76\00:31:09.60
an arranged marriage with
some Albanian guy she never
00:31:09.60\00:31:13.36
saw before.
00:31:13.36\00:31:15.00
She ran away and jumped
from a second-floor apartment
00:31:15.00\00:31:19.73
and barely survived it
and then ran away from home.
00:31:19.73\00:31:24.10
She was a student with no
means and ended up in Germany
00:31:24.10\00:31:28.43
looking for a job.
00:31:28.43\00:31:30.30
She had a really
extremely hard life.
00:31:30.30\00:31:32.70
She was sleeping on
the streets in a park.
00:31:32.70\00:31:36.20
A well educated, very nice
young woman, but destitute.
00:31:36.20\00:31:41.66
As she cried to God,
after thinking about committing
00:31:41.66\00:31:46.10
suicide, the Lord gave her
a series of dreams in which
00:31:46.10\00:31:50.60
she saw Jesus revealing
Himself to her as the way,
00:31:50.60\00:31:55.10
the truth, and the life.
00:31:55.10\00:31:56.73
Then she had another
dream where God pointed to her,
00:31:56.73\00:32:00.50
she needed to go and
find the holy Scriptures.
00:32:00.50\00:32:02.96
She did know about the
Bible and the holy Scriptures
00:32:02.96\00:32:04.90
were the same thing.
00:32:04.90\00:32:06.46
This is how us
Muslim people can sometimes
00:32:06.46\00:32:08.63
be quite duff.
00:32:08.63\00:32:11.43
Then the third thing she
also dreamt was about God saying
00:32:11.43\00:32:15.80
to her that she needs
to be baptized, she was
00:32:15.80\00:32:18.23
nearly killed in a
dream, literally suffocated.
00:32:18.23\00:32:22.50
Then she had another
dream where God revealed her
00:32:22.50\00:32:26.73
that she needs to find a
church that keeps the Sabbath
00:32:26.73\00:32:30.56
holy, and that was
really difficult thing to do.
00:32:30.56\00:32:34.26
You try going around
your city looking for a church
00:32:34.26\00:32:37.90
that keeps the Sabbath holy.
00:32:37.90\00:32:39.80
Quite a tedious task.
00:32:39.80\00:32:42.00
So after I heard all
these testimonies, I was really
00:32:42.00\00:32:49.03
shocked, then she didn't stop.
00:32:49.03\00:32:52.10
It was about
four hour encounter.
00:32:52.10\00:32:54.86
She told us about
some basic Bible doctrines.
00:32:54.86\00:32:58.36
She told about falling
into sin, about how Jesus
00:32:58.36\00:33:03.63
is the only one who can
save us, the state of dead,
00:33:03.63\00:33:08.53
I think I had about five
Bible studies that evening.
00:33:08.53\00:33:13.43
It was so overwhelming, I
didn't like the things that
00:33:13.43\00:33:18.30
she was saying, some
of them I actually hated.
00:33:18.30\00:33:21.56
I really didn't like
them, would you like to be told
00:33:21.56\00:33:25.30
that all your
family, all your faith group,
00:33:25.30\00:33:28.36
is just doomed?
00:33:28.36\00:33:30.56
You don't know your
Savior, you don't know God,
00:33:30.56\00:33:33.93
your sins are not
forgiven, would you like that?
00:33:33.93\00:33:37.66
I didn't, but nevertheless,
in my mind as she was
00:33:37.66\00:33:41.93
speaking very kindly,
very convinced, the Holy Spirit
00:33:41.93\00:33:46.16
was flashing all the time.
00:33:46.16\00:33:49.30
Everything this woman is
saying, no matter how much
00:33:49.30\00:33:51.70
you hate it, it is true.
00:33:51.70\00:33:54.43
I was convinced that she
was saying truth regardless
00:33:54.43\00:34:00.46
of how I felt about it.
00:34:00.46\00:34:03.00
We departed and she gave
us a kiss and said she would
00:34:03.00\00:34:06.43
pray for us that at least
one of those three would be
00:34:06.43\00:34:09.83
saved, that was a
really hard thing to say.
00:34:09.83\00:34:14.26
It made me cry, no
one ever prayed for me.
00:34:14.26\00:34:19.90
She said she would
pray one of us get saved.
00:34:19.90\00:34:25.46
After I left, I was so
touched, I was so perplexed,
00:34:25.46\00:34:33.23
I just wanted
to see God Himself.
00:34:33.23\00:34:36.86
I went home praying and
that day I got so sick I
00:34:36.86\00:34:40.83
couldn't breathe.
00:34:40.83\00:34:42.23
I asked my boyfriend to
find a Bible in the house and
00:34:42.23\00:34:45.83
he got a very thick one.
00:34:45.83\00:34:47.76
It wasn't a proper
Bible, but I shoved it under my
00:34:47.76\00:34:51.76
pillow and I prayed and
said, God don't let me die.
00:34:51.76\00:34:55.70
At least I want
to know who You are.
00:34:55.70\00:34:58.66
After that day, I
survived obviously.
00:34:58.66\00:35:01.60
From that day onwards,
00:35:01.60\00:35:04.40
I prayed everyday, Lord
00:35:04.40\00:35:06.96
reveal Yourself to me.
00:35:06.96\00:35:09.43
You worked a miracle for
that woman, You have to work
00:35:09.43\00:35:13.56
a miracle for me.
00:35:13.56\00:35:15.50
I can't go to my
family, I can't go to my friends
00:35:15.50\00:35:18.56
saying I believe
because someone else told me.
00:35:18.56\00:35:21.60
I need to know it
for myself from You.
00:35:21.60\00:35:25.00
I've already chose the
wrong boyfriend, I thought I
00:35:25.00\00:35:28.40
had great taste, but I
always chose the wrong one.
00:35:28.40\00:35:32.86
I came to the point to
realize that I can't really
00:35:32.86\00:35:37.30
trust my ability
to make a good choice.
00:35:37.30\00:35:40.80
I tried just choose my
spirituality, I always made the
00:35:40.80\00:35:45.56
wrong choice, so I
just put it back to God.
00:35:45.56\00:35:48.90
I sit if You really
exist, You have to make a choice
00:35:48.90\00:35:53.73
for me, and You have
to make that choice clear.
00:35:53.73\00:35:56.26
I have to know who
You are, Mohammed's,
00:35:56.26\00:35:58.90
God of Muhammad, who
denies the divinity of Jesus?
00:35:58.90\00:36:03.53
Or are You Jesus, God.
00:36:03.53\00:36:07.30
Is the Bible the
true way I should follow?
00:36:07.30\00:36:09.56
Or the Koran?
00:36:09.56\00:36:11.53
As the result of this
simple, simple prayer remember
00:36:11.53\00:36:16.90
I am still living
with the boyfriend.
00:36:16.90\00:36:18.90
I am not a very good
girl, but I am praying to God.
00:36:18.90\00:36:24.96
God answers the prayer.
00:36:24.96\00:36:27.76
One night suddenly I
had this strange dream.
00:36:27.76\00:36:32.30
In the darkness I was
just perplexed, what is life
00:36:32.30\00:36:36.83
about? Constant
meaning of what is life about?
00:36:36.83\00:36:41.33
What is my life about?
00:36:41.33\00:36:42.96
Do I have a purpose in life?
00:36:42.96\00:36:44.73
Suddenly I can see a
little speck of light and that
00:36:44.73\00:36:48.23
spec of light is
coming closer and closer.
00:36:48.23\00:36:50.56
Suddenly it becomes a
huge covering city, beautiful,
00:36:50.56\00:36:56.56
shining, Golden Fortress.
00:36:56.56\00:37:01.90
Then the Fortress opens
up and the light beam is even
00:37:01.90\00:37:06.60
brighter and somewhere
in the middle of that light,
00:37:06.60\00:37:11.23
right in front of
me is a simple pulpit.
00:37:11.23\00:37:14.53
Just like this one, simple one.
00:37:14.53\00:37:16.93
There was a book on top
of the pulpit, on top of the
00:37:16.93\00:37:22.50
stand and I hear a voice
go and read it is for your
00:37:22.50\00:37:28.06
salvation.
00:37:28.06\00:37:29.60
The voice did not order,
it did not beg, it just told
00:37:29.60\00:37:34.60
me what to do.
00:37:34.60\00:37:36.26
I came closer, and
I looked at the pages.
00:37:36.26\00:37:40.13
It wasn't Koran, it
wasn't anything else,
00:37:40.13\00:37:44.00
it was the Bible.
00:37:44.00\00:37:46.70
As I looked at its open
pages of the Bible, every
00:37:46.70\00:37:51.73
letter was shining like
gold, like precious gold
00:37:51.73\00:37:56.70
gleaming, beaming
as if it was alive.
00:37:56.70\00:37:58.93
I tried to read, it
surrounded me, I can't tell you
00:37:58.93\00:38:03.26
what book it was, I have
no idea which page it was.
00:38:03.26\00:38:07.56
As I tried to read my
eyes started to water.
00:38:07.56\00:38:11.73
I became annoyed, strangely
annoyed in the presence of
00:38:11.73\00:38:18.06
God revealing His truth,
His way, I became annoyed.
00:38:18.06\00:38:24.36
I said Jesus, why do I
have to read this book?
00:38:24.36\00:38:28.60
Can't it be just
between me and You?
00:38:28.60\00:38:31.63
I would serve You,
I can see You are God.
00:38:31.63\00:38:34.23
But no, I had to read.
00:38:34.23\00:38:37.60
As an answer to my question
the Lord gave me another
00:38:37.60\00:38:41.90
vision, suddenly I just,
because I believe that if
00:38:41.90\00:38:46.10
God just cleanses my soul from
all my sins, that will be it.
00:38:46.10\00:38:51.76
I eternally His
and that is just it.
00:38:51.76\00:38:55.46
God gave me a second vision.
00:38:55.46\00:38:58.10
The vision was who truly I was.
00:38:58.10\00:39:00.70
What I saw is
difficult to explain.
00:39:02.40\00:39:07.33
I saw a black hole
with no life, with no light,
00:39:07.33\00:39:14.96
with no feelings, I saw death.
00:39:14.96\00:39:19.83
How do you
explain eternal death?
00:39:19.83\00:39:24.90
You just scream, so I screamed.
00:39:24.90\00:39:29.86
I woke up, I screamed and
I realized that what Jesus
00:39:29.86\00:39:36.30
said, let dead people bury
their dead, you can be alive
00:39:36.30\00:39:41.20
you can love, you can go
into motions but you can be
00:39:41.20\00:39:46.06
spiritually dead,
and I was that person.
00:39:46.06\00:39:50.23
I was spiritually dead.
00:39:50.23\00:39:51.86
That was the night when I
surrendered my life to Jesus.
00:39:51.86\00:39:56.50
That was the night when I
figured out that only through
00:39:56.50\00:40:01.10
reading the
Bible, trusting His word,
00:40:01.10\00:40:05.16
that life will remain in me.
00:40:05.16\00:40:10.10
This is when my parents
slowly started finding some
00:40:13.30\00:40:22.00
changes in me.
00:40:22.00\00:40:24.83
From a very rebellious
young person I became a very
00:40:24.83\00:40:30.56
willing person because
God loved me, I became a
00:40:30.56\00:40:36.26
loving person.
00:40:36.26\00:40:38.03
Because God forgave me, I
became a forgiving person.
00:40:38.03\00:40:43.50
My parents saw the
difference and they noticed my
00:40:43.50\00:40:47.43
interest in Christianity
my reading the Bible.
00:40:47.43\00:40:51.30
It takes some time for my
father to corner me and to
00:40:51.30\00:40:57.76
challenge me on my faith.
00:40:57.76\00:41:00.26
Ever since I left
home, it has been 15 years of
00:41:05.66\00:41:11.20
separation, the words my
father said, I will never
00:41:11.20\00:41:16.70
come back to my
family house, came true.
00:41:16.70\00:41:20.63
Not exactly that day
because as a result of God's
00:41:20.63\00:41:26.13
great patience with my
parents, I kept returning home
00:41:26.13\00:41:31.56
every time they
expelled me, or kicked me out.
00:41:31.56\00:41:34.00
I kept praying for them
and claiming God's promises.
00:41:34.00\00:41:38.10
After that crucial
Sabbath morning when the angels
00:41:38.10\00:41:42.23
stopped my father fist in
the air, I managed to stay
00:41:42.23\00:41:46.36
another full year
and a half in my family.
00:41:46.36\00:41:49.96
I was really
stubbornly Christian.
00:41:49.96\00:41:56.03
They tried to bribe
me, they tried to marry me,
00:41:56.03\00:42:01.20
they tried to, I don't know.
00:42:01.20\00:42:03.76
My mom would plead, she
would speak such soft words
00:42:03.76\00:42:07.83
to try and melt me down.
00:42:07.83\00:42:10.90
She would say how can
you trust those people in the
00:42:10.90\00:42:14.90
church, I'm your mother, I
love you and gave you life.
00:42:14.90\00:42:18.86
Wouldn't you just be my
daughter and not trust them?
00:42:18.86\00:42:22.86
Despite all these sweet
words, I always cried and said
00:42:22.86\00:42:27.00
mommy I love you, I know
this is difficult for you to
00:42:27.00\00:42:31.10
understand, but I
can't dishonor God.
00:42:31.10\00:42:35.30
This is about God, it is
not about you, you are my mom
00:42:35.30\00:42:40.43
but I can't dishonor God.
00:42:40.43\00:42:42.86
So eventually my parents
gave me ultimatum to choose the
00:42:42.86\00:42:48.43
Christian faith or the
Muslim faith and as a result of
00:42:48.43\00:42:51.96
my choice, or shall I say
as a result of that choice of
00:42:51.96\00:42:56.06
my parents, I was expelled
from the family and there
00:42:56.06\00:42:59.70
has been many years of
painful separation from my
00:42:59.70\00:43:03.30
parents and my younger brothers.
00:43:03.30\00:43:05.56
But despite all the
hardship it has been an honor to
00:43:05.56\00:43:10.50
suffer persecution for
Christ in His great mercy God
00:43:10.50\00:43:15.40
has provided me with
many family members in
00:43:15.40\00:43:18.46
the Christian faith, a
hundredfold of blessings.
00:43:18.46\00:43:22.93
I will close now.
00:43:25.10\00:43:27.50
In 1997 I studied theology
at the Croatia SDA Seminary
00:43:30.46\00:43:34.96
and met many ministerial
students who came to preach
00:43:34.96\00:43:39.40
evangelistic series.
00:43:39.40\00:43:41.30
That was my
future husband, Alan.
00:43:41.30\00:43:45.16
After knowing him for
only one week, he proposed in a
00:43:45.16\00:43:50.60
very bold and strange manner.
00:43:50.60\00:43:53.03
We became friends, the
first week he ignored me.
00:43:56.13\00:43:58.63
Actually I just wanted to
be friendly and said hello.
00:43:58.63\00:44:03.13
But he never
replied, three times.
00:44:03.13\00:44:05.83
Be aware of Englishmen!
00:44:07.83\00:44:10.20
I think you Americans
are a little more friendly.
00:44:12.30\00:44:14.13
But then something
happened and I had a phone call
00:44:16.90\00:44:23.03
from my ex-fiancé who was
well on as a heroin addict.
00:44:23.03\00:44:27.86
Who is actually pleading
on the phone with me to come
00:44:27.86\00:44:32.56
and nurse him to his health
and he was pleading to leave
00:44:32.56\00:44:37.26
and come and
basically marry him.
00:44:37.26\00:44:40.66
It was really hard, I
really wanted the best for him.
00:44:44.10\00:44:49.30
And I really love that
man, but I made my decision to
00:44:49.30\00:44:54.53
move away from that relationship
because it wasn't the
00:44:54.53\00:44:59.76
relationship that God
wanted for me to be in.
00:44:59.76\00:45:03.06
There was Alan there as
the only person I could pray
00:45:03.06\00:45:07.43
with and as we prayed the
Lord that day just broke all
00:45:07.43\00:45:11.83
the chains of my emotional
slavery to my past life.
00:45:11.83\00:45:16.16
You see sometimes we
can be converted people,
00:45:16.16\00:45:19.63
but we can still be
chained with our past.
00:45:19.63\00:45:22.36
You understand
what I'm talking about?
00:45:22.36\00:45:25.03
That day the Lord just
released me from all that
00:45:25.03\00:45:29.66
emotional baggage and
five days later I was proposed
00:45:29.66\00:45:34.53
to, shockingly I thought
my husband Alan was either
00:45:34.53\00:45:40.30
terribly desperate,
imbalanced, or truly spiritual
00:45:40.30\00:45:46.06
and serious Guy.
00:45:46.06\00:45:47.30
He said we would be good
missionary team and I love
00:45:47.30\00:45:53.06
that so I said to him I
like you but for anything else
00:45:53.06\00:45:58.80
let's go on our knees and pray.
00:45:58.80\00:46:01.43
The next morning another
miracle was done and I really
00:46:01.43\00:46:06.06
felt warmth towards him.
00:46:06.06\00:46:08.63
He left three months
later, we were courting through
00:46:08.63\00:46:13.93
Internet e-mails at the time.
00:46:13.93\00:46:17.83
The Lord provided the
money for expensive telephone
00:46:17.83\00:46:20.86
calls, I was usually
cleaning the church, I was
00:46:20.86\00:46:24.40
teaching as well, so
little meager income provided
00:46:24.40\00:46:27.90
the money for
the telephone calls.
00:46:27.90\00:46:30.26
Eventually after six
months of our courtship we got
00:46:30.26\00:46:34.50
married, ever since
we have been blessed.
00:46:34.50\00:46:37.86
Why I am saying this as a
sort of a closing, you see being
00:46:37.86\00:46:43.30
persecuted for
Christ's sake is a true honor.
00:46:43.30\00:46:47.50
Not many people are, all
of us are called to serve and
00:46:47.50\00:46:51.70
to witness for Christ,
but some of us will be called.
00:46:51.70\00:46:55.83
This is a calling
to go an extra mile.
00:46:55.83\00:47:00.30
Although my parents still
do not want to have any contact
00:47:05.83\00:47:09.00
with me or their
grandchildren, my husband and I
00:47:09.00\00:47:12.86
continue to pray
trusting God's saving grace.
00:47:12.86\00:47:16.66
In my parents eyes I have
brought shame to my family,
00:47:16.66\00:47:22.03
but in the eyes of
Jesus I'm His witness and
00:47:22.03\00:47:25.63
His shiny beacon.
00:47:25.63\00:47:28.23
It is never time to give
in and dishonor God, no matter
00:47:28.23\00:47:34.90
who is begging you to do so.
00:47:34.90\00:47:37.53
Some sacrifices might
look impossible to bear, but we
00:47:37.53\00:47:43.33
should remember that it is
not our calling to calculate
00:47:43.33\00:47:48.23
the costs, all we have to
worry about is to have our
00:47:48.23\00:47:53.16
eyes fixed on the shining
face of our loving Savior,
00:47:53.16\00:47:58.10
Jesus Christ.
00:47:58.10\00:48:00.06
I am a miracle of Jesus.
00:48:00.06\00:48:03.83
It's not the
miracles that God performs,
00:48:03.83\00:48:09.76
it is the
miracles of who we are.
00:48:09.76\00:48:14.63
You are miracle of
Jesus, you are miracle of Jesus.
00:48:14.63\00:48:22.46
You are miracle Jesus.
00:48:22.46\00:48:27.43
It is not walking on the
water that makes a miracle
00:48:27.43\00:48:34.33
a miracle, it's being
faithful to God, keeping His
00:48:34.33\00:48:41.20
commandments, being
faithful in small things.
00:48:41.20\00:48:45.10
I would like to make a
very short and simple appeal
00:48:45.10\00:48:49.46
in this big crowd of people
there are some people among
00:48:49.46\00:48:53.76
you who have been
called to suffer for Christ.
00:48:53.76\00:49:00.83
In a very difficult way,
some among you who have been
00:49:00.83\00:49:06.66
persecuted and who have
experienced severe hardship.
00:49:06.66\00:49:12.40
Could you stand with me please!
Could you stand with me please?
00:49:15.30\00:49:21.96
Don't be ashamed, it's a
great thing to suffer for
00:49:33.00\00:49:37.56
our Christ Jesus.
00:49:37.56\00:49:39.46
Not all of us have to
go through terrible things,
00:49:39.46\00:49:42.53
but some of us are called.
00:49:42.53\00:49:45.10
I will pray and call for
a blessing, especially upon
00:49:53.06\00:49:56.93
you, but God will anoint
you for your ministry and
00:49:56.93\00:50:00.76
service for His namesake.
00:50:00.76\00:50:03.53
Do not be ashamed, let's pray!
00:50:03.53\00:50:08.30
Please bow your heads,
our great and merciful God.
00:50:08.30\00:50:13.33
Dear Jesus you
suffered for us so immensely and
00:50:13.33\00:50:18.30
terribly, we can never
comprehend what You left to save
00:50:18.30\00:50:24.10
us, and Lord Jesus, in
this hall we have people who are
00:50:24.10\00:50:29.63
standing because they are
persecuted for Your namesake.
00:50:29.63\00:50:35.10
Lord we are all
sinners, we make mistakes,
00:50:35.10\00:50:39.90
we make people mad,
we step on people's toes,
00:50:39.90\00:50:44.60
but these people
are persecuted because
00:50:44.60\00:50:48.36
of Your namesake.
00:50:48.36\00:50:50.10
In their families, their
workplace, the places where
00:50:50.10\00:50:53.50
they minister and are
missionaries, I pray for special
00:50:53.50\00:50:56.86
anointing of strength.
00:50:56.86\00:50:59.50
Lord anointed me too,
anoint us and we pray especially
00:51:01.56\00:51:06.46
for our families, for those
who do not understand why we are
00:51:06.46\00:51:12.83
so strange, why
we are so different.
00:51:12.83\00:51:17.00
And Lord may Your blessing
reach all the people in our
00:51:17.00\00:51:22.10
families that need to be saved.
00:51:22.10\00:51:24.30
All of our friends and
colleagues, in Your glorious
00:51:24.30\00:51:27.63
name we pray and thank you Amen!
00:51:27.63\00:51:30.66